Today was the day of Prom. The theme was Fire and Ice, or Worlds Collide. Weird right? Anyway, Alli came and picked me up so we could get ready at her house and that's where Eli was coming to pick me up at. Alli let me use her shower, then I put on my new underwear set, then my dress, then my shoes. Alli was already ready, so she helped me get dressed. After I had all my stuff on, Alli blow dried my hair and we put it in tiny curls with moose. Then I put on black eyeliner and mascara. Alli and I stood there and looked into the mirror. "We look hot Clare." Alli said, I giggled. It was around seven so Eli and Drew should be coming soon. Finally Eli was here. He knocked on Alli's door and she answered.
"I'm here to get Clare." He said in a cheesy voice that made me want to laugh.
"Right this way," Alli said. "Clare! Elijah is here!" Alli yelled for me and I walked down the stairs. Eli was wearing black combat boot, with a tuxedo, but instead of a bow tie, he was wearing a tie that hung loosely around his neck. In his hand he held a corsage which was a black rose. I was finally at the bottom and Eli gave me my corsage and hugged me.
"You look amazing." He whispered in my ear.
"You too." I said and he smirked. He held out his arm.
"Shall we?" Eli asked. I took his arm.
"We shall." I said.
"See you there Clare-Bear!" Alli said as we walked out. We were sitting in the hearse and I put my corsage on. Finally we started to drive towards Degrassi.
"Clare, you look absolutely breath taking." Eli said when we got there.
"Thanks." I said. We walked into the gym. Everything was in red, orange, yellow, blue and white. Eli led me to a table that Adam and Fiona were sitting at.
"Hey guys." Adam said.
"Hey." I said and smiled at Adam. Just then, Alli and Drew walked in and they came and sat with us.
"Hey sexy people!" Alli squealed. I saw Eli roll his eyes at her and I giggled.
"Come on Clare, lets go get our pictures taken!" Alli said. Everyone nodded and we all got our pictures taken. After that a slow song came on.
"Do you want to dance?" Eli asked me.
"Sure." I said. We walked out to the middle of the dance floor. Eli pulled me into his warm embrace and put his hands on the small of my back. I put my hands on the back of his neck and laid my head on his chest. We swayed to the music and Eli was singing the words to the song in my ear.
"And if God takes me before you, I just want you to know, I love you..." I finally recognized the song. It was With Eyes Wide Shut by Blessthefall. I smiled. Finally the song was over. "Am I a good dancer?" Eli joked.
"Wonderful." I said and kissed him on the cheek.
"Lets get something to drink." Eli said. We walked over to the punch bowl and Eli got us two cups. Then we went to sit down at our table again. People served us salads and we ate. All of a sudden, Paisley Jacket by Dead Hand started to play. Eli and Adam started to sing along with it. I smiled at Eli.
"I'm going to get some fresh air." I said and Alli came with me. We were sitting on the steps in front of the school.
"So are you gonna do it?" Alli asked.
"Do what?" I asked and Alli looked at me like I was stupid.
"Are you going to sleep with Eli?" She asked.
"I don't know." I said. "Should I?" I asked.
"Yes, Its totally worth it." Alli said.
"What if I regret it?" I asked. Alli was silent for a moment then said.
"You love him don't you?"
"Yes, with all my heart." I said.
"Then you wont regret it." She said.
Just then, Eli came outside. "Everything okay?" He asked. I nodded and stood up. "Just dance with me one more time and we can go home okay?" Eli said. I walked over to him and gave him a peck on the lips.
"Okay." I said. We walked back to the gym and started to dance. We danced to Head Over Heels by Digital Daggers. After the song was over I said goodbye to all my friends, and when I said goodbye to Alli she winked at me. Eli held my hand and he walked me out to Morty.
"You've been awful quiet tonight, did you have fun?" Eli asked.
"I'm sorry. I had a great time Eli." I said.
"Okay then what's wrong?" He asked.
"I'm just thinking about something Alli said." I told him.
"Is it about me?" Eli asked.
"Kind of." I said.
"Oh. Is it bad?" He asked.
"No, not at all." I said.
"Can you tell me?" Eli asked.
"I'd rather not." I said and blushed.
"Please!" Eli said.
"It's really embarrassing. Maybe ill wait until we get home." I said.
"You're killing me Blue Eyes!" Eli said and I laughed. "Do you really want to go home now?" Eli asked.
"That depends, were you planning on taking me somewhere else?" I asked.
"Yeah, Sav was having a Prom after party at his place. You wanna go?"
"Do you?" I asked.
"I don't care, but I'll go if you go." Eli said.
"No, I don't want to, lets just go home and watch a movie or something." I said. Eli nodded and soon we were home. Eli and I walked upstairs and soon we were and I walked upstairs and I was about to go change but then I remembered the zipper that I couldn't reach. "Umm... Eli, could you unzip me?" I asked.
"Sure." Eli said and I felt his warm hands on my shoulders, then he unzipped the dress. I turned around and kissed him.
"Thank you. Umm, Eli?" I asked."Hmm?" Eli answered."Can I sleep with you tonight?" I asked him.
"Sure Clare." Eli said and then I went in my room to change. I put on a pair of fuzzy pajama pants and I didn't put on a shirt. When I walked over to Eli's room, it was pitch dark. I had to feel my way to Eli's bed. Finally I found it and I slid in and got underneath the covers. "Is that you Clare?" Eli asked.
"Yeah," I whispered. I was so nervous. Should I sleep with him or not. Eli scooted closer to me and hugged me but I felt his hands roam around my body and even in the dark, I could see the confusion on his face.
"Where is your shirt?" Eli asked.
"Umm. I wanted to surprise you." I said.
"Oh God Clare, is this why you've been acting weird all night?" Eli asked with a hint of anger in his voice.
"Kind of." I said in a shaky voice. "Are you mad?" I asked him.
"Mad? Now why in the hell would I be mad?" Eli said.
"I don't know but this is what I wanted to talk to you about, Eli." I said.
"You mean sex right?" Eli said.
"Yes. I don't know if I'm ready or not but I love you Eli. and I think we should try tonight." I said a little nervous.
"Clare, I love you too but don't you think we should wait a while? Are you even fully recovered from the incident with your dad? I don't want you to freak out on me, right in the middle of it." Eli said.
"So you're saying no?" I asked,my eyes watering up a bit.
"Clare, honey listen. I'm not saying no, I'm just saying now might not be the best time." He said taking my face in his hands. I don't know what was wrong with me, but tears started coming down. Silently of course, but I've never felt the feeling of rejection and I didn't know that it would be this strong.I sniffled a little bit. "Are you crying?" Eli asked. I didn't answer him. "Clare?" Eli reached over and turned on the lamp. I pulled the covers over my head because I didn't want him to see me. "Answer me Clare." He said in a harsh voice. I ignored him. Blue Eyes, please talk to me!" Eli begged.
"You don't want me." I mumbled.
"Clare, that's not what I said!" Eli yelled. I peeked my head out of the covers to see Eli sitting on the edge of the bed, running his hands through his hair over and over again. I decided to sit up and Eli looked at me. Eli crawled back to the top of the bed, beside me and pulled me into his lap so I straddled him.
"Clare, I love you with every single thing in my heart and my soul. You are amazing. The most amazing girl I have ever met. I love everything about you." Eli said in a gentle voice. "Do you know how much it upsets me when you hide from me and don't talk to me?" He asked.
"Eli I just don't get it. If we love each other, then I think were ready." I said.
"You might think you're ready Clare, but your not. Trust me, I don't want you to regret it in the morning." He said.
"But I want you!" I said, Eli smirked.
"I know you do and I want you its only a couple months since your dad, did things to you." He explained.
"Eli, please." I begged. I heard him sigh. I was about to start crying again until he flipped us over and he was on top. Eli started kissing my neck and I roamed my hands through his hair.
"If you want me to stop then just say so." Eli murmured against my lips. He was now kissing my stomach and he was about to remove my bra. I felt a twinge of shyness and grabbed his hands, moving them away.
"Can't we leave it on?" I asked shyly.
"Why Clare? You're beautiful." Eli said as he sat up. I already missed the warmth.
"I'm still a little nervous and shy." I said.
"Okay we should stop then." Eli said.
"Wait, why?" I asked.
"Because before we have sex, we have to be comfortable in front of each other." Eli said, I groaned.
"Calm down Clare, we have plenty of time to do this in the future." Eli said. He pulled me to him and we fell asleep in each others arms.