I snapped out of my daydream as I stubbed my foot on an uprooted piece of road, I looked Paul was still walking beside me. I put my phone back in my pocket.

'So last night' Paul started as I came out with at the same time as i started talking

'So will Lott-' I said and soon shut up realising how jealous it would sound.

'Huh?' he said looking at me

'Sorry you carry on' I said my hear pounding feeling the heat in my cheeks thinking of how silly it was to think something would happen between us.

'So last night, was it a good night?' he asked his hands in his pockets

'Yeah I saw a lot of people from School I haven't seen for a few years' I said nodding to myself still holding onto my bag strap

'That dick, Ram wasn't there was he?' he said quickly a low rumble when he spoke

'Yeah he was, he apologised for that night, he might be going to New York to college' I said glancing a him

'Oh right, he should be sorry he was a jerk' he said the rumble still there

'well it is all forgotten, it isn't worth hating someone forever' I said thinking of poor Connor

'You shouldn't be so good to people' he almost told me off

'Well he approached me, and it is resolved and Michael was there and' I started Paul let out another growl, I just fell silent.

'Sorry, I keep smelling fucking leeches, Jake drove Bella this way' Paul said trying to compose himself

'That's okay'

'So Michael' he said as though it left a bad taste in his mouth

'Oh that doesn't matter' I said brushing it aside we were nearly at his.

'Did you do anything else?' he asked not looking at me

'Umm no, we all just went back to the Rez, I was pretty smashed so I just went to bed' I said hoping he didn't know I went to his.

'Oh cool, Seth said you didn't sleep well' he said

'Oh no I couldn't I keep getting this pain in my chest, so I slept in his room' I said thinking nothing of it

'WHAT?' he said loudly into the quiet, he grabbed my arm tightly

'Paul' I was surprised

'I cant believe this, first you are flirting and plying with each other, now sleeping together!, I'll kill him, I'll fucking kill him, YOU, how could you, you're not with him!' he said starting to shake

'NO' I cried out

'I knew you were all keeping something away from me, he hasn't even phased with me, that fucking pup he'll pay how could YOU, YOU'RE mine' he growled possessively, it made my stomach tighten.

'Nothing happened, I was lonely, Paul nothing happened I PROMISE' I said loudly as though I needed to get though to him I reached out for him, he was raging I wasn't scared for me I was scared for Seth.

'Lonely? Why? you had been with Michael and Ram, you could have anyone' Paul said throwing his arm in the air he was shaking so much, there was so much pain in his voice it took my by surprise.

'CALM DOWN, I wanted you, I went to yours, I wanted to see you, but your visitor turned me away, you shut me out' I shouted back at him, he was breathing heavy he looked at me, I took a shaky breath

'You didn't even know I was there' I said quieter

'Lil you came to see me?' he asked moving towards me I just stayed where I was, I think he was expecting me to move away like every other time he had moved towards me.

'yes,' I sniffed

'I didn't know' he said shaking less

'Well your female companion stopped me, I didn't want to interrupt you both' I said looking away sniffing again

'Female-' he repeated thinking what I could have meant

'What, Lottie?' he said confused

'Yeah she said you were busy and had company' I said my voice smaller

'My cousin, Lil, Lottie is my cousin' his voice was soft now, I brushed the tear away I felt so totally stupid yet he didn't trust me or believe me. I looked at him, his face a small smile, almost pitty in his eyes

'She's your cousin?' I questioned him

'Yeah she came by because there was some paperwork to sort out, because my parents' he trailed off looking away,

'Oh' I said not looking away from him, I brushed another tear away

'I wouldn't be with someone else' he said looking at me shifting

'Me either, I told you that nothing happened' I told him he raised his eye brow slightly, realising how he had over reacted and hurt me.

'Why not, you could have anyone, you have women falling for you' I said if I didn't ask now I never would

'Because you' he said rubbing his hand over his face

'You're mine, you're' he was stumbling over his words trying to find them, he was rubbing the back of his neck I walked over to him, he followed my feet as I moved towards him. I looked up at him

'We are meant to be together, we can't deny it' he said when I was close to him I blinked a few times making sure that I wasn't dreaming. I looked back at him, he took my hand in his, that spark between us when we touched I smiled. He closed his hand around mine I looked up at him he licked his lips slowly, his eyes seeming to grow darker. My phone buzzed it made me jump, I didn't want to stop I sighed and moved away from him and pulled my phone out of my pocket it was Sue calling.

'Sorry' I said looking at Paul

'Hi Sue' I said down the phone, he still had a hold of my hand

'Hey Lil sorry to ring I just wanted to make sure you're okay, your Aunt and Uncle have just phoned me' she said calmly

'What? Why?' I said panicked

'They just said that they hadn't heard from you, they were worried about you, they sounded really upset'

'Sue I'll be home soon okay, sorry that they phoned you they shouldn't have done that, see yo soon' I told her

'Okay love,' she put the phone down I put my phone in my pocket feeling sick.

'What's going on?' he asked rubbing his thumb over the back of my hand

'My Aunt and Uncle, I text them, why do they have to bother me out her, why?' I huffed I felt another tear fall after Paul getting so angry now this it was too much again

'Hey' he said pulling me into his chest his hand left mine and wrapped around me, I just closed my eyes and let him shelter me from everything going one, though it was like hugging a grenade, not knowing when it was going to go off.

He let me go, I just stayed there.

'Come on, Sue will be waiting' he said wiping the tears away with his thumb

'Okay, Thanks' I smiled at him, his face so calm and soft he took my hand again and walked me back to Sues, at the porch.

'Do you want to come in?' I asked him

'No I had better not, I'm working tomorrow, drop by if you have time' he said giving my hand a squeeze, I just went to his chest I clung on to him, I felt him take a deep breath in as he wrapped his arms around me his head almost resting on mine. I felt him softly kiss the top of my head.

'See you tomorrow' he said almost as though he had to leave

'See you' I said letting him go I watched him leave and disappear in to the dark, I opened the front door, Sue stood there near the window.

'Oh Lil, you're both so sweet' she said I just smiled we sat on the sofa with a hot drink chatting away.

That night I dreamt of Paul, his wolf, the way his jaw clenched when he was angry, the way he held me, I woke up and had a shower, I braided my hair and pulled on some jeans and a jumper, I had some breakfast, I flicked through the T.V nothing was on, I washed down the kitchen work tops and polished the table and a little dusting. I made my way over to the garage.

I though back to last night, how everyone seemed to be watching us, I rounded the corner and saw the garage ahead of me I could hear the machines and radio blearing out of the building, I tucked my hands into my pockets, I glanced up and saw some other people, they must be customers, I saw Jake walked towards them giving them their keys and an envelope, he shook hands with the family and waved as they drove off, he turned and smiled when he saw me.

'What you doing around here?' he asked joking

'Well I herd you lot actually do some work, I just had to see if it was true' I said laughing at the expressing on his face I walked up t him and leaned against the wall, crossing one leg in front of the other.

'Another happy customer?' I asked nodding my head towards the direction the family had gone

'Like every other customer' he said walking back in to the building, I looked it I saw the guys at work. Paul walked out of the office studying some paper work and then consulting another piece, his face pure concentration, I smiled at how cute he looked.

'What's this?' I asked walking over to him, his head shot up meeting my eyes, they closed as his smiled filled his face,

'You made it' he said I nodded and walked so I stood beside him, looking at the paperwork

'I don't like paperwork' he grumbled I laughed softly looking at the diagrams of some sort of wiring it looked massively confusing, I just looked at it.

'So what is it?' I asked him close to him, he was taller than I was, I didn't notice the other guys looking t us, keeping an eye on Paul making sure that he didn't get angry or loose his temper.

'So this is the brain of the car' he tried to explain

'Right' I said looking at all the lines and diagrams

'So if something isn't working it means something isn't working here' he said moving the paper around as though he would then understand it.

'I am so confused' I said laughing looking away and around the room, some more customers were about to walk in, no-one had noticed or heard them, Paul walked back into the Office putting the papers back, the older woman walked up to me.

'Hello dear I have booked my car in, I can't seem to get it to stop making this noise' she said

'Oh okay, well I don't work here, but I can find someone who will be able to help you' I smiled at her I looked into the office,

'Paul' I called he looked at me he saw the lady and smiled and walked out

'Hello Mrs Cooper' he said as she smiled up at him

'How many times, call me Rita' she said laughing, waving a hand at him I smiled at this exchange between them.

'Okay, well we will have a look at it and call you when we know what we are dealing with okay?' he said to her softly

'Okay dear, thank you, I'll be waiting' she said with a cheeky look in her eye

'You're welcome, do you have your taxi?' he asked taking the keys from her small wrinkled hand

'Yes. He is waiting' she said looking then she shuffled off getting in her Taxi, Paul waved back at her as she was driven off

'Awww Paul' I cooed at him he just rolled his eyes and chucked the keys catching them and putting them in the office, it was such a mess, how did they know where anything was?

'So are we going for lunch?' he asked walking out of the office

'If you have time' I started

'Yeah it'll be fine, come on' he said washing his hands in the small grubby sink, he dried them on a towel, we walked out and tot he diner. I teased him about Rita, he was up for a laugh. Sue sat us both down, keeping an eye on us, she left us to chat. When out food came, Paul tucked in to his as though he hadn't eaten for a few days.

'So, tell me' he said

'What?' I asked him wondering if I had zoned out

'Tell me, everything' he said looking at me, I shifted and started telling him about my life

'Well it all started when I used to live here', Paul pushed his empty plate away from him and leaned on the table looking at me, I lay my arms over my chest and leant again the table, not many people were in, Sue knew everything I glanced over at her, she gave me a sweetly sad smile.

'So Seth and I used to hang out loads, then one day my Mom had a crash and never came back, she waved me off for school, made my lunch' I laughed through my nose remembering

'I didn't throw away the lunch bag for nearly a year, the last thing she gave t me, I couldn't loose it' I looked up he was still looking softly at me, he put his arm out and took my hand in his, I sniffed and carried on.

Bella sat in her room quietly, hoping that her mind would quiet down soon, it had been spinning since Emilys party, not drunk, just confused. There was a knock on her window, she jumped she saw Edward there, waiting to come in, bringing the harsh cold with him, since he had left Bella without warning, just deserted her after being so distant for weeks, shutting her out, pushing her away, Bella had not felt the same excitement, the butterflies when she thought of him, seeing nothing but her Edward. Jacob had been there for her, he always had been, though what if he imprinted on someone else, would she be out of the picture all alone, could Bella stand to see her Jake all over and caring for someone else? Bella shook the feeling away, Edward climbed in through the window, now seeming like an intruder rather than a welcomed visitor.

'What's wrong my love?' Edward cooed with concern, whizzing over to her side, sitting next to her looking at the beauty he adored her for, the innocence in her eyes, the way that Bella was like none he had come across before, the shield protecting her from his mind reading no longer bothered him, he knew that she loved him, Alice had predicted it too many time that Edward did not have and doubt.

'Nothing, I just feel strange' she said putting her arms around her self, Jake always kept her warm, like a blanket of safety, Bella smiled to herself thinking of how much she loved to be warm.

'You're not still upset about me leaving are you? I had to darling, I was summoned I had t leave then and there!' Edward explained to her for the 50th time since he had been back, he had hadn't been back for very long and already Bella was getting tired of the same old shit with the Cullens, It used to be exciting, dangerous. Perhaps that was when she was in high school, was she blind with love?

'No I'm not upset at all' Bella replied looking straight ahead of her.

'Then what is it, what is on your mind' Edward asked placing his cold hand on Bellas Knee as though an ice block had been placed on her knee, Bella almost flinched away,

'Sorry, it is just you are so cold' Bella gave a small shy smile, pulling her sleeves down over her hands

'Oh, well it has never bothered you before' Edward said agitated, which was something else Bella had picked up on lately. There was always an issue with Edward, nothing was easy going like with Jacob.

'I know, maybe I'm coming down with something' Bella shrugged hoping that Edward wasn't cottoning on

'perhaps you are, I can get you something, to eat or drink, a blanket, would you like the window open? Or just sleep?' he said standing up

'No,' Bella took a deep breath

'I think I will just go to sleep, perhaps I just need to rest' Bella said moving to the top of her bed and tucked her legs under the covers, moving them around to hopefully warm the covers up.

'Do you want me to stay? Keep you company? I have missed you so much, you are all I can think of, here all alone defenceless with that Mutt and those animals' Edward referred to Jake and the pack, he looked away from Bella as though he couldn't look at Bella because she had been with them, Edward was aware that his beloved had been pending more time with Jake and the pack, the other week when we met Bella in the pub there was a Wolf lover in there, he could smell wet dog as soon as he walked in, she was nice enough and Bella was happy with Lily. Once Edward sat down he focused on her mind, it was noise, messy as though Lily herself couldn't think let alone have her mind read, a lot of hurt and confusion is what Edward was aware of most. He wasn't aware which wolf it was she was devoted to though Bella must have met her though the pack as Bella had never mentioned Lily before. Edward looked at Bella as she snuggled down in the covers getting warm, something which he knew he couldn't give her, Edward moved so he was on top of the covers close to her.

'Why did you leave me? You just left me' Bella said keeping here eyes closed

' Because I love you' he said softly as he turned the bed side light out so just the string of fairy light was lighting the room dimly.

'That's not good enough' Bella said flatly

'You'll see and understand soon, I never should have left you alone near those wild animals, but you won't have to fear anything soon' Edward said running his cold finger though Bellas soft dark brown hair

'I'm sorry, love please don't be mad, you'll forgive me when you see' His creepy tone gave her goose bumps

'I'm sorry too' Bella said as she yawned ready to sleep and let her dreams carry her away. Bella rolled over facing the other way, hoping to see Jake by the window ready to take her away, thank goodness Edward was unaware that She was ready to end everything, she hadn't told the Cullens as Edward would find out as they were thinking about it.