Yeah, another update. I can't believe I got an idea this fast, but I thought that it was time to bring Simon back into this. A big thanks to everyone who followed, favorited, or reviewed my story, it gives me the inspiration to keep on writing! Even if I may not be so good…
Simon
Existing the band room, I thought that I would just be able to go home. What I didn't know, was that I would watch a full-on fight, that was centered around around Clary. I saw her crash into Sebastian, and I saw him trying to talk to her.
I was about to attempt to pull him off her, but then Jace came in. Like a wrecking ball if I might add. He started a full on battle with Sebastian. And even though I hate to admit it, I'm a little thankful that he was there. I mean, what is a band geek supposed to do against a jock? Nothing really…
But it's my fault Clary is in this situation anyways. I mean she told me her schedule, Clary should have been in tutoring at that time. The tutoring that I used to tutor. I was her everything, and then I threw it all away. Clary's grades were always poor in math, but I was there to help her through it. I would help her get through everything.
But I can't anymore. I regret everything that I did against her. I was such an idiot! And it took me so long-too long-to realize what I did. I abandoned her, just because she didn't feel the same. Now all that Clary is around me, is tense. I can tell from her posture that she isn't fully comfortable around me. But you know who she conferable around?
Jace.
I know that Clary is starting to forgive him-she explained the whole process where he's trying to earn her forgiveness. But she never tensed like she used to when his name was brought up. That could just be from how tense she already is around me.
Well I thought she was comfortable around him.
That argument in the hall proved different. Well whatever that was. I could only hear some of it, but I don't think I needed words during that brawl. All I know is Sebastian tried to pull something on Clary, and Jace fought Sebastian because of that. But she seemed to be furious with both of them. Then Jace pleaded forgiveness, and it seemed that Clary forgave him. And she seemed enraged!
How had Jace managed to calm Clary down enough for her to forgive him?
If I had to describe Clary in one word, it would be stubborn. Clary never thinks straight when she's mad, and she always sets her mind on something, and never stops thinking/doing it. Something is happing between them. I'm certain of it.
Wait… Does Clary… like Jace?
"Ow. What happened?" I had to resit the urge to laugh at a clueless looking Sebastian. To see a popular-practically king-on the ground, clutching themselves in pain, priceless.
Think Simon. Do you tell him, or watch what happens?
"Hey you! What happened to me?" Well that rules out that option.
"You got beat to the ground by Jace." I haughtily replied, enjoying the fact that Sebastian was in so much pain that nothing could happen to me. The populars already hate me for leaving them.
"Jace Wayland?"
"No, the other Jace in our school. Yes Jace Wayland."
"Don't play jokes with me," he suddenly took on a serious tone "I can ruin you."
"You are already trying your hardest to do that, I don't think that you can do any worse." I said, finding confidence in myself. Why was I always pushed around?
"Oh really? So it would be just fine if I told the entire school who much you love Clary."
"I-I'm not in love with Clary." Why was my voice sputtering?
"Obviously." Sebastian said, his voice dripping with sarcasm. "Look. Just give up on her. She doesn't love you back, and she will never love you like you love her. It's really sad seeing you chasing her around, trying to win her back." How does he know so much?
"Why should I listen to you? For all I know, you could be in love with Clary, trying to steer me off course."
"Do you think that I would even like that flat-chested midget? Even you think that idea is stupid, so why don't you listen to me. Clary loving you is out of the picture. Move on already! Get over her! She's just a girl, there's billions more."
"It's not my fault that you're a cold and heartless creature. I can't think of a single reason why Jace shouldn't have beat you to the ground." I bitterly spat out, the truth being too much to handle.
"Whatever. Just don't cry when she keeps on rejecting you." With that, Sebastian slowly stood up, and hobbled away. Leaving me to ponder his words.
Do I move on from loving my best friend? It's not just that, but can I open my heart to love again? Can I open my heart up to the possibility of another heartbreak? Can I love her, but only as a friend?
It seemed like I have two options.
Option One: I continue loving Clary, even though I know she will never feel the same. But I don't let my heard risk further breaking.
Option Two: I find it in me to move on from Clary, and allow myself to love again. I may never find someone like Clary, but I can stop myself from the pain of her never loving me.
It seemed my choice was clear.
It wouldn't be easy, but I had to do it for myself.
I had to love Clary, but only as a friend.
So? What did you think? I'm trying to get more emotion and feelings from the characters. Sorry if you think it's moving too slow though…
Review Responses:
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