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Judar slowly began to wake from where he laid in an underground hideaway, Ja'far had just left and in his stead lingered the stinging words of harsh honesty.

"You have him around your finger, make him so reckless, and you don't even seem to care about him." Ja'far uncharacteristically spat into a corner as he stormed from the room, "Just what has changed about you that that idiot claims to see, because you are still the troublesome hassle you once were."

Groaning softly from the weight of his own body, and the weight in his heart, Judar gingerly pulled himself up. Sin… His heart hurt as he soaked in Ja'far's words, no matter what he did he hadn't really changed, and it stung to realize that the freckled General was right. When did I ever tell Sin how I feel? How could that idiot even understand I loved him, when all I ever said was how much I hate him… I may have stopped attempting to take his life, but I would still purposely hurt him for the thrill of it.

Putting his head between his knees was what alerted the sore Magi that one, he was naked (aside from the sheet), and that two, his hair was still wildly blanketing him since Sin had decided to break the ties. A bitter scoff left him, the feeling of being so vulnerable sinking him further into the darkness, I haven't changed, how could he think that?! A miserable groan leaving him as he drew further into himself just in time to hear the sounds of hurried footsteps, the panic that seized his heart shocked the ravenette, immediately his Rukh sought out the approaching figures'. When his little black birds settled amongst the slowly puring of Haku's Judar released the breath he hadn't realized he had caught. He could also feel the immensely pure Rukh of that Baby Magi and his Fool's Candidate.

Shrinking further into himself, peering at the door through his bangs, as Hakuryuu walked in slowly and calling out to the other two, "Wait there guys," before continuing into the room and carefully made his way to the Magi.

"Sin gave himself over, didn't he?" Judar whispered as he dropped his head back to his knees, no longer fixing his turmoil-filled crimsons to the familiar two-toned azures of his favorite Prince. The younger raven nodded his head as he took in the normally prideful man before him, Judar looked so small just a fraction of himself, as now a small tremble began to shift his pale shoulders.

"Judar? Are you crying?" Hakuryuu took another step forward, feeling the Rukh in room spiraling in a frenzy, "Judar…", frigid wind whipped past him with enough force to almost force him backwards. The sound of chocked sobs reaching his ears as the Prince took in the sight of his friend, Judar is actually crying… this isn't a ruse…

The First Class Singularity flashed through Judar's mind, the carefree smile the idiot always bore, the always open arms he offered, the warmth of his Rukh, the promises he spoke, the promises he kept -all of them-, all the good and love that the violet haired man had bestowed him flickering through his mind. Every chance the man could radiate light into his dark world he did, and Judar only recently stopped brushing it off as though it was mendacity.

"HE'S AN IDIOT!" The depraved male bellowed into his knees as he cried into the sheet that covered knees, "I'm an… idiot…" He meekly croaked, "to think that I would ever be free, that I could ever change!" The room got colder every second until the point that Hakuryuu could see his own breath as shiver ran up spine. If I hadn't of believed him, he would still be free. The Bitch is going to kill him, to get me back… I won't ever see him-!

"What are you talking about?" Both raven's shot the new voice in the room a look, Haku's one of relief but the older Magi's one of grief and anger, Aladdin entered followed by Alibaba as he continued, "I think you've changed."

"No haven't! I…" never told Sin how I truly felt, "I… didn't stop Sin… I haven't escaped Kou… Al'Thamen… if I really did Sin would be here… I would have… been honest…" Crimson broke from sapphire as the eye's owner sobbed the last words, his face coloring a bit more from something other than crying.

"I know you have, Judar." Aladdin said easily as he walked forward, through the blizzard-like winds like it wasn't there, the glow on his forehead indicating he was tapping into Solomon's Wisdom to assist himself.

A half-heart glare cutting his teary eyes into slits, a nervous feeling taking over his stomach as the memory of what that magic did to him played through his mind absently, "How do you know!" Judar spit out with a shaky amount of venom. I had every chance to prove to Sin that I shared his feelings, that I was ready to fully be free...

"Because we can see it, idiot." Alibaba spoke up as he finally moved from the doorway and to stand behind his filling-out Magi.

The bluenette shaking his head at the blonde for his last word of choice before redirecting his attention to the elder in the room, "Most of your Rukh is White, like Sin's, and they are all crying with you. Don't you see? Can't you hear what they're saying, Judar?" He paused long enough for Judar to listen to the sad chirping and to realize what name they were crying for… what they were saying…

Don't leave us…

We love Sinbad.

Come back to us...

"Are they saying what you couldn't yet? Is that why you think you haven't changed?" Aladdin inquired as he stooped down, clasping one of each color from Judar's Rukh, and presenting it to the Darker Magi. "Could you not see the way the White Rukh flourished around you two, or did you assume they were all Sinbad's?" The youngest questioned curiously, a smile tugging up his cheeks.

The birds crying for Sin, for Judar to open up, for him to acknowledge them, that it will be okay. Judar sat up as he scooped the little fledglings into his own hands looking at them in wonder, no he hadn't paid them much attention since he came to Sindria for the last time because he wasn't alone anymore, the distraught dulling of his eyes slowly brightening as more of his Rukh fluttered into his open palms. Is there really a chance for me?

"You have changed, but you still have a ways to go, Judar. We believe in you, but can you believe in yourself?" Aladdin said softly as he stood back up and smiled widely, the same foolish grin that once used to piss Judar off, as the older Magi started to smile before looking down saddened again, worrying his lower lip.

"How can I when the last thing that Sin heard me say is how I hate him? When all he did was show me his love… He's an idiot. He couldn't know what I had really meant… But he goes and gets himself taken before I can even…" An exasperated sigh stopped his rambling as Alibaba slid his hand down his face before fixing his ochroid eyes with the pools of blood staring wide at him in surprise.

"Oh come on, you really think so little of King Sinbad? We used to be enemies and I can tell you love him, you're the idiot, Judar. If you think that Sin would think otherwise you aren't as great an actor as you claim to be, because it's blatantly obvious just how much you love him. Even if you don't say it, you show it." As Alibaba paused to inhale Hakuryuu cut in, dropping to a knee infront of his best friend.

Two-toned azures meeting his gaze as he spoke, "I've known you since I was a child, and I've always known to read your eyes if I want to know the truth, Ju. You can fake cry, you can act, you can do everything but hide the truth from your eyes. You don't see what we see, but trust me Sinbad knew you loved him. He just wasn't going to force you into saying it."

Judar gulped as he looked down from the eyes gazing at him, suddenly remembering that Sin had left him in only a sheet as he shifted slightly uncomfortably, "L…" Pinching his eyes shut Judar tried to slow his racing heart as he forced the word to his mouth, "L-love… He knows I l-love him, he's not dead… Yet…" Opening his eyes, the ruddy pools glowing with determination, it was time he put his past to rest and move on with the love of his life, his King. First though he had to get into some actual clothes, and then do what he would rather not do… He had to come clean on why he was depraved, and hopefully afterwards it would have convinced the other's that he has changed so that they could help him get Sin back before she touched what was his.

Slapping on a confident, and teasingly cocky, grin which was mainly directed at his easily flustered best friend, "So I know we had a moment, and are gonna have another one here in a bit, but right now I'd like to get some clothes on… That is unless you guys want to see me as the all natural perfection that I am?" He finished his sentence with a flirtatious wink as Hakuryuu instantly turned red enough to rival Judar's eyes while he spluttered in disbelief.

Alibaba blushed lightly as he silently removed his outer robe then dropping it atop the cackling Magi's head. Aladdin snickering as he stood up straight and tugged the immobile Prince back to life and toward the room's entrance. With the younger trio's backs to him Judar stood up and slipped the offered garment onto his body, doing his best to tame his waterfall of black tresses before bundling the sheet in his arms, and slipping between the bodies in front of him. "Hakuryuu can you come with me while Baby Magi and his Candidate round up the Generals."

The sounds of agreeance resounded behind him as Judar used floating magic to lift himself and Haku from the ground and speed toward Sin's chambers. Once there he took a deep breath before walking in, doing his best to ignore the ache in his no longer frozen heart, as he set about getting dressed. His magic handling a fancy brush through his heavy mass of shimmering black locks, a brush that he procured from Sinbad (he knew who took his favorite brush but chose to not take it back), when the hair was smooth and tangle free his magic began to make quick work of braiding it. All the work on his hair taking place as he hunted down his clothes, Haku looking away in modesty, before the older male turned around.

"Haku…" At his name the scarred twenty-one year old glanced back to his friend, "I'm about to reveal something that I really only wanted Sin to know about, and it's going to be difficult for you to hear let alone for me to speak… Please don't leave me in the room alone, you're the closest to me besides Sinbad, and I am sorry…" The vulnerable dullness of those ruby orbs had Haku nervous but agreeing to remain by the Magi's side.

"I won't abandon you, not after everything we've been through." Judar smiled wryly at the younger's choice of words but didn't share his thoughts out loud, You're about to know just how much I've been through for you and all of the Ren children…

Aladdin sent out small Rukh birds with the message for all Eight Generals to gather in the lounging room that Sin normally held impromptu meeting at, before seating himself on the armrest of the chair that his King's Candidate sat in. "You think he's ready, Ali?"

Instinctively reaching up to brush his fingertips longingly against the red hoops at the top of his left ear, "Yeah, Ala, he's been given a better chance…" Alibaba smiled with a sad sigh before turning bright eyes toward the Magi and Prince floating into the room just as the others appeared as well. Everyone settling into their favorite chairs, except for Ja'far he remained beside Masrur with a sour look on his normally stoic face, Judar ignored the pissy advisor as he settled into Sinbad's chair with Hakuryuu taking what was usually Ja'far's seat. The tension in the room palpable as varied looks of defeat, anger, regret, and support met with Judar's trepidation he for once not wanting to talk.

I can do this, I can save Sin… I can prove myself. Judar looked around before glancing toward his favorite Prince, one of the key points in his life's corruption… I don't regret keeping you safe… Taking a deep breath as he sat up, folding his legs under his body, "What I'm about to tell you is a long and miserable recount of my life… An explanation, if you will, of why I am -or was- so…"

"Malicious, malevolent, hazardous?" Ja'far provided with a scoff at the ravenette, I promised Sin to watch after you, but I'm not about to forgive you… Not for this…, the assassin thought to himself as he glanced at the burned and bruised tiny woman held in Hinahoho's arms.

Wry looks were shot at the flippant silverette from those that wanted to hear Judar out before they redirected their attention to him as he cleared his throat. "That… I really never wanted this to come to light beyond Sinbad… Understand that I don't want pity, I don't want you hold any of this next to me in your opinions other than just as an explanation to my prior behaviour." Pausing until he received some form of agreeance from all present. "This may be long winded, but please listen…" Everyone's ears tuned into the selfish Magi actually asking something instead of demanding it, as per usual.

Pulling Focalor's bracelet closer to his chest, the mark glowing with his and Sin's magoi, as the Magi began in the recant of his life, a far off look dulling his carmine eyes:

"I was torn from my family, as you all know… They were murdered by Al'Thamen so that they could raise me to be what they needed, a monster, a tool to destroy the world. It was fine in the beginning, I wasn't taught how to be nice… I wasn't taught right from wrong, but I knew something was wrong as I got older… I was left alone when I did good to them."

"When I erected Dungeons, when I tormented innocent towns, froze their lands, burned their homes to run them to Kou, I was saved from the physical abuse. The rituals to infuse me with the depraved Rukh that I brought into the world. I was saved from that, but I wasn't saved from…"

Choking on the bile that threatened to escape the shaking ravenette, he hadn't realized that he had begun to curl into himself and freeze the room until Aladdin's hand touched his shoulder. The reassurance in the cerulean eyes helped to calm the Dark Magi as he reached blindly for the hand of the boy he protected repeatedly, needing to verify that he was still there. "It's okay Judar, we're here." They said at the same time giving the teary eyed male a reassuring squeeze.

"Gyokuen really is a devious woman…" He started with a bite of anger in his voice, the hopeless look in his eyes reaching everyone in the room, Ja'far still watching him closely uncertain of his feelings. "She was willing to rape each of the Ren children when they failed her, especially the one that until recently was the weakest: her favorite…" Judar felt the shock as it traveled through the fellow ravenette, the gasps around the room followed by the deafening silence had Judar's hair on end. Tightening his grip on the hand he held and the Metal Vessel that was being crushed between them Judar continued with a dry sob cracking his voice.

"She was willing to rape her children, adopted or birthed, because they failed to appease her, but I loved them, too. It began when I was ten, I had just finally gotten this kid to open up to me, and she wanted to run him down. It became a game to her, how many times she could… make me give myself over as a sacrifice until I caved. I didn't, I don't regret saving any of them either, and slowly as they all began to get stronger with Djinn's the number I had to protect dropped… She did a lot of things that have scarred me, and Sin knows them, knows to avoid them or test them gently."

"Sin from the beginning gave me what I thought was lost; hope." A wry smile emerged through his tears, he hadn't realized he was crying until he tasted them, "He radiated so much light, that idiotic smile of his haunted me…" The far off look in the Magi's teary eyes coming back into focus as he looked to the still Prince to his side. "I sacrificed everything I could to save you, Hakuryuu, the only one that comes before you in my heart is Sinbad. The moronic, brazen, Conqueror of the Seven Seas was there for me even when I didn't know it."

"When she…" shaking his head as Judar looked down at the metal vessel in his arms, "every time I went through that I would pray to be rescued, for Sin to come save me, as I got older pray that it was him instead so that it might just be tolerable. I began to fall in love with him long before we had sex, our fights weren't normal…" The ravenette gave the table a sly smile, "That's why I picked them so much. I love fighting him, I love pushing him to his limits, because watching him surpass his breaking point is marvelous… I idolized him first so I could fool myself into thinking I had a chance to win, and later actually believing that if I didn't kill myself that I could have him."

Focalor's vessel sigil began to glow brightly as Judar looked up, a weight off his shoulders, as he sat up straight. "I love High King Sinbad, my King, and I want him back." Focalor's Djinn form wisping from the seal to bow to Judar before looking at the General's he helped Sin to fight aside.

"I want my champion back, I have see a majority of this fool's story personally," a shudder ran through shoulders as the blue male gave a cocky grin at the frowning Magi above him, "what he speaks is truth. Get your King." With that the figure receded into his vessel.

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This is not my best work and not my most studied fandom, but I did want to add something here so I hope you all like it enough to overlook any wrongdoings on my part.

I have never written a scene like this, I'm sorry if it fell short of expectations or if it's shoddily done I tried my best to be accurate so that it seemed believable. Please let me know if I can work on it, or if you have any input to make it more sound.

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