Significances Of The Phenomena Known As Black Hole And It's Applications
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A black hole is a region of space-time exhibiting such strong gravitational effects that nothing—not even particles and electromagnetic radiation such as light—can escape from inside it.
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I've seen black holes from the distance, they swallow up everything on their wake without distinction. It was quite scary to see one for the first time, to see planets and stars disappearing as if they were nothing. But the term black hole can be used for other things, not just the phenomena that gives them their meaning. You can have black holes in your heart, in your mind. Some people can be called a black hole thanks to their personalities or because of the things they do.
Funny thing I've thought, black holes absorb everything, nothing escapes them; so, can some quests be called black holes? Can revenge be called that?
Vengeance is consuming, the desire to destroy, the prices paid for that to come true, things that were once there (people, cities, animals, mountains) disappear so easily. Many comrades, many places filled with memories, I've lost too many of those.
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I, myself, could be a black hole.
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There is a certain moon that shines with light of their own. A moon with padparascha light that comes and goes unafraid to be pulled in. And he stays close, closer every time. He doesn't taunt, he doesn't mock; he simply goes around with curiosity to know more of me.
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"Shinsuke, you okay?" asks the moon one day.
"Yes. Why you ask?"
"You seemed more distracted than usual"
"Is that so? Don't worry much about it, I'm fine" I reassure.
He hums and gets close, laying his head on my shoulder. It's one of those sunny days with soft breeze that makes you want to stay in bed all day, the buzzing of people and the noise of traffic can be heard outside, becoming white noise when it falls in one's ears.
"You know about...?" I try to begin.
The yato looks up to me.
"It's nothing"
"I'll give you 300 yen if you tell me what's wrong" he offers.
He needs to stop spending time around Gintoki, his stupidity is rubbing off on him.
"I was just thinking about everything that happened" I sigh.
"Everything being the war?"
"... Yeah"
"Wanna talk about it?"
I consider it, but I've never been good sharing things about myself.
"I... It's kinda difficult..."
"If you can't, then it's okay. Dun wanna push you to do anything"
I smile at him. I'm always amazed by how very understanding he is. We stay in silence, enjoying the breeze and the white noise.
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War. There is blood, dismembered corpses of friends and foes alike laying up in the floor. I step on top of them, walking a straight path, never, not once did I look back. I held my sword in my hand, cutting every enemy that appears in front of me. I advance relentless, non-stopping. The cries and yells ring in my eardrums, beating their sound, deafening anything else that may be heard. The pile keeps growing, engulfing the panoramic of the scenery. It devours everything, even myself. And I wonder, how much more will I have to advance? How many more corpses do I have to step on? When will this end?
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I open my eye, the first thing I see is the ceiling above me, and the first sound I hear is the one of crickets singing. I sit up, this dream is so frequent I don't even react to it anymore. I notice Kamui's soft snores, and I caress his head. He drools a bit when he sleeps, it's adorable. He stirs, and rubs his eyes, it's as if he knows I just had a nightmare.
"'Insuke?" he asks.
"I'm here"
"Whas 'rong?"
"I can't seem to sleep, that's all" I answer.
He sits up and pulls me to him, making me rest my head in his shoulder.
"Shh. Is aight'. No war here. You're 'kay. Safe. No 'orpses. Shh" he whispers to me.
I cry. His bad articulated reassurance breaks me. I cry out, and he holds me, running his palm across my back. He makes me feel so defenseless, and protected, I can't stay stoic anymore. Kamui keeps hushing me, saying comforting words to my ear.
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A moon surrounds a black hole, not taunting, nor mocking; but understanding of the feelings of said black hole. It is thanks to this, that Shinsuke realizes he's not a black hole. He's a planet. A destroyed, burnt out, scarred planet, but a planet nonetheless. One with a moon named Kamui to guard him, and to nurture him back to health.
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