Chapter 6 Part 1
The next morning Kurt was SO happy, he was beaming throughout breakfast. Jane and Sawyer shared a look then got back to their breakfast; they both kept on glancing at the smiling man. Kurt went with Jane to drop Sawyer off at school. By the time they stepped off of the elevator the whole team were there, they all noticed the wide smile on Kurt's face and were slightly puzzled by the demeanour of their usually stoic boss and friend, they turned to Jane to try and get an answer but she shrugged her shoulders in confusion. Zapata being Zapata needed to know what was going on.
"Hey Boss, what's got you in such a good mood? Have you won the lottery or something?"
"Nope, something even better, Nas dumped me last night!"
All three had their mouths open in shock and they again looked to Jane for confirmation and when they saw the nod they still couldn't believe it.
"Okaaaaaaaaaaay." Said Zapata for once at a loss for what to say
"It's going to be a great day! Hey dinner at my place, no excuses. I want you all there!"
"Kurt, a word please." Called Mayfair from her office
They all watched as Kurt walked jovially to Mayfair's office.
"Is it me or does he have a bounce in his step?" asked Zapata
"He's been like that since he woke up! It's weird right?" said Jane
"He was nearly skipping! What happened last night?" asked a confused Patterson
"I'm still trying to figure that out." said Jane
Kurt took the seat that was indicated and Mayfair sat behind her desk.
"So you finally got your head out of your ass?"
"Ma'am?"
"Are we really going to play this game? One question Kurt, are you going to finally admit who you really want to spend your life with?"
Mayfair held up her hand to stop Kurt from speaking.
"I'll just say this; you deserve to be happy but please don't wait too long. You never know what's around the corner, I don't think that you ever expected to be bringing up your nephew but here you are doing so. Don't waste any time is all I'm saying…"
Kurt looked at his mentor and as far as he was concerned his mother and wondered if there was anything that she didn't know.
"You don't think it will be too soon?"
"Kurt, in our jobs nothing is guaranteed, we may not even be here by the end of the day, not that I want to be morbid but maybe you need to think about that. Waiting for the perfect moment to arrive may not be the best thing."
"Thank you Ma'am. We're having a family dinner tonight if you can make it?"
"I'll be there! Now get back to work and try not to look so happy at being dumped!"
Kurt smiled "Yes ma'am!"
Throughout the whole morning everyone would just look at him as if he had two heads, news of the breakup went around the whole office and actually made it to the floors above and below. Even though Kurt wasn't that close to the majority of the agents, they did know him and he wasn't putting on a front he was genuinely happy about the break up. He even offered to do the paperwork for the team.
"Ok, this is too weird. What the hell happened last night?" asked Zapata
"I'm still trying to get my head around it myself." Replied Jane
Even though they all HATED paperwork with a passion no one took Kurt up on his offer, he just shrugged his shoulders and got on with his work while whistling. Reade, Zapata and Patterson shared a look and as one turned to Jane who held her hands up as if to say 'don't ask me'.
After lunch Nas came into the bullpen and the office went silent as they could see that she was making a bee line for Kurt.
"Kurt?"
"Hey Nas! How are you? It's a great day isn't it?"
Nas was a bit taken aback with the unusually sunny attitude from the man in front of her then she placed a hand on Kurt's shoulder and had a sympathetic smile on her face.
"Kurt, you don't need to hide your feelings, we're adults after all. You don't have to pretend to be happy; you can show that you're sad that we're no longer together."
"Nas, I'm fine!"
"Kurt, you're in denial. You know you can lean on your friends…"
"They're all coming over for dinner tonight."
"That's great, I'm glad that you have a support network!" Nas said slightly condescendingly as she squeezed Kurt's shoulder again then left.
Kurt had a confused look on his face for a few seconds then shrugged his shoulders and went back to his work while still whistling.
"Isn't it illegal to be that happy?" asked Zapata
Jane chuckled; Reade rolled his eyes and Patterson who just stopped by shoved Zapata's shoulder.
"C'mon, it's creepy right? Right?" asked Zapata
"Just get on with your work then we'll head over to Kurt's for dinner."
"I swear, if he's whistling during dinner, I'll be leaving early, dibs on period cramps, there's no way that I'm going to listen to that all night, I don't care how good his cooking is!"
"Zapata!" said Reade
"What? It's annoying." Zapata turned to Jane "Was he like this at breakfast?"
"No thankfully, he was just really happy, smiling a lot. This is something new and hopefully short! You guys are lucky you get to go home at the end of the evening!"
"You can come and stay at my place." suggested Patterson
"I'm not going to leave Sawyer alone with this Kurt."
"We appreciate the sacrifice that you're willing to make for Sawyer's welfare."
"I should get hazard pay for this." Muttered Jane
The rest of the day proceeded as the morning, paperwork, paperwork and more paperwork. The whistling continued much to Zapata's horror, usually she would have just told him to shut it but this new Weller was scaring her, she was frightened that if she did ask him to stop he might do something weird like hug her or something. She didn't know how he would react and that was freaking her out. So she decided to try a different tact, she bought him a bag of candy and that did the trick, you can't whistle and suck on candy at the same time, with a smug look she went back to her desk only to hear humming coming from her boss' desk. Zapata just let her head land on her desk in defeat.
Kurt and Jane left early, Mayfair ordered it after receiving an alarming amount of emails asking for whistling and humming to be made illegal in the office, to pick Sawyer up. As soon as they got home, after a quick trip to the store, Kurt started getting the elements for the chicken fajitas ready. Jane chopped up the bell peppers and onions. Kurt cut up the chicken breasts into long thin strips, as there were a lot of people coming there was a lot of prep to do. Sawyer started on his homework until Kurt asked him to set the table. Kurt started to cook the peppers and the chicken, Jane wrapped the tortillas in foil and placed them in the oven. Allie, Connor and Ella were the first to arrive followed closely by Reade, Zapata and Patterson and lastly Mayfair.
Jane held Ella close to Kurt so he could turn and kiss his daughter hello. Connor got bowls out and filled them with sour crème, guacamole, and salsa; there were two bowls of each. Allie found the hot sauce and Sawyer emptied the grated cheese into two bowls. Kurt plated up the chicken and peppers mix into two bowls, Reade took them and put them on the table. Patterson took the tortillas out of the oven and divided them into two and placed them on the table. Everyone grabbed a chair and a drink of their choice. Once their glasses were full Kurt held his up and everyone fell silent. Kurt looked around the table, Ella was on one side of him and Sawyer on the other, Jane was next to Ella, followed by Allie and Connor, on Sawyer's other side was Reade then Zapata, Patterson and Mayfair.
"Most of us are not related by blood but we are family and I'm happy to call all of you family!"
Everyone agreed and took a sip of their drink.
"Let's eat!" said Kurt
While everyone was making their fajitas, bowls being passed backwards and forwards. Kurt took Ella out of her high chair and gave her a proper welcome. He hugged her and kissed her and just held her in his arms. Ella loved being in his arms and leaned on his chest, they made such a good picture; Allie got a photo of it. Jane placed part of a tortilla and a couple of pieces of chicken and peppers with a small pile of cheese on Ella's tray so she had a deconstructed fajita. Kurt placed her back in her high chair and she went straight for the cheese. Jane placed a tortilla on her plate and one on Kurt's. She served herself the chicken and pepper mix and handed the bowl to Kurt who did the same, she then handed him the guacamole while she went straight for the cheese and passed him the cheese after she was finished. It was seamless. Everyone was enjoying their dinner, the cheese bowls had to be replenished several times, the chicken and pepper mix a couple and everything else just once. Everyone ate their fill, after the first couple of fajitas then the talk started again. It was light-hearted chatter, there was laughter and love around the table, Ella loved sharing her food with Jane and Kurt and they would each take a small bite to please the young girl. Once everyone was finished they stayed sat around the table. Allie felt it was the right time to ask a question that had been on the tip of her tongue since she arrived.
"So where's Nas?"
Everyone bar Connor froze at her question, even Ella stilled for a moment. Allie and Connor shared a puzzled look. Kurt then had a wide smile on his face.
"She dumped me!" declared Kurt
Another shared look went between Allie and Connor.
"So why are you SO happy?" asked Allie
"He's been like that all day!" interjected Tasha
Kurt shrugged his shoulders.
"Look, I knew for a while that it wasn't working and there were little things here and there but I was just too…I don't know. I should have broken things off with her sooner…"
"So what happened?" asked Tasha
"Tasha! That's none of our business!"
"Hey, Weller was whistling all morning then he began to hum, he owes us!"
"Whoa, whoa and whoa! Since when do you whistle?" asked a flabbergasted Allie
Another shrug of the shoulders.
"I was happy and I felt like whistling so I did!"
"Nah, it was more than that, you were almost skipping around the office, you were positively…smug!" said Tasha
"What did you do?" asked Allie
The smug smile appeared on Kurt's face.
"I just told her about my vision for our future and she didn't share that vision."
Allie looked to Jane for some help but she just shook her head.
"Ok, so what's your vision or what was your vision?" asked Allie
"Well, I showed her some photos of six bedroom properties in the suburbs that we could buy. I told her that we would both have to work and that we needed the big house for our seven kids, including Sawyer and Ella. I said we needed the room as Jane would be helping us with the kids…"
Everyone looked at Jane's sardonic look.
"Hold on, are you telling us that you told Nas that Jane would live with you once you were married and take care of your seven kids?" said Patterson who then turned to Jane "and you agreed to this?" she asked incredulously
"I didn't agree to anything, and that was as much news to me as it was to Nas!"
All the women had their mouths open at Jane declaration, Connor and Reade just shook their heads. Jane just looked down at her empty plate; all the others knew how hard it would have been to hear that the man of your dreams wanted you to be the childminder to his kids instead of the mother of said kids.
Tasha looked at Kurt in shock and asked "How are you still alive?"
"I was too stunned to do anything! I couldn't believe what I was hearing plus he was too far away for me to do any damage." Said Jane
Kurt gulped and nervously laughed.
"Anyway when Nas asked if there could be a compromise, I said that we could go for a four bedroom place instead but that would entail her being a stay at home wife and Jane wouldn't be helping with all the kids."
"You're lucky that I'm not sitting next to you, I want to do some damage to you myself! Since when are you such a moron?" asked Allie
"He's not!" said Patterson
"Really, did you just hear what he said?" said Zapata
"Yes I did but did you? We all know Kurt, did that really go with what we know about him? Really?"
The others reflected on what Patterson just said.
"That's inspired!" whispered Tasha "You deliberately got Nas to break up with you didn't you?"
Kurt shrugged his shoulders but the smile belied his actions.
"It wouldn't have lasted and she seemed determined to have a lasting relationship, I just gave her a way out sooner rather than later and she got to say that she dumped me!"
"You are a genius!" said Tasha in awe
"Well, I thought it was the better option than the other plus we still have to work with her and I didn't want it to be awkward in the office."
"Yeah, well some warning would have been nice." Muttered Jane
"She had to believe it and your reaction helped sell it to her!"
Jane just muttered in a different language under her breath, no one was under the impression that it was nice but it was aimed at Kurt.
"Well I'm sorry that you felt you had to break up with her, you seemed to be happy…" said Allie
"I thought that she made me happy and I was wrong. I made a mistake, thankfully I realised before it was too late!"
"What do you mean?" asked Connor
"Well it came to my attention that after we were married, something that I never talked to her about once, we hadn't even managed a weekend away, that she would somehow send Sawyer to military school…"
Reade, Patterson and Zapata all lost their colour as they realised that Kurt did see the video, this was not lost on the others. Jane, Allie, Connor and Mayfair looked at the three weirdly.
"Excuse me?" said Allie in a menacing tone.
"Exactly! She thought that I would just ship him off on her say so…"
"Why that manipulative…" Allie glanced at Sawyer and saw that he was looking at her so she changed her words quickly. "…nasty woman!" Allie finished lamely.
"Oh and…"
"There's more?" asked Allie
"…only if you consider me only seeing Ella 'the occasional weekend instead of this ridiculous split custody'!"
"Are you kidding me?" exclaimed Allie
"What the h..heck?" chimed in Connor
"Yep!" acknowledged Kurt
"Well, she didn't know you at all if she thought that you would give up either of your kids!" declared Allie.
"She didn't know that but she did manage to convince Sawyer that he was going to be sent away to military school!"
Allie looked at the young boy with sympathy.
"Oh Sawyer! There's no way that your Uncle would send you away. What did she say to you?"
Sawyer took a deep breath and then began to sign; Kurt said what Sawyer was signing.
"She was really nice at first. She would say how much Uncle Kurt loved me and she knew that because he always talked about me but then she would say things that seemed nice but I don't know, it just made me feel weird…"
"What did she say?" Jane whispered
"She said things like 'Uncle Kurt was really proud of me and he would be even prouder if I went to his old military school' and similar things to that. Then one time she let slip that it would be good if I went to military school as then Uncle Kurt could enjoy his life as he had to put it on hold to look after me and I'm not even his son, just a nephew!"
Sawyer stopped signing and there were a couple of tears rolling down his cheek. Kurt didn't hesitate he picked Sawyer up out of his chair and placed him on his lap, Sawyer buried his head in Kurt's neck, embarrassed because he cried in front of everyone.
"Hey, I have never regretted taking care of you, do I wish your mom was still here, yes of course I do. I know you loved her, she was a great mom and she was a great sister although she was bad at cooking!" This got a chuckle out of everyone. "But it has been an absolute privilege and honour to take care of you! You know Edgar wanted to take care of you as well and you know Edgar and I each fought to have you. You are not a burden. Yes, you're my nephew but that's a technicality and you've heard me tell people that I have two kids, you and Ella. As far as I'm concerned the only difference between you two is the fact that you're a boy and she's a girl, that's it. I love you both the same because YOU. ARE. BOTH. MY. CHILDREN! Do you understand?"
Sawyer nodded his head. Kurt kissed Sawyer's temple and he kept Sawyer on his lap for a while. Kurt looked around the table and saw Patterson wiping her eyes whereas everyone else was as livid as he was by Sawyer's admission. How dare Nas try and guilt trip Sawyer into going to military school! Jane was muttering in a different language and by the look on her face she wanted to do some serious damage to the NSA agent, knowing the people around the table they would all help Jane hide the body and any evidence if she asked for help.
Tasha snorted and everyone's attention was on her and waiting for her to explain the noise she just made.
"What?" asked Tasha
"You going to explain why you just snorted?" asked Reade
"Well, Weller just lied to Sawyer!"
"When?" asked Kurt
"When you said the only difference between Sawyer and Ella is the fact that one's a boy and the other's a girl!"
"It's true!" said Kurt
"No it's not…" Everyone saw Sawyer flinched
"Tasha…" began Reade
"What? Are you seriously telling me that Weller will behave in the same way when Sawyer and Ella start to date? I bet Sawyer will be able to date earlier than Ella will plus his dates won't be subjected to a background check for all their family members! I feel for Ella having such an overprotective father!"
"Two!" chimed in Connor
"And an overprotective Uncle!" added Reade
All the women rolled their eyes; Sawyer smiled and knew that they spoke the truth.
"Oya! Oya!" screamed Ella which broke the tension in the room. Sawyer turned to look at his 'cousin' and her smile made him smile.
"I think someone wants her dessert!" said Zapata
Kurt started to get up with Sawyer in his arms but Jane stopped him with a hand to his shoulder and got up herself. Allie followed to help. Together they got the makings of ice cream sundaes ready and brought them to the table. Sawyer took his seat once more. Reade brought the sundae glasses to the table and everyone delved in and made their own and dug in. The atmosphere was lighter with the addition of dessert. Ella loved her 'sundae' that was in a bowl, she didn't even bother with the spoon but just went in with her hands, her wide smile told everyone that she was in heaven.
At the end of the night everyone had a word with Sawyer to let him know that what Nas said was a load of crap. He was hugged by everyone.
"Hey, all those moves that Jane has been teaching you, there's no harm in practising them and having a certain person in mind when you're trying those moves!"
"Tasha!" said Reade
"What? I was helping!"
"Yeah, I don't think so! And the moves Jane has been teaching Sawyer are purely defensive!"
Reade took Sawyer aside and reiterated what Kurt had said.
"Your Uncle Kurt wasn't lying, you know both of us wanted to look after you after your mom…and we did get into some disagreements about who should take care of you. We BOTH wanted you please don't ever doubt that, no matter what anyone says. I still wish that you would come and live with me and I was pleased when you emailed me but I knew that there was something else going on because there was no way that your Uncle Kurt would want you to leave him. He loves you SO much and he's right when he said the only difference between you and Ella is the fact that you're a boy and she's a girl, he has two kids that he loves SO much, they're both his life, ok?"
Sawyer nodded his head as he flung his arms around Reade's shoulders, Kurt watched the scene in front of him and he teared up.
…Ella and Sawyer were in bed Kurt was at the dining room table and Jane joined him. He had a tub of ice cream in front of him and there was a spare spoon to the side. Kurt moved the tub of ice cream so it would be in the middle of them. Jane took that as an invitation to take a seat so she did and she picked up the spoon and took some ice cream. They sat in companionable silence for a few minutes each savouring the flavour of the frozen dessert in front of them then Kurt began to speak.
"This is my chosen vice, when Sawyer and Sarah moved in here I would have the occasional drink but Sarah always worried that I would drink too much and as Sawyer was here she didn't want that and I never drank too much while they were here, then Sarah died. I coped, I had to for Sawyer's sake but there was a day it was way after the funeral when Sawyer was in bed and I just couldn't take it, I missed Sarah so much, one drink turned into two which turned into several and the next thing I knew half the bottle was gone before I could take another drink I threw the rest down the sink. I wasn't going to lose Sawyer over my grief, he'd lost so much already so I made the decision to not have any alcohol in the apartment, and I swapped it for ice cream which would mean more hours in the gym but that was fine. I never want Sawyer to see me like that."
They sat just eating the ice cream then after a while Kurt spoke.
"Did I ever do anything to make Sawyer feel or think that I don't love him as much as Ella?"
"NO! Kurt, he has all these thoughts rolling around his head just in the back of his mind, don't forget that Nas is NSA, aren't they the best at manipulation? You haven't done a thing to worry about. Since I've known you, you've been a father to him…I think Nas played on his worries, bear in mind that he's already lost his mom and he's probably afraid he'll lose you but in a different way. He's insecure but not because of anything you've done, he's nearing puberty maybe that's a factor, he's noticing that his family is not the same as most of his friends. He knows we all love him especially you but Nas planted some doubts in his mind I'm sure that's all it is."
"Thanks."
Jane smiled at him and it took everything in him not to lean forward and kiss her.
"Anytime!"
The next morning Kurt was in the kitchen getting breakfast ready while Jane set the table and Sawyer came out of his room ready for school, he placed his book bag on the sofa as usual. They had a nice breakfast, Sawyer and Jane helped clear up as Kurt had cooked. Sawyer was told to go wash his hands as soon as he was out of earshot Kurt faced Jane.
"Jane, I'm going to ask Reade to have Sawyer tonight, we need to talk and I would rather do it when Sawyer isn't here and I can't wait any longer…"
"Kurt, is everything alright?" asked a concerned Jane
"Hopefully it will be after our talk!" Kurt explained cryptically
"Ok." said a puzzled Jane
Everyone was in the conference room when Jane and Kurt arrived, they made their way to the room and when they entered they looked to the rest of the team for a clue and all they received were puzzled looks. Nas was the last one to arrive, the atmosphere in the room dropped but Nas was still oblivious, the fact that everyone in that room wanted to do some harm to her for making Sawyer believe Kurt thought of him as a burden but wanting and doing was two different things. Kurt took notice of Mayfair's face and he'd never seen her so mad before. To anyone else she would seem stoic but he knew her better than those in the room and he knew that she was seething behind her calm manner. Once Nas was seated Mayfair began.
"Thank you all for coming, there's a matter that we need to deal with ASAP, before you ask any questions please just listen, then I'll take any questions."
Mayfair clicked on something on her computer then the speakers came to life.
Patterson: "So how was Potter fest?"
Jane: "Um…we didn't end up going."
Reade: "Why?"
Jane: "Um…Nas had some great tickets for the Yankees and I told them to go to that instead."
Zapata: "You told them to go? Nas didn't have a ticket for you?"
Jane: "No, um she could only get three tickets. She assumed that I always had Saturday off…so. I stayed at home. It was good actually, I had time to myself. It was nice. I have to go to the gym!"
Zapata: "What the hell was that? Nas knew that they were going to the movie marathon!"
Reade: "How do you know that?"
Zapata: "Because she was there when Patterson was complaining that she couldn't go. Jane had told us about it when she received the tickets, she was so happy and she told us about it that's when Patterson started to sulk as she had other commitments."
Patterson: "That's right; I remember seeing Nas outside my lab!"
Reade: "Maybe she didn't hear what you were talking about."
Zapata: "She heard!"
Patterson: "Nas doesn't strike me as a sports fan."
Reade: "Maybe she did something nice for Sawyer."
Zapata: "I think she did something to get Jane away from Kurt!"
Reade: "Seriously?"
Zapata: "Yeah! Seriously. Jane spent her own money on those tickets. They weren't cheap and yes it was her choice but she couldn't get a refund and we were all busy on Saturday, would you have gone by yourself?"
Patterson: "Something does sound hinky!"
"What the hell? Why was our conversation recorded?" demanded Zapata
Kurt was frozen and Jane blushed.
"That's what I would like to know! Would you care to explain Agent Kamal?" said Mayfair in a tone that made everyone in the room sit up and wince.
All eyes turned to the NSA agent.
Nas tried to talk herself out of it.
"It's NSA business and you don't have the relevant clearance!"
"Are you telling me this was sanctioned by the NSA?" asked Mayfair
"Yes and it's above your paygrade!" said Nas in a superior tone
"Oh really?" replied Mayfair
"Yes really!" declared Nas
"Did you hear that?" asked Mayfair as she turned her monitor around so everyone could see the people on the screen.
"Yes we did and let us assure you Assistant Director Mayfair we will deal with this situation. We apologise for any misconduct that Agent Kamal has committed. We have not and did not instruct Agent Kamal to place listening devices all over the FBI, we do not listen in on our friends. Please conduct a thorough investigation and let us know the findings of said investigation!"
The screen went blank then all eyes were once again on the NSA agent who lost all her colour.
"I think you'll find several agents waiting to escort you back to the NSA office. You will not go back to your office; you will not set foot back in this office. Agent Kamal you are dismissed and good riddance!"
They all watched as Nas shakily got to her feet and the doors opened to the conference room and there waiting were several FBI agents. The team and the rest of the office watched as Nas was surrounded by agents and was walked to the elevator. There hardly seemed enough room in the elevator for all of them but the doors managed to close. That set off everyone talking.
"Listen up! We discovered that Agent Kamal without any authorisation bugged our offices. We will be speaking to each and every one of you with further details…for the moment please carry on with whatever case you are working on."
The team and Mayfair went back into the conference room.
"What was her goal?" asked Patterson
"To find some dirt obviously!" declared Zapata
"Seriously?" replied Patterson
Mayfair was looking at Jane and Kurt who both seemed stunned.
"Kurt?" began Mayfair; she waited until he looked at her "She spent time at your place did she not?" Kurt nodded "It may be a good idea to do a bug sweep of your apartment as well as yourself!"
"Excuse me?" said Zapata
"The NSA have been experimenting with different types of bugs, those that can be ingested for instance…" began Patterson
"Excuse me." Muttered Kurt as he blindly left the conference room
They all watched Kurt leave the room, Jane stood up to go after him but Mayfair stopped her.
"Give him ten minutes then go after him. We need a plan to diffuse this situation. There were bugs in Borden's office as well. They were found all over the office…"
Jane followed the trail of clothes from the locker room to the showers; she stopped by his locker first to get his spare clothes, something that he forgot to do. She couldn't wait ten minutes, she gave him five and left the office, Mayfair didn't even try to stop her. They all just looked as she made her way out of the bullpen and presumably to the locker room. Jane hung a towel and his clothes on the hook outside his cubicle and sat on the bench waiting, facing away from the cubicles, she listened to the water flowing she could just imagine him washing his body with his shower gel, the scent was so him, she wished she could go in there and help him but that wasn't going to happen. She shook her head to try and get rid of the inappropriate thoughts. She didn't know how long she sat there for but all of a sudden she realised that the water had stopped and the next thing she knew Kurt was sitting next to her on the bench but facing the opposite direction, in essence their backs to each other.
"Thanks for the clothes!"
"No problem."
"God, when I mess up I really mess up!"
"Hey, you did nothing wrong, you had feelings for someone you decided to explore those. It's not your fault that she was a pyscho!"
"What she did to Sawyer, me and …you."
"Look, you got rid of her, granted in your own unique way, once you knew how she was treating Sawyer, there's no excuse if she has 'bugged' you and well that's that!"
"What about you?"
"Look, she's gone now that's the main thing. C'mon we need to sweep the apartment and you!"
Kurt looked at her then and she him and he saw the rueful smile on her face, she bumped his shoulder with hers and he reciprocated causing him to smile. They got up and walked back, stopping at his locker to shove the dirty clothes into it. As they made their way back to the conference room Kurt whispered.
"Thanks Jane."
"Anytime Weller!"
Mayfair noticed as did the others that Kurt had changed his clothes and they just knew that he had a shower trying to wash away any traces of any bug that may be on his skin.
"So do you want me to probe you?" asked Patterson
Everyone just looked at her with varying looks of disbelief. Mayfair covered her face with her hand, Jane winced, Reade shook his head and Zapata had a wide grin on her face.
"Pretty sure he only wants Jane to do any probing but what do I know?" whispered Zapata
Patterson looked at her as if she had two heads then thought about what she said and blushed.
"NO! NO, NO! I didn't mean it like that! I meant, do you want me to check you out…"
"Again, I think he'd want Jane to do any examination…" said Zapata but loud enough for Jane to hear as she blushed
"…Or do you want someone else? I have a list of people that we can trust…"
"Everyone I trust with the exception of Allie and Connor are in this room so no matter how embarrassing this is going to be, I rather it was you than anyone else. Should we get going?"
Patterson and Kurt started to exit the room but stopped when Zapata started to talk.
"Jane, I'm sure Patterson could use your help!"
"With what?" asked the confused tattooed woman
"Actually, that's not a bad idea." Said Patterson then she turned to Kurt "If that's ok with you?"
Kurt shrugged his shoulders.
"I don't think I could get any more embarrassed!"
The rest watched as the three walked towards Patterson's lab then Mayfair and Reade turned to Zapata.
"What?" asked the defensive agent
"Leave them alone! Let them figure it out!" said Reade
"My grandchildren will be having kids before they get together, they need a push!"
"You don't even have any kids!" said Reade
"I know! That's how slow they're being!"
"I thought that you didn't like the cold?" asked Mayfair
Zapata was confused by the change in conversation.
"I don't."
"Well, if you keep it up then I'll transfer you Alaska!"
Zapata opened and closed her mouth several times before she realised she should just keep her mouth shut.
"Exactly!" said Mayfair
Back in Patterson's lab Kurt was in his boxers as Patterson thoroughly looked for a bug on him, Kurt was too anxious to be embarrassed, thankfully Patterson was so clinical that it made it easier. Then she began to try and locate it by using different frequencies, it would have gone quicker if the NSA had shared their specs but that was too much cooperation. So Kurt was in his boxers for the majority of the morning while Patterson ran as many tests as possible not that Jane was complaining, her mind did wonder a few times and there were one or two times when she looked up to find both Kurt and Patterson looking at her, thankfully she wasn't staring at Kurt that would have been EMBARRASSING, instead she was daydreaming when she was looking at the monitor, she did blush when she realised they were looking at her, Kurt had a confused look on his face but Patterson had a knowing look and an accompanying smile which made her face hotter. Once Patterson was sure or as sure as she could be that Kurt was bug free, they, all three of them with the addition of Reade and Zapata went to Kurt's apartment to run a sweep. They didn't leave any space unchecked. Kurt checked his and Sawyer's room while Jane checked hers and the others checked the other rooms. Patterson found something in the kitchen.
"What could she hope to hear in the kitchen?" asked a confused Patterson
"Kurt's recipe for his famous Thai Green Curry?" quipped Zapata
"If she really wanted that all she'd have to do is ask him, he's not territorial when it comes to his recipes." Answered Patterson
"She's crazy, she didn't need a reason, and she probably just wanted to know what was going on…" replied Zapata
"Yeah…so she could buy tickets when Jane already had or Kurt." Chimed in Reade
The three turned around to see Kurt and Jane staring at them. Kurt saw the bug that was in Patterson's hand and his shoulders sagged in defeat, it didn't help that they were standing there for a few seconds and that they heard what the three said.
"We need to make sure that that was the only one!" said Kurt
"We've looked, this was the only one, it looks likes she was interested in what you three talked about…"
"I'll check myself, I don't want to chance it, Reade can you get Sawyer from school and can he stay with you tonight?"
"Kurt…" began Reade but stopped when Kurt threw him a look.
"I'll check again!"
"We'll check again!" added Jane
Kurt and Jane had a silent conversation with their eyes and Kurt accepted her offer.
Patterson stayed with Kurt and Jane to go over the apartment again; Zapata reluctantly went with Reade to spend time with Sawyer. Kurt's determination paid off he found a bug in his room and one in Sawyer's and they found the one in his room by chance, it just happened to be transmitting when they were searching which registered on Patterson's equipment as a result they redoubled their efforts and found the one in Sawyer's room. Kurt was convinced that there must also be one in Jane's room and Patterson set up something to detect if anything was being transmitted.
"I need you to organise for yours, Zapata's and Reade's places to be swept as well!"
Patterson was confused.
"Why, Nas was never in our places…?"
"She was never in my bedroom either but we found one there!"
"She must have been in there at some point, even just to look around?" Patterson asked as she looked at Kurt and Jane
Kurt shook his head.
"No, she's never been in there, not once."
"But how did it get there?" asked Patterson
"That's the question isn't it?" replied Kurt
"I think the more pressing question is why there is one in Sawyer's room? She never ever went in there!" said Jane
"Are you sure…?" began Patterson but the looks on Kurt's and Jane's faces told her everything she needed to know.
Mayfair as well as the rest of the team were informed of the latest developments. Reade and Kurt agreed not to tell Sawyer yet, as he was already asleep. Zapata decided to stay over at Reade's place. Patterson stayed at Kurt's place; she refused to leave until they found the bug in Jane's room because if there was one in two bedrooms then there must be one in the third. Kurt insisted that Patterson take the sofa to which Jane agreed, no one wanted to use the bedrooms for obvious reasons. Jane and Kurt each took an armchair, Jane eventually fell asleep but Kurt just stayed up and regretted his past actions and just wished he could turn the clock back and admit his feelings for a certain tattooed woman sitting not that far away from him instead of denying said feelings and trying to get over them by going out with Nas.
There was a knock on the door and Patterson opened it, Kurt was finishing getting breakfast ready and Jane had just come out of the bathroom, there stood Sawyer, Reade and Zapata.
Sawyer hugged everybody; he knew there was something going on as Aunt Tasha stayed the night. She already said bye to him then he woke up to find her there in the morning in the same clothes that she wore the day before. When Sawyer looked to Edgar he got a partial answer.
"There's something that we need to talk about but we need to do it together, so we're going back to your place, your Uncle is making breakfast for us then we'll talk, ok?"
Sawyer knew how things worked and how is Uncle was, everyone would eat first before anything else was talked about and his Uncle had been busy, there were freshly baked cinnamon rolls with icing dripping, scrambled eggs, bacon, toast and fresh fruit salad. Once breakfast was finished, they all sat and watched as Kurt explained everything to Sawyer, no one expected the young boy to get up so quickly that his chair falls and run to his room, everyone turns to Kurt who just shrugged his shoulders. They didn't have to wait too long to find out why Sawyer ran, he was back within a minute, he was carrying a shoebox. Sawyer placed the old box on the table and sat down. Everyone watched as the young boy took the lid off, both Patterson and Jane gasped while the others just looked on in shock. There on top were several of hand drawn family pictures of Sawyer with his mom, Reade and Kurt, some were formal others were casual. Sarah had a range of hairstyles and Sawyer grew in each picture. Sawyer took them from the box and everyone got a better look.
"Sawyer, where did you get these?" asked Kurt
Sawyer looked to Jane who blushed from the attention that was now on her. It was their secret, she started drawing pictures of the Weller –Reade family to cheer up the young boy, she never knew that he treasured them so much that he hid them and considering the box seemed to contain important items to Sawyer, he kept all of the significant items in there.
"I did it to make him smile…" began Jane
"They're amazing Jane." Said Zapata
Jane looked to Kurt who had a sad smile on his face then to Reade who couldn't seem to take his eyes off of the pictures. Jane thought that she saw some tears in his eyes before she could say anything to him he cleared his throat and Kurt spoke to give him time to collect himself.
"Sawyer, you don't have to do it in front of us but can you please check to see if anything is missing?" said Kurt
They all expected Sawyer to take his box back into his room but he took out each item one at a time to check that everything was still there. There were assorted tickets to things like the bake off one, photos, keepsakes etc. Each of the adults recognised several items as they had given them to the youngster; they were all choked up that he would treasure certain items. When Sawyer looked at everyone he nodded his head to signal that everything was in his box.
Thankfully Nas didn't get her hands on the box thought Jane, heaven knows what she would have done if she saw it. They all watched as all the possessions were placed in the box again with the picture of the four of them, Kurt, Reade, Sarah and Sawyer all paying Uno.
Bugs, as in plural, were eventually found in Jane's room. She, Kurt and Sawyer elected to sleep in the living room even though Reade, Zapata and Patterson all volunteered their places, but the three wanted to stay in their apartment. The others shared a glance and had a quick silent conversation. They all had a slumber party in the living room, the sofa and arm chairs were pushed to the sides as was the dining table to make enough room in the middle for all of the sleeping bags, all six of them. The apartment was gone over again the next day just to make sure that there were no bugs, and then they moved onto the other apartments, thankfully nothing was found in them.
When they were next in the office Mayfair called them into her office and they didn't like what they had to hear.
"You will be conducting interviews with the agents of this office…" she held her hand up to forestall any questions. "…Kurt and Jane you will take the recordings from Dr Borden and his team, Reade and Zapata you will take the recording from the rest of the office and you will report to Patterson who will coordinate and record any significant data…"
"What do you mean significant?" asked Kurt
"I will need to know if someone is at risk of being blackmailed for something that could be used against them when they thought they were talking in confidence to a doctor." Mayfair then turned to Reade and Zapata. "Or in case the office recording picked up some inter office bullying, I need to protect my agents but I can only do that if I know they need protecting, I do not want anyone to break their confidences or tell me things just because their scared so if you five collate your findings then I can offer help to those who may need it. Just like I don't need to know who is sleeping with whom unless it affects their job or their being coerced into doing so. I trust you to know when to bring things to my attention. It is a horrible job but if you do not do it then I'll be forced to get an outside team to listen to everything that has gone on for months in this office and the agents trust you…"
They all looked at each other with resignation and nodded.
"I will be sending out an office wide email, to let the agents know what is happening and any agent will be able to see me if they have anything that they wish to confide in me…"
"Doesn't that defeat the purpose of us listening to the recordings?" asked Zapata
"Well, I'm also going to be interviewing everyone so if there is something they want to get off their chest they can. Each interview will be 20 minutes and if I need a longer time I will arrange for the person to assist Agent Bell on a case and they will be taken to another location where they will wait for me and I can get the full story. I will do my best to make sure no one will be 'outed' for something they did not want publicly disclosed. I would rather keep this in house as much as possible, is that clear?"
A chorus of 'yes ma'am' rang out. They split up; Kurt and Jane were set up in Nas' old office, while Reade and Zapata were at their desks. Mayfair started her interviews, cases came and went, and if they weren't high priority then they were given to other teams. All five found the task assigned to them tedious but they understood that it had to be done. They also knew that no matter what individuals thought about them they were respected and anything they heard on the recordings would remain private as much as possible. It took them months to go through all of the recordings, Kurt and Jane finished theirs before Reade and Zapata but they helped the other two. The atmosphere in the bullpen was getting back to the usual before Nas came to the office. Some agents spoke to Mayfair about concerns they had, the team passed on around nine names that may find themselves in delicate situations due to the recordings. One senior agent was discovered intimidating junior agents and coercing them into doing things that they would not willingly do. As soon as Zapata and Reade heard the first recording, they both saw red and immediately took it to Mayfair who had that stoic look on her face. The both knew that Mayfair was spitting mad and was hiding it well. They were ordered to find as much evidence as possible. Patterson was asked to find all the agents that had been under said agent's 'care' and interview them. It was a really long list. Once the interviews were completed and all the evidence collected on the agent, Mayfair arranged for a full staff meeting, it was compulsory to attend. The bullpen was packed; chairs from all the office were brought in so everyone had a seat. Kurt, Jane, Reade, Zapata and Patterson were at the front of the bull pen, Mayfair off to one side.
Zapata started to speak.
"I remember when I graduated from Quantico, how excited I was. I was an FBI agent; it was something that I worked towards for years. Then I found out that I actually got a place at the NYO, I couldn't believe that it was happening. They were good times, obviously we all know whose team we want to join when we get assigned to an office and I was no different, as soon as I knew I was going to work at the NYO, I knew I wanted to be on Weller's team, I never thought that it would actually happen but you dream right? Well low and behold, I got what I wanted and I couldn't believe it. I was going to be the only female on the team and that didn't bother me because once I proved myself I knew I would be one of the guys. I actually anticipated that there may be some stupid hazing and all that or some grunt work like getting coffees and such but I was wrong. Weller was a good team leader, he still is. Not once did he make me feel like I had to work three times as hard just because I didn't have a penis, did I get coffees? Yes, do you know when? When I messed up. That's right, if I messed up, my punishment depending how badly I screwed up, was getting coffees for the team and general grunt work, did I like it of course not but I knew it was because I messed up not because I have breasts. Then the best thing happened, Reade messed up and he was punished. Yep that's right, he was punished in the exact same way, he became our gofer depending how much he messed up. I was so impressed. But the icing on the cake was when Weller himself messed up, he would go on coffee runs for us, the first time it happened Reade and I just looked at the other but we learnt that if someone screwed up then there would be a consequence and everyone had the same. It had nothing to do with our genitals. I was an equal member of the team. Not once did I feel intimidated or coerced into something. Yes we would banter but it never got personal until we were a proper team but that was between us three, if anyone else tried to interfere with the team then they were quickly put in their place. Now I know that I'm naïve about somethings but I never thought that there was a team leader that was mistreating those below him, it's the 21st century not the 1950's, not that that treatment was ok then but unfortunately those were different times. How wrong was I? Like I said, coffee runs and grunt work that's one thing but groping, threatening and propositioning newly qualified female agents and blackmailing them with bad evaluations if they didn't agree to the team leader's 'requests', that's another. I am disgusted to know that due to the behaviour of one senior agent, a lot of good agents either left the bureau or transferred out of the NYO. Agent Trent, you are a disgrace to your badge, the bureau, your family and your gender!"
Everyone watched as Agent Trent was arrested by two female agents.
The team was so happy to have finished with all the recordings.
It was so good to be back to normal; they had already closed a couple of cases, they were all so glad to be back in the field.
"Jane, can we try for that talk tonight? I'll ask Reade to take Sawyer for the night…" asked Kurt as they were standing in the kitchen.
Jane turned to look at him and he seemed … excited.
"Of course!"
Famous last words, they caught a case and Patterson gave them a possible location of their prime suspects, so off they went to the derelict building. Kurt and Jane through the front while Tasha and Reade took the back. They all entered at the same time, they were silent, slowly covering the area of the building trying to locate the suspects. Jane was to Kurt's left when she heard the 'pop, pop, pop' of gunshots and saw him get thrown backwards, he landed with a thud and she saw the blood pouring out of him. She rushed to his side and quickly took his protective vest off, two of the gunshots made contact with his body through the vest much to her dismay; they must have been armour piercing bullets. Jane began to stop the bleeding with her hands while she told Patterson to get an ambulance to their location ASAP. Jane had no idea what was going on around her, she heard more gunshots but didn't know what was going on, her first and foremost thought was that she couldn't lose Kurt. Sawyer couldn't lose Kurt. Tasha was by her side taking over stopping the bleeding from one of the gunshots, she was talking but Jane just focussed on Kurt.
The ambulance came and the paramedics had to revive him a couple of times in the ambulance, Jane forced her way onto it and held his hand while the paramedic worked around her. Once they reached the hospital, Kurt was whisked off to the emergency room, where they would take out the bullets if they were still inside and repair the damage that was done. It would take hours. Jane turned to leave just as Tasha and Patterson rushed into to the hospital.
"JANE! Any news? Where is he?" rushed Patterson
"He's in the trauma room. They're going to operate." Jane said in a monotone voice.
"Where are you going Jane?" asked Tasha
"I need to get Sawyer…"
"Wouldn't it be better to wait until we have some positive news?" said Patterson
"Sawyer needs to be here."
"Ok, but maybe I should go with you…" said Patterson as she and Zapata exchange a worried look.
"Fine, c'mon then!"
Patterson rushed back out with Jane after sharing another look with Tasha.
Sawyer was concentrating on adding and subtracting fractions when he noticed the class was silent. He looked up expecting to see his teacher but instead he saw Jane and he could see the devastation on her face and he knew something had happened to his Uncle. Jane saw the moment Sawyer realised that there was something wrong, he dropped his pencil on the desk and stood up. Jane rushed to his side.
"Your Uncle's been hurt. I've come to take you to the hospital."
The wait at the hospital seemed unending. They took up residence in the waiting room for the surgical wing. Jane watched the second hand of the clock on the wall go around and around. Sawyer was literally by her side. She knew that the others thought Sawyer should have stayed in school but she honestly couldn't leave him in school just in case the worst happened. So there they were, in the waiting room just staring at the clock. Sawyer was quiet since she arrived in his classroom, he didn't even sign one word. She knew he was scared. He held her hand when they got out of the car, when they got closer to the waiting room, she felt him squeeze her hand and she returned it. Reade came in as well and bent to talk to Sawyer trying to comfort him but Sawyer just had a blank look on his face. Reade left after telling the youngster that he had to go help Zapata catch the bad guys that had hurt his Uncle. Jane promised to keep everyone up to date with any developments with Kurt. It was early in the morning, Sawyer was sleeping against her side, he tried to fight his tiredness for a while but sleep eventually won. Jane couldn't help but wrap an arm around him and stroke his hair as he dreamt. She saw the person enter the waiting room and made her way to her and Sawyer, she was in scrubs and still had the funny little hat on her head, the mask was around her neck as if she just pulled it down. She introduced herself as the surgeon who had operated on Kurt.
"…it was a difficult procedure and we lost him once, briefly, but he's a fighter. He'll be fine…"
All Jane could hear was the noise in her head. They lost him. For a brief time he was no longer with them. She lost him. Sawyer lost him. She managed to thank the doctor. Once the doctor left, she texted the rest of the team, they replied straight away. They dropped by earlier but couldn't stay long as they were still on the hunt for the gunmen that shot Kurt. She decided to let Sawyer sleep; they wouldn't be able to see Kurt straight away anyway. Once she was told they could see Kurt she woke Sawyer up. He was a little disorientated but quickly realised where he was and what had happened. Before he could even think to ask the question on his mind Jane answered him.
"Your Uncle is going to be fine. We're going to see him in a moment. The surgery went well but he'll have to stay in the hospital for a couple of weeks…"
Sawyer looked at her closely to see if he could see any dishonesty and he must have been happy by what he saw as he buried his face in her side and wept. She hugged him to her and held him until he calmed down.
The shock of seeing Kurt surrounded by all the machines and wires was nearly too much to bare. They both stood still over the threshold, neither wanted to move, until Jane squeezed Sawyer's hand and she pulled him a little forward. That was all it took, Sawyer moved on his own accord. They stood by the side of the bed watching Kurt's chest move up and down, it was hypnotic. As long as it was moving it meant that he was breathing, even if it was with the help of the machines. The sounds, all the beeps, seemed noisy in the quiet room but they were oddly comforting, as long as the melodic noises were being heard then that was also a good sign. Jane moved the two chairs so they were now by the bed. She nudged Sawyer to sit in the one closer to the bed while she took the other.
"Hey, why don't you take your Uncle's hand?"
Sawyer looked at her as if to ask if it's alright. She nodded her head. She watched as Sawyer tentatively took his Uncle's hand. The touch seemed to comfort him. He fell asleep again, this time his head on Kurt's hand, Jane didn't think either would mind. She watched over the both of them. The team visited towards early evening later that day, they finally caught the gunmen, as soon as they were charged, and they headed over to the hospital. Mayfair had quite some pull; they were all allowed to enter the room. They all came to see Sawyer first, they each hugged him and he returned the hugs even though they were one armed ones as he didn't want to let go of Kurt's hand. Then they greeted her. Patterson took Jane's seat as she stood up to tell the others what the doctor said. Patterson was going to stay with them but unfortunately Reade, Zapata and Mayfair couldn't. They had to return to interrogate their suspects. Jane, Sawyer and Patterson watched as Reade placed his hand over Sawyer's and Kurt's, Zapata and Mayfair, kissed Kurt's brow.
It was another day until Kurt woke up and was moved into a 'normal' room. Jane had left Sawyer with Patterson for an hour so she could replenish his go bag. She brought food for everyone. The interrogation went well so Zapata and Reade were allowed to join the rest of the team at the hospital. Kurt was still tired and in a lot of pain but he was speaking. He never let go of Sawyer's hand whether awake or asleep, something which the boy found somewhat comforting.
After another day, Jane began getting all of the work Sawyer had missed and he had to catch up when Kurt was asleep, which was a large part of the day. He could only manage to stay awake for about one hour at a time for the first few days but his did improve slowly. It got to the point that Sawyer was comfortable enough falling asleep knowing that his Uncle was going to be fine. For Kurt's last few days when Sawyer wasn't in his Uncle's bed hugging him, he would be by Jane's side hugging her, Kurt watched as she would stroke Sawyer's hair, something that always put the young boy to sleep. The others would spend a few hours with him in the evening; Reade would also stop by in the morning. Each member of the team offered to take Sawyer home but before Kurt could refuse, he really wanted Sawyer with him; Sawyer would just shake his head and fold his arms in the trademark 'Weller' way. If anyone noticed that Jane hardly spoke, no one mentioned it. They all put it down to the fact that she was stressed and tired. She only left for an hour every few days and that was to get things for Sawyer. She was barely eating or sleeping.
The day finally came for Kurt to leave the hospital, he was so happy that he barely gave the dreaded wheelchair a second glance once it arrived at his room. Jane pushed him down the corridor; Sawyer was walking by his side, his hand in his Uncle's. The drive back to their apartment was largely quiet. Jane insisted that Kurt should sit in the back with Sawyer, she helped Kurt with his seatbelt and made sure Sawyer was secure before starting their journey.
When they got back to the apartment, Jane took the lead. Kurt and Sawyer were behind her as she unlocked the apartment door. She walked in knowing that Kurt would shut the door behind him. There was silence in the apartment. There was also some tension. Jane hadn't turned around to look at them. Kurt still had Sawyer's hand in his. He squeezed it for a moment and Sawyer looked up with a question in his eyes. Kurt indicated with his chin, that Sawyer should go to his room. Sawyer looked from his Uncle and the stiff way Jane was holding herself and back to his Uncle before rolling his eyes. He let go of his Uncle's hand and gave him a pointed looked that Kurt took to mean 'sort it out!'
Kurt and Jane watched as Sawyer went to his room and quietly closed his bedroom door. The silence was deafening. Kurt wanted to ask Jane what was the matter but he didn't know where to start. He shouldn't have bothered to worry about it as Jane spoke first. She turned around to face him and poked him in the chest.
"You need to be more careful! That boy in there…" Jane said as she pointed to Sawyer's room. "…that boy loves you! You cannot leave him alone, he's already lost his mom, he cannot lose you as well. That would kill him!"
Another poke to the chest and this one causing him to take a step back.
"He's not the only one that loves you. You have friends that love you! Your team loves you! You need to take better care of yourself!"
Jane could barely make Kurt out, she could see his basic shape but that was it. Her eyes were too bleary due to her tears. Tears that she didn't realise were streaming down her face.
A third poke
"There are people that love you…" Kurt couldn't take the pain that Jane was in, she was hurting so much. He moved to take her into his arms and it was as if the dam finally broke. Jane sobbed her heart out. The sound and tears were so heart and gut wrenching. Kurt hugged her to him and she clung on as if her life depended on it. His shirt was getting soaked but he didn't care. She must have held everything in until she knew that he was going to be fine. He held her close to his body, one hand on her lower back and the other on the back of her head. Even though she was in pain and currently clinging to him, she still took care to avoid where he was injured. He couldn't help but kiss her temple and whisper "I'm fine, I'm here" every so often. He didn't time how long she was in his arms for, he just held her for as long as she wanted. He thought how he would feel if their roles had been reversed and his eyes teared up. He let a few tears escape, he couldn't help it. The weeping continued, neither knew how long they stood there for. Kurt periodically kissed her temple and whispered into her ear. Jane didn't loosen her grip at all. All of the horror since she saw Kurt shot was coming out now. She kept on seeing him on the ground just bleeding out. The resounding beat of his heart helped calm her down. If she could hear that then he must be fine. She continued to listen to the rhythmic heartbeat.
Eventually she calmed down enough to stop the crying, and then came the realisation of the fact that she was in Kurt's arms, they were really strong and safe she thought. Not only was she in his arms but he was kissing her temple, the scratch of his stubble was so comforting and she liked it even more than she thought she would. She froze at the thought of having to pull away and face him after her meltdown. He noticed when she became aware of her situation, he felt her stiffen. Jane was not one to hide from anything, he felt her hands let go of him and felt her push away from him.
He looked down into the most gorgeous, expressive green eyes that he'd ever seen and he could see the love in them, love for him. He'd been such an idiot but he always learnt from his mistakes. She was looking at him in wonder. Maybe she could see what was in his heart, he hoped so at least.
He knew he should wait and they should talk but he'd wasted enough time already, he took her face in his hands and slowly pulled her closer to him. He didn't want to rush her in case he completely misread the situation; he moved closer to her and pulled her closer. He watched as her eyes fluttered shut and that was all the confirmation he needed. He closed the distance quickly and their lips met. Hers were so soft. It was a short and sweet kiss, literally a meeting of their lips. He pulled back to see her open her eyes to see a glazed look in them. She must have liked what she saw in his because she wrapped her arms around his waist and pulled him closer and they moved as one where their second kiss was longer and conveyed more than the first. Neither could get enough of the other. At one point they decided to deepen their kiss. The kiss carried on, no longer were either of them tentative, they each let their feelings into the kiss, the kiss that was so long in coming. It didn't disappoint at all, it was everything and more than either of them ever thought or wished it could be. Kurt couldn't believe that he was here with Jane in his arms and they were kissing. It felt right in every sense. He felt as if he was home.
Kurt is actually kissing me and he seems to be enjoying as much as I am thought Jane. She dreamt of this so many times but the dreams paled into comparison to the reality of having Kurt devour her with his mouth.
They reluctantly parted but only because oxygen became a necessity. They slowly pulled away from the other but they didn't step away from the other. Kurt placed his forehead against Jane's and they remained like that for a while, both with their eyes closed savouring the moment both breathing rapidly. Kurt took Jane's hands in his; they were as close as could be. Both were trying to focus on their breathing. They both felt the change at the same time; they squeezed their hands at the same time. They could feel someone watching them, as one, without any words being exchanged, they turned, hands still connected. They stood side by side, hands still interlinked to face Sawyer. Sawyer was just standing there, no expression on his face, staring at them. Before either of them could open their mouths to say something, anything, Sawyer beat them to it.
"Finally! It's about time!"
A/N: Jane's sobbing at the end of this was supposed to be a tribute to Emma Thompson's character in Sense and Sensibility, I'm not too sure if I've conveyed it enough but that was what I was going for.
The next chapter is very long so I will need to divide it into at least two or maybe more parts.