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Power writing!
Like I said, I had wanted to make the other chapter longer.
And I felt so bad to leave it on that cliffhanger after all your wonderful reviews!
So, yes, here it is! What happened afterwards...
Enjoy!
Vergiss
Jack froze on the spot. Even after he heard his own words echo across the forest canopy, they continued to reverberate in his mind like a maddening mass of mosquitoes. Time took a temporary hiatus as those few seconds elapsed an eternity for him. He could only gape, horrified, at Toothless's face. He hadn't meant to take it that far. He didn't mean to…
He watched as Toothless's expression changed from identical shock to one of complete and utter despair. The raven-haired haired boy bit his lip and his emerald eyes glistened with so much pain that Jack felt as though he had just pulverized his heart. Regret stabbed like a needle into his own heart, above all else he wished he could take back everything he had said. He had crossed the forbidden line. He had said out of anger the thing he knew would hurt Toothless the most. What would rip open that festering scar.
Jack didn't even realize he had stopped breathing until his vision started to cloud in front of him. He sucked in a deep gasp and fumbled to find the words that could fix the enormous wrong he had just committed. If only he could take it all back…
But just as quickly as the hurt had appeared across Toothless's eyes… it vanished. In its place was held an inexplicably smug expression. Those piercing eyes stared Jack down and his mouth turned up into a knowing smirk.
"So the truth finally comes out then," he rumbled.
Jack struggled to steady his breath as he frantically tried to take everything back. "N-n-no! Toothless! I-"
"Stop calling me that," he demanded sternly as his smirk faded into a frown, his presence all of a sudden feeling more ominous than before.
"I didn't mean it!" Jack gasped, "I was just…mad and-"
"But you thought it," Luka interrupted as he drilled his gaze into Jack.
"No! I wasn't thinking at a-"
"It bothers you doesn't it?" he asked in a low tone while raising an eyebrow and tilting his head slightly.
Jack only stared at him for a moment, trying to figure out what he meant.
Finally he found his voice and responded, "Of course it does. I trusted you. The only reason I moved out here in the first place was because I trusted you and wanted things to be like they were before. And then for you to turn around and pull something like-"
"No." Luka calmly interrupted again, causing Jack to stop midsentence and gaze up at the raven-haired boy. He continued, "That's not it. It goes back further than that…"
"What are you talking about?" Jack asked afraid of where Luka was going with this. He felt unable to pull his gaze away from the raven-haired boy's eyes as they bore into his mind. Jack felt as though he could see right through to his innermost thoughts. Thoughts he himself wasn't aware he had.
Luka's mouth curved back up into a smirk as he uncrossed his arms and took a step closer to Jack. He stopped mere inches from him, his eyes more piercing than ever, his pupils contracted to pinpricks as he breathed in a low airy hum, "It hurts you. You can't help but loathe how Hic forgives me so easily for everything and, yet, you can't just as quickly let it go. So much that you go to lengths to lie to him so that you can be the one to help him instead. Because a part of you will always wonder if he would rather have me over you…" His eyelids closed partly in such a way that made him appear dreamlike as he added, "And it bothers you so much that I seemingly have no problem letting other people fuck me when you never even tried yourself."
Jack furrowed his brow and he immediately took a step backwards from the raven-haired boy.
"What are you talking about?" he demanded, completely taken aback by the direction the conversation had taken. "I never tried because you don't like it." And that was the truth. Luka would always grow nervous and sometimes hyperventilate if either Jack or Hiccup so much as tried anything in the realm of penetration with him.
"Did I ever tell you to stop?" he asked, a slight curiosity ringing in his tone.
"N-no…"
"Well what was really stopping you then?" he probed.
Jack could only stare up at him with his mouth hanging open. What was stopping him? What kind of a question was that? As if the idea of him not enjoying something wasn't reason enough? Why wouldn't-
"You can't imagine actually doing it to me," Luka said, a certainty hanging on his every syllable. "You can't bring yourself to see me how countless others before you have…"
"N-n-no. That's not it," Jack choked out, his eyes growing wider. "I don't see you like that! And I didn't mean what I said before, I was just-"
"So do it then," Luka ordered, all expression fading from his face as he stared Jack down.
"…what?" Jack asked completely stunned.
"Do it. Fuck me."
"Have you completely lost it?" Jack cried out flabbergasted.
"Come on," Luka growled as he reached out to wrap an arm around Jack's waist and pull him forward. "If you always wanted to, then do it. I'm giving you permission."
"You're crazy!" Jack yelled as he tried to take a step away, but Luka held him fast.
"See? I knew you thought so…" he said as he slid a hand under the waistband of Jack's shorts and grabbed hold of him before languidly stroking him.
Jack let out a surprised cry and his knees automatically buckled from the sudden feeling of someone touching him like that. He grabbed hold of Luka's shoulder and arm to support himself as Luka's hand picked up speed and pressure.
He…He didn't want this though.
"Get off of me!" he screamed as he shoved himself away from the raven-haired boy. Jack stumbled back several paces before catching his balance on the uneven earth. Panting, he raised his head to meet Luka's smug gaze again. He stood tall and watched Jack with amusement as the smirk returned to his face.
Jack's shoulders shook from his uneven breathing and the sudden onset of fear flowing through his body. He didn't know who the person in front of him was anymore. All he knew was that he didn't want to be there anymore.
Without saying a word, he turned and bolted out the way they had come.
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By the time Jack arrived home, sweat was pouring out of every pore in his body, his shirt plastered against his torso and droplets sliding down his hair and face. He was panting with such a ferocity from the speed in which he had traversed the distance. The adrenaline and fear giving him all the more energy. He was surprised he hadn't thrown up.
Shutting the door behind him, he collapsed against the heavy wood and slid to the floor trying to catch his breath. But the air stung and constricted his throat while his lungs ached from the exertion. He could hardly believe what had happened. The things Luka said to him…They terrified him. Mostly because Jack knew he was right.
Luka…Jack wondered if he would be back soon. How could he face him again? And Hiccup…
He walked over to the kitchen and glanced at the clock. Hiccup would be home soon…and he would have to go to class. What if Luka came back and acted the same way towards Hiccup?
No…he wouldn't do that. If there was anything Luka would never do, it would be to upset Hiccup. At least he wouldn't do so on purpose. But maybe…
"Benedikt!" Jack called hoping with all his might that the older twin was home.
But there was no answer.
Shit…
Feeling at a loss, Jack decided the only thing he could do was wash himself off and hope the shower would clear his head. But after fumbling his way upstairs and into the bathroom, he realized how hard it was for him to control his limbs. They felt like they were made of jelly. They trembled with such a ferocity as he undressed that he was afraid he was going into metabolic shock. He quickly turned on the sink and scooped handfuls of water into his mouth trying to offset the dehydration he knew he had.
After getting into the shower, he knelt down in tub and washed himself as quickly as his weak and shaking limbs would allow. All the while, he couldn't stop straining his ears, worried that Luka would come back. He didn't want to face him now. He was legitimately afraid of the raven-haired boy. The only other time Jack had felt like that around him was when Jack found him in the club and Luka confessed to him everything he had ever done. How he was tied to Anna's parents' murder… He had said all of this to Jack with a straight face. His emerald eyes piercing into him and how Jack felt violated just being exposed to that penetrating stare…He couldn't even believe it was the same Luka.
To his relief, the spasms seemed to calm down by the time he was done. He got out and got ready for class in record time before slowly going downstairs and making himself a sandwich. Hopefully food would cure him of the tremors. As he ate, he figured he should at least warn Benedikt. He sent him a text and grabbed his bookbag before leaving the house to catch the train.
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Toothless's breath was ragged as he desperately tried to stop himself from hyperventilating. But he couldn't stop Jack's words from echoing through his mind over and over and over and over and…
He sucked in a deep breath and buried his face in his knees while rocking back and forth on his heels as he remembered the anger in Jack's eyes. How they looked at him with such rage and disgust. But…Toothless would never do anything like that to them… He loved them, he wouldn't…he didn't do anything. He didn't do anything…
"Nothing but a daddy's boy…"
"Stop crying, you know you want it…"
"Just fucking relax. At least let me finish."
"No one will ever love you like I do, Luka."
"You look so beautiful…"
"If you tell anyone, your brother's next."
"Who could love a used up whore?"
Toothless gasped again and gripped his arms harder while continuing to rock himself as comments from his past leeched into his mind as well. Jack didn't trust him. He hated him. He didn't love him anymore…
But try as he might, Toothless couldn't recall what happened to him to even prove Jack wrong. He took a deep breath and tried to gain control over his memory. He only had a couple beers and a couple shots. It wasn't enough to knock him out. Unless someone…
But they were his friends… They wouldn't slip him anything like that. Who would have even wanted to kiss him?
He collapsed backwards into a sitting position and leaned his back against the tree as he gazed up into the golden canopy. The sun had moved quite considerably…How long had he been sitting there?
Rubbing his palms against his eyes to dry his face, he stood up and turned to make his way out of the forest. He had no other choice but to make his way back home and somehow face Jack again. But…hopefully he had left for class already. But what would he say to Hiccup?
He battled with that question all the way back. And even as he walked in, he was surprised to see Hiccup walking downstairs.
"Hey bud," he greeted as he reached the foot of the stairs. Toothless couldn't help but feel relieved to see his eyes light up a little. Hic always looked happy to see him…Maybe Jack hadn't told him what happened…
"Hey," he replied quickly veiling the sadness in his voice.
Hiccup hesitated for a moment and looked at him quizzically. "What's wrong?" he asked concerned.
Damn, how did Hiccup always know when something was bothering him? He was almost better than Bene…
"Nothing," he said attempting to smile a little to offset the stoicism in his expression that must have been the giveaway.
"Alright…" Hiccup said uncertainly as he made his way into the kitchen. "Have you been out on a run this whole time?"
"Yeah…" he replied slowly, all of a sudden unsure how long he was gone. It had to be at least two hours if Jack was gone for class and Hiccup was home.
"You want some water?" Hiccup called from the kitchen and Toothless heard him turn the faucet on.
Toothless walked to the entryway and leaned on the doorway while Hiccup filled him a glass.
"Here," he said smiling kindly as he handed it off to Toothless.
"Thanks," he responded, taking the glass and drinking the liquid greedily.
"You're bleeding." Hiccup observed, concern threading into his voice.
Toothless lowered the cup and followed Hiccup's gaze to his arms and he was shocked to find that blood has smeared and dried all across them.
"It's on your neck too," he added pointing to Toothless's neck.
Toothless raised a hand and felt the crustiness of dried blood on his neck and shoulder.
"I uh…yeah. I got lost and ran into um…" he snapped his fingers a couple times as he couldn't think of the English name. So he gave up and said simply, "Brennnessel. I must not have realized that I was itching so hard…" he lied looking back at his arm. "I better go wash off."
"…ok," Hiccup said uncertainly as he watched Toothless turn and leave the kitchen.
Toothless made his way upstairs and into the bathroom to examine himself in the mirror. He saw his own eyes widen back at him after he noticed blood smeared all across his neck, shoulder, and down the backs of his upper arms. Turning on the faucet, he washed all the damaged areas as best as he could and the telltale crescent shape mark of nails were dug into several places on his arms, while scratches were dug across his neck and shoulder. He was so upset he didn't even realize how hard he had been clutching his arms…
The injuries only reminded him of what had happened in the woods and the hurt surged across his chest again. He had lied to Hiccup and he hated lying to him. He had done so when living at the Guardians only to protect him from his family, but that had turned and backfired in the worst of ways. After that he had sworn to himself never to lie to him again.
But…he couldn't bring himself to repeat what had happened between Jack and him in the woods. He didn't want Hiccup to look at him like Jack had…
Quickly realizing his eyes were watering again, he wiped an arm across them and walked out of the bathroom. He couldn't stay here, he had to leave until he could figure things out. He needed to find Tom and figure out what happened that night…
Woah goodness...
So tell me, do you like or hate Toothless?
Or maybe just feel really bad for him?
What's going to happen to him? Why is he acting that way? What will Jack tell Hiccup?
Lemme know! Your comments gave me motivation last time and the next chapter will have equal if not more drama...
Special Thanks to:
moonshadowcuteness1 and HuskaAkita for your follow and favorites!
DragonFireFT: Yes, there is so much tom-fuckery going on, I can't even handle it myself! And thanks for being so understanding! I love writing, if I don't update, it's just because I didn't have time to. And I also have my other story to think about on top of this. But thank you for the review! Hopefully this chapter made you WTF some more xP
Tigermike83: They both definitely have their issues, as you probably noticed. Thanks for the comment! I hope you keep reading :3
Kigen Dawn: I bet you'll definitely have mixed feelings for Luka. Did they change at all after this chapter?
EmilyxJane: I was hungry when I wrote about the apple... And, hah, I honestly had to drill my memory to figure out what you were talking about. I was like..."When was there a forest in my last story...OOHHHHH" haha. I had a brainfart. I really like forests though...I wonder why I keep letting bad things happen in them. And I hope I'm not making your heart hurt too much! The fluff has just taken a hiatus at the moment...
HuskaAkita: You mean hiding everything from Hiccup? Yeah, well, maybe Hic isn't as clueless as they think he is... And, trust me, I try to update as soon as I can. I am writing another story and have a lot of work at the moment. After May it should calm down. But hopefully you liked this chapter! :3
Teddy: I felt so bad not being able to reply to your reviews for the longest time! I figured doing it this way would be a nice way to give a public shout out to everyone who takes the time to leave feedback. I really appreciate them and want to give all of you the most kudos for doing so :) But, eh...your poor heart. I'm sorry I'm so mean to my characters...if it was cute all the time I couldn't have a story though. I'm glad you'll keep reading!
BlackNightRaven1: hahaha I'm so, so sorry. I'm a really mean author to both my characters and readers. But I at least wanted to leave it on not as heavy of a cliffhanger, so hopefully this chapter appeased you somewhat. And I'm so glad to hear you're getting into it!
Elder The 1st: Well, this arc will mostly focus on Toothless and if he can get better. It also will go into ideas about jealousy and forgiveness. But...really who knows. I might come up with something else halfway through. I tend to do that. But thanks for reading and leaving a comment!
