Damon felt nothing at all. The emptiness filled his whole body like a cold and lonely ghost. He could go after her but what's the point? He pushed Elena but he can't control Bonnie. If that's what she wants to do, he won't force her to like him. He has to accept her decision. After all, she was right. She deserves someone better. They are not meant to be together. It would be best if he forgets her.

Damon wasn't angry nor was he hurt. He was nothing. He felt nothing.

He felt nothing when he stepped into the living room and saw Elena alone. „Where were you? Where's Bonnie? What...what did you do together?" He saw a strange sparkle in the girl's eyes but he felt nothing when he asked „Are you jealous?" Elena opened her mouth then closed them again. "Do I have a reason to be jealous?"

Damon smiled but he felt nothing when he slowly walked to her and smoothed her soft cheek slightly. His feelings didn't change when he leaned down; his cold breath gave goose bumps to the white skin. Elena put her hands on his chest but too lightly to take it as a real remonstrance. "Damon don't…" the other half of the sentence fell onto deaf ears as the soft lips placed on his and her resistant hands caressed the hard chest unwillingly. "You know that you're the only one what I love." Damon realized how easy it was to say those magic words even if it meant nothing at all.

He felt nothing when he lifted up the girl to then carry her to his room. His head was empty when he laid her down on his bed and undressed her in slow motions. His lips covered the hot body with soft kisses while his hands caressed her tenderly but when he looked into her big brown eyes, he felt nothing. It was as if he was watching from the outside. He saw the two wet bodies moving together, heavy panting, pleasure on the girl's face but he felt nothing. Not even when her body tensed then collapsed onto his chest. He finally got her but he didn't care at all because his heart was locked up and Elena was not the one who owned the key.

He wasn't surprised when a few minutes later Elena sat up and looked at him terrified. "What…no…you…what did you do to me? Oh my God. Oh my God!" She quickly picked her clothes up and rushed to the bathroom. "You can't anyone especially not Stefan. I will kill you if you talk to him about this. I…I wasn't myself. It was a huge mistake." She came out when she dressed and walked out the door immediately not even looking back at a nude Damon who still sat motionlessly on the bed not caring about a word coming out of her mouth. "It won't happen again." That was the last thing she said before she snapped the door loudly.

Damon knew very well that this wasn't the end of their empty relationship and he was right. It was only the beginning of their dirty little secret.

oooOOooo

Bonnie stood in the middle of the room, her heart bounced so hard like a bird in a cage. Her hands shook from the ecstasy. She closed her eyes; a smile of satisfaction disappeared on the corner of her thin lips. She used magic. After all this time without it, she almost forgot how it felt to perform spells. This power and that spell…that spell was unearthly. The feeling she had when she did it…she has to feel it again. She opened her eyes and smiled in satisfaction as she watched a warm flame lighten onto her right palm.

"Are you satisfied? See, I told you nothing but the truth. This power is huge and now it's all yours." Katherine smirked at Bonnie. Bonnie saw something on her smirk, something that immediately brought her back to reality. Katherine smirked at her like they were partners…buddies—like she would be someone with whom she could have fun with. Like she would be just like her. She clenched her fist and the flame was gone.

And that was the moment when her glance caught the dead body lying on the floor. "I killed him." She shook her head slowly like she would try to deny her deed even though it was clearly undeniable. The man's face was twisted with pain flashed in her mind. He begged her for help and she still went on and killed him for the sole reason of having her powers back with her. Is it really worth the death of someone?

Katherine only shrugged with a boring expression on her face. "He would've die anyway. You only eased the pain."

"I killed him! I am a murderer!"

"Don't worry; the guilt will disappear after some more killing. Believe me, it will be fun and you will enjoy every moment of it. Just stop fighting against it."

Bonnie looked at the vampire with disbelief, panic and fear. She remembered how good it felt when she cast that spell; how her whole body tingled during the chanting and how much she enjoyed the darkness. Because it was pure darkness, she felt it in her fingertips for the first time when that paper smoothed against her shaking hand but she never thought that the darkness had such a huge and intoxicating amount of power. It is dangerous and she has no idea about the mess that she has gotten herself into. She already killed someone and according to Katherine's words, it was only the beginning.

"Now that that's done, we can go pay a visit to dear Klaus. He will tell you what your next task will be." Katherine turned her back on her and was about to leave the room when suddenly, she screamed out in pain and held her head.

"I'm not going with you. I won't do this. Klaus can't tell me what to do." Bonnie stopped the brain killing and rushed out of the room and soon enough, the house. When the two vampires in the room started to prepare their sprint to bring her back, Katherine smirked and lifted her hand elegantly to stop them.

"Leave her alone. In her own time, she will come back."

oooOOooo

Bonnie squeezed the steering wheel with so much strength that her fingertips whitened. The man's screaming echoed in her head like some kind of morbid song stuck in your head. What was she thinking? This was the worst decision that she has ever made in her life. She should have chosen Damon. Her power is worth nothing without him and without anybody to enjoy it with. She needed her friends and even more, she needed Damon. Bonnie sighed and wiped away a teardrop with the back of her hand in the hopes that Damon will forgive her the same way she had forgiven him.

The GPS said she is an hour away from Mystic Falls. She has plenty of time to think and figure out a speech and as well as a plan to explain everything to everyone. No matter what, she has to protect her friends and Damon from Klaus. He will come after her for sure. As Katherine said, he needs a witch with her capacity of power and she's the available and most reachable candidate. Those spells of the collection require incredible power and it's very rare. As it turns out, this power is useless and dangerous without its owner.

She went back to thinking about Damon again. She made a mistake but she's going to try and fix it. She didn't have enough trust in him but she's going to change that point of view. Maybe Damon will get close to her again. If not, they could be friends again and with time maybe…

She thought about their kiss. If there was any better feeling in the world to ever exist other than casting that spell, it was Damon's kiss. She smiled and could almost feel the soft lips tenderly smoothing to hers. She never thought that in the end she will be the one who will beg for Damon's forgiveness. At least she realized her bad choice in time.

First of all she has to talk with Elena. She lied to her but Damon has to know that she has trust in their relationship or whatever it is. So she's going to tell her that she spent the last few days with him as well as the magical kiss.

When she saw the Mystic Falls signboard, her stomach twitched. Everything that she made up as an attempt to a good speech suddenly started to sound really ridiculous. 'I'm sorry I left you Damon and choose my power instead of you but I'm here now and don't plan on going back anytime soon. Can we continue where we left off?' Ridiculous.

She stopped the engine and took a few deep breaths. It's better if she does this fast and not elongate the time so she got out of the car and forced her legs to step to the wooden door as she proceeded to gently knock on it.

She sighed of relief when Elena opened the door.

"Hey, I know it's late, sorry if I wake you up."

Elena shook her head. There was something strange in her eyes, like she was hiding something. "No, Bonnie. Don't worry I was awake. Come in."

Bonnie followed her to the living room. She couldn't help but look around nervously waiting for a pair of scornful icy blue eyes. "Where are the boys? Upstairs?"

Elena lowered her eyes and bit her lower lip as she shook her head. "They are not here. Stefan has some business and…Damon" Elena got quiet and played with her fingers awkwardly.

"Is something wrong Elena? You're acting a little weird." Bonnie eyed the other girl and tried to figure out the reason for her strange behavior.

"I'm fine. There is nothing wrong. What about you? Where were you? What happened?"

Bonnie sighed and looked at the girl who was finally able to look into her green eyes. "Listen Elena, I have to tell you something. Damon and I…"

"I slept with him." It was like a stab on the back in all of a sudden. They both weren't sure who was the most surprised between the two of them—Elena or her but it was clear who was the most hurt by those words. She wasn't able to speak; pictures flashed in front of her eyes, black and white pictures like an old movie. She and Damon in the room, Damon trying to kiss her, her showing him his diary, Damon pinning her against the wall and last but not least their passionate kiss. The pictures moved faster and faster then suddenly went off and she was consumed with nothing but emptiness.

"I…I don't know what happened to me. I thought that you were in a secret relationship together. Ya I know it's stupid but I think I felt a bit…jealous. When he said he loved me, that I was the only one, I just let him kiss me and after that…I didn't even protest. At first I felt so guilty about it but after giving it a second thought, I…I really…realized that I enjoyed it."

To Elena's biggest surprise Bonnie laughed dryly. "It might be a surprise to you but I don't really care."

Elena's eyes widened as she felt offended by Bonnie's harsh words. Her lips parted as she tried to say something. "I just…I just thought that if I told you this, you wouldn't judge me because you're my friend…"

"Really? So now I am your friend when you need one? It comes in handy, huh?"

"Bonnie I don't understand why you're acting like this. This isn't like you…"

Bonnie shook her head and stood up from the couch. "I'm tired Elena. I'm tired of the Elena Gilbert show. Did you even realize that everything is always about you? You don't care about anyone else but yourself. Stefan loves you more than anything and you cheated on him with his own brother. Don't you see how sick that is? Stefan is a great guy and in my opinion, he deserves someone better. You know what? I hope you and Damon do end up together. You two really deserve each other. You are only playing and using the people who try to love you."

"I love Stefan, I made a mistake. You have to understand my point of view. You know that Damon has always been trying to seduce me because he loves me…I had a weak moment. What would you do if you were me? You would do the same and you know that." In the past, Bonnie would've felt sorry for Elena but now that she was able to see her clearly for who she is, Elena's tears weren't affecting her this time.

"Let me clarify something: I am not the least bit like you. If I love, I love hard. No matter what. I am not able to hurt my loved ones. I would hurt myself instead. If I were you, I would tell Stefan. He deserves to know the truth." With that, Bonnie walked to the door and opened it.

"Where are you going? Bonnie, stay here. We need to talk." Elena tried to stop her friend but Bonnie shook her head and looked at her with a sad smile on her lips.

"It's too late Elena. I'm leaving town. I've talked to Lucy, I need some time alone. I only came back for some stuff. I wanted to say goodbye."

"Say goodbye for how long?"

"For a while…"

oooOOooo

Bonnie was now sitting on Gram's house porch with her head on her lap as she cried silently. She lied to Elena, she didn't talk to Lucy. Honestly she has no idea where she's going to live. Now, she has to figure out where to go but right now she has no idea about the next step she has to take in her life.

She should've known that Damon will always love Elena but she tried to deny it. She tried to believe herself that this time she has a chance too, that this time is not about Elena.

She wasn't even mad at her because of Damon. She was mad at her because of Stefan and because she wasn't able to wait until Bonnie had finished her speech. She wasn't able to wait a freaking sentence until she put her drama in a splat immediately. And she had the nerve to call her 'friend'.

She was more than angry than disappointed. She was angry with herself because she was naïve enough to believe in Damon and her. Damon said it clearly: it will always be Elena. He will always choose her. And yet, he looked so honest when he said he cared about her and he's sorry. His kiss seemed so real, full with feelings, honest feelings but it looks like her senses made her a fool just as it did him. The thing that she feared the most to happen was exactly what had occurred during her absence in town.

"Why are you so sad my dear? Aren't you happy with my gift?"

Bonnie quickly wiped her tears away with her palm and stood up to face the Original. "It can't be a gift when it was mine in the first place." She didn't feel fear, she felt nothing. If Klaus was gonna kill her, who cares? Clearly, no one will miss her and she won't miss anyone.

Klaus smiled a little and he looked like a handsome schoolboy. Bonnie has to remember herself that he is a maniac and a killer to the highest degree.

"I am not talking about your power my dear. I am talking about my precious spell."

Bonnie felt her stomach twitch and her fingertips itch from the memories. Klaus stepped closer to her still smiling. "Isn't it fascinating? Is it not perfect? There is no other spell so intoxicating. You are a lucky young woman to have casted a spell like that my darling."

"I had to kill someone. I am not lucky but damned for the rest of my life." It was a strange feeling what she felt when she was such a proximity to Klaus. His body surprisingly broadcasted warmth instead of coldness, his smile was nice and his eyes showed such firmness and strength—something she had never seen before in him.

"Don't blame yourself my darling; you only saved that man from his suffering." Klaus lifted up his hand to caress Bonnie's chin but she stepped back and narrowed her eyes. "Stop calling me 'darling' I have a name and it's Bonnie." she hissed. Klaus smiled and stepped back as well. "Of course you have, Bonnie."

Bonnie felt a little tingle as he said her name. Suddenly, his distinguished accent had a remarkable effect on her. She tried to protest with the sudden feelings that she felt because they were wrong. She never met this side of her before. It was like a stranger cohabiting inside of her. A darker, stronger, yet more interesting personality than hers.

"Well Bonnie, I would like to show you my whole collection that is if you are interested of course."

Bonnie clenched her jaw; her feelings fought a raging battle inside of her. "You can't force me. I won't come with you I already told Katherine if she didn't give you the memo yet."

To her surprise, Klaus only nodded his head. "Alright my dear witch. I know I can't control such a strong and independent woman like yourself so for now, it will be time for me to bid my goodbye. If you ever change your mind, I will wait for you precious Bonnie." With that he turned and walked into the night.

"Klaus wait!"

The man smiled, the evil look in his eyes could envy his smile but when he turned, his smile was nice and engaging again just like before.

So what do you think? What about Elena? It was right that Damon slept with her just because he was offended?

Music: The Pretty Reckless; Selah Sue- Fade Away