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Review responses:
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Guest: "SasuSaku is mutual unlike KakaSaku which doesn't even exist."
You know this is a fanfiction, right? Everything is possible here and in my opinion KakaSaku would make a better match, as I described above. I disagree with you seeing SasuSaku as a mutual love, I perceived it speaking for her as a one-sided relationship, and as a practical conjunction for him to rebuild his clan.
But if you don't like it, just switch to another story of your taste.
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Pajku: "Wow! I just read from 0 to ch7. I like it very munch and hope you keep your promise regarding the length of your fiction!"
Thank you I've finally plotted every chapter out and worked out some important scenes. Currently I'm writing chapter 10 and 11. At the moment the full story contains 44 chapters.
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Guest: "Loving the small moments, but some more space between larger passages would make it easier to read. I can't wait to see this develop mire."
Thanks, I'll keep it in mind.
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Frendix: "HeY! I like the start, please continue writing. I hate to wait for more content! I'm curious to see how she will be trained."
I'll do my best.
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Descerquat: "I like your setting. It's well written for a non native speaker. I hope you don't spare any details of her future training!"
Thank you, I appreciate that. Hopefully you'll like her next classes.
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Last but not least:
the anonymous hardcore SasuSaku shipper who called me a delulu virgin and repeatedly told me to kill myself:
(Canon Spolers!)
1. A woman deserves more than to bear someone else's child and being left all alone with the burden to raise the girl all by herself, while its father travels around under lame excuses and breaking her heart.
How do you think it would feel to look every day in the face of a child, that you carried for 9months under your heart, and see the one you (once) loved mixed up with another woman in there, 'cause you weren't even genetically worth enough to breed with the guy, who tried to kill you on more than one occasion?
Could you look at yourself in the mirror and still say your immature crush was totally worth all the pain and sorrow?
How much more could you take?
Have you ever experienced a one-sided relationship craving for love?
Have you felt the pain of being left by the same person over and over again?
Has another person made you feel useless and unworthy?
Probably not, otherwise you'd have changed the ship long ago.
2. Excuse me? Me, a delulu? Who goes out on a SasuSaku rampage, telling me to kill myself? Calm down, think clear, grow up and show some respect! I'm just writing down my ideas in a story. Nothing's trapping you here, go and read another fic of your taste. Problem solved.
3. Actually I tried to some years ago, but I'm still here and will be, so deal with it. I had to do too.
You should know that such sentences could really lead a very depressed and self-loathing person into self-harm or even suicide. Would you like to bear the blame for someone's death? Better think twice before you'll do that again.
4. And about the virgin part: You have no idea, but it kind of feels nice to be called a virgin again after almost one and a half decades. Thanks for the good laugh! :D Have a nice day!
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9. Hardskills: week one – the theory of sex 1&2
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Sakura spent the next three days working in the hospital.
There had been an accident on the training grounds, where a young Genin had gotten fatally wounded. A kunai had punctured his aorta and there was nothing she could do for him. As his Sensei had brought him to hospital and put the boy into Sakura's arms, he had taken his last breath.
She couldn't forget his face, so full of pain and fear.
She had held him in her arms and ran with fullspeed to the next surgery, he had been so tense and shaking violently. Suddenly his hand had clung to her lab coat as his eyes had fallen open directly looking at her, silently crying for help. She had stopped in her tracks. Then she had felt his body slacken, from one moment to another all the tension had been gone. Albeit his incredible bronze coloured eyes had been still fixed on hers, he hadn't seemed to be looking at her anymore, his tears had ended falling, his shaking had stopped.
She had been looking into his dead eyes. He was gone.
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In the night of her last shift she couldn't sleep, she couldn't forget the boy dying in her arms.
Sakura sat on her balcony, gazing into the distance, the glass of Merlot in front of her long forgotten. The pink-haired Kunoichi was contemplating about her life. She enjoyed the cool breeze sweeping over her body.
It was one of this nights when she felt incredibly lonesome.
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"Death is an ever present element in the life of a shinobi, but you must have been alive before you could die", someone wise told her in the past.
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Nobody would miss her, if she would die tomorrow, right? She was just a millstone around team seven's neck, especially on Kakashi's lately. She felt useless and unnecessary.
Maybe this mission will change everything. Maybe I'll find my purpose in Suna. With Gaara, the Kazekage.
That made her chuckle, "Yeah the Kazekage, of all people".
She stood up from her bench, took the glass and downed the rest of her red-wine. Shaking her head she went inside and called it a night.
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On the other side of Konoha Kakashi sat on top of Hokage mountain.
He had come back from a three day work-out and had wanted to ask her about a sparring tomorrow, when he had witnessed Aoba running from the training grounds with a seriously wounded bleeding boy in his arms.
Sooner or later death will get everyone sometime.
In ANBU they say:
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Death is an essential part of life.
There is no life without death, but you must have been alive before you could die.
Live everyday like it is your last.
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He stood up and went home over the rooftops.
Then he saw her sitting there on her bench on the balcony. Every once in a while she sipped on her glass of wine and then she chuckled and went inside. Something was bothering her.
Maybe she was the one threatening Aoba's genin, he thought.
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On the next morning the copy-nin picked her up at her apartment and they went for a spar. Unusual for the last weeks and her found again self she was quite uncommunicative and appeared to be lost in thought.
As they stopped their wordless walk on training ground three, he decided to talk with her first.
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"Sakura, is everything alright? Are you ok?"
"Erhm, yes." Does the great, infamous copy-ninja really have to sense everything?
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"Are you sure?" he pressed and looked completely serious.
"You better believe it! Could we please just start our sparring match?" she put on a fake smile, but he didn't miss the fact she avoided to look into his eyes.
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He nodded, discarded his flak jacket and went into a fight stance.
"As long as she doesn't return to crawl into her shell, it's fine by me", he thought.
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The theory of Sex 1:
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As agreed they met in her apartment the following day. For the next three days they would focus on the theory of sex.
He told her about the different meanings of sex to show her, how she could use her body to her advantage.
"The power of sex is a subtle form to gain power over another person and to earn someone's trust. Now look at the list, Sakura. There you can see some potential reasons for sex. This list should give you an impression of the meanings of sex. Read it and please tag what you've experienced yourself." He gave her a printed sheet of paper and a pen.
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Appeasement _X_
Bonding _X_
Businesswise Compensation _X_
Convincing _X_
Demonstrating dominance – to subject someone _
Drunk and horny _X_
Friendship with benefits _X_
Love _X_
Make-up sex _X_
Mercenary _
One night stands _
Pleasure _
Procreation _
Showing submission – to empower another person _X_
Stress relief _X_
To clear the mind _X_
To gain experience _X_
Two lovers fusing together _
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The pink haired kunoichi did as she was told and handed him the paper back without any expression.
I see. Actually I see dead people. Sasuke and Naruto, damn those idiots! I thought I taught them better. Time to lighten up her mood a bit, he mused and put out the box of fresh fruit he bought earlier.
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"We need to focus on our bodies. Eating healthy and nutrient-rich is the foundation of a ninja's body. So why don't we vitalize our bodies and souls with this fine selection of fruit?"
It was the first time that he saw her smile again. It was so easy and natural for him to make her happy. She was so responsive. It saddened him that she would leave Konoha, probably forever.
Now is not the time for such thoughts. Get your shit together, he pondered and gave her an eye-crinkle.
They enjoyed their happy snack and fixed a new session for the next day.
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After the amazingly tasty fruit Kakashi wanted to discuss the act of sex next.
"It's not "in and out just for the heck" of it, you know it's not that simple."
"Sensei, you know I had sex before, right?"
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"I thought so. But a seduction mission is something else entirely. Did you know how much depends on the right setting or the moment? So if you say you're experienced, let's be open about this. Tell me, what was the best situation you had sex before?"
"Are you kidding me? NO!"
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"Sakura, I need to know where to start from. I need to know what you experienced before. I'm here to help you to get through this mission."
"This is so embarrassing."
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"Indeed. I tell you what, if it helps you to loosen up, I will talk about my experiences in return. Deal?"
She was stunned. The great, infamous copy-nin would talk to her about his mysterious sex life.
"Okay. Promise you won't lie and you'll never talk to anybody about it!"
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"Of course I will not. Now could you please tell me a little bit about your experiences?"
"Okay. You first! What was your best situation to have sex?"
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"I was on an escort mission with a beautiful young lady. On our way we came to a lake with the bluest water I've ever seen. It was the first time that I noticed how blue her eyes were. They matched the lake. Anyways she convinced me to join her for a cooling dip. We took off the majority of our clothes and went into the lake. The colder the water got, the hotter our bodies became. We both had our fun there, I escorted her to her village and I've never seen her again."
"Why was it the best situation?"
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"The day was perfect, there was no danger, she was wonderful, the lake was scenic beauty per definition and everything appealed harmonious. This one experience was worthier than a full week off to holiday. You see, setting and the circumstances are very important."
"I think so. There was this one time I had sex on my balcony. It was a wonderful, sunny day. We had some ice cream, I dropped a bit on my bikini and one led to another."
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"Was that the best situation you had sex with?", he chuckled loudly and so did she.
"No, but it was funny! I like to remember that time. It was one of the last times I had sex."
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"I see." "Naruto, you idiot!", he laughed inwardly.
"Now, Sensei, what was your funniest sexpierence?"
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"Good question. Hm, maybe on this one week mission I had in another country when I was younger. My womanizer comrade decided we had to go to that one infamous club to investigate. There were these two women who knew our target very well. We took the chance to get to know them better and went to one of the rooms upstairs. My comrade drank a little too much and so it was only me and the two women left. The whole night they tried to get my mask off. As we were sitting in the whirlpool, the two girls started to kiss. At some point they integrated me into their play. I am only a man after all, so we three went to the huge bed, while my comrade slept on the couch peacefully snoring like a wood chopper. We agreed to never speak about how he'd missed such an opportunity. He'd probably kill me right now."
Sakura started to laugh loudly, before she blurted out "Genma?"
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"Was it that obvious?", he chuckled.
"No, but I've heard him telling the same story in a bar some time ago, but with you sleeping on the couch instead", she spoke with a broad smile and shining eyes.
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"Trust me, it was the other way around!" He was serious, although chuckling.
"No doubts. Did they do it?" Now she was curious.
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"Did what?" Kakashi prepared inwardly for the worst.
"The women, did they get your mask off?" Sakura looked like a dachshund with big puppy eyes begging for food.
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"What do you think?", he cocked his head to one side and winked at her.
As a response she shook her head and chuckled. Impossible. He's a living mystery.
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"So what about the best sexual experience you've ever had?""
"I don't know. Maybe the first time I slept with this one guy. We were lying in my bed, slowly making-out, enjoying the night after spending a lazy day-off together. He told me that he loved me as our bodies joined together. He told me he would never leave me. He told me he would do everything for me. He was so kind and caring. I trusted him and felt comfortable in his near. I felt kind of alive. We had a great time together." She ended her sentence with a sad smile.
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"May I ask you what happened?"
"I needed some time to unfold. In the meantime he found another girl."
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Remember to kill Naruto for that! Kakashi bit his tongue and gave her a reassuring eye-crinkle.
Before he could say he felt sorry for her or something like that, she shrugged and shook it off.
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"Some things are not meant to be. Nevermind. So tell me sensei, what was your best sex?"
He was stunned how quickly she was able to compose herself.
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"I won't tell you that. At least not now, maybe I'll tell you when the time has come to confront you with darker desires. Don't look at me like that! I know you wouldn't understand right now. You'd be confused. I promise I'll tell you." Kakashi underlined his promise with an eye-crinkle.
Sakura nodded, she knew he'd told her the truth.
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The Theory of Sex 2:
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In the morning they met in her apartment again and drank some tea together. For the second part of the class she had to study some literature. Kakashi gave her a book about sex practises and sex positions.
"I'll stay here, don't shy at asking me arising questions, ok?"
He was lying on the couch reading icha icha, while she was sitting in her armchair reading her textbook. Sakura was very quiet, she didn't dare to prompt a single question. The situation felt strange for her, but his presence reading his book in silence was so familiar that she felt reassured and calmed down soon.
The next day they would approach how to deal with a target's arousal and she would become acquainted with some new sex toys for the next classes.
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As they said goodbye she stood up from her chair with her spine loudly popping and her back hurt.
"And you thought you were getting old, sensei!"
They had to laugh simultaneously. With a wink he suggested her to work on her flexibility too.