Chapter 23: Another Love, new start.

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She headed to her room, and got fresh, did some pressing of clothes, arranged her piled books, vacuumed, and then prepared some steak for herself and ate it. She wondered how she was alive doing so much of work and eating nothing. After that, she opened her books, studied for 2 hours and then showered once again, she seemed to be doing that frequently! She looked herself in the washroom's mirror and stared.

What have I done to myself, I look so fragile and pale, I should eat properly. I shouldn't let this face deprive me that I'll be losing my health because I'm not with my mom, why should I even bother to think about her! Hmph! OH GOD THANKYOU SO MUCH FOR KEEPING ME AWAY FROM HER!

She wore a half sleeved navy blue blouse and a white jeans denims and put her scrambled hair in a neat high pony, then just she was about to take her sedative pills she realized, she was going to visit them, so she put it back in her denims pocket, then again plugged them off and threw in her wardrobe, and then for some unknown reason, she proudly strode out from her room and locked it with the keys and walked trying to whistle like singing, but only ended up coughing when she couldn't. Plugging in the pair of keys in her pocket, she got a weird feeling if everything will be just fine.

As she walked through the lanes leading to dojo, she mumbled the most beautiful song.

"Fighting flames of fire
Hang onto burning wires
We don't care anymore
Are we fading lovers?
We keep wasting colors
Maybe we should let this go"

She dint cared as her other friends gazed her in admiration as if she were serenading for someone and had the sweetest voice, but she just smiled at them and continued it till she was near his dojo, she subdued her voice and gulped shortly.

"All I know is their confused stares ..." she mumbled.

However she showed up with a happy face and as she did, she noticed everyone were right there- Tyson bouncing his blade, Kai leaning against the same old wall, Max chatting on his phone, while Ray in the hall- in his thoughts, and Kenny sitting on the short dais, typing on his laptop, and their gazes fell upon Hilary as she entered, except Ray's.

She was petrified by their questioning, confused yet surprised looks and they soon realized it. Tyson simply walked inside towards hall, Max just looked at her with that 'hey, how you doing' expression and Kenny smiled at her.

"Hi-ii everyone." She said as she entered.

"Hello, what's up? Long time, no see, eh Hilary" Kenny lit up.

"Hmn…so how are you all doing?" she said as she took a seat beside him trying to greet dizzy.

"Good, just fine…much of the things changed in these past month."

"Like what?" she asked as if curious though she knows everything.

"Hmn, no need to dig the past." he sighed briefly indirectly telling her to stop.

"Okay, fine."

"I wish I could be in your class, it's really boring with Kai, really...AHH! I mean NOTHING!"

"Huh? What's the matter Kenny?"

Kenny looked beside Hilary where an amethyst eyed blader stood staring at them, so did Hilary blinked and turned to see and got a 'fear' that she feared. While she continued gazing in his narrow distinct deep purple eyes looking behind them, he abruptly took a seat beside her and smiled.

I could regret my decision of ever showing up here, but I do not feel it this much and I think I kinda have a comfortable and reposed and soothing feeling around…I donno this new feeling growing around that I never figured I had around him. I could feel my heart beating softer, my worries cease away and a longing that I never had being quenched. What is this new craving feeling, why this sudden longing, what's this so comfort I don't get usual. I don't understand.

I don't understand! I get this beautiful feeling which I'm resisting to take and now I'm lost!

"Are you alright?" he asked softly. She could see a new haze in his eyes and the profound sweetness in his tone. She just stared at his features.

"Yeas, I'm" she replied swiftly, yet litting up a smile.

"Would you mind if I do something more than this?" he asked in a low tone, trying not to make her freak her around. She immediately realized this and she placed her hand over his and nodded in pleasure, no, not any sign of insecurity like before, and then she realized nothing was wrong with her or him. She even felt silly for getting wrong and bothered perspective about him.

I can see him, the gentleness, the sweetness, the personable face, yet more the words, but It's not like I'm falling for him, but at least something that will lit up everything and I get the expecting feeling of not being owed. I think I really like him.

"Why didn't you show up for such a long time?" he asked in slow tone. Okay, he wasn't pretending in anyway, he just wanted to make up with her, that's all.

"I'm fine. Just feel to be alone for some time. That's all." She said in a painful tone with little wetness in her eyes that she bent to let her brunette hair fall on her eyes.

She felt a bit unusual as he dint replied, and then felt what she didn't expected- he gently removed her hair that nestled her eyes and bent to get a better view of her eyes, she let him caress her hair shortly, still her eyes were down, staring at her own lap. Kenny stood up and walked away, and Max just did the same. She dint let any tear fall.

O my beloved, my idol,
you have become my love..
There is mercy,
your mercy on me..

I lose myself in such a way
that I don't ever find myself again.
Gradually, I give my life,
to you only.

She finally found her eyes getting really filed and she lifted her eyes and gazed at him and he was hurt seeing her sad facial expression. She dint hesitated to show her eyes filled to him and perfectly looked in his eyes. He slowly removed his hand and put a sad smile just as she was trying to muster up.

She held his wrist, and he dint showed any change in his facial expression as she held it tighter and rub her tears before they fell on his fingers. He only gave her a sympathetic and soft smile, feeling an urge to hug her softly and let all her pains bury inside him, he'd never say no to her. She slowly left his hand as she slightly sniveled.

"Calm down, relax. I'm here, I'm here."

She nodded and sat gazing at her lap without any more sobs and more touches. She just had that outburst of feelings and the warmth she needed that she let Kai cease, and heal it, though strangely she felt Tyson inside him.

"Would you like to go out with me tonight?" he asked, a bit apprehensive, not looking directly in her eyes, but only pretending just passing the sight sometimes in eyes, but mainly on her hairs, to distract himself from any other harmful feelings

"Hmmm." she nodded. "But just as a means of friend, not anything more than this." she warned sweetly.

"Sure, I'm not dating you; I just wanted to go out with you. That's all."

She chuckled slightly and nodded, a cute face forming out of real normalcy, nothing awkward around.

Tyson was watching the whole scene from his window upstairs of his room with face of sadness beneath and yet he tried to put so normal face up for himself. He closed his window then, while they were still there.

She stood up as he watched her strode inside and headed upstairs.

"I'll come soon, wait for me."

He nodded and shortly smiled at her, she did the same before she climbed upstairs and she felt she needed to take a few clothes of her from his room; so she tried to calm herself down. I wonder how everything gets just so fine. Oh! This feels just so great. Hmn, hope I get my top without any more fear, eh, so awkward, why do I need to worry, I'm not gonna stay! It's just fine; I wil just go inside and take slowly without disturbing him...Whaoa!

She mentally exclaimed as her eyes suddenly, unexpectedly and quickly met with the crimson ones; he too had that surprised and a bit gasped face as his eyes met hers and they broke the stare quite quickly, first being him, as he was the one who was standing just in front of the door inside. He turned and strode inside, giving her the way to venture in. She put her gazes down on floor and tried her best to ignore everything and especially the fact that anyone shouldn't get any opportunity to speak or initiate any talk. She quietly made her way to the table beside which there was a short heap of clothes. He strode towards the balcony not even bothering about anything. She watched him with eyes at corner slightly while she was searching for her tops which were all engrossed as it was all mixed with his yellow tops, a few jeans other stuff. She found a baby pink top and one black, whose sleeves were intricate somewhat, she liked that one. I could remember when I wore this. It brings the old things to memory I want to be reminded- to smile but then I can't get addicted to anything...sorry.

A half-hearted smile formed, lacking warmth as her eyes looked away, her arms folding across her chest.

She got up from her sitting position, while she was searching and looked around somewhat. He was coming back in the room as she pushed the blocking fluttering curtains aside. He didn't even mind to look at her, or just react like there was at least some one around. Heading directly to a couch beside the beret he sat with a thud and stared at his lap holding his blade. She shortly looked at him, and uttered.

"I just came to take my tops…tha-ts, all." She mumbled unclear.

He ignored, like he didn't hear her and continued the same stare at dragoon. She felt a bit edgy and she shrugged in uncaring attitude and strode out sliding off the door, with her tops laid on her hand.

Fine. Just fine, it's just this where it all ends. I don't care how much this hurts, how much this is so mean, and I don't understand anything, I don't understand 'us'. How can she go out with that jerk, how come I'm being so ignored like I had done a big crime or like I'm the biggest creep or like I am some pervert! I hate to watch this, and then it's just fine. I don't care I shouldn't care. I don't care why is she doing this, I don't care if I'm the biggest fool for not confessing early, I don't care if I'm losing her, I don't care if I'm losing myself in this entire mess! Just go away thoughts!

She felt a bit calm, as nothing went wrong, it felt so peaceful at the thought. She thought she would mess up, but it just didn't happen. Hmn, so good. I think I should stay away from Ty for some time, it's a bit calm. I should smile that I'm going out, it's better for a change, he'll at least not make me feel freak around like usually he did with all kind of stares. Hmn this is good for a change. Yup! Margot was just so right. Its good I dressed up fine to go out without heading to room to change once again.

"Hey, where were you?" the scarfed blader who was still sitting there asked her as she showed up.

"Yup! I'm here, just went upstairs to collect these tops." she said as she looked at those tops.

"Oh! Okay, keep them under my sheets in the corner; you can take back to your home after we return, fine."

"Sure, that's good idea!" she exclaimed childishly yet happily and dashed over his sheets- plugging her tops beneath them.

He watched her with eyes litting up in happiness in the amethyst shades of care and fair enough to make any one fall.

Hiromi is different. He smiled with a smirk blend in it and let his scarf and hairs flutter wherever it could as a gentle soft music played in his ears.

You only tell me,
should I love or not,
Tell me about your heart,
Should I love or not..

I'll tell you so much,
On my love,
I don't have so much control,
Still the heart thought once,
Now that I've begun to meet,
I should ask you once..

There were never such wishes before,
Never had I tried to meet
someone like that..
Disentangle my problems,
Should I love or not..
Say to me within eyes,
Should I love or not