Chapter thirteen:

After a while Kaoru heads back to his and his brother's room. He doesn't want to worry his brother after all. He sits on the bed on his side but doesn't lay down not thinking that he will be able to sleep. He looks up looking to the window as he lets himself sit there and think for a bit. He is weighing the options of asking the clan for help or trying to learn by himself.

If he asks for the clans help then he could learn faster, could protect Hikaru better from himself, and he could be sure that the methods will work.

If he tries to learn about it all by himself then it'll take longer to learn, it will mean Hikaru will be in more danger, and that the methods might not even actually work.

Kaoru shuts his eyes tightly at the very thought of having to ask the clan that forced him to become one of them for help. He sighs heavily letting his shoulders drop, and his closed eyes relax, coming to be aware that he probably doesn't really have a choice here. He lays down and stares at the ceiling for most of the rest of the night.

The next morning Hikaru awakens with sunlight dancing upon his closed eyelids. He notices that Kaoru is no longer beside him, but is instead is standing by the window leaning against one window.

Kaoru is staring out the window with his arms crossed and one leg slightly crossed over the other.

"How long have you been up?" Hikaru inquires to his brother sitting up a little slowly since his head is spinning a little.

Kaoru slightly jumps at hearing his brothers voice and turns to look to him. "Morning. Also I'm alright."

Hikaru slightly frowns as his brother didn't really answer the question. He then blinks as it hits him of what could be wrong. "Are you bothered by you feeding on me?" He finds his questions is silently answered by how Kaoru blinks in surprise that he had gotten it the first try. "Come on bro. I'm okay. I really don't mind. Because I trust you, I know that you will make sure that I'll be okay." He feels his heart sink in worry as his brother closes his eyes tightly almost as if afraid. "Kaoru. Come on please believe me. It will be okay. Really! I want to be able to help you. So please just let me in so I can do just that."

"You don't fully understand what you're getting into." Kaoru tells him a little sharply. "You have no idea exactly what I could be capable of. If I could be unable to stop." He pauses in talking for a moment and lowers his head. "I… I could kill you."

"That's ridiculous brother." Hikaru protests and if he wasn't dizzy he would have gone over to his brother to hug him. "I know you won't do that. You shouldn't fear yourself."

"The only way you'd ever truly understand it would be if I did kill you." Kaoru protests then he turns uncrossing his arms and legs only to head for the door to their room.

"Kaoru! Wait!" Hikaru calls out reaching out towards his brother who pauses for a moment. "Please. Can't we talk about this? Please don't push me away."

"You should get some more rest." Kaoru responds in a monotone not even really turning to look to his brother. He then leaves the room knowing that Hikaru would need more rest before he can chase after him.

Hikaru lowers his hand looking at where his brother had left. "Kaoru…" He feels like crying though he tries to push the tears away. He flops back down onto the bed slightly staring up at the ceiling for now. He wants to chase after his brother but he can't really stand with how he is. He would get nowhere if he did try to chase after him. He lets out a rather heavy sigh knowing that he is being forced to having to wait until Kaoru returns to him.

No matter how much he really dislikes it.

Kaoru grabs a black jacket putting it on only to head off outside as he also got some shoes on. He hurries as far away as he can from the mansion. He slows down after a little slightly panting. He glances around not really seeing anyone around. He turns away letting out a big huff of air. He raises his head and continues walking moving into the trees. He wants to have some sort of privacy and this is the most private area. He can't tell Hikaru about how much he still has to learn. He can't get him involved any more than he already has. He slightly glances back the way that he had come from with half open eyes. He really does need the clan as much as he doesn't want to admit it… He really needs them more than ever now. He closes his eyes and prepares to call out to said clan when his eyes snap open. He is getting that feeling again. He can feel that burning and itching. He blinks as his eyes become red once more. "Leader. I will be there soon." He begins dashing off letting instinct take over himself. He feels like he is losing a part of himself almost like an entirely new side has taken hold of him. He keeps it up going all the way to the location that he looks up to. He heads inside still letting this other side control him right now. He adds it to the list of things that he can't tell his brother about.

Elsewhere…

"Ugh. I never asked for this. Why did it have to be me to go where that stench is going to be the strongest." One grumbles as the owner of the voice is dashing along. "I can't wait for this to be over so hopefully I won't have to smell it again for a long while." The owner of the voice falls quiet and slows down upon pretty much arriving at the location. Carefully moving around the area and sneaking inside where no one is. Keeping low to the ground quickly moving in search of what must be retrieved. "How come those foul beasts get such a big fucking house to live in?" Whispered grumbling escapes though the grumbling quiets down. Pausing to sniff the air picking up on a fresher scent. Following the scent upstairs and arriving to a door that becomes pushed open. Stalking quietly closer to one laying in the bed facing away from the door. Letting their shadow fall upon the other who blinks then turns to look. Slamming a hand over the one in the bed's mouth and dragging said person out of the bed.