I drummed my fingers against my desk as I looked out of my bedroom window and into the trees beyond. The rain tapped at the glass and made streaking patterns, I followed their paths as I contemplated the decisions that lay ahead of me. It was dark outside and the only light in my room was coming from the illuminated screen of my laptop, I'd kept my lights off as I didn't want Charlie asking why I wasn't sleeping.

It had been almost a month since I had last received a letter from my unknown admirer and I still hadn't replied, not knowing what to say now that I was sure I knew what he was. I had also been steadfastly avoiding all of the Cullen's, not that any of them went out of their way to try and speak to me now anyway. That had stung a little, to be discarded so easily by the people I had once thought of as family.

I bowed my head and sighed as a lump of emotion caught in my throat, I needed to get some sleep. I reached for the lid of my laptop to shut It but stopped as the lid was half way down when I realised a new IM had flashed up on screen. I blinked in mild surprise and raised the lid again.

I had opened the instant chat to talk to Mom and Jessica, apparently Mom had taken a computer course and found IM-ing much easier than texting. Jess however had been nagging me for months to install the program, apparently 'everyone' had it but I only ever interacted with three contacts at the most, Mom, Jessica and Angela.

This new contact was appearing as unknown and when I hovered over the chat window no email address appeared like it usually did. I didn't need an email address to know who it was though.

Unknown: Can't sleep?

I stared at the screen in shock, not quite knowing what to say. Apparently ignoring him didn't work, he'd just find another way to contact me. I admitted to myself that I was relieved to hear from him, I had felt increasingly lonely over the last few weeks and having my friend around helped ease that loneliness.

BellaSwan: I haven't actually tried to yet. Too much to think about. How did you get this address?

I watched cautiously as the small dots in the bottom left hand corner appeared one after the other before disappearing again, letting me know that he was typing a response.

Unknown: I searched for it. I was worried about you, It's been a while.

The accusation was there, probably not intentionally but I felt the sting of the words nonetheless. I chewed on my lower lip as I typed a reply.

BellaSwan: I didn't have you pegged as the IM type. It definitely doesn't have the same flare as handmade paper and artistic handwriting.

The small bubble appeared almost immediately telling me that he was typing. Whoever he was he was focussed solely on our conversation and not flicking through windows like Jessica did. Sometimes it took her hours to write back and it irritated me to sit waiting for a reply.

Unknown: Letter writing has its positives, but this is infinitely quicker and I find that I enjoy being able to converse with you like we're having a conversation. Besides, at least this way it's more difficult for you to ignore my response.

Ah. So he was just going to come out and say it. I sighed and shook my head, I still hadn't thought of the proper way to broach the subject of why I hadn't replied to him, but now my hand was being forced.

BellaSwan: I'm sorry, I needed time to think.

Unknown: May I ask what you needed time to think about?

BellaSwan: ….

BellaSwan: I came to the conclusion that you might be more similar to Edward than I had realised.

I trusted that he knew who Edward was and held my breath as I watched the screen, the bubble didn't appear as quickly as it had before but after a few agonising minutes he began to write back.

Unknown: I see. Has this led you to the conclusion that you wish to cease communication with me?

BellaSwan: No! Definitely not, I just didn't know how to approach the subject with you. I guess you've solved that problem now.

Unknown: Do our similarities bother you?

BellaSwan: No. I was just afraid of losing your friendship if I discovered something you didn't want me to.

Unknown: You discovering my identity was inevitable my dear, the problem isn't that I don't want you to know who I am, It is that I think you will wish to cease contact with me once you do. These last few weeks have proven how impossible such a scenario would be for me. May I ask, what gave me away?

I smiled softly as I read his paragraph. He was strong and yet vulnerable at the same time and I felt strangely protective of him, of our little letters and conversations. I knew that I'd never shun him, even from the first letter he had been of vital importance to my life.

BellaSwan: I had already done the research when I first met Edward, so it clicked into place quite easily really. You both talk like you're from a different time. Mostly though it was that I saw you…

I chewed on my thumb as the small bubble appeared in the bottom left hand corner.

Unknown: You did?

BellaSwan: Yeah. The night I received the last letter from you. That confirmed it really, you moved away so fast it was just a glimpse of pale skin and I felt like I was being watched.

Unknown: Did that disturb you?

BellaSwan: No. Im used to it now.

Unknown: You are a lot more sympathetic to those like Edward and I than anyone I have ever met before. It is in intriguing trait I will admit, it is one of the first things that drew my interest in you.

BellaSwan: I've missed you.

I had hit the enter button before even realising it and cringed in embarrassment, with the heels of my hands I rubbed at my eyes viciously, wishing I could get the image of my soppy sentimental words out from beneath my eyelids. When I opened my now slightly sore eyes again his reply soothed my ego and made me smile softly.

Unknown: And I you, little one.

BellaSwan: So will you tell me your name yet?

Unknown: Not just yet, I still don't think you're quite ready for that shock.

I frowned in confusion, cycling through mentally all of the Vampires that I had met. The list was short, obviously. Suddenly my fingers froze over the keyboard and my mouth gaped in what I was sure was startlingly unattractive. I recalled the conversation with Alice and Edward a few weeks ago and felt my heart rate pick up as I fit the puzzle pieces together.

'"Aro is interested in you." Alice said cautiously, her eyes flicking to Edward who looked like he was ready to leap at her. "He has been-"

"Alice, ENOUGH." Edward stood quickly, his eyes flashing gold as he faced off with Alice.

"She deserves to know!"

No surely not…

Oh my god.