Could it be, a new chapter?! Yes. Yes it is.

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Chapter 9: We Need to Talk

I woke up gasping for air, afraid that I was going to bleed out from my stab wound. I sat up and lifted my shirt to look for any marks, but nothing was there. I sighed in relief as I sank back into the bed. I was still alive from being hit by a fireball, and being stabbed. But I didn't celebrate over that, I wanted to see if Toriel, Mel, and Sans were okay. And I know it sounds ridiculous, but I also want to know what happened to that milkshake that I got for Mel. I paid for it with hard earned gold, y'know?

I decided to get up and get dressed in something other than a nightgown. Don't get me wrong, the nightgown is comfy, but if Sans is still here, then I want some better clothes. I saw my satchel hanging on the side of a chair, but it looked completely empty. So I just went to the wardrobe, it was full of clothes for me and Mel. Guess Toriel thinks I'm staying with her after the incident. I would love to stay, but the ruins are not a place where I want to live. Surprisingly, I like living in Snowdin with the kindhearted Papyrus and bloodthirsty Sans. So I pulled on some plain black, but warm leggings, and slipped on a long sleeved burgundy colored sweater dress. I found my brush, and just let my hair stay the usual; cascading down my back. Even though I despised the curls from the waterfall braid, they looked nice with the outfit I had on. The dress and leggings were warm enough for the weather outside of the ruins, so I didn't bother with a jacket. Since I was leaving soon, I started packing may satchel.

When my satchel was full with the necessities, including some books, I went to the living room. There in the chair that fit her perfectly, was Toriel with Mel on her lap. They were both getting some rest, which was good since I was probably out for a while. So before going to the ruins, I gave both Mel and Toriel a kiss on the cheek. I wanted them to have some good dreams, and the only way to get good dreams, is if someone gives you a kiss on the cheek or forehead. I was heading out when I saw something in the corner of my eye. It was Sans, sitting at the dining table, head resting on his arms. He looked to be sleeping, and having nightmares, so I went over and gave him a kiss on the forehead. Everyone deserves some good dreams, even if it's only every once in a while.

With the sweet dream kisses put aside, I went out into the ruins. I needed some time to think about how to keep... HER under control. I said I'd always keep her at bay, so I needed a plan. I knew that I'd have to not almost die, but what if she took over my body, what then? I was thinking about all of the possibilities of what to do, what the outcomes would be, how to best prepare for the outcomes, and stuff like that when I noticed that I was at the place where me and Mel fell down here. It looked like a good place to think without interruptions. So I went to the center of the bed of flowers and carefully sat down, not wanting to crush the beautiful flowers. I decided to make a flower crown for Mel, she loved those things.

After about an hour, I had four, carefully constructed flower crowns with one matching bracelet for each. Making the flower jewelry really helped me think better, I had enough problems and solutions to last a lifetime. Now that I was done with my thinking, I decided to go back to the house. I didn't want Toriel or Mel to worry about me, though, if they were awake then they were probably already worried.

I laughed at how Toriel would react when she saw that I was safe. It would probably be scolding on giving her such a scare, and then tears at how she was glad that I was okay. In any case, I just had to get home as fast as possible.

I'm pretty sure I was going crazy on the walk back. I was talking to myself out loud, "What am I going to say? I mean, I can't just waltz right in and say, 'Hey mom, guess what? Some demon girl wants to possess my body so she can kill everyone I love and care about, and she's also your long lost dead child who died when she got sick and all that crap those years ago.'? And if I said that, she would probably-"

My thoughts were interrupted, "She would probably what, partner?"

HER voice was right by my ear, but when I spun on my heel, nobody was there. I realized that she was in my head, "Go away. You're not welcome here." I knew she was in my head, but I thought that if I ran fast enough, she would eventually fade out. So I started running as fast as I could, to the house.

"Hehehe, I'm not going away just yet, partner. I want to play with you, old friend. Don't you want play with me, pal?" She was taunting me, and not going away.

Tears threatened my eyes again, I didn't want her here, I just wanted her to leave forever. "No, and I'm not your 'partner', or 'old friend', or your 'pal'! Just leave, now!" I was starting to get desperate, just hearing her voice made me want to hurl.

I could feel her buzz with excitement, "You really don't remember, do you? I guess I could show you what you've missed, and then I can show you some tricks."

I was bewildered as I said, "What do you-" And then, the memories started flooding back.

Killing. Killing. Just always killing everything in my path. Froggit, Whimsun, Moldsmal, Vegetoid. The looks of horror and fear on their faces as I cut them down. Screams of terror, pain.

I stopped running, and put my hands over my ears.

Dust, everywhere. I found a toy knife in an area near the house, I equipped it for a weapon.I went with Toriel into the house, played a goody-two-shoes schtick, looked for real knives. Persisted to leave the ruins, entered a fight with Toriel, won.Toriel saying, "Do you really hate me that much?"

I dropped to my knees, ears covered, eyes closed.

More killing. Everyone I cared about, dead. I even killed Papyrus as he offered me a hug of acceptance, and he still said, "But... St... Still! I believe in you!" Killing. Looks of fear. Looks of despair when realization hit them. Screams. I moved onto other places. Waterfall. Trying to kill Monster Kid, hitting Undyne instead. Undyne being determined, entered a fight with her, won. Undyne saying, "So even THAT power... It wasn't enough...?"

I rocked back and forth, whispering, "It wasn't me. It wasn't me. It wasn't me. They're safe. They're safe. They're safe."

Moving on, killing everyone. Leaving a trail of dust in my wake. So far I had killed Toriel, Papyrus, Undyne, The Bros, Muffet, Mettaton... Sans. Some of his first words to me were, "it's a beautiful day outside. birds are singing, flowers are blooming... on days like these, kids like you... Should Be Burning In Hell." Sans was hard to kill, very hard to kill. He dodged all of the attacks, threw as many powerful attacks at me as he could, killed me many times. But slowly, he became more predictable, I became faster, and eventually, I killed him. His last words were, "i'm going to grillby's." He got up and walked away, out of sight, "papyrus, do you want anything?"

I rocked back and forth quicker, hitting my head with my fists, trying to make it stop. I let the tears I was holding back for so long, fall from my eyes. I wasn't going to give up, but I wasn't going to put up with this any longer either. I just. Wanted this. To stop.

Next was Asgore, he put up quite the fight... like Sans. But I killed him too. Everyone in the underground was dead, everyone except...Mel. She had come into the throne room right after I killed Asgore, I didn't know what she was doing in there or why, but I didn't care. Mercilessly, I cut her down.

Sobbing I said, "Stop. Just stop. It isn't real, it didn't happen." I was trying to stop myself from shaking so much, I was prepared for this to happen to me. I just wasn't prepared for HER to be in my head, torturing me like this.

SHE just laughed at me, filled with glee from my suffering. "But it was real, it did happen! And it happened 536 times, because of you, partner. You helped me by lending me your body, and by letting me take complete control over you and your soul." I stopped breathing as she continued, "I was surprised that you let me take over in the first place, I mean, you had just fallen down here with your little sister. And you let me take over your body! I honestly don't know why, but I'm so glad you did. We reset 536 times, all of those resets, I murdered everyone. At first, it was just some monsters. Then, it was everyone, including Melody. It was the 323 time that we reset, that I killed Mel, you immediately tried to stop me. You couldn't though, so I just did it over, and over, and over. Again and again and again. You wonder why Sans hates you so much, don't you see? Ever since the first time you came down here, you reset and killed everyone he loved over, and over, and over. He's never seen the real you, only me in your body. Have fun trying to explain that to him. Y'know, I think I'll show you at least five or eight runs each day. Each of them are different, y'know? And it'll be hell for you, and I get to have fun. I think I'll show off my new tricks some other time, I just need to show you the genocide runs and I'll be content. Well, I see you in a little bit, partner."

I don't know how long I was in the ruins, but I was there until Sans came to find me. I honestly didn't know why he was still in the ruins, but I was glad that he stayed. Even if it was to make amends to Toriel, maybe they'd talked some after I was out and realized that they knew each other. I could only hope, but anyways, it was late in the afternoon by the time her found me. I had hidden somewhere in the ruins, and had curled up into a ball.

I was still in a ball when Sans appeared. "hey kid, watcha doing out here? aren'y you bonely out here by yourself?" He sat down right beside me.

I looked up at Sans, he was... making jokes? Of course, they were all going to be insufferably bad, but it made me smile some. I would probably have to answer some time, /I was thinking. It didn't seem like a big deal to wake you guys.\

Sans... laughed at me? "kid, you get hit with a fireball trying to save me, and you don't think it's a big deal to wake us? i mean, why? you would still go out of your way to save me from being a pile of dust, even after i've hurt you. and why do you have to be all sweet and innocent this run? bucko, i just don't -"

I stood up and reached my hand out to him, he looked up at me for a second, not moving. But he took my hand, and started walking with me back to the house. I battled with my trust and courage before I finally spoke, "I don't talk much, but we really need to talk. I won't talk all the time because it hurts, and because I'm still getting used to it, but I will talk to you. It's my way of showing that you've gained my trust, even if I don't completely trust you."

Sans was definitely battling some inner emotions when I spoke. But he managed to say, "ok, so when will we talk?" He wanted to know why I was talking now, and what we would talk about.

"Snowdin, after dinner with mom and Mel. And you'll have to be patient for when and what we'll talk about. As for why I've suddenly started talking, we'll get to that later." I was looking straight as I spoke, but I knew Sans understood the urgency in the situation. I may not trust him now, I may never trust him, but he would understand some of the situation. If he remembered the timelines, unlike me, then it would help a ton. Hopefully, we could work together and work out a strategy for anything and everything that SHE would throw at me.

SHE may have some tricks up her sleeve, but I'm determined to beat her. I won't give up. Not now, not ever.

Sorry for the short chapter, but I'm visiting some family right now. I hope to type some more soon, and get back to you.

But for now, Toodles!

(By the way, something I just noticed. My mom apparently posted a review while I was still signed in. IGNORE IT. Although, you probably won't ignore it now that I've pointed it out. whatever, I'll just leave. *Hides in the closet, covered in blankets never wanting to come out again*)