Chapter 45: Flaming her insecurities.
"Hils, can we probably talk?" Kai asked, his eyes closed like usual but his calm tone evitable like most of the times.
She gulped at his question but nodded. She followed him in the living room and stood leaning half against the counter wall. He sighed before he asked her to sit on the couch.
"I'm alright." She said quickly, her heart skipping an unhealthy beat
"Don't worry, I'm not gonna ask you any torturing questions." She gave a bare chuckle to calm her. She nodded and smiled barely to indicate she was fine.
He brought a small stool near her and casually sat effectively warming her cold hands in his.
"You don't need to worry, I'm fine." She said her voice almost hurtful and feeble but somehow it sounded nostalgically euphonic.
"I haven't called here to ask you what I asked you some months before, instead I wanted to know if you're not burdening yourself with so many questions inside you. Aren't you?"
She sighed heavily staring in the space and not understanding what to say exactly. Not precisely answering.
"I'm sorry if I'd worried you. I know, you've been in deep contemplation like you always do. But Hil-" he placed his index finger near her chin lifting it softly, "I don't want to be the reason for your dismay and sadness if any. I don't want to hurt you in anyway." He explained quite frankly. She somehow felt guilty for making him say all to her, deviating quite from his cold demeanor. Perhaps saying all do this costs him every ounce of pride he has. I'm so bad! I really am!
"I don't know what happened to me that moment. I mean I couldn't stand the fact seeing you together, so close." His voice dangerously lowered at the end, "I'd said you before. Couldn't just stand that!" his eyes shut bravely fighting back tears.
"I'm sorry, I had hurt you always." She said tightening her grip on his palms. He nodded his eyes close sniffing vaguely.
"No, you haven't" he sighed, freeing his hands, and therefore the lovely warmth. "I am not asking you to love me back, Hils, no. I just want, us, the way we were, happy and friendly." He smiled sadly and standing quickly, effectively breaking the moment.
She nodded, seeing that as the cue that they should part. She traipsed with forlorn heart. Thanks, I won't be troubled by my mind anymore, in regard you.
She glanced at the wall clock only to find it was past ten thirty and he didn't still wasn't back. He was causally backed before eleven. She hoped she'd show up at the eleventh hour but wouldn't abandon. She stuck staring at the door, while she packed her bag to stop herself from getting sick, or rather keep a little busy.
It only hurt her more when it was past eleven fifteen. She closed the lights, sat on the floor resting her back against the wall beside the writing table and crashing her cheek smoothly on her arms placed on her knees.
I'd miscomprehended us. How can I love Tyson? That wasn't what we had said. We were best friends and best friends can't do this. I'm sure he is just upset because of Kai, there's nothing he has the hint of what I was going to say actually. She convinced herself, I was wrong. How could I love someone? Haha, its nothing like that, I'm just little freaky vulnerable to nascent bonds, just nothing else…Just please don't be angry with me, come back.
She felt asleep with mild tear shed face in closed lights.
Tyson woke past eleven thirty only because his arm was utterly numb and was palpitating. Shit. I'm late. I slept.
He swiftly trotted staring the sky in the middle sometimes like he did seldom, to drive off the feeling of being alone, running in the middle of streets.
He gave a tired sigh before he reached for the knob to open the door. When he opened, cool darkness greeted him and he found, almost a stroke of wind slapping him. He placed his hand to protect and slowly closed the door to open the lights. Oh! Shsshh, she must be slept till now. I guess, it just passed out my mind.
His eyes only widened in shock to find her. Why is she…? His thoughts trailed as his gears comprehended a little late.
Looking her for some seconds, the previous scene replayed in his mind and he wasn't feeling well about it. Say, it included a little envy. Nonetheless, he lifted her carefully not to stir her or embarrass. He wasn't' scared, he had done it before and she never woke while in his arms. Placing her softly on his bed, he sighed, putting sheets on her and closing the door of balcony and getting changes to his green PJs and crashing the couch to comfort his aching back that was answering him for the good deal of punishment he has given it at riverside.
He checked his phone briefly to shut it off before dosing off. No matter what Hilary is thinking or upset about he will definitely not allow him to skip another day, tomorrow. He was sure of it. Her bossy nature will be back for brief time till he has agreed to go. He sighed and swiped the screen.
Hiro: Arrive sharp at three thirty and no more excuses. Or else I'm not gonna continue any further.
He made a whining face reading it but texted with reluctant fingers,
Yeah yeah, I will.
Flipping his phone under the pillow like he did, he dozed off. Slight snores could be heard only indicating how tired he might have been without doing anything much the day.
He was a unique personality in regard with his alarm what was place near his dead ears that only stirred others' sleep after sometime but rarely his.
Three twenty. He wasn't awake. It cause Hilary to dream that the alarm was ringing but she convinced her sub conscious mind that it's the middle of night, it can't be anyone's alarm and stop dreaming something that will disturb her sleep.
Why is this alarm ringing in the middle of night? It can't be morning!...Sleep, sleep… . . . . PRACTICE TIME!
He woke up from his sleep like he had a nightmare and glanced his phone to see the time. Hiro was quite punctual of his words. He grabbed his jacket and opened rashly the balcony door and smoothly landed in the dojo after taking a cool jump. The voice of his perching on the ground was impervious.
The quite cute thing that was going to happen was that Hilary, in her dream saw him jumping off the balcony. She stirred slightly and she checked him. Curious to find him, she noticed that the balcony door was open. She quietly climbed downstairs and walked out. Why am I in the middle of night searching for Tyson? I'd have knocked the washroom door before checking out. What a pain! She was thinking in her half sleepy mind. She landed safely in the park and looked around. No sign of Tyson. Wow! Now I'm alone in an isolated park in the middle of the night! She sat on the bench and yawned. Should have grabbed a jacket. Rats!
She peacefully slept for good fifteen minutes and then terribly woke from a roar. She literally stood from her sleeping state to her feet and looked around. The voice was from the backside. She dug through the bushes only to see the one she been looking for.
Blading? In the middle of night? What the heck?
She wasn't noticed, until she sneezed involuntarily. Tyson was about to launch his attack when her sneeze has utterly distracted him.
Hilary?
He'd guessed before even looking her. She foolishly crawled back the bushes though she knew she was caught.
"What are doing Hilary?" Tyson said pointing her, his mouth almost landing to his feet. He was hilarious.
Shit. Very good Hilary. You're noticed. Oh, congrats!
She sheepishly showed in front of him and a confused Hiro.
"I-I was just taking a walk." She trailed without thinking.
"In the middle of night." Hiro completed.
"You needn't need to spy me Hils. Go home." He said not looking at her, and getting the blde ready for launch.
"And mind telling me what's so important to be practicing in the middle of night!" She shouted, a little angry as he ignored.
"Do I need to remind you that who I'm?' he said a little cockily as the brothers launched, the dust rising below the blades, and attaining a high vigour within seconds.
Oh yeah, you're the World Champion! How can I forget that!
She didn't want to disturb them but she was too cross with the fact that she was ignored like she wasn't there.
"Talk to me Tyson!" she narrowed her eyes yelling so that her voice reaches him in the middle of blades clashing.
"Argh shut up. Can't you see that I'm blading! Why are you so stubborn!" He shot back as he desperately tried to concentrate. He was losing it, dragoon wouldn't listen him. Why is dragoon not listening me?! This is all because of her!
"I'm not being stubborn, I just wanted to know, and that's all. If this is what you think, then fine. Anyway, it's good to know what people think about you, it helps us understanding things better. I guess, I'll be leaving." With that, she stomped, turning her back. He gave up his blade, totally giving up for once,
"I don't care! Leave and don't show up ever again." He suddenly got a huge shake of ferocious anger radiating from his chest to words, "Oh yeah, I forgot, there's no one with you. Please do take someone along; I guess Kai might be helpful. Or else tell me, I'll sort someone for you!"he yelled back staring at her back as she didn't face him but his words only shivered her from inside.
"Oh," she whispered, "So this is what you felt. I get it. But thanks, I'm fine without either of you." She said her voice being on the edge of breaking.
"Leave." He said cruelly.
She ran as quick she could while checking if her pockets were empty or contained something. She walked in the dojo quietly only to land in is room one last time probably and collected her keys and flew to her room.
This is what he thinks. He thinks that I'm too vulnerable to handle down my emotions or to confide. Wow, thanks once again for hurting me, I won't let you see my face again in your house. Thanks for letting me stay but not anymore. You find it too easy to blabber whenever you like and then make up so easily. This is what you think, isn't it? I was worried about you, thinking that you might be upset, but if this is what you've to take your frustrations on me for what happened, then you're wrong. You'd have at least not spoken like that in front of Hiro. I was wrong, perhaps because I was too helpless, but unlike you, Kai has some sense to apologize me. I'm sorry, I'm not comparing you. Fuck, you're too good, that in my eyes nobody was as kind and understandable as you, but you've begged me forget that. Your fault. I'm forced to leave you, once again. Once again, you've threatened our friendship. I wonder why relations so close end up breaking always!
She grabbed her school pack and walked out quietly, approaching the building within minutes. It was almost quarter to five and therefore, the main gate was unlocked. She sighed as she leaned uncomfortably in the lift, reaching her floor quickly. Grabbing her keys, she unlocked the door and trudged inside, switching on the lights. She flung her pack on her bed, heading to kitchen to check if something was there to eat. But what she found was her clean little fridge. Oh yeah, I remember, I had washed in before leaving, which is why after so many days, it doesn't smell rotten.
Having nothing to eat, she thumped on her bed, thinking what she'll be doing. She was scared by the fact that she will be left alone, again. His words still echoed in her mind and her eyes filled. Why Tyson, why you have to be so rude? I could have stood anyone, but not you.
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