Well its been 2 months since I came to this fucking horrible universe. Why is it horrible? It's because I have to work my ass off with no information and no one to teach me. since I am not a clan kid all I get is teacher instructions on a family member showing me shortcuts or clan secrets of how to do things. And another thing that pisses me off all those things that you hear about from fan fic are horse crap, on how they easily develop skills.

So, my month has been nothing but propaganda and being told stuff to indoctrinate us into believing the leaf is the end all be all of the world and if you should betray it you will suffer the worst horrible fate you can think of. Also, we have been shown how to do the leaf sticking exercise. But only the basics, because I know there is so much more to do with it to help your control. Because of this I have been wearing sleeveless shirts and have been randomly putting a leaf on my arm and tried to add more constantly. Currently I am up to 2 leaves. Might now sound like much but the reason they start you on the head is because its an easy focal point and a major tenketsu point that also helps. It took forever to make it stick and not blast it away.

So far, I have taken some notes in a separate book I have with ideas I have come up with. My own little black book. In it I have come up with exercises in an order I think that will help me progress the fastest on the road for ultimate control. I have come to the conclusion I need ultimate control because I need to become a medic in this village because they never get sent out and are horded in the hospital. This will be my best chance to not die other then when PAIN comes and at that time I will have to be out of the village.

Currently I have come up with a number of exercises, they are as follows

Get up to 5 leaves on my arms are legs in total.

Move onto just one leaf and try to move it around in a circle.

Make all of the leaves spin in the same direction then alternating.

Make the leaves rotate around my body parts instead.

Add more leaves to the rotation.

Make alternating rotations.

Now make them spin and move around the body part.

Try and hover a leaf above the skin.

Try and add in previous control methods but having hovering leaves.

These are the only ideas I have had this month, but since they sound nice, I figure I should eventually be able to master them if I want to be a great medic, because I will need crazy control. The other thing I am doing to try and raise my reserves, is before bed I put my feet to the wall above my bed when I am ready for sleep. from there I walk up 1 step and try and hold myself there as long as possible until I'm tired and fall a foot to my bed and pass out. I never let myself get to chakra exhaustion but just to the point of being tired. I am doing this to try and increase my reserves if what I remember from the show on what Kakashi told the pinket. So far, I can hold it for 5 seconds. Because what they haven't told you is that you have to reinforce your body with chakra so you just not hyper extend your ankles. So, in reality you use a lot of chakra doing this and especially since its my first month here and I'm 8 I can't expect much.

As per the kids in class I suck at making friends. I just can't relate to 8 year old's, either they are fan boys and girls or they are to good for a civ orphan. I have a number of clan kids in my class so SHAPER does get a chance to touch and check them out, but that's because I am getting hit from them in the sparing sessions and not for any other reason. I am starting to think I'm going to have to add in grappling into the Academy Taijutsu so when I get older and stronger, I can grab someone and have SHAPER disable them or kill them. This means I am probably going to have to go with as much skin as possible to let SHAPER do its job. Please don't let me look like a douche when I am only wearing cargo shorts and a head band as a belt.

Another thing that they do at the academy is toss heavy rubber kunai at you randomly. I think they are doing this to try and instill you with paranoia and also to ramp up your chakra enhanced senses. I figure when you are attacked at highspeed from a ninja you need to be able to respond just as fast from a dead relaxed stop and not just get one shot. I can see how this would be useful and we are even asked if we want to be targeted more often. I assume this also helps them sort out the real ninjas from the fanboys and girls.

Another lesson learned is that the only way to fail the academy is through medical reasons and that is more of multi lost body parts. Because they will find a way to use you, if you can't be good enough to join a team you are added to the genin pool to fill slots on teams. That genin pool is constantly used for low level admin work or wall patrols or even ferrying non-sensitive information around. Also, all the other divisions will look at the pool to find new recruits. For example, you don't need to be a prodigy with nin arts to work in T & I and others like the diplomatic core. So, in the end once you're in your in unless you have a sugar momma or papa to pay your way out. When there is a war that pool becomes cannon fodder and you are fucked, because they rather loose you then one of their jonin to some fodder with an explosive dead man seal. And through listening around there are such things during war times.

Fuck even more reason I am working my ass off to become a medic. So I don't have to become a suicide bomber. The leaf might preach about teamwork and shit but when your down and about out you do anything you can to come out ahead.

With regards to the indoctrination I just smile and nod my head. I refuse to let it seem like I could care less if they place gets wiped out. With what we have learned and what our books show us the history section will be simple to pass on the tests. The issue I am going to have to work out is all the strategy and best way to kill someone. Did I mention its still war time curriculum? But at least with this kind of things I can ingrain it into my personality and reactions so I don't die just by someone sparing with me and get a lucky shot and I end up with kunai sticking out of my body in uncomfortable places.

Oh well this month has been nothing but school and training. I would study but we don't find anything interesting in my library until our second year. I think that has to do with having some common sense and waiting till we are scared of dyeing from fucking up after a year of rubber kunai and getting our asses kicked. If that hadn't been done to a kid, I'm sure they would have found the first fire spell and burned down their place.

And with the whole Naruto thing I think I am fucked. Do you know why its because there is no Naruto its twin girls named Naruko and Kama which is probably short for kamaboko. Kushina should have not been allowed to name her kids. Both kids have whisker marks but one has blond hair and one has red hair. So as of right now I'm fucked when it comes to future knowledge. With this change I don't know what to do other then keep going like the way I have been. The only issue is that I can assume nothing not even the possibility of the snake attacking. God did I mention how much I hate this universe. I am so going to learn fuinjutsu and space time my ass out of this universe if it's the last thing I do. Hell, I still plan to try and get Sasuke DNA and touch Kakashi to get Obitos Sharingan DNA and hope I can give myself some space time eyes without the whole blind and crazy thing they seem to have going on.

One thing I must add is Ichiraku ramen is soooo good. I can understand why he was portrayed to eat so much of it. also, I have been walking around the village and seeing what there is to buy for me and they actually sell introductory fuinjutsu set and how to make a storage seal but only to academy students and above. Also, the same goes for anything deadlier then training kunai, those only have pointed tips but dull sides. Stuff like swords and battle axes or paper bombs need a ninja license. Again, they seem to not be stupid with what 8-year-old and civ can do with these kinds of things.

Anyways I think I am going to pass out again from so much chakra usage and my running laps around the village streets till I'm tired to build up endurance.