Slices of Life and Family

by bluefrostyy

PART 3 of The life of Sebastian Pines! (Read that first, I doubt you'll understand what's going on) The story follows Seb's life after Gravity Falls. Bill was defeated, but the Pines family still have thousands of adventures together. Old characters will come back, new characters will make an appearance, all to accompany Seb through his journey as a human (Cowritten with Mizuuma)

4. Seb's trip to self knowledge

Hii! I hope you are enjoying this weekly updates, when we run out of pre written chapters I dont know how regular we will be with posting :p

Anyways! If you want to see Miz's amazing drawings of the babies, go to her Tumblr, Quantumseahorse . tumblr. com!

And for my drawing, check Deviantart! I'll start posting all my drawing in Tumblr too guys, so please follow me! xD

PD: You guys like the cover image? It's the twinsss :3

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The end of this summer was obviously less traumatic than summer of 2012 for all the Pines. It was almost… normal? Well, Dipper tried and failed multiple times to show his dad the supernatural, which frustrated him to no end. Apparently, the creatures thought that they should stay away from strangers from now on, what with everything that had happened last summer with the Pines twins. The Gnomes were still somewhat terrified of them. Rumble McSkirmish was not at his arcade cabinet, he was off dating Giffany, according to the people Dipper asked. Huh. Good for them?

Dipper couldn't even find the Multibear, his cave was empty and there was a note saying that he was on vacation. A few days into Dipper's attempts to find the supernatural, they started avoiding him on purpose, just because they thought it was funny to watch the boy get increasingly annoyed and look like a crazy teenager. Mabel wondered about Sev'ral Timez, since she didn't see them eating out of their trash. ("I hope they didn't get hit by a car." Mabel worried a little. Dipper scoffed, "Like they could even make it through the winter?") At least they still got to have some 'normal' fun together with their parents.

Everyone had gone home after the promised two weeks together, but soon enough, found themselves together once again at the end of September, visiting Carla and Stan after little Diego was born.

Visiting her was less worrying than it was with Wanda and the twins. Carla was doing perfectly fine, Mabel sobbed again over how cute the baby was. Carla was going to go home in a few days as Diego's birth went without any complications and she was healthy. Diego was a big baby, or at least, he seemed huge compared to the twins when they were born. Said twins were now healthy babies of 5 proud months, they were healthy and developing surprisingly quick, much to the doctor's amazement ("You see, it's amazing your premature babies are doing so well, without any mental or physical damage!" They were told.)

Wanda said it was the powers they inherited from Seb making them stronger. Seb thought so too.

Diego's mop of hair was DARK, like a black dark, promising to turn curly like his parents'. He looked a lot like Stanley, Kari claimed, and they still didn't know if he would have freckles or not. When he finally opened his eyes, they saw he had light eyes, not exactly green, but they weren't brown or dark brown either.

"Look, Zoe, that's your younger cousin~" Wanda cooed and carried her daughter a bit closer to the newborn. "Nah!" Zoe reached for Diego. "Yeah~ But he's still too little to play with you." Wanda laughed.

Seb was crouched next to Diego's plastic hospital crib. "Oh god~ He's a mini Stan~~ He's adoraaablee! Too bad they weren't triplet cousins like Dillon and the twins! That would have been SUPER AWESOME!" He carried Diego for a second before Zully whined jealousy. Hey! Daddy was only supposed to carry them!

"Sorry, kid, geez." Seb gave Diego to Stan and patted Zully's head before looking around. Dillon was sitting on the couch in the room, silently playing a video game. "Hey~ Have you seen your brother already? How are you?"

"Fine, I guess? And...yes, I have seen him, but I don't have to be jumping around in excitement if I don't feel it." Stan turned to look at Dillon with a sad expression while Seb hugged his godson. "Yeah, at first they're pretty annoying, but you'll like him eventually~" Stan sat next to them, Diego sleeping soundly in his arms, and wrapped a muscular arm around Dillon. "Would you like to go outside and eat an icecream now that your mom can't stop us?"

"Heyy~ Not fair, I'm not allowed to eat that!" Carla cried. Dillon nodded and snuggled closer to his dad for a hug. "With the baby?" The teen asked sadly.

"Nah, the baby can only drink milk." "Ok, I wanna go then..." Stan carefully left Diego in his crib and after a soft kiss on his small forehead, he took Dillon outside to buy him some sweet, cold happiness. "Do you think Diego's allergic to something?" Seb asked his sister-in law. "Dillon can save him from dying and they'll bond forever!"

Wanda and Carla rolled their eyes.

-.-

Before they knew it, Wanda's 4 months maternity leave flew by, and the little twins turned 6 months.

It was October, and despite the fact that Zoe and Zully couldn't go trick or treating yet, much to Seb's disappointment, Wanda still bought a bag of candy to enjoy all by themselves without fearing the kids will try to get some, because it WILL happen. Eventually, once the kids were older.

And then, suddenly, the twins were trying to bite everything and everyone. Zoe had always tried to chew on people, but now that their gums were sensitive and their fangs were tearing through them to come out, even Zully was sobbing desperately and chewing on anything they had around them.

They tried biting the spoon when Seb fed them and 4 bottle nipples had already been destroyed. Seb had examined their little mouths and HOLY SHIT, two little sharp pinpricks of white were protruding from their gums. "Aaawww! Look at you! You have TEETH!" Zoe proceeded to bite his finger and Seb screamed. It was like having two tiny needles piercing through his skin!

Wanda was pretty sure babies didn't grow their canines first, though, if she was honest with herself, Sebastian's teeth weren't normal either, his canines were sharp as well and even his normal teeth felt sharp so she guessed the twins, being his kids, weren't that different.

Oh, she was so glad she wasn't breastfeeding…

"Hi, Ma~" Seb phoned his mom as he stared wide eyed at yet another bitten to death pacifier. "So, I know when I was teething you started giving me bottles, but how did you stop me from destroying those?"

"No." Kari just said tiredly. "N...o?" Seb asked again, even more confused. "I didn't, you stopped destroying them yourself after...the 3rd change of nipple? I think?"

"And how do I do that? I can't get the little monsters to stop! I've already spend 24 dollars just replacing those and now Zoe bit through her pacifier!" He complained. Kari smiled from the other side. Aaaww~Her granddaughters were so adorable~ "Well, I really don't know, sweetie, you just did... Hm, I just remember your Father was pretty upset about you destroying them…" Kari sighed.

Seb's eye widened. Oh. He remembered now...He was hurting, and liked to destroy the bottles, but then he saw Filbrick shouting at his mom, he got scared, in his dumb baby mind, and stopped doing it so his mom would be ok.

Filbrick… His arm started trembling with suppressed anger and fear. He hated him so much, but he was still so afraid of him...

"Ok…" He whispered.

He sat the twins on the couch, they could sit on their own now, and sat in front of them, dressed fancily with a vest and a bowtie while the twins were wearing pink and yellow onesies. "Girls, we have things to discuss." He said seriously.

"Goo?" Zully tilted their head.

"You can't continue destroying your things, every time you do that we have to replace them and that costs money, you know what money is? Money are papers mom and dad win to buy things, like your milk. If we don't have money, we can't buy milk and you'll starve and die. Do you want that?"

Babies understood death, right? He did at that age…

Zoe stuck her hand in her mouth and slobbered over it. Zully was looking around the room, already losing interest. Seb continued. "And your toys too! You bite them too! You should stop doing that. Alright?" Thank Ax that Rico gave him so many toys.

Zoe was now chewing on the sofa pillow. Seb pulled it away from her. "No, stop that. That's what I DON'T want you to do!"

Zoe whined and reached for the pillow. Seb held her away from it. "Zoe, we are having a serious discussion here and-" he turned to see Zully pulling at the other pillow. "No. Zully, you let that go RIGHT now!"

Finally Seb removed the pillows from the couch and resituated the twins. He snapped his fingers in front of their faces to get their attention. "Hey. Eyes up here. I'm talking to you." Seb frowned, having no idea how normal human babies worked. "Do you want to starve to death? Because that's what's going to happen if you continue down this road of destruction and ruin." He held up a container with all the destroyed nipples and pacifiers.

"You see this?" Seb waved the container in front of them. Zoe reached for it. Seb pulled it away. "This is the result of your terror. All these, RUINED! Now what do you have to say for yourselves?"

"Ahhhh! Gah naaah!" Zoe pouted, reaching for the container again. Seb continued to hold it out of her reach. "No you can't have them, you destroyed them! I want to hear an apology from you." Seb scolded.

Zoe narrowed her eyes at her dad. Why wouldn't daddy give it to her? She wanted it! Daddy gave her everything she wanted! "Nah!" She said insistently. "No. You need to apologize first." Seb scolded again. Zoe glared. "NAH!" She shrieked. The two glared at each other stubbornly while Zully sucked on their thumb and wondered when mommy was coming home.

Seb's eye turned red, but startled when Zoe burst into tears (because Daddy was being MEAN!) But Sebastian thought she was crying because his eye was another color. Seb's eye widened. "Oh no! I'm so sorry!" He didn't mean to scare her!

Zully gasped when they felt their thumb feeling funny and then something yummy in their mouth. Um, they had never tasted something like this before! They had to show it to the world! "Bah!" They called Daddy.

Seb had picked up Zoe to rock her when he looked at Zully. "AAHH!" He shrieked. Zully's hand was bleeding!

He mentally apologized to his mom for giving her these kind of heart attacks as a kid, before rushing his child to the bathroom. Zully whined when the nice tasting thing was washed away. Seb went to look around for bandages after putting the twins in the empty bathtub. "Zully, you shouldn't do that. You're going to hurt yourself." Which was hypocritical for Seb to say but he was a good dad and good dads kept their babies from harm.

They didn't cause it.

Zully pouted at their cleaned finger and went back to biting it. Seb pulled his hair, getting stressed. Why couldn't they just stop?! His mom talked to him as a baby and he always understood!

He stroked his beard, his cute goatee had grown and more facial hair than he ever thought covered his sharp cheeks and chin (stupid fast hair growth!) and floated the babies towards the kitchen. Zully and Zoe kicked their legs awkwardly as they floated. Seb got two ice cubes from the freezer and gently stuck it in his babies' mouths. "There. Bite that! It's cold and will help."

Ah! He was such a good dad!

He watched the twins chew on the ice cubes, they liked the crunching sounds they made. The twins seemed confused at how COLD it was to hold this nice chewy thing though, and Seb wiped their faces with their bib when they got wet. Zoe made a confused sound when her chewy thing disappeared. Dad gave her another one though and she went back to biting.

Then Wanda came home and freaked out about how she read ice cubes were a choking hazard and he shouldn't be giving them to the babies.

"But...that's the only way to keep them from chewing anything else!" Seb argued as Wanda hugged and kissed the babbling babies. "They have chewing toys in the fridge."

"No."

"No what?"

"There aren't any anymore...Zoe and Zully destroyed them." Wanda stared at him. "What?!" "Yup, spilled all that liquid everywhere, had to clean up everything and check if it wasn't toxic or something in case she ate some."

Zully made a happy baby noise.

Seb crossed his arms and he looked at his babies sternly. "I tried to have a serious talk with them but they don't want to comply!" He whined at his girlfriend, completely serious, but he made her laugh instead.

"Hhuummm~!" Wanda hummed loudly. "I wonder why~" "Because they're stubborn like you!" Seb smiled smugly. Wanda gasped in mock offense. "Oh really now? I'm the stubborn one?"

"I've been teaching them that they can't hurt themselves too!" Seb proudly declared as he put a hand over Zully's tiny one to stop them from taking it to their mouth.

"Will you follow your own advice?" Wanda raised an eyebrow as Seb floated the twins towards her. "Ppfftt! I'm doing great actually!" Wanda raised both her eyebrows, unimpressed. "Show me your wrists then."

"HahAH! Look at the hour, I totally forgot to make dinner! I'll go make something!" Seb ran away to the kitchen, making the blonde woman sigh.

-.-

"...And I failed…" Seb curled up on himself on Linda's couch. The twins had come with him because no one was at home and Wanda's mother had been busy, they were soundly sleeping in their convertible car seats. "I lied to Wanda but...but I swear I was THIS close to breaking my two weeks record!" Seb stuck a finger in his mouth, distressed.

Linda pulled off her glasses to massage her eyes. But Seb had been doing so well… "Seb...Biting also counts as hurting yourself…"

"Not if I don't make myself bleed!"

Linda sighed. "What made you relapse?" She asked softly. "Did something scare you?" The man nodded. "The-The twins are teething...They bite themselves and-and it's really scary for me, they have my demon powers after all, so that part of them came from me!" Linda nodded slowly. "And-And I just don't want them to be like me! I saw them in my dream hurting themselves like I do! And-And...I don't like it...I don't want to be responsible for them inflicting pain on themselves!" He-He wasn't Filbrick, he would never wish to cause the twins pain!

Linda put her glasses back on. "So you understand that what you do is not healthy or normal, right?"

"I mean, of COURSE it's not normal! Slitting your wrists open is not something a normal sane human DOES! But I can't STOP! Because I'm too damaged and-and I'll never get better…But I don't want that for the twins..." He sniffled, looking at the sleeping infants.

Linda looked down at the babies who were sleeping at the moment. "Well, if you don't want them learning this from you, you'll have to stop doing it." She gave Seb a smile. "Just think of them, whenever you feel like hurting yourself, think of what would happen if they saw you, and perhaps, you need another method of relieving the stress inside. Have you considered screaming into a pillow or perhaps having a closet filled with blankets and pillows for you to thrash around in? So you wouldn't hurt yourself and wouldn't distress the children?"

Seb made a distressed sound. "B-but what i-if I need to hurt? B-because I need to be punished and… and…"

Linda spoke calmly. "Why do you need to be punished? Who punished you?" She was pretty sure someone must have done something to Sebastian when he was younger, hurt him. Made him feel like he deserved to be hurt. She was sure it wasn't the mother, Seb held her in high esteem, it didn't seem like they had problems. His triplets? He spoke a lot about how he always fought and argued with his oldest brother, but according to Sebastian they were "Super fine now".

The thought of someone hitting him, or hitting any child for that matter, made her quite angry but she couldn't let any of that show as she sat and waited for her patient to respond. Seb huffed and wiggled around until he was laying face down, face hidden under a pillow and butt in the air. He mumbled something.

"I'm sorry, can you repeat that but without the pillow?" Linda asked kindly and the man groaned loudly. "It-It's embarrassing!" He exclaimed. Thinking about how he let Filbrick hurt him was so stupid of him. What happened to all his mighty "I used to be a demon" attitude? It had been so easy for that man to whip his ass and have him sobbing on his knees.

It was so pathetic, but the worst part was that he was right. Seb deserved every single beating. He always messed something up, and that's why he had to be punished...

"I can't know if you never tell me, can I?" Linda reasoned and Seb went back to his refuge under the pillow but freed his mouth to mutter. "...Filbrick…"

"And who's he?"

"...My brothers' father...mom's sperm donor…" His eye welled up with tears. Fucking shit, eye! Stop. Crying. For once! If he cried, the twins cried, if he cried, the twins cried…

Linda frowned. "..." Meaning… Sebastian's… blood father. Whom she didn't even consider. He had never talked about this man until now. A man that Sebastian didn't even consider a father. Well, if what she was hearing here was right, this Filbrick man had hurt Sebastian. If she had to guess, he hurt Sebastian to the point that he refused to even think of that man as his father.

Some random bits of information she had about Seb started piecing together. "Your biological father hurt you...Do-Do you remember ...when? Why?"

"I was two years old...I was walking clumsily because my stupid little legs didn't work that well, broke a Tv cable when I tripped...Um-I think he only slapped me?" Seb smiled shakily but quickly sobered. "That was the first time. But...But he didn't stop..." He quickly wiped his tears. "I was a really clumsy kid, broke stuff all the time. And the-then I got punished. I-I also got really bad grades, because my brain doesn't work right, it never worked right! And-And it's not because of my past life, this body is literally damage in the head! Because I-I could NEVER DO ANYTHING RIGHT! OR THINK CORRECTLY! OR STAY STILL!" He covered his mouth to shut up, more tears shining in his eye. The babies stirred but otherwise remained asleep. "Filbrick said I wasn't worth anything...and he was right, because-because I never got good grades like Ford or-or played sports like Stanley and Shermie and-and the things I liked-like-are not for human males and I was a disappointment and he never wanted to see me!" His tears finally fell… "He once made me cut my hands with some glass, hah, that wasn't even his worst beating yet but-but then I met Matsuda and everything was-was fine, Matsuda liked me more…"

It was like the floodgates broke. Once he started, he couldn't stop. Sebastian poured his heart out to her. Every little moment, everything that man had done to him all his childhood. Up until the moment when Sebastian was thrown out into the streets with nothing but the clothes on his back. Linda was shivering, holding back her own tears as she listened. It was… awful couldn't even begin to describe it. And that man, Filbrick, had done all this, to his own child?

The babies had woken up at some point and where whimpering in distress at how sad daddy looked. Daddy shouldn't cry! Only they cried! Why was he crying? Seb had picked them up and was hugging them like little dolls, rocking back and forth with his eye closed. "Linda, I was so scared, he-I tried to be strong but he made me so weak! It was so scary! He was always angry at me for-for existing! And-And I always pla-played in my room because-because I KNEW he was going to hurt me if-if we crossed paths! And he always wore his-his thickest belt...with the metal buckle, it once hit my face and it bled for hours...And-And no one did ANYTHING! No one COULD! Not only was I struggling with my stupid defective body, which was stupid and weak to begin with, It ALWAYS hurt! It hurt to walk because my back hurt! And my butt and my neck and arms and face!" He laughed loudly, humourlessly. "And, you know, the bullies thought it was funny to make my bruises worse…"

Linda was very tempted to track down everyone in Sebastian's childhood neighborhood and see why NO ONE had done anything to help this child. Part of Linda wanted to speak with Sebastian's mother as well, but she didn't blame the woman for being unable (afraid, perhaps) to stand up to her husband if Filbrick was really that violent and unreasonable. But their neighbors, the teachers at school, anyone! Shouldn't SOMEONE have done something?!

Zully was getting really worried. They patted Daddy's nose as Zoe gurgled comfortably but firmly, her and her crib companion didn't like it when daddy was being all sad-weird, they could feel it. They liked being around daddy more when he was warm and happy feeling.

"Se-Seb…" Linda called, watching the poor man struggle to keep his shit together. "Your eye, did he hurt your eye…?" She had always wondered about his eyepatch. Seb pulled off his eyepatch revealing a dark, empty socket surrounded in scars, Linda sucked in a gasp. "No, I was born with a yellow eye, it was blind, and had a slit pupil, like my eye from my previous life...Filbrick hated it…I finally managed to get rid of it last year..."

Linda winced. So Sebastian had been born with a deformity… and his father had demonized him because of it. Treated the poor boy like he wasn't human, until Sebastian got it into his head, internalized the whole 'being a monster' thing and probably made up a delusion about being a reincarnated demon thing, as some way to explain to himself why his father hated him. A delusion made so that Sebastian, as an abused child, could try and understand why his father hurt him. If he believed it was because he was a demon, then he could find a justification, as opposed to his father hurting him for no reason, for NOT LOVING him for no reason. Linda had seen cases like this. Where abuse victims would make up a reason for why they were being hurt, blaming themselves instead of their abusers…

"Oh Sebastian…" Linda said softly.

"A-and the last time I saw that man, he… he punched me and accused me of killing my brothers…" Seb whimpered. And he might NOT have killed his brothers, but he pushed them into the portal! It was almost the same thing!

"Linda. Please grab the babies." He said with a strained voice. The psychologist complied, confused, and the man stood up to pace around the room, head pounding and his nails digging into his arms. "I-I can't. I'm going to fuck up. I can't get better, I can't do what Wanda wants me to do!" He went to curl up on the other side of the room, away from the twins. Linda carefully put the babies (their poor father) in their car seats and turned to look back at her patient.

"Sebastian, breathe please." She wanted him to calm down before addressing his wrists. He was scratching at them angrily, which made her wince. "Sebastian, please sit down." Linda brought out a large pillow. If she could just make him hug it, then he wouldn't be able to claw at himself.

"I'm sorry…"

"Sebastian, you did absolutely nothing wrong. You did NOTHING wrong, what Filbrick did to you was horrible, but please, don't hurt yourself, don't continue what you hated so much from your father." Linda went over to carefully, gently, steer Seb back onto the couch. "You don't have to hurt anymore, you don't have to be punished." Linda blinked away her tears, she couldn't break down, not while her patient needed her help.

She gave him the pillow and with trembling hands, he accepted it. "It's ok, Sebastian. I'm going to help you, you don't deserve to think about yourself like that…"

"Yes, I do! I'm a monster! I'm a horrible monster! I'm going to hurt my babies! Please keep them away! I deserve everything that happened to me! That's why I had to suffer in this life! I had to payo! Pay for e-everything I did as Bill! That's why I died last year!" He sobbed harder when the babies started sobbing, scared. Please daddy don't cry! Daddy was crying and they didn't know why, but they hated it!

Linda spent the rest of their time, and more time (Seb was her last patient that day), trying to get him to calm down. He was disconnected from reality, sobbing and mumbling incoherences. The twins had cried themselves tired, and Linda was getting distressed as well. But, finally, the 3 Pines calmed down, and then passed out.

Linda exhaled loudly and ran a hand through her blond hair. She stared at Seb worriedly but mentally promised to help him, he had a family who loved him, it wasn't fair he was treated so horribly by his father, it was a miracle he wasn't MORE damaged than he already was. Living with a fictional story in his mind for 39 years, and believing it...

He had gone through so much, Linda swore she was going to help him. She watched Seb, sleeping, and called Wanda. They had a lot to discuss…

Wanda was told of what Seb had told Linda. Or well, the most important things that concerned his health at least, Linda had patient confidentiality for a reason. Wanda knew most of it already, about how Seb thought he couldn't do many things, and how his father hit him, but actually hearing it from a doctor, how it wasn't just a "Oh, I can't do it." but an "I am a worthless person and I should be dead" kind of thing, that he had these problems because his own father physically and mentally abused him since he was a BABY, and he actually believed it, was really scary. The "inventing a past self" part... Wanda doubted it, she had seen Seb's powers and his yellow eye, but the rest of it...

After Dr. Linda called her to pick up Seb and the twins who had passed out from exhaustion, she asked Wanda to tell Sebastian to please not bring the twins again. "Sebastian has self confidence issues about his job as a father, when he sees the twins he breaks down crying and we can't make any progress." Linda explained. Wanda winced. "Ah… are you sure taking the kids away from him is a good idea?"

"When he's distressed, they get distressed, which just makes Sebastian even more agitated." Linda sighed. Wanda nodded in understanding before pursing her lips. "Sebas is not ok…"

Linda shook her head. "From what I could see, he has anxiety and trauma, which is basically what causes his self esteem problems. By some miracle, he doesn't have depression." She was quite grateful for that at least. Being sad was not the same as having depression.

"Would you recommend that he gets medicated?" Wanda just wanted to be sure. Linda made a humming noise. "I want to work a bit more with him and see. If he needs it, I'll prescribe him some pills, alright?" Wanda nodded sadly. Linda put a hand over the green-eyed woman's hand. "Don't worry, sweetie, Sebastian is going to get better, he had spent all his life without help, but he has our support now."

Wanda sniffled but managed to smile at her. "Yes, he has us now...Is-Is there something I should do to help him at home?"

Linda gave the other woman a smile. "Continue to love him, let him know that you'll be there if he ever needs it. From what I've heard from him, meeting you was one of the best things that has ever happened to him." Wanda blushed at her words and smiled, tucking her hair behind her ear. "Thank you for your help." "It's my job, it's a pleasure, helping Sebastian is my own personal objective."

Wanda thought of Seb the whole trip back home, she almost passed a red light, her, the incarnation of the law itself. She was THAT distracted. She just wanted Seb to be happy, it was so scary to see him break down, it worried her. She worried for his mental health, she worried for their children, she didn't want them to grow up seeing their dad...unstable. It wasn't fair. She was confident her partner would be alright. They were finally together, and she thought everything would be perfect after their perfect meeting at the airport.

It wasn't. Life wasn't always nice...

A happily ever after required WORK. And Wanda was prepared to keep at it, she would make Seb happy. The happiest man in all the world. No matter what. They would have their happy ending, together. Wanda bent over to give Seb a kiss at the next red light. "I love you, Sebastian." She murmured. Maybe it was her imagination, but Wanda thought his sleeping expression looked more relaxed.

The babies were growing so fast.

Sebastian was SO proud of them. The kids were crawling everywhere and getting into everything. Wanda was sitting on the couch, laughing as she recorded Seb crawl after Zoe. "Run, Zoe! Crawl for your life! Dad's getting closer!" She cheered on her daughter.

"AARGHHH! I'M GOING TO EAT YOU!" Seb roared as Zoe shrieked for her life. HELP! Left, right, left right! As Zoe screamed, Zully was crawling over to the table and wanted to stand up using the tablecloth. Wanda saw them on time, rightfully screamed, and threw herself at the table to catch her baby before her laptop fell on them. That would have hurt! Both her baby and her precious laptop!

Wanda picked up her beautiful baby who was giggling and clapping excitedly. "You crazy girl~" She rubbed their nose with her own.

Seb was getting tired of crawling (he was wearing sweatpants so there weren't any nice pants being destroyed in the process), and he still couldn't catch his daughter. She was fast! How was a 6 month old so fast!?

"Aaahhh!" Zoe crawled over to the couch and used it to stand up. "Bluurgg! Ppp! Pah-Pah! Papa!" She gave Seb the biggest smile ever, showing off her little fangs and lower incisors as she squatted really fast. She tried to climb on the couch, but she was too little. Zoe growled and tried to pull herself up. "Papa!" Zoe called out, patting the couch while pouting at her daddy. Seb giggled and reached over to lift her. It took him a few seconds to realize what she said, Wanda's eyes were huge. "Wait, did you just say papa?" He asked.

"PAPA!" Zoe repeated it. Yeah, she said it! She wanted to get on the couch! "You-You called me papa…" He picked her up but didn't put her on the couch like she wanted. "Wanda, did you hear that?!" The blonde walked over to them, carrying Zully who was biting their hand. "Zoe...you said your first word!"

"I-I WAS HER FIRST WORD!" Seb screamed. This was the best day of his life! "My baby!" He cried in complete joy. Wanda rocked Zully and pulled their hand off their mouth. "Baby, can you say Mama?! Say mama please!"

"Noo! Say Papa! Say papa too!" Zully blinked, big brown eyes staring at their parents before blowing a raspberry.

Wanda laughed while Seb pouted. "No, say papa! Paaaa-paaaaa~" Seb drew out the sound. Zully yawned and laid back against Wanda's chest. The blonde laughed again. "Well, she'll say her first words eventually."

"Papa!" Zoe reminded Seb she still wanted to be on the couch and the man happily complied. "There you go~" Zoe sat down and crawled on the couch before humming and carefully sliding down off the couch. It got boring. She crawled towards her toys.

Wanda put Zully on the floor with their sister and the two watched the babies play. "I have to tell everyone I was her first word!" Seb exclaimed, leg bouncing with excitement. "Of course you were~ She loves you, Seb, she knows you're the best dad ever~" Wanda turned Seb's face towards her to kiss his lips.

Seb pulled away. "You think so?" he asked hesitantly. "I KNOW so…" Wanda reassured him with another kiss. Seb went to the kitchen to get some food as Wanda called. "Oh, by the way, my mom said she is going to take care of the twins while you're with Dr. Linda."

Seb pulled out some bread. "Are you sure? I'm fine taking the twins tomorrow, they're well-behaved." He spread his slice of bread with cream cheese. Wanda blinked. Did...he seriously not remember? It was only a week ago. Seb had stated he wanted a week off and this was the first time they talked about it after that day.

"You know my mom loves the girls, even when Zoe bit her…" Wanda didn't know how to feel about that. She felt embarrassed but...proud. "Besides, I can take them to my office too. there's the nursery I fought to install years ago for my colleagues and I haven't used it a single time!"

Seb bit his bread. "But I like taking the twins with me…" He trailed off. "What happened last time only happened that ONE time and won't happen again, I swear…" Wanda sighed. "Still, just… I don't get as much time with the girls as you do. So can I take them with me this time?" Wanda tried instead. Seb pressed his lips together and thought about it. "...Okay."

Hehehe~ Wanda chuckled mentally before giving him a kiss. "Thanks, I love you~"

So Wanda took the babies with her that day. Needless to say, they ended up happily napping in her office, because they refused to stay in the nursery and would bite the nannies and other babies there to prove their point. It was tiring, but Wanda knew it was worth it. Seb needed to be alone and concentrate on getting better...

-.-

"She called me Papa!" Seb was pretty happy that session. "We were playing and-and she just said it! I was her first word! I told ALL my family! My mom was so happy! Mabel, my niece asked me to record it next time for her. And Fez said 'Oh yeah?! Well Diego will say it sooner!' Diego is my youngest nephew, but he's still too little to speak! Fordsie at first got upset that I interrupted his experiment...but then I told him I was Zoe's first word and he chuckled and congratulated me! Hahah!" The not blond-anymore man smiled, kicking his legs. His hair had grown out and gotten cut. He stopped dying his hair because the twins would try to eat it and some of those chemicals could make them sick. His hair was now mostly brown with some yellow bits on the tips.

"You seem very happy." Linda smiled. "I AM very happy!" Seb clarified. "Yesterday was SO good! And Wanda is spending some time with the girls, that also makes me happy..." Seb laid down and stared at the ceiling, foot still moving restlessly. "You know...I had never been happy…" He confessed with a weird look on his face. "In-In Flatland, at least, not after Li-Liam was killed…"

"You had a brother in your past life?" Linda asked and Seb nodded. "Uh huh...Um, then, as a demon, I-I just-thought, I was, but I really wasn't…"

Says he's happy, he's a liar

"I-I actually feel happy now, being with my brothers again and having my niblings and my daughters...I don't know, it feels nice…" This was much more than what he could ask for, he didn't even deserve this much...

Linda wrote down some notes. She realized long ago that Sebastian's focus tended to jump around, more so when he was excited. She was beginning to suspect something but she didn't know enough to know for sure. She would have to be certain before she could address it.

"Nothing would have happened if they hadn't killed my brother, Linda, literally nothing...I-I KNOW I would have sulked forever about their stupid shit ass world...but I wouldn't…have...you know, killed everybody." Seb blew a raspberry. "It really, really sucked when he was gone, my adoptive parents from that time hated him so much because his sides weren't equilateral, perfect for their stupid society...much like...me as a human, actually, people hated me because I looked like even more like a monster! Hahaha!" Seb laughed humorlessly.

"Linda, you should have seen me with my yellow eye! I used to be PROUD of it, you know?! EW! Haha. And I had it uncovered until I turned...what? 14? 14! ...A-girl I liked insulted me in front of everyone at school so I kinda finally understood I was horrible to look at and started wearing my eyepatch, never took it off in front of people or Filbrick anymore." He pouted and stared at his 6 fingered hand. "Surprisingly...I don't mind my hand, you know? It makes me look a bit more like Ford...He didn't like them growing up, but we always told him he was special, Mom said she saw it in the cards hahaha, she's not a real psychic but we liked to believe her...And well, seeing my hand made me...I don't know...It helped me imagine I was special too, even when I wasn't."

"Why do you say you aren't?" Linda asked and Seb scoffed. "Because I am just not! Everyone said I-" "Ok, besides what 'everyone' thinks, why do you think you aren't special?" Linda interrupted, seriously considering tracking down every adult Sebastian knew as a child and giving them a stern talking to. (Or a punch to the face, but she wasn't really the violent type.)

Seb opened his mouth to say 'because everyone thinks I'm not' and 'because everyone said so' but...that was again an 'everyone'... "Because I'm a monster…" He finally said, because that was the only thing that he knew, for himself.

"Being a monster makes you unspecial?" Linda raised an eyebrow. "I'd say that DOES make you special." Seb was speechless. She… wasn't wrong? Being a monster wasn't good, but it wasn't unspecial. Why did he think he was shit? Everyone told him he was, it happen so frequently he just...believed it? But he was different, he had powers, he wasn't a normal human, that DID indeed sound like it would make him special. But if he was "special" then why couldn't he believe it?

Seb looked down. "I don't know…" When had he stopped thinking he was worth something? Why did he think of himself like less than shit?! "Why do I think I'm not?!" He sniffled annoyed. How stupid, he couldn't even make his brain think he was good. Linda raised a hand. "It's ok. You've gone through a lot of psychological abuse, Sebastian, you have internalized many damaging ideas, but we're going to work on it." Linda smiled at her patient.

Seb sniffled. Stupid, dumb brain, internalizing bad things and ending up caring about what others think of him. "Can I get a hug?" Linda rolled her eyes at the pout and big kicked puppy eye. "OK, Fine." She smiled and patted his hair. Ooh~ His hair was so soft and fluffy~

Seb relaxed into the hug. Linda was so nice.

-.-

"I hate, HATEEEE changing your diapers." Seb glared at the little naked twins on his bed. "You STINK!" The 7 month old twins responded by laughing loudly. "No! Don't laugh! How mean!" He grabbed some new diapers from the bin and changed the two babies. "Nasty babies~" He cooed, making Zoe and Zully laugh even louder, daddy was so crazy! Zoe kicked her legs so hard she ended up smacking Seb in the chin with a tiny barefoot. "OW!"

"Ok, babies." Seb rubbed his recently shaved face. He had a nice little goatee again! "We're going to go to supermarket to buy food! Yay!"

"Papa!"

"Yeah, Papa will take you to the supermarket to enchant everybody with our adorableness! Mama is working but we will surprise her with a nice lunch, won't we?!" He started changing Zoe, but while he focused on her, Zully tried crawling away. "No, stay!" He tried to change Zully, but then Zoe tried to crawl away. "NOO! STOP IT!" Then the brunet stopped. How stupid, he had powers! He manually changed Zoe as he changed Zully with his powers into something warmer (the temperature had dropped and snow was everywhere), like little adorable jackets and little hats and little mittens. He decided to use the ones Mabel made, they finally fit the twins. Just to prove he was a GOOD uncle and was thankful for the presents his sweet niece Shooting Star made for him, he snapped a few photos to text her. Actually, he snapped photos of EVERYTHING the twins did and posted them on Photogram. (drawing is about this)

He strapped the babies into their carseats, always making sure they were secure enough, and started driving. "What music do you like? Do you have a music taste already?" He wanted to look back at the backseat but he really had to focus on the road, the pains of only having one eye. Besides, he had to be extra vigilant on the road. Didn't want to risk any accidents while he had his precious daughters on board.

He made it to the supermarket and opened up the portable stroller to put them in. The stroller had a place for bags so it doubled as a shopping cart. Both him and the twins loved the attention, Zoe and Zully had no shame in showing it, smiling widely and babbling at the people who cooed at them, Seb was a bit shy-er, but he liked when they said he had pretty daughters...

Oh my God! Are they TWINS?!" A teenage girl squealed at him and the babies while he contemplated between different types of pasta. "Oh, yes, identical! Though Zoe's eyes are different from Zully's." The girl cooed at the babies and told Seb she loved how he was shopping with them before running away. Seb thought that was weird but just laughed it off. He liked people admiring his kids. He got some food, a huge container of formula and a box of diapers, plus some new toys, they deserved them for being SUCH CUTE BABIES!

He went to the checkout line, the twins were shaking their colorful new toys and he groaned loudly when he saw the woman in front of him was "THAT" kind of woman… "What do you mean you can't just give it to me!? My SON WANTS that!"

"Ma'am, the animals come inside a package you have to buy before opening, I can't open all the packages to find you a hippo. They're capsules, I don't know which one's a hippo, you just have to buy them until you find a hippo." The poor cashier explained. "But can't you make an exception~? My Timmy has been doing SO well at school! And I promised I would find him the last animal for his collection!"

"Moommyyy! Can I get my hippoo noowwww?!"

Seb pulled his skin until his eye disappeared. There were people huffing behind him. He crouched next to the oblivious babies. "You turn out like that, we're going to have serious problems." He whispered before straightened up again and massaged his temples with his fingers. "Lady, can you PLEASE move the hell up?!"

The woman turned around, huffing and glaring at the (quite handsome) man. She blinked when she realized her mistake before making a sad face to get pity. "Oh, I'm sorry~ It's just that this RUDE boy doesn't want to sell me the toy my little boy wants~!" She saw the twins gurgling in their stroller. "You are a father! You SURELY know how much it HURTS when your little babies are denied something!"

Seb stared at her with an unexpressive eye. "The kid is selling you the dumb toy, he just can't open it like you want, and he won't. I won't teach my daughters to think the world owes them! Can you please just buy a toy and move?"

The woman huffed loudly. "How rude!"

"Rude, me?!" Seb laughed. "You're the one delaying the line for everybody and raising a brat child!" Her child was throwing a tantrum and crying.

"Are you telling me how to raise MY child?!"

"Lady, I don't give a single chip how you raise him, just Move!" Seb growled. The woman was pissed at being sassed, while the other customers stared in shock. The woman demanded for Seb to be removed from the store for being RUDE and when the poor teen cashier asked her to please leave, she shrieked. "I'm not leaving without that stupid hippo! I want to talk to your manager!"

While they waited for the manager, the woman stood aside and the boy moved to scan Seb's groceries. "Thank you...I have to deal with these type of people every day." He complained. Seb took the babies' toys to be scanned and quickly returned them so they didn't cry. Seb stared at the woman angrily arguing with the poor manager, at her pouting kid before looking at the box of packages with a devilish grin. This was for making him lose time! "How much are these shites anyway?" The teen smiled. "Like, two bucks each."

"Give me two." The woman turned to look at Seb as he bought, paid for and opened the packages. The nice colors had drawn the twins' attention. The first one was a panda and the second… Oh hoh ho! "AAWW! Look at this ADORABLE Hippo~~!"

The woman gasped. "You STOLE that from me!" Everyone stared at her, even the manager was making a face like 'Are you serious?'

"Nah, I paid the huge amount of TWO dollars for this, this is MINE! Was this the one you wanted~~?" Seb asked sweetly. "I bought the capsules and I just so happened to get one with a hippo, lucky me huh?" He waved the hippo in the air, moving his cart aside so other people can have their purchases rang up.

"Give me that hippo." the woman demanded. Seb mock frowned. "I paid for it, it's mine. If you want it so much, buy it from me." The woman pulled out two dollars and Seb raised an eyebrow. "Nah ah~ There are 20 animals in this set, meaning I had a 1 out of 20 chance of getting the hippo, so I think it's worth at LEAST $20."

"What?! That's extortion!" The woman glared. Her son was pulling at her shirt. "Mommy!" He whined. "I waaaant it!" The woman sneered at Seb, who smiled sweetly. "Well, you could just keep buying the capsules until you happen to get a Hippo, or you could buy one for sure, for $20…"

The people gathered to watch the exchange, even the manager had stayed to watch, really amused. The twins were just smiling widely at their daddy. They liked when he smiled! "That's RIDICULOUS!" She screamed. "Just accept the money, you cyclops!"

Seb stopped and his smile dropped. The woman grinned, knowing like the bitch she was that she touched a nerve, and the crowd gaped, some even covered their mouths. Seb's eye twitched. "You know what, Karen? I'm keeping the hippo. I think it's quite cute." Seb said with a deadpan expression. He handed the panda and hippo to his daughters and turned around to leave. The woman gasped even as her son started screaming and kicking his legs. "Noo! Mommy I WANT that hippo!"

The woman rushed forward and tried to snatch the hippo out of Zully's hand. She didn't make it that far since Seb steered the stroller out of the way and got between the woman and his children. "First of all. NEVER touch my daughters." He growled, his eye about to turn red. He might be short, but he was still looking down at the woman. "And second, did you just attempt to STEAL from me?" Seb glared. The woman screamed at him, "Give me that hippo! My son deserves it more than your damn slobbering brats!"

And that was about when the manager called security to escort the woman and her son out of the store. Seb grinned and the people around them were grinning widely, satisfied to know that awful woman got what she deserved. The manager offered Seb two more toys for the bad experience he had. "It's ok, this is the only store that sells the twins' special formula anyway." He grinned.

Seb went back home, Zully had lost the hippo (they had been biting it) between the seats of the sofa cushions, but they didn't mind much since they had their fist to continue biting. The brunet laughed himself silly for a while, even as he cooked and made some mashed potatoes and parboiled chicken for the twins.

When Wanda came back, he proudly presented the toys to her as he explained how he became the hero at the supermarket, and the blonde laughed loudly. "Oh, I would have loved to see that!" She pulled him close to give him a kiss. "You're such a cutie~Giving that awful woman what she deserved~"

"And the girls now have new toys!" "What a hero~!" Wanda purred, making her boyfriend blush even more. She always reminded him how great he was, even over the tiniest things. It made him feel… nice. They pulled the twins' hands out of their mouths before they bit through the skin again. Wanda sighed. Baby steps for all her babies, praise for Seb for his self esteem and more durable toys for the teething children.

There was a lot Wanda had to do.

-.-

So Wanda caved and got some chew toys meant for dogs for her children. Hey, it's not like the store would know they were for her teething kids and not teething puppies, right? It was still somewhat embarrassing. Especially when Wanda brought the kids to work with her and one of her co-workers commented, "Isn't that a dog toy?" To which Wanda was forced to say that her kids just "-have very strong jaws!" and hope that her face stopped being bright red.

Seb's mom laughed loud at the photo Seb shared with her and Stan, but HER mom didn't find it very funny that she was "treating her children as if they were dogs." Wanda massaged her head. She DIDN'T. She loved her daughters, she HATED when her mom made these kind of comments "Mom, they destroy the normal ones...and if they don't have anything to chew on, they'll bite themselves and get hurt." She tried to explain. "Then just buy more! You don't need to demean them with dog toys!" Her mom picked up Zully who was hitting Zoe with a plastic ball and kissed their cheek. "Look at them! They are the prettiest girls ever!" Linda adjusted Zully's bear hair clip. "Imagine I had given you dog toys as a child!"

"...What if I told you it was Sebastian's idea…?" Wanda tried instead. Her mother NEVER critiqued Seb, only her, because apparently she wasn't doing a good job as a mom...

"Well, at least he has proposed something! What have you done to get your daughters to stop?"

"...Followed Seb's advice…?" Wanda grimaced, her heart clenching tightly. "You're their mother, Wanda." Linda shook her head in disappointment. "You have to know what's good for them. Seb had an idea, but you just followed it blindly?"

"So it's not HIS fault for thinking about the dog toys?!" Wanda exclaimed. "He THOUGHT about it, you DID it." Her mother pointed out. "You should have thought of your own solution to make them stop."

Wanda groaned. Uuugh, nothing she did was ever right. "Well FINE, I'm gonna go think of something ELSE to do." She tried not to snap at her mother, she really did. It was just so difficult sometimes. Wanda looked up a few things on the internet and one of the things was to rub some spicy pepper on their fingers so they wouldn't stick their hands in their mouths...

The babies didn't appreciate it. At all. The children wailed at the TRAISON Mommy committed. They thought it was going to be yummy but it WASN'T.

Wanda winced and profusely apologized to her babies. "I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" Seb had had some of it on his finger as well, just to try it himself, and was now staring at his finger in fear.

Don't suck it, don't suck it!

Zoe and Zully ended up sucking their feet as they glared at their parents. Wanda sighed and put the pepper on their feet too. Zoe couldn't believe this betrayal from mommy!

"I'm so sorry baby, but you need to stop biting yourself, we don't want you to get hurt anymore." Wanda picked her up and kissed her nose. Zoe glared at her with her mismatched eyes. "You know, Seb, the twins are very expressive for 7 months old…" Wanda hummed. "Do you understand what mommy says?" She asked Zoe this time. "Don't be angry with me~" Zoe huffed and continued glaring. "... just chew on your dog toys…" Wanda sighed.

So they gave the children dog toys and Wanda continued putting peppers on their hands so they didn't bite themselves. Wanda couldn't help but think that this still FELT like training a dog...

They played with the babies for a while and at some point...Sebastian forgot his fingers also had pepper. He started biting his finger out of boredom. And started screaming. "AAAAAHHH!" before he started crying, falling to the floor rubbing his tongue. The twins hummed, you see?! It hurt! And crawled towards their dad to hit his face with some cubes they were playing with. Wanda snorted. She was surrounded by babies…

Seb was a good stay home dad, and he had come to realize it was something he really enjoyed doing. He watched after the kids, he cooked and cleaned… but it was getting harder to do everything at once. He was getting more clients now, more dresses and suits to tailor, and he still had classes. All that took TIME. Time he had to use to take care of the household.

They were always crawling everywhere and keeping an eye on them was absolutely necessary because they would pull on things and eat them if they could. Keeping up with the two of them was hard, they crawled so fast!

Then Seb slapped himself. "Duh!" He had powers! He sometimes forgot about this useful advantage over the average meatsack!

The twins floated in the air with some toys as Seb worked on the clothes he was asked to make. It had gotten so natural for him to use his powers that he didn't fear dropping the kids. It was just somewhat annoying when a baby floated in front of him, crawling and kicking their legs. "Go float somewhere else, shoo!" Seb laughed and gently pushed them away. Like baby balloons, the twins floated away.

He searched for his fabric scissors in his bag and found a crumpled paper. Curious, the man unfolded it and frowned a bit. Oh, right. The contest the school was organizing...He didn't even consider it when he was given the pamphlet...

"Should I? I still have time…" Seb looked at his babies. He pursed his lips in thought. If...he participated and won, he could win the prize and-and it said he would get recognition! "It-It even said I'd get promotion fro-from a fashion company!" Zoe floated towards him and hugged his face, little feet wrapping around his neck.

"Do you know what that means?" "Aah! Bahpah?!" Zully tried as they floated past and Seb squeezed their round cheeks. "Exactly! If I win, I can get recognized for-for my designs! And maybe, if-if I'm lucky, I can work more professionally and be famous!" His eye sparkled when it suddenly shattered. But what if he failed? He always fucked up, he didn't do anything right, he was going to fuck up because he was a fuck up, he would never win. He was getting too excited, his happiness wasn't letting him think straight.

What if he failed and the school threw him out?! What if Wanda was so disappointed she left him and never let his daughters see him because he was failure?! His breathing got louder and turned into scared, panicked gasps.

"-A"

"-Apa."

"-Papa!" Seb opened his eye and looked at the source of the voice. Zully was staring at him with brown tearful eyes. "Papa, nuh-uh!" The baby pleaded. They were still floating (thank Ax) and watching him panic. Seb heaved a deep breath of air.

He had to stop, he didn't want-he didn't' want the babies to see him like this…He-He didn't want to continue, he didn't want to end up hurting himself, not in front of the girls. They had brought him back to reality. "Zu-Zully...you said yo-your first word…" Seb smiled tearfully and hugged his daughters. "I'm sorry, I promise I will get better, I-I'm going to participate in that contest, I-I can do it, right? I'll prove to you two that I CAN do things! I can't be scared forever! I'm Sebastian William Pines dammit!"

Zoe and Zully sighed contently as they rested their heads on daddy's chest. That was much better~

"You definitely have anxiety." Linda told Sebastian simply. Just a statement of fact. Seb nodded. "Oh, um… is that bad?" He bit his lip. Linda adjusted her glasses. "Well, it's not good, but it is manageable. There are pills you can take to help calm down and we will still work on ways to regulate your anxiety."

"But if I take pills, everyone will know I am damaged." Seb pouted. "Sebastian, you ARE damaged." Linda smiled kindly, making the man glare. "Thanks a lot."

"You've been hurt throughout all your childhood. It's this same trauma that's causing your anxiety, it's the one that doesn't let you trust yourself for something as basic as a contest." Seb pouted at that. Why did he even tell her what happened?! Urgh!

"So the pills will help you to NOT be hurt anymore." Linda told him gently. Seb whined. "But I don't want people to know I'm messed up in the head." Seb protested.

Linda gave him a flat look. "On average, one in six Americans take a psychiatric drug to deal with their depression, anxiety or other disorders." She stared at him. "Anxiety is COMMON. Yours is more intense, but it's not all that different from thousands of other people here in the states. Around 17%. Many take antidepressants. Others take sedatives. It's so common now that some doctors automatically prescribe such medicine even before doing a thorough check to see if their patient really needs it."

"Then do I-" Seb started to say before Linda interrupted. "Oh no, you definitely need sedatives. I made sure before I prescribed you. I wanted to be sure." She sat back in her chair. "Sebastian, you need the medical help. It's not a problem, you're not broken, just damaged. And you can heal. I believe you can. I know you can."

Seb grumpily accepted the prescription and awkwardly told Wanda what Dr. Linda told him. Wanda had been bathing the twins and without looking up, she smiled. "Well, that's good, she knows what will help you, it's her job, I'm paying her for a reason." She looked at Seb when he sat cross legged on the floor to help with the babbling and excited babies. Daddy was back! "So...You don't mind me taking...anti-crazy pills?" His pout turned into a frown when Zoe splashed him with a loud "BAH!"

"No, duh. I want you to get better, all your family wants you to get better." Wanda stroked his now wet cheek before kissing it. "Because you're an amazing human being and we want you to be happy."

"...Well, I'm definitely better as a human than I was as a triangle, aren't I?" Seb asked, tilting his head to the side. Wanda adored when he did that. "Of course~ Bad triangle, good Seb."

"Goo Papa!" Zoe hit the water again. "And a good papa, yes, thanks for reminding me." Wanda giggled. "Seriously, the kids are so vocal, it is amazing!"

Seb smiled widely. "I-I love you." Wanda flicked his nose. "I love you more."

"Ow! Now I take that back!" Seb covered his nose as the blonde laughed.

-.-

They had a Christmas family meeting, the 2nd one where all of them were together. Thanksgiving and Hanukkah was spent with the inlaws, or in Fordsie's case, after Fiddleford's insistence, at his place.

Dipper and Dillon were hiding under the table, playing videogames with headphones as Mabel skipped around, singing at the top of her lungs the songs of her now favorite movie. "FOR THE FIRST TIME IN FOREEVVEERRR!" She went to see it with some friends and she loved it!

Shermie's eye twitched and broke a candy cane. "Help." Abigail took a deep breath and massaged her eyes.

Ford blinked as his niece sang. "So...this movie you narrate sounds nothing like the original Snow Queen by Hans Christian Andersen."

"Yeah?! IT'S EVEN BETTER!" Dipper and Dillon poked their heads out. "Freezer is Overrated!"

"YOU are overrated!" The teenage girl stuck her tongue out.

Stan ran a hand through his hair and exhaled. "Oof! Good thing you're a boy, kid!" He poked Diego's leg as the baby hungrily suckled his meal before looking at Seb. "Look at your future." He teased him.

The little twins were crawling around trying to grab the decorations but Wanda was keeping an eye on them. "Nah, I like disney songs, I wouldn't mind having the girls singing, they'll have to tolerate ME singing!" Seb grinned. He liked to sing, singing was fun!

Zully squeaked when Mabel suddenly grabbed them. "Hello, little baby~ You're a princess just like me! And you're thinking maybe~ It's a pretty cool thing to be~" Mabel looked at her family. "This a deleted song of the movie by the way~!"

""We KNOW!"" Her parents groaned.

"One, two, three together! Clap together, snap together! You and me!" Mabel was bouncing Zully everywhere, and the poor baby sobbed to be let down. "Shooting Star~, she just ate, she's going to vomit on you~" Seb warned lightly. Too late, Zully coughed up their formula onto Mabel's sweater. The teenager groaned but gently placed her cousin back on the ground. "Quick! I need a tub of water!"

Mabel ran away shrieking in distress while Seb went to coo at Zully who was rubbing their eyes. "AAAWW! Are you tired, pumpkin? Yes? I know dealing with Mabel is really tiring~" He picked Zully up and the baby snuggled against his chest. "At least she stopped singing…" Shermie sighed in relief. "Thanks, Zully." He cooed.

Wanda and Seb went to put the babies to sleep, along with Stan who put Diego to sleep (the poor man was still getting used to taking care of an infant son, he loved Dillon because he SPOKE) and returned with the rest of the family. They chatted about their lives. Sebastian, having been gently prodded by Linda during one of their sessions, got the courage to speak up about what was going on in his life, even when he didn't think it was all that impressive.

"DUDE! You should have told us you got your diplomaaa!" Shermie wailed quietly, because 3 little babies were sleeping a few rooms away. Seb rubbed the back of his neck. "Kid, it's seriously nothing, I mean, I should have done that like, decades ago…"

"It's not nothing! You've wanted your diploma for DECADES!" Shermie insisted. He grinned. "I'm proud of you, man."

Seb looked down, blushing. Mabel, Dipper and Dillon chuckled softly as they drank hot chocolate from cool Christmas-y cups. Uncle Seb never liked to get compliments~ He got all embarrassed!

"And he has submitted a drawing for a contest at the school he's taking a couple of courses in~" Wanda betrayed him and Seb stared at her wide eyed. "Friedmann!" He hissed.

"What? You never said you were studying." Ford commented softly. "And a contest? What of?" The scientist asked. "Will you win money?!" Stan asked with excitement and earned a smack on the arm from Carla. Kari smiled. "Oh baby, that's wonderful!" Seb blushed and buried his face in his hands.

Wanda laughed. "It's a design thing. For a fashion show." She was very proud of her boyfriend. She didn't even care if he won or not, she was proud at the fact that he had the courage to DO it. It was enough for her.

"Li-Linda says I have to trust myself more so I said why the hell not! And quickly sent it in before I regretted it…" Ford stared at his triplet. Seb always gave the impression he was so confident and full of himself...Knowing it was all fake was...frustrating. If HE hadn't been so full of himself, maybe he would have noticed his brother needed help…

"And well now that we're all talking about embarrassing things about me, next week I'll start taking pills to suppress the craziness~ yay~" "They're for anxiety, he's been medically diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder." Wanda clarified with a deadpan expression.

"Why didn't you tell us before?!" Dipper demanded before angrily sipping his chocolate.

Ford blinked slowly as Stan, Shermie and their mother scolded a groaning Seb. Woah...His brother had anxiety. He suddenly snorted, lucky for him it was soft enough no one heard it. The mental image of Bill Cipher suffering from a human mind problem such as anxiety was so surreal it was ridiculous. But his brother wasn't Bill. Same soul didn't mean he was necessarily him. He had grown up as a human, as a Sebastian, so he was a Sebastian, despite how he used to be a Bill.

And it was serious. He shouldn't even be joking about it in the first place, 'What even, Stanford!?' He scolded himself.

"Because~ Pinetree~ I don't think it's important so neither should you. Hey, isn't it past your bedtime already? Santa won't come if you don't sleep." Seb looked at the kids. "I won't say he's not real, because my experience tells me it could be otherwise-" Dipper started saying before his twin interrupted. "Jokes on you! We don't have a bedtime anymore! We're 14!"

"Bedtimes don't really work anymore now that Dipper practically injects himself with energetic drinks to stay alive." Abigail glared at her son. Their stores of coffee were running low and everytime they buy more it would be halfway gone before the end of the week. Dipper twitched. "I'm a high schooler! I need my caffeine!"

""You need to sleep"" Seb and Shermie said at the same time. "Seriously, he almost lost his body to a demon the summer he stayed with me because he didn't sleep for days." Seb informed his brother. Dipper complained he could have solved it on his own. Mabel's eye twitched, remembering the note and simply looked at her twin, her long earrings swinging and put a hand on his shoulder. "No."

Shermie twitched. Again with the...demon and monster thing! He was the youngest but he wasn't stupid! Why did everyone have to keep up this demon-thing? Was there an inside joke he didn't get?

They all waited until it was midnight to have a toast. "I wanna try!" Mabel made grabby hands at Ford's glass. "Please please, uncle Fordsie?" She made puppy eyes. Ford frowned. "You're 14."

Mabel pouted. Umm…"For science~?" Ford paused but Shermie reached over to swipe the glass from him. "No. No alcohol for the kids until they're 21." He shuddered. "Or older. Not gonna let them do what I did…" Getting drunk and becoming a teenage father, yeah, that sucked.

Mabel glared at her dad and crossed her arms. "The girls at school drink." Shermie raised an eyebrow. "If your friends jumped from a bridge, would you?" Mabel laughed. "Dad, you raised no sheep but a LEADER! I'd be organizing that jumping!" The girl patted his arm and went to get some soda.

Ford snorted at Shermie's look. "I'm so confused but so proud right now…" He drank Ford's drink in one gulp and returned his brother's empty glass. "You shouldn't drink either you light-weight! Wouldn't want another tattoo~" Shermie smacked Ford's neck, winked and left, laughing like a good annoying little brother. Ford took a six fingered hand to his neck, cheeks flustered. "STANLEY!" Did-Did he SERIOUSLY tell everyone?!

Stan was guffawing loudly on the other side of the room. "What? It's a great story!" He took another swig of his beer. "It's your fault for getting drunk." He waggled his eyebrows at his older brother. Ford groaned. "We ran out of water! The alcohol was safer to drink than that contaminated, dirty-"

"I know. But that's what made it so funny!" Stan laughed until Ford threw a pillow at him.

They spent the holidays together before dispersing back into their own lives.

Seb wasn't doing well. He was curled up on his psychiatrist's couch, sobbing. Dr. Linda closed her eyes, hurting a little as well. "Sebastian, what happened?" He had called in the morning, pleading her to go earlier, he said he NEEDED it. Linda managed to move her schedule a little bit and had him come hours earlier. He had come in, miserable and unable to really explain until he laid down on her couch and just burst into tears.

Seb gasped. "I-I-I'm ssssad…." He slurred through his sobbing. Dr. Linda massaged her temples. "Sebastian, do you want to talk about it? I have no idea what's going through your head right now."

He stayed quiet for long 5 minutes, with the occasional sob now and then, until he finally managed to speak. "...The twins will hate me...when-when they grow up…" "And why is that?" Linda asked softly.

"Because I'm a failure! And they-they'll be S-SO embarrassed! S-So ashamed of having a useless father, they will hate me!"

"You are not useless." Linda said firmly. "What happened?"

Seb wiped his tears angrily, hand just lingering above his wrist. He hadn't touched it, Linda was proud, but he had needed to come. If she had said no, he'd have a new set of scars. "It-It's...Remember the-the stupid competition I TOLD you was a TERRIBLE idea?!" He glared. He blamed her and his daughters for making him feel capable of something like that.

When he wasn't. He was stupid and useless. He pulled a crumpled paper out of his pants pocket and threw it at her direction. "BEhold! The SHITTIEST PIECE OF sHIT ON EARTH!" His voice cracked a bit.

"I-I was SO stupid to trust you!" His eye welled up with tears once again. Linda could clearly see how betrayed he felt. Linda gently took his hand. "Sebastian, everyone can fail sometimes, that's perfectly normal. But isn't this just your first try? I'm sure you can try again."

"And I'll just FAIL AGAIN!" Seb wailed. Linda gently helped him sit up and handed him a tissue. "Sebastian. When I was a child, I was terrible at speaking." She started. Sebastian blinked at her. What? B-but she was therapist! She's suppose to be good a talking and giving advice and stuff, right? Linda nodded. "I was quite shy, believe it or not. But I wanted to get over it. So I auditioned for my school play… and I was rejected."

Sebastian listened quietly as she spoke. "I was really upset, angry at myself for being so bad at it."

"That's bad…"

"But I kept trying." The blonde smiled. "I kept trying until one day I finally got the character in a school play."

"And was it nice?"

"No, it was horrible, the place caught on fire in the middle of the play." Linda said and Seb laughed loudly. Linda smiled. "So this is just your first failure. And you'll probably fail many more times. But that's fine. Because you can keep trying. And hopefully, when you DO get your own fashion show, it won't catch fire." She teased. Seb laughed and shook his head. "NAH! If it's me, it'll DEFINITELY catch fire!" He sounded fine with that though.

The brunet's smile disappeared. "Ok, but my drawing still sucked...They said I didn't meet their standards…" Linda checked the crumpled drawing and frowned a bit. She couldn't see it quite well, with all the scratches Seb had done over it and all the angry 'SHIT' written over it. "I'm sure this USED to be lovely…"

"I don't get it! Why was it bad?! I did everything they asked me to! And it was still REJECTED!" he showed her the e-mail he got on his phone.

Linda read the message. "Well, here says REQUIREMENTS, not standards." "It's the same!" The therapist entered the website that still had the requirements listed to participate. "We can check if maybe you missed something, ok?"

Seb huffed. "Fine."

"Um...you sent your full name?" "Yes." "Copy of your ID?" "Yes!" "A scanned drawing with the correct measurements?" "YES!" "A recent document to prove you are studying at the school?"

Seb stopped, frowning slightly. "...They didn't ask that." Linda turned the phone over to show Sebastian that section. "It's here. I think you might have accidentally missed it?"

"..." Seb made a weird choked sound, as if trying to scream, but his throat was closed. Finally, when Linda was starting to get worried (he wasn't breathing, his face was going red), he whispered. "Are...you kidding me…? He let out a defeated sigh. "You know what? I'm done. I can't take this anymore. This was stupid anyway!"

"Sebastian…"

The brunet stomped over to her, glaring. "WHAT?!" He screamed. "You ARE NOT going to help me! NOTHING is going to 'HELP ME GET BETTER' if my STUPID DAMAGED BRAIN can't do ANYTHING RIGHT!" Seb shrieked as loud as he could. "So not only will the twins be ashamed to have a USELESS father, they will be ashamed to have an STUPID one as WELL!"

"You're not stupid, Sebastian." Linda led him back to the couch. "Actually, I think that perhaps you might have an Attention Deficit Disorder. But I would need to get you properly tested to be sure."

Seb's fuming slowly calmed down. "I...heard of that...thing...Um, I-I know someone who had it...His-his father told me, he took some pills and all, and then he said that maybe I had that…"

"When was that?" Linda asked. "Um, after I was kicked out of my house...Um, Maybe 18? I think? I worked as a babysitter." "Did you get the diagnosis?" Seb shook his head. "I didn't think too much about it, actually…" If he was correct, at that age he had been busy dying of pain and didn't want to put another thing on himself.

"Well, next session we'll work on a diagnosis, alright?" Seb groaned loudly and laid back. "Seriously, though! Who the fuck says 'Here, use this vessel, but Haha! I won't tell you I specifically designed it to make you suffer. Here: have a stupid body with a horrible eye, six fingers, a damaged brain and burning scars! And oh! It leaks a lot! And you won't be able to control it! The Axolotl is SO STUPID!"

Linda nodded slowly. There it was again, Sebastian's feelings of his body being something that someone else gave him, specifically dysfunctional. She looked up the Axolotl that Sebastian always mentioned but all she found was an endangered species of newt.

"Sebastian, do you believe in God?" "Believe how? Like, I think it exists? Or in the sense that I trust him?" "Both." "I know this fucker exist, so I don't BELIEVE, I KNOW. But I don't trust him, though I don't really despise him anymore, just hate him a little bit. And I have never seen the gods that humans worship, but I'm sure it's the same entity, so no, I don't believe in God in the worship way either."

Linda nodded. Ok, so no religious approach. "You only have ONE body, Seb. And no, your Bill self doesn't count. As Seb, you have one, and you are just the way you are." Linda told him simply.

"So defective? I should just accept it?" Seb huffed. "You need to accept that you are the way you are and that doesn't mean you're defective. Just different. You are you, you have your own will and the power to make choices. Now, what you do with that is a completely different story." Linda adjusted her glasses. "There are lots of people with ADHD. Are you going to tell me that they're all defective too?"

"...well, kinda… not really… but not as bad as me…" Seb winced. Jack was a good boy. He was also a successful figure skater now! He wasn't defective at all!

Linda chuckled. "Oh, Sebastian...Do you think you're the WORST on the planet? There's NO ONE who has it worse than you?"

The man pouted and shrugged. "Are you the MOST stupid, the LEAST fortunate and the WORST at EVERYTHING compared to the 7 billion people alive?"

"...No…Many people don't have where to sleep or to eat-" He knew, he had been there. "-There are many dumb people...and I'm way more intelligent...Like, I managed to fool the government agents...and...avoided the police a lot and...well, I...I did fix the portal after self teaching myself physics...my friend Miz from another dimension did help to finish the Bio-Scanner but I did all the other work...and…" Seb stared at his drawing Linda put on a table. "...I did get the highest score in one practice...at-at school…" He sighed. "I'm not the worst…" Seb said. Uh…That actually...felt nice.

Dr. Linda grinned. It was nice to hear him finally say it. He seemed to feel better as well, smiling softly. It was a start.

"Ok, so I lost my chance to participate in this stupid contest because I was ssss-" Seb looked at Linda's face and bit his tongue. "Because...I didn't pay enough attention and...got me disqualified…" Linda nodded, yeah, good, much better. Seb bit his inner cheeks as he thought. "So...What do I do now?"

Linda stayed silent to allow him to talk. "I...I wanted to participate because that could...help me get a better job. I mean, I love tailoring, it's fun, and I get clients to make personalize clothes as well...but, I don't know...my brothers are...doing better, I wanna be like them...but I don't know how."

Linda nodded. Sebastian thought about it and continued, "So I should look up other shows or competitions that I could apply for. And read the guidelines and requirements really carefully…" He thought some more. "...and I should have Wanda read it over with me so she can tell me if I missed something…"

Linda smiled. "Very good, Sebastian." She saw him smile back. "Also, even if a company doesn't buy your designs, you can always start your own. Didn't you tell me once that your brother Stanley started his own company, and Stanford has his research center as well? Ask Stanley for some advice. If what you've told me is true, he obviously loves you and would love to help you."

Seb started moving from side to side, distractedly. Yeah, Fez would know, he was good at this, this Fez at least, he was proud of his Fez, he was a cool one. "Yeah...You're right, after coming back from the portal he had resumed his job on it as if nothing happened. He likes his job, he sells other people's stuff...Um, I, like, had, a 'store' when I was in Gravity Falls, some people bought...but usually I got asked for tailoring…" He shook his head. Focus. Getting distracted. "If I open a store and it works, I CAN be more famous, no? And I can get more money and that's always better, considering the twins like to destroy their stuff…"

"Who doesn't love money?" Linda chuckled and Seb grinned widely. "Do you really think it will work though? Everything I do seems to go WRONG."

"Maybe it's because of your lack of attention to some things? Now that we're also going to work on that, I bet things will work better." The woman said calmly. Seb did seem to have ADHD though, for what she heard...Some things started to make much more sense, how he claimed his body was broken because he never stopped moving, and how he was hit because he spoke too fast or didn't read the instructions, or was impulsive...Geez, that poor child. Maybe if he had been diagnosed earlier...At least he would have known his mind wasn't broken.

Sebastian seemed to do much better over the rest of their session. Linda was glad for that.

"I'm worth it!" Seb declared at the end of the session. He didn't quite believe it yet...but it was a start. Linda nodded. "Yes, you are! I want to hear it louder!"

"I'M WORTH IT!" The man screamed and Linda nodded with a smile. "You are. You have to believe you are…" She finally addressed Seb's wrists which had been moments away from being cut open had she not agreed to meet with him earlier than usual.

"You will grab a marker and write some good things on your arm. You can get help, but I want you to realize it yourself, you are worth it and you will tell yourself why." Linda told him. "Write them on your arm so you'll see them."

"It's kinda dumb, but ok…It can be anything?"

"Yes, even the tiniest positive thing goes there. Then you make a list and show it to me next session." Seb nodded with a small smile. "Ah, okay. I can do that. Um… thanks Linda…"

He went to pick up his little daughters from their grandma Linda's house, he still thought it was hilarious how his therapist and in law had the same names, and squealed loudly when he saw them. "WHERE are the PRETTIEST baby princesses on THIS AWFUL PLANET?!"

The twins squealed loudly when they saw their daddy and raised their hands to be picked up. "Babah! Papa!"

He picked up the two of them, making them whine when he rubbed their cheeks with his beard (No! BAD DADDY!) and he examined them, all while Wanda's mom melted by the door. "Hey~ And these dresses? I didn't buy you those, did you STEAL?!" He gasped exaggeratedly to make the babies squeal.

"I bought them!" Mom Linda squealed. "Aren't they PRECIOUS?!" She loved dressing them in all sorts of frilly things. The babies were forced to deal with it because they didn't have a say yet. Zoe did bite and claw at her dress though, not liking how itchy the frills were.

"They could be wearing a DIAPER or nakey and they'd still be precious~ But nudity is condemned by humans so don't do that~ No~" He looked at the woman. "Thanks for taking care of them, ma'am! My therapy was nice today." He smiled brightly.

Mom Linda stroked his cheek, he didn't flinch anymore, and smiled. "I'm so glad, sweetie. You got your pills yet?" Seb smiled sheepishly. "I ordered them, Wands is picking them today after work."

The woman nodded and gave him a bag with the other cute things she bought for her granddaughters. "Try them all! I bought all the store I think! You're the clothes expert though." Seb blushed and sputtered a 'thank you' before leaving, almost forgetting his kids in the process.

He spent the day thinking good things about himself. He got very few things. He made delicious dinner, he always finished his requests on time (even if he had to stay awake all night because he procrastinated and worked on too many things at the same time), he always made the twins eat their baby food when Wanda NEVER could...And he was VERY good looking.

He could have self esteem problems, but he was a HANDSOME dude with self esteem problems...He was a mess. But he did feel a little better that his arm had things written on it. The marker covered up his scars and if he wrote the words in a cool cursive, it actually looked like fancy tattoos. HAH! Cooler looking tattoos than Sixer's All Star! And better than the damn Zodiac Bill2 put on his back. These were marks about what stuff Seb did well! These were marks to be proud of!

His heart clenched a bit, but it was from happiness. It was...nice to feel good with himself for a change. He made beautiful babies! He added when he saw Zoe sneeze like the adorable being she was. "We'll take a bath, ok?" He took a photo of his forearm and then protected it in a plastic bag. He wanted to keep it as long as possible.

He took a bath with the twins, making it easier to clean them and they played for a bit before it was time to feed them and put them to bed. That was how Wanda found him, just wearing his pants, with the twins curled up on his warm chest and hungrily drinking their milk. He couldn't move or the twins would scream and cry.

"Ooooo~~" Wanda raised her eyebrows and smiled as she let her gaze roam up and down Seb's shirtless body, biting her lower lip. Nice~ "May I know what do I owe this blessed sight?" The woman grinned as she walked towards the bed. She kissed the twins first though, they got jealous of their daddy if she didn't greet them first. Zoe was holding her bottle like a big girl but Zully was leaning on Seb all comfortable and waiting for him to hold the bottle for them while they suckled.

Wanda cooed. Lazy baby girl~

"I just...forgot...I made their bottles and laid down." Seb told her. Wanda laughed. "Well, I'm not complaining…" She laid down and trailed her fingers up his chest. Seb blushed. "Wanda!" He wailed. Wanda purred. "I'm jealous that the girls get to have you all for themselves~" She batted her eyes at him. "We haven't had a chance to spend some quality~time together~"

Seb blushed harder. "W-Wanda! Not in front of the kids!" Wanda scoffed. "I can wait until we put them to bed."

Seb sputtered. "You have birth control, right?" Wanda pouted. "Of course! I even have condoms just in case!" She huffed. "Damn you for being so attractive." Seb grinned, reaching to grab his marker and scribble on his arm, which had been under the pillow he was laying on. "I'm super hot x2." He wrote down. Wanda gasped at the writing on his arm. "What's that?"

"Linda told me to write the good things about myself on my arm, so that I can remind myself that…" Seb paused to brace himself, "...that I'm not a failure. That I AM worth it. A-and it's actually really… nice."

Wanda maneuvered herself on the bed to not crush the babies (they barely reacted when they saw her but she couldn't blame them, who would want to move when they were on Seb?), and sat down next to him. "That's an amazing idea, sweetie~" She kissed his lips softly. "You'll finally see how amazing you are. Everyone already thinks so, you're the only one left who needs to believe it." She pulled Seb's face closer to kiss him.

Zoe finished her bottle and pouted. She wanted more! She whined loudly and threw it away. "Bahbah! Mi!" Her parents broke apart and Wanda narrowed her eyes. "Why did you throw that? No, baby." She bent down to pick it up and Seb squealed when Zoe giggled. Zully yawned. Eating was so tiring. Seb cooed at Zoe. "Aaww~ Naughty already, huh?! You won't be like me, will you? Don't make us suffer~" He nibbled her tummy gently and in return, the baby with heterochromatic eyes shrieked and bit his cheek.

Wanda was denied her quality time with Seb after the babies fell asleep, since she had to treat Seb's cheek. "URGH! It's like 3 needles inserted in my face! FUCK!"

Thanks, Zoe, you cock-blocked your mom by making dad lose any interest. She could survive another day without it though. Wanda did take many, many photos of her babies and put the girls new clothes in the drawers. She appreciated her mom's gift.

Wanda didn't mind not having quality time. She still got to see Seb peacefully sleeping, no nightmare bothering him this night and holding his marker in a hand. He was so proud of all the nice things he wrote today, which made HER proud in return. He should do this everyday until he believed the things he wrote. He had taken his first pill tonight, time to see if they helped him...

"I love you, Sebas…" She kissed his nose softly.

She left to work early next morning, and Seb would have pouted sadly (he didn't even make her breakfast!) but he noticed the Post-It on his forehead. He smiled widely when he read it. "We decided to help you~ W and Z's: Perfect dad, best partner ever."

He searched for his marker to write it down. The day was already bright.

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I like this chapter a lot for various reasons xD A wild entitled mom appeared and because I'm obsessed with those reddit stories, don't doubt you'll see Seb facing many dumb people along the way HAHAHA

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