A/N: Hey, thanks for the love. I really appreciate it. I'm glad that you guys are enjoying it. That's why I do this.
Okay, sorry for getting all sappy and dramatic but I appreciate it so much. I had no idea that anyone would even like this and I'm so happy that its being enjoyed. Anyway, sorry again, Heads up for language and sexual situations. Masturbation to be more specific.
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Chapter Four
Emma stared into the green eyes staring back at her as she stood in front of her mirror practically scowling at her own reflection. She knew she wasn't bad looking facially. Above the waist she was okay. She knew that but what she had in her boxer briefs made her feel like a complete monster. A freak. Other people had even told her as much.
Emma learned very young that it was not easy being different in this world. Most people see different as something negative. They try to destroy it. Break it. Something that they had been doing to her for as long as she could remember.
But then there was Regina. Sweet, loving, kind, Regina. She told Emma that she found all of her beautiful. She didn't see a single thing wrong with her. She thought Emma was gorgeous. Perfect even. She made Emma feel like she was worth something. She erased all of the hurtful things people had said and made her believe over the years and replaced them with sweet whispers and gentle touches.
She made Emma feel good. Something she hadn't felt in her entire life.
Emma smiled a little at the image of those warm brown eyes and those sexy full lips. The smooth soothing sound of Regina voice. The way her hands were so soft and warm in her own. Emma was in love. She knew it. She wasn't going to fight it or deny it.
She wanted to give Regina her love. She needed to have Regina's love.
"Don't get too attached." The scratchy growl of a voice echoed in Emma's head. She looked up at her reflection and saw herself staring back. Except it wasn't herself. This image was dark, skin gray and sickly looking, eyes as black as coal. The blond locks were flat and dull. That wasn't her. Emma was staring at the beast.
The beast began making appearances when she was very young. No older than seven. She would often hear it in her head telling her to do terrible things from stealing to hurting people. She never told her parents because they hated her enough as it was. They didn't need a crazy child on top of a broken one. She would hum to herself or play loud music to drown out the voice. As time went on, the voice became harder to ignore. It became more dominant and controlling. Violent. Demanding that Emma hurt people and even take their lives. She never gave in. She fought it with all her might. When Emma left Storybrooke she couldn't fight it anymore. It overpowered her. The beast talked her into her first kill and every single one ever since.
The beast had a powerful hold on her and she couldn't shake it. So she just lets it take over.
She would never win anyway.
"It will not be long until she rejects us and she ends up at the bottom of that lake." The beast sneered. It's dark face twisting into a scowl. "You might as well save yourself the pain and end her now."
"No!" Emma screamed. "She's different. She accepts me."
"Is that why she didn't come up here?" The beast mocked but Emma was unfazed. She knew where Regina's heart was. "Why she didn't want to play with us?"
"She said next time." Emma argued. "And I respect that. I trust her."
"You are such an idiot." The beast growled angrily. "She's going to hurt you like all of them. It's only a matter of time before she rips your heart out. I say rip hers out first."
Emma's hands shot to her ears. "No, no, no." She muttered over and over trying to drown out the evil voice but it was already inside of her head. "Stop."
"No." The voice echoed, in spite of the fact that Emma was trying to drown it out. "Kill her."
"Kill her."
"Kill her."
"Kill her."
"Kill her."
"Kill her, Emma!" It screamed in a loud booming voice causing Emma to whimper and shake in fear. "Kill her."
Emma opened her eyes and stared at her reflection. The beast was staring back at her with a wicked smirk on its face. "You know you'll have to. Just kill her."
Emma felt her eyes begin to sting as they filled up with salty tears. She whimpered out a soft sob in despair. She knows that the beast will win in the end and she'll lose Regina forever no matter how hard she fights.
The beast always wins.
A soft ringing caused Emma to flinch at the sudden sound. She looked back at the reflection and the beast was gone, leaving behind a sad broken image of herself. She composed herself and walked over to her nightstand where she had left her phone. She looked at the screen and saw that it was Regina. She smiled a little. The pain in her chest lessening.
"Hello?" She said as she answered the call. She tried to keep her voice calm as to not worry Regina if she heard how shaken up she was.
"Hi, Em." Regina said brightly. "I'm calling to let you know that I got in safe. I'm sorry it took so long but I showered and got into bed in case you wanted to chat a little before bed."
"Yeah." Emma said sitting on her bed. Maybe some Regina time is exactly what she needed to calm her nerves.
"Okay." Regina said. Emma could imagine Regina all snug in bed under her lavish bedspread rested back on a mountain of pillows. The thought made her smile. "What do you want to talk about?"
Emma settled back on the bed. Laying on top of her sheets. "You left me kinda turned on tonight."
"Oh..." Regina purred sensually. "Are you hard, Emma?"
"As a rock." Emma admitted shamelessly.
Regina hummed, it was low and sexy. "What if I told you I was wet?"
Emma moaned before she could stop herself. "I'd say proof or it didn't happen."
Regina chuckled, it was breathless and low. It sent a delicious shiver through Emma's body and settled in her groin. "Would you like to see?"
"You're gonna send me a pic?" Emma asked hopefully. She's pretty sure that no one had ever sexted her before and the thought kind of excited her. It made her feel normal.
"I'm going to do you one better. Do you have a cam?"
"Yeah..." Emma replied.
"Go turn on your laptop or tablet or whatever. Give me your information and I'll call you."
"Uh... yeah, sure." Emma breathed as she stood up and grabbed her laptop from the bedside table. She heard Regina moving around too before settling back down.
"Emma, are you ready?" Regina asked.
"Yeah." Emma replied. Her brain was focused on one thing, the possibly of seeing Regina naked.
"Okay, give me your information and I'll give you a call." Regina said patiently. Emma did what she was told and Regina hummed as she typed it in. "Okay, I'm calling now."
It wasn't long before Regina popped up on her screen and Emma answered the call. Regina's beautiful face filled her screen. Even completely free of make up she looked flawless. "Hey Gina." Emma said with a huge smile.
"Hi Emma." Regina said with a wink. "All ready for bed?" Emma nodded and Regina chuckled. "Okay." Regina then moved the camera back and Emma's eyes almost came out of her head.
Regina was completely naked.
Emma couldn't help her own moan when she got the view. "Damn." Was all she managed to get out. Tantalizing smooth olive skin, toned and firm in all the right places, all on display for Emma's viewing pleasure.
"You like?" Regina asked flirtatiously.
"I love your body." Emma said barely above a whisper.
Regina chuckled and angled herself. She spread her legs and Emma was greeted with a completely bald- save for a thin strip, glistening wet pussy. "Let me see yours."
Emma hesitated. She wasn't sure if she should. The only time she ever used a cam is to chat with her parents when they forced her to. She's never used it for sex. She felt suddenly anxious and nervous.
Sensing this, Regina smiled softly. "It's okay, Emma. You don't have to. You can just watch me. No pressure."
Emma looked up into Regina's eyes. She saw the understanding and patience in them. That made her change her mind. It was only fair. Besides it's Regina. Regina accepts her. It's fine.
Emma inhaled slowly then exhaled. She positioned her laptop and quickly pulled the shaft out of her briefs.
"Mmm..." Regina hummed. "There's that big beautiful cock that I love so much. Are you still hard for me, baby?"
"Of course." Emma groaned. "Only you can get me this hard."
Regina hummed and winked at Emma. "Tell me, beautiful, are there any positions you'd like to try?" She shifted and picked up a long, thick, pink item. Emma couldn't quite make out what it was.
"Um..." Emma was struggling to keep up with Regina's wet and ready pussy right in her face. "I dont know."
Regina raised a brow. "Are you serious?"
"Yeah." Emma said. "What's that?" She asked gesturing to the item in Regina's hand.
"A dildo." Regina answered quickly. "Can't think of anything?"
Emma shrugged. She hadn't thought much about it. Honestly having sex in general was a problem for Emma so she hadn't really thought of things that she wanted to try. "Can we come back to it when I've had some time to think?"
Regina hummed. "Of course, honey."
Emma nodded. "Okay."
"Good." Regina winked slowly and blew Emma a kiss. "Now, you want me to give you a show?"
"Please do."
Regina smirked. "Yes, you've been a very good girl so you've earned it." She popped the head of the toy into her mouth and Emma watched on with rapt attention as the woman licked and sucked it, wetting it. Emma's cock jumped as she remembered when she was inside the woman's warm talented mouth.
"Damn." Emma muttered.
Regina's dark eyes focused back on Emma as she released the toy with a loud pop. She then lowered it down and Emma hissed when she slid it inside of herself. Regina moaned and bit her bottom lip. Emma heard a whirring sound that sounded like a machine working. Vibrator perhaps? Emma groaned as she watched the brunette writhing as she fucked herself smoothly.
"Fuck." Emma growled. Her dick felt like it was going to explode with all of the blood rushing to it.
Regina's head was thrown back and soft little moans were coming from her mouth as she rocked her hips fucking the toy back. Regina looked back at Emma, her smoldering eyes locking on Emma. "Let me see you. Touch yourself, Emma."
Emma's eyes widened. She's never masturbated in front of anyone. Her whole life she was taught that it was something wrong. Something dirty. Regina was the first person to ever masturbate in front of her and all though she thought it was the sexiest thing she had ever seen, she still partially saw it as something dirty and perverse.
"Um... uh..." She stammered and Regina slowed down her movements but didn't extract her toy.
"Emma, let me see you. Stroke your cock for me. I want to see what I'm doing to you."
Emma stared back into those pretty eyes. She saw the desire in them so she nodded. "Okay."
Regina smiled and went back to sliding the toy in and out, fucking herself deeply.
Emma wrapped her hand around the base of her cock. She saw Regina sit up a little more to get a better look. She slid her hand up the solid shaft to the head, she rubbed her thumb back and forth over the tip then slid back down.
"That's it, Emma." Regina coached gently. "Speed up for me."
Emma did as she was told. Rubbing up and down faster. Her eyes rolled back in her head. She felt the tingling pleasure throughout her entire body.
Their moans mingled as they played with themselves in front of each other. Emma thought that it felt as intimate as real sex. The two of them reaching ecstasy together. Their voices mingling in sounds of passion. Emma found herself stroking herself faster. She heard Regina hum in approval.
"Fuck." She heard Regina mutter and her eyes opened in time to see Regina pull the toy out of herself. Then something shot out of her. A clear fluid sprayed out towards the screen.
Emma's mouth fell open when she realized that Regina squirted. "Holy shit." Emma breathed at the sight. In that moment she wished she was wherever Regina was.
Regina was still panting trying to catch her breath. She clearly hadn't expected to do that at that moment. She looked into Emma's eyes. "I just got really excited." She giggled breathlessly.
"No." Emma half whispered. "It's hot but wow. How can I get you to do that?"
Regina smirked. "Cum for me and I might tell you."
Emma nodded. She continued to stroke herself. She noticed Regina watching her. The woman's dark eyes flicking between her eyes and her hand. There was just something about Regina. Something that turned Emma on so much. Those eyes, the affection she had shown her, the pussy sitting right there just ripe for the picking. Emma felt the pressure building up, the familiar throbbing and she sped up her movements.
"That's it, Emma, cum for me." Regina whispered in a low seductive tone.
That was all that it took before Emma was cuming hard with a force that Emma had never experienced until she met Regina. It shot into the air before sliding down the side of the shaft. Emma pulled her hand away, unable to touch herself anymore given the sensitivity. She was panting, her heart was racing and she was sweating. She was unused to this but she found that she enjoyed it a great deal. The release was incredible.
Regina chuckled. "How do you feel?"
"Great." Emma giggled. Yes, giggled. That's how light and free she felt. "Amazing."
Regina smiled and combed her fingers through her hair. "Good. I'm glad you feel good. You deserve to feel good, Emma. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. You are a beautiful, kind person and you deserve every happiness."
"Regina..." Emma sighed as she reached over on the nightstand and grabbed a tissue. "Stop being so nice to me, God." She muttered as she began cleaning herself up.
"You deserve that, Emma." Regina said seriously. Her provocative tone gone and replaced with a stem one. "Don't ever think that you do not deserve kindness."
Emma looked up and her eyes met Regina's. Those beautiful brown eyes were pleading with her to understand. She sighed and nodded. "Okay, Regina. I'll try."
"Give yourself a break, Emma."
"I will. I'll try, Regina." Emma sighed softly.
Regina nodded and smiled softly. "I will not give up on trying to make you see yourself the way that I see you. Gorgeous."
Emma smiled a little. "I'm open to it." She realized that Regina was persistent in trying to make her feel good and she thought it was best to give her a chance. Simply so that she didn't give up like everyone else did.
Regina smiled brightly. "Good." She shifted a little, closing her legs. She pulled a dark purple sweatshirt over her head, covering her beautiful body. "Do you have work in the morning?"
Emma shook her head. "Nah,"
"What do you have planned?"
"Sleep, eating, playing some videogames, watching some movies then napping some more." Emma replied. Regina chuckled. Emma grinned.
"Fun." She said with a smile.
"I know right..." Emma chuckled.
Regina shook her head with a fond smile. The two of them fell into a comfortable conversation. Pillow talk maybe, after their cyber lovemaking. They talked about Regina's dogs and Emma talked about her job. It was nice. But eventually the excitement of the evening caught up to Emma.
Emma yawned and Regina chuckled. It was adorable. "Tired?" Regina teased.
"A little. I usually am after an orgasm." Emma blushed a little.
"Well, I won't keep you. I did tire you out after all." Regina said with a small smile that told Emma that she really didn't want to let her go. "Can you add calling me to the list of things you are doing tomorrow?"
Emma grinned. "Of course, Gina."
Regina smiled and nodded. "Good. Maybe we both should get some sleep. I'm taking the boys to the park tomorrow."
Emma smiled. She loved when Regina talked about her dogs. She spoke about them as if they were her children and it said a lot about Regina as a person. It made Emma smile. "Tell your boys I said hi." She teased.
"I will." Regina laughed. "Sweet dreams, Emma."
"Night, Gina."
Regina blew her a kiss and winked then disconnected the call.
Emma chuckled a little then closed the laptop. She laid it down beside her then laid back against the pillow. She smiled a little thinking about Regina and the affect she has on her. The beauty of the woman. That smile. Those eyes. Those lips.
She's got it bad.
Emma yawned again and she felt herself getting pulled into sleep. She sighed and shut her eyes. She envisioned Regina's face and that beautiful smile as she drifted off to sleep.
Regina watched Brutus and Brock run around the dog park the next day. The smaller dog chasing the larger goliath of a dog as they chased a ball that Regina had thrown for them. Regina's boys. One of which, Brutus, is a big black Tibetan Mastiff with pale blue eyes. She raised him from a tiny puppy and could fit into her lap, now at two years old he could barely fit through her front door. But he's a gentle giant so his size is never a problem.
Then there was Brock, her stumpy legged happy boy. He's a black and white corgi. His size made him easy to travel with but he's a ball of energy and sometimes made Regina nervous but like his younger brother he was a sweet boy. At only five years old, he became a major part of her life.
Both boys were a good distraction for when she begins to worry. She couldn't get her webchat with Emma out of her head. Sure the sex was great, she really loved how she cums so hard with Emma but there was something else. It's the way that Emma is so tortured and miserable. She's been told that she was a freak or an abomination for so long and by so many people that Regina, one person could not change her mind. She's adamant about the way she views herself. It both frustrated Regina and broke her heart. She was not frustrated with Emma. Of course not. Poor Emma was a victim in all of this but she was pissed at everyone who had ever hurt her. Everyone who made her feel like less than she was. The people who had broken Emma down so low until she couldn't see the love in Regina's eyes when she looked at her or feel Regina's want to fall in love with her so badly.
Regina wanted to help Emma. She wanted to save her from the monsters in her life. She wanted to replace her pain with nothing but joy and light. She wanted to be Emma's family. Her home.
She wanted her to feel safe with her.
She didn't know how to go about it though. She tried everything. She tried physically, she tried emotionally, verbally but Emma is stuck in her ways. Her self hate had gone on for so long that it couldn't be reversed with some love making and a few kind words. Regina needed to go about this more aggressively. She had to take all of the hate people had instilled inside of Emma and replace it with love. But how? They had a long way to go.
She just hated that Emma had to carry that burden for so long. She hated that she had been carrying it all her life. She felt Emma's pain and sometimes it made her want to cry with the heartbreak she felt.
But she couldn't. This wasn't about her. It was about Emma and mending her broken heart.
Once again her boys pulled her out of her miserable thoughts and she even chuckled when Brutus went to pick up the ball but the smaller dog ran between his legs and picked it up before he could even come close.
"Way to go, Brockie." Monica called as she unhooked her own dog from her pink leash. The gray and white pitbull ran over to Regina and greeted her happily.
"Hi Daisy." Regina cooed and the dog ate it up, jumping and barking happily. "Hello baby." She scratched behind her ears.
"I thought we'd come and hang out with you guys." Monica sighed as she took a seat beside Regina on the bench. "Daisy missed the boys and I missed you." She crossed her legs and handed Regina a take out coffee cup. "Besides you sounded so strange on the phone."
Regina sighed and pulled on her black leather jacket, adjusting it. She sighed and ran her fingers through her dark hair. "I know... it's just... Emma is..." She paused trying to find the proper words. She liked Emma a lot but her low confidence could be a little disconcerting. "She's amazing. She's beautiful and funny and so sweet. But for a long time people have been tearing her down. She's so broken and I don't know how to fix her."
Monica watched Daisy run over to Brutus and Brock. The boys ran towards her when they saw her. She laughed as the people tried to get out of the way of Brutus as he ran across the park. He's a big boy and people are often scared of him. She looked over at Regina and even from her side profile she could tell that she was worried. Scared even. She reached over and took Regina's hand. The other woman looked up into her eyes.
"Just be good to her. Tell her she's beautiful and kind. Make her feel good, Regina. You are so good at making people feel like they're worth something even when they don't think they are. You'll help her. I have faith in that."
Regina smiled sadly at her friend. She knew that she had to be patient. As Emma said people have been awful to her for years. Regina can't just pop into her life and after a few days think she could change that. It's going to take a very long time but if Regina had anything she had time...
"I just hope it's not too late."
"It's never too late." Monica said seriously. Regina hummed. She looked miserable. The other woman frowned and decided to change the subject but not too much just to something lighter. "So how was the date? You've been pretty cryptic about it."
"It was nice. I had a nice time. I believe that she did as well. Well she told me she did. She's fine, she's good at holding conversations and she's playful. She's happy for the most part well until I compliment her. It makes her uncomfortable."
Monica nodded. "Lay them on her easily. Like every once in a while compliment her beauty. Like start with something like her hair or her eyes. What else?"
Regina smiled. "Dimples. She has really cute dimples."
Monica snorted. "Damn you have it bad. Compliment those things and if she doesn't accept it, tell her it's rude to not accept a compliment from the gorgeous Regina Mills." She laughed at her friend's glare. "Seriously though. Lay the Regina charm on her. Send her flowers or chocolates. Text her for no reason at all aside from telling her she looks beautiful even though you haven't seen her."
Regina nodded. "You're right. I can do this. I can make Emma see herself the way I see her. I can make her the confident woman that I know she can be. I will save her."
"Hell yeah. That's the Regina Mills I know. Heal your girl." Monica said with a clap of her hands. "When am I going to meet her by the way?"
Regina sighed and rolled her eyes. "At least give me a chance to get to know her, geez."
Monica grinned. "Just don't make me wait too long."
Regina sucked her teeth. "Anyways..." She was unsure if Emma was ready to meet anyone new. Sensing that Regina was done with the conversation, Monica cleared her throat and decided to change the subject.
"Wanna have dinner tonight? Surprisingly I'm off tonight."
"Sure." Regina shrugged. "What are you in the mood for?"
"Definitely Mexican." Monica replied with a grin. Regina rolled her eyes. "Last time you had the worst heart burn."
Regina chuckled. "Shut up. That taco was way too hot."
Monica laughed. "Big Baby. Want something else? We can go to that steak house downtown."
"Better."
"Good I have a taste for baby back ribs." Monica groaned. She rubbed her stomach dramatically causing Regina to chuckle and roll her eyes.
"I just need a drink and I know they make amazing hurricanes there."
"No Apple daiquiri?" Monica asked feigning surprise.
"At some point." Regina said with a grin. Maybe a few drinks is exactly what she needed.
They both laughed. "I have a feeling that we are going to get so wasted." Monica said between laughter. "We are terrible with limits."
Regina shook her head. "Hopefully." She looked across the park and saw Brutus harassing a little boy for his ball. The child's own dog had long since fled from the gargantuan dog. Coward. The child was holding his own though.
"Oh dear, Brutus is going to eat that poor kid." Monica chuckled.
Regina rolled her eyes. "Brutus!" She screamed across the park. The dog looked at her. "Here. Now." She said sternly.
He hung his head and headed her way. The little boy looked sympathetically at him then went on his way. Brutus walked passed a man and the man turned and went in the opposite direction. Regina shook her head. She had no idea why everyone was scared of him. He was a huge dog but he didn't have an aggressive bone in his body. Brock was the one to look out for. Smaller dogs are sometimes more aggressive.
He walked up to her and placed his large head in her lap which was a feat given his size and hers. She stoked his his head gently. He closed his eyes. "What have I told you about little children?" She asked softly. He looked up at her, his big blue eyes gazing into hers. At least he looked sorry. "You have to be gentle with them like you're gentle with mama, right?" He whined, making that adorable face that Regina both loved and hated. It can get him out of anything. "It's okay." She lifted his face and kissed his black nose. "I love you. Now go play with your brother and Daisy. Be gentle, big boy."
The dog looked up at her and his tongue fell out of his mouth in his excitement. He turned and ran off to play with his playmates.
"That's a big ass dog." Monica commented. She shook her head. "Damn."
Regina rolled her eyes. Seriously?
Emma sat on her couch rolling her phone around in her hand. She really wanted to talk to Regina. In all honesty, she would rather see her. She needed to just hear her voice. That could tie her over for now. But she didn't want to seem clingy but then again, Regina did say for her to call any time. Regina did seem eager to speak to her. Regina always seemed happy to hear from her. Unlike her parents who always behave like it was burden to speak to her.
She looked down at her phone. She pulled up Regina's number and just when she began to push call, a clicking of a tongue stopped her.
The beast.
"Don't call her, let her call you. Show her that you're not as invested and that will have her all over you." The scratchy voice whispered. "She'll do anything to keep your interest after that. She'll spread those thighs so far."
Emma groaned and rubbed a hand over her face. Why can't this thing just leave her alone? "No. I am interested. If I make her think I'm not interested then she'll go find someone else. I don't want to lose her."
"You'll lose her anyway." The beast growled. "At least you'll keep your dignity."
"I am not going to lose her."
"They always leave." The voice said. "They always walk away. What makes her any different?"
"She cares about me."
"Does she?"
"Yes." Emma snapped. She covered her ears with her hands. "Now go. I don't want you here."
"Fine." The beast growled. "But you'll see that in the end, I am all you have." After that the beast took its leave.
Emma let out a breath of relief. The beast was a lot less aggressive this time. Not as violent or demanding. Sure it tried to make her think Regina didn't care about her. Sure, it tried to turn her against the only person that had ever cared for her but it wasn't as bad as it usually is.
How it was in the past.
Emma looked back down at her phone. She refused to let the Beast's words get to her. It would say anything to get her to do terrible things. But she wouldn't. She'd fight it. She won't let it turn her against Regina and she sure as hell will not let it harm her.
Not this time.
She pressed call and placed the phone to her ear. It rang a few times before it was picked up.
"Hey Emma..." Regina said happily. She sounded so enthusiastic and happy to speak to Emma. "I was wondering when I would hear from you."
Emma smiled instantly. "I couldn't wait to speak to you. How was your day?"
"Very good." Regina said happily. "I took the boys to the park and we had a lovely day. How about you?"
"It was good." Emma said simply. "I napped mostly. "
"Sounds productive." Regina teased. Emma grinned.
"Eh..." Emma shrugged. "You know."
Regina chuckled. "How are you doing, Emma?" She sounded so concerned and it made Emma feel a little awkward. She wasn't used to people worrying about her.
"Missing you." She blurted. She hadn't meant to, although it was true but she had only seen Regina the night before besides it's not like they were official."
"I miss you too, Emma." Regina said softly. "I want to see you again, real soon, okay?"
"What do you have planned tonight?" Emma asked. She hated how eager she sounded but she needed to see Regina. She needed her.
Regina took in a sharp breath and Emma's heart sank. She was going to reject her. "I am so sorry, Em, but I have plans with a friend. We're having dinner."
"Oh..." Emma sighed. Of course she's having dinner with someone else. She's beautiful and fun, of course a lot of people are interested in her. She could have anyone she wanted. They aren't in a relationship. She'll probably never see Regina again. She'll lose her. The beast was right.
"I'm so sorry, Emma. If I had known-" Regina began but Emma cut her off.
"It's fine." Emma said quickly. She tried to hide the pain from her voice but Regina heard it.
"Emma, please don't be upset."
"I'm not upset." Emma snapped.
"Your tone says otherwise." Regina's voice was still soft despite her words. She was still being so sweet and it frustrated the hell out of Emma. "Emma, please just-"
"Regina, I said it was fine." Emma snapped again. "Don't do this."
Regina paused. "Do what?" She sounded genuinely confused.
"Act like you care about me. We aren't together. You have your pick of whoever you want and I know it won't be me. I'm damaged. No one wants to pick up those pieces." Emma's voice broke along with her heartbreak. The beast was right. She shouldn't have invested so much into this. She's never going to be happy. She's never going to find her princess and live happily ever after. She doesn't get a happy ending.
"Emma, listen, you-"
"I have to go, Regina." Emma said coolly.
"Emma, please talk to me. What's wrong?" Regina's voice was pleading now but Emma couldn't hear her pain through her own.
"Nothing." Emma snapped. "I have to go. Have fun."
"Okay, Emma. Goodnight." Regina's voice was barely above a whisper. Emma didn't care. Regina broke her heart so she didn't deserve her sympathy. Emma disconnect the call without another word.
The beast was right. No one would ever truly want her. No one would care about her. She should have known better. She should have just ended it...
Ended her.
"See, I told you." The beast's voice returned. "What have we learned today, hmm?"
"Leave me alone." Emma sighed as she stood and headed for her bedroom. She just wanted to sleep away her pain. Her heartache. The loss. She didn't want to deal with her sorrows. She couldn't. She no longer had the energy. The beast couldn't care less obviously because it still followed.
"I just want to see her." Emma muttered to herself.
"I say you follow her. Track her. Find her and make sure she isn't stepping out on you and if she is... well..." The beast chuckled darkly. "We'll make her pay."
"I don't want to hurt her ." Emma muttered.
"But you do want to see her." The beast argued. "So go see her but don't let her see you. That way you get what you want."
Emma paused on her trip to the bedroom. The beast was right. She'll get to see Regina. She was still upset with her so she didn't have to speak to her that way. Just seeing her will do. It'll be fine.
She nodded. "Okay." She replied and headed into the bedroom to get dressed.
The Beast cackled as it disappeared from the room.
"I don't know," Regina said as she and Monica headed for the restaurant that night. "She sounded so upset."
She felt awful about what had happened with Emma. She wanted to see Emma. Apologize and try to make things right but unbeknownst to her Emma was closer than she thought.
"She'll be alright. You said her self-esteem was low right?" Monica said as they walked across the dark street.
Regina furrowed her brow. "Yeah?"
"Well she probably felt like you didn't want to see her." Monica said thoughtfully. "Which you and I both know isn't the case."
Regina frowned. She had a point. She hurt Emma. It was not intentional but she still caused her pain. She had to fix this. She sighed heavily as Monica pulled the door open for her and she stepped though followed by her friend, disappearing inside of the restaurant.
"I have to call her when I get home." Regina muttered. "I have to fix what I've done. I've made things worse."
"You do." Monica agreed. "You can make it right. If anyone could it's you."
Regina sighed. "I hope you're right..."
Monica squeezed Regina's arm and led her further into the restaurant. They both walked up to the podium to be seated. Honestly Regina just needed a drink... or ten.
Emma watched from across the street. She was wearing a black hoodie so that she could blend in with the darkness of the night around them. It worked so far. She saw Regina slip into the restaurant with another woman and Regina hadn't even suspected that she was being followed.
Emma looked down at her phone. She had downloaded a tracking app that all she needed to do was enter Regina's phone number and she could track her anywhere. It led her to this restaurant.
She knew it was wrong. She knew that she was wrong for snapping at Regina. Regina was not hers yet. She couldn't tell her who she could spend time with yet. It's not like she was cheating.
"Yes she is. She could be yours. You have to learn how to handle her. You need to show her who's in charge. You are obviously stronger than her, it's time to show it."
Emma sighed deeply and squeezed her eyes shut. The beast talked her into coming out here and disrespecting Regina's privacy and her space. "Shut up."
"Why? I'm only trying to help."
"Before you told me to kill her." Emma whispered sharply. "Then you told me to ignore her. Now you want me to control her."
"Dominate her." The beast corrected. "And I've had a change of heart. She's an attractive woman and she's down for anything. That's the kind of woman we need in our life. She can be useful when we need something to cum on."
"You don't have a heart." Emma hissed back. "And it's not our or we. You aren't real. You're in my mind. I want you out of my head."
"Well you know that I've been here since you could remember. I'm not ever going anywhere. Maybe next time you're on top of her, I'd pay the two of you a visit."
"Don't you hurt her." Emma whispered. "She does not deserve that. She's kind to me."
"But she doesn't know about me, correct?"
"I don't want her to ever know about you."
"Well, I'd like to meet her properly. You can't stop me." The beast's voice became darker, almost menacing. "You never could. You let me do whatever I want. Hurt whoever I want. I don't know why I haven't taken over completely. We'd both be better off. You're weak."
"I am not weak." Emma hissed. "If I was weak I wouldn't be able to fight you. I wouldn't be able to make you go away."
"I go because I want to not because you make me." The beast's voice sounded even more aggressive and it sent a chill though Emma's body and the hair stood up on the back of her neck. "You can't make me do anything."
Emma sighed. "Leave me alone." She covered her ears and groaned. "Just shut up."
"I'm in control here. If I say kill her, you will kill her."
Emma kept her hands on her ears and began humming as she used to do when she was younger. It helped to down out the voice. It kept what little sanity she had left. It used to work before she started letting the beast in and giving it power. Over time it took on a life of its own and now it's stronger than ever. It wanted power over Emma's body. It wanted to be her main but she fought it. She refused to let it take over. She had to hold onto what little humanity she had left. She had to keep the beast at bay if she wanted a chance of having anything worth fighting for.
"Shut up." Emma hissed.
She heard the beast sigh dramatically. "Fine. I'll go but I'll be back. I always am."
Emma let out a breath when she felt the presence leave her. She was so tired of the beast and she wanted it gone but it was a part of her. It was a part of who she was. What would she be without the beast within?
Nothing. But a weak, insecure girl who felt like a freak for all her life. The beast was right, she needed it as much as it needed her.
Emma stayed deep within the shadows. An hour or two passed before Regina and her friend emerged from the restaurant. The two were talking animatedly and giggling and the sight of Regina's smile and the sound of her voice made Emma smile a little. She looked so beautiful in the simple sweater and black jeans she was wearing. Her dark hair was pulled back into a ponytail and her makeup was light. Still very pretty but different from what Emma had seen. She still had heels on, of course. Emma doubted that Regina even owned a pair of sneakers or even knew what they were.
She watched the two women hug and she bristled at the sight of Regina touching someone else. The women pulled away. The other woman said something to Regina and Regina nodded. Emma was not sure what was said but a moment later she flagged down a cab. The two women climbed in and Emma's heart shattered.
They were going home together.
Regina was going to forget all about Emma. She was going to abandon her like everyone else.
Emma walked over to her car and got in. She started it and began following the cab. She kept a safe distance. Keeping two cars between them at all times but Emma needed to know. She needed to see for herself.
They turned onto a block that looked like a suburb. Emma never even knew about this side of town. It was swanky with huge houses and nicely manicured lawns. Tall hedges and white picket fences. It was really nice and screamed Regina. Rich heiress.
That's why she chose that woman. That's why she...
Emma's train of thought was cut off when she saw the can stop in front of a huge white house. Emma sighed as she watched Regina climb out. But to her surprise Regina closed the door behind a her. She blew the woman a kiss and waved. Then the cab pulled off.
Emma pulled into a parking spot a few houses down and blinked dumbly. Regina didn't take the woman home. She went home alone.
Emma sighed in relief and let her head fall forward and hit the steering wheel. She overreacted. She owed Regina a huge apology. She felt like a total idiot.
Once she was sure that Regina had stepped inside of her huge house, she pulled out of that parking spot and drove down a little over to Regina's house. She parked across the street. She was pretty sure that it was illegal but who was out at this hour to see her? Besides who are they going to call, the cops? She is the cops.
Through the wide open drapes she could see Regina moving about inside.
Emma fished her binoculars out of her glove compartment. She raised the lenses to her face and she could suddenly see Regina better. She could see the woman unzip her dress then step out of it where she was left in just her lacy black underwear. Emma swallowed thickly at the tantalizing olive skin that was on display. She knew that this was wrong but she couldn't bring herself to stop.
She was enjoying the view, not to mention she hasn't touched Regina's body in days. She missed her. She misses her warmth.
She watched a moment longer until Regina shut the curtains and she saw the lights go out. She was obviously going to bed. Emma wished she was going to bed with her. Emma turned her binoculars up to the second floor. She had no idea where Regina's bedroom was but hopefully it was on that side.
Someone must have heard her prayer because a few moments later, a light flicked on and Regina appeared at the window. She stood before a full length mirror. Emma was practically drooling at this point. When the woman unhooked her bra unveiling her firm, full breasts Emma felt her cock stir and when Regina removed her panties as wel, Emma could see her firm luscious ass. Emma could feel herself begin to get hard.
She watched the woman undo her ponytail and when the luscious dark locks fell to the woman's shoulders in beautiful waves, Emma was fully erect. She was so hard that her jeans were hurting her.
She rubbed herself through her jeans for a moment trying to relieve the pressure and continued to hold the binoculars in the other hand.
Regina walked away from the window. Emma sighed in disappointment but it was only a moment before Regina returned in a red, short nightie with a plunging neckline. Emma licked her lips at the sight. That gorgeous skin. That sinful body.
To Emma's dismay Regina shut the drapes and then cut the lights off. Emma groaned at her peep show being interrupted.
She let her head hit the steering wheel again and groaned. She hissed at the feeling of her cock stirring. She needed to take care of it. Right then. She'll never be able to make it home like that.
She quickly unzipped her jeans and pulled her cock out. She planned to make it quick.
She masturbated three times in a row, trying to relieve herself but she still felt too wound up. After a fourth time it worked. She had no idea why she was so worked up but it felt good at the moment.
At the moment.
A few minutes after the act she began to feel the self loathing. She hated herself for spying on Regina. She hated that she gave into the beast and she hated herself for jacking off to Regina while she spied on her without her knowledge.
She felt like a disgusting pervert. She felt dirty and vile. This just made her hate her penis even more. It turned her into a pervert. It was horrible. It was evil.
She wanted it gone.
With one more heavy sigh she started the car and began to head home. She could continue her self depreciation there in her bed. At least noone would know that she cried into her pillow all night.
Thanks for reading!
I had a hard time writing this chapter. Emma needs a break. I hate myself for making her suffer so much omg.
The beast is AWFUL! Ugh.
Anyway, thanks again, see ya at the next update.