So... It's been a really long time since I've updated. I just haven't really had any inspiration, and I just got my first laptop today and I'm very happy. The keyboard definetly makes typing easier (I used to use my school Ipad), so I am hoping to make longer chapters, slowly but surely getting longer. Here it is:

Simon POV

What have I done?

I made a HUGE mistake. I left my best friend when she needed me the most. Instead of dealing with the fact that she doesn't love me like I love her, I completely ditched her. I became the person she hates and despises. I left her alone in a dark and depressing time. She almost got killed by a car or something and I wasn't there to save her!

I have to go back to my best friend, and get her to forgive me, no matter what it takes.

—

I never thought I'd be doing this, but I guess I am. Standing in front of Clary's house, ready to knock on her door and beg for her forgiveness.

Knock knock

Bright red hair, dull green eyes, not the tallest, it's… Clary's mom?
"Miss Fray? Is Clary here?"

"Not right now, her teacher emailed me and told me that she's in tutoring right now for math with another student, I think it's that Herondale kid." WHAT? I was always the one to help Clary with her homework and finish it when she falls asleep on the couch. Now her mortal enemy is helping her with math because I wasn't there. I wasn't there.

"Do you know when she's going to be back?"

"Within the hour, Simon could you come inside for a little bit?"
"Sure," but I was anything but sure in this situation.

"I was wondering why you didn't come over when Clary was in the hospital, or when she got released? Did you have something else going on?" So Clary was in the hospital and I wasn't there to help her through it.

"Yeah I had to do a lot of other stuff… and my phone dead so I didn't get a text from Clary…"

"Okay Simon," she said while shutting the door, "I want the truth. What's going on with my daughter and you. You are always there for Clary, she would have called your mom if your phone was really dead. You're always around at least twice a week helping Clary with her homework and just hanging out. Now she has to get tutored, and aren't you a tutor as well? And since when have you dressed like that? Simon what's going on?" So do I tell her that I betrayed Clary and lost all her trust, or can I find some way to lie about this?

"Well you see Miss Fairchild, ah screw it. I made a huge mistake with Clary and I basically ruined everything between me and her. I came over here to grovel at her feet for forgiveness."

"So it's only now that you realize what you did Simon" This time the redhead speaking wasn't Miss Fairchild.

Clary POV

After I had agreed to give Jace a chance, he really stepped up his game. He was insanely nice, generous, and was really patient when I didn't understand something. I even tested him on it.

(Btw I'm in seventh grade and I can't take advance math classes until next year, so this problem isn't at their grade level, and probably wrong, but oh well!)

"So the answer's 5x is more than three right?"

"No Clary, when you are dividing by a negative number, the inequality sign flips."
"So then then this is graphing it correctly?" I gestured, at my incorrect graph.

"Not that either, because for negative numbers, the number line is switched. and you have to finish the final step, which is dividing both sides by 5, so the answer would be x3/5." He responded with a strained voice and pink face. It was almost too easy…

"But why do you have to do all of that work it's so complicated. And what would you do for the graph? Would you graph integers or fractions?"
"Fractions, and negatives are different on the number line so graphing the circle and line are switched Clary!"

"Oops."
"You know what, I think that we're done for today."

"Alright then see you tomorrow then," I replied ready to walk out the door.

"Clary do you have a ride home?"
"Actually not today, I think Jon was supposed to give me a ride but I'm guessing he forgot."
"Or it could be that we have football practice today that doesn't end for another hour or so."
"I have to wait here for an entire hour? I actually finished all my homework?" The one time!

"How about I drive you home?"
"I think I'll wait."
"Clary, I need to earn your forgiveness and for that I need a chance." Okay I'm giving you a chance now, to get out of this conversation before you regret it.

"Well sorry if less then a week ago you were constantly tormenting me and now we have to be all buddy-buddy." The dejected look in his eyes was there in less then a second, why does he have to make this so hard for me?"

"Clary I promise to never hurt you like that again, I will make sure that if anything I protect you and that I've changed for the better. I used to only care about myself and always go along with whatever Aline made me do. Now I realize what I've done was selfish and terrible and just wrong. You're the one who made me realize all of that Clary. No I'm not doing this out of guilt towards you or anything else. I feel that we've never met the real version of each other and I would really like to know you better, if you would let me."

"Okay." Then the hope is back in his bright golden eyes.

"Then let's get in this car and take you home!" Jace hollers, pumping his fist in the air. Then there's a smile. A real smile, not the normal smirk that's always been on his face. A genuine smile. Maybe I did make the right decision. I can only hope I'm right.

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"We have arrived at your destination milady." Jace says with a goofy smile, opening my door. Jace Wayland a gentlemen. Who would have thought?
"Why thank you Mr. Wayland."

"So when do you want me to tu-"

"…with Clary," that voice, why is Simon in my house? "and I basically ruined everything between me and her. I came over here to grovel at her feet for forgiveness."

"So it's only now that you realize what you did Simon" I was his best friend for years and it takes him weeks to figure out what he did wrong? I was at an all time low in my life and he just sat on the side with Aline, laughing and mocking me. He even fed her information to use against me!

"Clary." From that one word, I can instantly tell everything that he's feeling. The regret, hurt, sorrow, misery. We've always been able to read each other in a moments glance. Still processing it he rushes over to me, encasing me in a bone-breaking hug. "Clary."

"Simon, air."
"Sorry! Look Clary I am so sorry for what I did. It was out of rage and I didn't think it through at all and I made you suffer, I wasn't able to help you get through your injury, or do any of the things I'd promised to do since we were kids and I am so so sorry for what I did, and I'll spend the rest of my life asking for your forgiveness." Do I forgive him for everything that he did wrong? I mean what he did was terrible, something I would never even think about doing, but I can't hate Simon. I've been trying to but it never works. Whether I like it or not, I need him.

"Simon what you did was wrong, and I really really want to hate you, but I can't. That doesn't mean that you're off the hook though, I still want you as a friend but only as a friend until I can fully forgive you."

"Of course Clary I fully understand and thank you so much for giving me another chance. I promise that I won't ever betray you like that again." There's the light in his chocolate brown eyes I haven't seen in a while.

It was nice having my best friend back, as just a friend. If only my mom and Jace hadn't witnessed the entire thing…

I hope it was worth the wait, I just had to have Simon realize what he did, because I realized that people don't normally do that but he loved her and it all went downhill. I just really needed to do that. I should be updating more frequntly!