She asked her driver to go another address not home. She watched the city in all of its lit-up glory waiting for the holidays to arrive pass by. The trip lasted all of 10 minutes and she was not ready for the encounter she was about to have. She shook her head when the driver asked if he should stay. She promised she would text him if she needed a ride. She walked up the stairs, into the lobby, and then took the elevator. She walked down a hallway and pulled the key from its hiding place. She held her breath as she entered the apartment. It was dark, and she placed her purse and her key on the island counter. She walked to the bedroom. It's the only place Alex could be. She walked in and turned on the light. She leaned against the bed at her knees, and then sat down.
The auburn-haired woman lay dead to the universe. She smiled as Alex's mouth hung wide open and small snores filled the room. The woman tilted her head, and then looked at the woman, something was off. She lifted the bedspread and smirked. A pillow was caught at an awkward angle under the woman's legs. She gently repositioned the woman and then set the pillow under her knees, it's the only reason why the pillow was there to begin with, and then pulled the covers back up to Alex's chin. She brushed hair from the woman's face and a few of the longer pieces out of her mouth. She was bruising about the jaw and neck, possibly from that uppercut. There was a cut on her temple, but it wasn't deep. She lifted the covers once more and hissed. The tank top rode up revealing the woman's ribs. She placed the covers down on the woman and then watched her breathe.
"I was never the caring type," she scoffed, "or so everyone says," The blonde shifted on the bed and stared down at the woman.
"I kissed your sister, just to make her let me go and shut her up," Cat drily chuckled, "That's not the way I wanted that to happen. Never in a million years," then she wriggled on the spot excitedly like a teenage girl, "But she kissed me back. God, Alex, Kara kissed me back. I feel alive," Cat looked up and indicated with her hands trying to find words then her hand rested in the middle her chest, "she makes this old shriveled and blackened heartbeat, and my stained soul want to wash clean," Cat took a deep breath. She reached out and pulled the covers to her friend's chin.
"You are the closest thing to a friend I have got in this town. The Luthor is almost as dangerous and manipulative as me. And almost twice as untrusting," Cat watched the woman's eye lashes twitch and flutter, "Kara is the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with and then there is you," Cat stroked the back of her fingers down Alex's forehead and cheek.
"You have always treated me like a woman. Not a media mogul, not a force to be reckoned with, but a real person, always on equal footing. You are a conundrum," cat smiled, "A delightful paradox to my daily norm, and I adore it. So, thank you Alex Danvers," Cat smiled and then looked to the clock on the night stand, it was only just midnight.
"You are welcome," rasped a sleep and drug laden voice. Cat looked over to Alex and the woman tried to open her eyes, but all she could manage were slits and a wince. Cat shifted to where she blocked the light from the lamp. She watched as Alex opened one then the other and closed the first as if trying to figure out how to work her eye lids. Cat only smiled. She watched as movement happened under the blanket and out came Alex's hand hovering in front of her. Cat looked at it and then into Alex's hazed eyes, but the agent nodded. She took the offered hand and found it warm, and welcoming.
"I think I am in love with Lena," Alex said with barely a slur to her words. Cat's smile grew as she leaned against the pillows and kicked off her shoes and half sat half lay in bed stroking the hair at Alex's temple.
"I think I am in love with your sister," Cat confessed.
"Duh," Alex said to the reporter, "Kara is stupid," Alex grunted then she sighed and then turned her head to Cat's direction and then inched into Cat's side.
"Oh, Alex how I wish you were not in a painkiller induced haze right now," Cat outwardly toned. Alex looked up with the clearest her eyes have been since she arrived.
"I am sober, you ass, I'm just exhausted, and in shit loads of pain," Alex shuffled across the bed and then created room for the older woman, "Strip that shit off," Alex indicated to Cat's face, "There are towels in the cabinet, facial cleanser in the medicine cabinet, and pajamas in the chest of drawers. I don't care if you go commando, just throw them in the wash tomorrow," Alex yawned and then collapsed on the pillow. Cat shook her head and then took a deep breath. Fine, she will be a normal, human, woman, at a sleepover for the first time since she was 10. Yup she could do this.
About 30 minutes later she walked into the room, Alex still sprawled out over the mattress, and then sighed. But the agent turned and pulled back the covers.
"I sleep lightly, even with drugs. Besides, Maggie only gave me one as requested," Alex said as she yawned and waited for Cat to slide into the bed. Alex winced as she moved further over to give the woman room, "Get comfortable, because not many people know this, I'm a cuddler, especially when I feel horrible," Alex seemed to wait, and Cat then wiggled into a good spot then reached for the bedside lamp.
She found herself in Alex's bed, with a woman she was actually attracted to, but didn't love. She looked over in the darkness and hoped she could make out the lines of Alex's face, maybe the eyes of the woman as she lay there.
"Talk, Shark," Alex ordered from her pillows on the other side of the bed.
"She calls me that too," Cat laughed softly, "But I don't know where to begin," Cat looked over to Alex. She could make out little, but she knew the woman was awake. Alex sighed.
"Do you want to talk, is a better question," Alex began to sound more in control, more herself. Cat felt her walls go up, and her body tense. Then a hand snaked across the bed and grabbed hers. "Don't do that please. I agree with what you said. You are becoming a wonderful friend, and if we are to do this, don't shut me out. I'm not like everyone else," Alex said softly. Cat kept the hand in hers but turned on her side facing Alex. Her eyes adjusted, and she can see the woman in the muted moonlight from her curtains.
"I may have told Lena to fuck your sister and you then compare notes on which one she wanted so no one would be the one that got away," Cat whispered her admission to Alex, the one she knew would hurt the most. Alex took a deep breath then exhaled but never let go of Cat's hand.
"Gods, you are a bitch sometimes," Alex said but pulled the woman closer and then both of the women where in the middle of the rather large bed, "But you are my bitch, an impulsive, and somewhat insane friend."
Cat gasped and let her arms circle around Alex as she lay there. She shifted and contoured her body to the injured woman and then held her. She would not cry, will never cry over Kara ever again, never ever again.
"Cat," Alex said from her shoulder and the woman released her fearing her was suffocating her, "Thank you for that. Some people need extremes, some people need to be placated to, and others, need to be manipulated," Alex spoke against her shoulder as she shifted from her back. Alex then moved and then threw her arm over her waist, and then her head on her shoulder.
"I already listened to your voicemail," Alex smiled, and Cat could feel it and a similar smiled tugged on her lips, "What is your idea of a wicked way with me?" Alex asked joking. But it was the lack of movement under her that made Alex pause and look up to Cat's pale face in the ambient light of the room.
"Alex, you need to know something," Cat said and then turned toward Alex, "I did not lie to Lena when I said if there was no chance in hell if I could not have Kara I would try to woo you ," Cat admitted, Cat felt Alex move and she was afraid it was away from her.
"You would be second place, I am telling you that right now, but in a completely different way. You are so far from different from Kara, that now that I think about it, you would not be second place, you would simply be Alex's place," Cat held the woman to her and felt her relax, "Forgive me for being honest," Cat said sharply to the room. She felt her wards fly up, and every wall in her ward began to lock then…
"I would like that too Cat," Alex whispered.
CLICK!
CLICK!
CLICK!
Every wall Cat had tumbled before Alex.
"I love Lena Cat, but if I were to have a person I could go to, find comfort, comradery, and love to a degree, I think you would be a good person to go to. I have watched you. You love fiercely, and if I could experience even half of that ferocity, I would be found humbled by your love," Alex said into Cat's shoulder. Cat felt her eyes prickly, she breathed through it, but they fell.
"Damn you Alex Danvers," Cat said as she wiped at her eyes. Alex reached up and looked into Cat's eyes. She pulled the hand away from her eyes. Alex slowly sat up and winced as she turned but never took her eyes from Cat.
"Never think you must hide behind your walls with me," Alex said as she cupped Cat's chin. The older woman was lost. It was intimate, it was all encompassing, and it was intense. It was completely Alex. Cat narrowed her eyes and noticed that was the difference between her and Kara. Decisive, action taking, and intense. Just like her.
"Cat turn on the light," Cat reached for the lamp and it clicked then she looked at Alex. She was beaten up, sore, and bruised, but she was clear and focused, "I want you to see that when I talk to you, I will not lie to you, I will not give you what you simply want to hear. If you must test this theory ask me anything, watch my facial features not just my eyes," Alex told the woman.
"Alex, you don't have to prove anything to me," Cat looked away.
"Liar," Alex said. Cat's head snapped up.
"That is the second time tonight I have been called a liar and I will not stand for it any longer." Cat growled violently. Alex simply shrugged and looked away, then Cat reached out and grabbed Alex's face, she eased on the pressure when she saw Alex wince.
"If this hell between you, your sister, and Lena doesn't pan out and leave you without the Luthor, would you think of a possibility of you me?" she asked as clearly and concisely as she could. Alex lifted a hand to Cat's that captured her cheek. She lowered it, but held Cat's eyes, and for a few moments Alex would swear they swam into that dream realm.
"Yes, I would, with stipulations naturally, " Alex smiled holding one of Cat's hands.
"Such as," the older one queried.
"You can't manipulate me anymore, and you must talk to me, Alex, as an equal, and then always be honest with me. If you can't in public then do so behind closed doors. I rather like how your twisted mind works. It's fun to watch," Alex told the woman. Cat stroked Alex's jaw and her gaze softened.
"Agreed. Next question, do you love Lena, more than your detective," Cat broached the subject Alex had been avoiding. Alex leaned back and lay on her pillows. She thought about it. Then she looked to Cat.
"No, I don't, but I love them equally. How can you love another person who recently loved your sister?" Alex reasoned. Cat nodded. She appreciated the honestly.
"What happened with you and the detective?" she asked as she reached over and turned off the light. She heard Alex yawn, "You should rest dear," Cat prompted but Alex opened her arms for a change. Cat looked down at the woman. And Alex rolled her eyes and pulled Cat down to her slowly minding the ribs. Cat grabbed a pillow and placed it between her and the agent's ribs. She practically heard Alex smile as she reached to her side and moved another pillow over for Cat. If this was not a crazy ass situation with Kara's sister, she would be absolutely charmed and positively smitten.
"I found out rather recently, well no let me back track," Alex paused as Cat leaned her head against Alex's shoulder, "I Accepted rather recently I was gay. I found a woman that made my guts plunge, my heart pound and my mind spin," Alex paused, "We were engaged, it happened so fast, and then I told her I wanted a child. I would love to be a mom. My mother was amazing, and I wanted nothing more than to be like her and love a child with every part of my soul, but to me that required someone to love with me," Alex stopped. Cat didn't know what happened, she looked up and found Alex starring into space. Her eyes wide open and glassy. She shook the agent. She came too with a smile.
"She did not want children," Alex said with a wounded smile. Cat reached out and stroked her cheek.
"Too bad, because I have a feeling you would be the most wonderful mother, and I should know, I have two boys," Cat smiled as she looked down pressing her cheek to Alex's shoulder, but she kept her hand on Alex's other shoulder fingering the hair on there.
"One is Kara's age and I thought they were going to be a couple. God, I made a fool of myself," Cat then softened, "then there is my youngest, Carter. He is a complete Supergirl fan, and thinks Kara is Supergirl. I will not pop that bubble of intrigue if I can help it. Sometimes when you are a child it is all in the mystery. Does Santa exist? Well is Kara Supergirl is his fantasy. I will only let that go if Kara comes out to him," Cat smiled, and Alex let her arm clench the woman to her. Alex did something that had not been done to her in probably decades. She placed her lips to Cat's temple and simply accepted her, her words, her thoughts. Everything.
"Have you told any of this to Kara?" Alex asked as she stroked circles into Cat's upper arm. Now that Cat analyzed their positions in bed, she now latched onto the agent like a Koala to a eucalyptus tree. She was embarrassed and began to detach but Alex held her firm.
"These positions may change throughout the night, Cat, just let it go. Do you want to have sex with me?" Alex asked matter of factly. Her eyes shot open wide.
"NO! Well… not really," Cat answered but Alex laughed, a full belly rib splitting laugh.
"I don't want to either Cat, so just go with what's comfortable. I'm sure we will stop when it gets too weird. You have Kara, I have Lena. Until then," Alex looked to Cat and smirked then kissed her lips shocking the woman, "below the belt is off limits."
Cat blinked and lay there stunned. The Danvers sisters will be the death of her.
"Cat, I'm kidding, just sleep," Alex smiled as she lay back, "Sucks to have your emotions played with doesn't it?" Alex asked watching Cat and smirked when the woman harrumphed and then sighed.
"No, I haven't," Cat said as she regained the path of questioning. "I have not told Kara many things because she has been rather hung up on Lena," Cat said making sure she called the Luthor by her first name in Alex's presence. It was the woman Alex loved after all.
"In time, not all at once, but drops here and there, she needs to hear these things from you," Alex said as she yawned once more. "Cat, will you be here in the morning?" Alex asked as she felt her eyes lids getting heavier.
"Of course, why?" then cat looked up. Alex fought sleep with the viciousness she fought James this evening. "Go to sleep dear. I'll be here, if not in your bed then in the front room. Alright?" asked Cat. For some strange reason she found she would never lie to the woman, she made a promise and it will be executed.
"Alex are you stoned, you know from the pain meds?" Cat asked. Something in her squirmed, writhed around in her guts.
"Maybe a little," Alex murmured. Cat felt her stomach clench. How much of what Alex said was drug induces, and how much was true. She tilted her head and looked at the outline of Alex's face. The woman, even in her drunken state had been nothing but helpful, and kind, why would she lie to her too? Cat sat Alex yawn once more.
"Sleep Agent, Ill see you in the morning," Cat prompted. Cat tried to slide away from the woman, but an arm held her fast. She looked up.
Alex Smiled slightly nodded, and never let her go. Cat gave up and lay her head on Alex's chest. The beat of her heart, the rhythm of her breathing, she slipped into the realm of dreams as well. Where her son tried to convince an already knowing Cat grant that Kara was Supergirl. What a wonderful dream.