Adrien could only hope for the best as he stared at his lady's face. He had decided to tell her, on account of him not wanting any secrets between them if they ever had a relationship.
He began to sweat as the color on Marinette's face started to fade away and her hands had turned cold and clammy.
She looked at him, mouth wide and eyes wide in shock, suddenly tears started to fall from her eye's and she looked down, Chat could feel her tears falling on his hands threw the suit.
He moved to hug her but she pushed him away. Marinette furiously wiped her eyes and glared at him. She moved to jump off of her bed but Chat Noir grabbed her from behind, holding her close to him.
"Let go! Let go of me! I told you I didn't want either of us know! I didn't want you to know who I was! I didn't want you to know the real me…"
Marinette thrashed and struggled against him but he was just a little bit stronger than her. Something that made her even angrier and she pulled and kicked and bit, trying to get him to let go.
What have I done? She…she hate's me now…But I have to let her know that I love her anyway, I love her more than ever now that I know who she really is. I love you Marinette; please…don't hate me…
Adrien took every hit she threw at him, he held on tighter as she frantically tried to free herself from his grasp. But he wouldn't let go, not until she heard what he had to say.
Marinette started to grow tired and slowly, her punches and kicks were getting softer and softer until she finally gave up and leaned into him. She put her hands to her face and cried. Chat hugged her harder and she turned around, resting her head on his chest as she continued to cry.
"Shhh, it's ok, it's ok. I'm here… I always will be…"
Chat rubbed her back and whispered into her ear as she muffled out a reply.
"It's not ok! Look at me chat! I'm nothing like what you think, I'm not courageous, I'm not heroic, I'm not confident…I'm nothing. I'm just plain, boring, clumsy Marinette. I'm good for nothing. And now you know that! Now you know that…"
Adrien looked at the girl of his dream's, she was hugging him now, slightly hiccupping as she let out each sad and cruel word out. Before he had a chance to let her know that she wasn't anything like that at all and that he loved her anyway she continued.
"I'm so tired Chat Noir. I'm tired of having to pretend I'm some amazing superhero, someone who has everything under control, always. People look up to me, do you even know how disappointed they'd be if they found out that their optimistic, confident, perfect ladybug was a sniveling coward who can't even form a complete sentence around her crush? Do you know what it feels like, to have all that pressure, to have to live up to everyone's expectations, always having the fear of disappointing them? I-I can't deal with this anymore…And now you know who I am…Now you know everything. Now you know how truly worthless I am…"
The way Marinette said perfect reminded Adrien of how he felt, having to be the perfect student, son and model…And with each word Marinette said, Adrien felt little shards of glass pierce his heart.
How could she have felt this way this whole time and I never notice it? And I said I was in love with her…I don't know anything about her…I'm such a joke…
Marinette let go of chat noir and put her head in between her shoulders. She let out a raspy sigh and looked up at Chat Noir. He stared at her, eyes red and puffy from crying and the sad, tired look she had on her face. That face didn't belong to someone of her age, the happy, cheerful Marinette was nowhere to be found. She glared at him as she stood up.
" I am not Ladybug. And I am tired of pretending to be something I'm not, something I will never be. I'm sorry Chat Noir. I didn't want you to find out like this…You don't have to stay with me you know. You can leave, I won't judge you, who would want a stupid, clumsy, good for nothing girl? I know I wouldn't. Haha…I don't need your-
"Need my what, my sympathy, my pity? I think you need to understand something Marinette. You're not perfect. No one is. So get that out of your brain. You don't need to be perfect. Trust me when I say, that I understand perfectly what you are going through. And that time, you saved me. You might think you did nothing special, but you did, you did something special by just being you, both sides of you. And I'll let you know, I have zero intention of leaving, and I'm positive I never will. Ladybug, Marinette, whichever, I love you. Marinette, I love you."
Marinette stared at him for a long time before tears started falling down her face. Chat pulled her into his lap once more and she squeezed him, as if he would disappear. He hugged her and kissed her head.
"I would choose Marinette over Ladybug any day. But now I don't have to, because you're both. I fell in love with both sides of you Marinette; I fell in love with you twice. And I'm never leaving your side, ever. You're not boring, plain and you're definitely not good for nothing. You're an amazing cook, a caring friend and a great leader. Nobody would be able to live a peaceful life in Paris without you, everyone needs you in their life. Especially me, I need you Marinette. Don't ever leave my side."
Marinette just cried. She cried until she fell asleep. Adrien decided to lay next her until she woke up. She was sleeping soundly next to him as he heard his transformation weared off, but he decided to stay next to her even without his suit.
"Well kid, what are you going to do now? Are ya gonna tell her who you really are?"
Adrien stared at the girl laying next to him, she had fallen sleep without changing her clothes and was now clinging to him, he could feel her breath and heart beat on his arm.
He sighed and looked at his kwami.
"I-I don't know Plagg. I want to, I really do, but I don't think she's ready for that…I'm slightly scared that she'll start treating me differently. I don't know what I should do…"
Adrien moved but Marinette's grasp on him was too tight. He chuckled and decided to get comfortable next to her, before resting his hand on her back he gave Plagg some cheese.
"Cheese! Thanks kid. But really, I think you'll be just fine, she likes you doesn't she? It's your decision to when tell her, if you ever do. I'm glad that you've found what you've been looking for."
And with that he flew down to Marinette's desk and began eating his cheese.
Adrien turned his back to him and cuddled Marinette. Before falling asleep he planted a small, sweet kiss on her lips.
"There'll be more where that came from. Just…you…wait…"
Adrien fell asleep, legs intertwined with Marinette, a hand on her back and the other around her shoulder.
Unknown to him, Marinette had awoken just as he had finished talking with Plagg. All she had heard was "I'm glad you found what you were looking for." And she blushed at his statement. It was too dark for her to see anything and before she knew it Chat Noir had planted a kiss to her lips, promising her that there would be more where that came from before falling asleep.
Needless to say she almost died. She blushed and was suddenly too aware how close they were and tried to put some space between them, but when she managed to do so (only by a little) she noticed an absence of warmth and security.
Looks like I need you as much as you need me huh? Maybe even more…
She wiggled back in place and put her head on his chest. She noted he had a t-shit on and familiar, expensive smelling perfume.
Where do I recognize this smell from...? Oh who care's, I love it and that's all that matters
She relaxed, knowing that someone needed her, that someone actually loved her.
But, do I love Chat Noir…? I thought I loved Adrien. I-I don't know anymore…
Marinette decided to leave her now confusing love life a thing to worry about in the morning. She relished Chat Noir's heat and fell in to a deep sleep.
A single tear slid out from her eye as she slept and mumbled:
"Thank you…Chat…Noir…"
Authors note:
Sorry this is short guys! But I'm not done yet, I have a plan! And yeah, I'll try to post another chapter next week, unless I feel inspired to write more this week, if I have the time. Thanks for your follows, favorites and of course the reviews! If you have any ideas you want to see incorporated into the story let me know! Thanks again and good night!
-Nali340
