Worlds Collide

by Shadowgirl502

There was no denying that the girl had made herself a soft spot in his heart, but there was so much fear of ever thinking that he can ever date her. He won't forgive himself for taking away anything more from what she has left. Lowering his eyes, he felt envy and conflicted. She was what he lost, yet he hasn't discovered the whole truth of her. Discontinued

14. Chapter 13

Disclaimer: I do not own anything except my OC. Everything else belongs to the original creator

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Chapter 13

3rd Pov

A few days has past and it's been quiet during those days, nothing happening at Anteiku nor any activity from the dove since she hasn't shown up anywhere. The only news that was available in regards to her were only from what Touka, Yoshimura or even Hide since they were the ones to manage to speak to the dove even if it was for a short moment. But it left Kaneki wondering if it's because of him that she hasn't been coming around the cafe or answering anyone's messages and calls. It was like as if she cut the cord connecting them, drifting away as she refused to interact with anyone outside her select circle.

During those days, he returned to his routine on heading to school with Hide and heading over to Anteiku whenever it was his day to work. But he remembered one day at school, they ran into Nishiki's girlfriend who only handed Hide the CD they went to get before Nishiki attacked them. Kaneki wondered what made the ghoul decide to give them the item after everything, but more importantly why didn't he show up himself. But the bigger question was the moment Hide mentioned Nishiki and the reaction that came from his girlfriend wasn't a pleasant one as she glared before running off.

The boy wonders if she knew about Nishiki's nature, but he wanted to know how he was after the fight. Yet he was glad that Hide didn't seem to recall anything from that day, but it still didn't shake off the unwanted feelings that raises whenever he thinks back to that day. Then his thoughts soon trailed down to his fail attempts in succeeding on mastering the skill of fake eating, but he still hasn't cracked the little trick or secret that could possibly help him. It was tiresome after a handful of attempts, but he needed to nail it so he could at least go out with Hide whenever he decides to eat somewhere.

Sighing under his breath, Kaneki looked out the window of the car since he joined Yomo in collecting the supplies since Touka was busy studying up for an upcoming exam. So, he was asked to assist Yomo on the task and Kaneki wasn't expecting discover their true source on how they feed themselves when they don't hunt like most ghouls. Instead, they feed off those who throw away their lives with the act of suicide, so it wasn't an actual mess for them, but still it was quite sad to see the sight of the mangled bodies that laid at the bottom of the cliff.

However, it did answer his question that Yuzuki mention a few vague notes, but now it's clear. The ghouls at Anteiku, those who ask for help such as Fueguchi-san, and even Yuzuki revealed that she too takes part in feeding off the humans that decided to end their lives. Yet from what he gathered, the dove hardly eats properly due to her connection to CCG and from what he heard from Touka the girl would intentionally starve herself to an extent, but not enough to drive her insane but enough to leave her fragile.

Furrowing his brows, the moment he noticed that the car stopped, Kaneki looked over to Yomo who got out of the car, but more importantly they managed to run into Ryouko who was wondering all alone at such hour. He didn't know much about her besides the fact she has a daughter and lately has been at Anteiku, but besides that he knew nothing else. Watching that Yomo told her to enter the car so he could take her home instead of allowing herself to wonder the streets alone. Kaneki didn't say anything the moment she sat in front beside Yomo, but she acknowledged his presences and she was a bit confused to see that he was the one joining Yomo instead of Touka.

Yomo responded back, explaining how the teen was back home studying for school and how Kaneki was her temporary replacement. After everything was cleared, the ride back was deathly silent and it made Kaneki a bit uneasy until Yomo bluntly stated an important detail revolving Ryouko and her actions, especially since their linked to a sudden shift in the 20th Ward.

He listened carefully, his eye widen the moment Yomo mentioned that the doves were looking for Ryouko, explaining how they finally entered the 20th Ward and causing a shift among the ghouls within the ward. Kaneki wondered what the woman did that attracted the CCG's attention, but more importantly he believed it was Rize's actions that brought the trouble towards the ward. Frowning to himself, he wondered if Yuzuki was staying away was because she knew about Ryouko, but doesn't wish to be near the ghoul for her sake.

It went silent once more, no more words were shared throughout the rest of the ride back. Kaneki stared out of the window once again, he was getting a bit worried about the dove with the lack of communication that wedged between them. Curling his fingers, he still feels as if it's because of what he said, the topic that basically reminded the girl that she couldn't be surrounded by ghouls due to the legacy that her father managed to create with the name that sends any ghoul into hiding. Certainly, he must've made her realize the sad truth and dangers that surrounded her, to the point that she took a step backwards away from them in order to protect them.

But he hopes that she's doing well and maybe she'll return to Anteiku to actually sit down and talk. He didn't want to only watch her from afar as she handled the duties that rested on her shoulders, but to see her live her life without the fear that her actions will be the end of them. Sighing under his breath, in truth he just wanted to clear up the questions he had and understand the things that have been bothering him, but all he could do was wait until she gives him the chance.

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Yuzuki's Pov

I felt trapped in this space, under the roof that is filled with so much hatred, but what other place is there then the place I was told to value. Frowning, I finished another report revolving around one of my many sinful acts of being an Investigator. Leaning back into my chair, setting my pen aside and I found myself wondering about Anteiku, then my thoughts all led back to Kaneki.

Sighing, I haven't been around the cafe for a bit and I denied any messages or calls since I'm not the person who should be among them. A giant hazard for being around Anteiku, a troublesome dove to be too close to Touka and a very complicated person to be associated with Kaneki or any human such as Hide. However, I'm more of an outcast within the walls of the organization that only spread useless battles, but who am I to speak.

I'm no better than anyone here, a murder, but yet I still try to fight back against it and I still can't find my rightful place. Covering my face, taking in a deep breath as I tried to make sense of my whole existence and I'm trying to live through all the challenges, but I'm finding myself falling into a hole that I can't escape.

Releasing a deep breath, removing my hands from my face and suddenly I felt more sadden at the fact that even without my sight, I can't ignore the pain that I inflict on those who crossed my path.

The whole saying of seeing no evil is a lie. We're our own demons and surely without a doubt many will live their lives in regret once the realization that they've been living a false reality. Ghouls aren't lesser than humans nor are humans lesser than ghouls.

So why continue the whole chain of revenge?

The concept of vengeance is a mere poison, but people still live in it.

Why have we lived in a wrong world that has blinded everyone within its grasps?

Draping an arm across my waist while bringing my other hand over my mouth as I shut my eyes. Leaning my head back against my chair as I tried to understand my own personal feelings, how I simply wish to live my own life away from the divided world that I was wedged between. Sighing, I furrowed my brows at how stubborn I was from taking the step towards the next level and yet I can't deny how terrifying it was. To befriend humans, to surround myself with ghouls, and to live my days around CCG, but to always wonder around troublesome ghouls. Where my actions don't only affect me, but it'll harm anyone who's associated with me in any form of relation.

In a world that I'm part of... There's no room for any personal ties beyond those who I work with. I cannot involve those from the outside into my messed-up life. To entangle ghouls into the life of a dove, to know that I could be the one to cause their whole world to crumble while I merely stand back to watch since I have no power to interfere.

However, through the years that I have lived with Arima and the time I've spent with Fura and many other Investigators and Ghouls. I've seen that life is short, life is cruel, but life was worth fighting to protect and we're all given a choice in how we spend the time between birth and death. Yet some of us are restricted in making decisions surrounding our lives, only allowing ourselves to fall victim to wrong world that we so happened to be born into. How I and many others wish to live a life away from the bloodshed, to live a life in which we're at peace, but we're tied down by the roles that were set upon us and to work until we die.

But I've seen many who threw away their lives, giving into the endless circle of revenge and simply throwing away everything they were lucky to have in their grasps when others didn't have those same privileges. I've been in situations where I stood back, watching how people carelessly destroy the life they were given. I've also been in the spot where I took everything away from them like a thief. However, I've changed slightly where now I'm watched carefully on the field because I hesitate and I try to make the whole progress less painful.

I live a life in where I can't form friendships, where I can't have any romance, or act according to my own morals, but I'll be denying myself from living a life that I'm so lucky to have a chance to have again.

Only I can prevent myself from living my life...

Still am I comfortable knowingly that I'll bring intentional harm to those who surround themselves with me? Will I be okay with the thought of stepping onto a untouched waters where I could be happy while creating a risk to those I've came to love? No matter what decision I make, I'll harm others or I'll suffer in silence.

I'm tired of suffering... But I'm terrified from harming anyone dear to me...

A sound came from the other side of my door, raising a brow before sighing under my breath as I called out, "Come in."

Opening my eyes, turning over to the door as a thought echoed in my mind, Only I can prevent my own happiness... And only I can live in regret...

Furrowing my brows, the moment I realized who was behind the door. I heard the door click closed before finally speaking up as the Investigator apologized, "Forgive me if I disturbed you," It was Amon who unexpectedly dropped by which could only mean that there was something he probably needs from me.

"No, it's fine," I shook my head before reassuring the man that he didn't interrupt on anything important.

However, I was slightly surprised that he decided to stop by because only a handful of people ever bother visiting me in my office. But I do wonder what made him decide to show up here, "What brought you here then, Amon?"

"I have some questions in regards to suspects number 723 and the ghoul child," My fingers curled up at the mention of the ghoul case revolving around Ryouko and Hinami, but I knew I can't put my job aside when personal relations are involved now.

I sighed under my breath, I remember that Amon and Mado already terminate Asaki a few days ago which is the reason why Ryouko finally arrived at Anteiku, but I still couldn't get over it. None of the less, I am responsible for what happened since I'm associated with the two Investigators that killed the man.

Flashback:

She arrived at the Anteiku and before I had the chance to leave, I saw her with Yoshimura for a moment and Ryouko took notice to my presence. I remain where I was as she came into the room I was in. Honestly, I wasn't prepared to hear anything from her, but I did wonder where Hinami was.

Ryouko closed the door behind her, she offered a faint smile before reassuring me that Hinami was perfectly fine since the girl was currently with Touka. I sat down beside her, but I knew something was wrong and what she said next confirmed everything, "Asaki is no longer here..."

My eyes widen, all I could do was wonder when it all happened, but I clearly remembered the Investigators that took the case and I wasn't surprised to know that they succeeded. After all, I knew Mado hardly ever fails and surely Amon must have skills that led to the success of their assignment.

Shaking my head, facing Ryouko as I asked, "What happened?"

"He told us to leave, so I took Hinami while he stayed behind," I could sense the pure sadness within her voice and certainly she must feel heartbroken for leaving him behind. But she mentioned something that made tense up, "I recall seeing another ghoul..."

Frowning, I listened carefully to her words as she described the ghoul, "A large man, he had an atmosphere surrounding him and I knew he was a danger."

I rested my hand on her arm as I asked another question, "Do you know who?"

"...Jason..."

"Yamori..." Glaring at nothing in particular, moving my hands onto my lap as I muttered under my breath, "What did he want?"

"He wanted to speak to my husband, but I left before hearing anything," Ryouko tried to stay strong, but I heard the shakiness in her voice, keeping herself from crumbling down now and avoiding the temptation of crying, "That's when I saw a few Investigators head down towards our home and-"

Her voice fell to a mere whisper, knowing that her husband was no longer alive, "...I knew he didn't escape..."

Curling my fingers over her hands, I faced her as I tried to reassure her, "Ryouko you have a place here until you know what to do."

She shook her head, refusing to accept the offer and certainly she also rejected from Yoshimura as well. A faint chuckle escaped her lips as she stated, "I don't wish to be a burden to you or Anteiku."

I can't sit back anymore; I need to at least help her or more importantly keep Hinami safe. I'm not giving up yet, tightening my grip slightly while reminding her that people will help her, "We will aid you with all we have," Offering a smile, I needed to at least protect what was left because I swore to Asaki that I'll do my absolute best to help.

"...Thank you..."

Nodding, I completely turned in my chair so I could rest my head on top of my hands, "I've heard that you and Mado managed to apprehend suspect number 696."

"Correct," Amon stood there in front of me, not taking a seat that was provided but I understand if he didn't want to be comfortable around a ghoul like myself. He went straight to chase, not wasting much time, "We also encountered another ghoul at the scene, but he escaped and we dealt with number 696."

Raising a brow, I still didn't get the answer to why he came to me if there wasn't anything else, but I do wonder if Mado knew his subordinate was here, "Then what do you wish to gain from me?"

"You have been one to work among record files, you probably already dealt with a few materials revolving suspects 696 and 723," Blinking, I still didn't fully comprehend his explanation, but I wasn't going to argue or question it. He was determined to at least gain some information, "So I'm merely here to see if you have any ideas about locating them or any possible details we're missing."

Sighing, I remembered what Yoshimura said and I knew he was right that I can't bring suspicion onto myself if I refuse to corroborate with my colleague. Yet I wonder where Amon got the information revolving around me and my time spent in archive, but it also gave me no other choice but to answer his questions.

Leaning back into my chair, all I could do was provide vague responses revolving the current case, "Suspect 696 was very protective of his family, so he was the only one capable of fighting even if it wasn't much."

Amon quickly concluded the surroundings of Ryouko and of course he wasn't wrong, "So you're suggesting that suspect 723 won't be fighting back?"

"From what I've gathered then no," I gave a small nod, confirming it while also clearing out a detail that could be an important factor, "However, as you stated earlier there is a ghoul child involved. So of course, there is a high chance that suspect 723 will do anything to protect their child regardless of the force they're dealing with."

Picking my pen up as I resumed working on my paperwork for a moment, but I paused once again when he spoke up. Frowning slightly at the words that left his mouth and I still couldn't understand why it was even a question to begin with, "Are you saying that a ghoul is willing to die for a ghoul child?"

"Tell me, Amon," Setting my pen aside, leaning against my hand as I tilted my head before stating my own thoughts, "Regardless if we're humans or ghouls. We share a common ground in which we will shield our children from harm even if it cost us our lives. So yes, if there is a ghoul child involved from what you gathered then surely things will be a bit complex in a way."

"A ghoul is a ghoul," I studied him carefully as he gave his own thoughts about the matter and without a doubt he even brought up his mentor, "Mado mentioned that they don't have the same emotions as us, they aren't human."

"So I've been told," Chuckling, I wasn't surprised to hear such a pitiful response, but I brushed it aside before asking, "Is there anything else you wish to discuss about?"

"No, that will be all," He shook his head, excusing himself as he went to the door, but he stopped the moment I spoke up, "Thank you for your corroboration, Yuzuki-san"

Returning my attention back to my work, writing down a few more notes on my report while speaking up again, "But keep telling yourself that Amon," Raising a brow, closing the file before opening another as I asked a question, "Are ghouls truly barbaric as we display them to be? Deep down we're just as barbaric."

"One cannot deny that humans and ghouls are both dangerous species when threaten, it's merely nature," Shrugging, I didn't move my attention from my work and I knew there wasn't anything else to be said on the matter, "So I wish you and Mado luck on your assignment then."

I also wish Ryouko and Hinami luck in escaping through the tight maze they're confined in

I noticed how he turned slightly, facing me as responded, "I've been informed about your views and surely you will face consequences for it if you continue to say such things."

"Of course," Setting my pen down, lifting my head as I bluntly stated, "A ghoul has no say and surely what I say is merely a crime that will leave me with no other choice but death."

Waving a hand carelessly, not really caring much as I informed him, "Yet do take my words as a grain of salt."

There wasn't else left to discuss in regards to the topic and surely I sometime forget where my place is so I tend to say things that would get me in trouble if someone were to ever actual report it.

Amon gave me a quick nod, opening the door while sparing a few more words before leaving, "Then I wish you a good afternoon."

Resuming my work once again as I replied, "Same to you," But the moment I heard the door click shut, I sat my pen down before bringing a hand up to my face as I sighed in frustration. Leaning back in my chair, my thoughts went back to the two ghouls, It's only a matter of time before they're cornered

Closing my eyes, I curled my fingers up while knowing the possible outcome that will be coming up quite soon, But Hinami will be left scarred once Ryouko gives her life up for her daughter...

I covered my face again, leaning against my elbows as the thought brought up old memories, I already knew how it feels... To lose your mother before your eyes...

Flashback:

I paced in room, not fully accepting the fate that has been placed upon the two, but I couldn't stay put. Pausing, I turned over to Ryouko who still managed to keep her calm composer even at a time like this, "You're aware of the situation you have brought to yourself?" Shaking my head, I could only imagine the hardship that the girl will face, "The dangers you have now exposed to yourself and Hinami?"

"Asaki is no longer here to shield you or Hinami," Curling my fingers up, I knew her chances are low, but I only wished she could accept the help that has been offered to her, "CCG is now closing in on you and Hinami, but I cannot prevent anything because of the conditions that are placed upon me."

"I understand, Yuzuki," Ryouko stood up, resting her hands onto my shoulders as she smiled, "I truly appreciate everything you've done for us."

She closed her eyes, moving away from me as she whispered, "But now, I alone will carry the burdens and face what I've created."

"Ryouko, you can't believe that-"

"There is no need to bring anyone else to the mess that I've brought onto myself," She turned away, cutting me off and I already knew she has accepted her fate, "After all, I am the one to bring CCG into the 20th Ward."

She giggled to herself, looking over her shoulder as she stated the fact, "I've caused too much trouble..."

Not accepting the truth that has settled in as I tried to convince her, "I'll help you as much as I can."

Her hand rested on my shoulder, "Yuzuki..."

"Promise me if things..." My eyes widen at the sound of her voice, the hurt and guilt that cloaked her words as she asked me for a favor that I don't know if I could live up to. Her hand loosens slightly from my shoulder as her voice became a mere whisper, "Promise me that Hinami will be safe when I can no longer be there for her."

Shaking my head, I couldn't believe the words that were leaving her lips, "What?"

"I trust you and Anteiku will protect her when I can't," A smile rested on her lips, a smile that was filled with sadness and I felt her hand brush my cheek as she placed yet another burden over my shoulders, "All I want is for her to live even if it means I can no longer be here to caress her cheek."

"So please allow her the chance to live," She held my hands for a moment as she continued, "I know Yoshimura will offer a helping hand, surely Touka will watch out for her, and I know you'll do your best to shield her from CCG."

Closing my eyes, I took in a deep breath before nodding as I reassured her, "Don't worry, I'll be among those to help Hinami and keep her out of harms way," I could feel the corners of my lips twitch as I offered a smile before stating, "She'll live on so don't worry because I know Hinami is a strong girl, so without a doubt she'll pull through."

"Thank you," Pulling away, I noticed the sorrow in her words, "I know she'll be in great hands with Anteiku."

It was quite cruel of her to leave me with a task that I am so limited in what I could possible do. Yet I knew I still need to keep my word, I needed to at least try and carry out her wishes along with what Asaki would've wanted for his daughter as well. I'll do my best to offer my assist from afar and leave it up to Anteiku to shield the girl if things do end up in tragedy.

There isn't much I could do due to my position, but I'll try my hardest to manipulate CCG to sway in the favor of those who I care for. But it'll be quite tricky and without a doubt I know Arima will take note if I were to do anything reckless, yet I don't know what actions he'll take if I were to do something like that. All I know is that he'll be disappointed to know how I've strayed away and now stepped onto a whole different path that will only get me killed if I slip.

Sighed, pushing myself off the desk, reminding myself that I'll deal with those issues when it comes to it, but for now I'll handle what I have right now. Taking in a deep breath, I needed to finish my reports before sending them down to the head department and of course I'll be gaining a few new quinques if I ever so choice to use them which I won't. Regardless to the number of ghouls I've killed, I still haven't changed my quinques nor do I plan to upgrade any time soon.

Closing the file, I placed it with the rest before finally leaning back into my chair while setting my pen to rest. Wrapping an arm around me while I placed a hand over my face, sighing under my breath as I tried to make sense of everything that has been happening within the short time frame.

A few days since I've actually seen anyone beside Yoshimura, Ryouko and Hide, but even then, I always kept the conservations short as I tried to distant myself. Curling my fingers slightly, I remember how Kaneki managed to know the name that my father has created for himself, but I do wonder what Kaneki really thinks about it. To now that I was raised by the Investigator that every ghoul tremble or fell victim to his quinque.

Does he think that I'm capable of doing the same thing...?

Furrowing my brows, I could only imagine that Touka was the one to reveal that detail to him and surely Yoshimura must've warned him not to speak of it, but yet the poor boy was always terrible with what to say and brought it up. Yet it only reminded me of how much of a hazard I am to them, knowing that one simple mistake on my part can get them all killed and I wouldn't be able to do a thing.

Even after Kaneki meeting my father in an unexpected timing, I could only think of the possibility of Arima seeing right through the boy and I knew Kaneki felt uncomfortable the moment he saw him. If that's bad enough, I could only imagine how Juuzou will be if he ever meets Kaneki or Hide, but I hope it'll never come to it. I can't have anyone from CCG meeting them nor do I want to bring them anywhere near this place.

...But it seems that it'll be a difficult task...

Removing my hand from my face, I could recall the guilt in his voice when I snapped at him, but I really do hope he understands that I'm not holding it against him nor do I blame him. After all, it was bound to happen eventually, but I was hoping it'll on my terms at least.

Leaning against my hand, covering my mouth as I recalled how we were close, basically invading each other's personal space and it all changed by one thing. But before that, I felt a different feeling that I have yet to understand and without a doubt it's a brand new sensation. I shook my head at the silly ideas, I couldn't possibly believe I could actually form something so intimate.

There isn't room for that in my life

Sighing, closing my eyes as I recalled the times I've spent and how I actually felt happy as if I finally found something that sparked a flame that has been extinguish. I'm content with the friends and family I have now, sure I'll laugh with them and smile, but this happiness and feeling isn't the same when I'm with him. But it also brings so much pain to watch him suffer and none of the less, it pains me to know there couldn't exist anything beyond being mere friends or acquaintance.

But only I can prevent my own happiness...

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3rd Pov

Quickly running to the cafe once she gotten a call from Yoshimura that something terrible happened and she already knew something must've happened to Ryouko and Hinami. Yuzuki could've sworn she recently spoke to Amon not so long ago, but they must've went after the pair immediately when she dismissed him from her office. It just didn't feel real that in a moment everything changed and yet the world continued to move forward as if nothing happened.

Finally reaching the small shop, Yuzuki entered the place and she discovered that it was deathly silent, but her attention turned over to the sound of footsteps and her eyes widen when she realized it was Yoshimura who appeared from the hall. The dove stood there for a moment, neither spared any words as the manager merely motioned her to follow and that's exactly what she did. Following him up to the second floor of the cafe, they entered the lounge and she froze once taking notice that everyone was within the room already, everyone excluding Touka.

Yuzuki recognized everyone's scent, she turned to her left to find that Yomo was leaning against the wall in silence. She shifted her attention ahead of her, she took account that Irimi and Koma sat across from Kaneki who all turned their attention over to her when the manager closed the door. Without moving from her spot, Yuzuki curled her fingers before bluntly asking, "Ryouko is dead, isn't she?"

Not bothering to sugar coat it, Yoshimura nodded his head while responding back, "Yes."

"Where's Hinami?" Facing Yoshimura, she shook her head while making an assumption regarding the girl, "If anything she made it out alive. So, where is she now?"

"Here, but she's been asleep since-" The manager was cut off by the dove as she quickly became hostile and he sighed under his breath as he allowed her to question him.

Narrowing her eyes, stepping forward towards the manager while bringing up a fact that no one in the room could deny, "Why did you ask me to show up here, Yoshimura?" Yuzuki motioned to the rest of the group while referring to herself as the enemy and she felt her body tense up, "From everyone here, you asked a dove to stand among you all after something like this?"

Kaneki spoke up, trying to calm the girl down, but he too didn't complete his sentence since the dove cut him off and ignoring him, "Yuzuki-"

Cutting him off, not bothering to spare any attention or a sign of acknowledgement as she brought up another detail, "I'm assuming Touka doesn't know anything because she's not here yet."

"I can't disturb her yet and certainly she's busy with school," Yoshimura shook his head, his expression held guilt as he explained his actions for calling everyone together, "I'm planning for us to speak more clear about the issue at hand once she arrives, but now we merely wait."

Her expression went cold, lowering her head as she faced the ground while asking, "How long?"

A sigh escaped between his lips, the old ghoul replied to her question, "A half hour passed since Hinami returned to Anteiku with Kaneki and that is how we were informed about Fueguchi-san."

"Yuzuki," Yomo looked over to the dove, he sighed under his breath before saying, "Please take a seat."

Not another word left her mouth as she moved around the couch, sitting down on the far side away from Kaneki since the dove couldn't face being near anyone. She couldn't sit among them without a heavy conscious in what happened and she couldn't bear to handle anything else at the moment. Instead, she shut her eyes while releasing a heavy sigh under her breath as she tried to keep a calm composer.

Kaneki stared at her in concern, especially watching how she handled the news made everyone in the room even more concern and it made the atmosphere in the room darken. A feeling of despair hang over them, but he knew the dove was torn due to her position and certainly she's bearing the burden. He thought twice in reaching out, but even the looks he received from Koma and Irimi told him to leave the girl alone. That's exactly what he did, lowering his eye onto his lap as he curled his fingers while recalling the sight of Ryouko being murdered in front of his eyes as he shielded Hinami.

Silence filled the room until they heard the door close to see that Yoshimura has left the room once again. Yet no one moved or spoke up and certainly there wasn't anything they could say in regards to the unfortunate news they received from a friend. None of the less, they were all worried of what will become of Hinami since the girl is now an orphan without her parents and having no where else to go.

Yomo opened his eyes once the door opened, everyone shifted their eyes over to the door to finally see Touka walk in with the manager closing the door behind them. Yet everyone avoided eye contact from the teen, yet the door hasn't opened her eyes nor made any movements as she remain still, but was fully aware the Touka finally arrived.

The manager folded his arms as he walked passed the young waitress, standing beside the couch where the dove was located and he casted his eyes onto the ground for a moment. Meanwhile, Touka's eyes widen as she took account of who was in the room and something twisted within her, a sickening feeling washed over her which only made her realize that something wasn't right. Darting her eyes over to Yomo who rarely appears to the group gatherings, so it meant something terrible happened, but what made her more worried was when she saw Yuzuki sitting there in silence.

"Even Yomo is here..." Shaking her head, dropping her bag beside her while her eyes landed on the dove, "Yuzuki?"

She was confused to see her since she never really shows up and mainly it's not in her place to appear to their gatherings, so something happened that managed to involve the dove. Touka furrowed her brows, her eyes shifted back to Yomo for a second before looking over to the others, but she noticed that everyone held a grim look.

Frowning, her fingers curled up while the thought crossed her mind, If she's here then... Something terrible must've happened to get Yomo here too... To have everyone here...

Shaking her head, looking over to the manager as she finally asked the question, "Wait, did something happen?"

"Fueguchi-san was killed by Ghoul Investigators," Not having any other way to reveal the tragedy that occurred, Yoshimura simply stated the cold facts, "It appears she was protecting Hinami."

"Ryouko-san..." Touka's eyes widen, her thoughts quickly began to deny the words that left the ghoul's mouth, No... Her eyes fell onto the ground, a hand running through her hair, but she froze for a moment before looking back up at the manager, "Where's Hinami?" She could feel her eyes tear up in hopes to hear that the girl was safe, Please tell me she's alright!

He nodded, Yoshimura sighed under his breath before answering, "She's asleep inside."

"And her face? Were they able to see it? Did she...?" Frowning, Touka began to ask more questions revolving the girl's situation while thinking the worst, If they did then... She has no chance...

His expression went grim, folding his arms behind him as he stated, "Unfortunately, it seems she wasn't able to deal with it."

Glaring, not believing how things turned to the worse in a matter of moments, "What the fuck?" Clenching her hands, the next thing she did was slamming her hand against the wall while muttering, "This is the worst..." Narrowing her eyes dangerously as she stared at the ground while thinking to herself, Why?

"For now I have decided to shelter Hinami at Anteiku, but when the time is right I'm considering moving her to the 24th Ward," Yoshimura came up with a decision in what to do with the girl for the time being and he revealed his plans for Hinami which didn't settle well with Touka.

"Is that a joke!? There's no fucking way that Hinami can live alone in that shit hole!" Touka snapped back, she couldn't believe what he was saying and she could feel her blood boil at the thought, What the hell is he thinking!?

"We should kill the doves!" She didn't think twice before turning the conservation directly to the source, towards their enemy and Touka didn't take note that she was also referring to Yuzuki as she shouted at the group, "Before those guys have a chance to dig up Hinami's information! We should kill them all!"

Gritting her teeth together, sending a glare towards the manager before sparing a look towards the others while thinking to herself, I'll make them pay for murdering Ryouko! For causing Hinami so much pain... We can make them pay

Koma and Irimi both turned over to Yuzuki once they heard the threat that left Touka's outburst. Yet they didn't see much reaction from the dove that sat among them and certainly they weren't the only ones concern about her own thoughts on the subject. Since the two employees noticed that the manager and Yomo both spared a look towards the young dove after hearing what the troubled teen said.

Kaneki felt a sudden shift from Yuzuki, his eye studied the dove carefully, he watched her slowly stand to her feet and he glanced back to Touka when she spoke up again, "And since Yomo is here then with everyone's cooperation we-"

Everyone turned over to see that Yuzuki stood across the girl as she cut her off, "We can't."

"Touka, do you understand the words you're saying?" Yuzuki stepped forward, gesturing to herself as she included herself to the issue at hand while trying to explain, "I know it doesn't mean much coming from me, but listen when I say that if the lives of the Investigators were taken within the 20th Ward then they'll start focusing more on this area."

Shaking her head, frowning as she reminded the girl how it'll only make the situation worse, "It's the very reason why there were a few here to begin with, so why bring more as if there are many violent ghouls here..." Curling her fingers up, Yuzuki brought up a fact that they can't ignore and Touka needed to understand that their actions won't only affect them, "If that happens, those who found a safe haven here will all suffer the consequences of your actions if you wish to follow through your words."

"Yuzuki is correct, if that happens then those from the 'nest' will send in new doves one by one to this place, replacing those that are killed and until we're all hunted down," Yomo kept his eyes on the ground, sighing under his breath before speaking up as he directed his words towards the teen, "So understand that... Touka..."

She protested, not believing that Yomo rejected the idea and sided with Yuzuki and the manager on how to handle the situation, but she wasn't going to give up yet. Touka tried to convince the others and in hopes to persuade Yomo, "But-!"

"Touka, it's as Yomo and Yuzuki said, we mustn't get mixed up with those people..." Yoshimura cut the girl off, shaking his head while making his stance clear as well, "That's the best thing to do for everyone's safety..."

"The 'best' thing?" Snorting at his response, Touka narrowed her eyes at the man while chuckling dryly under her breath before muttering back, "You really think that...?"

Motioning to the others, trying to persuade them into considering her idea, but she only saw how most them avoided to meet her in the eye and Touka glared over to the manager, "Do you not see!? Even though our friends have been murdered you're just going to suck on your thumb and watch quietly as if nothing happened!?"

"That's the 'best thing' to you, manager?" Shaking her head, retorting back and she couldn't believe the old man was choosing to sit back as if nothing ever happened. Touka glared as the thought crossed her mind, It's a cowardly way...!

Yomo sighed, sparing a look towards the girl as he tried to ease the troubled teen, but she refused to see reason, "Touka, please just-"

"NO!" She snapped back, Touka clenched her hands again as she stated the hard facts, "Hinami's father... and Ryouko-san were both killed by the doves!"

Touka took a step forward, her eyes finally landed back onto the dove that stood in front of her and she narrowed her eyes while stating, "It would be pathetic if we didn't attack the enemy!"

"Listen to yourself for once!" Snapping back, Yuzuki tried to get the girl to see reason and understand how irrational she sounds. The dove frowned, shaking her head while bringing up a few details that the girl is failing to take account, "I understand, I truly do! But attacking, murdering them, and bringing all the unwanted attention will only kill us! It'll be the cause of more deaths than our lives, but many that will be caught in the crossfire!"

"Do you truly wish to carry the burden, the dreadful weight of deaths that you'll be causing if you dare attack?" Curling her fingers, Yuzuki stated a cold fact that no one can deny, "Hinami will be killed along with everyone in this room if you dare attack! We can't win!"

"Think about the picture as a whole!" Yuzuki released a tired sigh, shaking her head as she whispered, "...Why... Why... Why do we resort to violence as the solution?"

"I hate you," Sneering back, Touka confronted the girl as she glared, "A dove doesn't understand!"

Standing up to his feet, Kaneki tried to defend the dove while trying to be a voice of reason in hopes that Touka will calm down so they could speak in a more collective manner, but he failed to take account that she won't listen too easily, "Touka lets-"

"You stay out of this!" Glaring over to the boy, Touka lashed out as she called him out for his own actions that he failed to do, "It's not like you can do anything!"

Yuzuki frowned slightly, moving in front of the two as she tried to speak more calm, "Lets speak at a calm-"

Without thinking, she grabbed hold of the dove by the collar and Touka shouted, "After all, it's your damn people who murdered Ryouko! To make Hinami suffer! To leave all of us to roll in our own misery and you dare defend them!"

Her eyes widen for a moment, but Yuzuki grabbed hold of the girl's hand as she harshly removed them from her, "Do you truly believe I'm one of them? Or have you forgotten that I too felt their blade!" Stepping back, Yuzuki threw her hands beside her as she felt her throat tighten as her voice held back her true emotions, "You think I wanted to stand back, let them have their way with people like Ryouko?! To watch everyone die!"

Before Kaneki could interfere once again, someone grabbed his shoulder and he glanced over to see that it was Koma who stopped him from stepping in. The ghoul prevented the boy from reacting out, motioning him to remain put and allow two to handle the situation. Kaneki glanced over to Irimi who gave him a small nod and he looked back at how Yuzuki and Touka continued to argue over the situation. But deep down, he knew that if he stepped in earlier then maybe Ryouko could've been saved and now he's stuck to watch everything fall apart.

"If I can, I would've died in her place because I simply can't let Hinami suffer the lost of both of her parents..." Her voice fell to a mere whisper as she stated a fact surrounding them and Yuzuki gave the girl a sincere look, "You and I both know how it feels to lose our parents..."

Tears built up in her faded eyes, clearly remembering the words that Ryouko shared with her a few days ago and the dove found herself remembering her own parents. Releasing a steady breath, facing the young teen, "Yet you must understand, a parent will do anything to protect their children even if it meant they can no longer be there to kiss their forehead before putting their children to sleep or to hold their hand."

"Ryouko protected Hinami and all we can do is to help Hinami, so Ryouko's death wouldn't be all for nothing," Clenching her hands, Yuzuki raised her voice as she called the girl out for being so naive, "But it's just a childish idea to attack them, to react without thinking, and all to prove what!"

Stepping forward, shaking her head as she argued once more, but Yoshimura cut the girl's sentence short, "It's quite pathetic if you truly think-"

"No, the pathetic thing is not that we won't attack the enemy..." The manager drew the girl's full attention and he gave her a pitiful look as he whispered, "The truly pitiful thing is... To be consumed with the desire for revenge and being unable to live one's own life."

Stepping back, Touka stared at him with wide eyes and she felt tears threatening to fall which she failed to notice that they were there to begin with. Shaking her head, narrowing her eyes at the man while raising her voice, "Are you... Talking about me?!"

Silence filled the room, Touka stared at the manager and she frowned at him before sparing a glance towards everyone who avoided making eye contact or held a look of pity in their eyes. Clenching her hands, Touka sharply turned on her heels as she left the room, slamming the door behind her as she ran off away from everyone and to finally take the moment to mourn.

Everyone else in the room remain quiet until Yoshimura spoke up, reassuring them that Touka will take some time to recollect herself, "...Don't worry about that. It seems she has a lot of things to think about," Sighing, he turned over to his employees who looked up at him by the sound of their names, "Koma-kun, Irimi-san, you've already received the pictures of the Investigators from Yomo-san, haven't you?"

"Yes."

"Don't even consider getting involved with them and please urge customers to be cautious again too," Nodding, he kept his eyes on the ground while explaining, "From what Yuzuki mentioned to me about these Investigators... They are dangerous so do inform the customers to be extremely carefully."

"You're all excused to go," The two gotten up as they quietly left the room, Koma spared a glance to the dove who remain still while Irimi avoided any eye contact as they returned to their jobs in the cafe.

Yomo sighed under his breath, excusing himself from the room once everything settled down. Yoshimura lowered his head, releasing another tired sigh under his breath, but he shifted his attention over to the boy who hasn't spoken since earlier nor has he moved. Instead, he held a look of pure guilt and surely he was holding himself accountable for what happened to Ryouko.

Shaking his head, the manager turned over to Kaneki as he stated, "Don't hold it against yourself."

"What could you do?" Yuzuki shrugged her shoulder, her voice held no emotions while her whole facial expression was stoic as she spoke up, "I know the Investigators involved and if you stepped in then you'll be dead along with Hinami."

Turning slightly over to the boy's direction, Yuzuki sighed under her breath, "So don't carry the burden because... It's not your fault..." Shaking her head, she moved towards the location of where she placed her quinque case, "It's mine so leave it be..."

His eye widen, looking over to her as he watched how she decided to collect the burden and he tried to reason with her and explain how he alone should be blamed, "But-"

"No one thinks you did something wrong," Yoshimura sighed under his breath, turning over to the boy while explaining to him about a few things in hopes to ease the boy's troubles, "Even we ghouls are hesitant to go up against the Investigators. Above all else you were able to fulfill Fueguchi-san's desire and keep Hinami safe..."

Yuzuki kept her back towards the two, she closed her eyes while stating a few things, "Ghoul Investigators aren't your average human and ghouls tend to avoid contact until they can't run anymore," Sighing under her breath, the dove crossed her arms, "Someone like Ryouko couldn't defend herself because she wasn't one to fight, but she gave enough time to save Hinami..."

The three of them fell silent until Yoshimura spoke up once again, he spared a glance towards the boy while moving towards the door, "If only I had noticed your call at the time... I am sorry..."

"...If... If the one at that place and time was Touka instead of me..." Kaneki clenched his hands, lowering his head and he could feel his eyes sting, "Then maybe Ryouko-san would still be..."

"No, if it was Touka who was there instead of you then not only would Ryouko be killed," Yoshimura shook his head, he stated the facts revolving the chance that Touka was the one to respond to the scene then everything would've gone far worse, "Touka and Hinami would've died as well."

"You being there saved Hinami and that's all what matters because Ryouko could at least rest knowing her daughter was in great hands," Yuzuki turned to face him, placing a hand on his shoulder while clearing the whole situation, "So don't think you being there was a cruel decision from the world because it was the best thing that could've happened for Hinami."

Shaking her head, removing her hand from him while stepping back, "If I were there then the outcomes would all be the same," Turning away as she lowered her head, "I'll die for defending a ghoul and they'll be killed because they're ghouls..."

"In other words... Don't blame yourself, Kaneki," Yoshimura spared one final look towards the boy before excusing himself from the room, closing the door behind the two as he returned back to work in the cafe.

A dreadful silence filled the space between the two, neither one of them move nor did they find any words that could possibly fill in the silence at a time like this. Kaneki looked over to see that the dove kept her back towards him and he curled his fingers before finally having the courage to speak up, "I..."

"Kaneki, just listen to me... Don't interfere with any Investigators regardless and just..." Yuzuki spared a look over her shoulder, her expression remain stoic while warning the boy, "Stay away from me okay..."

His eye widen, not believing what she was asking from him and none of the less he couldn't accept it as he tried to reason with her, "Yuzuki-"

Chuckling under her breath, a bitter smile appeared on her lips as she looked away, "I'm associated with them, I'm a dove, so I'm responsible for Ryouko's death as well as for Hinami's suffering," Closing her eyes, folding her arms as she simply stated, "I need space away from everyone here and surely it'll be for the best."

He couldn't watch the sense unfold in front of him, he couldn't bear to see others in pain and none of the less he couldn't do anything to help. Stepping forward, he reached out and his hand landed on her shoulder, "Stop, it's not your fault, you couldn't possible-"

Shrugging his hand off her shoulder, frowning slightly at him for being stubborn while firmly stating, "Don't try and talk to me, okay."

"Wait..." His eye widen, shaking his head as he listened to how she was willing to cut their ties and he didn't want that, "...I... Yuzuki you can't-"

"Stop and think, Kaneki," Sharply turning on her heels, facing him while narrowing her eyes as she placed everyone on the table, listing the facts surrounding her and how she's not fit to be there in Anteiku, "I'm a Ghoul Investigator, I'm part of the organization that killed Ryouko, and more importantly I'm in a squad that involves the Investigators who carried out the act."

"So in a sense I'm responsible for Ryouko's death and for Hinami's pain," Tilting her head, her expression went blank while whispering, "What am I? A monster and none of the less, the enemy to everyone here in Anteiku. Your enemy."

Shaking her head, turning away as she muttered under her breath, "I was so foolish to ever think about returning here... To try and be..." Her fingers curled up beside her, "I'm only trouble..."

Something within her was aching, a feeling that she hasn't felt in such a long time and her eyes closed, "I'll only remind Hinami that I'm involved with her parent's murder and I can't do that to her."

Biting the bottom of his lip, frowning to himself as he shut his eye, but he spoke out as he tried to take the blame, "I didn't do anything... I just stood there and watched them kill Ryouko-san," His fingers curled up beside him, shaking his head as he felt guilt settle within his heart, "I couldn't speak as I watched them and the only thing I could do was shield Hinami from seeing the sight..."

Vividly recalling how Hinami cried out, how he covered her mouth and eyes as he stood there. How he stood there, doing absolutely nothing as he watched how Ryouko sat there defenseless before one of the Investigators decapitated her mercilessly in front of his eyes and yet he just stood there. Opening his eye, whispering out, "I can't help myself from feeling like a burden and I couldn't even help to save Ryouko..."

"There wasn't anything you or anyone could've done..." Folding her arms across her chest, Yuzuki tighten her eyes close, "I already knew it was a matter of time before it happened, but still... I can't live with this feeling..."

Looking over her shoulder, offering a weak smile as she began to excuse herself, "So please, just watch out for Hinami," Turning away again, walking away as she suggested, "Teach the girl to read or give her a few books to help her deal with this..."

Watching how the dove was leaving, how it felt like a final farewell as if he won't be seeing her any time soon again. It only took a tragic moment to bring her back to Anteiku, to actually see her himself and now she'll be going away once again. Furrowing his brows, taking a step towards her as he asked, "Where are you going?"

Her hand touched the door knob, curling her fingers around it and she took a moment before responding, "Away... So don't come looking for me."

Another attempt in hopes to actually talk to her, but his words never managed to leave his lips, "Yuzuki-"

"Don't follow me," Avoiding any more contact with him, the dove tried not to pay much attention to the emotions that were present with his voice as she closed the door behind her, "Maybe we'll see each other again."

He was left alone once again, but this time he had something that haunts his conscious regardless if it wasn't his fault or not. He isn't capable of protecting others, to at least defend them from harm instead of just standing back and not doing anything. Now he has to help Hinami since he failed to do so earlier with Ryouko, he needed to do something instead of nothing.

Yet his attention soon shifted back at the door, curling his fingers around the door knob before recalling how the dove refused to step foot in the shop again and how she asked him to watch out for Hinami. The way she decided to just walk out on him without talking about things that have been troubling him, but now he has more things that are piling up onto his shoulders.

Closing his eye, he let go of the door while the thought crossed his mind, Don't go...

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3rd Pov

Dropping onto the ground, the Investigators didn't have time to react as the ghoul single handily eliminated one of the dove by simply cutting his head while the other stood there in shock to his friend's words came to an end. His eyes widen, darting over to the ghoul who kicked him across the street, but before his life met the same fate as his comrade someone came to his aid.

The pink haired ghoul dodged the punch, narrowing her eyes behind the white rabbit mask as she skid back. Touka frowned at the sight of another dove interfering, glaring at the tall man who protected the other dove, but she wasn't going to give up. She held onto the thought of revenge in order to make sure that Ryouko and Hinami will get the justice that they deserve.

Darting forward, she knew that her speed and strength gave her a disadvantage over the doves until they decide to bring out a quinque, but she noticed that neither one of them had a brief case, so they were disarmed. Smirking, she leaped into the air, kicking the new dove who brought his arm up to block, but she easily overpowered him.

Amon tumbled back, still attempting to regain his balance, but instead he was met with the railings. Frowning, he looked over to the ghoul who summoned her kagune and he quickly recognized it as an Ukaku and he regretted not having his quinque with him, but his eyes widen when someone came to his aid. Looking over he saw his mentor standing there with his newly made quinque and Mado held a grin across his lips the moment the ghoul was thrown aside.

Sitting up, he felt a pain spread from the right side of his face and the pain grew as it neared his eye, so surely he managed to get himself injured by his encounter with the ghoul. He acknowledged his mentor who only dismissed him, motioning him to stay down while he handled their little ghoul issue. Amon glanced over to the ghoul whose identity hid behind the rabbit mask, he saw that the ghoul still got back to her feet and his mentor didn't wait as he made another move which gotten the ghoul.

Cutting deep into her arm, Touka grit her teeth as the quinque scraped her and she quickly leaped away while holding onto her arm. Glaring slightly at the dove who managed to hurt her and the girl continued to fight back. Ignoring the pain as she summoned her Ukaku once again as she twirled into the air, throwing shards down onto the doves while running along side the quinque as she attempted to near the man.

However, Touka moved away the moment the other dove finally stepped in and she knew she was out matched in these conditions. Landing away from the men, but her eyes widen behind the white rabbit mask when she realized the quinque inched closer and her stamina was already low. Unable to move quickly out of the way, but she was surprised to noticed that there wasn't an impact from the quinque.

Instead, she felt her whole body shift as if someone pushed her away and Touka managed to spare a glance to only see someone cloaked in white come to her aid. The ghoul knew who came to her side and she watched how she was shielded from the attack.

The two rolled out of the way of the quinque, Touka released a deep breath before flinching at the pain that spread over her arm and she looked up to see the glowing blue locks sway in front of her as the figure blocked her out of the doves' view. Getting onto her feet, Touka felt a bit annoyed that she ended up having help from the one person she didn't want to confront at the moment.

"Phantom..." Mado stared in aw for a moment before turning his whole attention to the cloaked figure and he grinned in delight when he realized who he managed to run into. The man always wanted to deal with the whole Phantom issue since the cloaked enigma began to chaos some trouble and now he had the chance to clean up the mess.

Not sparing a glance, her hand brushed over her side as she felt a warm sensation spread and surely she gotten hit by the quinque in attempt to save the ghoul. Phantom kept her full attention on the doves as she ordered Touka to leave the scene, "Run"

The stubborn teen refused to run away, glaring back at Phantom while standing her ground, but she felt shivers run down her skin the moment she heard the cold harsh tone escape from the cloaked figure, "GO!"

Touka almost flinched at how harsh and demanding Yuzuki was and certainly it was thanks to the mask that made her voice even more scary. Stepping back, not sparing another word as she frowned to herself and the girl ran, leaping into the air as she got onto one of the cable wires and she disappeared from the scene.

Yuzuki frowned, keeping her ground as she faced the two Investigators who she's been working with, but she felt her blood boil when she finally took account of Kusaba's death along with Nakajima's and Amon's injuries that were caused by Touka. Pressing her hand against her wound across her side before preparing herself for a fight against her CCG coworkers.

Mado laughed at how the white figure decided to stay and fight in her conditions, but he appeared to be annoyed at how a ghoul came to the aid of another ghoul as if she held some form of compassion. An emotion that ghouls could only imitate since they weren't nothing as humans, monsters can't feel and the man somewhat found it amusing to see such a scene displayed in front of him.

He signaled Amon to stand back, preparing his quinque and he studied the ghoul carefully, noticing that she didn't summon her kagune, but instead she revealed a few strange quinques that appeared from her sleeves.

Phantom tried to reason with the Investigators in hope to prevent a fight, but she knew better that there wasn't any room for words for a man whose heart is set in eliminating all ghouls. Not moving, Yuzuki simply stated, "There's no need to fight."

A grin crossed his lips, chuckling as he activated his quinque and made an attack while stating, "A ghoul has no remorse."

Frowning, deflecting the attack as she swiftly moved around the quinque that belonged to none other than Asaki Fueguchi which only angered her. Yuzuki couldn't bear fighting against the quinque that belonged to Hinami's father and to the man that was a dear friend of her mother's, but Yuzuki she needed to defend herself. Biting back, her voice became cold as she responded back, "I'm no ghoul."

A wicked look appeared across the Investigator's face, Mado quickly moved on his feet as he watched how the cloaked figure defended herself from his attacks and within seconds he made another move while stating, "Then you're simply not human either."

Dodging once more, swiftly calculating the next attack that the dove would do and she quickly countered it while planning her escape since surely Touka was far enough from the mess that transpire. Shifting her feet, moving away from the sharp edges of the quinque and she hid her own quinques as she leaped away. Dragging the man further out, but she frowned to herself as she waited for his next move.

Standing still, not moving as the quinque inched closer to her direction and she moved causing the dove to hit the fire hydrant. It was enough to cause a distraction as the water erupted from the broken hydrant and Yuzuki quickly fled the scene without sparing another word or look back to the Investigators.

Sighing under her breath, she disappeared from the ordeal that Touka has gotten herself into and Yuzuki frowned to herself as she went to search for the girl. She couldn't have gotten too far with the injury she received from the man and certainly the teen needed to collect herself before heading back to Anteiku without drawing too much attention onto herself.

Meanwhile, Mado tilted his head as he brought the quinque back and the man furrowed his brows slightly. He spoke up and Amon took notice at the disappointment in his mentor's voice, "Hmm... She doesn't seem to live up to the reputation then," Shrugging his shoulders before commenting, "Yet her strength was different than the other ghoul."

Collecting his quinque while speaking to no one in particular, "However, that 'Rabbit' is an Ukaku," He frowned slightly while stating, "Yet Phantom still hasn't proved nothing to be a ghoul, but those abilities aren't human..."

Sparing a glance to the spot where the two ghouls once stood and he narrowed his eyes as he added, "Yet... Many people have died because of those abilities, those of a Ukaku..."

Releasing a sigh, he walked over to his subordinate, but Mado spared a glance to the deceased Investigator and the other wounded, "I value your enthusiasm, Amon, but you mustn't lose your composure especially to a ghoul like 'Rabbit'," The man didn't express much sympathy to the other Investigators as he raised a brow the moment rain began to fall, "Yet I don't expect you to hold against something like Phantom and surely this is a lesson to you all."

Amon stared at his mentor for a moment before sparing a glance towards his comrades and after he finally progress what happened to the two men. He lowered his eyes, curling his fingers up while allowing the rain to fall onto him and all Amon could think was that he wasn't fast or strong enough to help his fellow comrades. How he was grateful that his mentor appeared in time to handle the situation with ease and it only meant that he needed to practice to get to his level.

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Yuzuki's Pov

Landing onto the roof top, ignoring the rain that finally caught up with me and I frowned as I neared Touka who was in great pain. Removing my mask, pulling my hood over my head as I neared the troubled teen, but yet her actions will not be overlooked by me nor Yoshimura once he discovers her deed. Walking over to her, I noticed that she was trying to endure the injury that was inflected on her by the dove and I heard the pain and anger in her voice as she muttered under her breath.

"God dammint! That... That bastard," She breathed out in frustration, gripping onto her arm tightly as she grit her teeth together, "I'll definitely... kill him..."

Narrowing my eyes, I grabbed her by the collar and I slammed her against the wall while raising my voice, "Do you know who you're messing with!?"

I knew I'm being too harsh with her, but she needed to know the trouble she's gotten herself into, the mess she created, and surely she's stepping onto a path of only pain. I don't want her to tangle herself in that lifestyle nor do I want her to live her life in the endless cycle of revenge. If she were to take part of it then the only exit will be death itself because there is no living in a world revolved around revenge and vengeance.

Curling my fingers into the collar of her large cloak, frowning at her as I spoke up once again, "When I say don't get into a battle when you're at defeat to begin with," She didn't say anything and I tensed up, "...When I say run, I mean run!"

She finally reacted, shoving me away while hissing at the pain that shot through her arm, gritting her teeth as she bit back, "I'm not backing down!" The next thing she did was grab me by the collar, "I'm actually doing something! Dammit! Ryouko didn't deserve it!"

My expression soften, I held her voice tremble and surely she was angry and upset, but it still doesn't excuse her actions. I allowed her to continue to shout at me, "I'm doing this for Hinami!"

Shaking my head, removing her hand from me as I simply responded with a cold fact, "Did she ever ask for this? Have you taken account the trouble you brought to yourself and Hinami?" I sighed under my breath, "This was reckless of you, Touka..."

Frowning, I faced her and I knew she was glaring back at me, but I didn't stop talking, "Do you understand that he'll kill you, Hinami, and anyone that gets in his way!?" Curling my fingers up as I recalled the story that revolved around the troubled man, "I know him and he will not rest until every single ghoul is dead!"

Touka brushed it aside, snorting back at me as she shouted, "I can handle myself without your damn help!" She was being stubborn as usual, but I held myself back as she shoved me a bit, "I won't let them roam free after everything they did! I'll make sure they pay for-"

Cutting her off, standing my ground as I raised my voice and I tried to reason with her, "Touka, he even tried to kill me one too many times before and I'm supposedly one of them," Sighing, I shook my head as I felt the rain run down my forehead, "If this is what you want then... I'm warning you that the outcome won't help you nor Hinami..."

Sighing, I stepped back while whispering, "So please be more careful Touka because next time you won't be so lucky."

With that being said she stormed off, shouldering me harshly as she passed me, but I didn't say anything in regards to her behavior. Instead, I stood there in silence as the rain continued to pour and I honestly didn't know how long it was since Touka left me alone nor how long I was just standing there. My attention shifted over to the sound of foot steps heading over to me, I sighed under my breath before placing my mask back over my face.

Turning slightly, I informed the unexpected guest, "She'll be fine, but it'll take time for her to heal from this."

I already knew it was Yomo who dropped by and certainly he watched the whole scene between me and Touka. He tends to keep an eye out for her, but it also made me wonder if he saw her confront the Investigators. Which couldn't be the case since he would've interfered to begin with, but now I wonder what he'll do with the information revolving her situation.

Yomo spoke up as he stopped not so far from me, "This isn't the first incident she gotten herself into, but this is most certainly one of the most dangerous ones." He paused for a moment before stating something that needed to be address, "Yoshimura-kun will not be pleased to hear about this and you're aware that Touka will not be helped."

Nodding, finally facing him as I offered my own thoughts, "I'm aware whatever decision he makes, the others will follow which means Anteiku won't be there to help her if CCG were to catch her," Sighing under my breath, "Yet I know you'll be there to help her regardless and I won't abandon her either even if it means going against the very people that are holding me down."

"But I do wish that Touka will consider the fire she's messing with because it will surely burn her," Curling my fingers, shaking my head, "Her emotions will get herself killed, along side Hinami and anyone else. Without a doubt, she'll hurt Hinami without the intentions of doing so and the girl won't be able to bear with the lost of another person in such a short period of time."

Narrowing my eyes, warning Yomo of the Investigator that the teen gotten herself entangled with, "That Investigator that Touka has gotten involved with, the one responsible for Ryouko's and Asaki's deaths, and surely Hinami's upcoming end if we don't help..."

Bringing a hand up to my mask, I could feel this unbearable feeling rise up and I felt torn about the whole situation, "That man... his oppression, his thirst for revenge on killing any ghoul, if not all, especially the one eyed owl," Lifting my head, turning over to him as I firmly stated, "If we fail to keep a close eye on Touka now, she will be killed."

Silence filled the space between us, I knew he wasn't one for words, but this subject wasn't an easy topic to talk about, "If she still seeks vengeance then everything will only get worse from here on out," Narrowing my eyes, "She needs to learn that revenge will only destroy her and everyone around her..."

Finally leaving, I didn't spare anymore words to Yomo nor did he stay long enough to hear anything else. But I knew he went to keep a watchful eye on Touka, making sure she doesn't stumble upon any more trouble while in her current conditions and making sure she arrives back to Anteiku safely. Yet I knew Yoshimura will discover about this if it's Yomo who informs him or he simply takes notice to Touka's injuries.

Sighing under my breath, I couldn't believe how all this happened and how I managed to arrive late to the scene. If I gotten there earlier then maybe I could've saved Kusaba along with preventing Nakajima and Amon from getting injured by Touka's uncontrol desire for revenge. But now I wonder what will CCG do, how will they respond to this act and more importantly will Mado now target Touka since she's now involved with the case.

How will I be able to sit among my squad as they discuss about the lost and how will I be able to remain quiet as they plan to track down Touka and Hinami. Shaking my head, I continued to run through the rain as I tried to think of any possible solution that could be the best result.

Landing onto the roof, I felt a sting radiate from my side but once I placed my hand over it, I realized it was already healed. Narrowing my eyes, I recalled how Mado was now the one to possess the quinque that once belonged to Asaki and it only meant that he too had Ryouko as his quinque. Frowning, I felt anger and sadness to know that they were now weapons used to kill other ghouls and more importantly, they were used to haunt down their own daughter.

Slipping into my home, I shut the window and pulling the curtains to close off any visibility before removing my cloak. Ripping off my wig while tossing my mask onto the ground, but my fingers brushed over the hole that now marked my costume and I frowned slightly. Ignoring it for now, I grabbed my sleeping attire before wondering into the bathroom. All I wanted to do was remove this outfit from my body, to just be myself without having anything to do with CCG or Phantom.

My fingers curled around the shower curtain for a moment before my thoughts wondered back to Kaneki. How he bear a guilt that no matter what anyone says, he'll always hold it to himself in how he failed Hinami. How he witnessed Ryouko's death, to finally see the tragedy that many ghouls face and to finally understand the reasons behind what Anteiku tries to keep the ward out of trouble so CCG won't get involved.

Yet I felt guilty for just abandoning him, abandoning Hinami, Touka, and everyone else, but it was the only thing I could do. Sighing under my breath, turning the water on as I tried to wash away what was consuming me, but it wasn't easy. Everything is only overwhelming me, Ryouko's death and now a few of my colleague are injured and one ended up dead.

Yet my mind led back to Hinami's situation, but what hurt the most was the memories that it managed to dig up. How I buried them away, moving on and accepting the sadness, but now the wounds are reopened once again. I could clearly remember the night my mother was murdered, how she shielded me with her life, buying enough time for me to get away, but yet I remember her face so vividly. The way she gave me a sad smile, how her eyes held tears within them and the way her hand caressed my cheek for the last time before whispering to me to run along.

How she tried to reassure me that we'll meet each other, but I knew she was a goner. She was already wounded; I saw the pain written across her face as she placed one final kiss against my forehead and that was when I ran. I ran away, but I somehow turned around to spare one look and that was enough to know that she wasn't going to follow.

Those feelings I felt back then, how I felt so useless, the pain, confusion and the indescribable sadness that consumed me. Those same feelings are what Hinami is going through, I understand the unbearable suffrage she'll face, and many sleepless nights that'll only make us wish to just die already in hopes the pain will disappear.

Yet I know Hinami wasn't the only victim because from what I knew, Touka also lost her mother to an Investigator at such a young age as well, but she still had a father even if it was for a bit longer before he too was taken away. However, Touka's story only pains me more than anything because her mother died because the man who raised me was the one to take her life. How I'm the daughter of the Investigator that stole her mother and yet I somehow managed to be friends with her, if that's the correct term, but none of less. I somehow entangled with her life even if our backgrounds are beyond destined to be enemies for what was done.

My eyes widen, bringing a hand up to my face as my fingers touched my cheek and I realized that my eyes were stinging as if I was actually crying. I haven't cried in so long that I almost forgotten the sensation of it, but I found my whole body just collapsing as I sat on the shower floor. For the past few days since the news of Asaki's and Ryouko's deaths, I kept having this unbearable sensation of something squeezing the life out of me and it's been growing to the point that my heart felt like it's aching.

I've tried to keep myself from feeling it, from crying and to actually take in everything around me. To make me realize that my life will always be filled with this endless cycle of heartache. Releasing a shaky breath between my lips, wrapping my arms around my knees and I'm just tired of it all. Shutting my eyes, I didn't bother turning the water off as I allowed the showerhead to pour over me as I sat there in silence, allowing myself to cry in silence in hopes that it'll make the pain go away.

---

Kaneki's Pov

Another day at work and I managed to mess up yet again, but the costumer wasn't too harsh about it unlike some other cases and I'm grateful for that. Yet I still haven't gotten the hang on the whole different coffee beans for certain orders and most certainly I need to check twice before doing anything to avoid another mistake. I sighed under my breath, it's been a while since what happened to Ryouko and everything has been awfully quiet, too tense that left everything feeling so depress around here.

I noticed that Hinami hasn't really been out from the room she was given for the time being and I'm getting a bit worried about her. Maybe if I did something then maybe all this could've been different. Yet Yuzuki and Yoshimura are right that I couldn't have done anything, but it doesn't remove this feeling that has been haunting me because of my lack of ability of being able to do something.

Lowering my eye, I stared at the empty cup in front of me as I tried to clear my head, but I still couldn't and I know I'll only upset a few more costumers. I don't want any of the regulars to hate me for not being like the others here and certainly they're say something about it if I continue to do so.

I left the front of the shop, walking down the small hall as the thoughts continued, Maybe I should've been paying more attention... But it's been a couple days and Hinami hasn't really left the room nor does she appear to be getting proper sleep

I tried to find Touka at least so she could help me or at least tell me the difference between the coffee beans, but I hardly seen her around during my shift, Then Touka didn't really talk to me much either, she'll only try and comfort Hinami and continue her work here in Anteiku

Frowning slightly, I stopped for a moment as my thoughts got a point that made me worry even more, ...I haven't heard much from Yuzuki either since she left after we discussed the news and Touka hasn't spoken about her so it only meant they haven't seen each other...

Shaking my head, I looked up to see Touka walked down the stairs and she sent me a frown. I offered a smile but she wasn't in the mood to deal with me, but I still need her help, Maybe Touka will help me, but I don't want to bother her ever since what happened with the whole situation...

"Uhh... Touka do you know where the correct coffee beans are? I accidentally mixed it up and made the wrong order," I apologized for my consent burden and she raised a brow at me, "Sorry for bothering you."

Touka snorted, turning as she motioned me to follow her to a room, "Fine, it's in the storage room," Her eyes scan the selves for a moment before muttering under her breath as she reached up for a can, but she dropped it, "Here idiot don't mess up again or-"

My eyes widen, I saw how she grabbed onto her arm while collapsing down onto the floor, "Touka?!" My thoughts were scattered as I tried to think of something and all I can think of was help her up, but she snapped back at me.

"Don't-!" Touka moved away from me, getting onto her feet as she stormed out of the room while shouting over to me, "Leave me alone, okay!"

Blinking, I stared at the door for a moment after she ran out of the room, but my eyes soon trailed over to where she once was and I saw the scattered coffee beans that decorate the ground. Everything was so sudden that I can't seem to progress what happened, but something caught my eye as I knelt down to see a something stain the ground and the scent of it made my eye widen.

Blood...?

Looking up the moment I noticed someone else entered the room and I saw Yoshimura standing at the entrance of the storage room, he had his arms folded behind him while his expression held a hint of disappoint when he asked, "Did she get involved with the doves?"

I stared at him for a moment, trying to understand the possibility that she actually went through her threats. Furrowing my brows, I wondered if she gotten into any issues with Yuzuki since she's a dove, but who could've done that to Touka.

Shaking my head before speaking up, "Touka involved with the Investigators? But why?" I can't imagine Touka getting injured so badly since I've seen her fight before, but what could've pushed her into going through with her plans since everyone warned her about it, "I thought we- She wouldn't have done something so reckless..."

Frowning, I recalled how much she appeared to be in pain, so it's only reasonable if she severely gotten hurt. Brushing the whole subject about the Investigators aside while bringing up an important topic, but I wondered how long she left that wound untreated, "More importantly we have to treat-"

"No."

"Huh?" My eyes widen, I stopped in my tracks and I didn't believe what the manager said. He was very clear with his word, but how could he just say no like that. Furrowing my brows, I didn't understand his reasoning before trying to speak up again, but he only repeated himself.

"I said- No"

I stared at him, he didn't seem to be concern about the girl's condition but I saw how serious he was about his decision. I curled my fingers, while the same question kept echoing within my head, What? Why? Why would he...? I wasn't going to take that and I can't seem to understand him at times like right now. Attempting to at least reason with him in hopes he could explain himself or do something, "What are you talking about? She's bleeding, she's hurt and we should-"

He cut me off again, not shifting away from his stand and it only left me thinking, Why isn't he going to help?

"I'm saying that she got involved with the doves, so she's prepared to carry all responsibility by herself," Yoshimura didn't faze nor did he change his mind in the matter as he simply stated his opinion regarding to Touka's situation, "Whether she lives or dies shouldn't be anyone else's concern."

My eye widen, I was shock to hear how he said that without any hint of concern as if it didn't matter what happens to her. But it only ticked me off at his words, it simply goes against what Anteiku is and I don't understand why he came to that decision.

"No way, but-" Reminding him what I've been told about their organization and the purpose behind them in hopes that he'll reconsider helping Touka, "Anteiku exists in order to help others, correct? So..."

"...So then..." Raising a brow, he turned slightly away while countering my point with another argument, "Do you think only the ghouls from Anteiku can oppose the thousands of Investigators all alone?"

Lowering my eye, ...No... But it's not right to cast her aside... Returning my attention back to him while bringing up a point in regards to him, "Manager, you've seen a lot of different things and I think you're already decisive about it, but as for me..." My fingers curled up beside me, I could remember the countless of times I've heard them speak about the things that they've seen that shaped their opinions and decisions.

Yet I have yet to see everything, to completely understand the rules and terrors they have, so my opinions and decisions aren't solid because I have no proof to support them. Looking away, I tried to find the proper words to explain myself, "I... I wonder if I'm really prepared to face the Investigators and I still don't understand anything about the rules of the ghouls' world..."

Frowning, I already knew that Yuzuki has warned me already to no interfere many times already, but what if I had no other choice then to step in even if I'm not ready to face them, She, the manager, and everyone have always said things about the ghouls and CCG, but I can't understand it because I have yet to experience it...

Closing my eye, the thoughts kept adding up until I knew what my next action is, ...To see what made them think the way they do... I sighed a deep breath, I knew it's dangerous, but I need to know why they think that way, To understand it and decide my final stand on the subject

"That's why I'm going to see everything with my own eyes!" This is my decision and I won't stop until I know, but I saw the look on his expression and surely he must think of me as a foolish boy. But I'm not going to stand here and do nothing anymore, firmly stated my decision before leaving the storage room to find Touka, "And then decide what to do!"

He turned over to me, not saying much as I excused myself from the room, but I heard him only say, "Okay then..."

I didn't turn back to him since now my goal was to look for some first-aid so I could at least help Touka. But I couldn't stop myself from thinking about what I'm about to do, but in the end, I need to know why ghouls fear investigators, to see the reason why Yoshimura refuses to interfere to the point that he'll allow Touka to die. To know why Yuzuki is afraid of herself, to see why CCG is dangerous and understand the history.

I know all this will have a price, but I want to know why she and Anteiku dare to hope for everything to change. I want to fully comprehend everything once I finally see it for myself.

I need to find answers...

Opening the door to the back of the shop, I looked around to see Touka siting there against the wall as she held onto her arm tightly. My expression soften, I want to understand why Touka hates the Investigators so much to the point she's willing to risk her life. To know the reason why Yuzuki pushed herself away from me and everyone here in hopes nothing will happen to us.

What have they seen that led them to this conclusion?

Closing the door behind me, I looked down to see that Touka hasn't spared a look or any form to acknowledge me, so I decided to be the one to speak up, "Uhh... Touka?"

She didn't bother looking over to me when she muttered, "What is it?"

Lifting the materials in my hand while informing that I wanted to help her, but she didn't only cut me off, "I have something to treat your-"

A frown appeared across her face, tightening her grip over her arm as she bluntly responded, "I don't need it."

My eye landed on her wound that she held so tightly within her grasp and I could clearly see the blood has already stained the sleeve of her work uniform, "But you're bleeding..."

Looking over to me, Touka narrowed her eyes while making it clear she didn't want me here, "...It's none of your business, right?"

Touka curled her fingers, she was annoyed by my presence and none of less she still doesn't accept that I'm a ghoul to an extent as well, "All your darting around is irritating... for a mere human..."

"I'm... I'm practically a ghoul too," I whispered back, looking away as I tried to believe my own words, but there were some doubt, yet it was the truth, I'm no human...

"You're just a remnant of one pretending to be an ally..." She glared in front of her, towards nothing in particular as she added onto her statement, "Just like Yuzuki... She's a ghoul too, but she's only pretending to be one because in the end she on their side..."

...Yuzuki won't betray us Touka... I can't imagine that you really hate her...

"Hey, what if I said this..." My eye widen the moment she spared a smile over to me while firmly stating a favor that I can't accept, "Go kill those fucking doves in my place."

What? She can't be serious?

She raised a brow at me, leaning her head against the wall, "Okay?"

It means I'll have to face Yuzuki and I can't- I can't bring more trouble onto her if I confront them now

"You have Rize's kagune then if you use it then you might be able to, right?" Shrugging her shoulder, Touka began to point out a few things that basically proved that I'm capable of handling it, "Seems like you did that to Nishiki before, so why not again against the doves."

All I did was just stand there in silence, lowering my eye as I listened to her words, but I know I couldn't do it. I'm not capable of doing such a thing and I know she's only saying this to just remind me that I'm not strong like them. That I can't take action like she did or ever be on the same level as the others, to be actually acknowledged as a ghoul by her standards.

"Can you do it?" Her expression darken as she coldly snorted back, "You can't, can you?"

"I'm not surprised because you don't want to hurt Yuzuki since she's a dove too," A humorless laugh escaped from her but her expression became stern as she retorted back, "Yet again there's no way a weak coward like yourself could have the courage or preparedness to do that."

Leaning against the wall, Touka looked away as she leaned her arm against her knee, "I can't depend on the manager or Yomo or anyone else either," She muttered under her breath, "I already understand all of that."

I could only watch how she just accepted it, not really arguing much at how everyone won't be there for her. To know that she chose a path where no one wishes to follow her. Touka sighed under her breath, "I know I'm alone on this..." A frown appeared on her face as she clenched her hands before snorting, "Yet that bastard still came even after everything..."

"Huh?" Furrowing my brows, I tilted my head at her words and I honestly didn't know what she meant by her last statement, What is she talking about...?

Touka chuckled to herself before sparing me a glance as she vaguely stated, "If you ever do go against them then maybe you'll have some help from Phantom..." Glaring at the ground, Touka looked all serious again as she whispered to herself, "It's the only reason why I'm here alive with just a scratch."

I wasn't familiar with the name, whispering the name out while looking at her in hopes that she'll explain, "Phantom...?"

Who is that...? And whoever they are... They saved Touka?

"Yeah, that idiot came and helped me," Closing her eyes, she explained a little bit about it, but from the tone of her voice she didn't sound happy about it. Instead she sounded quite irritated by the fact that whoever this Phantom person actually helped her. Touka shook her head before muttering to herself, "Always interfering whenever she pleases. It's annoying."

I honestly didn't fully understand nor have I ever heard of this person, but they must be a friend or someone that Touka must know for them to come to aid. Tilting my head, I spoke up, but she cut me off, "So a friend came to help yo-"

"Phantom isn't a friend to anyone," Her words were harsh, sending me a glare for a moment before looking away as she brought her knees up against her while whispering, "She only helps whenever we're in trouble. Ghouls and humans."

Ghouls and humans...? Why...?

"In fact, it'd be better for a murderer like me to die," My eyes widen the moment she said that. I stared at her in disbelief in how she was basically asking to die, saying that Phantom shouldn't have helped her and I didn't know why she would think that. I stared at her, watching how her expression darken as her voice became cold as she whispered, "So she should've left me there... To let me die..."

...Then this Phantom gave you another chance...

Then I saw how her whole expression changed, how she looked disappointed in herself or even sad that she acted out in such a way that led her here. I never seen her actually look so guilty, Touka always held a strong appearance, but now I only see a troubled girl who holds some regret.

Touka lowered her eyes, curling her fingers as she spoke quietly, "...Because I know there are good people among humans, who don't deserve it and I... I'm only a murderer so I should die for my actions..."

I... I never thought that she'll feel this way after all...

Her eyes held a strong sense of anger the moment she brought up what happened recently with her friends, "However... Ghouls like Ryouko and Hinami are killed arbitrarily without being able to help themselves..."

"Without even knowing anything and without even seeing anything..." Shaking her head, she glared at the ground while making her decision to continue what she begun, "I know I'm wrong but I can't let this pass..."

Looking away from me, I saw how torn she was, how she felt so conflicted because it wasn't simple. Then what she said next changed how her voice sounded, she sounded sad as she whispered, "I'm aware what I said about the doves... I didn't mean Yuzuki..."

Bringing a hand up, she leaned against the palm of her hand as a faint laughter escaped her, but I could sense the bitterness and regret grow with every word she spoke out loud, "She... She always helped me through everything, helped Hinami and Ryouko, to help ghouls despite her being a dove," Shaking her head, she shut her eyes before shouting out, "Yet I can't stand her for being with them!"

"Yuzuki should be with us, away from CCG and then everything would've been easier," Keeping her eyes close as if shielding away her true emotions regarding the subject, but I knew she was angry that Yuzuki wasn't on their side instead she was with CCG.

My expression soften the moment I noticed how she curled up into herself, still holding onto her arm as she mumbled, "I... I can't even face her after everything..."

She's feeling guilty for what happened between the two of them... But does she know that Yuzuki won't hold it against her.

"After everything I said and all she did for me," Lowering my eye the second I heard how her voice threaten to give out, to shatter the strong appearance she kept in order to shield herself from harms way, but instead it revealed how much pain she was in because of this whole mess, "I don't deserve it..."

She... She understands... Touka never meant to harm Yuzuki but I wouldn't have thought that she deeply cared...

Closing my eye, I stood there while allowing myself the chance to just take everything in and to let her collect herself. I can't see her like this, it's just so strange to see how vulnerable she was, but it only made everything just so complicated.

She herself said she was wrong, she knew she was wrong for doing all this... But she-

I frowned at her words, remembering how she viewed herself after what she gotten herself involved with those Investigators, but it only meant that she killed someone.

'A murderer like me'

I stared at the ground, progressing everything all in once while trying to understand everything. Despite everything she said, she's willing to continue interfering with the Investigator when she knows that no one will be there and knowing that it's wrong of her to do so.

Yet she still fights even if she knows she's wrong

"If anything... I'm glad Yuzuki won't be around much anymore..." Touka opened her eyes, chuckling dryly under her breath before leaning her head against the wall while stating, "It's best for her to abandon us and maybe it'll make things easier when I die or when I make my next move..."

"Touka..." Finally speaking up, I kept my eye on the ground while revealing my own thoughts, "Just like you said I can't kill humans."

I can't take a life like that... It's wrong...

Curling my fingers, I carefully thought about my next set of words before allowing them to escape from my mouth, "...Yet I... I don't think that the existence of Investigators are all a bad thing..."

Still not all Investigators are bad... They're protecting humans from dangerous ghouls like Rize... But I can't agree to their actions such as killing Ryouko...

Shaking my head, looking up as I stared down at her who in return only frowned at me before looking away, "However, I don't think you're right..."

I also don't agree with what you said, Touka... You don't deserve death...

"But when I saw Ryouko's last moment I did have a strong thought..." I took in a deep breath, recalling the final moments of Ryouko and every single emotion that came from that memory of watching her die in such a ruthless way, "Regardless if it's a human's death or a ghoul's..."

I could feel my whole body tensed up before clenching my hands, "If that person is someone I know then I can't stand it."

I can't stand seeing them die. To have their lives taken away...

"I'm glad Phantom saved you, Touka," My expression soften again, I noticed how Touka only frowned as I reminded her of the fact, "Because if you managed to severely hurt yourself or even get killed..."

Whoever this Phantom is... I'm glad she saved you even if you believe you don't deserve it

Looking away, I stared at the ground as I imagine the possibility that she could've died and I whispered out, "...Then I'll be sad."

"That's so!?" Her eyes widen, she was shock to hear my words, but she quickly changed her tone before narrowing her eyes at me, "Why..?"

Chuckling, I offered her a smile before looking away as I explained a bit, "We might not get along but I'll... It'll be different if you're not here anymore."

Frowning, Touka stared at me as she snorted, "So what is it that you want to actually say...? Huh?"

"I... I also want you to actually teach me how to use my kagune..." Lowering my eye, I stared at the ground and sighed under my breath when I realized that Yuzuki won't be around enough to help me, but I trust Touka enough if she accepts, "Yuzuki won't be here and I know Yomo won't always be there either... So I'm asking you if you can teach me..."

"I know I can't kill the Investigators... but..." Clenching my hands, I was determined to not let past mistakes happen again as I firmly stated, "But doing nothing is also unacceptable."

Touka smirked, shaking her head before asking, "What are you planning, huh? Shit head?"

I want to be able to actually fight back or at least do something instead of doing nothing...

Looking away, I don't know what will become of this decision, but I need to do something. It might cost me trouble, but I can't just sit back any longer when everyone here are fully capable of doing something if they wish to do so. I can't always relay on them for everything.

I'm tired of watching... I can't do this anymore... I have to act...

---

3rd Pov

The dove walked beside the mask maker since the two ran into each other and the two were heading towards Anteiku, so they decided to have some company even if they didn't say anything. Neither one had anything to say, so it was a silent walk between the two, but neither of them were bothered by it. Instead they were fine with the silence since they had their own things to think about or worry over.

She released a deep breath, Yuzuki curled her fingers around the sleeves of her cardigan as she thought about a few things. It's been a while since her last visit at Anteiku, but more importantly it's been only a few days since she went to rescue Touka from the mess she gotten herself into. Yuzuki hasn't said anything else to the girl since that day nor has she spoken to anyone from the shop besides the manager and Yomo. Other than that, she was quiet for some time and she wonders what will happen, but in the end Yuzuki wanted to check on them, to see how Hinami is handling herself after a tragic lose.

The two finally reached the small shop and Yuzuki motioned over to Uta that he could enter before her since he had some business to attend to while she simply wanted to stay for a belief moment before leaving. Uta opened the door, but he stopped in his tracks which caused the dove to furrow her brows slightly at how the mask maker suddenly stopped without even stepping foot in the shop.

Uta's eyes were shield away behind his dark glasses, but he held a blank expression as he stared at the two part time employees of Anteiku. He wasn't going to ask what he walked into nor did he really have the time to find out either since he has other things to do after handing the mask over. Yet the scene into left him confuse for a moment before he brushed it aside, but he finally gain their attention.

Touka wasn't surprised to see the man, but she didn't really care much about how the situation looks as she stepped back from the eye patched boy before acknowledging the ghoul, "Huh? Uta."

Fixing his shirt, straightening it out as he tried to form the proper words, but Uta cut the boy off, "Uhh... Uta what are-"

Uta still didn't show any expression as he simply responded back, "Sorry."

Kaneki quickly tried to clear up any misunderstanding that the man must have gather, "No! Don't get the wrong idea!" Stepping away from Touka, he collected himself before furrowing his brows once he asked, "Anyways, why are you at the shop...?"

But his eye widen the moment Uta stepped aside to reveal Yuzuki who stood behind the mask maker. Uta offered an apologize towards the dove since he forgot she was there for a moment, but she only brushed aside reassuring him that it was fine. However, this caught Kaneki and Touka both off guard to see the dove stand inside Anteiku at such hour. Touka frowned to herself, folding her arms as she kept a distance since she wasn't prepared to see the dove again after the incident they went through and she doesn't have the proper words to explain anything, so instead she decided to stay away.

Meanwhile the boy's face flushed since he was shocked to see her so unexpectedly, "Yuzuki!?"

She cut to the chase, apologizing for intruding suddenly and dove motioned over to Uta, "Forgive us for the late and sudden visit."

"I finished the mask so I wanted to deliver it as soon as possible," Uta removed his glasses before revealing the purpose for stopping by, "Truthfully, I was considering just leaving it and going home, but since I took the trouble of coming over I wanted to see you wear, Kaneki."

"I ran into Uta on the way here so we kept each other company," Yuzuki sighed under her breath and explaining herself to why she's standing there, "I came to check on Hinami, but I'll sit back and let Uta work his magic."

Kaneki stared at the dove for a moment who stood off to the side and he turned over to face Uta before releasing a deep breath, "Uhh.. Okay."

After everything, Uta stepped back once he made sure that the mask settle well on the boy's face while explaining a few details revolving the mask such as how to put it on and a few other things. The mask maker took a moment to appreciate his masterpiece before asking Kaneki for his thoughts, "So what do you think? I wanted to keep the eyepatch style since it suits you well."

Kaneki brought a hand up to the mask, feeling the cold material against his fingers, but he furrowed his brows slightly before speaking up, "...Uhh, but for the eyepatch... Well shouldn't it be on the other side for me..."

"Nope." Uta responded back, he stood beside Touka as he collected his bag before stating, "I wanted to see the eye that's usually hidden."

Sighing under her breath, Yuzuki unfolded her arms before walking pass him, "Think of it like this," Turning as she faced him while explaining, "Your ghoul mask hides your human eye and reveals your kakugan."

Further explaining the reason to why the eye patch is on the opposite side, Yuzuki raised a brow, "Meanwhile, when you're in your human environment then your kakugan would be covered while your human eye is exposed."

He sat there on the stole for a bit longer, keeping the mask on his face to just get used to it before removing it. Kaneki shifted his attention from the dove the explained a bit so it could make sense and he looked over to Uta who was speaking to Touka for a moment.

Then he began to think to himself about the strange new feeling that was building up, The world seen through my normal eye is covered... the feeling of the cold leather...

"It's like switching the side of a coin," Shrugging her shoulder, she moved further away as she walked pass the other two until she reached the entrance of the hall before adding on, "It's like switching from your human self to your ghoul self."

The boy found the new sensation to be more positive than negative as he stared at the ground for a moment, It's strangely exhilarating...

Touka held a faint smile before sighing under her breath as she placed her hands into her pockets, "Yuzuki explained it all for you."

"My job here is done," Uta placed his glasses back on, making sure he had everything before heading over to the door as he bid his farewell, "See you three around then."

"Bye Uta."

"I'm going off to bed already," Touka turned away, clocking out for the day since it's been tiring with school and helping the boy train with his kagune even if it was for a small amount of time.

Kaneki held the mask within his hands, staring at it for moment, but he looked up over to Touka, "Goodnight Touka and thanks."

"Next time I won't be too easy on you," The girl punched his shoulder and he nervously laughed before bringing a hand up to the area that she hit. While Touka avoided her eyes from meeting the dove as she passed her, but she stopped in her tracks the moment Yuzuki said her name.

"Touka," Yuzuki spoke up, she didn't move from her spot, but she sensed that the girl paused in her tracks. The dove closed her eyes before saying, "...Goodnight."

"Night," Touka didn't spare a glance towards the dove as she continued down the hall and up the stairs, all she wanted to do was be in her room alone and just call it a day.

Kaneki watched how the two didn't say anything else to each other nor did they really interact and he studied how the dove appeared troubled by it. Walking up to her, he tilted his head and he hesitated for a moment before saying her name, "...Yuzuki...?"

Still she didn't react, instead she remain still and he sighed under his breath before revealing, "Touka didn't mean what she said and she's really sorry about how things happened with you two."

"I know," Yuzuki opened her eyes, folding her arms as she turned towards the direction that the girl went down, "After a year of knowing her, I've understand she doesn't mean it and I forgive her."

Sighing under her breath, pushing herself off against the wall, "However, I'll wait until she's ready to talk to me again," Moving down the hall while informing the boy, "I'm going to check on Hinami."

He decided to follow her, walking beside her while stating, "She's in the spare room, probably asleep."

Raising a brow, Yuzuki noticed a feature that's off from the boy and she furrowed her brows before asking, "What happened to your finger?"

"Oh... Well, Touka was helping me train and well she kinda did this, but it's fine," He chuckled nervously, reassuring the dove that he was perfectly fine, but he looked away for a moment before taking in a deep breath, "Yuzuki, I wanted to talk to you about how Touka interfered-"

"I know," Pausing in her tracks, her hands rested on the railing of the staircase in front of her and she closed her eyes, "She killed a colleague of mine and injured two. I'm fully aware of the situation."

Curling her fingers, Yuzuki already knew everything so she saved the boy the trouble from explaining it to her, "I'm also aware that Yoshimura will not lend a hand to help her through this because this is her actions, so it's her reasonability."

Kaneki stared at the ground for a moment before looking up to her as he asked, "Are you going to let her die too?"

"Never." Shaking her head, the girl couldn't possible believe that he'll ask such a thing, but in the end it was understandable for him to ask since Anteiku won't help, so why should a dove. Yuzuki took a moment to collect her thoughts before explaining herself, "Regardless of how things are... I will never abandon her because Touka is my friend and none of less I care for her as if she was my younger sister."

"I'll keep her out of trouble even if it means risking my own life," Curling her fingers, she closed her eyes for moment as she took a deep breath before turning over to him, "Family is something that doesn't require blood, but the bond formed between people and I'll always be there for her even if she stumbles over a few mistakes."

Turning away, whispering under her breath as the two began to move up the stairs, "Even if she resents me..."

"...It's the reason why you kept a distance?" Kaneki tilted his head, trying to get the girl to at least explain herself more or to say something else about the matter, "To protect her from you... To put a barrier that would hold so you two won't fight each other..."

Pausing in her tracks, not bothering to face him as the two stood on the steps of the staircase, "What do you really want to say?"

Kaneki recalled the words Touka said, remembering how the girl appeared to be deeply troubled for everything that has been going on lately and he felt the need to share it with the dove, "Yuzuki, she really feels torn and you leaving just... You were there and now you're not..."

"That is where you come in," Keeping her back towards him, she continued up the steps while explaining herself before he could questioned her about it, "Kaneki, you might not realize it, but you're influencing her and helping her change herself for the better."

"I might no longer be there for them like before, but now you're here for them," Moving down the hall, she whispered back to him while shielding her herself from revealing any personal emotions so he won't be bothered, "You're their support now, so take care of each other through these rough times."

Pausing in her tracks the moment she reached the door that the girl was in, "But please excuse me so I can cheek Hinami," Opening the door quietly but she stopped the moment he spoke up again.

"I'll... I'll wait here for you," He offered, standing off to the side as he waited for the dove in hopes that he could talk to her for a bit.

Closing her eyes, she shook her head before stepping into the dark room and she whispered back to him before closing the door, "You don't need to."

---

Yuzuki carefully closed the door, she felt sad for the girl and surely she wishes there was something that they could possible do that can cheer her up. The dove didn't say anything to the girl since she was asleep, but she still managed to cheek on her and from what she gathered by taking account on how the room was it only showed that the girl really hasn't left it. She has locked herself up in the room, sleeping most of the day or reading since the dove found a book near the girl.

Sighing under her breath, she turned away and remembered that the boy actually waited for her. Motioning him to follow since they had no business being up on the second level of Anteiku as they now head down to the shop.

Kaneki thought about the subject for a good amount of time and he wanted to apologize if it was the cause for her to stay near the cafe, "Yuzuki about what I said before and-"

"Don't." Yuzuki stopped him, not wanting to hear anything about the topic as she brushed it aside, "It's okay."

"But please talk to me..." Shaking his head, he moved up to her and felt the urge to stop her, but he decided against it and instead he stopped walking when he said, "You have been avoiding me and I... You're now avoiding everyone else too..."

Pausing in her tracks, she didn't think much before retorting back, "Like you avoided me?" Bringing a hand up to her face, she released a deep breath since she realized it was quite cruel of her to pull that card out and Yuzuki apologized while walking away again as she explained, "Sorry... I believe this is the right choice and for now all I can do is give them space until the time is right for us to all sit together again."

"Stop," Frowning a bit and he needed to clear the slate while he had the chance to do so. Quickly reaching out for her, "I really just want to talk to you about last time before I-" But she cut him off while swiftly turning around as the two stood across each other,

"Do you understand what you're getting yourself into?" Turning around, she frowned slightly at how native the boy was about the whole matter, "Haven't you forgotten what Investigators are capable of? What I'm supposed to do?"

Gesturing over to his newly made mask while stating, "You now have a ghoul mask, to roam freely with your identity hidden," Folding her arms across her chest as she turned away while reminding him, "But it also means you'll become a prime suspect to CCG and will be given a name that some Investigators will try to capture, to kill..."

Closing her eyes, she knew it's completely unfair on her part to say such things while ignoring his pleads to just talk it out, but she couldn't do that at the moment, "But do listen to my words, stay far away from CCG and the Investigators," Moving away as she continued to speak in a stoic tone, "Don't let Touka do something so reckless because next time she won't be so lucky."

Kaneki followed her, but he couldn't find the words to say to get her attention, he was overwhelmed by the things she's saying and none of the less it'll be a good amount of time until he could see her again. So all he could do was watch her move without him or anyone by her side and it was painful to not do anything to change her mind set.

"You've seen that Yoshimura will not tolerate such actions similar to Touka, so once you take that path then remember Anteiku will not be there to support you," Her hands touched the handle of the door, but she couldn't find it in her to open it just yet. A piece of her just wanted to stay a bit longer, but she knew that she needs to leave, "They will leave you on your own just like they did to Touka."

Shutting her eyes, curling her fingers around the handle as she whispered, "Please... I'm really trying... I only want to shield you and everyone from any more trouble for the time being," Another sigh escaped her lips before opening the door, "We all need to recollect ourselves before things can return back to normal."

"Take care okay," Not sparing another look as she closed the door after saying, "Goodnight."

He stood there after the dove left Anteiku again, lowering his eyes onto his mask before whispering under his breath, "...Goodnight."

---

Yuzuki's Pov

It's been a while since I have trained with my dad since I wasn't the one to ask for them and left him with the decision revolving the matter. He's a busy man so I went with whatever suited him best while I kept to my own routines that are a bit more flexible than his. Yet from all the days he asked me to practice and see if I've been slacking off or simply not training on my own time. But in truth, I've practiced on my own and had a few fights with ghouls that I'm not letting myself get soft. However, it's more like I haven't been able to focus since everything that's going on recently has just gotten me overwhelmed.

I heard how Arima simply stated the fact while dodging my attack with ease before making his move, "You're not focus."

I dodged the quinque even if it was only a mere inch away from actually brushing my arm, but I still moved out of the way. Yet I knew I could do better than this, that I'm basically messing around in a deadly game which could seriously hurt me if I make one simple mistake. However, even knowing that I still couldn't put all my focus on this training session since all I could think about is the others.

Hinami hasn't been sleeping... The girl has been slowly falling into a state of depression...

"Your speed is slower than usual by 0.2 seconds," He said with his monotone voice and certainly he must be a bit disappointed in me for not putting my all into this fight.

Making my move, I skid under the quinque while trying to disarm him, but he already saw past my attack when my quinque clashed with his. Frowning slightly, leaping away as I kept a distance but quickly moving out of the way the moment I felt the electricity move through the air. If I reacted a bit slower than this match would've been over, but I couldn't shake off the worries that hung over me when I thought about Touka.

Touka has now became one of CCG's suspects and surely she'll get caught by Mado...

"Your reaction has dulled," I didn't have enough time to realized his sudden attack, but I still managed to block it even if it wasn't effective.

Stumbling back the moment when his quinque came down, but I held mine up to shield me and I held my ground for a moment before swiftly moving away again. All I could do was just dodge because I my mind is just scatter around that I can't possible forge a plan of tactics that could even out the playing fields for a moment.

Kaneki is placed in the middle of it all

"You're not trying," Now I heard a small shift in his voice and I know he must've taken notice that I'm not completely here.

Curling my fingers around the handle of my quinques, I could feel the ground disappear from underneath me while my back hit the ground. Moving to get back to my feet, but I found myself frozen in place the second I realized what I've been doing to my friends.

I've abandon them...

"Do you intend to fall like this?" His voice was faint, but I tried to recollect myself from the mess I am and get back to my feet again, but yet I was having trouble doing so.

Releasing a deep breath, collecting my quinque as I heard how the footsteps continued down my direction, but I still haven't gotten back to my feet to continue the fight. Yet I haven't said anything to tell him that I'm done, that I'm defeated and to just leave it alone. But instead I remain silent as I closed my eyes while lowering my head and I noticed how I must look so weak right now.

Now I'm failing...

"Wherever your mind is, I suggest you recollect yourself before getting yourself killed," Without a doubt he must know something is wrong with me because I hardly ever allow anything to interfere with out training, but now I managed to slip up in front of him. It only proves that I'm not suited to work with him or his squad or anyone to be the matter of fact.

Pressing my lips into a thin line, I could sense some form of disappoint in his even if it's faint, but I knew it's because I'm not living up to my full potential. I know I could do better than this, he knows I'm better than this, but yet here I am as if I haven't learned nothing over the years. But I still couldn't think about fighting when I made other things to worry about at the moment.

What will happen once everything is revealed?

"Or did you simply have given up?" I know he's being harsh, but it's his way to help me, to teach me even if it's cruel, but I know he doesn't really mean it. After all, he isn't the best to interact with due to his poor social skills, but his question actually brought me to my senses again.

No... I haven't given up...

"If you cannot handle this then you might as well expect to-"

Tightening my eyes, I made my decision and I found my body moving on its own, quickly reacting without even moving my head. I know my sudden movement must've ended his sentence short since I didn't hear anything else instead of a sound that only meant that two quinques clashed.

I'm not going to allow myself to die so easily

Flashback:

I recently gotten the hang of using the quinque and now I'm sparring with him, but this time he was a bit more stern then the pervious times we trained. This time he wasn't teaching me, but more liking seeing if I can put my skills and what I learn into action. But like all the other times, I just hate fighting since it's so pointless and I only wanted to stop that, yet it seems no matter what it'll always be part of my life.

"You can't rely on mercy from your opponents," He was serious when he reminded me about the important fact that I can't deny, "As an Investigator, it's your duty to eliminate the ghoul and protect your comrades."

Releasing a deep breath, getting back onto my feet as I listened to his lecture on how hesitant I was. Even if I'm not using my kagune, I know these weapons are dangerous and I can't possible think of the chance of me actually hurting him.

"Now try again," He waited for a moment until I got back to my feet so we can try once again.

Nodding, I quickly blocked his attack since he made his move first and I knew from the times we practiced that I can't win in a upfront formation. Moving away, I kept a distance between us, but yet I wasn't fast to react when I sensed something near me. I managed deflect it but it was only the matter of time that I'll be defeated yet again and surely if this continues then I'll be a failure.

"Where's the will that you once had," Now he was reminding me of the day we first met, the day he decided to get rights over and it threw me off for a moment, "Did you now given up?"

Frowning slightly at his words, I made my move but he easily dodged while making his move as he stated, "Your attack was off by 0.1 seconds."

Holding my ground, keeping the blade like quinque up shielding my side, but felt the blade brush against me. It wasn't bad, but it only managed to tare my sleeve and I heard him speak up again, "Your defense isn't properly held."

I won't understand how someone who's human could possess such power and speed for someone of his age. He was the one control the fight and without a doubt it was all going to come to an end when he firmly stated, "Stop holding back and fight."

That's the thing, I don't want to fight because I've grown tired of it and surely now it's the same as if I never left the arena. I'll always be fighting, but this time I won't be able to see the faces of those I take their lives away unlike before when I can vividly recall every detail of their face.

"If this is how you'll be then you might as well expect to die," He sighed under his breath, when he knocked me back onto the ground.

Again, I was met by the floor and I sat up not completely wanting to get back to my feet, but I felt his presence. Surely he was standing in front of me, probably looking down at how I haven't made any progress during our session together.

What he said next made me realize what he was doing, what the whole purpose was behind his harsh attitude and it was the moment I knew that regardless of what I want. I need to fight in order to make it to the next day.

"Now, do you want to die here?"

"No," Shaking my head, getting back to my feet while holding onto my quinque tightly as I confidently stated, "I'm going to keep living no matter what!"

"Prove it," There was something different with his voice, but I can't properly explain it.

Catching the quinque in between mine, stopping it from piercing my shoulder as I open my eyes, lifting my head up and I pushed myself off the ground. This time I need to focus, to at least put up a fight and worry about everything once this is over or else I'll only create more trouble for myself. I blocked his attack while muttering, "...I'm going to keep living no matter what..."

"Then prove it."

It's just like that day, the first day that we actually had a training session together and he was serious about it unlike the many little practices that only served to prepare me. Now I need to remind him that I'm serious about wanting to live, to fight, and to keep moving forward even if everything is holding back. I also just don't want him to see me fall, to see me waste the chance that others don't have, and more importantly I want make sure he doesn't regret ever taking a risk with me.

But it didn't last long since he managed to disarm me from one of my quinques, I felt the cold material of his quinque against my skin and it was all move. He drew it back to his side before moving away and it gave me the opportunity to collect my quinque while listening to him state, "Your performance wasn't its best today unlike other times."

Lowering my quinques, I already knew this wasn't my best performances and surely it was just a major step back to all the other times we spared together. But back then, I never had anything that deeply troubled me that wasn't only about the CCG because he'll do something to make the situation less terrible for me or someone else would've helped me out.

Now I'm alone because what has my full attention is something that CCG can't know or else I'll suffer the consequences for my act of treason and possible create a whole new problem for everyone that have personal connections with me.

Sighing under my breath, nodding as I turned away to take my leave while explaining for my lack of focus, "Forgive me, I have a lot on my mind lately and I apologize for not being fully prepared for our spare."

"Whatever you are doing, I suggest you stop," He sighed under his breath, warning me as he simply stated, "Before it's far too late."

Pausing, I'm not surprised that he knows something is up and certainly he doesn't want to get involved or else there will be far too many issues that will come out of it. Instead, I only nodded back before leaving the room as I placed my quinques away into my case so I can head home and call it a day. It was quite cruel of him to say that because it only means that he's aware but hasn't acted up it or it just proves that his intuition is close to what I've been up to. Whichever it is, I know it'll only end up horrible for me and it'll only strain our relationship due to my actions.

---

3rd Pov

It's been a few days and Yuzuki knew she hasn't been showing up for the boy's training and she felt guilty for it, so she decided to show up even if she didn't plan to actually take part with the training session. Instead Yuzuki was standing off to the side, allowing Yomo and Touka to handle the session while she observed from afar to see if he made any improvements. But from what she gathered that he still has a lot to learn still to prepare himself for any possible conflicts that require him to defend himself.

Yuzuki kept her arms folded, leaning against the pillar and she closed her eyes for a moment. Listening carefully to how Touka scolded Kaneki on a few things before Yomo properly lectured the boy. Releasing a sigh under her breath, she found herself wondering through some old memories, to one of the moments she was in the academy before being removed.

Flashback:

It's hasn't been too long since she's been in the Academy, but there's one word that describes how she feels about it, she hates it. Not too many people knew about her being a ghoul, but there were still some rumors floating around about her and some have used it to outcast her or even threaten to harm her. But there wasn't anything she could do about it since official won't defend her even if was innocent.

They were sparring with each other, they weren't given a real quinque during their first few training sessions. Yet it was the same purpose, they needed to know how to properly wield a weapon and she was paired up with another girl as the two practiced, but she didn't expect to be at a disadvantage when she was facing two opponents instead of a one on one match.

She didn't really put up much a fight, but Yuzuki frowned the moment one of them said something that struck a nerve and she quickly turned the tables on the two. Disarming one of the cadets while pinning the other down as she held the other in a position of defeat. Narrowing her faded eyes down to the girl below her while holding the bow staff against the other girl's neck as she retorted back at the two for their cruel actions.

However, Yuzuki failed to remember that her own actions are enough to get her in big trouble. Sighing under her breath, letting the two cadets go before listening to the scolding she received and only nodding at the official when ordered to run laps as a form of discipline. There wasn't any point in arguing so she only complied with what they said and Yuzuki was just waiting until she could go home, away from this place.

Running the laps, she was ordered to run, she wasn't quite familiar with the grounds to know every possible fault that she could miss. Yuzuki kept going, ignoring the presences of other cadets whispering among themselves, talking about her and she kept running. However, she found herself stumbling over an uneven surface of the path she was running along and the girl fell forward.

Pushing herself up, but she stayed still on the ground, sitting there while keeping her head low. Her ears twitched the moment she heard foot step but she didn't do anything, yet they stopped the moment they reached her. Yuzuki kept her eyes closed, but she was surprised to hear them actually talk to her since it's strange for anyone to really talk to her without saying something rude.

Tilting his head, he stared at the girl for a moment before asking, "Why did you fall?" The white haired boy knelt down in front of her, furrowing his brows slightly at the cadet, not really recalling if he seen her before, but his attention shifted over to how her skin was scraped a bit. Pointing at her knees, he asked yet another question, "What's that?"

His red eyes blinked, holding a blank expression, but he looked up when the girl finally moved and he saw how she let out a shaky breath causing him to frown at her strange behavior, "I don't understand..."

Yuzuki took a moment to collect herself, not wanting to cry or show any weak emotions in front of anyone on the grounds. Wiping her hand across her face before lifting her head, she furrowed her brows at how the boy kept asking questions, "Huh?"

"Oh!" His eyes widen, he seen that face before earlier when they were in the training room and he smiled before laughing, "I saw how you played with the others and I liked it!"

She was confused, not understanding why he referred to the training session as if it was some form of game, but more importantly she didn't know who he was. Lowering her head again before muttering, "...Why are you talking to me?"

He shrugged his shoulders, "Don't know, didn't expect to see someone fall where I usually am," Tilting his head he stared at her, not fully comprehending the small interaction he managed to receive from the stranger, "You have weird eyes. Reminds me of how the dead look like!"

Frowning slightly at him, Yuzuki looked up at him again as she listened to him carefully, but she was surprised to see that the boy didn't understand personal space. Her eyes widen the moment he grabbed her head, tilting it as he examined her eyes for a moment before saying, "Hey can you tell me how you could do that!"

Then he let her go, not caring that he pushed her back a bit as he looked up to see his surrounding for a bit, "Can we play that game from earlier?" His eyes caught sight of the other cadets who spared a few looks at him and the girl, his tone was stoic, "Everyone here are a bunch of assholes..."

Yuzuki tilted her head, sitting back up while shifting her attention and she noticed how the others didn't care enough about what happened nor did she expect them. But she blinked at how the boy in front seems a bit distant from the rest. Curling her fingers, she whispered back, "...I... I think there's other things better than that silly game..."

He raised a brow, returning his attention back to the strange girl as he wondered what could be better than that. His eyes widen the moment he watched how she held out a hand to him, staring at the gesture for a moment before furrowing his brows over to the girl who only said, "My name is Yuzuki..."

She didn't know what she was expecting, maybe it was foolish for her to introduce herself or even bother offering a handshake because she he must have heard her name by now to connect the rumors to her. Instead, she tilted her head the moment he accepted the handshake while asking, "What's this?"

Blinking, she felt her expression soften before explaining, "...It's how people introduce themselves to strangers at first," Raising a brow at how the boy seems to lack some social skills, "You haven't said your name."

"My name is..." He took a moment to think as he recalled a few things before chuckling as he shook the girl's hand while introducing himself, "Juuzou Suyuza."

Letting go, Juuzou stood up while looking around him for a moment before speaking again to no one in particular, "This is different, weird because no one ever did that before," He tilted his head over to Yuzuki before stating, "No one here talks to me and I don't care because I hate the look in their eyes when they see me."

Yuzuki stared at him, she remembered hearing a few rumors surrounding him, but he didn't seem to actually fit with the description of being violent, yet she could see why the others stay away because he isn't normal according their standards. That she understands perfectly and it's quite sad to see that he's being out casted by everyone else.

Getting up to her feet, she tilting her head while saying, "...You're talking to me..."

The white haired boy shrugged his shoulders, not sparing a look over to the girl as he began to walk away while saying a few things without much thought, "You haven't ran away yet, so you're different or you're weird too because I noticed that no one likes you either."

Looking over to the side, he stared down the small hill beside the path that they stood on and he laughed before calling out to the girl, "Come on!"

She took a moment and after hearing his harsh comment she knew he was right about it, so she didn't hold it against him. Instead, she decided to follow the strange boy regardless of what others have said about him because in the end they're both out casted from the norm, so she might as well try to understand him.

Her eyes opened the moment she heard Kaneki released a small sound revealing that he was in pain and it was followed by Touka's comment on how he needs to man up and stop being a little baby. Yuzuki frowned a bit at the tactic the girl was using to handle how to train the boy, but the dove's attention shifted over to where Yomo stood as he stepped in. The man took over the training session from Touka as he switched the objective from kagune to hand to hand combat.

Yuzuki knew she can't say much because she left Yomo to handle the training session and from what she learned, Kaneki asked Touka to help him since she hasn't been around to assist in his sessions. The dove released a deep breath, lowering her head as she listens to Yomo's small lecture that he shared with Kaneki before going straight into their match. She curled her fingers around her arms as she recalled what happened during a meeting she attended recently revolving the case about Hinami and now including Touka.

Flashback:

The group sat around the table discussing a few things that needed to be address and none of less they had to talk about the recent events that occurred. Juuzou didn't really paid much attention to the matter since it catch his attention nor did he really cared about the subject, so he was left messing around with whatever was left in front of him. Yuzuki sat beside the white haired Investigator but she kept her professional attitude, but her attention shifted over to Shinohara who motioned Mado to begin the conservation since it revolves around his case.

Yuzuki kept quiet, folding her arms as she listened carefully to the man's words when he began, "It appears we have another ghoul interfering in the ghoul child case," Mado leaned his chin on top of his hands while stating a few things before sparing a glance over to this subordinate, "A new suspect is Rabbit and this ghoul managed to kill one of our own Investigators along with injuring two including Amon here."

Shinohara skimmed through the file that was handed over to him and he frowned slightly before looking over to Mado, "The report said that Phantom was also involved."

Amon spoke up, only revealing a small detail revolving around the unknown ghoul, "That ghoul came to save Rabbit and left once given the chance."

"So there's proof that Phantom's a ghoul?" Shinohara raised a brow at the two Investigators who encountered the enigma as he asked the question that many members of CCG wondered for the answer.

Shaking his head, Amon recalled the weapons that Phantom drew out when defending herself against his mentor and he frowned slightly before speaking up, "No, however, it's quinques aren't like ours, but still holds against them."

However, the Investigator still couldn't get over how someone like Phantom would show up with a case that isn't too difficult and Shinohara frowned slightly before asking himself, "Why would someone like Phantom interfere in this case?"

Waving it off, Mado reassured the man that it'll be taken care of as he planned to shift his focus over to the ghoul that has yet to say anything, "Never mind that Shinohara since we have other important things to do."

"But I do wonder what you've been up to," Mado held a smug look as his attention soon fell onto Yuzuki who hasn't spoken a word since the beginning of their meeting. The man raised a brow while calling her out, "You lived there yet you still allowed those vermin roam freely and now it cost a life and wounded two."

Tilting his head, he chuckled before stating, "I should've known a ghoul like yourself would be responsible for how the ward is," Shrugging his shoulder, stared at how the ghoul has yet to express any form of reaction to his words, but it didn't stop him from trying to provoke something from her, "Failing to do your job, I'm not surprised at all."

"We have other issues to handle at the moment and certainly you belittling Yuzuki-san isn't necessary, Mado, so refine yourself from doing so," Stepping in, Shinohara came to defend the girl since he noticed that she wasn't going to say anything in regards to Mado's words, "I believe that she has been doing her best despite being the only residing Investigator within the ward."

Juuzou blinked looking between the group as he listened carefully, trying to understand the sudden shift in the atmosphere and his attention went over to Yuzuki who simply sat there, but he looked over to his partner for a moment. Meanwhile Amon also looked between the Investigators as he watched how the topic soon shifted away from their prime cause for being there, but he looked back to his mentor who spoke up yet again.

Mado frowned slightly at the girl before looking over to Shinohara, "Yet it doesn't excuse anything because-"

"-Here." Yuzuki coldly stated, cutting the man off while drawing everyone's attention as she explained herself and countering Mado's argument, "These are my reports to the cases I've solved. I've eliminated these ghouls alone without any help from any of you. So Mado if you wish to take back what you said earlier then you're free to do so."

Sighing, Yuzuki leaned back into her chair while waving a hand around lazily, "Yet I don't care if you do or don't," Her eyes narrowed slightly when she placed her hand on the table while bringing the conversation back to what they originally discussed about, "We have more pressing issues to attend to such as Phantom appearing within the ward and interfering with one of our current cases revolving the ghoul child."

Bringing her hand over her mouth, frowning to herself as she stated, "Along with a new ghoul that has been labeled as Rabbit, which I expect will continue to interfere," Yuzuki turned over towards Mado and Amon while offering her own thoughts, "Based on your reports it seems this was an act of personal intentions, meaning Rabbit is connect to the ghoul child."

"Of course, but from what I gathered about this low life ghoul. Rabbit isn't a great threat at all and will be easily eliminated if she dares interfere once again," Mado's words held no interest as he skimmed through his report while remembering his encounter with the ghouls and he frowned for a second before smiling at the thought, "Depending if Phantom comes to her rescue that is."

Yuzuki chuckled under her breath, looking over to her colleague before asking, "It seems that this case has gotten complicated, hasn't it Mado?"

"It's none of your concern. It's my case and I would gladly enjoy it if you and the others don't meddle in," Standing from his chair, he collected his work while motioning Amon to follow as he excused himself, "Me and my subordinate will handle this case."

"Fine," Shinohara sighed, closing the file before handing it back to his colleague while reminding the man, "I know you can handle this Mado, but do understand that we'll respond if you run into some trouble with the case."

Not sparing a glance over to the other Investigators that were left within the room as he firmly stated, "That won't be necessary."

Something touched her shoulder and without thinking, Yuzuki reacted according to her instincts as she threw whoever snuck up on her. Frowning slightly, but she took the moment to take account of her surroundings and she realized the scent and then she heard his voice as he spoke up, "..S...Sorry..."

"Oh forgive me, I wasn't..." Her eyes widen, quickly helping the boy up to his feet while muttering to him as she scolds him, "You shouldn't have done that."

Kaneki waved it off, holding his shoulder as he reassured the dove that there's no hard feelings, "It's fine... I wasn't expecting that either," He glanced over to Touka who immediately turned away and he realized that he was set up by the waitress, "Well, I asked Touka and she told me it was fine, but looks like the joke was on me."

Yuzuki looked off to the distance as she only stated, "Please, next time don't sneak up on me like that again," Sighing under her breath moving away from the pillar while informing him, "I believe your training session is over for the day."

Yomo picked his coat up from the ground as he passed the two, but he looked over to Kaneki as he spared a few words before leaving, "Your skills still need some improvement."

While Touka muttered over to him as she followed behind Yomo, "You also need to work your body into shape too."

"I'll... I'll do that," Nodding, Kaneki took that into account as he called out to them before they disappeared from his view, "Thank you."

The two stood there for in silence as the others left the area and Yuzuki offered a faint smile over to him while giving her opinion, "You've gotten better even if it's the slightest," Sighing under her breath before folding her arms again, "You need to understand your own weakness and strengths for being a Rinkaku."

"Touka mentioned it before..." Looking away from her, he remembered that Touka only said a few things, but told him to ask the dove for more information and he looked back over to her, "But she said that you could help since you're a Rinkaku too."

"Correct," Yuzuki paused for a moment, taking a deep breath before turning around to face him, "I'll give you a short lesson about your kagune."

Kaneki listened carefully to her, trying to understand a part of his ghoul self as she explained, "A Rinkaku have a powerful regeneration ability and because of its peculiar appearance and built," Her eyes narrowed slightly before firmly stating, "It has a lot of 'striking power'."

Frowning slightly, she took a seat on the ground since she knew this will take some time to explain and Yuzuki then revealed the weakness of being a Rinkaku, "However, it's downside is through their RC cells and how they bind easily in order to regenerate which causes the union of the cells to weaken for that moment."

"And compared to the other kagune types, they're very brittle," Sighing, she looked over to him as he sat down across from her, "Lastly, they're referred as the shining scales."

Furrowing his brows, he decided to ask a few more questions about kagunes, "What about Touka's? Nishiki's?" He took some time to think if he should mention it, but he also wondered about something else revolving around the dove's kagune, "I heard you have another kagune... How?"

"Touka's kagune is a Ukaku, also known as the shining feather," Yuzuki closed her eyes, basically providing a lesson for the boy as she explained what makes a ghoul different from each based on their kagunes, "It's a light weight kagune and can deliver high speed attacks. They're also good at both long and short range attacks, so they have a chance to end the fight at an early stage."

Tilting her head over to him, revealing a small detail that she learned, "You probably seen it before hand when she confronted Nishiki in order to protect you,"

His eyes widen, he remembers not saying anything about it to her, but she still found out, "How-?"

Cutting him off, Yuzuki shrugged her shoulder as she merely responded back, "She told me about it."

"But, the weakness of a Ukau is how it brings out the RC cells since it causes extreme decrease in stamina," Laying down onto the ground, she continued to explain more about the kagune type while adding a few details, "Due to that those who possess a Ukaku, they're always left in the shadow of the anxiety that they'll run out of fuel at a fast rate."

Closing her eyes, she muttered her next statement, "Explains why Touka is very quick on her feet and how her body doesn't heal quick."

Taking in a deep breath, collecting her thoughts before moving onto the next kagune type, "As for Nishiki, he's a Bikaku and known as the shining tail which is obvious since it has an appearance of a tail," Furrowing her brows, she can't really fine much to say about the subject, "There isn't much to denote as strengths or weakness for a Bikaku."

Kaneki frowned once he heard how there isn't much about the kagune that Nishiki possessed and now he wonders how much of an upper hand he had when fighting him that day. Yet he sat up the moment he heard Yuzuki speak up once again and he listened carefully.

"From the four types, Bikakus is a balanced type. Displays the highest power at mid-range, it has above average offensive and defensive capabilities and it has a decent speed," Opening her eyes, she didn't move from where she laid on the ground while stating, "There isn't any major weak points that stick out like the others."

"So basically those who are a Bikaku will always have a trump card if someone tried to take them out by force," Shrugging once again, tilting her head while turning her head to the side as she mentioned, "As seen by Nishiki himself, you must already note some things down already from personal experience."

Then she finally reached the question that she was hoping not to reach yet, but Yuzuki took a deep breath as she began to reveal information back her kagune, "As for me..." Still she paused, hesitating as to think of how to properly explain it to him without being so vague or complicated.

Closing her eyes, she finally took the step in sharing with him something that is part of her, "I'm a dual type due to my father who also was a dual type because he inherited the RC types from both of his parents."

Lacing her fingers together, resting them over her chest as she stated an important fact, "It's rare that a ghoul whose parents possess different RC types can be passed down from their parents to their children," Sighing, she continued to explain, "As a result, a ghoul who's a dual possesses kakuhous in more than one location and is able to use the two different types of kagune simultaneously."

Sitting up,she lifted a finger while point over to him as she made another point on the topic, "Another note I'll share is that it's difficult to create a quinque from a ghoul with a dual kagune so CCG doesn't have much of those floating around."

He stared at for a moment, not believing the slightest possibility of such a rare chance to occur and to someone he knows sitting in front of him. Furrowing his brows, staring at her while hinting at the dove to complete his sentence since he doesn't know about the other kagune, "You're a Rinkaku and...?"

Curling her fingers, Yuzuki released a heavy sigh before muttering, "...Ukaku..."

Kaneki recalled an old memory when he took the dove back to Anteiku that night they encountered a ghoul and he remembered something that Touka said to him when they were alone in the breakroom. He looked over to her while bringing up, "Touka mentioned that-"

Sharply cutting his sentence short when she coldly stated, "I can't summon my Ukaku much nor do I want to," Yuzuki took in a deep breath, calming her nerves a bit as she recalled some painful memories, "I rarely use it when I'm in need of help or it's my last resort."

Taking note on how she didn't appear to be completely comfortable with the subject, but he still asked the question, "Why?"

Instead of answering his question straight away, Yuzuki brought up a few other things that will lead to the point she wanted to make. The brought her leg up so she could lean her arm against it, "Touka's Ukaku isn't fully there as you can see," Resting her head on top of her arm as she faced the ground, "Only half , a half wing. One complete wing while the other appears to have been damaged, not fully there in its complete state."

"Ghouls don't summon their kagune until their kakuhous are ready and when their body is prepared to release the RC cells," Closing her eyes, she sighed under her breath before whispering back to him, "If released at a premature time then the kagune has a high risk of being severely damaged. Meaning the kakuhous won't be capable of handling the kagune properly which leads to a slow regeneration."

His eyes widen, Kaneki shook his head before whispering back, "Wait, so Touka's kagune was prematurely activated and she... She was injured?"

"Unfortunately," She gave a slight nod as her expression sadden while revealing some information, "Just like her... I too gotten my kagune prematurely activated due to many exterior factors revolving my fight for survival. So, my Ukaku was the one to be severely damaged, so I don't summon it because it's not healed properly for usage."

Curling her fingers around, Yuzuki could recall the sensation that covers her body every time she activates her dual together, "Yet I can still use it, but at the price of extreme pain and a slower rate for it to heal," Sitting straight again as she stated, "It's not at its top strength since it's not at its proper state and it's the reason why I'm told not to use it regardless of the situation."

Standing up, Yuzuki looked away while muttering, "But it's my call and I'll deal with the consequences of summoning it."

Following her lead, Kaneki picked himself off the ground, but he turned over to her with a sad look since he already knew the reasoning behind her story, "...It's when you were captured...?"

"...Yes..." Stretching her arms while maintaining a static expression as she informed him, "I managed to keep my Rinkaku in good shape so I still have some form to defend myself, but I have grown to relay on my quinques since my kagunes aren't my best option yet I do summon them when I see fit."

There was a piece of him that felt guilty for bringing the topic up again and Kaneki offered his apologizes while avoiding his eyes from her, "Sorry for asking about it."

"It's fine," She shook her head, reassuring him it wasn't an issue for him to ask such a thing, "You were bound to find out eventually."

Yuzuki sighed under her breath before turning away, she decided it was time for her to leave, "I'll be going now,"

Catching up with her while hoping to spend more time to talk to her as he offered, "I can walk you home."

"There's no need," Declining his offer, Yuzuki didn't spare a look over to him as they continued to walk down the path, "Thank you for the offer, but I'll be fine."

Taking a deep breath before parting ways from him as she simply whispered back, "Goodnight Kaneki."

He stopped in his tracks, watching how the dove refused to spare anymore time like the countless of other times before and it started since that day. Kaneki noticed that they'll talk only if the topic of the conversation revolved around the current situation and anything about ghouls such as now when she spoke about kagunes. However, it's been awhile since she actually talked about something beside that and he was hoping that he could get her to open up.

Instead he just stood there a bit longer as he called out to her, "Goodnight Yuzuki," He smiled at her while saying, "Take care, okay."

She paused, furrowing her brows slightly before turning slightly but stopping herself as she returned her attention of ahead of her. Yuzuki nodded before continuing as she responded back, "You too."

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3rd Pov

It was quiet within the room since the young girl was sound asleep and the dove didn't make any form of sounds that could wake her up. Yuzuki made sure the blanket was placed properly over Hinami's shoulders while brushing the girl's hair softly and the dove could feel a hint of sadness building up within her. Keeping her eyes closed, releasing a sigh as she kept the girl some company even if she was asleep, but Yuzuki just wanted to be there for her in case she woke up suddenly.

However, it reminded the dove of an old memory of her youth, back then when she was getting used to living under the new conditions of CCG, used to living with Arima, and spending time with Fura. Yet all she could hope for was that Hinami too finds the courage to move despite everything that has happen, to get used to living again and knowing that she'll have people with her to help. Yuzuki wrapped an arm around the girl, as she whispered, "...It's okay to live..."

Flashback:

"Why is he taking so damn long..." The orange haired teen frowned the moment he noticed the time and he muttered to himself since he should've known that his friend would be running late yet again, "God it's already late."

"He better not have gone off and gotten himself in trouble now," Fura scratched the back of his head before yawning.

He looked down to see that the girl fell asleep during the movie and a faint smile appeared on his lips before shaking his head, "Well... At least you managed to sleep fine," Sighing, Fura leaned back against the couch as he returned his attention back to the TV screen before muttering to himself while making sure that the girl was properly covered, "Guess I'll finish the movie on my own then."

A half an hour went by and still no sign of the blue haired teen and Fura wasn't worried since he knew that the ghoul investigator could handle himself with ease, but it only bothered the orange haired teen that his friend was taking longer than he said he would. His attention soon shifted the moment he heard the door unlock and then was followed the monotone voice that belonged to none other than Arima who stood at the door for a moment.

"You're still here?"

Looking over his shoulder to see the blue haired teen give him a confused expression before returning to his neutral state again. Carefully moving the young girl aside as he stood up, "Finally, you're back," Crossing his arms, Fura frowned at the young Investigator before questioning, "What the hell took you so long?"

Arima removed his shoes at the entrance before moving further into his living room while explaining, "They underestimated the situation and well it took long than I expected," Looking over to the high schooler, he raised a brow while stating, "However, I thought you would've left by now, Fura."

Shaking his head, he spared a glance over to the sleeping girl before responding back, "No, I'm not leaving the kid all alone until you get back. I'm not stupid."

"I see," Setting his guitar shaped quinque case down beside his desk that rested within the living room. Walking over to where Fura stood, he looked down on the couch to see that Yuzuki was already asleep and he took the responsibility in taking the half ghoul into her room while apologizing to Fura, "Sorry for the burden."

Fura yawned, sitting back onto the couch while informing his strange friend, "Hey, she waited up until you got back, you know."

"So you gotta at least make more efforts in being there because I can't do this all the time," Laying down, he frowned a bit to himself before deciding to close his eyes as he reminded Arima, "I still got school and now the Academy as well."

Closing the door a bit, but making sure it was open enough to be aware if the girl woke up and Arima walked down the hall while responding back, "You don't need to Fura, but thank you for your help," Glancing over to the clock before looking to Fura, but he stopped himself the moment he realized that the teen has fallen asleep, "It's late and I believe-"

Instead of saying anything else, he left him alone while turning the TV off and wondering off down the hall to only return with another blanket for the teen. Arima dropped over the orange haired teen before walking over to his desk to finish up some paper work. He glanced over to see that everything seems normal, but yet it all felt so far out of reach and the young investigator sighed under his breath before continuing with his work.

Yuzuki opened her eyes the moment she heard the door open, but she already knew it was Touka who came to check on the girl too. The dove noticed that Touka brought a cup of coffee with her and surely it was meant for Hinami, but she heard a faint sound that signify some paper being crumpled a bit up, so it meant that the waitress must have some papers or a newspaper with her as well.

Touka closed the door carefully, walking over to where the dove sat with the young girl while asking, "How is she?"

She sighed under her breath, Yuzuki ran her fingers through the girl's hair as she responded, "She's been asleep for a while now."

"That's all she's been doing during the day," Touka frowned slightly, setting the cup of coffee aside and ignoring her own urges of avoiding the dove, but she wanted to talk for a bit, "That idiot gave her some book and she's been reading it during the night."

A faint smile appeared on Yuzuki's face, shaking her head as she cleared the misunderstanding as she reached over for the book, her fingers skimmed across the cover before replying, "Actually, from what I can tell... This is the book I left her," Yuzuki removed herself from Hinami, carefully making sure not to wake her while offering a smile over to the waitress, "So the idiot isn't responsible."

Moving away, she allowed Touka to sit beside Hinami, but the dove gave her opinion regarding to Hinami's late night reading, "I think it's good for her to learn, to study, and maybe reading won't be a bad thing for her," Folding her arms across her chest, Yuzuki turned slightly, "It's one of the only things keeping her afloat for now. A life line if you will call it."

Yuzuki brought a hand up to cover her mouth while allowing the thought to cross her mind, Her escape route from this cruel world... Closing her eyes, Yuzuki curled her fingers against her lips while thinking to herself, Her desire to gain knowledge that many ghouls are deprived from...

"She's still a growing girl and she can't just starve herself either," Touka looked down at the young girl, she could notice the dark circles that now rested on Hinami's face at a sign that she hasn't been sleeping properly and pure stress that was placed on her. The young waitress whispered under her breath as she brushed a few stray hairs away from the girl's face, "I don't care as long as she's alright."

"I know..." Yuzuki could sense the distress in the girl's voice as she worried over Hinami and the dove took a deep breath before excusing herself, "I'll leave you with her then."

Walking over to the door, Yuzuki opened it, but sparing a look over her shoulder as she said, "Take care of yourself and Hinami," Shifting her attention away, the dove carefully began to close the door while whispering, "Okay Touka?"

Touka curled her fingers beside her, not wanting to look over at the dove as she left her with Hinami, but she still responded back even if it's a mere mutter, "Yeah."

---

Entering the break room for a moment before she could head back home to meet up with Juuzou who decided to stay with the dove since the following day would be Thursday and he wanted to spend some time before Shinohara came to pick the two up before heading over to a handle a few small tasks with Amon. But it'll leave them with the rest of the day to do whatever they wanted and Yuzuki usually left that up to the white haired Investigator, so she's expecting something that could possible get them in trouble if she doesn't keep him in track.

Yuzuki closed the door behind her, but she paused for a moment when she recognized a familiar scent that belonged to someone she knows and the dove turned over to the source before speaking up, "I didn't know you would be here."

Kaneki turned to see who came into the break room, his eye widen the moment he saw the dove and he set down his book while speaking up, "I heard you were visiting Hinami," In truth, he wasn't expecting to run into her since she tends to show up for a brief second before leaving again, but this time she came to the break room, "She's been sleeping a lot lately and doesn't really leave the room."

He smiled faintly, explaining to the dove about how Hinami still asked for him to help her with learning about how to read some words despite everything that happened to her, she still wishes to learn, "I'll help her with literature and teach her some new words so reading would be easier," Kaneki chuckled before scratching his head a bit before looking away, "But Touka doesn't like how she's reading and..."

"It's not a bad thing, Kaneki," Yuzuki reassured him that he wasn't doing anything bad by helping the girl to understand literature and the dove moved a bit further into the room while still maintaining a distance, "You gave her something to support herself. She never actually went to school because she's a ghoul, so reading wasn't something she could do."

"School is a risk for her to get in trouble and possible endanger," Folding her arms, Yuzuki sighed under her breath before explaining, "But she always had an interest in learning regardless if she's a ghoul."

A faint smile appeared on the dove's face as she turned over to the boy's direction, "You gave her an opportunity in learning something that she actually finds interesting. To be a teacher in some form for her to actually get a better grasp on this."

Kaneki watched how the smile soon faded away as Yuzuki looked away again, "However... Things revolving her situation with CCG hasn't changed..." Shaking her head, taking a deep breath before stating, "She's still a suspect and the two Investigators that are left in charge of her case won't stop until they apprehend her."

"She can't be out in the open since her face was revealed to the Investigator while her outfit description was released to the public," Curling her fingers around her arms, frowning slightly at how everything was closing around the young girl, "People might pick her out and call CCG in to get her and it'll be quite easy for the two Investigators to recognize her."

Standing up, Kaneki furrowed his brows before saying, "So you're saying she's trapped here."

"Yes and no," Bringing a hand over her mouth, shaking her head as she explained herself a bit more, "Hinami is safe here, but as Yoshimura mentioned before... He would be placing her somewhere else like the 24th Ward."

Closing her eyes, biting the bottom of her lip as she curled her hand up at the thought, "But I tried to convince him into leaving her here because Hinami won't stand a chance in that ward," Sighing, unfolding her arms as she coldly stated a fact, "She's good as dead if she moved into that ward."

Running a hand through her hair, frowning as she tried to see the best option, but they were limited due to factors that revolve around CCG, "Or any other ward to be honest... As you recall what Uta described about the wards and how the 20th is basically the only one bearable, the one that holds a peaceful balance compared to the rest."

"Yes... I remember, but-" Kaneki took the information in and he frowned a bit before asking, "Then what will happen now?"

"For now, she'll stay here under Anteiku's protection," Yuzuki decided to take her leave, but she spared a few more words to him, "Just keep an eye out for her. Keep teaching her."

"There has been something bothering me lately," He spoke up and it was enough to stop the dove from opening the door.

Furrowing her brows, turning around to face the eye patched boy and she wondered what could be bothering him, "Huh? What is it?"

"...We haven't talked like before," Carefully think over his words, making sure not to say anything that could possible create another mess and this time he wants to make sure he's heard, "We'll talk about ghoul stuff, CCG, my training, Hinami's situation and Touka's actions. But... But we haven't just talked."

His voice became a mere whisper as he looked up at her, "We drifted, haven't we?"

She stood still, her expression kept it's neutral state, but her voice made it clear that she was troubled and tried to provide an explanation for why she distant herself, "There's been so much going on lately, Kaneki, and I don't have time for it," Bringing her hand up in defense, reassuring him that it wasn't because she's mad or anything like that while reminding him about the current situation, "Don't take it the wrong way, but what is there to actually talk about when things are like this."

Yuzuki closed her eyes, shaking her head as she whispered, "I also just want to keep this as simple as possible."

"I can't have any friendly type of relations with people, not now, and probably not ever," Her voice weaken since she knew it's something that she tried to seek out many times before, "If you were to get any more involved in my life then you'll only get yourself into trouble."

Releasing a deep breath, folding her arms as she stated, "My family, those who work within CCG aren't blind and are very keen about their surroundings," Turning over towards him, she gave him a sad look, "Those that I work along with will pick you out as a ghoul after a certain amount of time if you were to be in a room with them long enough."

"Do you see...?" Bringing a hand over her mouth, trying to keep herself revealing how torn she was about the whole situation as she explained the struggles she's dealt with, "I wasn't... I can't have anything beyond business and alliances among ghouls. I can't actually have friends. To far invested, to be attached personally with anyone."

Kaneki stared at her, he finally got a glimpse of pain that was expressed within her faded eyes as she said, "Why do you think I can't be here with them longer than I should," Closing her eyes again before whispering as she answered his question, "Why I don't want to causally talk to you or anyone about personal things beyond the problem at hand..."

Covering her eyes, she released another deep breath before giving her thoughts on how she's handling the situation, "I thought about it ever since that day... I decided to draw a line between what I can allow in my life and what I can't."

Curling his hands up, Kaneki spoke up as he argued with her, "I think you're wrong..."

"I don't believe this is the best decision," Shaking his head, taking a step forward while explaining his point in hopes to convince her into changing her decision, "We can handle it and surely Anteiku won't let CCG near enough for them to hurt us."

Nearing the dove, he stopped himself before whispering, "But you can't disconnect yourself from us, from them," Sighing under his breath, he revealed a few things he learned recently about her, "I'm aware that Hinami's father, Ryouko-san and Hinami were friends of yours as well. Yoshimura told me and I know you want to be there for her..."

"I know you want to be there for Touka too," His eyes soften, Kaneki stared at how Yuzuki didn't show any signs of reaction and he continued to talk, "You can't possibly believe this is the right thing to do. You'll be hurting yourself... and them..."

He noticed one thing that everyone had in common and it was that they held a mask just like Uta said, a mask that they can't take off and Kaneki realized that everyone is trying to keep a strong appearance to help them deal with the world they live in. But it's something he doesn't want to see when the mask crumbles away because it only exposes how hurt they are deep down inside. Maybe he has a mask on too and doesn't even think much of it to notice it, but he already saw Touka expose herself and now he doesn't want to see Yuzuki crumble now.

"I don't want to see you suffer... I'm tired of seeing it, tired of hearing it in your voice when you hide it from your expressions," Lowering his eyes, I took a moment to collect his thoughts properly before looking up again, "I'm tired of doing nothing... I want to help you..."

"I also can't let you do this without hearing my stand on it," Taking another step forward, he tried to explain how he feels about the whole thing based on what she said, "I... I don't want to just be acquaintances and stop being friends..."

"From day one you stayed by my side through everything," Kaneki stared at the ground, taking in a deep breath before continuing, "You probably did the same for Touka throughout the time you known her and you must've done the same for Hinami..."

Chuckling, he remembered the day he discovered that Hinami had a book that he enjoyed reading and recalling how the young girl mentioned that the dove gave it to her, "Hinami showed me a book and she told me you gave it to her," He offered a smile over to the girl, "You told her that I'll help her read it..."

Yuzuki closed her eyes shut, keeping to herself but she couldn't deny the words that left his mouth, the words that filled the silence that she tried to maintain. And he saw that, he noticed that and it only made him want to try harder in order to persuade her into returning, "So let us stay by your side through everything as well..."

"Deep down you want to be here because Anteiku is also your family," Kaneki's widen the moment he realized that he struck a nerve when he noticed the way she released a shaky breath as if she was holding in her feelings. He paused for a moment before taking another step forward while whispering, "We're your ghoul family..."

"And as a family, we won't let you suffer alone because we'll be there for you," Taking a deep breath, he added on, "Regardless of the mistakes, the complications, and knowing you're part of CCG."

"I've seen that everyone here cares for you despite knowing you're an Investigator, despite your family connections within CCG, and all the possible things you've done as a Ghoul Investigator." It's true, for the time he spent within Anteiku as he listened to how the others spoke about the dove and recently they all expressed some form of concern for her which proves to why she should return, "They care and I... I also care..."

"I understand you want to protect your ghoul family from your human family," Releasing a deep breath, he reminded her about Anteiku and what they're trying to do for the ward while reminding her that she needed to trust them, "But you must have some faith, to have some hope that we- Anteiku can stand on our own just like CCG."

She brought her hands over her face, shielding herself as she took in his words, but in the end she had limited options that could possible end positively for her or them. Yuzuki sensed how he neared her, so close, but yet so far as if everything was unreachable for her. Then what he said next finally tugged onto something deep inside her and it only made her feel so overwhelmed when he spoke to her in a calm manner.

"Where has that gone...? That hope where humans and ghouls can co-exist...?" He remembered the moment clear, recalling it so vividly and now seeing that she shifted away from that over a short period of time.

Kaneki tilted his head slightly, his expression soften again and he was attempt to remove the hands away from her and calm her down, but he didn't have the courage to do that. Instead he found himself sparing a few more words to her, "What happened to the girl I sat down with that night where you told me about your goals and desires?"

"I... I miss her..." Whispering under his breath while hesitating for a moment, but in the end he placed his hand on her shoulder in hopes to get some type of reaction or a response from her.

But instead, Yuzuki released a breath that she hasn't realized she was holding in and the dove moved away. Not sparing a look or any words revolving what was said as she opened the door. Taking a moment to collect herself before daring to speak in hopes that her voice won't give away how troubled she was because of his words. She decided to leave with a simple farewell so she could go home and rethink her decisions and situation.

But she knew it was wrong of her to leave like that, yet it's all she could do at that moment, "Goodnight Kaneki."

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3rd Pov

It's been a few days since then and this time the dove hasn't returned at all which made most of them concern, but it left Kaneki feeling a bit guilty since he talked to her last and whatever he must've actually pushed her away even if it wasn't his intention. Sighing, Kaneki sat in the break room and Hinami managed to leave her room as she sat down beside him. He was teaching her a few new words to add to her vocabulary and help her read a bit more clearer. His attention shifted over to the young girl when she spoke up even if her voice was faint.

Hinami stared at the ground, she still wore that sad look on her face since the day her mother was killed. She looked over to the Kaneki as she asked, "Big brother... do you have another book that I can read?"

Kaneki stared at her, tilting his head before asking, "You already finished Monochrome Rainbow?"

She looked away again, Hinami lowered her eyes and she whispered back, "It's the one Yuzuki gave me and I've... I've been reading every night..."

Scratching his head, Kaneki began to think of what kind of book to lend the girl and he looked over to her, offering a smile to her, "Hmm... I'll give you a new one and I hope you'll like it."

"Thank you," She smiled, reaching out for the book she finished while adding, "Yuzuki-chan told me you'll have a lot of books."

Blinking, he took a moment to recover before chuckling, "She did?"

Nodding, she curled her fingers around the book in her hands, but she didn't finish her sentence, "Yes... She told me that when..."

"I want to tell her what I think about it," Hinami set the book back onto the coffee table as she whispered, "But... she hasn't been around..."

Her eyes looked over to see that Kaneki expression revealed that he was sad about it just like she was and Hinami tilted her head while asking, "You look sad too... Is it because you miss Yuzuki-chan too?"

"Ahh... I... It's hard to say," His eye widen, but a faint smile appeared on his lips as he relaxed when he answered back, "I was used to her being around and it's kinda strange without her being around like before."

Moving away from feeling sad, he chuckled before smiling at the girl as he reassured her, "But when she does come around, she would be happy to hear that you finished it."

The two of them turned over towards the door once they heard the sound to reveal Touka who entered the room, "Hinami?"

Hinami tilted her head, wondering what the older girl was up to, "Touka-chan."

Motioning her to come with her to the other room, Touka smiled while waiting for her, "Let's get you something to eat, okay?"

Still not fully wanting to actually eat or do anything productive, she lowered her eyes from a moment as she debated to follow, "Uhh..."

"It's okay, Hinami, go ahead," Kaneki stood up, bringing the young girl up with him as he told her, "I'll help you again later, okay."

Smiling, he promised to collect a few different books to bring next time as well, "Also I'll get you a new book."

Nodding, Hinami accepted the hand that was offered to her from Touka and the young girl looked over to Kaneki again, "Okay..."

Touka guided the girl out, but sharply turned on her heel as she stopped the boy from leaving the room, "No, you stay here," Narrowing her eyes as she threaten him quietly before closing the door behind her, "Don't leave, got it."

He frowned at her, not understanding why he couldn't, but he wasn't going to go against her words since he knew not to mess with Touka. Instead he nodded as he watched her close the door behind her, "Uhh... Okay?"

Standing alone in the room, Kaneki wondered what reason was he supposed to be doing or who is waiting for. One thing is for sure, he hates how they never provide any clear explanation at first and he would always wait until later for it. Then he heard the door open again and he turned to see who, but he froze the moment he realized that it was the dove who came to talk to him.

He couldn't move, there wasn't anything that he could say since his train of thought has been a mess ever since she walked out the other day. Shaking his head, he spoke up, "Yuzuki?"

She kept her hands behind her back, not moving from her spot as she offered her apologizes regarding her actions, "Hey... I wanted to apologize for walking out on you the other day."

Shaking his head, he didn't need her to apologize for anything, "It's okay."

"It's not," Yuzuki disagreed with him, she shook her head, "You had a point and I wanted to talk about it."

Bringing her arms in front of her as she folded them across her chest, "This isn't the first time I've been in a position in which I..."

"If I were to step over the line, how my life and involvements can and will harm you if your identity were to be exposed," Yuzuki faced him, allowing herself to reveal the emotions she feels as her expression showed how troubled she was, "Then you're a goner okay... Why I don't want to take that risk with anyone here."

Whispering under her breath, Yuzuki closed her eyes as she looked away, "I can't afford that."

"Regardless of how I feel, it will only end in tragedy which I can't bear to handle," She's heard it all before and she's seen how it ends, Yuzuki muttered, "I already know how this ends and I... I'm tired of it..."

"All this pointless fighting, all this revenge, and all this death," Dropping her arms beside her, turning over to him and Kaneki saw how tired the dove was by how her words, "I'm tired of it and I can't stand it anymore, but knowing that I could be the cause of someone's... it just hurts..."

Stepping closer to him as she shared how she felt since it's the least she could do, "...No matter how much I yearn for a normal lifestyle... I'll never have it and I know..." Taking in a deep breath, she can picture others who also dreamt of the impossible and she was among them, but still there's still a lingering sense of hope, "I've seen others try and yet they can't... But I just..."

"I really tried to have some type of friends," Running a hand through her hair, she tried to explain it all, but she found herself struggling, "To have friends outside of the cycle of ghouls and investigators, but now look-"

Lifting her head, she faced him while allowing the words to leave her lips as a mere whisper, "You're a ghoul now and I'm a dove," Curling her fingers, stepping back as she looked away, "It only makes everything so complicated and I really don't want to feel..."

Taking in a deep breath this is his chance to just say what he wants to share, "Yuzuki... I... I've been thinking about this for some time now and I might not fully understand it all, but you have a right to live your life in your terms," Pausing, he already knew that is wasn't easy, but he just wanted to cheer her up at least, "I know you're tied down with CCG, but..."

"I want to be there," Taking a step closer, he found the courage he lacked before as he just allowed the words to finally reach the surface, "I-I really care about you and I've been worried ever since what happened, but I really need to get this out there."

This time he didn't hesitate as he reached out for her, placing his hand over her shoulder as he said, "I... I really like you..."

Closing her eyes, not pulling away from his touch, but she refused to face him as she whispered back, "Do you know the consequences if you wish to pursue that...?"

Of course, he's aware of what this could lead to, but still he wanted to reach out for it despite all the possible dangers because he's hoping there will be a chance that nothing will harm them in the end. Nodding, he answered back, "I know..."

"I... I was hoping this wouldn't be the case," Turing around, she faced him as her faded eyes were fixed on him and she allowed a faint smile to appear for a moment before she chuckled to herself, "I happen to have grown quite fond of you as well and it's something I cannot explain..."

Letting out a deep breath, her expression soften as she whispered to him, "However... Kaneki, I'll give you that choice then since it's only fair," Her eyes shifted for a bit as she stated, "...I've made decisions without hearing out others... But now I'll let you choice..."

Closing her eyes, sighing as she whispered under her breath, "Whatever you choose there's no going back..."

Her fingers curled up beside her as she asked a few questions for him to think about and those same questions she's been asking herself for some time now, "Is it worth taking a risk like this?" She shook her head to herself before muttering, "You barely understand how the ghoul world works and you want to stumble upon a whole different world...?"

Bringing her hand up, resting it against his heart as she felt how it was beating against his chest and her expression soften once again. Opening her eyes, she whispered another question to him, "Do you really know what all this will lead to?"

He stared at her, glancing down to her hand that was against him and he looked back to her as he gave his honest answer, "I don't know."

Offering a faint smile, she nodded before closing her eyes the moment she whispered again, "I... I'll let you decide that... I..."

Kaneki still couldn't get over how all this lead to this, how it just happened and now he's left with the choice. He shook his head as he tried to form some words, but there was nothing, "Yuzuki... I..."

Reminding once again, Yuzuki didn't move as she spoke up again in a calm manner, "...Whatever you decide, I'll accept your decisions and I'll understand."

That was it, no more words were exchange as the two fell into a deep silence. Yet he still had a decision to make, to say something if it's even possible, but he knew it's up to him if he wishes to pursue something, to bring her back to Anteiku or to let her leave and allow her to follow her decisions without any more objection. But it also meant if he wishes to pursue a different form of relationship or leave it as it, to just become acquaintances instead.

Looking down to the hand that still remain over his heart, he knew she must sense how worked up he was, but it still couldn't properly describe how overwhelmed he was. Shifting his view over to her, he saw how her expression soften, but he noticed the hint of sadness behind the crumbling mask that the dove desperately tried to maintain. He watched how her eyes opened once again, still unfazed as ever, withholding any emotion that could be told, but still there was no denying that she was conflicted as well.

If he stared long enough, he could even find a faint glimpse of hope that he hasn't seen recently. To see that she's been worrying about everyone beside herself, preventing her own sense of happiness in hopes that others could be and now she doing that yet again. Leaving him with the decision to create a different path or to close the door to a new experience that could change things.

Stepping closer to the dove, hesitating for a second before brushing his hand against her cheek and he saw how her expression changed. Still not fully taking the step because once he does then there is no going back and it's all up to him if he wants to pursue it, to take the risk, but it terrified him and without a doubt it terrified her as well. Leaning closer into her, his eyes flickered from her eyes to her lips and he tried to know what she was possibly thinking, but there wasn't anything visible to help him in understanding her thought progress without the help of her voice. Hesitating, his breath skimming across her lips and he felt her fingers curled up against his chest.

It was now or never, no turning back once he decides and surely there will be consequences regardless in what path he chooses. Taking in a shaky breath, closing his eyes and the boy finally made his decision. Pressing his lips against hers, it wasn't much since it was his first along with hers and surely he must be awful at it. However, he felt the dove relax against him and she returned the kiss, but it all came to end once the sound of the door caught their attention.

Kaneki felt his face redden in pure embarrassment, turning away as he tried to avoid making eye contact with whoever interrupted them, but he glanced over to Yuzuki who giggled before reaching over to the book that was set on the table. He watched the dove move towards the door and he finally turned to see that Hinami had her eyes covered until Yuzuki removed her hands before placing the novel into the girl's hands. A faint smile appeared when he listened to Hinami talk about the novel towards the dove who in return giggled to hear how the girl seemed to enjoy the book. She spared a few more words towards the young girl until Hinami quickly closed the door, leaving the two alone once again and Kaneki chuckled nervously, he didn't know what to say since the girl caught them.

Avoiding the dove, he didn't know what to do as he tried to form a proper sentence, but in the end he thought it was best to leave before he embarrassed himself even more, "I...Uh... I'm gonna go."

He stopped in his tracks the moment he heard Yuzuki speak up, "Wait."

Turning around to face her, but he wasn't expecting what happened next nor did he thought that the dove would do that. His eye widen the moment she tugged his work tie, pulling him into her as she kissed him instead, wrapping an arm around him before breaking away. He was left shock, his face heated up again while Yuzuki smiled at him before whispering to him, "Do you truly believe it'll end in a bad note like that?"

Stepping back, the two stood in front of each other, but the boy was a shuttering mess as he tried to explain, "I- I just wasn't e-expecting that and god I'm such a mess," Bringing a hand to cover his face, he felt like an idiot for not properly saying what he wants to say since the dove still kept a calm composer.

"I enjoyed it for our first," Her expression soften, removing his hand from his face, but she furrowed her brows the moment she realized how his skin was burning against her fingers, "Your skin's warmer than usual..."

Tilting her head, she didn't remove her hand from his cheek when she asked, "Are you... Blushing?"

Kaneki felt trapped, not knowing what to do next as he pulled back slightly while running his hands through his hair, "God, I can't... It's just that I-"

"You're too cute," Giggling, she hasn't felt so relieved for a long time, to actually laugh and smile since the whole tragedy of the Fueguchi family and then what happened to her colleague. Cupping his face, she smiled before shaking her head at him, "Don't get all flustered so easily."

Looking back at her, he raised a brow watching how she didn't seem bothered that someone walked in on them, "Aren't you embarrassed that..."

Blinking, she furrowed her brows slightly at the what he was trying to say, "...Why should I?"

Looking away again, he still felt so overwhelmed that he couldn't think straight, "It's just that... I wasn't- I haven't-"

Reminding him that they both share a common ground and yet they both reacted so differently and she chuckled, "Neither have I."

"You're too shy for your own good," She found herself smiling again, caressing his cheek as she whispered, "I wonder... How long you've been flustered? How many times you've blushed regardless with the reasoning behind it."

Chuckling nervously, he scratched the back of his head before smiling sheepish at her before revealing, "T-That's one of the things I'm glad you can't tell."

Pulling away, she furrowed her brows for a moment before stepping back, "...I'm sorry if you've ever blushed before in public then."

"N-No, it's okay... I just- I gotten used to it since-" Quickly reassuring her that there's no harm in it as he grabbed her hand for a moment before letting go again, "Since we started to hang out..."

He explained to her, Kaneki laughed a bit before saying, "But it doesn't last long since you don't tease me or notice, so it goes away."

Tilting her head, she asked, "Not this time because I actually noticed?"

Nodding, he released a deep breath before replying, "Yeah... I'm just a mess right now..."

"It's perfectly fine for you to be," Yuzuki stepped forward again before offering her thoughts, "I... I think it's quite cute."

His mind began to wonder off and soon he began to rumble on about a few things, "I don't want to hear what Hide is going to say about this," Closing his eyes, he could only imagine how the others are going to tease him no stop, "Or worse, Touka will just mock me on how much of an idiot I must look."

Taking in a deep breath, he turned away as he continued, "This is all just different and..."

Placing a hand on his shoulder, Yuzuki managed to gain his attention, "Shh... Stop rumbling, it's been a habit of yours lately," Sighing, she agreed with what he was trying to say, "I don't know much either... But I do know that you should follow your heart and instincts..."

"Okay..." Nodding, he took in another deep breath calming his nerves down before calling her name, "Yuzuki?"

Raising a brow, she waited for him to continue with what he wanted to say, "Hmm?"

"Can I..." He hesitated for a moment before allowing his fingers to skim over hers, lacing them together, but he felt his face heat up again when he whispered, "Is it okay for...?"

Yuzuki tilted her head, furrowing her brows slightly at how the boy was trying to bring his words out, but she took notice of his actions. Her fingers curled against his and she offered a smile before shaking her head at how innocent he was that it only made her giggle. The dove placed her lips against his cheek, feeling the warmth again before whispering, "It's okay to be afraid... But you don't need to ask to hold my hand," She leaned her head against his shoulder, she felt how he stiffen for a moment before his body relaxed again and she whispered again, "I don't understand this... But I know one thing and you don't have to ask to kiss me either."

His eyes glanced over to her, a faint smile appeared across his lips before bringing an arm around the dove. He curled his fingers up, thinking over his words before saying, "I'll... I guess we'll work through it then?"

"Yes," She responded, wrapping an arm around him, hugging him tight since she's yearned for one for so long. Closing her eyes, she found the comfort that she needed after everything that has been going on. Thinking to herself, I guess this is the path then...

He closed his eye, leaning his head against hers as he held her close, and he felt relaxed for once during this period of time. Neither one of them spared another word to each other as they accepted the silence, but the dove continued to think to herself, I'll give this a chance... I'll come back even despite the consent fear...

Releasing a heavy sigh, she curled her fingers again, We'll figure it out

Kaneki pulled back, he glanced over to the clock before looking back to the dove, "My break is over and I don't want to upset Touka if I take longer and surely she must have covered some of my time already."

Understanding, Yuzuki nodded before motioning him to go, "Go ahead, return to your job and we'll talk about this later."

Fixing his tie, he looked over to her before asking, "Later today?"

"I'll try, but since I've gotten work to still handle due to the recent events... It might be difficult..." Yuzuki frowned slightly, taking account the things she needed to do, but she'll try to make it, "How about we talk after your training session today? I'll spare time to actually teach you myself since I've noticed that I've failed to do so."

"I understand if you're busy and I don't want you to get into any trouble, especially how things are..." He sighed, not wanting to bother much as he instead suggested, "If you can make it then we can talk, but if you don't then I understand."

Agreeing to his suggestion, Yuzuki nodded before motioning him to follow, "Okay, but you need to get back downstairs before Touka drags down there while scolding you."

He chuckled, scratching the back of his head but he could already imagine it happening, "Yeah, I don't want that especially since she'll be a bit more harsh than usual."

"I'll walk down with you since I too need to go," The dove waited for him as he closed the door behind them before they head over to the staircase while she informed him, "I have to meet with Yomo and I don't want to leave him waiting. Since he offered to help me deal with a few things."

Confused to hear that Yomo was going to help Yuzuki, he furrowed his brows while thinking to himself, What could she be doing that involves Yomo...?

He stared her for a moment before saying, "Be careful then."

She placed a hand on his arm while reassuring him, "I'll be fine, so don't worry," Offering one more smile before taking her leave so she could leave him to work while she handled some business, "Have a good day then."

Smiling back, he watched her walk past him as he responded back, "You too, Yuzuki."

Kaneki walked over to the counter and he looked over his shoulder to see Touka emerge from the kitchen and she raised a brow at him, "So you actually did it, huh?" Narrowing her eyes slightly before reminding him of what was in store for him, "Do you know what you gotten yourself into, shit head?"

Nodding back, he responded back, "...Yes, I do know and I'll deal with it."

"I'll like to see you try," She shook her head, jabbing the pencil against his arm while whispering to him as she warned him, "But if you mess up then well I guess it's your problem then. Just remember you were warned."

She frowned before reminding him of something that he can't deny, "Especially with that Reaper and any other doves near her because they'll end you before you even know it," Touka sighed under her breath before leaving him alone as she tended to the costumers.

"So I've been told," Muttering back, Kaneki stared at the surface of the counter top as he thought to himself ...I wonder what will happen?

Glancing around he noticed that there weren't too many people within the shop, but his mind began to wonder about what will happen, I've met her father already and she only introduced me as a friend, not even mentioning my name or his...

What will he do? Frowning to himself, Kaneki didn't know what to actually expect from them, What will the others do? Like her brother or the rest of her friends and family...?

Sighing under his breath, he reminded himself, I... I can act human enough to fit in properly, but I can't deny I'm a nervous wreck whenever the thought of my ghoul side showing up...

"Hey, idiot," Touka walked past him while telling him to get to work, "You're in charge of the new customer of there, so get to it."

"I'll get to it right now, Touka," Nodding, he grabbed his notepad and pen before moving around the counter while thinking to himself as he planned to discuss it with Yuzuki.

...I'll talk to her about it

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Yuzuki's Pov

I couldn't sleep just yet since I still need to finish up some reports before heading over to CCG tomorrow morning. Sighing under my breath, I felt Shiro curl around my neck as he nuzzles against my skin trying to gain my attention. Giggling, I set my pen aside so I can pet him and I smiled at the sounds that came from him. Returning to my work as I tried to finish up the paperwork quickly so I can go sleep. Closing the file the moment I gotten everything that I needed to do and I set them aside. Sitting up, I felt my feline company leap off my shoulder as he wondered away and I reached over for my cup of coffee, enjoying the warmth that it provides, but my thoughts wondered over to a few things that I need to deal with.

Sighing, setting my cup aside before collecting everything from my desk before tucking them away into my bag, so I can have them ready for tomorrow morning. I honestly still felt a bit overwhelmed with everything that it going on that I somehow managed to knock over my cup. Frowning to myself the moment I heard the shattering sound, I swear I can't keep any type of cup long enough with me.

Taking in a deep breath, I quickly began to clean up the mess and throw away the ceramic shards, but I chuckled to myself to see that I'm still clumsy as ever. It reminded me on how I broke my first cup when I barely moved in with Arima and I swear he must've been tired of cleaning up after my mess.

Flashback:

It was new, strange, and a whole different surrounding that I felt so lost in. I haven't memorized the place yet, I'll take my time as I tried to create a map within my head and use my broken sight to help me see some things. However, I found myself breaking a cup when I tried to reach for it, but all I did was knock it over the edge.

I remember not moving the moment I heard the shattering sound broke the silence that filled the room and I shifting my attention to my surrounding as I waited to notice Arima appear. It didn't take long for him to show up, but he didn't say anything as he cleaned up the mess that I've created.

Yet my eyes widen the moment I realized that he handed me another cup, setting it in my hands as he simply stated, "Nine feet in front of you will be the water department should be there."

He walked away from me without sparing another word, but I still didn't move from my spot. Furrowing my brows, I honestly didn't expect that from him nor have I experienced any form of kindness even if it comes off cold from him. It's been far too long since I've actually held a cup, wondering around an actually home and have some proper interaction with someone even if it's brief.

Taking in a deep breath, I moved forward while keeping mind the distance I need to travel to just reach my goal, stretching my hand out as I felt the water department and I smiled faintly.

I won't be surprised to know that he was watching me carefully, seeing that I won't do anything that could lead to another mess. Turning around, I held the glass securely within my hands before navigating myself from the kitchen to the living room, but relaying my sense of smell to locate the one who gave me a second chance in life. Pausing in my tracks and I closed my eyes the moment he patted my head before leaving me alone again in the living room as he went to finish up some of his work.

Yawning, I drew my blankets down enough for me to slip underneath the warmth and comfort that the material offered. Closing my eyes, I sighed in relief as the day finally came to an end, but I found myself smiling at the thought of what occurred earlier. None of the less, I made a new decision to just leave my consent worrying aside and just worry about the present, forget the past and leave the future for a later time.

I was happy to hear Hinami talk to me about what she thought about the novel she finished, she was so excited on what new book she'll be getting from Kaneki. Then my mind wondered over to how Touka has at least soften up around me again, enough to help me out today, but I know there were things left unspoken between the two of us and I'll deal with it tomorrow.

Relaxing as the silence washed over me, but I couldn't get over how things just changed between me and him. Something I thought about awhile back, but kept putting it off as I hid behind everything else, running away from the possible pain that I didn't want happening. Yet after what he said, I knew I was wrong and it was time for me to accept what cannot be changed and accept the feelings that developed.

However, I still remembered what he asked me during out training session together and I swear to god he's just pushing his luck, but I still managed to create some type of arrangement that he needed to work towards in order to gain what he's asking of me.

Flashback:

"You're not putting your all," I sighed under my breath as I stood back, waiting for him to get back to his feet, "How do you expect to improve if you don't try?"

Sensing how he made another attempt, but I dodged with ease while bringing my quinque to deflect the next as I stated, "Your attack was off by 0.5 seconds and isn't efficient enough to make any damage to your opponent."

I could hear him trying to catch his breath, he sounded confused, "How...? How do you calculate that?"

"It's called living under the same roof with someone who does that," Pausing, I tilted my head before shaking my head as I realized what I've been doing, "Actually... I haven't noticed that I ended up with his bad habit..."

Standing still, I took in a deep breath as I waited for him to continue his training, but instead he called my name, "Yuzuki?"

"Hmm?" Raising a brow, I stared over at his direction before questioning him and even lecturing him, "Don't tell me you're giving up already? You haven't even made any progress."

My eyes widen the moment I thought of the worse possibility as I walked over to him, "What, are you hurt?"

"No, it's not that," He shook his head, not moving from the ground as he brought up the topic, "I just want to talk about earlier... about us..."

Blinking, I knelt down in front of him while asking, "Okay, what do you want to talk about specifically?"

I couldn't stop myself from smiling at how he stumbled upon his words, trying to ask me a question, but I knew he was nervous, "I...Uhh... What do we call e-each other?"

Chuckling, answering his question straight forward, "You're my boyfriend and I'm your girlfriend so-"

From the tone of his voice, he sounded quite surprised at how I answered with ease, "W-what?"

Raising a brow, I smiled at him before saying, "What other term do you believe suits best?"

He paused for a moment before laughing at his silly question before responding back, "Y-you have a point," But he took another moment to think before speaking up again, "Umm... I actually wanted to talk about something else,"

Standing up as I walked away to provide some distance so we can have another match, but I looked over my shoulder, "Like?"

I wouldn't have thought he'll ever ask such a thing, but he must have gotten his head smacked around for to consider such a thing. My eyes widen for a second when I heard him say, "I... I want to formally meet your father or your brother since they're important to you and I-"

Stopping in my tracks, I didn't move nor did I turn to face him as I cut him off, "Why?"

Turning around, I noticed that he gotten back to his feet while explaining himself, "Well, based on how you talk about them they don't seem like bad people and I think-"

I didn't agree nor did I disagree with him, but instead I brought one of my quinques up as I simply stated, "If you want to meet them then you have to beat me in a fight," I wasn't kidding around, I'm serious about him having to fight through me for him to actually meet anyone from CCG that are my friends and family.

Yet it seems he was caught off guard by my words, "Huh?"

"Beat me in a fight then I'll let you meet them," Repeating myself while stating the only guidelines as I waited for his response, "There's no limits in how you beat me, so win no matter that."

He shook his head at me, trying to think of another way to handle the situation, "B-but I don't want to actually fight you."

"Think of it like this," I knew it was cruel of me to say what I'm about to say, but I needed to clear up my reasoning a bit for to understand, "I'm a Ghoul Investigator and you're a Ghoul, so if you win a fight against me then it proves that you're at least capable of handling a few Investigators."

But I knew he won't be capable of handling my father or brother if he ever happens to fight against them, yet at least I'll know that he'll do fine with other Investigators that aren't high ranked.

Nodding, I leaned against one of my quinques before tilting my head over to him, waiting to see if he'll agree or drop the matter, "So you have to earn the right to meet them and show me that you know what you're getting yourself int.,"

He took a moment, sighing under his breath before speaking up and I blinked at how confident he said, "I agree to your terms."

I was surprise to hear that he was serious about it, but I don't know how to actually feel about it at all. Instead, I offered him a smile before preparing myself as I gave him a head notice, "Don't think it's going to be easy, after all I was trained by my father for majority of my life."

Nodding my head as I also reminded him that he'll be having a hard time trying to beat me, "Also that I fought to survive through harsh conditions-"

He tried to get me off guard, but instead I swiftly moved around his kagune while knocking his legs off from underneath before lowering my quinque down at him while sighing under my breath, "So you got to try harder than that if you really wish to meet my father or my brother."

"I feel like you deliberately did this so I won't win," He frowned slightly, but he still got up to his feet to try again in hopes to beat me.

Chuckling, I know it seems unfair, but it just shows he needs a lot to work to improve himself, "I'm not that cruel, Ken." I gave him enough time for him to recollect him ad I called over to him, "I want to know that you're capable of defending yourself and to put up a fight if things were to go south."

We stood across each other, I heard him call over to me, "Okay... I hope you're not going to hold back then."

I felt myself smile at how foolish he was, but yet I had to give him credit for asking a dangerous request from me as I responded back, "I won't."

Moving back the moment his kagune moved, dodging him with no problem and I heard him reply back to me, "Good."

Opening my eyes, I felt my phone go off as I skimmed my hand over the surface of my bed as I tried to search for it. Yet I didn't expect any calls from anyone at this hour, but it only made me worry a bit. The moment I felt the cool material brush my fingers, I grabbed it before accepting the call.

"Hello?"

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Touka's Pov

I couldn't help myself from frowning since everything is still a mess and knowing those blasted doves are still looking for Hinami. But I know that's not the only thing bothering me lately, that idiot only shows up for a brief moment whenever she feels like it and I still haven't found anything to actually say to her. If anything, she must be angry with me for what I did, I killed one of her little teammates while hurting a few more, and then having her show up to save me while confronting her own people. I only caused her so much trouble that I can't find any words to describe it all.

Sighing, I relaxed for a moment as I looked down at Hinami to see that she was sleeping fine despite how late it was for her to finally catch some sleep. Glancing over to the new book that moron left, it only meant that she was now reading another large novel and basically spending most her time doing that. But I honestly don't blame her because Yuzuki was right that Hinami deserve the chance to learn about the world, yet I hate how she deprived herself from everything else.

My eyes soften, brushing my fingers over her face as I pushed aside the stay hairs and all I can hope for was to protect Hinami. I needed to at least try to everything for her and I'm hoping that I won't fail again like I did before with Ayato. I couldn't keep him with me, couldn't protect him and none of less I couldn't stop him from leaving. But I have a chance of doing something for Hinami and not letting it happen again.

Meaning, I have to get rid of those two doves that are still alive, once they're gone then Hinami is safe again because no one else would know her face to pick her out from everyone. However, I need to act in a way that I don't draw enough attention or get Yuzuki involved. I'll try a different approach that doesn't require me to kill them so I can save the trouble. The only thing that comes to mind is actually going towards the enemy and hit the source instead of messing with their damn puppets.

Carefully removing moving away from Hinami, quietly leaving the room as I closed the door behind me before heading over to my room. But if I were to do that then I'm going to relay on that moron even if he won't be much use, but he'll still be able to back me up if things go a bit south. I just need to throw their tracks off from Hinami and move the doves away from the ward which is the least violent route to take meaning that Hinami will be safe, I won't get into another fight that could expose my identity, and maybe it'll at least make up for my past actions. But things don't go my way then I won't hesitate to kill them if it's only option left and surely I'll pay for actions later, but I need to make sure Hinami is safe.

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A/N: Thank you for those who view and followed/favorited, I really appreciate it! I know it's been a while since I last updated. I got lucky to have time to finish this Chap, but with my first year in college and changing my routine around to where I don't have a lot of time to work on writing the fics like before I'll use whatever free time I have to work on this. Yet I plan to at least have one or two chapters uploaded per month, so I hope to have Chap 14 up some point next month. So bear with me if the updates become a longer wait. However, I'll make sure that when I do update, it'll be enough to make up for my absents. Do tell me if you wish for shorter chaps instead or if I should continue with how they are, I'll like to hear your opinion.

Next Chap: Things take worse turn once they're confronted by the doves and the end result might be a new beginning for a few and will washed away the hard times from everyone in Anteiku as they returned to their normal routine, but yet the dove still struggles with the aftermath within CCG. Yet one day will take her and everyone away from their struggles as they bond together, taking a day to live life without any fear. But some new issues will rise up as things get far more complicated.

Until then, hope you have a good day wherever you are :)