A/N—Reminder that I don't own these characters and that all credit goes to the creators of "Big Time Rush."

I'm so happy you guys liked the way it ended up between James and Logan. That was a tough scene to write because I really love their relationship so much and it hurt to break them up. But we all know they're not happy in the way they need to be, so...now it's on to a new chapter for each of them.

Thanks so much for the reviews! And for reading. :D

"Where you going?"

James looked back on his way out to the patio. Logan was comfortable on the sofa with piles of homework spread out before him. "Would you believe I'm going to call Kendall?"

Logan smiled. "I didn't even know you had his number."

"Lucy gave him mine today and he texted me. Apparently he's been worried about me."

The smile turned into a grin. "Sounds like Kendall. Are you sure you don't want to go there?"

James blushed. "Honestly, it might be worth it for the sex alone. But...no. Rush is what I want. I'm just hoping that in person our attraction is as strong as it is online."

Logan nodded. "Well, if that doesn't work out, there's still Kendall, I guess. He's looking for...oh. Oh my god, how did I...?"

"What?"

"I'm so stupid. He talked about you at the movie and I didn't even realize it was you he was talking about."

James leaned against the open door frame. "What did he say?"

"Something about how he'd experienced that whole...craving thing. He said he'd met someone who made him feel it but that he couldn't go after the guy because the guy was in love with someone else. And he was worried that he'll never find it again."

"He said that?"

"Yeah. Oh, James. Now I feel horrible."

"Why?"

"Because you're going for someone else and he's so desperate to be with you. Just...be nice to him. Please."

"I'm going to," James promised. "He's been really great while I went through all of this. I uh...when I took off yesterday. I went to see him."

"That's where you went?"

"Yeah. I knew he'd be having breakfast with Jennifer and Katie and I ended up there because...I don't know why. I just knew it was where I wanted to be."

Logan set down his red marker and stared earnestly across the room at James. "Are you sure he's not the one for you?"

When James remembered his happy place and what it felt like to be there with Rush, he nodded. "I know what I need."

"Okay. Tell Kendall to call me if he needs me."

"Logan, I'm not going to be a dick."

"I know, but you're going to tell him we broke up, right? And that you're interested in someone else?"

James looked down.

"Exactly. So just...be gentle."

"I will," James said quietly. "I don't want to hurt him."

"He'll understand."

He would. Kendall was that kind of guy, extremely understanding and wanting those he cared about to be happy. James wasn't worried about any of that.

What worried him was the idea of getting closer to Kendall even in the guise of friendship and not being able to control his hormones.

Then again, Rush would satisfy him. Of that, James had no doubt.

Kendall had spent the entire afternoon and evening in an agony of wonder. Lucy had filled him in on everything, so he knew James and Logan were at a crossroads.

They'd been there before, though. A few times. And every single time James ran back to Logan.

This time would most likely be no different. Unless Carlos had made that huge of an impression on Logan, but Logan wasn't stupid. Anyone who would willingly walk away from James had to be the world's biggest idiot.

Of course he'd walked away, so what did that say about him?

He couldn't stand this. He texted Lucy. Again.

"Still nothing?"

"Kendall I will let you know the second I hear from him! You have to chill out."

"I'm sorry. I'm going crazy."

"Why not call?"

"Because I promised I wouldn't pressure him."

"So call Logan."

"They're probably fucking each other."

"I'm not going to answer you anymore. I promise that if I hear from either of them, I'll let you know. You have to give them time to work through this. Go for a walk or something."

That wasn't a bad idea. Times like this, Kendall really missed having a rink he could visit and just whack the hell out of pucks. Maybe the janitor would let him in. It wasn't too late, was it?

Fuck it. I can't sit here and do nothing. He had his phone in hand to call for a car when it rang. The name on the display sent his heart into overdrive.

James Diamond

"Oh god. Oh my god oh my god." Now that it was happening, Kendall was afraid to answer. What if James said he and Logan had gotten engaged? What if they'd run off and eloped and that's why they hadn't contacted anybody since school?

Stop it. Logan wouldn't do something crazy like that. Sit down and talk to the man. Be his friend.

Kendall fell into a chair at the kitchen table—the same one, in fact, that he used when he was talking to King sometimes.

Please God don't take King from me. James never has to know it's me, just don't take King from me.

"Hello?"

"Hey."

That smartass voice was softer and gentler than he'd ever heard it. Kendall wanted to hold him. "You okay?"

"I'm..." James hesitated, then admitted, "I don't know how to answer that."

"Where are you?"

"Home. Out back."

"And Logan?"

"He's inside. Grading homework. I just wanted to let you know I'm okay. Lucy told me you're worried about me."

He was going to kill her. "I wouldn't say worried. More like...concerned."

"Sure, just keep shoveling that bullshit my way. Maybe one day I'll believe it."

"Well, you were fucking crying all over me at lunch! Forgive me for caring about a friend." When James said nothing, Kendall realized his mistake. "Sorry. I guess we're not exactly friends. But I'd like to be."

"You've made that clear."

"And you've made it clear that's not an option."

"It's just...if we're friends, I need to know I can trust you."

"You can trust me with anything."

"Even to keep your hands off me?"

Kendall closed his eyes, his heart squeezing. James had run back to Logan. "I've managed it for three months, haven't I?"

"Barely. You said yourself you miss me. And Lucy told me you have...feelings for me."

"I told you that myself. But I can respect that you're in love with Logan."

"Kendall...it's not about Logan."

"No?"

"No. We...today was crazy. We talked about things and...we decided to just be friends."

Hope, which had lain dormant and shriveled in a corner of Kendall's heart, began to bloom. "You broke up?"

"Yeah. He's...well, did he tell you anything about...shit, I don't want to say if he hasn't."

"Um. He called me when you guys had a fight yesterday and mentioned..."

"Mentioned what?"

"Well, I don't want to say anything to you if he hasn't."

"Hang on."

Kendall heard muffled noises, as if James had his hand over the tiny mic, but he was able to pick up the word he was hoping to hear. Carlos.

"Okay, sorry, I just had to make sure you knew about the Carlos thing before I spilled."

"So that's why you two broke up? Because he's having some sort of feelings for Carlos?"

"Yeah. And it's not just a few random feelings, it's that...well. That desperate thing. You know what it's like."

It was the restaurant bathroom all over again. "Oh, fuck. Don't make me think about that because I'm dying for it." No need to be shy about that now, right? James was a free agent. He could do what he wanted.

"Oh god, that's what I'm talking about. That's what you have to keep under control."

Okay. So James was still off limits. Well, it was still better than him running back to Logan. And the obvious lust in James' voice was a welcome sound. "I understand. I won't pressure you at all. I'm happy to just be your friend, if that's all you're willing to offer."

"Kendall..."

Every time James started a sentence like that, Kendall's heart skipped a beat; it could go either way.

"It isn't that I'm not attracted to you."

"I'm aware."

"And it isn't anything you've done wrong."

"I did attack you in a bathroom."

"Please, I wanted that as badly as you did."

Kendall grinned. "It's nice to hear you finally admit it."

"Then I'll also admit that the flirting drives me insane and makes me want to drop my pants and bend over the nearest flat surface."

"Oh god," Kendall whined, his hand drifting to the bulge that was silhouetted against his boxers. "You can't tease me like that and then tell me to keep it under control."

"I know. I'm sorry. I was just letting you know that it's nothing against you and that if things were different, maybe..."

"Don't finish that sentence. Just shoot me down right now so I can close the door on that part of me that wants to own you."

"Kendall, stop." It was a desperate plea, voice hushed as if James was fighting with everything in him to resist. "I'm sorry. It's not gonna happen."

"Fine, but tell me why."

"Because there's someone else who deserves that chance first. He's put time and effort into me and he cares about me and he loves me and...I love him, too. I'm sorry."

The hope in Kendall's heart did more than bloom—it flourished. "Who?"

"Doesn't matter. Let's just say that Logan isn't the only one who's been fighting feelings for someone else."

Kendall swallowed. "Go for it."

"Really? You're telling me that even though you want me?"

"Absolutely. Take that leap and keep running."

"I'm kind of scared, though. What if he's all talk? I've never actually met him in person, what if he isn't what he says he is or doesn't really want to be with me? Or has a thousand other guys he talks to?"

There was so much Kendall wanted to tell James, but he knew this wasn't the time. James was already overwhelmed with everything. Instead he asked James a question of his own. "What if he doesn't?"

"What?"

"What if he doesn't have a thousand other guys? What if he is what he says he is and really wants to be with you? What if he's everything you've ever dreamed of and you don't take this chance?"

"I'll hate myself forever."

"Exactly. Go for it, James. Everything you've ever wanted could be yours right now." He could hear James' shallow breathing over the line. It reminded him of the night they'd listened to each other over the phone, both sharing their passion without restraint. He needed that in person. It took every ounce of willpower to not add on a begging "Please."

"Okay."

Could it really be that simple? "Okay?"

"Okay. I'll do it. I'll take that leap. But I swear to God if you're wrong about him, I'll torture you for the rest of your life."

Both options sounded like Heaven to Kendall. He couldn't stop grinning. "I'll take it."

"Have I ever told you that your voice sounds like sex on the phone?"

A laugh of pure delight erupted. "Remind me to call you every night."

"It makes me want to yank it until I explode. Come everywhere."

A desperate sound was Kendall's response.

"That was just a taste, Kendall."

"Of what?"

"Of the torture I'm gonna bring if you're wrong about this."

"Fuck," Kendall muttered, squirming because he was now throbbing. "Go talk to him," he ordered hoarsely.

"I'm gonna wait until Logan's in bed."

That sobered Kendall up a tad. "So...what happens to you guys? Are you still gonna live together?"

"Yeah. We talked it over during dinner. It's gonna be like it was before, which is basically what it is now. Only no sex and no kissing. He doesn't know if it's gonna work out with Carlos, and I don't know if it'll work out with my guy, so...for now, this is perfect. And you know him, he isn't the type to take things fast anyway, so who knows how long it'll be before they're serious. Then again, he did let Carlos give him a handjob in the auto shop today, so..."

"He what?!"

"Oh, I thought he might've told you about that. Make sure to tease him for it. Repeatedly."

"Count on it," Kendall laughed. "Is it weird that I'm proud of him?"

"Not at all," James chuckled. "I'm gonna go now. Thanks for being a good friend to me."

"I'll always be that. No matter what."

"Hey, uh...it doesn't have to be just one-sided. I know I'm not the smartest guy or the nicest, but if you ever need to talk to someone and Logan isn't around, I'm here."

Kendall's heart warmed. "I'll remember that. Bye, hot stuff."

"What did you just call me?"

"You heard me. See you tomorrow."

Kendall clicked off the call with a satisfied grin. Let James ponder over that for awhile. There had only been one other person to call him that. Would James put two and two together or would Kendall have to spell it out for him?

His phone buzzed, Kendall looking down to see a reply in the chat program. He hadn't opened it since the night before, when he'd sent that reckless proposal to James and then heard nothing back. He hadn't expected to, though. Lucy's comments from earlier were enough to tell Kendall that the words had affected James deeply.

Now there was only one word, and it was the answer to all of Kendall's prayers.

Kingofdiamonds: Yes.

Rusherone: Don't say things like that if you don't mean it.

Kingofdiamonds: Who says I don't?

Rusherone: Oh, there you are. You can't send a message like that and then disappear for an hour!

Kingofdiamonds: Sorry. Had to wait until I was alone.

Rusherone: And you are now?

Kingofdiamonds: Sort of. He's gone to bed, needs his full eight hours of sleep or he's cranky. Sometimes he's like an old man. I find it adorable.

Rusherone: It is. So you're speaking to me?

Kingofdiamonds: I want to meet you. For real.

Rusherone: Name the time and place.

Kingofdiamonds: Really? Just like that?

Rusherone: Hell yeah. Time and place.

Kingofdiamonds: We broke up today. You were right, I was lying to myself. I feel like maybe it would be good for me to take some time to myself, but then I don't want to take a chance of you moving on.

Rusherone: I'll wait. As long as you need me to, I'll wait.

Kingofdiamonds: That's not fair to you.

Rusherone: You're worth it.

Kingofdiamonds: How can you say that? You don't even know me.

Rusherone: I know you.

Kingofdiamonds: So that whole...all that shit you said last night. Did you mean any of it?

Rusherone: I meant all of it.

Kingofdiamonds: Even the last part?

Rusherone: ALL of it. I'm not going to pressure you, though. I mean it, I'll wait until you're ready.

Kingofdiamonds: For what, exactly?

Rusherone: For whatever you can give me. All I ask is that when you take that step with me, you take it. No casual dating, no weighing other options. You want me? You get all of me. But I expect the same from you.

Kingofdiamonds: I love the way you talk to me. It gets me hot.

Rusherone: We've known that almost from day one.

Kingofdiamonds: Keep talking.

Rusherone: I'd rather do it in person.

Kingofdiamonds: It's too late right now.

Rusherone: Tomorrow then. Tell me where.

Kingofdiamonds: Tell me when. I'm free anytime after three.

Rusherone: I'm yours after five.

Kingofdiamonds: Ever heard of the Breakfast Spot?

Rusherone: I know it well. I think that's the perfect place for us to meet.

Kingofdiamonds: I don't know if they stay open for dinner, though.

Rusherone: They're open until six. I've looked into it before.

Kingofdiamonds: How long does it take you to get there? That won't leave us a lot of time to talk.

Rusherone: We'll meet up there and find another place to talk if we have to. Somehow I don't think talk is going to be the priority, though.

Kingofdiamonds: Oh god. There you go again, flipping that switch.

Rusherone: 5:30. The Breakfast Spot.

Kingofdiamonds: I'll be there. I'm scared.

Rusherone: Don't be. I promise you're safe with me.

Kingofdiamonds: What if you hate me in person?

Rusherone: Not gonna happen.

Kingofdiamonds: What if I hate you?

Rusherone: Well...that might happen. But I think we'll be okay. ;)

Kingofdiamonds: Look. I'm really scared this could end up ruining what we have and before that happens, I just want to tell you that I love you. I don't know if we'll still feel that way after meeting, but right now I love you and you're the main reason I had the courage to not beg him to stay with me.

Rusherone: I love you, too. I want this to be real. Let's make our happy place a real place we can go and hold each other.

Kingofdiamonds: And the sex, too? I know I always say I care about more than that, but I've discovered that I really need the sex.

Rusherone: Oh, trust me. Sex won't be an issue between us. I'll fuck you all night long if that's what you need.

Kingofdiamonds: And then when it's over?

Rusherone: I'll kiss you. Tell you how much I love you. Not let you go until morning.

Kingofdiamonds: When I wake you up with a long, luscious blowjob.

Rusherone: Fuck yes. 5:30. Don't be late or I might punish you.

Kingofdiamonds: I might have to show up at 5:31.

Rusherone: I dare you.

Kingofdiamonds: Wait, how will I know what you look like?

Rusherone: I'll find you.

Kingofdiamonds: But how?

Rusherone: Easy. You'll be the prettiest guy in the room.

Kingofdiamonds: You're amazing.

Rusherone: You have no idea.

Kingofdiamonds: Goodnight. I love you.

Filled with hope and peace, Kendall answered with a heart. James did the same.