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I'd like to take a few words here to thank you all for the support and the understanding through this hard time. I love you all so much, thank you.

Here goes, Chapter 5! Hope you like it! It's pretty short, I apologise for that. This is more of a transitory chapter, but it's important. It's also all I felt like I could write. I'm trying to get back into writing and updating, albeit slowly.

TW: This story deals with mature themes such as self-harm and suicide/suicidal thoughts. Reader's discretion is advised.

5

RainaPOV

I gasped as I saw Deena sitting by herself, crying. What had happened in the last hour or so to make her so upset?

''Deena? What happened?'' I whispered. I knew everyone in the room was looking so I leveled them with a cold glare. I sighed in relief as they looked away and went back to their lunches. I looked back and my heart broke to see Deena so sad, she was such a sweet girl.

''Deena, can you tell me what happened?'' I said as I sat across from her.

She sniffled before responding, ''I'm sorry, it's so stupid.''

I sighed, ''Deena, if it made you this upset it isn't stupid. Tell me.''

''Alright, Raina. Well, I made some friends in second period and they seemed nice enough, they were really welcoming and invited me into their conversation immediately. We spent the rest of the time talking, and I felt really great, first day and I had made so many friends.'' She stopped and let out a sob.

''It's okay Deena, take your time'' I said.

''They said that we'd meet up by the front for lunch so I agreed before I excused myself to the bathroom. I was about to leave the stall when I heard them enter and start talking about me. They were so mean! They started making fun of me, it was awful. They said they were going to humiliate me in front of the whole school and ditch me! I waited for them to leave and came here and now I'm too scared to leave'' she confessed.

''Deena, that's terrible! I can't believe someone would do that to you, especially on your first day here! Although, in today's society, I guess it's more common than it was, say, a century ago. Here, I know a group of kids who would love to have you, and could really use someone like you.'' I motioned for her to follow me and led her over to a table surrounded by four girls. They looked up and seemed surprised and scared to see me, but then saw Deena and they smiled welcoming smiles.

''Hi, Raina, and you're Deena aren't you? I saw you in second period today. Do you want to sit with us?'' One girl with choppy blonde hair greeted Deena and I and immediately invited us to hang out with them. I politely declined but motioned towards Deena. They nodded and smiled at her.

Deena seemed hesitant but she agreed nonetheless. She smiled at me thankfully and I nodded. I thanked the other girls and left, off to find the girls who hurt her. Of course, I knew who had done this.

The self-proclaimed 'popular girls' had done this too many times, and I knew I had to teach them a lesson. You could only go around hurting people so many times before someone noticed or tried to put a stop to it. Their cold, callous behaviour had to go.

Back in my day,-wow that makes me sound so old- we knew how to act, and although we were repressed we knew respect and courtesy. These modern times are so precious and are advancing quickly, but we seem to lose ourselves and our personalities, our kindness and sympathy just as quick. Of course, since I had lived through the old times, my opinion was based more on experience than evaluation.

I sped up as I heard those familiar high pitched giggles echoing around the corner. I turned the corner and watched them walk down the hallway, so carefree. It sickened me to see them act so innocent, as if they hadn't just done something so inconsiderate.

I walked up to them and tapped on one girl's shoulder. She stopped and she and her friends turned around, identical smirks adorning their faces. Their smiles dropped when they saw me and I felt the air become tense as they grew nervous.

''Sienna, Deborah, Bryanna'' I nodded in greeting. They shifted uncomfortably, almost as if they were regretful of their actions. I had never seen them so, so human. Although, what did I know about being human? Then I felt their auras and I knew that they weren't regretful, not one bit. They were fearful, they were scared of me. I was disappointed, not only for their lack of emotion towards their actions, but also because they feared me.

''Hi, Raina. Was there something you needed?'' Deborah asked as she twirled a blonde lock around her finger- classic 'clueless blonde girl' look. She had always been so oblivious, even when I had been friends with them in the past. I guess time hadn't changed them much.

''Oh, cut the clueless act. Yet again you have insulted and belittled someone, all because of what? Do you think you're better than them? Are they somehow inferior to you, oh mighty ones?

''I know you don't care about anyone but yourselves, but you need to realise that there is more to life than hurting someone the first chance you get. These are people- real people you're hurting! They aren't robots! They have real feelings, real thoughts and their pain is just as real as anyone else's! I suggest you three get off your high fucking horses. Get your head out of the clouds and see the real world for once!'' I ranted.

All of a sudden I was hit by a strong wave of anger coming from Bryanna. I was thoroughly confused, Sienna and Deborah were feeling embarrassed and scared, but what was so different about Bryanna?

''Oh, of course, Raina. We will all do your bidding, as you please. We wouldn't want to hurt your feelings, or god forbid, go against you!'' Bryanna retorted sarcastically. ''You speak so lowly of others, but what about yourself? Haven't you noticed your own heartless behaviour? Ignoring everyone isn't any better than hurting them! Girl, get your own head out of the clouds, just because you went through something so traumatic in your youth, doesn't mean you get to act superior!'' With that she walked away, Sienna and Deborah trailing after her hesitantly.

I was flustered, I had come here to fix her attitude and instead, she had thrown my words back at me! I huffed and made my way to the biology lab.

As I sat in my seat waiting for the bell to ring and class to start, I mulled over Bryanna's words. Did people really stay away from me because they didn't like me? I had always pinned it off to the venom warding them away but, now, it seemed like much more than that.

I had shut myself off years ago, losing him was just too much for me and I felt as if I could trust no one. Up until now I had believed that everyone had forgotten about me but was it possible that I had been so cold that everyone disliked me?

I had purposefully isolated myself, made myself an outcast, so why did other people's opinions matter to me now? I was interrupted by the sounds of feet shuffling and looked up to see my classmates filtering in the room.

I shook my thoughts away and focused. I was a nobody, that was the way it had to be. Right?

I had to admit that I missed laughing and smiling freely. I missed having friends I could rely on. Most importantly, I missed my old life, I missed the old me.

That was when I came upon an epiphany. Losing him shaped me today, but that didn't mean I had to be so uptight. That the people who loved me, wanted to help me.

I decided. Why not let them back in? Even if it was the smallest bit, what harm could befall me? I wouldn't let them know me completely, I could only afford some individuals that luxury. But being friends couldn't hurt, right?

That was Chapter 5! I spent a lot of time on this, making sure it was the best it could be for you guys, and for myself. After that long but very much needed break, it's going to take me some time to get back into this.

See you next chapter!

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