What? An update the day after I posted something? I told you the new laptop was inspriation. I'll try to update much more frequently, but I'm using a couple chapters to try and go more into the backstories of characters, and really explaining their role, and their flaws. No Mary Sues, at least I'll try to. Also, to the guest who commented on ch. 18 asking to be my best friend. PM me! I am a crazy fangirl who loves talking to other book lovers. But don't bring up Will Herondale unless you want me to go into a hour rant on why he is the MOST AMAZING FICTIONAL CHARACTR.

Jocelyn POV

What had that boy done to my daughter that caused her to not even talk to him. Clary can never even stay angry at him. Not even when he embarrassed her in front of the entire school!

Flashback

"Simon leave me alone I don't want to talk to you!" My daughter was racing towards the car, heavy tears streaming down her pale cheeks in waterfalls. My motherly senses we put on overdrive, and I was jumping out of the minivan that would sonly be replaced.

"Simon just leave her alone. Haven't you done enough already?" There was Jon with his shining platinum hair, every glance at it was a stab to the heart. A reminder of a man that once brought me so much joy. The divorce was still fresh in my mind, along with the marks that would always remain. They were so close now, Jon was so protective of her. I could only hope that he would help her though her past when I'm not around.

Both of them hopped in the van, Clary slamming the door harshly. Guess I had to just drive.

"Give it a little bit Simon, I'll see you later." That made the kid feel a little better right? Simon was like my own son and he was crushed. What happened anyway?

"Clary what happened?" I asked while shifting the car into drive.

"Simon told the entire class that I liked Sebastian Verlac!"

"Well do you?"
"No I don't! I was talking about him during art because he was so annoying and he called me little red riding hood! Then I told him to leave me alone, then Simon thought that he was teasing me because he liked me. Then he thought that I liked him! He screamed it in front of the entire class and now the entire grade probably thinks that I like him!" So much drama for fourth grade.

"Clary I'm sure that Simon was just kidding about it and that he didn't mean it. Besides it will all blow over soon. Did he at least apologize?"
"That's all he did after school."
"At least he apologized and was too close to Clary that I couldn't throw a punch at him."
"Jon! Don't go punching my best friend!"
"What he did was wrong Clary."
"But I'm sure that it was an accident and he seemed really sorry!"

"See Clary even you agree that what Simon said was an accident. How about tomorrow you say that you forgive him and go back to being best friends." Jon was a clever one with his words. I feared for his teachers sometimes.

The next day Clary and Simon were back and running as best friends, and the lie blew over eventually

End flashback

Simon and Clary just couldn't bear to be apart. And from what I can tell, this has been going on for a while. How could I not have noticed what my daughter was going through? She was right a week ago when she said that I was only obsessed with my own self pity after Valentine was gone. I could hardly even talk to my son now from the resemblance that he had. You're hardly even a mother anymore Jocelyn. You couldn't even make sure that your own daughter is alright. And when was the last time that you held a conversation with your son?

I promised myself that I would get my act up and restore the bonds with both my children. I have to do this.

Whatever it takes

Clary POV

To most it would have seemed like I was giving Simon a second chance. It was like that but I wasn't that forgiving. It's like when you're on probation in school. Anything wrong and you don't get a second chance.

Just like my situation with Jace. Speaking of Jace…

"Yeah so Clary I'll see you some other time for tutoring." Jace awkwardly said as he scratched his neck. Not awkward at all…

With that he walked out the door, one less person to deal with.

"So Clary would you like me to leave you alone to talk with Simon?"

"That's alright I think that me and Simon got everything settled." Even though I "forgave" him, The thought of having to stay with him longer than absolutely possible was not too appealing.

Of course the look Simon had in his eyes was pained, but I needed time to process all of this.

"I'll see you tomorrow then Clary."

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"Clary can I talk to you for a minute?" My mom's gentle knock and kind voice a reminder of all the lying I've done in the past month. When did my life turn into this?

"Sure."

"So after what happened with Simon and what you said to me earlier, please don't interrupt, I realized something. You were right Clary. This entire time I've been neglecting you and your brother and I've been… so so unbelievable selfish." Her voice broke, and a collection of tears poured out from her dim green eyes. "I never should have don that to you, you used to tell me everything and I was always there for you. Now I can't do anything to help you, I couldn't even tell that you were hurting inside. I don't deserve to call yourself my daughter."
"Mom, I was the one who lied and drifted away from you. This is all my fault." Now I was crying, my bed collecting puddles of tears.

"Clary I promised to never shut you out and go back to the shell of a person you were before if you would just forgive me and let me be the mother that you deserve." It seems that everyone needs a second chance today… But this time it was what I had been hoping for for years. For my mother to finally wake up and be who I needed her to be.

"And I won't shut you out and lie anymore."
We embraced, bawling our eyes out. Just like we had many years ago thinking about the man that ruined everything…

Funny story, the same thing happened with me and one of my best friends in 3rd grade (the flashback scene) in art, but it was with this actor. I was only mad at him until after school.