Behind Closed Doors

I don't own any of the cast except Casey Toretto and Jessica O'Conner

Well here we go…..

Chapter 5: Release

It hadn't taken long for Letty to adjust to being pregnant and she felt guilty for thinking that Dom would have ran or otherwise. He'd been nothing but supportive. She really should have known better considering he'd not only chased her through London, chased a tank down a highway in Spain and quite literally thrown himself from his car across a wide gap just to save her after she'd shot him of all things. Yea, guilt didn't quite cover how she felt about herself. The only thing she was finding hard to get to grips with was her shifting centre of gravity. For being just over 6 months, Mia told her she was tiny, and neat. Letty however felt like she was the size of a rather large whale and she'd lost all sight of her own feet.

Dom in particular was finding that part highly amusing. Especially when she'd called Mia over to paint her toenails. Mia had done it willing but glared at her brother for not offering to help

"You helped with this Dom, you're supposed to be the first one on the floor offering"

Letty had laughed out loud at that. Dom could spray paint cars but toenails? Even Letty wasn't that brave to let him.

So Mia had sat and painted her toenails and Dom had painted the nursery, a cream colour as Letty refused to find out what they were expecting telling Dom it was either boy or girl they didn't have to worry about it being a giraffe or an elephant.

One night as she sat on the stairs of 1327, looking up at the stars and feeling her baby kick, Letty felt the hot prickling behind her eyes that she couldn't quite comprehend. Before she knew it tears were streaming down her face and as fast as wiped her face, more took their place. Dom must have heard as he was behind her in seconds wrapping his arms around her gently rocking her as she cried it out, but the tears just didn't stop.

"Baby, what's wrong?"

"Quicksand Dom…. I feel like I'm trawling through quicksand. I feel guilty over everything and I don't know how to make that go away" she sobbed

"We've been over this Let you don't even have anything to feel guilty about"

Still Letty cried and it was like a release. She wept for the time she'd lost, she wept for the people that hadn't gotten hurt, She wept for the part of herself that would never belong to Dom. That was hard to let go of. She hadn't remembered him and she couldn't take that hurt away from him. She knew that the shot she fired into his shoulder hadn't hurt as much as it being her who'd done it. And so she wept, for all of it. And it was cathartic.

She wiped her eyes and took a deep breath, and Dom simply kept his arms around her.

"I'm ok" she said some minutes later

"Really?"

Dom raised an eyebrow.

"Yeah. I think that needed to come out."

"You've been carrying it around for nearly a year Let, I'll be honest, To be honest I'm surprised it took this long"

"Knowing everything I did, said, believed when I was in Shaw's crew…..that part I wish I didn't remember Dom."

"Let you were a different person then and you're a different person now but inside you're you. Still that 16 year old kid that couldn't and wouldn't be told. Now you're just older and wiser. Can't carry this around for ever. At some point you gotta let go and just let it be what it is. The past.

"As long as I've got you, and our baby I think I'm gonna make it through"

"No you ARE gonna make it through. You have another shot Letty, Release the past and concentrate on our future"

"Kiss me Dominic Toretto"

And so under the stars, and wrapped in each other, Letty let it go and allowed herself to be free.