Chapter 28: It's dance time!

~If you mean something to me and I love you, I'll definitely try to make you realize that you've hurt me, accused me with your words or actions if you ever do, and...If I don't feel for you, I'll never make any efforts to make you realize and just be there with a facade of normalcy- like nothing's wrong~ Self composed.

She grabbed her bag putting over her shoulders, switched off the lights and bought a sandwich on her way and devoured it and walked peacefully to the college.

The blunette watched her exciting face as she received her earnings, and all he could do was to smile and walk off.

She wasn't late; neither was the blunette, nor the dual haired blader and the blonde, while the Chinese guy thought of skipping the day.

It was just perfect today; she got a seat on the second bench of the middle row with Delia and Margot on her both sides. She smiled more today and said her two friends about her surprising morning. They cheered her.

"Hey, we deserve a treat, Hilary!"

"I know you would say that. I'll treat you two with the strawberry ice cream!"

"Hey, that's really sweet of you, aww!"

However she cared perfectly that she kept a perfect distance from her team mates, she even dismissed them as her classmates in her mind, after what happened yesterday. They literally said and meant to go away from their house and that would have hurt anyone. The only one from whom she had hope of good talk was Kai. Yet she didn't like it much, of course, she knew that he loved her, but she didn't have the same feelings, at least till now. It was deepening a bit now but that needed termination.

Today, she brought some cookies in lunch- two packs, and gave one of them to Delia and Margot; they thought that the other one she was keeping for herself. Nonetheless, they endeavored whatever they were given- just enjoying the little care of their friend,

"You can eat your pack now with us Hil, we'd like that." Margot suggested

"Uhm, actually…." She thought a bit, "Its fine, I'll eat later,"

"Maybe you're done with that lunch; really your appetite is getting worse." Delia shrugged.

"Hmm, you can say that, but I'm okay."

I think I should do this. Should I give them? Or just forget about the idea...I wonder how am I really wanting to give them after all what happened yesterday. I just hope they'll not insult me anyway. What I've done anyway? Basically and frankly understanding, Max and Ray are upset because they know I am the one making Tyson's mood from a few days so down and also maybe because I'm hanging with Kai, and… as far as for Tys, he is angry with me from the day I left him. Maybe that hurt him because he saved me that day and I just kinda dismissed his gesture as a means of insecurity. I don't feel it anymore….Okay, okay, fine, Hilary, you're goin' to do it. It doesn't matter what they will say. I'll not be hurt even if they say something, I'm just gonna do it.

"Just a sec." she said with a bit shaky shoulders.

"Hehe, okay." they said not minding- much busy in their conversations about some dress that Margot recently bought.

"Hmm." She slowly got up from her chair and looked over the left corner where the two friends sat quietly. She could identify the quietness and lack of any chats that prevailed; everything changed much, and precisely shifted to worse. They just plainly looked down at their boring lunch that was given. She ambled in nervousness, not sure what she'll say or how to look at them when they'll shoot that guilty or questioning looks, but she mustered some courage and held the deep brown pack of the cookies tight and slowly approached crossing the opposite bench.

They looked at her simply, just with that face of 'yes? What do you want?' and she simply smiled, yet it was not a forced one.

"Hi...I just bought some cookies and I thought to share with you guys." she paused shortly trying to analyze their minds and she made a wild guess- it's not going to be worst at least, " I hope you don't mind." she said trying to muster a happy light tone, yet the fear was evident on her face.

They looked at her, blinked in some sort of confusion. The bluenette and the blonde looked at each other. Before she would speak anything, she kept the pack and turned, starting to leave...I guess this is all I could do, I DONT THINK THEY'LL UTER ANY WORD BUT AT LEAST NOT SAY ANYTHING BAD.

"Thanks." came the unexpected reply. She widened her eyes in slight surprise and turned to look at them. The blunette stared at her without any sort of feelings that could hurt her, but just with a kinda instinct of something strong like he could stare her that way making her stand forever and look back at him in the same way.

"No problem." she smiled. "Thanks for taking them. Actually Tyson, today I receie…I mean I bought some yens and I thought to buy some junk for a while. "She said slowly.

"I know..." he nodded in sort of firmness, yet she could not do anything more, except to walk off quietly and go back to take her seat. I don't believe we just talked. Oh, finally something good, I wish I could sit with them and talk for some time, but I can't afford much something wrong.

They took out the cookies after carefully tearing the cover and savoring simply, and wondering if they really should eat.

"Uhmm. Are you fine with Hil?" Max mumbled.

"What do you mean?" he shrugged.

"Uhmm nothing" he said slowly, "And I felt that you both were in relation before that day." he mumbled in low tone that the navy haired guy barely heard.

"You said something?" he said not minding much.

"OBVIOUSLY NOT!"

"Hmmm…"

I just hope if everything could be back like it was in the past. What did I ever do to her….he sighed at the thought.

"Margot, I hope you don't mind me taking your book, just for one day." Hilary asked.

"Of course not. I barely used it, anyway."

"Okay."

"Hilary, are you making up with him?"

"Maybe, I'm trying. But I don't know why I just feel that maybe I am mean so much sometimes."

"Why like that-"

"I don't feel to say that."

Margot glanced to the other side and noticed that the two guys were like keeping an eye on their conversation, she blinked for once, and nudged the brunette friend out of the class causing Hilary to stare at her in questioning face.

"Are you fine?" she asked softly and in a deep tone.

"Hmm…" she looked down in disappointment, "why are you asking me?"

" 'Cause I care about you."

"Please don't ask me something that I can't answer…"

"Of course, but this is something not that you can't answer, it's something you don't want to answer."

"OKAY! I'm fine."

"What do you feel really?"

"Wha- "

"No Hil, just answer my all questions."

"I don't know really."

"You really sometimes confuse me, and you are even not concentrating! Literally!"

"But I-"

"NO! First I thought that you liked Tyson, and then you stopped talking to him, left him all upside down, and then started dating with kai-"

"I'm not datin-"

"Yes! You are. It was just maybe once and you don't want to call that a 'date', because your heart can't handle that word. You are just afraid of everything-"

"Margot please stop!"

"You are afraid, aint you?" she asked slowly yet sternly looking deep in her eyes.

"What?"

"Yes, I'm right. You do have sure feelings for him, but you are so much feared to accept anything."

"What are you saying." she said in a low tone, in some sort of resentment, now being able to realize her words.

"I'm right Hilary…Please don't hurt yourself, that's so cruel of you. I may not say who is 'he' cause how am I supposed to know anyway. But I'm sure; that all I wanted to say." she said in a slow yet caring tone and began to leave.

All I know is that I've been cruel with myself

All I understand is that I've played with their feelings

Without ever realizing, just played dark and dead

Not either mine, that's the fact I'm a freak myself killing

So much to realize, to deal, so much to realize

So much to realize, to deal, so much to realize

"She's right." She said to herself...

The break was over and she saw Kai passing by, maybe heading to his class after spending his lunchtime all alone. She knew he didn't saw her so she decided to walk inside before he sees her. She shrugged slowly and paced her way.

She dint notice that the class had already started. She just strode directly without noticing anything, and her senses dawned upon her only when she sat on her chair and looked at the white board. Her teacher looked at her in confusion and then she sought to ignore her and continue blabbering, while Hils just stared at her deep brown desk. Each sentence of her friend was echoing in her head.

She just pondered about it a few minutes until she got distracted when her teacher said she'd be conducting a surprise test anytime this week.

Next hour was the dance class.

They stood up from their positions and headed towards the large hall. It was a kinda much resembling like room but they were many partitions. She felt like it was so freaking here to be around and the place was believed to be haunted. Anyhow, she managed to kick off the thought as she got a spooky feeling.

The teens were excited, forgetting that they were students; they just had one thing in their mind, if they could choose their partners or if they'll be allotted by their teen like teacher.

"Okay girls and boys, please get yourself in lines." the young lady clapped getting their attention.

They barely started standing in line, while they were still in chaos and a few boys were getting jukebox with smirks on their faces, while a few girls were getting cocky ideas if they could dance best today… while Hilary stood apart from everyone in a corner.

"Okay, please don't get yourself in airs. I'll be allotting you the partners. You got me?"

"WHATTT?" came the angry burst.

"Yes, the last-" she was cut off.

"Excuse me."

"Hmm? " she turned at the call "Yes Tyson?"

"I'm just not feeling good today, please can I skip this?" he asked carefully with planned pleading face and managing his words come good in a sentence to convince the lady.

"Oh! Okay, just leave silently." she said slowly.

He walked out from the side, and closed the door slowly as he paced out towards the weird looking empty class.

"Okay, now listen carefully. I'm reading your names."

"I wish if I could partner her." a whisper from the line.

"Hilary, why are you standing there in the corner?" The female couch looked at the brunette who was standing quietly- lost in her world- staring out of the glass panels looking at the senior students who were playing football.

"Huh?" she turned.

"Come here."

"Hmm." she walked to her, "Actually ma'am I can't dance today." She mumbled quietly, while the other students gazed at her in interest about the possible low toned conversation.

She got fiery narrowed eyes at them. They sweatdropped and looked away.

"Why not?"

"Because it's the part of my month, and besides that, I lately been suffering the side effects of - I mean I am in a huge headache."

"Oh, okay fine, but please don't make any excuses next time."

"Hummmm…." She sighed

"Who said you are not doing anything?"

"Huh? I didn't get you."

"Sorry Hilary, but you gotta do something else, whatever it might be."

She sighed in a tired and down way and closed her eyes lightly. She didn't know about Tyson that he had left, she raised her head and looked at the young lady.

"Okay, fine, I'll sing for their dance today."

"Great! Good idea, I'll call them for playing instruments."

"Who?"

"They just belong to other section."

"Okay."

"I'll just come within no time"

While their teacher went out, the chaos began again, and she really got sick of this; used to this though she hated it. She sighed.

"Okay Hilary, you can begin.." she said as she led two students, a girl and other a guy and they held a guitar, while the girl took her position near the piano desk after handing Hils a microphone and then she walked to the dais.

Okay Hilary, I've to do it. I'm just going to sing it with all my heart. I can't see Tyson.

She looked over and over but all she could see were the couples taking their positions as the names were being read, she hoped Tyson would be listening to her.

I just hope wherever you are, but you are listening to me, I didn't wanna be the one to regret for anything, just a little time I would take to say everything that neither I nor you may understand but I hope still that will explain everything.

She breathed in deep as the pairs started pacing the moves slowly as the instrumental of the song commenced.

I've again posted two chapters at a go. If anyone would PM me the typos/errors, it'd be a great help seriously. It's up to you.

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