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Oh my how time flies.

However...this chapter comes with a lot of warnings. Adult readers only, please.

It also was the primary inspiration behind me even writing the sequel in the first place.

So I really hope you all..enjoy it? Appreciate it? It's hard to find the right word.

There is sexual content. There is also descriptions of sexual abuse. I was hesitant to post this chapter, because of that reason. However, these are scenarios that happen far too often and tragically in life to ignore. I hope I do the characters and the situation justice. That part was horrifically difficult for me to write.

However, if I have younger readers, I ask that you skip when prompted to. It won't affect your understanding of the story.

Although, I know those that have stuck with me for this long are mature enough to make the right choices for themselves.

Anyhoo...I hope you get something out of this chapter.

Beichte

Toothless had been lounging on the bed he regrettably only occasionally shared with his partners. He had kept to his personal vow and avoided sleeping or really being in their room at all, resigning himself to his loneliness in the attic space in an attempt at building up the courage to bare himself to Hiccup and Jack again. Truth was, he was in the final stretch of trying to reestablish open communication with his partners. He knew that their relationship could only be salvaged if he made the effort to tell them everything...which scared him to his very core. Even imagining himself revealing certain things started to give him heart palpitations. His chest would tighten, and images would flash across his mind's eye in rapid succession. Revealing his secrets not only meant risking rejection, the thing he feared most, but also meant that he needed to confront his demons one on one. Things he did everything in his power to suppress. But Toothless was already convinced that his lack of honesty was what started the whirlwind of chaos they had all gone through, and he needed to be the one to amend it, even if it was just piece by piece. He missed everything they used to have. How much he had grown to accept and long for the touches they used to give him instead of shying away like he had often done. He missed Hiccup hugging him anytime he walked into a room and saw him there, Jack gently stroking his fingers along his hair while he slept...the light kisses they would leave at any opportunity… It wasn't about the sex. To Toothless, for the longest time, sex was… nothing to him. It was a favor or a commodity to be traded. However...for Hiccup and Jack...it was different. They finally showed Toothless what intimacy was. What it meant to let yourself be vulnerable with another person. All of that had disappeared from their lives after Toothless had run away. Even after they all reunited, it was too late. They had built up walls around themselves after that. And Toothless knew that they needed to start over again if they wanted to go back. They needed to talk.

Therefore, he had been waiting in their bedroom for almost half an hour now. He forgot how freaking long it took Jack to shower sometimes. He was waiting, since Jack was the final piece to his own puzzle. Toothless had already spoken with Hiccup, which...didn't turn out as he had expected. He didn't expect Hiccup to accidentally unearth remnants of his past that Toothless had successfully buried away in his mind for years.

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"Kneel down for me, Luka."

"Why?"

"It makes for a better photo. The human body is beautiful, you shouldn't feel embarrassed my dear."

"But I-"

"Just a few photos, love." A hand rested on his back. "To show the difference before and after your training. After this, I'll take you out. I'll let you pick out a new video game."

"...Bene too?"

"Of course, my dear. Anything you want."

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My dear…

Toothless gasped after realizing he had stopped breathing and shook his head vigorously as if shaking away insistent flies. He focused instead on his breathing, watching his chest slowly rise and fall as he counted backwards from twenty. Inhale-Exhale-Forget-Inhale-Exhale He needed to pull himself together if he was going to talk to Jack. He couldn't dwell on things that weren't his choice. He couldn't...he couldn't think about- Inhale-Exhale Telling Jack, however, was his choice, he affirmed to himself. Something he had control over.

Toothless's attention refocused once he heard the shower turn off. Moments later, Jack walked out of the bathroom with the towel wrapped around his waist.

He paused after seeing Toothless on the bed. The raven-haired boy normally didn't hang out in their room when either he or Hiccup were in there.

"Hi…" he greeted awkwardly before resuming his previous intention of getting dressed. He walked over to their wardrobe while asking, "Are you second guessing having me help you tomorrow?" he asked while pulling clothes out of his drawer, obviously assuming why Toothless needed to talk to him in private. The only reason Toothless would wait for him like this would be to talk business. He probably assumed that Toothless didn't want him helping intercept the drop-off tomorrow. Which...he wasn't wrong.

Toothless, however, had to tear his eyes away from a water droplet sliding down Jack's back and look up at the ceiling before answering. "No...I uh...there's something else I've been meaning to talk to you about."

"Oh?" Jack asked, his curiosity undoubtedly piquing. Toothless kept his eyes glued to the plaster above him while Jack continued pulling on his pants.

"Are you gonna tell me what it is?" Jack asked after a prolonged silence as he pulled a shirt over his head, to Toothless's silent relief.

"Yeah...just figured I'd wait for you to be finished…" Toothless muttered quietly.

"Why are you being so weird?" Jack asked, his eyes practically sparkling with intrigue as he moved to sit on the bed alongside Toothless's legs.

Toothless swallowed as he contemplated how to start. Talking to Hiccup had been difficult….but telling Jack his secret was a million times harder. He had been keeping it for years now...

"Luka?" Jack asked, his smile fading as he started to sense the tension Toothless was experiencing.

Toothless sat up and moved to the edge of the bed to sit next to Jack.

After taking a deep breath, he finally admitted in a low tone, "I remember what happened in the woods. What my alter said to you…"

"Look...Toothless...You don't have to worry about that," Jack stated in a low tone, albeit, he sounded hesitant. "It's fine. I understand-"

"It's not that," Toothless interrupted as he stared at his knees while sitting on his hands. "He said that you have always been afraid that Hiccup loves me more than you, right?" Glancing up at Jack out of the corner of his eye, he noticed the brunette clench his jaw as he recalled the disturbing memory. "That still bothers you, doesn't it?" Toothless confirmed more than asked.

Jack shook his head dismissively, but clearly not confidently rejecting the notion.

"He knew it'd bother you if he said that," Toothless murmured as he returned his gaze to his knees. "He knew it, because I know it. And I know it...because I feel the exact same way about you."

Jack's brows came together and after several moments of feeling Jack's eyes focusing on him, Toothless finally looked up to connect with his crystalline gaze. Toothless shook his head slightly and gave an exasperated smile before elaborating, "I've always been afraid that you loved Hiccup more than me."

Jack didn't move or say anything for a minute. He simply stared at the raven-haired boy, who could only look at him with pleading eyes. Toothless had calculated what he was going to say up until this moment. Truth was, he had no idea how Jack was going to respond…

"But…" Jack started, Toothless clearly identifying the nervousness in his tone. "You and Hic have always had this...bond. He made you laugh the second day you met him...It took me a year to get you to do that. And...and...all the stuff that happened with you and him at your dad's..."

"Jack…" Toothless interrupted before he could prattle on what he was sure were all the reasons for fearing the way he did. "I didn't choose for Hiccup to know those things about me. I didn't ask for him to see me-

"Stay with me, my love…"

Toothless swallowed heavily unable to complete his sentence as the memory found its way to the surface. "It just happened," he added blanketly trying to steer his mind back, "but with you...you were the first person I willingly told anything to." he said, his voice growing strained as he recalled his first ever confession to Jack. "Did you ever stop to think how difficult that was for me? To actually tell you what my dad..." he trailed off, biting his tongue and unable to finish his thought. "I-I-I just," he started stuttering again. The speech impediment marking his transition to English and early teens occasionally returning, " I just didn't w-w-want you to look at me like-"

"Like I looked at you in the woods…" Jack muttered in a low voice as he looked down at his knees. Toothless looked up at him in surprise. That wasn't what he was going to say; however, it wasn't wrong either. The way Jack had looked at him...the very memory of it still choked him up.

Jack clenched his fists around the sheets at the edge of the bed, but refused to raise his head. "I'm so sorry, Toothless," he confessed quietly, "I knew I had hurt you that day. I really did. I even thought I wanted to hurt you, because I was hurt too. But…" he glanced over at Toothless, his eyes glistening in the soft light, "I never want to see that much pain in your eyes ever again…" he whispered, remembering how distraught Toothless had looked.

Toothless felt disconnected. Jack..was sorry for hurting him? Even after what he did with Nico? Toothless cheated on Jack. He shredded whatever thin amount of trust he had in Toothless. And Jack was apologizing to him? Even after what his alter said…

"You can't stand to see me the way countless others have…" the deep voice of his alter self echoed in his mind like a ghost.

However, that still didn't quell Toothless's fear. "But you and Hiccup…" he started to say, unable to find the words.

Jack sighed again, not in annoyance, but rather to calm himself.

"You're right…" he whispered as he squeezed his hands together in his lap.

That bit into Toothless. His fears were confirmed and he started to feel tears prick the backs of his eyes.

Fuck...He hated crying so much now. For the longest time, he had managed to disconnect. To not feel. He hated having to be honest if it meant hurting himself. He knew this was going to happen. He knew that telling Jack would only bring himself pain. Jack really did want Hiccup more than him...Toothless should have just let them be together. He should never have brought them out here...

A cool hand on his own caused him to open his eyes and look over at the brunette, who was smiling warmly at him. His eyes glittering with what was undeniably love.

"Look…" he started to say, "After everything that happened...I did hate you for a while."

Toothless nodded his head solemnly and returned his gaze to his knees as he felt the tears continue to burn through.

"But," Jack continued as he reached up with his other hand to guide Toothless's chin to look at him again. "It was never real," he admitted softly as he gazed admirably into Toothless's eyes. "I only hated you, because it was easier to let myself feel that than to admit that I still loved you."

A stream managed to escape out of one of Toothless's eyes and flow down his cheek. Jack never stopped loving him? He loved him this whole time? Toothless quickly hid his face and turned his head to wipe his eye dry.

He sniffed and couldn't help the relief that washed over him. Jack still loved him... Toothless took a deep, yet shaky breath before turning to face Jack again. To tell him the secret he had never planned to share, "The thing is…," he started, "I've had feelings for you long before Hiccup even came to the Guardians," he admitted finally.

Instead of thoughtful contemplation like before, Jack gaped at Toothless like he had just heard him speak Russian.

"What?" Jack gasped before looking back up at Toothless while staring at him in utter incredulity. "You hated me when you first got to the Guardians."

"I mean…" Toothless shifted nervously. "Your constant banter bothered me at first but...I grew to like it. I grew to like you...You were my best friend," he finished softly.

And that was true. Jack was Toothless's first and ever best friend, apart from Benedikt. No matter how much Toothless tried pushing Jack away at first, Jack never ceded. He never gave up on him...Jack was his light back then. A pale light in all the darkness.

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"Toothless, wake up!" a distant voice called to him. He didn't want to be there. He didn't want any of it. The hands…

"TOOTHLESS!" the voice called even louder, causing Toothless to jolt upright, only to be met with splitting pain across his skull and a painful howl from Jack.

Toothless cradled his forehead in his lap, already feeling a bump start to swell after having accidentally knocked skulls with Jack upon scaring himself awake. He was sitting on his own bed...at the Guardians... the blankets twisted haphazardly around his body, indicative of his mid-nightmare thrashing.

A hand on his knee…

"Don't touch me…" he spit venomously while simultaneously flinching away from the hand.

"Are you ok?" Jack asked, his voice still strained from the pain. However, as he was holding his skull, he was peeking over at Toothless and monitoring his condition with...concern?

Toothless didn't say anything. He kept his eyes focused on his own legs. He didn't want to lie to Jack. Even though he'd grown rather used to lying. It came easily for him now.

However, he felt guilty lying to the white-haired boy...Perhaps because he was watching Toothless at the moment and, despite his throbbing skull, showed only concern for him.

"You were having a nightmare," Jack observed after realizing that Toothless wasn't going to talk to him. "A bad one...you were screaming."

Toothless pursed his lips and continued staring at his lap. The adrenaline and fear still making his heart race. However, a slight depression in the mattress caused him to glance up and see Jack make himself comfortable by sitting cross-legged at the end of his bed. Not even bothering to ask him if he was ok with it...At the same time...he didn't mind sharing his space with Jack.

"Do you want me to make you some of Sandy's tea?" Jack suggested kindly, only to receive a slow head-shaking from Toothless.

"Alright, I'll finish the story I was telling you yesterday," he said a little too chipper this early in the morning.

Toothless begrudgingly flopped back down on his bed and turned on his side, his back mostly to the white-haired boy. He knew Jack would continue talking, even if Toothless didn't feel like talking. That's what Jack did. Toothless never was sure why Jack insisted on talking to him, no matter how rarely Toothless ever answered..however…

"After we broke the window, the principal came out looking so pissed off and-"

Toothless actually smiled privately to himself, with his back still to Jack. Jack told him so many damn stories about his life that Toothless wasn't sure if he remembered what he was telling him. He just kept unraveling his life story to fill the silences. However...Toothless had to admit... as long as Jack's voice filled the void...Toothless was able to sleep a little easier…

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"How come you never said anything?" Jack asked still completely surprised at how long Toothless had had feelings for him, and also pulling Toothless out of his thoughts.

Toothless's smile fell a little. "And say what, Jack?" he asked exasperated. "You were always chasing after girls. I figured I never had a chance with you until..." he trailed off as he reflected fondly on the memory.

"Until what?" Jack prompted, pulling Toothless back to the present.

"Until you kissed me under the stage," Toothless replied looking back over to Jack, his expression suddenly a lot warmer. "At first I thought you were caught off guard or just...I don't know...not being serious about it. But then you told me you actually liked it…" he breathed finally, still basking in the feeling of that moment. It was probably one of the happiest moments of his life at that time.

Jack just gaped at him completely at a loss of what to say. He didn't even think Toothless thought of him as a good friend back then, let alone a crush. And he had been crushing on him for that long…?

"But then…" Toothless continued as he looked down at his knees again, "You stopped me. And you went back to Anna. Around the same time, Hiccup confessed to me and I just...you're right. I did connect to him right away. But with you...I don't know...you were different." His smile flickered before fading again. "But you both kept me at a distance, and, I figured I was trying to move too fast and made you uncomfortable. But then-"

"You walked in on me and Hiccup," Jack finished his thought for him again, this time causing Toothless to look up at him in surprise.

"Yeah…" he breathed, shocked that Jack had read his mind this time.

"So you were jealous," Jack affirmed remembering clearly Toothless's conversation after the event, albeit not patronizingly, just a mere observation.

Toothless shook his head. "Jealousy isn't the right word," he started thoughtfully, "I felt...like there was something wrong with me. Like, why the both of you came on to me, but stopped me saying you were uncomfortable, only to turn around and almost screw each other."

Jack sighed heavily. "I wasn't going to have sex with him, I told you that."

"Whatever," Toothless muttered not really caring about the particulars. He pushed his knees together uncomfortably.

"I mean…" Jack backtracked, clearly sensing Toothless's concern. "Alright, I'll be honest with you now," he began, causing Toothless to raise an eyebrow at him. "You were the first...not-girl I actually was able to admit to myself that I was attracted to." Toothless glanced over at him upon hearing that, and Jack continued, "But at the time...I didn't dwell too much on it. I just assumed it's because you're so…" he trailed off as Toothless furrowed his brow and started to look annoyed. "But I couldn't stop thinking about how I felt after kissing you," he changed the subject. "I really liked it. And that scared me a little. I guess I was just too intimidated to expose myself to you like that for a while. But with Hiccup...it just kinda happened. I think I might have used him at first to prove to myself that I really wasn't," he shrugged candidly, "straight...and then I had fallen in love with him and you before I even realized it."

Jack's voice cracked a little as he admitted his final confession, "I guess after seeing Hiccup's heart break so much over you after you left...then seeing how easily he forgave you for everything...I wanted him to feel that strongly about me. I found myself competing with you when you weren't even with us."

Toothless realized his breathing was a little heavy and he tried to steady himself by inhaling steadily through his nose. He had...made Jack start to question himself. Perhaps he didn't know everything about the blue-eyed boy after all…

But still, Toothless could still feel the weight of the guilt hanging on him. The look on Jack's face in the hospital. How he looked at Toothless after Toothless divulged his family's secrets. How he looked at him in the woods...

"I should never have run away…" he whispered, remembering how painful it was to be apart from them for over a year. How painful he knew it was on them as well. All the horrible shit he put himself through..."It's all I ever do…" his voice shuddered slightly. "I run from all my problems, because I'm too pathetic to confront anything."

"That's not true," Jack interrupted quietly as he looked back up at Toothless. "I mean...maybe when you're alone, you run. But when Hiccup was in trouble...you've thrown yourself in front of him every. single. time." Jack emphasized while recalling every instance Toothless had defended Hiccup. From Toothless's dad. In front of Dagur. From thugs on the street. In front of Caesar...

Toothless sniffed and shook his head, still unconvinced. "If it weren't for me, he would never have been in danger to begin wit-"

"Stop," Jack commanded firmly as he pierced his own crystalline gaze into Toothless's. Then after seeing what must have been a very saddened expression in Toothless's eyes, Jack softened. He reached up and gently brushed some of his obsidian hair off his face and looked at Toothless with admiration instead. "None of it was your fault…" he murmured.

"Huh?" Toothless couldn't help but utter, the words having difficulty processing through his mind.

He stared blankly at Jack, a stray tear escaping down his cheek. Jack's eyes shining with what was unquestionably love for him, his expression gentle. "Nothing that happened was your fault," Jack whispered again, still running his fingers through Toothless's hair. "None of it," he emphasized.

Toothless felt himself start to break down again. He grimaced and the tears pooled out of his eyes after hearing Jack actually say those words to him. It seemed like nothing. It might have meant little to Jack...but Toothless needed him to say that. The words he needed after so long...After hearing the opposite over and over and over and-

You were careless and you were pathetic…

You shouldn't have said anything...

You wanted it...or else you wouldn't have come here...

Jack coughed to collect himself and reached up with his sleeve to wipe Toothless's cheek again, which didn't cease the problem his eyes were experiencing.

Jack's smile flickered as he started to feel overwhelmed as well. He stroked Toothless's cheek before running his fingers down his arms and gently grasping his hand.

"I guess I just want everything to go back to how it used to be," he whispered. "When everything was so much simpler."

"It can't…" Toothless whispered. He wished it could too, but he knew that it was impossible. Too much had happened.

"It can though," Jack murmured. "Maybe not exactly the same. A lot of it's my fault for being so stubborn," he laughed half-heartedly. "But I want to forgive you," he said more seriously. "And I think I almost have," he murmured quietly before leaning into Toothless.

Toothless remained still and closed his eyes before feeling Jack gently kiss him like he had in the woods the other day. It was filled with more love and compassion than he had felt in a long time. Even though his cheeks still felt wet and his breathing was unsteady, he accepted everything Jack was willing to give him. He had bared himself to the blue-eyed boy and he longed to feel the love and acceptance he had been wholesomely lacking for well over a year now.

Jack leaned into him a little more as he reached a hand up to hold the side of Toothless's head. Toothless gasped a little bit, still struggling to return his breathing to normal, which caused Jack to pause and pull back slightly.

Jack then took Toothless's face in his hands and gently used his thumbs to wipe his tears, which still managed to flow, despite Toothless's efforts to stop himself.

"Is it weird I honestly kind of like making you cry?" he asked as an amused smile pulled at his lips.

"Tsch," Toothless tutted as he retracted and pushed Jack away from him. "That's really fucked up, Jack," he choked out before giving in and wiping his own eyes with the heels of his hands.

"You're beautiful," Jack muttered as he gazed in wonder at Toothless. Toothless sniffed, not ready to look at him just yet, so Jack continued, "I know you don't believe me...or Hic. But you are...Everything about you is," he breathed in adoration. "And seeing you like this...you're real. You say the old you doesn't exist anymore, but you're still there. And right now...you're not hiding it anymore. I like that...even if it feels like I'm bullying you," he said laughing lightly to himself.

Toothless sardonically smirked, glad that Jack at least admired how hard it was for him to talk about himself like this...even if for some insane reason Jack liked seeing him cry. He was so used to deadening himself that he had never let himself get like this with Hiccup or Jack. He didn't want them to see how much pain he actually felt. He wanted to be like them.

That was until Toothless realized that Jack had suffered as well before coming to the Guardians. He had lost his sister...his mom. Yet, Jack was still the opposite of him. He didn't deaden himself. His emotions were, while erratic, still vibrant and pure. Jack could easily hop from joy to rage to sympathy in a matter of minutes. Toothless wished he could be like that. He wished he didn't guard himself.

Ironically enough, Jack and Hiccup both managed to lower Toothless's guard, but in different ways. Hiccup's honesty and love managed to soften Toothless until he was at ease. Jack on the other hand, made Toothless envy and admire his emotional fluidity. Jack was the rare person who could pull emotion out of Toothless just by being near him.

"You can keep bullying me, if you want," Toothless offered finally able to summon a small smile and look back at the brunette.

Jack's grin broadened as he leaned back into him.

"Whatever you say, Schatzi," he conceded while taunting Toothless with his old pet name.

Toothless smiled for real after hearing Jack actually tease him like he used to again, before leaning back to give Jack control of their kiss. He didn't mind at this point. He wanted Jack to be in control, to heal his wounds for him. Toothless opened his mouth to entice Jack further, which he eagerly complied, allowing their tongues to entangle and their lips to gently press and pull apart as they lost themselves in each other again. Toothless didn't even bother pretending to be chaste anymore. He felt weightless and completely overjoyed. Jack had accepted his truth. The truth that Toothless had been hiding from him since before they were even together. On top of that, Jack even confessed his own secret.

Despite it all, Toothless knew things still weren't perfect between them. However, he hadn't felt like this in a long time. He only wanted to prove it to the blue-eyed boy... Ever in sync, Jack pushed himself more into Toothless, who relaxed onto his back, obliging Jack to crawl over him, supporting himself on his elbows and one of his knees between Toothless's legs.

Toothless felt as Jack suddenly became more insistent. He collapsed his body into Toothless, causing Toothless to gasp in surprise, Jack's kiss growing ever more urgent as he nipped and sucked on his lips.

Suddenly, Jack shoved himself off of Toothless, actually standing up and backing away from him as if he had touched fire.

"What's wrong?" Toothless asked as he sat up and grew more concerned as to why Jack had stopped all of a sudden.

"I...aren't you…" Jack trailed off as he covered his mouth with his hand, as if he had just committed some kind of vulgar sin. Removing his hand he elaborated, "When are you...done?" he asked clearly referring to Toothless's sex sabbatical.

Toothless smiled at Jack's respect for his abstinence decision before smoothly pushing himself up to stand in front of him.

"Technically, it ended when I finished confessing to you and Hic," he said as he bit his lip and reached out to grasp the bottom of Jack's shirt. He pulled the shirt up and Jack's eyes widened as understanding of Toothless's implications suddenly dawned on him.

Lifting his arms to allow Toothless to undress him, he asked in eager confirmation, "So, you want to...with me?"

Toothless smiled and nodded his head.

Not even a second had passed before Jack had slammed his body back into Toothless, forcing Toothless to stumble backwards. Jack's arms reached up to cradle Toothless's head in his hands and angle it down so Jack could have complete access to mouth again.

Toothless couldn't stop the smile that adorned his face at Jack's eagerness. He had really missed being intimate with his lovers...however, the flashbacks had gotten worse and worse after they had reunited. Even before his diagnosis, Toothless had avoided intimacy with them. The guilt gnawing relentlessly on his brain, which took its revenge by tormenting him with visions of his past. But now...he was at ease. The absence had given him time to heal and appreciate everything he had with them. It also proved to him their relationship was more than sex. That Jack and Hiccup would go on loving him no matter what. Although, that didn't stop him from feeling excited. Jack seemed more than willing to expose his eagerness as well. Jack had always been particularly feisty when it came to sex, and he was more than willing to unleash all the passion he had been withholding for the greater portion of the year on him...

This was what Toothless's mind had wandered to when he had seen the the trickle of water slide down the beautiful curves of Jack's back. He hadn't exactly planned this. He knew that if he had confessed his secret, then he had achieved his goal of establishing open communication with his two lovers and was ready to be intimate again. However, he didn't expect Jack to get turned on from all that...unless Toothless crying somehow accomplished that. Figured.

Regardless of the reason, Toothless wasn't about to stop him.

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WARNING: Adult content follows.

Skip down to break if too explicit.

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Matching Jack's fervor, Toothless yanked off Jack's belt and undid his pants in record time, Jack not even pausing in his relentless onslaught of Toothless's lips and tongue as he let Toothless strip him off his clothes. Toothless ran his hands along the smooth planes of Jack's stomach and sides while tipping his head back to give Jack full access to his throat. Toothless let out a hiss as Jack bit at the soft skin, his impatience building and Toothless remembering how much he had missed the fiery passion of his blue-eyed lover. Jack's hands greedily shoved themselves under Toothless's shirt and hastily pushed the fabric up as he continued assaulting Toothless's neck with his teeth. Toothless finally conceded, reaching down to pull his own shirt over his head before pulling Jack's body eagerly back against his.

He missed this. The feeling of Jack's skin against his own, his warm breath against his neck, the soft growls Jack coaxed out of him as he licked and bit his throat. He loved the feeling of Jack.

Sliding a hand up, Toothless rolled Jack's nipple between his fingers, the smaller boy's back arching earnestly into his touch, prompting Toothless to reach a hand around to run his fingers along his back, softly scratching his nails into his pale, perfectly smooth skin before reaching down to firmly grip the shorter boy's buttocks, pulling their bodies together with more force in order to the feel the other's growing passion and need. Toothless groaned after feeling Jack's erection through his pants, but he resisted touching him, wanting to soak in how Jack's body felt against his after foregoing these touches for so long. Both of them were so eager to continue that Toothless didn't even know where to start. Jack was breathing heavily against his neck, his fingers burying themselves under the waistband of Toothless's jeans and stroking the sensitive skin of his hips trying to tease the raven-haired boy into giving him more. Jack then bent his head to seal his lips around one of Toothless's nipples, flicking his tongue erratically against the hard peak. Oh fuck did his miss his tongue...

Toothless bent his head down to nibble on the outside of Jack's ear before whispering, "Turn around."

Jack surprisingly obeyed Toothless's command, obviously deciding his need to feel Toothless's body was greater than his need to put up a fight. Toothless wrapped his arms around the smaller boy, running his fingers across his body one last time, Jack relaxing and sinking into the taller boy's touch. Delicately, Toothless pushed his hands under the waistband of Jack's underwear, pushing the confining materials down, dragging his fingers over Jack's thighs, while consciously avoiding a more intimate region.

Jack voluntarily stepped out of his unneeded garments. Then before Jack could resist, Toothless pulled him backwards and guided him onto the bed, with Toothless underneath and Jack on his hands and knees on top of him, but facing the opposite direction, the position enough to clearly communicate what Toothless wanted to do.

Panting slightly, Jack protested, "Why do I have to be on top?" he asked as he leaned over Toothless's still regretfully clothed pelvis, with his ass and junk in clear display of Toothless's eyes, who was doing all he could to keep himself from drooling at the tantalizing sight.

"What?" Toothless grinned slyly, "Are you shy?" he asked right before he craned his neck to drag his tongue from the tip of Jack's erection, over his balls, and then up between his ass before twirling it in small circles around that small pucker of skin, reducing Jack to a shuddering mess and him subconsciously sinking his hips lower to give Toothless total access.

"No…" his voice shook uncontrollably as he felt Toothless's hard tongue ring rub up along the length of his ass. "Everything's just...hanging in front of Oohh," a moan interrupted his concerns as he felt the tip of Toothless's tongue insert itself just ever so barely.

Not really paying any heed to Jack's embarrassment, Toothless smacked Jack on the ass before using both hands to greedily spread him so that nothing was left to the imagination. He just loved working his tongue on the both of them, reducing them to shivering, hot puddles before giving them some of the most intense orgasms they ever had. Regardless of Jack's sudden bout of modesty, Toothless knew he could make him forget about it in a moment.

Jack collapsed onto his elbows, his head lying flat on Toothless's still-clothed pelvis as he was overwhelmed with the feeling of Toothless's tongue hungrily shoving itself into him, his piercing teasing his rim in a way that made him see stars. God, he had missed him. After letting go of the anger and pain he had been holding onto, Jack was able to start trusting the raven-haired boy again. Then after hearing Toothless actually say he's had feelings for him this entire time…Jack realized that their relationship was more complex than he had previously thought. He ended up being to Toothless what Toothless was to Hiccup. It was...somehow comforting to know.

"OhhHh," he moaned into Toothless's crotch as he felt hot wetness practically swallow his cock. He gasped as Toothless gripped onto his thighs and pulled his hips back more so he could have easier access to his new ambition, which he continued to suck and swallow readily. Jack didn't know how much more he could take of this. Toothless hadn't even been working him that long and Jack was already feeling the insatiable need to cum. He couldn't wait for Toothless to take him deep and swallow all of him as he-

"Are you seriously going to make me do all the work?" Toothless asked exasperated as he ceased the relentless ravings of his tongue on Jack to lean over and laugh at the dazed look on the blue-eyed boy's face as he lay limply atop of him.

"Huh?" Jack asked as if he was just getting acquainted with reality. "N...No…" he eventually answered as he pushed himself up on his elbow and started fumbling with Toothless's jeans. Toothless had since switched to gently licking and nipping the smooth flesh of Jack's butt and thighs, obviously trying to take the edge off to encourage Jack to focus.

Jack delicately pulled apart the opening to Toothless's jeans and was surprised to still see he was so hard, even after spending most of his time pleasuring Jack. The realization gave Jack a spark of confidence, knowing that touching his body was enough to excite the raven-haired boy.

Jack teasingly kissed up the thin cloth of Toothless's underwear that was separating him from the bare feeling of Jack's lips. His lust was overwhelming him and he wanted so much to just swallow the raven-haired boy and hear him moan...however, this somehow felt like his and Toothless's first time again. At least metaphorically. He wanted to make it last.

Jack trailed his tongue along Toothless's erection, the soft fabric growing damp the more he played. Jack felt as Toothless blew cool breaths against his anus, before teasingly poking it with his tongue, causing the warmth in his groin to roll and swirl in anticipation. Angling his head, Jack pressed his lips against the underside of Toothless's erection and sucked.

Toothless sighed and Jack felt as he squeezed the flesh of his butt and spread him again, Jack's face growing warm from feeling so exposed. But he wasn't about to give in, yet.

Slowly sucking up the underside of Toothless's erection, Jack pushed his thumbs under the waistband of Toothless's underwear, rubbing teasing circles under his hip bones. Jack felt as Toothless lapped at Jack's own erection again, his tongue swirling about so erratically different than before that Jack knew he was growing impatient. Jack paused when he reached the sensitive head and focused his attention on sucking the underside of it, gently pulling the cloth and the skin up.

Toothless whined from the unfair treatment and Jack gasped as Toothless suddenly took him all the way into his throat, pulling a groan out of Jack and causing his face to flush.

Yeah...he's probably made him wait long enough.

Jack pushed down Toothless's underwear, Toothless's now proudly on display, and wasted no time taking Toothless entirely into his mouth and sucking his long-neglected length.

Toothless's reaction was immediate. Jack heard as he moaned deeply before practically swallowing Jack into his throat. Jack's breath hitched and he gagged a little from the surprise of it all, but the lust only seemed to drive his passion further. Gripping his base firmly with one hand, Jack used all of his mouth and tongue to swirl and suck and bob over Toothless, his head clouded in ecstasy as the same was being done to him. They devoured the other, both having been deprived of this feeling and the feeling of the other for so long.

Jack felt as Toothless's thumb rubbed small circles around his anus and Jack moaned softly at the overload of sensations. His need growing increasingly faster. Without thinking twice, Jack removed his hand and took Toothless all the way in until Jack's lips were touching his pelvis. The lust expertly suppressing his gag reflex; however, after doing so, he heard Toothless moan and felt as a finger was pushed into him.

It was all growing too much for Jack. He panted and gasped as he bobbed over Toothless, lapping up greedily the taste of his precum, and feeling Toothless continue to swallow him and a familiar warmth glow from inside him as Toothless' finger gently massaged his prostate.

It was too much. Toothless was too much. He couldn't…

"MMmrn.." Jack's muffled moan broke through as Toothless took him all the way into his throat as Jack unabashedly climaxed. He felt Toothless's throat gripping him as he swallowed everything greedily.

Despite Jack's momentary stutter in his rhythm, he felt as Toothless grew hard in his mouth and braced himself as the raven-haired boy flexed his hips and pushed himself into Jack, Jack reciprocating and swallowing as the hot liquid spurted down his throat.

He swallowed somewhat dreamily as he basked in the high of his own orgasm, remaining in that position for a little longer than necessary, before he felt Toothless shift underneath him and remove his finger from within Jack.

Jack turned around and collapsed his body weight onto Toothless, who made a sound of protest as Jack fell onto his lungs, but quickly relaxed and wrapped his arms around the brunette.

"I forgot how much I missed you…" Jack muttered sleepily. Toothless only chuckled lightly and leaned up to kiss Jack's hair.

After a few minutes of Toothless absentmindedly trailing his fingers along Jack's naked back, Jack asked randomly in reference to when they orgasmed, "Do you get turned on by swallowing?"

And to Jack's delight, he actually saw as Toothless blushed ever so slightly and smiled as he answered, "Maybe sometimes...everything you do is turning me on right now…"

Jack smiled back and laid his head on Toothless's chest as he admitted, "I'm glad we can do this again."

Toothless sighed contentedly and resumed stroking Jack's back, Jack feeling like he could fall asleep at any moment. At the same time, his mind was still reeling with what had just happened. Toothless and he had talked. Like really talked. He didn't think he had ever seen a moment where the raven-haired boy looked so...vulnerable. He was so open and honest that Jack couldn't have stopped the warm love that swelled in his chest if he tried. He only wished that they could stay this way...that Toothless could be vulnerable with him again.

"Hey Jack?" Toothless's voice rumbled in the ear Jack had pressed against Toothless's chest.

"Hm?" Jack affirmed to him that he was still awake.

"Can I...Can I tell you something else?" he asked tentatively.

Jack smiled and stroked his thumb against Toothless's side as he said, "Sure." He was more than willing to listen to anything Toothless had to say if it meant he could keep being this adorable.

"The real reason I wanted to take a break from this was…" he paused before rephrasing, "Since you and Hic moved here I couldn't do this without thinking...like I would...I couldn't…"

Jack reserved his impatience to let Toothless gather his thoughts.

"I couldn't have sex with either of you w-w-without thinking of...flashbacks," he finished, the old stutter of his coming out again.

Jack was about to ask what he meant, but he stopped himself as the meaning became clear to him.

"Did you get any flashbacks this time?" he asked gently, his eyes still closed as he relaxed into Toothless's chest. He knew the raven-haired boy was still tormented by his past. Probably more so now than he was at the Guardians. The stutter was a clear indicator. Jack hadn't heard him do that since he had first moved to the Guardians.

"No," Toothless replied as he squeezed his arms around Jack's lower back.

Jack scooted himself up a little to nuzzle into Toothless's neck. "Good," he whispered relieved. If Toothless had flashbacks around him, Jack couldn't help but feel somewhat responsible. He knew it wasn't his fault, but the empathy he felt for the raven-haired boy made him feel powerless with him. And his mind's only logical response was to then blame himself somehow.

"That's why I wanted to take the break," Toothless continued and Jack felt him nuzzle into his hair in return. "I needed to stop feeling afraid…"

Jack kissed his neck to acknowledge he was still listening, taking a moment to bask at how warm Toothless's skin was. It was comforting.

"I also wanted to…" Toothless paused and laughed softly before adding, "You'll probably think this is really stupid…"

"No I won't," Jack said wanting to put an end to whatever doubts Toothless had about them. He didn't want Toothless to think he was judging him when he was being so honest with him.

Toothless paused for a moment, a little surprised by Jack's assuredness, but continued, "I know you and Hic always wanted to try…" he cut off a little and swallowed heavily before resuming, "And I've been practicing on myself I guess...to make the flashbacks stop...and I figured that...since...I was Hiccup's first and he was yours that you w-w-would...if you wanted...it's not my first time but-"

He stopped mid-sentence and Jack already had a guess as to why.

"Jack." Toothless declared while feigning annoyance.

"Hm?"

"You're hard again."

"Well?!," Jack almost yelled as he lifted himself on his arms, "What did you expect after telling me all that?"

To his relief, Toothless actually smiled that gorgeous smile of his. The genuine smile where he squinted his eyes a little and his expression glowed.

"So you want to?" he asked already knowing Jack's answer.

"You only had to ask, baby," Jack smiled before leaning down to kiss him again. Toothless sighed into Jack and reached his hands up to cradle the sides of his face. Jack was on cloud nine. Toothless was actually asking him to top him...Toothless for the last several months...up in the attic was… Jack's mind quickly busied itself with mental images of Toothless fingering himself...moaning and gasping...all while thinking of him...

Oh lord...he would have to calm himself the fuck down or else Jack might literally explode.

Jack let his legs fall so he was straddling the raven-haired boy and leaned up, guiding Toothless with him so they were both sitting on the bed. Toothless releasing Jack's lips and tilting his head to rub teasing circles around his nipple with his tongue ring, Jack feeling a shock any time he flicked it.

Shit, he was way too turned on already…

"H-Hey," Jack shivered as felt Toothless's hands grip his waist while gently biting his nipple. "A-are you sure about this?" Jack asked still unable to believe that Toothless was willing to go this far. They'd tried before. Jack had tried to slowly warm him up to it, only to see Toothless start to hyperventilate before they even got anywhere. He didn't want to push him…

"You can't imagine actually doing it to me…" the voice of Toothless's alter rumbled in his memory.

He saw as Toothless stopped what he was doing and looked up somewhat shyly at Jack, his eyes wide and a little fear dancing behind them. Jack knew what he was thinking.

The thing was that Jack wanted to. He really, really wanted to. But he remembered the look on Toothless's face whenever he recalled his past. Jack didn't want to hurt him like that again.

"I meant…" he reiterated, "I don't want you doing this because you think you owe me anything," Jack murmured softly as he averted his eyes. "I could go my entire life without doing this, and I'll still love you. You know that...right?" he asked uncertainly before glancing back into Toothless's eyes.

Toothless's fear dissolved and he smiled warmly at Jack before leaning into him to catch his lips in a slow, but deep kiss. Jack kissed him back, trying to convey to him how much he loved him in that moment. How far he was willing to go for him.

They pulled apart from one another, Jack gazing at Toothless with his eyes half closed and his lips still parted. He wanted to kiss him again…

"Do you not want to?" Toothless murmured in a voice that was almost a whisper.

Jack couldn't handle it any more. He kissed Toothless with as much fervor as he had when Toothless first took his shirt off. He could sense the raven-haired boy's uncertainty. His self-doubt. Jack needed him to understand that his hesitation wasn't on account of him.

Jack threaded his fingers through Toothless's obsidian hair and tilted his head up to take complete control of the kiss. He wanted to absorb Toothless's everything. He wanted to show him just how turned on he made him.

Toothless hissed as Jack moved down and bit down on the soft flesh of his neck, Toothless reflexively thrusting his hips up into Jack, who felt the raven-haired boy's hardening length rub against his thigh. Jack switched to sucking on Toothless's ear lobe, coaxing a soft whine out of Toothless's throat and another flex of his hips.

"Of course I want to, idiot," he whispered lustfully into his ear, having no problem with calling Toothless out on his self-depricating fears. Jack understood more than enough about why Toothless was afraid of rejection. Jack just didn't want Toothless to feel obligated to do anything for him. "I just want you to do it because you want to. Not on account of me," he emphasized before pulling back and kissing Toothless chastely on the forehead, the raven-haired boy blinking up at him in confusion.

"I'll do anything you want me to" Jack said, his voice low as he pressed his forehead against Toothless's. "But I won't do anything to you unless you ask me first."

Toothless's eyes widened a little at Jack's statement; however, Jack didn't see any uncertainty behind his expression, merely surprise and maybe...was he blushing?

A hand against his chest was signal enough that Toothless wanted him off of his lap. Jack readily obliged and sat on his knees on the mattress as Toothless stood up to walk over to the dresser. He leaned over to pull open a drawer, and Jack would be lying if he said his eyes didn't hover over the curvature of Toothless's chest and hips to the round smoothness of his ass. Jack's mouth watered as he pictured what it be like to see him from that angle…Toothless bent over in front of him and-

No. No wait. He didn't even know if Toothless was actually ok with this yet.

Toothless pulled out a bottle of lube from the drawer and shut it, before sauntering back over to Jack, grabbing and stroking himself a couple times to encourage his hard-on again. He stopped in front of Jack, practically towering over him as he stood in front of him, his erection almost level with Jack's face as he sat on the bed.

Jack watched as Toothless uncapped the lube and squeezed a line onto a few of his fingers. "I want to with you," he said in a quiet voice. "I know that I"ll just have to be the one to prepare myself though," he added as he widened his stance and reached behind himself.

Jack's eyes widened as he watched Toothless's arm move and saw Toothless bite his lip from the gentle massages his own fingers provided. His head was angled down, his eyes measuring Jack's reaction, as his wrist rotated in small circles around his opening. Jack kind of felt like exploding.

"What do you want me to do?" Jack asked, needing to swallow to keep himself from drooling as he stared at Toothless's apparent erection. He didn't want to risk anything to throw Toothless off. To make him remember anything from his past during this moment. They were actually going to do it. Toothless wanted to do this with him.

Toothless let out a soft cry and Jack's mind swooned with images of what he was doing to himself back there. His breaths picked up a little bit and Jack looked up at him with concern, but he held fast. Normally he and Toothless fought each other's advances or tried to torment the other enough into giving in. But Jack would wait for Toothless to tell him it was ok. He would be an obedient puppy if he had to.

"You can..mmrph…" Toothless shuddered, sweat starting to gather on his brow, "You can give me head," he shuddered again, smirking a little as Jack grinned back at him.

"Gladly," he said as he leaned on his elbows in front of Toothless to take him eagerly back into his mouth, Toothless letting out an audible moan from the dual contact. Jack took him as deeply as he could at this angle, pressing his tongue along the underside and swiveling his lips around Toothless's shaft. He wasn't fully hard yet, though…

An idea occurred to the brunette and he reached over to grab the discarded bottle of lube on the mattress. He paused in his bobbing and squeezed a line onto his own fingers.

"What are you doing?" Toothless asked, a little concerned that Jack was going to ask to take over.

Jack released Toothless with a wet pop and gave him that mischievous smirk of his. "I know how much you like to watch me, so I figured I'd give you a bit of a show…" he said as he simultaneously leaned down to take Toothless back into his mouth and also reached around to insert a finger into himself as well.

Jack felt as Toothless throbbed in his mouth and a certain excitement bubbled in Jack's chest. The least he could do was make Toothless feel less self-conscious. And if it turned them both on in the process...It was a win-win.

Jack moaned around Toothless's cock as he gently stroked and stimulated his own prostate. A warmness bloomed in his pelvis and he more hungrily stroked and swallowed Toothless's swelling arousal. He wanted him to moan with him. Wanted him to want him. Want him inside him.

Toothless was quiet as Jack continued to finger and suck him off right in front of him. His breathing picked up its pace and as Jack felt more and more blood rush into his groin as he continued to milk his own prostate. It felt so good...He was almost rethinking their original deal…

"Jack-" Toothless finally choked out and Jack looked up surprised to see him more rapidly moving his fingers in and out of himself.

A trail of saliva drooled down Jack's chin as he looked up heavy-lidded at Toothless, whose eyes narrowed and he leaned forward and pulled Jack up into a succulent kiss, his tongue licking and vapidly exploring his mouth. Jack gasped as Toothless released his mouth and shuddered as he continued to rub onto his own prostate.

"I...like you like this…" Toothless shuddered as well, but said in a much bolder voice than before.

"Well enjoy it," Jack countered as he arched his back into his own touch, knowing full well that Toothless loved when he did that. "Because don't think I'll let you get away with being this bossy all the time."

Toothless started to laugh, but that laugh quickly turned into a loud moan, which was the most beautiful sound to Jack at the moment. To help intensify it, Jack leaned forward and slipped his tongue under Toothless's foreskin and swirled it around the sensitive head. Jack felt him buck into his mouth, who immediately gagged in surprise.

"Sorry…" Toothless whispered, clearly still preoccupied in his own meanderings. However, he pulled his fingers out of himself and reached over to grab Jack's previously discarded towel to wipe his hand on.

"You ready?" Jack asked, his heartbeat quickly becoming arrhythmic.

Toothless nodded before reaching over to pull a condom out of the drawer and tossed it to Jack. He caught it, but waited to see how Toothless wanted to proceed.

Toothless strolled over to the bed and climbed on it until he was kneeling in front of Jack. Jack immediately reached up and enveloped the raven-haired boy into a kiss that communicated his love and reassurement to him, but Toothless quickly broke it.

"You can do it from behind," he said, his voice growing more...monotonous?

"Hey, hey," Jack said calmly as he grabbed Toothless's wrist and met his gaze again. "We're not just fucking, you know. I...want to make love to you."

Jack felt a vein twitch in his forehead as a gleeful grin quickly grew on Toothless's face before he doubled over in laughter right in front of him. "Are you serious?" he asked still smiling as he brought his head up level with Jack's again.

"Why wouldn't I be?" Jack asked clearly annoyed. "What else would you call what we do?" he demanded to know as he put a hand on his hip.

Toothless's face fell a little as he realized Jack was being serious. "I..I don't…" he trailed off suddenly unsure of himself.

Without a word, Jack pushed himself back into Toothless, pressing his chest against his and reaching down to stroke both of their erections together. Toothless gasped from suddenly feeling Jack's hot arousal against his own as he got lost in the onslaught of Jack's teeth against his lips and tongue. In a little act of aggression, Jack bit and pulled at Toothless's lower lip, before releasing it and saying, "I'd like to think that we're doing more than just sex."

Toothless smiled again at the shorter boy in front of him, but this time it wasn't to mock him. He liked that he was being sincere.

"It's just unexpected," Toothless added. "You, the one who hates romantic labels of any kind, just pulling out the corniest label of all."

"Hey now," Jack argued pulling his head back to get a better look at Toothless's face, while still keeping their bodies securely pressed together. "I don't like being mushy in public. But you of all people should know how sentimental I am in private."

Toothless breathed a silent laugh and kissed the tip of Jack's nose. "Fair enough," he said, before fluidly turning around and leaning forward on his hands in front of Jack, spreading his legs for him, his rear perfectly poised in the air.

Jack's jaw probably dislocated and fell off his face at how sudden this turn of events was. Toothless's gorgeous body on full display for him...legs spread...ass...there.

He didn't realize he was unconsciously reaching out to squeeze that round, perfect buttocks until he saw Toothless turn his head and look over his shoulder at him, halting him mid-reach.

"Are...are you sure you want to do it in this position?" Jack asked uncertainly as he moved his hand to nonchalantly rub the back of his neck, pretending as though that was his original intention all along.

"Yeah," Toothless answered, although Jack could tell he was starting to grow nervous. This wasn't their first time, of course, but it was Toothless's first time...with someone he actually cared about. Jack wanted to make sure he was ok...

Jack reached back to pick up the condom and roll it onto his newly rejuvenized arousal. He also grabbed the bottle of lube and squeezed some more onto himself, his heart practically beating out of his chest in excitement. He had fantasized of this moment often, but had resigned himself to it never happening. But Toothless had asked him..no..wanted him to be his first. He wanted him…

Jack kneeled and aligned himself with Toothless's entrance, placing a hand gently onto his lower back, but holding himself still.

"You ready?" he asked again, needing confirmation.

"Mhm…" Toothless said as he lowered himself onto his elbows, his shoulder muscles flexing in anticipation.

"Alright...Tell me when to stop," Jack uttered quietly as he pushed the tip into the raven-haired boy, who, while tight, didn't flex or flinch away from him in pain. Jack assumed Toothless knew how to properly prepare himself.

"A little more?" Jack asked, still uncertain about the whole situation. His concern for Toothless was on high alert and he was starting to suspect something was wrong.

"Yeah, more…" Toothless labored between pants. Was his breathing too heavy?

Jack granted his command and pushed in a little more, feeling Toothless's heat fully swallow him up, until he had pushed himself into the raven-haired boy entirely. Jack held him securely by the hips, breathing through pursed lips as he tried to calm his own excitement somewhat.

"Toothless?" he asked to check back in with him.

Except Toothless didn't respond to him this time.

"Toothless?"

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"Tell me Luka, why are you here?" Hookfang asked as he gently unbuttoned Luka's shirt, Luka lying limply on the floor, his eyes fixated on a spot on the ceiling while Hookfang straddled his waist.

He didn't say anything. His throat made him feel like he was choking and he was doing all he could not to cry. He couldn't cry here.

"Perhaps the wrong question," Hookfang rephrased as he continued to strip him. "You know me. Why am I here?"

"Sex..." Luka whispered despite his mouth feeling like cotton.

"Wrong." Hookfang asserted as Luka felt the hands reach the last button. "Even a sex doll acts better than you..."

"Sorry…" Toothless whispered only to feel a sharp slap against his cheek, knocking his head to the side. His expression remained neutral. The slap wasn't for apologizing, it was because he had answered.

"I'm here to help you," Hookfang muttered begrudgingly as he pulled Toothless's limp body up by the shoulders, his head drolling off to the side. Hookfang removed Toothless's undershirt only to shove his arms back into the button-up and lower him back to the floor. The bathroom tiles growing steadily colder. "It's your own damn fault you're in this mess to begin with," he labored as he wrestled with Toothless's dead weight, tying the shirt around his ribs, exposing his stomach. He felt so bare. Cold.

Toothless didn't say anything. Time seemed to lag and resume in bursts. His thoughts were...dulled. Someone had slipped him something. Made him weak...Made him limp.

"I'm here, because you asked me to come," Hookfang reminded him as he rolled up the sleeve on Toothless's right arm. "You're here, because someone spiked your drink."

So that's what happened...when did that happen…

"Why?" Toothless whispered, his tongue thick. It was hard to form words at all.

At that, Hookfang paused and bowed his head, his bangs shading his eyes from Toothless's vision. After a moment, Toothless heard a low chuckle.

"Heh…" Hookfang started, his voice lowering itself in pitch. "That's the thing I keep trying to teach you Luka." He then leaned down, bringing his lips to Toothless's ear, Toothless feeling his breath...hot and angry. He smelled like beer.

"Because we can," he whispered so coldly that Toothless felt a shiver run down his spine and the fear start to take hold. Hookfang leaned up and smirked at him. "Until you understand that, you'll always be weak," he finished before shifting his weight off of him and pulling on Toothless's belt.

"No...please," Toothless begged, the fear starting to twitch and roil. "Let me go…"

Hookfang paused. He'd helped Toothless before. He'd let him go...maybe this time?

"You have two choices, Luka," he said, keeping his head and voice low so as to keep their conversation private. "You either let me help you, or let them hurt you." Toothless's throat felt like it was closing up. "And you know I'm the only one who knows how to make you feel good."

"No...what if…" he raised his head again only to be met with vibrant eyes, not unlike his own. He felt paralyzed.

"Lukaa…" he breathed patronizingly, "you're missing the lesson here…"

No..no. He shook his head meekly. There was no lesson...he would not be here if there were. Toothless turned his head away, not wanting to listen. Ignore him...

Hookfang knew well what to do when that happened. Toothless felt cold hands travel lower…

Raw dread gripped him. He shut his eyes. Felt fingers nimbly brush against his navel. His pants were off. Someone grabbing him - There - Toothless squeezed his eyes together - Hands...playing. The warmth…

"Seems you can still feel this…"

"No." Toothless's voice was thick.

"Quiet." a voice commanded him.

His hand quickly shoved up into Hookfang's chest with all his strength and he rolled himself over, curling his legs into himself. Hiding what was between his thighs. He didn't want this. He didn't want- "Sash, please…" he murmured, begging. Appealing to Hookfang's real name. He didn't want to beg. He hated it. Hated it. Hated. It. But he didn't want this. If there was any way out...any chance for him to not be here...he'd beg for it. He'd do anything.

"It's not my call, Luka," Hookfang said quietly. Was he...upset? "I am trying to help you. If you let me help you, it won't hurt as much. You know this." He lay his body behind Luka, his warmth unwelcome. Luka feeling him reach over between his legs again. "Let me help you…" he whispered as he brushed back his hair and placed a kiss under Toothless's ear. Toothless could feel his hardness on the back of his thigh. Felt him place possessive kisses along his neck. His shoulder. Toothless shut his eyes again. The fondling intensifying. Pleasure building.

He tried to escape. Shoving an elbow back, Toothless scrambled messily away, but Hookfang grabbed him around the waist and threw him to the floor. On all fours. Toothless struggled to crawl away, his limbs not listening. Limp and weak. Hookfang pushed him forward as he fought. His chest pressed into the wall, his knees dug into the tile beneath them.

"no" he mouthed as he heard Hookfang unbuckle his own belt. He struggled some more, but Hookfang leaned into him, nearly crushing him. "STOP" he yelled, but it was his fault. His panic had triggered the elder.

"STOP" A firm grasp to his waist as Hookfang - there again - he was stretching him- "no, NO!" the man would not hear. He no longer cared. What was a person, became a predator, as Toothless writhed underneath him. Toothless's cries only driving him forward. Stretching him more. As he begged- feeling a sickening touch- knowing in his mind that each plea aroused him. Hookfang's head rested on his shoulder, his hand tensing around his cock and moving painfully slow and Toothless felt loathing lick the inside of his mouth - revolting. His own head extending back in a gasp.

"Luka…" Hookfang breathed in his ear. "If it were my choice, I'd never let them have you." An arm reached around his chest, pulling them closer. "I don't love you…" A hand clasped his neck. Pressing. Choking. "I don't hate you either." Toothless shut his eyes, tried tuning out the words. "Sometimes…" he stopped breathing. "I just want to do this."

Pain. Splitting pain. Toothless gritted his teeth as Hookfang entered him. Pain. Ripping. Splintering. Tearing pain. His palms flat against the wall to keep him- A scream escaped and a hand clasped in front of his mouth. He bit it - and fought to flee - but Hookfang held onto him - pushing him against the wall. Crushing him, pushing deeper - he shut his eyes. Tears forcing their way out. The thudding of his shoulders against the wall, being gripped by the waist to further - his eyes opened with a gasp - unwanted pleasure traveling up his spine, a stinging behind his eyes while Hookfang moaned against his shoulder. He pushed further - he could barely take his weight - his hands pressed against the cold wall to keep him from falling, his knees opening up to hold himself only for Hookfang to deepen his thrusts - the pleasure and dread rising no, no. Toothless was panting. He didn't want this. He wasn't here. He couldn't take...His body couldn't take - Toothless's precum leaked out, spread against the wall, making him aware of- his forehead knocked against the wall- a dreadful knot building in his gut- Toothless gasped, leaning against the wall in defeat and hurt - pain. dread. - he gasped as a wave of pleasure - painful knot in his throat- he wanted to curl into a ball. unconscious. oblivious. let the void take him. - his lungs cried and stung in pain while pleasure built with the rough pushes - he hit a spot dead on - and Toothless doubled over- he willed himself to not be there. to not exist. to not be anymore. He wasn't. He wasn't.

But it continued.

...save me...please save me...someone save me.

...But it continued.

...someone please save me...please…

...he was still there.

...someone please…

But it continued, he was still there, no one was coming for him. If there was any hope, it ceased to exist, and that loss tore into him as he sobbed. Hookfang shoved him to the floor and it hurt, his hip bones grinding against the tile. Rocking. Pushing. The movement stroked him against the floor and he gasped. His body screaming in pain, yet his knees buckling out in relish, wrongful relish. He thrust relentlessly and he stifled his gasp, the ominous dread, piercing dread ever building. The pleasure coiling and heightening, Toothless panting, a hand on the floor, his loss of control and panic flooded him, his body could not bundle the- pleasure weaving and writhing again and again as he hit his - his weight crushing down on him, he could not breathe, fear, an arm pulling his hips up - STOP - a hand moving to grip him down there - NO - but he was pumping again. Stroking and hitting his - the pleasure shooting and forceful white, stinging to his eyes.

His mouth against the floor as his lips opened. HIs gasp was voiceless.

Over...

The forceful thrusts continued. Leaching everything they could from him. Using him. A toy. The tile floor freezing him now. His stomach wet.

Over...

A final shove into him made him choke. Like hot acid burning inside him - disgusting.

He'd taken all he wanted from him…

But it wasn't even over yet.

And no one was coming to save him.

His only choice was to take it.

Alone.

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The following has sexual content and explicit language

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Toothless?!

A worried voice called to him as he felt a hand roll his body over. Soft…

"Toothless!" A cool hand lightly patted his cheek. "Toothless, baby...hey…" he heard Jack call in relief as Toothless opened his eyes and looked at the familiar boy leaning over him. His icy blue eyes stricken with worry. Those eyes…

Completely out of selfish need, Toothless reached up and wrapped his arms around Jack's back, pulling them together, breathing into his hair. Smelling him. He needed him. He needed to remember it was him. Remember-Breathe-Jack-Breathe-Forget-Breathe-Hands-No-Jack

"Toothless?" Jack asked hesitantly. Toothless sniffed once before releasing the brunette from his grasp, who leaned up to get a better look at his face, Toothless averting his eyes, the lingering dread still prevalent in his gut. Looking somewhere in between them. Jack reached out and wiped his thumb under Toothless's eye, who didn't even realize he had started crying again. "Hey...we'll stop. Ok? You don't have to-"

But before he could finish his thought, Toothless pushed himself up to capture Jack in a kiss. He needed...to taste him. Remember it was him. Remember Jack, forget everything else.

The familiar taste and smell permeated his senses. It was Jack. It was Jack…

"Hey," Jack rumbled, his voice filled with concern as he broke the kiss and lovingly brushed Toothless's hair from his face as he often did. "It's ok," he murmured, his eyes soft. Toothless could only stare into his eyes. Soft and adoring. Eyes that loved him.

He wouldn't love you if he knew…

Tears flowed out as the memory gripped him. How much worse it had gotten after that…

"It's ok…" Jack whispered, his voice laced with fear as he stroked Toothless's hair, kneeling over him. Toothless staring blankly at something between them. "We'll stop...alright?"

"No." Toothless croaked with an unexpected amount of force, causing Jack's hand to hesitate and freeze. "I want this," he continued, forcing the assuredness into his words. "It needs to be you I just…" he paused while picking his words. "I just have trouble acting submissive."

At that, Jack raised an eyebrow. "You don't have to…" he murmured softly as he tilted his head as if calculating Toothless's thoughts. "You think being on bottom makes you submissive?" he asked curiously.

"No! I just...I don't know," he lamented as he raised an arm to lay it across his eyes. He was so embarrassed and ashamed of himself. He had fucking ruined everything before they even had a chance to start.

"Toothless...baby," Jack uttered the rarest of pet names he used on him for the second time as he lifted Toothless's arm from his eyes, forcing him to make eye contact with him again. "It's not about dominance...that would mean I'm forcing something on you."

"You're not…" Toothless countered, the sound almost getting stuck in his throat.

"Good," Jack said as he reached up to wipe his fingers under Toothless's eyes, trying to dry the tears that he hadn't caused. He smiled a little to try and brighten the raven-haired boy again. "This is about trust," he said as if he was choosing his words carefully. "Do you trust me?" he asked suddenly sounding a little uncertain of himself.

"Of course," Toothless whispered as he looked up into Jack's eyes.

"Well, good," Jack repeated smiling warmly at him again. "Because trust isn't an act of submission. It's an act of equality. I need you to trust me as much as I trust you."

Toothless's head was spinning. He wasn't really sure why he had said what he said earlier. He wasn't thinking. Despite all of that, he had been concentrating too hard on what he needed to do. What Jack wanted him to do...And that had caused his mind to wander. To think about what others had wanted from him. But Toothless didn't want to think about them. He needed to focus on Jack. On what Jack wanted...Except all Jack said he needed him to trust him.

"I just need to see your face while we're doing it," Toothless whispered as he looked into Jack's eyes. He needed to root his attention on Jack.

However, that statement caused an unexpected reaction out of Jack and Toothless almost smiled as he watched the pale boy's cheeks grow dusky pink. Toothless breathed to calm himself. It was Jack. He was with Jack. Jack was the one he wanted to see from now on when he thought of this.

Although Jack still looked hesitant. He obviously didn't know exactly what Toothless had remembered, but he knew it was bad from the look on Toothless's face only moments ago. That memory was a particularly strong one. One that made Toothless internally furious at himself for remembering at a time like this. He needed a new memory. He needed Jack.

Toothless reached behind them and grabbed two pillows before shoving one under his hips and the other under his shoulders, Jack having backed away from his sudden movements. Toothless let his legs fall to the side, fully displaying himself unabashedly to Jack, whose wide-eyed astonishment was enough to ascertain that he was still in the mood despite his hesitation.

"You're sure?" Jack murmured as he stared lustfully between Toothless's legs.

Toothless nodded as he tried to summon his own desire again. He wasn't sure if he could finish like this, but he still wanted to try. He wanted it to be Jack he remembered.

Jack crawled forward until his and Toothless's bodies were interlocked again, the pillows helping to make up for their difference in height so that Jack could lean forward and kiss him. Toothless sighed into their kiss, which had become a lot gentler and more loving than lustful. Toothless felt Jack's erection against his own and he was surprised to feel the blood start flowing south again. His body even wanted Jack. He wanted this…

Jack reached out to the side for the bottle of lube.

"Let me do that," Toothless uttered quietly, and Jack paused in his movements and straightened up to kneel between Toothless's legs. Toothless picked up the lube and added some more to his hand before reaching up to stroke along Jack's length, raising his gaze to meet with Jack's hazy blue stare. His body glowed in the late morning light, his face pinched with desire, his muscles tense. His chest rose and fell with audible breaths in anticipation. Toothless wanted to compliment him, but couldn't find the words. Instead he whispered Jack's name, whose dick twitched in his hand at the sound.

Satisfied that he was thoroughly coated again, he spread the last bit of it on himself and leaned back while Jack aligned himself again. Toothless felt his heart start to race, but he kept his eyes on Jack's face.

Toothless let out an audible gasp as he felt Jack enter him again. His heart palpitated, but he focused everything on Jack and tilted his hips up as he slowly guided the brunette into his body, pushing against him. Breathe In-Out-In-Breathe Out

They both groaned in unison once Jack was fully inside him and they held still, their bodies pulsing together while adjusting to the other.

"You ready?" Jack asked after several minutes went by in silence.

So fucking considerate. Toothless looked up at the brunette over him. At the mahogany hair that contrasted so beautifully with his iridescent eyes. Love swelled in his throat causing him to only be able to choke out a soft, "yes."

Jack's hands closed along either side of Toothless's face, their noses almost touching as he started to move. Slow at first. Jack kissed his nose, his cheek, his ear as he gradually increased his pace, his breaths heavy and synchronized into his thrusts.

He quickly found the best angle, and Toothless threw his head back and cried out, wrapping his limbs around Jack's body.

"Is this ok?" Toothless heard Jack pant in his ear. His thrusts so slow, so gentle, but sharp at the end of each stroke as if he could barely contain himself.

"Fuck," Toothless whimpered. It was like Jack knew how to read his body. Knew what he liked.

I'm the only one who knows how to make you feel good...

No-No-No-No-NO

That wasn't here. It wasn't now. It was...It was...

"Say my name," Jack's voice broke through Toothless's thoughts, who had also just realized his eyes were closed and his jaw was clenched.

Jack's strangled name left his lips and Jack pushed Toothless's leg back and angled his hips deeper, hitting Toothless dead on on his way both in and out.

"Again," Jack ordered as Toothless arched his back and his mouth opened in a voiceless cry.

"Oh fuck," Toothless cursed, his voice rising a little. "Jack."

"That's it Schatzi," Jack smirked as he kept up his pace.

Toothless briefly fought back the need to curse the little fuck's name as he felt the warmth swell and bloom inside of him. The feeling momentarily distracting him. He felt himself start to drift, clinging to the strong body about him as he grew completely unaware of anything outside the two of them. He's right, he thought, this is more than sex. He was feeling that bond, that connection growing strong again. This is trust. This is love.

"Luka," Jack panted as he switched to Toothless's real name. "You're so good...you feel so good...I need you to bite me."

Toothless opened his mouth to voice a question, but any words were immediately overpowered by a loud moan.

He felt a shudder run down Jack's back at the sound. "Please...let me have it," he grunted.

Toothless didn't try to question him further. Instead he leaned up and latched onto the firm flesh of Jack's shoulder, sucking on the sweet skin with the full intention of leaving behind a mark.

A sharp thrust made him see stars and he sank his teeth into Jack's shoulder, an anguished moan emanating out of the brunette.

Jack thrust into him sharply again, flesh smacking flesh, and Toothless bit down as the pleasure twisted and spiked within him.

"That's it, baby, really give it to me-ACK" Jack cried as Toothless attacked his neck. Jack only responded by thrusting into him faster. Deep inside him Toothless could feel Jack growing larger and harder as he massaged that spot within him.

Toothless gasped, his nails raking the other's back as he arched his body into each of Jack's thrusts.

"Oh shit," gasped Jack. Their foreheads pressing together and they kissed once. Twice. "I want to finish with you," Jack panted.

Grunting, Toothless shoved his hand in between them and began to touch himself. Their hot breaths mingled between their open mouths and their eyes held, until a surge of energy forced Toothless's closed. "Fuck Jack, I'm close," he breathed.

"It's ok it's ok, so am I," Jack labored. He kissed the raven-haired boy's forehead, his nose, his chin before thrusting even harder.

"Jack..." Toothless cried as he tilted his hips to find the best angle. His hand stroking himself in time to Jack's thrusts. "Fuck!" He bit into Jack's shoulder again. He could feel every pulse. Every twitch. Every thrust that traveled between them, belonging to both of them.

A hand raked through his long hair pulling their faces together, their lips barely skimming. "Luka," Jack gasped, "I can't. I'm going to-"

Toothless grit his teeth and his hand moved ever faster, his hips rocking so hard that his muscles burned. He tried to say Jack's name again, but his mouth was already open, his lips weak.

Then Jack cried his name again and gave a final thrust, white hot light filling Toothless and glowing brighter and brighter until it overwhelmed him. They clung to one another, their bodies contracting together, their yells melding into one, until the pleasure they both built together cascaded over them in euphoric waves.

Toothless felt himself relax into the mattress. The fog slowly lifting from his mind. The final twitches leaving his body. Or maybe they were Jack's. He didn't really know.

A hand stroked up his cheek and down his hair. Toothless looked over to see Jack propped up on an elbow alongside him. He found the brunette's hand and laced their fingers together. For a while, neither of them spoke.

Finally Jack broke the silence, "That was…"

"Important." Toothless finished for him, eyes closed as he lay flat on his back.

Jack laughed lightly and added, "I was gonna say amazing, but...that works too."

Toothless smiled broadly, still basking in his afterglow. He did it. He did it with Jack. And it was really...really...hot.

"Let me get you a towel," Jack offered as he leaned over to pick up his previously discarded bath towel. Toothless felt as he delicately mopped up his belly, even felt his weight shift as he leaned over to gently bite onto Toothless's nipple, making him groan a little.

"Still horny?" Jack sneered along his chest.

"Fuck off," Toothless said as he blindly swatted him away. Of all people, he had a right to be pent up.

"Are you ok, though?" Jack asked somewhat carefully and Toothless opened one eye to see him frowning a little. He also saw a large smear of blood along his shoulder.

"Oh shit," Toothless swore as he grabbed the towel and leaned up to dab Jack's puncture wounds. "I didn't mean to bite you so hard, I"m sorry."

Jack breathed a soft laugh at Toothless's concern and replied, "I never complained."

Toothless glanced at him skeptically before resuming cleaning him up. He knew that Jack liked a bit of pain, but he still didn't mean to break the skin so much. Shit...he should probably put something on it so it doesn't get infected.

"You never answered me," Jack murmured softly, his tone causing Toothless's hand to hold still.

"I'm fine," Toothless breathed. And he was telling the truth. He felt fine. Better than fine, actually.

"You freaked out there for a minute," Jack pressed a little more, making sure that Toothless wasn't lying to him.

"Yeah…" Toothless breathed before letting go of the towel and lying back down.

"I just want to make sure you're alright," Jack assured as he laid down alongside him again, holding the towel to his own shoulder.

"You made it alright," Toothless confirmed, turning his head to look at the blue-eyed boy. It was true that he had flashed back for a minute, but now he felt like he was floating. He didn't want to think about anything to ruin this feeling.

His lips turning up into a smile, Toothless leaned forward to kiss Jack on the lips again.

"Mm…" Jack moaned softly before pulling back a little. "Ich liebe dich, you know."

Toothless smiled at him. He did know, now. But he appreciated hearing it nonetheless, Jack even got over some of his insecurities to say it to him in his native tongue.

"I love you, too," he responded.

"Come here," Jack urged while making subtle infantile grabbing motions with his hands. He was so cute that Toothless couldn't help but smile and concede. He rolled over and wrapped an arm around Jack's middle, nuzzling into his neck as he did so.

Jack exhaled peacefully and draped an arm over Toothless's back. "Why are you so comfortable?" he asked a little sleepily.

Toothless smiled into Jack's neck, but didn't feel the need to respond. He was comfortable too. Until he felt the slight tickling of Jack's fingers as they gently glided and traced over his back, leaving warmth in their wake.

"Mm," Toothless grunted contentedly as he felt like he was falling into a trance. "That feels nice..."

"Good," Jack whispered before kissing Toothless's hair, knowing how sensitive Toothless used to be about his scars. He didn't mind Jack touching them though...

Jack's chest shook with a small laugh and Toothless could imagine the mischievous grin on Jack's face as he said, "Does this mean we can play with Hiccup when he gets home?"

Toothless smirked into his neck.

Alright..so...

*sits back and waits uncertainly*

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For those that decided to read the whole chapter, I would really appreciate to hear your thoughts.

Like I said, it was difficult for me to write. Although, I've danced around the subject plenty of times because I wasn't comfortable approaching it; however, I also didn't want to censor myself.

The original story was mostly from Hiccup's POV and a lot of people asked about Toothless's POV.

This chapter was my dedication to his character and the parts of him that I never went into. The cycles of abuse and the long-lasting effects it has on its victims.

A lot of people admired him for his strength against adversity in the first story, but that was only how Hiccup viewed him most of the time.

I'd like to think he has never stopped battling his demons, which has culminated into part of the plot for this story.

So, yeah. Let me know what you think. I won't shy away from criticism.

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