Belle
I felt sort of bad when I walked out of my father's room. When I told him that I didn't forgive him for sleeping with Cora, he looked as if he was on the verge of tears. I didn't let it break my heart though. I was going to stand strong in my convictions. I knew he wanted me, but he wanted his power, and his integrity much more. Which I could completely understand, but he didn't have to lie to me about finding a way for us to be together when he wasn't.
It had been 8 months since I'd last been with Rumple. And I had to give it to him, He was actually trying to be a father to me again. I could tell it was sort of hard for him at first. We didn't make much eye contact, Regina would drop me off at school instead of him, and he stopped eating dinner with us as a family.
I probably always will still love him. He was my father before we became so much more. But I let it go. I didn't want to hurt Will. I didn't want to hurt myself. Rumple lied to me once, he would probably do it again. I just wished he understood that I wanted to be chosen, not kept on the sideline by lies. But I was happy with Will. He made me smile, he was thoughtful, and most importantly he wasn't married to my mother. I fell in love with him. Will and I were perfect for one another, even my friends saw it. When we went out on a date he was always a gentleman, not to mention a great kisser. Will Scarlet was the best thing that could ever happen to me. Unlike my father, I believe that Will would never lie to me. He was all mine and I was all his. In those 8 months that had gone by since I last been with Rumple, I was ready to take me and Will's relationship to the next level. Funny thing is, my boyfriend was a virgin.
"Sorry, I'm so sorry." Will said looking down at me with a frightened look while holding tightly to my legs nervously. His hot semen coated my inner thighs. We were having sex on top of a table in my library and my poor boyfriend just got a little too excited.
"Will its okay." I said sitting up on the table to try to calm Will.
"I came too early."
"Yeah, but its fine. The first time is always the hardest." I assured him, cupping his face in my hands in order to kiss him.
"I didn't know that was going to happen. Belle, you just felt so good."
I wished I could say the same. I've never had sex that only lasted 5 minutes. My father would have taken his time with me and sometimes, if I was lucky, we would keep going well into the early morning. Will was definitely a boy, unsure about everything concerning my body, he didn't know what to do and I wasn't sure how to tell him. I suppose I couldn't blame him after all I was used to a man's touch. My father knew my body like he created it, I suppose he did now that I think about it. But no, I wouldn't go running back to him just because of sex, or for any other reason. Will may not have the experience, but he had my heart and that was way more important than sex.
Will helped me up from the table and we got dressed. I pulled out my phone from my book bag and I saw I had a bunch of missed calls from my mother and Regina. I also had 5 text messages as well. I chose to check them first.
Come home dad needs to talk to you.
Where are you?
Something bad happened.
Don't call Cora if she calls you.
Belle come home now.
"Will we have to go, something's wrong."
"Okay I'll walk you home."
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On the way home I didn't speak much, I was worried. Why didn't Regina want me to talk to Cora? What was so important that I had to rush back home hours before my curfew. When we made it to my home, Will offered to come inside with me for support and I agreed.
"Hello!" I shouted as we were walking into my house.
"We're in here." Regina said from the kitchen.
"What's going on?" I ask while walking into the kitchen. Only to see Rumple and Regina sitting at the table, Regina was wearing a perturbed expression, but Rumple's was more sorrowful. "Where's mom?"
"Staying far the fuck away from me, that's for sure." Regina muttered under her breath just as Will walked in the kitchen behind me. "Who's this?" Regina asked gesturing to my boyfriend.
"Daddy, Regina, this is Will Scarlet. Will this is my dad and my sister."
"It's nice to finally meet you both. I don't want you to worry Mr. Gold, I'm taking really good care of Belle." Will said graciously. He was such a nice guy.
Rumple's face cringed at the choice of words Will used. "What the fuck do you mean when by you're taking care of my daughter?"
"Dad!" Regina and I exclaim simultaneously.
"He can't be here Belle."
"He's here for my support."
"That's why you have me and Regina. This is a private matter."
"I don't care, he's my boyfriend, and I want him here for me."
"Mr. Gold I'm just here in case Belle needs someone to talk to." Will tried to explain.
"She can talk to me then, she doesn't need you." Rumple retorted.
"I do need him." I snapped back.
"Dad calm down. He can be here for Belle, Geez you're so fucking protective of her." Regina insisted. Rumple only shook his head and let out a frustrated sigh.
"So what's going on?" I asked my sister.
"Our mother's a fucking whore-"
"Regina-" My father blurted out cutting her off.
"What daddy it's true." She said to Rumple before finishing explaining. "She's been fucking cheating on our dad for their whole marriage. And here's the kicker. We're not even his kids."
"What!" I exclaimed. I felt like the wind was knocked out of me. Will took a hold of my hand and I squeezed his hand in return. I was beginning to feel lightheaded at the disturbing news, it felt like my whole being shifted inside of me. Like everything was completely turned upside down. I'm not related to Rumple? How is that possible? I've known this man to be my father my entire life. Now I'm just finding out he was never related to me?
"Daddy I don't understand." I inquired.
"Your mother lied to me for our whole marriage. She was only with me to gain status."
"Why would she do that?"
"Because she's a fucking whore." Regina interjected.
"Dad are you okay?" I asked. I saw how hurt he was. I knew it wasn't at the fact Cora was cheating but rather the feeling of betrayal. She lied to him my entire life, Hell she lied to me too. Now there's a man out there somewhere who is actually my father and I have no clue as to who he is.
He only sighed and shook his head regretfully. "Of course, Belle I'm happy she's gone. I'm going to set up a meeting with Cora. I want all of the details from her, no matter how painful they are. I've already spoken to Zelena, she's making a trip to Maine in the morning."
It was all too much for me. The man who used to read to me, tucked me in at night, and bought me everything I asked for, wasn't my father. It didn't make sense, but I always had a feeling that something wasn't right. I was 7 years younger than Regina. I had blue eyes unlike my parents who both shared brown eyes. A lot of times I felt out of place in my family, I looked nothing like my father. Although, this could explain the reason I was so attracted to my father, it was because we weren't even related. And now that I think about it I do recall something very strange my mother asked me when I was 8 years old.
One early Saturday morning I was in the kitchen cooking breakfast for my father. I didn't sleep well that night. The words from the argument they had last night at dinner haunted me. I hated when my parents argued and if they couldn't work it out, I would for them.
"What are you doing Belle?" My mother asked.
She was just getting home from work and I was in the kitchen cooking toast and oatmeal for my father. But instead of saying it was from me, I was going to tell him it was from my mother in hopes they would make up and love each other again.
"Fixin' daddy breakfast." I told her, avoiding my true intentions.
"You love your father huh?" I nodded. She sat down at the table and I heard her exhale wearily. "Belle. What if- what if Rumple wasn't your father?"
"I'll be sad."
"But you could have a different daddy, one who loves you just as much, maybe even more. Would you like that?"
"I don't know."
"I'm sorry Belle I know you're too young to understand."
"You don't like daddy anymore?" I asked to get some more clarity. "I heard you last night, you said you never loved him."
"Just clean the kitchen when you're done Belle." She said ignoring my question.
After the three of us finished our discussion, Rumple went to his room and Regina went upstairs. Will and I went to the media room and talked alone, He made me feel better. He explained to me that these things happened, but it was going to be okay. Will's parents got divorced when he was very young, he said it was hard on him at first and he even blamed himself, but he came to realize that a child's actions don't dictate the decisions of adults. It was all on them. After that we talked and made- out a little, it was getting late so I walked Will out.
"I don't think your dad likes me."
"He just doesn't know you, give him time."
"Your such a daddy's girl Belle."
"No I'm not, I'm your girl."
"Damn right you are, but I haven't forgotten about you calling me daddy that time we were having phone sex, I kind of liked it." He said before giving me one last kiss. "See you tomorrow."
Will may have enjoyed my slip up during our phone sex, but that word was special to me. And I couldn't bring myself to use that word with him. Besides I wanted a change, I was with Will because he was nothing like Rumple and using that word with him would only make me think of my father.
"Oh before you go." A voice said from behind me. Rumple was standing behind me giving Will an intimidating look. "I feel I need to explain something to this young man."
"Dad please be nice."
"No I can't do that Belle." He said before addressing Will with a menacing look in his eyes. "Listen well teenager. You know who I am, You know I own this town, you are a citizen in this town, therefore I own you." He nudges me out the way and steps in closer to Will's face. "I know who you are. You're a relative to Robin Locksley, the boy who got my middle daughter pregnant. And if you think you're getting Belle pregnant you're gravely mistaken. If you so much as lay a finger on my daughter in any kind of way that you know I'll disapprove of, I swear to whatever higher power that is keeping me from knocking the shit out of you, that you will be no more."
Surprisingly, Will stood his ground, he didn't run away in fear of my father's threat. "Daddy leave him alone." I said pulling Rumple back inside the house. "Sorry Will."
"Thank you for the lovely evening Belle." Will said before Rumple slammed the door in his face.
"Seriously?"
"I need to speak with you in my room."
I sighed and threw my hands up in annoyance before walking pass the stairs with him following closely behind until we reached his room. Once there I set down on his bed as he closed the bedroom door behind us. His anger seemed to have subsided as he took a seat next to me on his bed.
"Belle I just wanted to check if you were okay."
"I am, but you didn't have to treat Will like that." He exhaled and shakes his head evasively. I could tell that it wasn't just Will Scarlet he wanted to talk about. "I'm sorry Cora hurt you."
"I deserved it, for how I treated you. I lied to you just to keep you with me, when I should have been talking through my fears with you." He takes me by the hand stroking it lovingly. "I was just afraid of losing everything. And now I pretty much have." Rumple said.
"You didn't Rumple, I'm still here."
"Yes, but not with me."
"Rumple a part of me will always love you as a father, but I can't be with you, I don't love you in that way anymore."
"You have before. I promise things will be different this time."
"There won't be a this time."
"Belle give me another chance, let me show you I can be a better man."
He leans into me closing the distance between us and kisses me innocently on my forehead. It felt nice, it felt like we've gone back to that innocent place we were before all this started.
"Rumple what are you doing?"
"Kissing my daughter." He said before kissing my nose too. Next Rumple places one on my cheek, then a soft one on my chin just below my lip. I close my eyes and bit my bottom lip, his innocent touch sent chills rushing to my core and I felt myself become increasingly aroused. Rumple then kisses my lips, he tasted just as I remembered. His tongue begs for access into my mouth to deepen our kiss, but I couldn't let myself lose control this time. After all I was in love with Will.
"Rumple stop." I muttered in my shock, wincing back and giving a questionable but disapproving look. "I don't want to be with you."
"B-but you're my daughter, you're supposed to be with me." He pleaded.
"No Daddy I'm not. You're just upset about what Cora did."
"I told you I'm happy she's gone. Now I can be with you fully."
"Rumple why won't you listen to me! I don't want you."
"Why not?! Because you're with that stupid teenager Will? "
"First off he's not stupid, but yes he's my boyfriend."
"Have you let him touch you?"
"Rumple calm down."
"Belle answer me!" He roared.
I nodded passively.
"You don't care about me. Yes I broke your trust but I've been there on bent knee ever since trying to make it up to you."
"I never asked you to make it up to me. I didn't ask for flowers or stuffed bears. I asked to be left alone. You once called our relationship chaos. Well your right, it is."
"I don't want you with him. I'm in love with you, how am I supposed to be okay with this? Give me another chance Belle."
"No it's too late." I sighed. "I love him." I finally admitted to him.
"You love him?"
"Yes daddy I do."
"You're a child Belle, you don't know what you want."
"You didn't say that when I wanted you. Look daddy, I care about you, but I wanna be with Will. He makes me happy, can't you at least understand that?"
Rumple sighs and puts his head down in one of his hands. "Sweetheart I love you more than anything. I know I hurt you, I feel bad about it every day. I lie awake at night thinking of how I let everything slip through my fingers so easily. If you want to be with this boy, I'm not going to stop you. I can't promise I'll ever like it or even be okay with it. But I'll allow you to date him. But first I need to lay down some ground rules." I nodded. "Rule number One, no more sex, just because you're on birth control doesn't mean you can't still get some kind of STD. Number two, when you're out with him your curfew is reduced to 8 PM."
"What?! Dad I'm 16, that's a 3 hour difference!"
"Number three, any time you're out of this house, you will always answer your phone when I call you. Do you agree to these terms?"
"Daddy you don't have to talk like a lawyer to me."
"You want to date boys, then you'll have to follow my rules. I'm still your father."
I thought to myself for a moment. His rules surprised me. Allowing me to date was a big step for him and I appreciated the trust he gave me."Fine."
I got up from his bed to leave his room for mine just before I made it to the door, I heard him call my name. "Before you go." Rumple walks up to me and looks me over with a sexual look. "Are you sure there isn't anything else daddy can do to peak your interest in, perhaps we can start with a massage then see where it takes us from there?"
I wrinkled my nose at his suggestion and politely turn him down before leaving his room.
xox0xox
After I left my father's room I went to text my friends about what happened with my family. They suggested a girl's night, filled with laughter and girl talk, would cheer me up. We hadn't had one in a while since I've been with Will. I agree to it, my father did as well after making a reassuring call to Ariel's parents. I packed an overnight bag and Regina drove me to Ariel's house. Mulan and Ruby were already there and we started the night off with a movie and popcorn.
"So girls I have a surprise for us." Ariel pulls out a bottle of vodka from under her bed. "Ta-dah."
"Oh hell yeah! Pop that shit open." Ruby shouted. Ariel had 4 shot glasses and filled each one to the rim before handing out the shots to the rest of us.
"A toast to Belle, and her new life with a single parent." Ariel said raising her glass in the air for a toast.
We all took a shot of the vodka together, I never drank before, it burned while going down my throat causing me to gag and cough, almost choking. The other girls did the same, all except Ruby.
"Lightweights." Ruby said before pouring herself another shot and downing it quickly. "I have an idea, how about we play a drinking game."
"Yeah I wanna get plastered." Mulan agrees.
"What kind of game?" I asked.
"Okay so we'll take turns saying something we've never done, but if you have done it you have to take a drink." Ruby explains.
"Oooo that does sounds fun!" Ariel chimed in.
"Okay who wants to go first?" Ruby asked.
"Since its Belle's night, she should." Mulan pointed out. "Go ahead Belle."
I thought to myself for a moment. "Hmmm. Okay I got one. I've never cheated on a test."
All three of the girls took a shot.
"Belle you're not playing it right, it has to be more intimate." Ruby explains. "Let me show you. I've never had sex outside."
Mulan didn't take her shot, but Ariel did. "What?! Me and Eric had sex on the beach a few times, no big deal."
We all shared a laugh.
"OK Ariel, your turn." Ruby said.
"I never kissed a girl before." Ruby and Mulan both downed their shot of vodka. "Oh my God, have you two been kissing behind me and Belle's back?"
"Hey, questions like that are not part of the game." Ruby quips before addressing me. "Belle it's your turn again."
I thought to myself for a moment. I wanted to know too. I always did catch them staring at each other a lot. "I've never kissed Mulan." I admitted with a deviant smile.
"Oh fuck you Belle." Ruby said before tossing back her shot making me and Ariel shrill in delight before laughing.
"My turn." Mulan said before Ruby whispers something in her ear. Mulan's expression turns to a mischievous smile. "I've never had sex with a boy." Me, Ruby, and Ariel all took our shot.
"I knew you weren't a virgin Belle." Ruby said.
"Well I never said I was."
"But you act like one." Mulan added.
"Was it with Will Scarlet?" Ruby asked with a coy smile. "It couldn't have been with Gaston."
"Hell no, I would never have sex with Gaston." I shuddered at even the thought of it." And today was the first time me and Will tried it, nothing really happen though, I wouldn't even count it as sex." I said, but his inexperience didn't matter to me. I loved Will Scarlet all the same, and I'm sure he would get better at it with time and practice.
"So how old were you when you first had actual sex then?" Ariel asked.
"I thought questions like that weren't part of the game." I mentioned complacently.
"Okay fine it's my turn then." Ruby said. "I never had sex before I was in high school."
If the vodka wasn't going to my head I probably would have lied, but I downed my shot anyway, and miraculously I was the only one.
"Ooooo." All three girls said before giggling.
"Damn Belle you were starting off young." Ariel said.
"I was in the 8th grade, it's not that young."
"13? Uh yeah Belle, that's pretty young." Mulan added.
"Chill guys, I think its cool Belle is more experienced than the rest of us. It's a surprise you didn't end up pregnant like those other two girls at your old school." Ruby threw in. She assumed it was someone at my old school, Storybrooke Prep. Seems nobody would have guessed my first time was with my father.
The night continued on like that until our speech was slurring, then it was time for dancing and we made music videos to our favorite songs. We were all completely wasted when we finally called it a night, but not before the alcohol in our system began to reveal some disturbing facts about us.
"Guys I think I'm a lesbian." Mulan said slurring her words.
"No shit Mulan." Ruby snickered.
"You guys don't mind?"
"No that's why we like you, it makes you unique." I told her.
"Well I –also have to- confess something." Ariel said through her alcohol endued hiccups. "You guys are- my best friends. I- just love you all so much." She said beginning to cry which only made me, Mulan and Ruby laugh uncontrollably.
"Go home Ariel, your drunk." Ruby said jokingly.
Ariel looked around her room unaware. "But I am home."
We all laughed again.
"Well my confession is a bit more unusual." Ruby said as her words ran into one another. "I sort of have a crush on – on an older man, Doctor Whale."
"That's not unusual." My words were slurring just as much as the rest of my friends.
"Tell that to him then. I actually told him that I think he's cute."
"What did he say?" Mulan asked.
"He told me to try again when I'm a few years older."
"Well he's not turning you down, he probably just thinks your too young to actually know what you want." I explained to Ruby.
"How do you know that?" She asked.
"I don't know, I just do. Ruby you need to show him that you're serious. He's not gonna make the first move because you're 16. So you need to show Doctor Whale that you're ready to take the next step."
"You're probably right Belle, I'll give it a shot."
The bottle was empty and it was well past 4 in the morning when we finally passed out. The girls night did take my mind off my mother and what had happened to my family. And I'm glad it did, Because I never wanted to see her again. It also made me realize all the support I had. My boyfriend, my friends, Regina, even Rumple all helped me through this rough patch in my life. But who stood out the most in my mind was Will, I love him so much, he stayed with me for support, offered advice and condolences, and even stood up to my father. He was truly amazing.