All the characters of Law & Order SVU belong to Dick Wolf and NBC Universal.

Note 1: The gangs show in this fic I saw in a NatGeo documentary. I found it super interesting. Although I think I soften them a bit, on TV they paint them much worse hahaha

Note 2: This chapter shows my favorite series in the whole world The X Files, I love it and I usually refer to it in my stories, although I think I would not dare to write a fanfic about it because how you compete with so much perfection. Crazy Xphile Forever.

Chapter 9

Bad memories

Elliot left her in her apartment and went home. But he kept thinking that Olivia, in the state she was in, had not expected a warrant, would have gone for revenge; he did not stop wondering if she really would do it. To make sure he went back to Olivia's apartment. He knock and ring the bell and nobody answered; a neighbor came out and told him that she just left. Elliot went as fast as he could and found her leaving the parking lot and decided to follow her. He did not know where she was going, but when he crossed the Brooklyn Bridge, he got an idea and when they arrive to Williamsburg, he realized that he was right; Olivia had come for revenge.

Olivia arrived at the pool where the MS-13 met and wanted the head of Tito Pérez. When she got off the car she took the gun and went to enter when Elliot stopped her. When she saw him, she was surprised.

- What the hell are you doing here? - Olivia shout

- Prevent you from doing something stupid, I knew you would want to do something like this – Elliot said

- Ah yes smart ass, why don't you leave? to begin with this is hypocrisy on your part because you are the first to do things like this, I learned this from you. These damn bastards killed my partner, I will not let them get away with it, I want them to pay - Olivia said

- I do not want them to get away with it either, not after what they did to you, but I want to catch them in the right way and besides it's not worth it if you destroy your life and your career because of this, you are so much more than this and do not want to think that Nick gave his life in vain and I think he did not want to believe that either - Elliot said

Olivia didn't say anything, just gave Elliot the gun. Moments later, two patrol cars approached them as it was all dark and they seemed very suspicious standing in the middle of the street.

- Who are you two? What are you doing here? Identify yourself - the officer asked, presuming they were thieves or gangs members

- Good evening officer, I'm Quantico's agent Stabler, she's Detective Benson from Manhattan SVU; we catching up on a case, we apologize for the obstruction - Elliot said showing him his badge and Olivia also showed her to the officer

- Do not worry agents, we thought that it was another situation, I am Officer Márquez and this is my partner Officer Weiers - Officer Márquez said

- Nice to meet you officers - Elliot and Olivia said shaking their hands

- Agents I give advice that you should have your conversation elsewhere, this is not a good place, gangs are the queens here and come out at night like vampires - Officer Weiers said

- You are right; Officers forgive me the audacity, but you could do me the favor of taking my car back to the SVU; Detective Benson and I have to go somewhere else - Elliot said

- Of course, agent Stabler no problem, I will do it - Officer Weiers said

- Thank you, Officer Weiers, I really appreciate it - Elliot said and gave him the keys to his car, Olivia did not say anything.

- It's a pleasure agents, see you later - Officer Marquez said

Elliot took the keys to Olivia's car, got on it and left

- Where are we going? Where are you taking me? - Olivia asked

- Home, back to Manhattan - Elliot said

- And on the way you can leave me on the bridge to jump into the East River - Olivia said visibly depressed

- Olivia, that does not seem funny to me; I'm sorry I did not let you kill Tito, to begin with, I also want to do it, but this is for your own good - Elliot said

- Yes, you think you do everything for my own good; What do you know about what is good or not for me, if the only thing you do is to make me suffer - Olivia said

- I do not know what to tell you, I swear I've always wanted to do what's best for you, I love you, even though you've never believed it - Elliot said. Olivia did not say a single word to answer that and Elliot did not say anything the rest of the way, it was a quiet 25 minutes back to Manhattan. When they got to Olivia's apartment, she finally talk, although was not what Elliot expected.

-Do you want coffee? Black, 2 sugar? - Olivia asked

- Yes, thank you - Elliot said and sat on the sofa. A few minutes later Olivia gave her a cup of coffee.

- Thank you. The view is beautiful from here - Elliot said taking the cup

- Yes, it is, when I bought the apartment I thought that the view would make me forget all the problems, but the truth is that I can only think about bad memories and what I really want to do now is to throw myself through that window to see if all these voices are finally coming out from my head. The problem is that among those voices that tell me to do it, I listen to Nick's voice telling me not to do it. I honestly do not know what to do, I miss him - Olivia said taking a picture of her and Nick from the table and giving it to Elliot

- That was taken at the mayor's ball; I did not want to go, but he practically dragged me to go. It turned out that I had a great time. He made me laugh all night, even dancing, which I hate, well not so much - Olivia said, smiling for the memory

- Sounds like a good man, you obviously liked him a lot - Elliot said returning the photo. Olivia put it back on the table, Elliot noticed that the photo next to that one was one of Olivia and he in the park at a picnic of the SVU, maybe she did not hate him as much as he thought.

- Yes it was, although at first I hated him; when he arrived, I made his life miserable, I was rude and pure evil so that he would run away, but he suck it up without saying anything, until he got to the point that he asked Cragen for a new partner and he said no. After that at the moment I did another bad thing to him, he told me that although I did not like him he was my partner and I had to respect him; I laughed and told him that it was time to get his own voice and stop doing everything I told him, I said congratulations and I applauded, we both laughed at that and we have been good since then. I got involved in his personal life, I met his daughter with his ex-wife, she is an adorable girl who is now going to grow up without a father because of me and I cannot help feeling this way because of everything that happened. I know Nick was stubborn like me, but honestly, I think I made him worse. I do not understand how everything end like this. I thought that after Jenna there would not be nothing worse. God, but how wrong I was. And now that I think about it, what are you doing here listening to me talk about all this? Why do you care? - Olivia said

- Because you matter to me, it's also healthy to take out all this that is bothering you; by the way, you're not guilty of anything that happened, everyone made their own decisions, Tito and his gang decided to kill Erika and Nick, just as I decided to shoot Jenna, do not blame yourself for any of that - Elliot said as he approached Olivia to hug her, but stopped short when he remembered that she told him not to touch her.

- But I cannot help but blame me for everything, it's in my nature. Elliot why did you do it? Why did you shoot Jenna? You tell me it was your decision, so I want to know why? - Olivia said

- I'd rather not talk about that - Elliot said and turned around and went to the kitchen to put the coffee cup in the sink. Olivia followed him into the kitchen

- Why do not you tell me? Maybe it will help me understand why you left me - Olivia said looking into his eyes

- For you; Jenna had already shot Skinner, Ronson and Sister Peg, when I saw her, she was pointing at you. I could not let her hurt you, so I made the decision and shot her. I honestly did not think I would kill her. A year ago, I was in bad shape because I had killed a girl and I did not want to draw you into that abyss with me, I thought it was the best thing for you, I'm sorry, if I had known it would end like this, I would not have done it. Well I would not have left you, but I really do not regret having shot Jenna, I understand her pain and I'm sorry, but that's not the way to act, you cannot take justice into your hands; and I say this especially to you and maybe it's hypocritical of me, but I've always wanted the best for you and I do not want you to make my mistakes - Elliot said with red eyes and Olivia had tears running down her cheeks too. Elliot could not resist and gently wiped the tears from his cheeks and quickly walked away

- I am very sorry for all that has happened and thank you for always being there and wanting the best for me, but I am a big girl Elliot and if I am going to make mistakes you will not be able to prevent it, everyone should commit their own mistakes and learn from them - Olivia said

- I know, but it's not illegal to want the best for the people you love. And now, what are we going to do? - Elliot said

- I don't know, it's 3am, I cannot call Alex for the warrant at this time; you will not let me kill Tito so that leaves us with the third option, watch The X Files until Alex gets up at 6am, because I doubt I can sleep, I simply cannot - Olivia said

- In the first two you're right, so it'll be the third one; I want to see Beyond the Sea - Elliot said

- It's my house, I should choose what episode we're going to watch - Olivia said

- But I'm the boss, I've always been, so I choose - Elliot said smiling

- Yes, you always play that cocky card - Olivia said putting the disc on DVD while Elliot laughed, Olivia was a little more relaxed.

When the sun hit Olivia in the face and she opened her eyes, she noticed that she and Elliot had fallen asleep together on the couch. The disc of The X Files continued running because it was already in Young At Heart. Olivia got up carefully trying not to wake up Elliot and turned off the DVD. The clock read 6 and 30am, she could not believe that she had slept more than 20 minutes, she had not been able to do it since the kidnapping and the death of Nick. She went to the kitchen and started making coffee. She also decided that she would make Waffles for breakfast. While she was cooking, she call Alex to get her the search warrant to check the pool where the MS-13s meet; she told her that she would do it and that they would meet there.

Elliot got up with the smell of Waffles; he immediately realized that he was in Olivia's apartment and started looking for her. When he reached the kitchen, he found her serving coffee in the cups.

- Good morning Elliot - Olivia said as Elliot sat in the breakfast table and Olivia gave him coffee and a plate of Waffles with honey.

- Good morning Olivia. Thank you. So you learned to cook? - Elliot said

- Yes, I learned by force; Nick wanted me to learn for when I had my children, yeah funny. When he divorced he had to learn to cook for when his daughter stayed with him; so he begged to accompany him to the cooking classes, I really do not think he wanted to go alone, but it was fun - Olivia said with a smile

- And I should take the advice of both of you because when the children stay with me I order take out or we go out to dinner, I do not cook anything. You should teach me because this is great - Elliot said smiling

- Thank you. I spoke with Alex and she told me she would see us with the warrant in the MS-13 pool at 7:30 am - Olivia said

- Excellent, let's make them pay - said Elliot

- That's what I hope and wish - Olivia said with a sad look