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She was lying on the cold floor, her whole body was numb. She had a terrible headache but she couldn't scream, she couldn't even open her eyes. What's happening? She heard two voices, they were shouting her name. She tried to spoke but the words didn't come out. "That's my fault…" maybe someone said that but maybe just her imagination played with her mind. Then she felt two strong arms lifted her up from the ground…

Bonnie's eyes popped open, her whole body was wet. She has the same dream every night. A true nightmare… If only it would be just a nightmare… but it was just as true as the fact she loosed her father.

She took a few deep breaths than stood up from the bed. The sun is still shining; she has to live through… Grams raised her strong and she owes her. She wouldn't back down.

She took a shower and get dressed. She picked up the hair-straightener to do her hair but her hand stopped in the air. 'Your hair is beautiful as it is baby girl. You don't need that thing to makes you pretty.' Bonnie closed her eyes when she remembered her dad's words. She put down the hair straightener and quickly brushed her wavy hair.

When she opened the door she looked down, instinctively. A white tulip lay on the threshold just as every morning for a week now. Bonnie stepped over the flower without any interest- like always- and closed the door. She knows that the flower will be gone when she's back.

Only Stefan was in the kitchen when she stepped in. He smiled at her nicely and handed her a cup of coffee.

"Good morning, Bonnie."

"Hey." Bonnie smiled back and took the cup. "Elena is still sleeping?"

"She woke up early and went out. She has some things to do…" Bonnie smiled sadly and shook her head. "Yeah, I know."

"Are you sure you wanna move back?" Stefan quickly changed the sensitive topic. "You can stay as long as you want."

"I know that Stefan but I need to get back to my normal life. At least witch left …"

Stefan took her hand and stroked it consolingly. "I'm sorry. I know it's our fault too. We leave you and I can't tell how much we sorry. We don't deserve your friendship." Bonnie bite her lower lip and tried to blink away the tears. Stefan put his hand on her cheek and softly whipped away a teardrop with his thumb. "I'm so sorry Bonnie. We're all sorry."

"I know… but I'm not mad at you, Stefan. I know you're all sorry. But what happened is not your fault." Stefan looked at Bonnie and waited. Here's the time… He stepped back a step and cleared his throat.

"Listen, Bonnie… I know you're mad at Damon… but what happened is not his fault either. He couldn't saved your father but he saved you. He was there. He does care for you, Bonnie…" before Stefan could say more, Bonnie interrupted him.

"He feels guilty and you also know that very well. He doesn't care for me. "

"I know but you can't blame him forever for your father's death. It wasn't his fault. Maybe he was late but I bet he did everything to save you. That vampire killed your father and not Damon. He was there to save you. "

Bonnie laughed dryly. "Yeah, this time he wanted to save me. You think that's all why I hate him? It doesn't matter he saved me. I don't care it wasn't his fault. Every time when something terrible happened with me, Damon was there. He causes all the trouble; he and Elena. The difference is Elena can't help, the troubles find her because who she is but Damon create them. He is irresponsible, reckless and obsessed. Should I remind you of how I lost my power actually?"

Stefan didn't answer, he stopped defended Damon immediately. Bonnie has a point. He never wants to remember the true story again. What only the tree of them knew. The others think Klaus' wizard took away Bonnie's huge power with a spell but that's not the truth. Damon has a big role there…

oooOOooo

Bonnie looked back from the doorway to see she packed up everything. She hasn't much stuff just a few clothes and some personal stuff. She sighed and closed the door. She hoped that she can say goodbye to Elena but she was nowhere. The whole house was empty instead…

"I hope you don't wanna go without a goodbye. " A smirking Damon showed up from out of nowhere.

"Leave me alone Damon." Bonnie sighed tiredly and tried to go next to him but Damon stood in the way again. "You ignored my flowers." The smug smirk was still on his face but his eyes showed deeper emotions which were unreadable. "What do you want from me Damon?" Bonnie snapped when she lost her patience. Damon raised an eyebrow. "Back of witch, I saved your life I think I deserve sweeter voice from you."

Bonnie's eyes narrowed and hissed at Damon. "You don't deserve anything sweet of me." Damon's smirk disappeared he became serious; he just looked into Bonnie's green eyes, speechlessly. After a while he spoke quietly. "I know."

Bonnie tried to not show her surprise, she kept the eye contact. A few moments later Damon stepped aside to let Bonnie walk away.

Bonnie rushed down on the stairs and opened the door. She didn't want to think of Damon's behave. She didn't care, Damon's always playing games. She won't let him playing with her. She opened the car door and threw her bag to the backseat then sat in the car and started the engine.

She has to stay in the car when she arrived. She hated that house and she hated she is alone. She needed her friends more than anything. But she is alone, again.

She got up, took her bag and walked toward the front door. She unlocked the door and opened it. When she stepped inside, she had frozen.

"We think the 'Surprise!' is not appropriate so we choose this lame silence 'we're so sorry' look with sad eyes and a cake…" Caroline smiled at Bonnie with a huge cake in her hand. The room was full with Bonnie's friends. Everybody was there: Caroline, Elena, Stefan, Matt, Tyler, Jeremy even Alaric. They all looked guilty and regretful.

"But…what's this cake? There's not my birthday.." Bonnie was confused, happy, surprised and sad at once.

"Yeah…it's a kind of 'please forgive us, we don't deserve you, you mean a lot to us' cake. We wanted to apologize." Tyler has to took away the cake because Caroline's voice broken dangerously. "I love you so much, Bonnie!"

Bonnie rushed to her crying friend and hugged her tightly. "I love you too! I don't mad at you, Caroline. I love you all." She also cried just as Elena who joined to the hugging couple.

After everyone said their own sorry the party started. It wasn't as fun as a birthday party but they tried to having fun even in this sad situation. They talked funny stories, ate cake and even a bottle of liquor turn up from Tyler's pocket. So it wasn't that bad after all…

"I'm sleepy." Caroline yawned and stood up from the couch. "Me too." Elena threw down the blanket and stretched out. The girls stayed, they said they won't let Bonnie to spend the night alone in this house. It was time for a girl night for a long time anyway. "Me three…" said Bonnie too and turn off the television. "Let's go to sleep." The girls agreed and followed Bonnie to the upstairs.

"The bed is mine!" cried Caroline and seated on the bed quickly. Elena rolled her eyes and threw down some pillow onto the floor. "We sleep in the ground Caroline, get off." Caroline looked sulky but lay down onto the thin mattress on the floor. "See, just as we were young" smiled Elena. "Only needed some.."

"Flashlights!" Bonnie stepped in with a flashlight in her hand and took her place between the giggling girls. They covered up their heads with the blanket and Bonnie clicked up the illuminant. "So… let's talk about sex!"

"Caroline!" Elena and Bonnie shouted be at one.

"Why? We grow up or am I wrong?" The two girls just rolled their eyes, laughing. "Okay, so what you wanna talkin' about then?"

"Do you remember when my dad found out we had spend all of the money what was in his credit card?" Bonnie stared at the pillow blankly. Elena reached out her hand and touched her shoulder. "Bonnie…" she whispered. Bonnie shook her head. "Let be his night. I want good memories of him instead the picture of his lifeless body lies on the ground in a blood puddle…"

There was silence for long seconds then Caroline cleared her throat. "Our famous cupcake business…"

"We thought we grow rich from those horrible cupcakes. I think we used melted crayon for gloss…" Elena also joined to the talk. Bonnie laughed and looked at her gratefully. "I thought my dad will kill all of us."

"But he just laughed and he tasted one with a pink heart shaped rubber on the top…" The three friend burst into laughter for this memory. "And when Tyler and Matt dig the whole garden?" Caroline started a new story. "Tyler said her mother didn't let her dig…when your dad saw the garden he looked at the boys with a serious expression on his face, he said he amazed by their job and hired them to do a pool…"

"I remember they quit the same afternoon." Elena laughed at the memory.

"Well at last we know now why loved Tyler so much to dig …" Bonnie said.

"Or why he hated the cats so much…" added Caroline caused a new laugh wave.

They talked until dawn, until they tired of the laughing but then they fall asleep.

Around 4 a.m. Bonnie woke up with a weird feeling. Quietly she get up , tried to not wake her friends up. She stepped over Caroline's arm and Elena's leg and walked toward the door. When she opened it, pure anger filled her whole body. She picked up the white tulip and left the house.

oooOOooo

"Damon!"

Damon sat on the bed and he was reading. It was 4 a.m. but he was still awake. He couldn't sleep for long time. He heard the angry voice and the aggressive knocking and get out of the bed to open the door.

"I thought you can't sleep without me little witch." HE looked at Bonnie with his annoying smirk. "Have you missed me already?"

Bonnie ignored his words and stepped closer with the flower in her hand. "Oh, so you got it."

"Stop sending me these! You can't make things right whit a white tulip! Don't play like you do care for me because I know you don't. That flower only shows your guilt! You don't need to make things right because you just can't. I don't know what to I think, I don't know why are you doing this? As I said Elena never will love you! These flowers won't change that so stop it! Leave me alone, Damon! I'm not your toy! You took everything from me! Everything! My Grams, my life, my father, my power! I'm here to ask you, leave me alone. Keep your tulips and stay away from me. " Bonnie pushed the flower into Damon's hard chest. Damon took it; he not said a word just looked deeply into the green eyes. "I understand." Finally he said faintly. Bonnie nodded then turned and left Damon behind.

Damon stepped inside his room, slammed the door and looked around. At least a hundred spell books lay around, covered everything. Some of them were big, some were covered by dust and some of their pages were bloody. Damon picked up the nearest from the table and threw it to the wall with an angry growl. When the book falls down, it opened from the marked page. The title said: 'Witches without power'.

Music: My new discovery: the whole Amaryllis album by Shinedown. It's awesome (maybe a little depressing...) if you like the alternative/rock music... :) {Miracle,Amaryllis, I'll follow you would be beautiful Bamon songs :) }