DEO Six Hours Later…
Alex lay in her bed and stared at the ceiling. She hated the damned medical bay. She was beginning to hate this as much as loathing the feeling of being second place to Kara. She threw her hand over her eyes to block out the light. Her conversation went very well. Almost too well, but that's what happens when you are being chased by Cat Grant, and you love the woman back.
"We need to talk," Alex said as she took Kara's hand when they fitted her with a temporary knee brace. It was only bruised, nothing torn, or broken, just heavily bruised. She could only think it was when she slammed into the wall when she was jerked from the roof. Her ribs also were simply bruised. All in all, she was lucky, just one walking bruise.
"I love Lena," Alex blurted. She held a breath and then the air shot from her lungs. She closed her eyes, and then let everything settle. It was out there. It was said to the one person she could not afford to lose but might push away with that information. But she was so tired of keeping it in, keeping it hidden.
"I know," Kara said, and Alex looked over to Kara and found sad blue eyes. "You practically told her as much last night before you walked away. Why did you walk away?" Kara asked tilting her head.
"Kara, do you know what it's like watching the person you're feeling for grow every time you see them, feel love for someone else?" Alex asked watching her sister.
"James and Lucy. It was like part of my guts where wrenching from my body, and I didn't even love him like you love Lena," Kara sighed then turned to Alex, "You could have told me."
"How would that conversation have ended Kara?" Alex then softened her tone, "I loved her before Cat got here. Go back to before Cat came back, how would that conversation have ended?" Alex asked.
"I don't know," Kara said truthfully. Then she looked to Alex, "But I could have been there for you, we could have helped each other we could have…" Kara was stopped by Alex shaking her hands.
"I will never take your happiness from you Kara," Alex whispered with tears streaming from her eyes. Kara reached over and pulled Alex to her in a gentle hug.
"But you would allow me to take your happiness from you? Alex this must stop," Kara released Alex and then held her cheeks and looked into her sister's eyes, "You have to stop being second best. You have to stop thinking you are not worth it, because you are the most important person in my life next to…" Kara thought and let her gaze wonder to the side.
"Cat or Lena, who would you choose?' Alex asked as she put a hand to Kara's on her cheeks. Kara let a smile seep through her frown.
"I think I have already chosen but I have to do just as Lena does," Kara said and then smiled and tucked the auburn hair behind Alex's ear and leaned back, "We have to prove we love you and Cat first, and above all others. I know how Cat works, it just requires me to be something I am not sometimes," Kara said and looked at the floor releasing Alex. Alex nudged her arm and Kara smiled and rolled her eyes.
"I have to be brave with her, basically I have to be Kara Zor-El, and that is phenomenally difficult," Kara confessed.
"Why," Alex asked.
"Because the only person I am Kara Zor-El with is you," Kara said as she took Alex's hand in hers. "I have to be myself, because that is who Cat wants, she wants the real me," Kara whispered.
"Scary," Alex joked.
"You have no idea," Kara laughed, but sober slightly, "She wants me, and only me, its… different, and exciting, and…"
"A rush," Alex said and smiled when Kara nodded enthusiastically.
"She loves you Alex," Kara said softly. Alex shrugged. And Kara turned toward Alex, and it was in those eyes dead set on Alex, that she knew she was talking to the real Kara, her ultimate supporter, her haven, her family. Alex lowered her gaze.
"I will try to be more accepting of the fact that she cares about me. But I will have to go slow Kara," Alex said and then her eyes lifted when she saw the Doctor come back in with a clip board, and her results. Kara hopped off the bed, and then went to the door, but turned around.
"Just don't push her away," Kara said and winked. Alex simply smiled and focused on the report from the doctor.
So, she lay in the damned DEO issued scrubs, and hospital bed thinking, and thinking some more. She was awake, far too much awake to be laying in this damnable bed. She had even escaped and went in search of Winn. She found he was in one of the DEO holding cells because of his involvement with James. Alex frowned when she heard that news. She wanted to talk to him about it. She heard the door open but didn't move. She figured it was just another nurse checking to see she was where she was supposed to be. They have been doing that almost every hour on the hour since she went in search of her friend in the DEO. When Jonn found out he threatened to handcuff her to the bed and add on one more night for her troubles. She growled her concession and hobbled back to her bed. She felt a dip in the bed then she moved her arm from her eyes. She tried to scramble up to the top of the bed to sit, but a hand reached out and made her stay. She reached out and inclined the mechanical bed. Lena didn't take her eyes off her.
"Why are you here?" Alex asked, she winced as she heard her own tone then rambled forward, "Not that I am not happy to see you, it's just, well, why are you here?" Alex felt her cheeks heat and looked away silently cursing herself.
"I brought a get well gift for you," Said the woman and then reached out and placed her hand on Alex's heart. "She came to me, of all people, to locate you. She knew you were in the DEO, but it looks like you have not taken away my access credentials… Partner," Maggie said with a smile and a wink. Alex tilted her head and tried to look past Maggie's shoulder.
"Look, Danvers, I did something horrible to you, I know that. I was selfish, and we had never talked about kids in the long term. It was just out there, boom you want a kid. I got scared. But she wants to fix what I did, she wants to help you heal, and she would give anything to make you feel special," Maggie paused and smiled at Alex's shocked expression, "I gave her the shovel talk. If she hurts you, in any way possible, I know a few aliens from the Alien Bar that would dispose of her and they would be off this planet or underground and never found again, just like Lena. If she hurts you Alex, I will make sure no one could find the body," Maggie said.
"What are you saying?" Alex whispered. She swallowed at the possibility, then Maggie stood.
"My gift to you, is a shot at happiness," Maggie turned around and Alex leaned to follow Maggie's gaze, "She convinced me to bring her to give you something very heavy. Don't screw it up Danvers," Maggie said and then walked to the door. She leaned to Lena's ear, and said something. Alex only saw Lena swallow, turn pale, and then nod.
Lena walked toward Alex, slowly almost like she did on the roof at the Gala. Her eyes never left Alex's, but she paused at the bed unsure of what to do. Alex said nothing, she did nothing. Lena had to choose. But what she saw was a cup of coffee in Lena's hands. Alex lifted an eyebrow.
"A little bird told me you are an extra hot chai latte girl," Lena said softly. Alex watched her, she was afraid. She was afraid of Alex, and Alex's actions. Alex took a deep breath and lifted her hand. Lena placed the drink in Alex's hand, but the woman shook her head. She took the cup, placed it on the rolling tray, and then reached out for Lena once more. Lena looked at the hand then to Alex's eyes. Alex nodded, and the Lena slipped her hand into Alex's warm palm. Alex pulled her closer. Lena had to sit on the bed to accommodate to the distance as the woman pulled her.
"Lena, I need to tell you something but it's hard," Alex began but Lena shook her head.
"You have already told me. Every time I saw you, you told me. I know," Lena whispered as she stood to take off her jacket, and then draped it over the chair. She looked back to the agent and then pointed to the bed, asking if she could lay down with her. Alex nodded. Lena climbed into bed and then reclined the bed. They lay facing each other. Green bore in to dark brown. Lena shuffled under the covers and then once settled she slowly reached out. She watched Alex's eyes track her slowly inching hand. Before her hand could fall to Alex's cheek Alex seized her hand. Lena's eyes narrowed. She was close, so close and when she stretched her index finger to Alex's cheek she saw it then. The Agent broke.
Lena panicked, and slid closer to the woman on the bed. She reached for her and brought her head to her chest. She let Alex cry into the crook of her neck as she wrapped her arms around the woman and rubbed soothing circles into her back
"Shh, Alex its ok. I'm sorry," Lena whispered softly into Alex's ear. The woman didn't push her away, but seemed to melt into Lena, and Lena just lay there, holding onto the woman who had claimed her heart so softly, so gently, she didn't even know she loved her until she almost lost her. "Please Alex, tell me how I can fix this," Lena begged in her ear. Alex shook her head. Then Lena felt it. She swallowed and froze.
Alex poured her heart and soul into Lena as soon as she stroked her face. It was the look in her eyes, unguarded, no mask, and reflected every emotion Alex had. She cried from a deep ache finally ebbing away, and happiness clenching onto her heart like a grappling hook to get over a wall. She cried because it could not be real, but there she was, with her, holding her cooing in her ear apologizing begging to fix what ailed Alex. Lena Luthor was putting Alex first. Alex took a deep breath and took a page out of Cat Grant's book. She dove. She let her lips glide over Lena's pulse. Nothing more than a swipe of her lips, then she felt Lena freeze. She stopped, she pulled back. She had gone too far. Then Alex's lips, the lips that just tasted Lena's salt stained skin from Alex's tears, had been gently taken. Alex's eyes flew open, and all she could see was Lena, eyes closed and then Alex let it happen. She fell into the kiss.
No words could describe the feeling of finally falling into Lena. It was as if she plunged down a waterslide, her guts in her throat, and her heart pounded from the adrenaline of the trip. Alex let go of Lena's hand, the one she caught, and threaded her own fingers into the back of Lena's head in the silky tresses at the nape of her neck. Lena slowed the kiss and explored every corner of Alex's mouth. Lena pulled back slightly and looked down to Alex and saw the woman that had courted her for weeks. Alex opened her eyes when she felt Lena stroking her bottom lip with her fingertip. Lena smiled at the agent and Alex smiled bashfully.
"Can I love you?" Lena asked Alex. Alex pulled further from Lena's grasp but not completely out of. She simply wished to see the woman.
"Why?" Alex asked the question and she instantly regretted it as Lena slipped further away making distance. She never let go of Alex though. She simply lay with the woman and stared into her eyes. She reached out and treaded her fingers with Alex's. She watched Alex observe every movement, every breath, and listened to every inhale or exhale.
"I realized, weeks ago, that what I wanted was not a best friend, nor a person who could I could simply hang out with and feel comfortable with. I want all of that and more, Alex. I realized last night, that I fell in love with you and I didn't even know it," Lena kissed Alex's fingers, "I realized that your love was gentle, and steady, and you slipped so far into my heart that I could not imagine you not there. I broke when I thought you died last night, and when I saw you standing there, I knew I had nothing close to that with Kara," Lena saw Alex's eyes cloud at the mention of her sister, "I want to be worthy of you Alex. I want to show you every day that you are special and loved. I want to fall into your heart just as you had mine. Please Alex… Can I love you?"
Lena stopped breathing. Too many words she was not used to saying. Too many confessions. Luthors don't confess, they play a very twisted game of poker with their cards very close to their chest, with Aces up sleeves and Kings in their boots. They were cheaters, and winners, but never confessors, never complete truth tellers. They were also never lovers. Lena wanted to love Kara, maybe it was the novelty of the Super and Luthor legacy, but when Alex began to show up, part of her opened up more to her than she ever did Kara. It wasn't secrets, or the things said. It was the things she never HAD to say. For Lena Luthor to confess what was held deeply in her heart, and the one desire she had at that moment in time it was almost too much. She held her breath as Alex was given the most locked up treasure Lena had. Her heart.
"No," Alex whispered, and Lena jerked her hand from Alex's. She felt her world fall apart, and her heart harden. She closed her eyes, but felt Alex's hand on her cheek, and her thumb stroke just under her right eye. She slowly opened her eyes, "You are wrong, Lena," Alex shuffled painfully to Lena and pulled her body to Alex's. Thighs touched, hips touched, bellies connected. Lena saw Alex slowly coming closer and then paused, "You are far more worthy than I am. You are worthy of any one you choose," Alex paused and her eyes shimmered, and searched desperately through Lena's, "Please, Lena, don't hurt me," Alex softly begged as the breath of her request ghosted over Lena's lips.
"Never," Lena then lunged into Alex's mouth. Alex slipped her tongue into Lena's mouth and even though her eyes were closed she could feel her eyes roll back in the pure bliss of the moment. Lena felt something in her chest slide apart, and warm. She realized she was home. Alex sighed into the kiss and then nipped and sucked, "Sleep with me?" Alex asked. Lena nodded and then rolled onto her back pulling Alex to her. For the moment, everything was perfect.
Across the city around the same time…
Cat sat in her Highrise penthouse and smiled as she finally got her son to bed. Every time, all the time, it was Kara was Supergirl and here was the truth. She simply smiled and appeared to think about the notion. She would never tell him no, but she always said that with evidence like that it was a sound theory. She asked him every time what he would do with the information. He would always say nothing.
Sipping a cup of cinnamon tea curled up at the end of her sofa with a book, she smirked as she remembered emailing her article in. It was to be printed the very next day. She smirked because people still popped to do her bidding and she liked it, but her smile fell as she held the tea cup in her hand and remembered the night and morning with Alex. That damned woman wormed her way into her heart. What is she, some magical unicorn of soul rendering purification? Cat scoffed as she remembered her car ride home with Lena. They didn't speak much.
"Is she ok?" Lena asked
"I think so," Cat replied.
"You would know better than anyone," Lena prodded. Cat simply sighed.
"She is hurting. I will help if I can, but I am not what she needs," Cat said giving into the Luthor just slightly.
"Yes, she needs medical attention to be sure," Lena mused, and Cat looked over the younger woman.
"My god you are daft," Cat spat at the younger woman causing Lena's head to whip around to meet Cat's gaze, "She needs you." Cat said this plainly. Then she sighed. "Your stop little Luthor, if I were you I would figure out how to show her she is important to you," Cat said and then nodded to her driver in his rearview mirror to make haste, not giving the younger woman a chance to reply.
She may or may not have told Lena of a specific Detective and how she could help. Then she sat back and waited for her once in a blue moon good dead to come to fruition. She smiled once more as she felt before she saw a figure on her balcony. She waited. She never locked the balcony door anymore. Finally, Kara stepped through the window, and sat next to Cat. Cat said nothing, Kara said nothing.
"I love you too," blurted the younger woman. Cat blinked and slowly turned her head to the kryptonian. Cat sat forward and placed her tea on the table. She felt her hands begin to shake. It was hard to hide shaking nervous hands with a tea cup clenched in trembling hands. Cat simply sat there. For once she was not sure what piece to play on her mental chessboard of people. So, she sat and waited. If you waited long enough people ended up moving for you. But Kara simply sat on the sofa next to her.
Cat got up and took her tea cup to the kitchen. She rinsed the cup, and then placed her hands on the sinks edge, needing to grip something. Then her eyes flew open. Hands slid around her midsection, and slowly pulled her body to Kara's. Cat closed her eyes and put her hands over the aliens. She felt the warmth from Kara's body, as if it was still warm from the sun. Cat turned in Kara's arms and looked at Kara. She stared into those eyes, eyes that have pierced into her soul many steamy dream filled nights.
"How did I get my son back?" Cat quizzed. There was something she didn't like about this. Kara smiled.
"I wrote to him as you and you met," Kara answered.
"What is my Tuesday lunch order?" she asked arcing her eyebrow.
"Depends on the season, and if apricots are fresh from the market at JoJo's," Kara grinned as Cat sighed and then she pushed Kara away, just arms distance, but still close.
"I am not a toy Kara," Cat said.
"I am not a feeble minded little assistant," Kara shout back shrugging her shoulders.
"I want all of you," Cat shot to the woman in her kitchen inches from her.
"I want you to want that," Kara lifted her eyes, "I want to give you everything that I am," then Kara stepped into Cat's space and took her hands in her own, "I want to be Kara Zor-El with you Cat. Not the little reporter, not the little assistant, and not Supergirl. I want to be all of who I am, and I want that with you," Kara said firmly. Cat felt her cheeks heat up and her heart bloom in her chest.
"I knew it," came a voice from the hallway that led to Carter's room, a guest room, and the office. Kara and Cat flew apart. Kara looked to the boy and swallowed.
"Hey buddy," Kara's voice squeaked a little in pitch and Cat smiled at her almost lover being caught by her son. She watched as Carter walked into the kitchen area and sat at the bar. Cat rolled her eyes and got him a glass of water and the boy looked at Kara, eyes boring into Kara's.
"You are Supergirl," Carter said nonchalantly, as he sipped his glass. Cat giggled as she watched Kara's face. Then Cat saved the super, sort of.
"Carter, Kara and I were having a conversation, how much of it did you hear, dear?" Cat asked and pinned him with a glare. Kara swallowed and eased back never wanting to be on the receiving end of.
"You love each other, and she is Kara Zor-El, AKA Supergirl," Carter looked from woman to woman and rolled his eye, just like his mother would when chastising a child, "Kal-El is Superman's name, and they are cousins, so you are Supergirl," Carter surmised. Cat simply leaned back against the sink. She gave the floor to Kara.
"So, how long have you known, buddy?" Kara asked softly.
"Since the train where I almost got blown up on," Carter said easily.
"WHAT!?" Cat growled.
"Now it's not what it seems. I had protected him, didn't I?" Kara tried to worm her way out of trouble.
"Yeah, Mom, the bomb blew away from the train. It's totally cool," Carter said. Kara made a face at him. Cat sighed and held up a hand to the two people she cared most about.
"I will forget this ever happened on three conditions," Cat looked at her son and Kara. They listened raptly, "You," pointing to Carter, "Will go to bed and speak not one word of this night. Kara is Kara to us Carter, alien and all, we love her, but Kara is not Supergirl outside of this apartment. Understood?" Carter smiled and nodded, "Good now off to bed," Carter jumped down from the stool and went to his room. Then turned to Kara.
"One condition down two to go," Kara tried to joke but Cat simply glared at Kara. The super rubbed the back of her heard.
"Second condition," Cat said harshly, "take me to bed Kara," Cat said and then Kara's eyes slammed into Cat's, "I have waited for years to finally have you right here in my clutches. I am not going to waste this moment."
"But Cat isn't it a little fast?" Kara's voice pitched again. Cat stepped close to Kara and kissed her lips. Kara let her lips glide over Cats, explore and devour Cat's. Cat slid her hand around Kara's neck and then pulled her down into a deeper kiss, forcing their mouths to open to the other. Then Cat pulled away.
"I want to sleep with you Kara," Cat looked into these blue eyes, those brilliant blue eyes, "I want you to hold me the way you were a few moments before Carter made his presence known." Cat pulled Kara's hand and led her to her room on the other side of the penthouse from Carter's room. Kara swallowed as she was led to the room. Cat closed the door. She looked at Kara and the two women stood next to the bed. Suddenly Kara watched as Cat looked from her to the bed, and then she heard her heartbeat race. Kara smiled softly and placed her hand in Cat's.
"Third condition," Kara asked shaking Cat's hand. Cat looked up, and her light brown eyes swam. She let the tears fall over her eyelashes, and then she looked away. Kara stepped closer to the woman and tilted her head up gently.
"Please Cat, what is your third condition. If it is in my power, I will make it so, it shall be done," Kara slowly slipped her arms around Cat and pulled her to her chest. Cat's arms moved around Kara and let her head rest on Kara's shoulder.
"Love me," Cat whispered then she clutched the woman to her as tightly as she could, as if she was trying to fuse their bodies together, "Please love me Kara Zor-El. Please…" Cat begged in Kara's ear, and then Kara let her chest finally snap open and let her emotions pour out. She let her own tears slide down her cheeks. Kara tilted her head and kissed Cats shoulder, then her neck, then her jaw, then her temple and then she paused at her earlobe.
"I have always loved you, unconditionally," Kara squeezed Cat to her as she felt the woman melt into her. This strong, independent woman, always hiding everything she truly was from everyone else shook in the superhero's arms like a leaf on the wind.
Kara slowly took herself from Cat's embrace. She took Cat's hands and placed then on her jacket. Cat looked up to Kara and saw her warm smile as Kara's fingers went to the button of Cat's blouse at her throat. Cat let her hands shove the jacket aside, and then slide up Kara's arms going to the button of her own shirt. Kara slowly unbuttoned Cat's blouse, and then pushed the sides of the shirt aside. Cat smirked when she noticed Kara's breathing hitch. Cat looked down and then watched as she revealed to her bedroom the secret the world would love to see. Kara stood back and let Cat see the insignia of her house. She let Cat reach out and touch the S on her chest, run her fingers over the treading. Cat took her hand away when Kara shuddered, but Kara took Cat's hand and placed it on her chest.
"It's ok, you were just touching some rather sensitive places," Kara smiled down to the blonde and Cat's smiled beamed at her. Cat looked to the window, she walked over to the window and pulled the blinds closed. She will never sacrifice Kara's privacy. Kara smiled gratefully and then Cat turned around. She licked her lips. Now she was on the other side of the bed and Kara on the other, with the entire expanse of the king-sized bed between Cat could slow down. She watched Kara as her hands went to her shirt and she slowly took the shirt from her shoulders. She paused as Kara watched the woman, standing before her topless in a black lace bra. Kara reached behind her and pulled her zipper down her back. She took the blue suit down her chest and then shrugged as she quickly undid her bottom. Leaving her in her supersuit.
"I think this is my dream come true," Cat whispered. Kara looked at her with her eyebrow arched.
"I finally get to see all of you, every stich of clothing, and the body that wears it," Cat said as she looked to Kara's eyes. The woman smiled and then in a flash of super speed, she stood there, stripped bare to the woman before her. Cat's breathing stopped. When it began again Cat looked into Kara's eyes.
"How can you be so divine?" Cat asked. Kara blushed slightly and then watched as Cat finished undressing. Kara tilted her head to the side, and looked at the woman, taking in every inch of peach tinted skin. Then Cat began to fidget with her hands.
"I know I am old," Cat swallowed and bit her lower lip, "I know I have some stretchmarks, and I am not as firm as you are, but…" Cat was stopped as Kara slipped into the bed and under the covers then held out her hand to the woman. Cat slid into the bed on her side staring at Kara. Kara didn't cross the distance between them she simply smiled at Cat.
"You are perfect," Kara breathed between them, "You are not old, you have lived. You have had two children, and have LIVED, Cat. You have done more in your life than some people could do in a thousand life times. You are beyond beautiful. I have no words," Kara then reached out and let Cat come to her, chose to go to her. And Cat did. Flesh to flesh it was the purest moment Cat had experienced. Finally, she loved the person she shared a bed with, finally she shared her heart with the one she loved and finally, they loved her back. When Kara wrapped her arms around Cat, she simply melted into the flesh of the woman she chose and chose her in return.
Cat lay her head on Kara's chest, trying not to feel the woman's nipple in her throat as she breathed in the blonde woman beneath her. She smelled like vanilla and the wind. Wild and yet tamed at the same time. She kissed Kara's throat. In response Kara kissed her head.
"Go to sleep Cat, I'll be here when you wake, unless…" Kara let the statement hang and Cat simply smiled.
"Unless work calls," cat finished. Kara smiled and nodded.
Cat had never felt such a peace settle over her heart before. She hoped it never went away.