Hey, sorry for being MIA for a month! I am so sorry, I got wrapped up in summer and this impossible English course my teacher recommended for me. I actually have this big test that I should be studying for, but I was so upset that I had to write.

I just have to do a rant about the attack on Pulse, in Orlando. I almost cried when I heard about it, and I am crying as I write this. I can't believe the nerve of a man who, may I remind you, WAS ON A FRIGGIN GAY DATING SITE A COUPLE OF MONTHS BEFORE HE DECIDED TO ATTACK ON SAME GENDER COUPLES. LIKE WHAT IS WRONG WITH THAT! YOU SHOULD NOT HURT SOMEONE JUST BECAUSE YOU DON'T BELIEVE IN WHAT THEY BELIEVE IN. THERE ARE NOW SO MANY BROKEN FAMILIES AND RELATIONSHIPS, FROM ONE IDIOT'S RECKLESS ACTIONS. THERE HAVE BEEN MORE MASS SHOOTINGS IN THE USA THIS YEAR, THAN DAYS IN THE YEAR. AND IT'S ONLY GOING TO GET WORSE. THERE IS A IIWAY TO GET YOUR VOICE HEARD, AND THAT IS NOT THE WAY. ESPECIALLY IF YOU ARE HURTING OTHERS FOR YOUR OWN PERSONAL GAIN. THAT JUST MAKES IT WORSE. I HOPE THAT BASTARD ROTS IN HELL FOR WHAT HE DID!

Anyways… huge shoutout to Amma Lightstairs, and a guest that commented earlier for the inspiration for this chapter!

(Sorry I haven't looked it over for grammar, I promise I'll do it tomorrow. I just wanted to bet this up because I've been gone for so long.)

Aline

Have you ever made a decision, good or bad, that just completely changed your life? Ever made a choice that was just so colossal, you can't even believe where you are now? With me and Clary confessing to each other about our troubled pasts, we are now best friends.

Although it was a bit of a difficult transition. More like a really difficult transition. Jon was hesitant at first, but he easily agreed with Clary. He cares about his sister so much. Simon was the one who had a serious problem with me.

Flashback to a couple days ago

"You sure that I can eat lunch with you and your friends?" I can't lie, I'm insanely nervous about eating lunch with Clary and her friends. So many things could go wrong. I know that Jon just agreed to this yesterday, and I haven't even talked to Simon yet.

"Of course! I just told Simon yesterday, and Jace and Jon are totally fine with it. Besides, everything's cool now." Clary's voice was calm and soothing, gentle as a mother's touch. Something I haven't had in a very long time

Approaching a lunch table has never been so terrifying. What if it's all a trick? What if this is all a scheme to hurt me? What if-

"So she actually showed." Simon says, annoyance rippling off of him.

"Simon!"

"What Clary? What am I supposed to think?" Simon practically shouted, pointing an accusing finger at me. This is exactly what I was afraid of. I knew they wouldn't accept me in their group. I'm never going to fit in anywhere.

"Simon's right, I've caused you enough trouble. I think that I'll just go eat lunch somewhere else."

"No!" Clary shouted, stopping me in my tracks.

"Aline, you can eat lunch here, no problem." Jon started, "it's just a bit of an adjustment."
"Guys, it's no problem. I'll just eat somewhere else." Not that I want to, but I don't want to start anymore drama. Angel knows I've had enough of that…

"See! She agrees."
"Okay Simon that is enough." Jace states, leaning over him like prey and predator. It's pretty obvious who was who. "How dare you speak to Aline like that, criticizing her for who she used to be! You turned on your best friend and hurt her so badly. Then she forgave you and we accepted you. So you want our forgiveness but we can't give to anyone else? If that is all that you want, then just leave." Mouth gaping, I swear Clary was about to kiss him.

"Whatever," Simon stated, stomping away like a five-year old.

"Hey, I'll go talk to him. Just chill." Then Clary left me alone with Jon and Jace. Not awkward at all…

End Flashback

Clary said that she sorted everything out with Simon. But his body language says otherwise. Around me, he's stiff, give short and curt responses, and he tries to avoid me. But it's only Simon, I can tolerate it.

All I know, is ever since the girl's locker room about two weeks ago, my entire personality has flipped. I have best friend I've always dreamed of, I smile now at others, and I don't have people shrinking away from my view. It actually feels quite nice to be treated as an equal to other people.

Everything has changed for the better, except my father. And Simon. "Dad" is one problem that I will never get rid of. Can't wait until I'm 18!

But everything else is spectacular. Can't lie about that. Clary is so fun to hang out with, I've never had a girl friend to talk and have sleepovers with. The same goes with her, since her best friend over the years was Simon. It feels… amazing to be able to trust someone for once.

For so long I've been ignoring people and keeping all of my emotions bottled up. Having someone to unload on, someone who can understand what it's like to go home everyday with fear, is the best feeling in the world. Clary is someone who I can trust, even after all that I've done to her over the years.

Now I'm at Helen Blackthorn's house, working on our Julius Caesar presentation.

Helen, she's something else. Even when I was the old me, Helen never tore away from my glance or called me a slut behind my back, like other girls did. She always gave me a friendly smile, then went on with her business.

Helen is special, and she never treated me like everyone else did. She shows kindness to everyone, and never looks away. Even though it's just a partner project, I still don't deserve even that.

Don't deserve her kindness, her gentle smiles, her rosy lips that looks so kiss-Wait WHAT?

I can't like Helen! I can't think about her in that way! It goes against how I was raised, and if my father ever found out… He would kill me. That bigoted pig would find out somehow. Besides, society seems to hate same gender relationships. The mass shootings are proof of that. Those poor couples. I can't imagine what those families are going through.

Besides, why would Helen every like someone like me? A hurt, obnoxious, person never gets liked.

"Aline, you there?" Helen quietly asked, looking at me with those gorgeous blue-green eyes.

"Yeah, just thinking about this project."

"It is quite annoying to have to write this 5 page paper."
"Well I think that we should just stab Caesar so we don't have to do this silly paper."
"That is totally my favorite movie of all time! I literally memorized the entire quote!" How have I never noticed how pretty her laugh is?

"Same!"

"Why should Caesar get to stomp around like a giant-"
"while the rest of us try not to get smushed under his big feet?" I finished, my grin as large as Helen's.

-An hour later-

Conversation with Helen flew by so easy. We laughed, and had a great time. We even managed to finish the essay, while quoting our favorite movie.

Who knew school could be so fun?

"And that should do it. Hallelujah."

"I know right."

Looking up from my laptop, I found myself staring right into those beautiful eyes. The eyes that seemed to be looking into my soul. It was terrifying and mesmerizing at the same time. I just couldn't tear my gaze away.

Screw it, I thought, and started leaning in.

Jace

Is a date supposed to be this nerve-wrenching? Are simple steps to her door supposed to feel like my feet are in quicksand? Why am I feeling this way? How is Clary making me fall apart without a word?

I guess that's what it feels like to really are about someone.

What if she hates my guts? What if Jon kicks me out before I can speak with her? What if-

Calm down dude. Just relax and be yourself. One foot in front of the other. Good you made it to the door. Now knock and get ready.

"Come in," answers my date's brother. "I feel like I should give you a threatening speech, but something tells me that you won't screw up."
Don't look at me with those accusing eyes!

"No sir-I mean Jonathan-I mean Jon." Way to play it cool. Idiot.

"You. Are. A. Nervous. Wreck!" He gets out in-between laughs. more like snorts.

"What is that racket?" A voice asks, and what I see next renders me unable to move.

That's a wrap! Thanks again to everyone who takes time to read my terrible grammar that i call fanfiction. If you want anything to happen for Clace's date, respond, and I'll try!

Review Responses: (That may sound generic, but they are 100% not.)

LunaNight9: That sounds like an amazing book! Congratulations on coming up with what sounds like an amazing book. I can hardly write in 3rd person, and a different gender perspective… Claps to you!

Fanfiction and Chocolate: Thank you so much! Sorry it's so late! XD

lazyfangirl: I'll see what I can do…

Guestvn:Thanks, I do have a lot of errors in this story though. I'm trying to edit better, and this story is far from over.

RosesAreBloos475: Great name, and that's so sweet! There are defiantly a ton more chapters because I make them so short. And there's always drama in this story!

Amma Lightstairs: I have you to thank for this chapter, anymore great ideas? Also, thank you!

Fangirl89723: I think that may happen in the future, thanks for the idea!

Eliza1327: Oh Jon definitely isn't going to let Jace off the hook. I expect someone to get grilled after the date…

WriterGirlJB: Absolutely! Someone else has probably used the term too, and I would love to read your series someday!

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A huge thank you to anyone who leaves positive comments on this story, and to everyone's great ideas! It just makes me so happy every time I read one!

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