I felt something warm around me, I smiled and relaxed and let sleep take over me once again. My eyes opened briefly, Paul had moved over so he was next to me, his arm around me resting on the top of the sofa, I almost nuzzled into him, feeling happy and content for the first time in a while.

The next time I woke up, was when I heard the door slam shut followed by a deep rumbling growl from Paul, I guessed Seth was home, Paul's heart started to beat fast, I just pulled my hand out that was tucked in towards me, my head was on his side looking over his body, like a 3 day old chick huddling to a heat lamp. I placed my hand on his chest and slowly rubbed it on his chest, I was so tired he just needed to calm down, I closed my eyes again. I took a deep breath and moved closer to him, I felt him arm come around me.

'Don't wake her up!' I heard Paul growl, I drifted off again, this time I woke up I felt cold, I looked Paul wasn't there I stretched and looked around letting my eyes adjust, I yawned. I saw Paul, he was leaning on the door frame looking outside, I stood up and walked over to him, I placed my hand on his arm, he looked down at me and gave me a soft smile.

'Good sleep?' he asked putting his arm around my shoulders, the fact that we are destined to be together is so strange though feels so right, I didn't feel anything for anyone else, I just wanted Paul to be happy.

'Yeah' I said standing by his side

'Good' he said with a sigh looking back outside

'What are you looking for?' I asked him looking out to the forest

'God knows' he said I placed my hand on his. I felt that static shock between us again. I yawned again,

'Seth text me, what happened between you and Quill?' I asked him, he looked away from me, I saw him clench his jaw, I took my hand away from his.

'Paul?' I asked him again he hadn't answered me

'Nothing don't worry about it' he said sharply

'It is something, what happened?' I asked him Seth had said that Quill was recovering and was wondering if Paul was still here with me. I reached into my pocket and got my phone out, a picture of my Mom was my home screen,

'What are you doing?' he asked moving his arm

'Asking Seth what's going on, you wont answer me' I said holding the phone up to my ear, hearing it ring once,

'Don't' he almost looked hurt, I removed the phone from my ear and hung up.

'Tell me' I asked him again, he sighed and run his hands through his hair.

'He asked for it, he knew that I would lose it' he said rubbing his neck over and over again. I just frowned in confusion.

'He kept saying how, you- you didn't want to be near me, how you were scared f me how-how-you wanted someone else' he said getting faster as well as louder, he was still rubbing his neck over and over,

'Hey, hey.' I said trying to pull his hand away from his neck, he looked down at me.

'Quill was just winding you up, you shouldn't play to it' I told him touched by how much he thought of me. I had managed to pull his hand away fro his neck.

'So you-' he started then stopped and looked away scowling

'I don't want anyone else, I'm getting to know you, and I like it, I like you. You' I emphasised to him, he still didn't look at me he was listening though I could tell by the expressions on his face.

'Quill is asking for trouble, he shouldn't have said that to you' I said placing my hand on his arm, I stood there for a while, I needed a wee. I walked away from him letting my hand fall away from his arm. I went to the toilet, I looked at my reflection once I had washed my hands. I wiped under my eyes and re-tied my hair. I unlocked the door and walked out, Paul was leaning on the kitchen counter, I went and shut the front door tightly. My phone buzzed, I looked down at it.

Lily we need Paul it was from Seth, I just walked over to him and passed him my phone, he huffed.

'Fuck sake, sorry I'll have to bale, thanks for a good afternoon' he said passing my phone back to me and holding my gaze

'Thank you for helping me' I placed the phone back in my pocket, he headed towards the front door, he glanced back at me then walked out.

I sat texting Kim on the sofa after that telling her everything. I had the T.V on in the background, I was bored, I lay on the sofa, I could still smell the smell of the forest the earth, the freshness from where Paul had been sitting, I wondered what he was up to at the moment. I went on my phone and looked up the message from my Aunt and Uncle.

Hope you are both well, I'm okay and staying with friends I read it over and over, wondering weather I should send it or not, I doubt they were worried about me, I started t delete the message, I typed it again and sent it, they were the only family I had left, I made sure it had sent and flicked through the T.V.

My phone buzzed it was Kim

Party at beach, apparently Forks high will be there

I rolled my eyes as my stomach hurt thinking back about high school, I messaged her I would be over later to get ready at hers, I wondered if Paul would be going. It was about 6 I had all my things packed Seth and everyone else was going, I walked to Kims, I knocked on her door, Beth opened it getting ready she beckoned me in, Kim was curling Emilys Hair, Beth went back to her make up as they all greeted me with shouts and waves. I dropped my bag, they were al in underwear, I was bigger than them in height and weight, they were all so toned, I didn't strip off I just had lumps where they were a lot flatter. I asked the girls who they were going with.

'I'm going with Sam' Emily said full of love for her imprint they were inseparable, he did anything for her, he turned to such a soft guy when Emily was around him, he was true to her and would do anything to protect her.

'Jarad' Kim called I found out They were imprints too, they had been going out for a while when I still lived here, they were not as intense as Emily and Sam though they were all over each other.

'No-one' Beth said putting her lipstick on

'Yeah Beth is on a man hunt' Kim laughed Beth just flipped her off.

'What abut you?' Kim asked me as she started to style Emilys hair

'Oh me no one' I felt them all still slightly Beth turned on me and sat me down and started doing my make up

'Waht about Paul?' Beth asked softly

'What about him' I said my eyes closed

'I thought you to would be going together sine he-' she started chatting

'Beth!' I heard Kim stress

'So much for confidentiality' I said to Kim smiling

'Sorry it is just so sweet and hearing that Paul can actually act human' I heard Emily agree with her, we all chatted and gossiped while getting ready, Beth had done an amazing job n my make up it was darker than I usually go for but it looked so good,

'Thank you' I hugged her

'You're welcome Paul won't be able to keep his hands off' she said with a wink, Kim pulled me over to a chair and started on my hair.

'Sorry' she said as she curled my hair

'That's okay, it is nice to have people to talk to about it all.' I smiled at her, I watched as she did my hair, she let the curled fall,

'Now get ready and the curls will fall and then we are done we all got dressed I had brought along

a short brown dress and dark red tights, and a shawl, the others had jeans, jumpers, shorts and tights, just so the were warm.

'The guys will join us after patrol' Kim read out from her phone, we all made our way down to the beach, I was nervous about seeing people from high school, though there would be a lot of people from everywhere just because it was a party. We could here the music and cheering, the beat was so loud, I could see girls falling and shouting, Guys standing watching them, girls dancing with girls and guys, people making out, some near the sea, others sitting down. This was a high school party.

We made our way down the bank there was so many people, from all over, I recognised some from high school, not all I got a few looks, but it seemed the party and drinking started a while ago, we made our way over to the tubs filled with ice and cold water, we all grabbed some drinks and found some space, the music was so good, we all danced along to the music we stayed together, one guy came over and started chatting to Kim, she just palmed him off, though Beth picked up when he made eyes at her, he was whispering in his ear, making her laugh, after a while she left the group and followed him into the crowd.

'He doesn't stand a chance' Kim laughed Emily seemed to be having a good time. 2 other guys were looking our way I remembered them from school, I looked away and carried on dancing, Barefoot blue Jean night came on it was the remix, I raised my drink in the air and danced along to the beat it was so good, Kim and Emily were dancing together, the guys approached me.

'Lily?' one slurred I just ignored them

'Burr?' the other asked me I looked at them

'Do I know you?' I asked them knowing who they were

'Yeah we went to school together, Ram said that he had seen you' they had to shout over the music

'Oh really' I just shrugged it off I was enjoying myself.

'Yeah, how long have you been back?' the other asked

'A few months' I said looking fr the girls they were getting drinks, I couldn't see Beth

'So are you here alone?' the first one said, they weren't the coolest kids at school, hough they had changed they were nothing compared with Paul, I wonder where he was.

'No I'm here with some friends' I said smiling at them, hoping they would leave soon

'So what are you doing back?' the shorter one of the two asked me

'Just wanted to see everyone, so what are you both doing now?' I asked them, the music and people loud around us

'Not too much just graduated, I'm just waiting to hear back from College, the taller one with a beard said the other agreeing with him

'Oh that sounds fantastic, excuse me' I said and went over to the girls making my way through the crowd with

'Excuse me, sorry, can I squeeze' all the way through the crowd, I was nearly there, I bumped in the Jenna, it was her party.

'Sorry' I said trying to move quickly

'Shut Up, Burley Burr is that you?' she cried out and threw her arms around me I just patted her on the back she got off of me, she was waisted, she was unsteady on her feet, she stunk of spirit her hair was a mess. The deluded look on her face, made her seem lass stable than what she was on hr feet.

'Jenna' I said with a smile on my face

'Oh my god you look so different' she said so loud people were looking and realising who I was

'You, look, this is you're party, good to see everyone still loes you' I said turng it back to her, she lapped it up acting all humble

'Yeah it is so, good of me to, like host this party' she said her friends agreeing with her boosting her ego more and more. We chatted for a while longer, Beth re-appeared a devilish smile on her face.

'Oh Dave! DAVE' Jenna called out to the guy that Beth was dragged away by, he walked up to Jenna and placed a kiss on her lips and snaked his arms around her body.

'You remember Lily?' she said my mouth hung open and looked at Beth, she knew exactly who she was making out with. I suddenly felt sorry for Jenna not knowing what was going on behind her back.

'Good to see ya' he said with a wink glancing at Beth, then placing a kiss on Jennas neck, we walked off and went back to Kim and Emily who was texting smiling like mad

'BETH!' I said wide eyed looking at her she just laughed

'What has she done?' Kim said smiling at her and shaking her head knowing what she was like

'I just made out with a guy' she shrugged off earning a light shove from Kim

'Not just some guy Jenna McCormick's boyfriend' I said shocked at what had just happened, Beth just shrugged and smiled taking some of her drink.

We were dancing amongst the others, I looked around, Emily had gone I saw Sam, he was making her way over to him, Jarad was dancing to the music with Quill, girls were gawking at them, Quill moved over to them as Jarad made a bee line to Kim, she wrapped her arms around him. I looked around for Paul, Seth was at the bar with Embry, checking out who was about, I walked over to them, making my through the crowd, I felt someone grab my ass, I turned around shocked, I looked and there stood a drunk Ram, it looked like he had been for a paddle in the sea, the bottom of his pants wet, sand sticking to him, he must be cold, though the alcohol was probably keeping him warm, once again stood there I just gave him a nasty look and flipped him off. My heart started to race, Seth walked over to meet me after seeing what Ram was up to.

Wait, Lil wait' I heard Ram call out, he was so annoying and needy, he had been going out with Jenna all the way through high school, whilst I was there, obviously something happened over the last few years.

'Fuck off creep' I spat back at him, I had, had 3 drinks already I could feel them warming me up, he snarled at me, I met Seth he put his hand on my arm I looked up at him.

'What a jerk' Seth said looking over my shoulder at him giving Ram a warning stare

'Yeah, he is a dick, He is the one that tried his luck, good job Paul came to help me' I said closing my eyes feeling warm again

'What? When was this?!' he said sounding worried I jut brushed him aside, I went to he bar I got another drink while Seth was trying to get it out of me what I was talking about. I opened my bottle and took a drink, I looked around the music started up again.

'When will Paul be here?' I asked loudly over the music

'Don't know' Quill said glancing at Seth

'Stay here, Paul said he would meet us at the bar' Seth said quickly, he turned to get me some water but I was making my way through the crowd by the time he turned back, I was moving along to the beat of the music looking for the girls, as the others were boring.

'Michael!' I called out, he was the lass joker, he was with his group, I recognised some of them

'Hey, you made it!' he called over to me holding his drink up, telling the others who I was

'Hell yeah!' I said clinking his glass against mine

'Good to see you' The others called out their hellos, raised my glass tot hem and all had a vague chat about what we were all doing with our lives.

'So do you ever see Connor around?' I asked them not seeing him around they all fell silent and he mood changed

'Mike?' I asked worried

'You weren't to know, Connor commited suiside before graduation, it was a horrible shock for all of us, we don't know why he done it.' he said with a small smile of sadness, I couldn't believe it I just stood there in shock

'My god, I'm so sorry I didn't know' I said feeling like I was drowning, the music beat pounding in my ear.

'It's okay, you didn't know' some one said from across the circle I didn't know what to do

'To Connor' I called out and raised my glass high up

'To the best joker' another one called up raising his glass

'To our friend' someone called out

'To our brother' Someone slurred I smiled

'To Partying' come one shouted out

we all went around and clinked our glasses and took a drink we went around and had a chat.

'So what are you up to?' I asked a guy called Adams, he had long floppy hair that curled and hung over his face,

'I'm going to college and going to hopefully study Law' he said nodding

'That's brilliant, I wish you the best' I said we then danced for a little bit together, I was now feeling warm and slightly dizzy all the time.

I was dancing close to Michael, he wrapped is arm around me, to hold me up more than anything, I placed my head n his shoulder

'I can't believe it, poor Connor' I said feeling a tear roll down my cheek.

'I know, he is missed loads, we got a memorial bench for him, in the park' Michael told me close to my ear.

'That's lovely' I smiled I wiped the tear away hoping my make up was still okay, I lifted my head up and threw my bottle in one of the bucket bins and placed my hand in Michaels as we bopped and twisted to the music, I laughed as I looked at the other guys, so much time had passed I was shocked at the amount that, had changed, I thought about Connor, though he did get high a lot, I couldn't believe he had gone, my heart hurt for his family, they were dealing with the unimaginable, no one knew what was going on with him, or what was running through his head. He was such a happy lad. I wiped another tear away. I moved away from Michael.

'Hey' he said reaching out for me I just smiled and brushed him off, there were so many people, I saw the girls,

'Iv'e got to go and see my friends, see you soon' I said looking at Michael and moved towards the girls

'Yeah good to see you' Michel called out

I walked over to the girls who were dancing with their guys Emily and Sam lost in each other, Kim and Jarad a little way from us and Beth dancing with someone different, she caught my eye as I stumbled over to them.

'Hey there you are' Beth called out to me as she met me

'I'm here, where's Paul?' I asked her she looked around with a slight frown on her face

'I don't know Sam said he would be here' she said while looking around, she looked at me

'You've been crying' she said, this caught the attention if Emily who came over to ma and wrapped her am around me

'I'm okay I just found out one of the guys I knew he, isn't here any more' I said sadly

'Oh hunny, I'm sorry' Emily said giving me a squeeze

'I'm okay it was just massive shock' I said giving them a smile as they wrapped my up in their arms, they let me go, Emily went back to Sam as Beth and I danced to the music Jarad keeping an eye out for Kim and on the others all the time.

'You're the best' I shouted to Beth

the night carried on I looked at my phone it was nearly 9:40 and Paul still wasn't here, I did keep looking for him. I sighed and sat down on a spare patch of sand away from the main party, where was he? I watched the others for a while, Beth was working the party, she had so much confidence. I played with my hair running it through my fingers, I checked my phone again. I saw someone big approach, the fire was behind them so I couldn't see who it was, when thy were too close I realised who it was, it was Ram, again.

'What you doing out here?' he asked checking over his shoulder

'Waiting for someone' I told him looking around again

'Who?' he asked

'Just a friend' I said softer this time I didn't know what Paul was, all I know is I wanted to be close to him. Ram sat down next to me.

'Look I'm sorry about that night in the grave yard, that was so stupid of us, we didn't mean so scare you, things just escalated because of that shit head, LaHote, he is known for fighting anyone' he said sounding more sober than what he was before

'Really? You mean it?' I asked looking at him he faced me, he looked so calm and serious

'Yeah I mean it, we are really sorry' he said I held out my hand and we shook on it, I smiled at him

'All forgotten, I hope you keep this side of you, it is better than other sides I have seen' I told him truthfully

'I hate that me too, I've got a place at college, it is in NY doing advertising' he said looking out at the others

'Wow really that's amazing, when are you going?' I said excited for him, yet his monotone voice said otherwise

'I might not go' he said running his hand over his head

'What?! Why not, this is an amazing opportunity?' I was surprised

'I won't make it out there' he said

'Bullshit, you l go out there and do it, leave this place, these people, go out there and make a name for yourself, you have an amazing opportunity you've got to do it' I told him seeing the thought on his face.

'Yeah well I have another Month before I have to leave so' he said raising his hand to some guys that were calling him over. He jumped up and held a hand out for me, he pulled me up he pulled me into him, I held him for a second then he jogged over to his friends, I smiled to myself.

I looked around for Paul, was he with other girls, at a different party? I didn't like to think like this it wasn't like me, I made my way to the bar where Seth was still standing there keeping an eye out while Quill was holding a girl close to him as she was kissing his neck, he gave me a wink as I passed him I just rolled my eyes. I walked over to Seth and pulled his arm around my shoulders.

'What was that all about' he asked taking some drink

'That was Ram apologizing he is an okay dickhead better than some other around here' I said nudging into him slightly he laughed, I reached over and got a drink and opened it, the ice was all melting so the drinks were only slightly cold.

'Why aren't you on the dance floor?' I asked him

'I've got to make sure that the drongos' he nodded over to Quill I saw the others dotted around

'Make sure they behave themselves' he said having some more drink

'That is very good of you' I said looking up at him he squeezed his arm around my neck slightly I laughed

'I hear you've been asking about Paul' he said I just huffed and threw my head back

'Seth, I don't get it, I feel like I just want to be with him all the time, I don't know if he is a friend, ir more or if he is just someone I-' I shook my head

'I know it's confusing and Paul isn't the easiest person to talk to or understand even when you've grown up with him and a pack brother' he said moving slightly to the music

'I like talking to him, he is such a kind guy, I really like him just I don't know what he wants like where is he at the moment?' I asked feeling that pain in my chest like a pulling for him.

'Well I think you're the only one that likes him and willing to give him a chance' Seth said laughing I nudged into him

'Don't be mean' I said wanting to defend Paul

'Seth, if Paul was with someone else and you knew, would you tell me?' I asked him looking at him

'Would you want to know?' he asked me

'I don't know, I don't want him to yet I can't stop him, he can do what he wants to, I am just an inconvenience' I said with a sigh

'Lily stop worrying okay, Paul is a dick but he wouldn't hurt you, with an imprint, you are devoted to them ,every bond is different like Kim and Jarads is so much more relaxed the Emily and Sams, they both love each other, some imprints are like protective bothers' he said trying to help me

'I've got you for that' I said leaning in him placing my arm on his that was around my shoulders.

I just felt him sigh, I didn't know what to do. I managed to drag Seth onto the dance floor as a song from a film we used to watch as kids came on, we danced along to it, doing a little routine we used to do when we were younger, a few people watched but not to make fun of us. The song finished, I threw my arms around him as we laughed. It was getting late, we found the others up and we all made our way back to the Rez together, we were chatting and laughing about it all the way back Quill telling us what he was up to, Kim and Sam together hand in hand, Beth gossiping with Kim about the guys, Jarad walking with us.

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