Alex slipped her arms around Lena's shoulders and held the woman close. She didn't let her go. She held the salve of her mending heart in her arms. Alex stroked Lena's back.

But she didn't love her.

But it didn't stop her…

No, she didn't stop. No, she didn't think, and this time she couldn't blame it on the medications. When she held the woman in her arms something over rode her ethics and … It was soft and glorious, wet and wonderful. Lena did not pull back, she didn't not flinch, or shove Alex away. She kissed her back. Alex drowned. Dear divinity in paradise, she read the term, she even wrote the term, but this was the first time in a long time she drowned in another person's lips. Soft and yet firm, taking and giving. Maggie's lips were also soft, but there was an edge, as if she thought Alex would back out. With Lena it was all consuming. Lena pressed her frame into Alex's and circled tightly about her waist and gently nipped and sucked on her lips. Alex slid her hands up Lena's arms and buried her hands in her hair as she brought her deeper into a kiss that left the agent weak in her knees. It was life altering, seriously, what about Kara? It was that thought that forced Alex to slowly pull away from lips sweet and salty with life. She sucked and pecked on lips she had dreamed about but in the end, she held the Luthor. They both heaved breaths sure of what happened but not sure of the consequences.

"You love Kara," Alex whispered in Lena's ear, and all Alex got in response was a grip about her midriff that bothered her ribs, but she would not flinch, not yet. She didn't want the Luthor to leave her.

Lena didn't know how it happened but when Alex's lips pressed into hers, and danced with her tongue, and then grasped her closer she was lost. It was Alex and no one else. There was no Cat, no Kara, nothing other than Alexandria Danvers and Lena Luthor, and Lena rejoiced. Then the kiss receded and ended and her … friend held her. Spoke to her words that split her in two. She pulled from Alex as Alex tried to keep her close. She looked at her hands, at her feet, at Alex's cast. She looked at everything other than the face, lips, and eyes of the woman that made her forget everything.

"Alex," Lena began but she once again saw the posture of the agent shift. It was resolute, not rejected as before. It was strong and proud but pained. Lena did that, and she wished she could take it away. Alex moved away with a new mug of coffee and back to the table. She indicated to the seat Lena was in and she spun the board around. Lena's move. How poetic. Alex picked up her phone and typed out a message and placed her phone down. And waited. Lena sat and moved a knight. Alex cocked her head and shook her head.

"Play for keeps Lena, come on," Alex challenged Lena sharply and Lena pulled back her knight and moved a pawn. Alex moved a pawn.

Their game lasted for about an hour and a half. Both women would not relent to the other. It was a strategy game and it was time to prove who was elite. Alex had Lena on the defensive for a few moves then out of Nowhere Lena checked her king. Alex looked to Lena. She was pissed the fuck off and now she played like it. She was out for blood and would kill her entire chess army to reach an end.

Lena was broken. She kissed Alex after she professed her love for Kara. But she and Kara never made it that far before. When Alex lowered her lips to her own she simply closed her eyes and went for the ride, and what a ride it was. Alex Danvers was one of the most sensual kissers she has kissed. Kara never tried. Kara never made a move, in all these years she never made a move to kiss her. Take her lips and make her lips her captive. Lena played her game with Alex and all that flew through her mind were Alex's lips, and Kara's indecision. Why now? After everything, why Alex and not Kara? Lena slammed her fist on her table top. The board pieces jumped and fell to the sides. Alex situated the game and then looked at Lena.

Eyes clashed.

"Why you?" asked Lena. Alex cocked her head to the side and Lena swept the board game off the table angry. Alex sat back and centered herself, ready.

"Why was it you that had the courage to move?" Lena asked softly after her tantrum. Alex looked up into her eyes. She shook her head as she went to her knees and collected her pieces. Alex waited for Lena to either yell at her or help her, maybe both. She picked up pawn after pawn then a bishop and a rook then flesh met flesh. Alex looked up and found Lena. Her green eyes shrouded in confusion and pain. Alex let the woman help her pick up Lena's mess. When they got to the table they missed a pawn and Alex asked it if was under the couch and Lena looked and brought the lost piece to the board.

The looked at each other.

"I don't want to play anymore, but thank you for helping me find my pieces," Alex said as she looked down at the board. She felt they were due for a lengthy conversation, so she didn't want to chase after board pieces if they didn't like answers of statements. Alex was relieved when Lena nodded and packed the game up and took it back. Alex went to the bathroom and came back with her nightly dose and a glass of water. Lena saw the pills put on the low table by the couch, Alex reclined on the couch to elevate her ankle and Lena looked around lost. There was not a lot of seating in her apartment. Alex got situated and they found themselves in very much the same position they were in at Kara's apartment. Alex rested her ankle on a pillow and tried to make sure it was out of Lena's face, but the woman seized her leg. She situated it near her, on her, and Alex found it comfortable. Lena then had her feet in Alex's lap.

"She is shy," Alex began as she began to touch Lena's toes answering a question from what seemed like eons ago.

"Kara loves, and loves with all of her pure little heart, but she has lost so much," Alex continued as she pulled on Lena's toes popping each expertly, "Every person she loved, her mother, her father, had died on that planet," Alex said as she dug her thumb in to Lena's arch. Lena bit her lip as she almost squirmed in pleasure of the motion.

"She came to us from the phantom zone as a young girl, younger than me, and I was asked, or shall I say tasked with the protection of a new alien sister," Alex thought, her eyes glazed over and then they softened, and she smiled.

"She would fly us over the beach," Alex said, and a tear dropped, and she quickly brushed it to the side, "and now I betray her," Alex leaned her head back still digging into Lena's soles. "I took love from her, I'm a fucking idiot," Alex said as she stopped her gentle ministration and made to get from the couch. But Lena's legs held her fast. It was a complete reversal from last time.

"You did nothing of the sort," Lena said then leaned back, "We don't know what is happening. I love Kara, it was said out loud, there it is, but does she love me back?" Lena asked.

"Of Course, she does!" Alex almost yelled and then calmed.

"Kara in three years had never made a move Alex. You in what, 3 months, have already moved to kiss me. How can I believe I am what she wants?" Lena asked as she sat there and leaned her head back as Alex had moments ago. Alex shifted and stretched as much as her ribs would allow her. She caught the low hem of Lena's sweats and pulled.

"You have no idea what she goes through for you do you?" Alex asked as she finally got Lena looking at her. Lena shook her head.

"I thought you both talked about everything," Alex mused as she ran a hand through her hair, "That idiot has had death threats against her and you because of your alliance. We told her to stop befriending you," Alex looked at Lena knowing the next part would drive the woman from her apartment, "I told her Lena. I told her to leave you alone, drop you, as a friend, and acquaintance as Supergirl."

Lena looked at Alex in the living room the lights on, no shadows to their expressions. Alex feared her ankle as she looked at Lena.

"I am pissed the fuck off Alex. WHY!?" Lena yelled but didn't move.

"Cadmus," Alex said smoothly, softly as if she was commenting on the weather. Lena sat back, her posture transformed from defensive to defeated.

"Lillian Luthor," Alex said softly, barely above a whisper, and then as if the Luthor could not drop even further Alex continued, "Kara's parents," Alex gritted. Then, "Kara's Aunt, and Uncle," Alex shuddered and then she was finished. She was done and wanted nothing more than to escape into that dreamless void that closed around her once she took those medications. She reached for her pills, but her hand stopped when her fingertips pushed at the objects.

"What about her Parents? What about her Aunt?" Lena asked innocently Alex moved feet off her and then sit on the edge of the couch she took the pills and then walked to her room.

"You can stay on the couch or in here with me. It a big bed and I don't take a lot of room anymore," Alex offered as she avoided the questions. She slipped under her covers and blinked when the lights went out. She sighed. Sleep, she need sleep. Then a depression in the bed. Alex's eyes shot open then hooded. Damn drugs.

"Tell me about them please," Lena asked as she lay on her back in Alex's bed. Alex tried to snap out of it. She turned over and saw the outline of Lena's figure in her bed. She slid her hand over the mattress space between them. She touched Lena's hip.

"Her parents imprisoned many aliens. They hate them, then by proxy Kara and everything she loves and stands for," Alex then felt Lena flip and face her. Lena slid her hand over the mattress and then linked their fingers.

"You will hate me," Alex slurred.

"Never," Lena promised as she tugged their fingers tighter together.

"I killed her," Alex said. Lena didn't miss the tear drop onto her pillow as she did. "I killed Astra, Kara's Aunt," Alex whispered in between them as if it were a secret. She didn't move. She killed Kara's Aunt? A woman Kara loved? What was or wasn't Alex capable of? Alex lay there, telling her the darker moments of her history, and yet she felt safest next to the agent.

It was much later that there was a thump on the hard wood floors. A super smiled as her two favorite people seemed to take care of one another. She slipped from her uniform, and into the shower. She then slipped into pajamas and fit into the bed behind Lena who spooned Alex.

Later…

Of course, Alex was awake. Of course, Alex saw the way Kara contoured to Lena's body and vice versa. She may have drunk from her lips first, but she did not hold her heart. Alex got dressed and made her way from her apartment and into a cab. She asked them to drop her at the library and then a government vehicle picked her up. She wanted the fucking cast off, and she wanted to hurt less and recover faster. She barged into the DEO and glared at Jonn. He stared at her, truly looked at her and nodded. Alex went to the prep room and undressed. She slipped into a pair of issued under garments, and suit. Alex wheeled herself to the chamber and Jonn looked at it and sighed.

"Are you sure this is what you want?" Jonn asked.

"Yeah, I need to heal faster than our 4-week mark. So, let's do it," Alex said as she stood from the chair and then Jonn made her sit back down. She objected until he broke the cast from her ankle. He asked her to wait and he brought back water and a cloth. He bathed her foot, ankle shin and calf. It was gentle and paternal.

"Jonn, I'll be ok. We are speeding things up. That's all. One week," she reached down and put a hand on his shoulder and he nodded. He couldn't stop her any ways. She would only hurt herself out there, at least here they can watch over her. He scooped her up and placed her in the body acclimated temperature water and then hooked her up.

"You should experience significant healing when you got out in a week, but I will monitor you from here. If there is anything different, even a slight hiccup in heart rate I will pull the plug Alex, I will call it unsuccessful."

"Who best as a human subject than a beat to hell human. Let's go Jonn," she said with a brave smirk and Jonn narrowed his eyes and watched as she slipped into a suspended animated state. One week, that was it, no more, no less unless something happened, but it was all.

Elsewhere…

She woke with arms around her waist and loved the feeling. She dreamed of lips sucking and nipping, and exploring tongue, and hands than pulled her tighter to their body. Then she slowly came to the surface and felt a hand about her waist and then smiled. Lena linked their fingers and immediately her brows furrowed. She lifted the hand. It was larger than she expected, then she looked down the arm, more tanned than she expected and then she turned to look at the person that kept them close to them. She smiled slightly as Kara held her. This is what she wished for. She looked at the super and the puffs from her lips as she slept. Lena debated taking a kiss from those lips, but she failed. It would not be the same as getting a kiss from Alex, fully aware, drug free, emergency free, stress-ish free.

Lena lay her head down and wondered where Alex went. It wasn't until later that she woke alone in bed that wasn't hers that she cursed both Danvers sisters.

DEO….

"Since when has she thought of this?" Kara asked as she looked on her sister floating lifelessly in the chamber.

"We needed a human test subject and she volunteered," Jonn said matter of factly. Kara still stared.

"But when did she make this decision?"

"We talked about it with her recovery, but she came in early this morning," Jonn said as he watched with Kara.

"That doesn't make sense, Me, Alex and Lena were in bed together," Kara said and Jonn looked at her with a jaw dropped then his face shifted into a placid yet stoic mask. No sex, nothing, hell Alex didn't even plan on Kara showing up.

"Why did you show up to Alex's?" Jonn asked.

"Lena was there," Kara said easily. Jonn Looked at her hard and Kara felt like a little girl.

"Then grow the hell up and claim what you want Kara Danvers. Take your heart's desire and claim the woman with all the love you have and stop this frivolous back and forth!" Jonn yelled at the super in the chamber holding Alex. Now he completely understood why Alex came. She felt she did not stand a chance against the Kryptonian.

"But what if…" Kara looked down then looked at Jonn. He read her mind, she knew he did. It was easier. He moved to his weird ass sort of kryptonian daughter.

"Do it, find it, feel it, and seize it," he softened his eyes, "Here on this planet your kind are practically immortal. Find love, complete and whole, every chance you can get it. Find it and take it Alien daughter," he told Kara and the woman nodded and looked back to her sister Alex. They both watched the broken woman floating in a tube.