Iason doesn't know how to keep himself sane, especially with Gon's arms around him… and the boy's lips inches away.
This chapter will contain mentions of explicit content, without well… details of explicit content.
A/N: Sorry this chapter is a little on the small side. I hopefully plan to upload two chapters next week.
It was a heartfelt situation for Iason, having Sakura by his side, willing to throw himself at Gon just to keep his raw feelings at bay for another minute. He thought of this so many times, yet he still can't understand to this day, why the smaller boy loves him…
This dynamic they have between the three of them is so strange. How it makes so much sense while making so little of it filled him with strange emotions. He likes the uniqueness of the situation, how every thought and action Sakura and Gon both put out mixes well with the other.
He's starting to crave it even more; after watching Gon and Sakura for the past week, when Sakura has Gon's attention Iason felt a little jealous, wanting the curious boy's attention as much as Sakura held it. He's really regretting distancing himself from Gon's advances.
And it's not just Gon; having become closer to Sakura, he now feels the same way for the shorter boy.. Every day, he feels himself inching closer to succumbing to his desire…
It's become so bad that every chance he's had free time, he has gotten himself off. What was once a daily routine, sometimes reached as many as five times a day. On odd days, where it was just him alone in their hotel, he'd go as far as to finger himself as well.
His fantasies weren't that better either. Sometimes he would imagine his fingers were Gon's or Sakura's, other times, he'd fantasise about having Gon on top of him, imagining what it would feel like to having his partner driving into him…
Would it be rough and animalistic…?
Perhaps, delicate and sensual…?
Maybe even a mixture of the two or more, creating this picture of raw overwhelming feelings and sensations; even now as he thought about what Gon would do to him, he was roughly tugging at his member, hoping to get out the last of his sexual frustrations.
Was this his third or sixth time today…? Honestly, he stopped caring once he started sliding his fingers along his length. It was a matter of time before he feels that release once more, watching his liquid essence leave him to hit the water in the toilet bowl.
Even as he panted, his mind seemed to keep the same momentum, imagining some of it to be dribbling from Gon's mouth, a giddy smile being directed at him before Gon would swipe his finger along his lip and chin, collecting the last of it before slipping his finger back into his awaiting mouth.
Iason quickly flushed the toilet, feeling a little guiltier after his latest session. He shouldn't be doing this, driving himself mad with these fantasies. He knows how to end it, with a single call to his brother.
Leorio will be able to help them, to help Gon with the last hurdle before they can have these sorts of sessions. But a small part of him believed that Leorio would be upset at him, maybe more of Gon for somehow taking advantage of him.
He didn't want that… especially after coming this far, having developed this relationship that he can't see a day without having it. Iason wiped the sweat from his brow with the back of his hand, once more feeling that churning in his stomach, those unrelenting feelings returning once more…
It was almost as bad as that wet dream, where all those fantasies almost came to life. It felt as if those were real, but instead, he awoke to find himself covered in sweat, Gon and Sakura both holding him close as though he was the most important person in their life. But the part that made him panic, was the wet sticky substance drenching the front of his pants.
He's never run so fast to the bathroom in his life. It was so bad... not only did he have to have a shower, he had to change his underwear and nightwear. Gon being worried about him when he came back that time not only made him feel guilty about his dream, but the fact he woke up the boy in the process dampened his mood that night.
He managed to eventually shrug off those feelings that night, having Gon snuggling closer made him feel relieved as if no matter what happened previously or next, Gon will still love him all the same.
Iason washed off the remaining sticky substance off his hands before leaving the bathroom, still a little bit guilty after his earlier session. He got to work on dinner, trying to turn his focus elsewhere, to get his mind off those feelings.
Grabbing all the ingredients he may need for the night, he stared at the food before him, wondering what he could make for Sakura and Gon. He wants to make something special for both of them, to make up for he has been treating them in his fantasies. He treats them with love, affection, and desires; doing all these things he wishes he could do with the both of them…
In his dreams, he puts both of them on a pedestal he can worship; making them out to be these sexual gods he could never really satiate. He doesn't want to perceive them that way. He's only doing that because of his sexual frustrations and puberty; what he really wants, in reality, isn't right to ask for right now.
He needs to put Gon's mental health first, to find out exactly how much of his past sexual trails hurt his perspective of a healthy sexual relationship. Both he and Sakura needed to find this out.
Otherwise, if it was really up to Gon's discretion, he rather the boy hovering over him, driving himself as deep as possible… He'd rather that than to ride Gon like a maniac. Sure, his ass will most likely hurt for days thanks to his built-up sexual frustrations bursting forth like a waterfall of raw sexual desires. But at least it will be on Gon's terms…
Not his...
These thoughts he's having are just temporary. Sure, it'll be a nice added touch to the relationship, but this ultimately isn't what he wants. What he mainly wants, or hopes right now… is to fill his partners' bellies with delicious food, something that will act as the much needed 'thank you' gift they deserve.
They have been treating him so well, considering all his boundaries. Every day felt special, unique and challenging. Being Sakura's Nen teacher brought this new challenge into their relationship he enjoys doing. He likes helping the smaller boy and seeing Sakura's smile brought him joy.
The fact that by helping out his adorable partner, he's also getting to help Gon recover his Nen is another added benefit to their relationship.
It is a dynamic that is only going to further improve the more they learn. He wondered what else he'll find out about the others. Just as the boy was about to slice into the first vegetable, he felt warm arms wrap around him. His body seized and his mind started to panic…
"What you thinking about…?"
Not even two seconds into a hug, his mind was already dredging up thoughts about the boy. He didn't expect Gon to be back, much less be able to escape Sakura's grasp. Or was Sakura here and just getting changed…
Iason clenched his jaw, shutting out the thoughts he knew were bound to happen. He doesn't want to think about Sakura sexually right now. This was puberty's fault, a cruel biological process that's currently in development. This was only happening because a small part of him was unable to tell Gon the truth…
How much he means to him…
How much he craves the curious boy's attention…
One kiss, and he's spellbound… He can't fall to Gon's embrace like this, not while his thoughts are a jumbled mess of emotions. His partner's hands soon found themselves grazing across his skin, making him shake in delight at the added sensation of being hugged.
Iason letting out a 'squeak' didn't exactly help him here.
"What was that…?"
"N-Nothing… you have cold hands." They're anything but cold! They're so warm, I'm melting into them like butter…
"Oh, sowwy…" Gon murmured cutely, already unwrapping his arms from Iason. Iason reacted without reason, dropping whatever he was doing to pull his partner's arms back around him. He acted on impulse before he could think of a reason as to why he did it.
Gon didn't ask why; instead, he tightened his embrace around the boy who clearly wanted attention. It made his smile widen… considering how much he missed having the boy like this in his chest. He peppered kisses along the boy's cheek, unable to see the boy's face he so badly wanted to kiss.
That same feeling of the hammering in his chest, the same one he felt when they kissed on their date returned. He was going to snap in twine unless he did something. He wants to confess his feelings…
But the moment he found the courage to turn around, Gon's bright vibrant smile took hold of his tongue. He couldn't say anything, because the warmhearted boy, who loves him, was looking into his eyes with deep affection.
He was about to break his promise… the one he made with Sakura. He felt guilty for the action he was about to take, even as he leaned into Gon who was willing to meet him in more than likely passionate kiss.
When the boy felt his lips touched Gon, he half expected to be filled with remorse. But when their lips touched, everything felt right. No guilt, sadness… anything to make him regret these actions. It had felt right, perfect one might say…
It's as if Gon's lips were able to purge all his worries, to smother all his anxieties with the simplest touch. Without missing a beat, Iason held Gon's face, cupping the loveable cheeks. They were still squishy, the kind he adores on Gon.
When he poked and prodded the objects, he heard a delectable laugh from his lover.
He didn't care about what his brain thought of next, he knows he belongs in his most affectionate boyfriend's arms, and there's nothing he could think of to make him regret this kiss.
He wasn't even doing anything, it was all Gon. Exactly like how Gon's arms wrapped around him, the boy's lips cradling his own, a wide array of sensations which may be considered chaotic, but in his stance, he desperately needed this passion. The boy was claiming everything he has missed for the past week.
It was chaste, rough, hungry, soft, sensual, long and breathless. Exactly how much did Gon miss him? Iason didn't care about the answer; instead, he leaned into the touch, matching Gon's cadence as he should've at the start.
The boy soon found himself moaning into his lover's lips as if the sounds would egg on Gon.
Gon loved every sound he could get out of Iason, savouring every sensation it brought to his body. He wanted to hear more, to see every inch of Iason covered in his love. He experimentally ran his hands under his boyfriend's shirt, feeling the boy quiver at the slight touches.
And just when he thought their session couldn't have been better, Iason's hands snuck under his shirt, running them along the nubs on his chest. The boy pinched and twisted them as if he was tuning a radio…
It's only when Iason shifted the pinching to rubbing, Gon was starting to understand. His boyfriend was showing him something new. He didn't know he could play with guys nipples. The body was like a playground for him, something new to be discovered and played with.
When he did the same, his lover trembled in his arms, fingers digging into the boy's waist. He loved everything Iason was showing him until something hit his shoulder. At first, he couldn't tell what it was, it was wet…
The boy thought Iason may have drooled, but when he felt it a second time, he barely managed to catch the corners of his partner's closed eyes. There were tears falling. He reached out to cup the boy's cheeks, his partner opening his eyes after had Gon ran the side of his finger along the tear trail.
Iason's eyes looked up at his partner, half expecting the boy to continue their kiss. Gon once more with a warm smile running a finger along Iason's cheek, spoke softly to the boy he held deep admiration and affection for "I'm sorry… did I hurt you?"
The puzzled expression made Gon a little more worried, was Iason not aware of his current feelings? Was he ignoring his pain, his tears being the only indicator to the pain he was internally clinging to…?
Gon took hold of his partner, bringing him close to his chest. With his hands, he smoothed out his partner's back, comforting the boy who actively ignored his pain. Then Gon felt Iason's hands cling to his shirt, his words soft as he said: "I missed this…"
"Me too…" Gon hummed in approval.
Iason's fingers tightened their grip, almost ripping the boy's shirt in the process. I don't want to keep doing this anymore; to keep pushing myself away from Gon, from both of them really… I want to be with them… forever. In desperation, Iason held his gaze on Gon "I want to take the next step of this relationship."
Gon tilted his head slightly, "Marriage…?"
The confusion mixed the boy's statement, made Iason burst into laughter. It was so cute, expected… so Gon. He couldn't see Gon saying anything other than that. But, still… hearing the loveable goofball willing to admit, that he was open to marrying him brought about this swell in his heart.
Although, knowing Gon… he'd somehow want to marry both Sakura and himself at the same time. And idealistically… he thought the same thing. He couldn't see himself marry one without the other.
But they were so young, and marriage was far in the future. They still had so much they had to learn, to help each other… to complete personal goals before that can happen.
"No, goofball…" Iason lightly tapped his partner's head, smoothing out the hair that defied gravity. He could feel Gon's expected gaze on him, a question lingering in the boy's mind. Although he didn't know what Gon was thinking of word for word, he knows enough about the situation to make an assumption "I think we should get a Medical Professional's help on this matter… Say, Leorio?"
Gon beamed brightly. He didn't exactly know what his smaller partner was talking about. But he was giddy with the prospect about talking about his newfound relationship with the older man's younger brother "Does that mean I get to talk about how much I love you?!"
Iason nods, his cheeks flushed at the idea of Gon screaming so loudly and proudly how much he means to him.
"We should call him now, oh… but we need to get Sakura first!" Gon hummed, a little bit confused at what he wants to do right now. He so badly wants to admit to Leorio how much he loves Iason but at the same time… He wants to do it with Sakura by their side. This is a love triangle, not a relationship between the two of them, "We can't say anything without the other. He is a part of this relationship as much as we are… I'd also admit without Sakura, I don't think I'd be able to be with you… I'm too pushy."
"I like when you're pushy though…" Oh my god, I can't believe I just admitted that… Gon just saps my rationality away with every kiss. I can't believe how much I want Gon to kiss me right now, even with knowing that…
As if reading the boy's mind, Gon leaned into the boy's touch, savouring the taste of the flustered boy's lips. He wouldn't mind sharing this with Sakura, just bouncing between the lips of the two he loves the most.
With a smacking of lips, Gon pulled away one final time, full of so much joy Iason smiled at his partner, "Let's get Sakura now!"