Sakura's Boarding School Cliché: An Akatsuki x Sakura Fanfiction AU
[Chapter 7]
Disclaimer: I own NOTHING other than the plot!
"Sakura, what the fuck is wrong with you?! Who was that, hmm?!" Deidara was quickly getting furious again to the point where his face was flushed crimson.
"I told you. I have dissociative identity disorder. I think. I'm sor-"
"No! She was in my head earlier, Sak, what the fuck is going on? You have to have known she could do that!" He wasn't letting up at all. I've never seen him this pissed off before.
'INNER, WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO?! Did you jump into HIS head?'
I got nothing except total silence in return. This is fucked up. What in the hell do I do?
"Dei… I had no idea she could do that… I'm really sorry that she invaded your personal space like that..."
"You know what? Just forget it. Finish your own fucking movie." He started hastily getting changed from his pajamas into street clothes. He grabs his jacket and keys and grabs the door knob to the apartment.
"Where are you going?" I didn't mean for things to go so far south or for him to get genuinely upset, and I didn't know she was going to try and hurt him to be funny. I would never hurt my best friend, even when I get carried away. This has all gone too fucking far.
I could see his jaw set and flex from irritation, and I knew there was no way I should do anything except sit there and keep out of his way. I don't want him to leave, especially not on these terms. Who knows how long he'll be gone for…
"To blow off some steam, uhn." He looks away from me.
"I thought she was just going to tease you; I didn't know she'd go so far! Wait, don't go..." He stills with his hand on the doorknob.
"I just need to get some air and think, hmm. I'm not mad at you. Not exactly. I need to go, but I'll be back in an hour or so. Just… don't worry about it, okay? Watch your movie or something…and will ya lock the door behind me?"
He leaves and I'm just sitting there, guilty, and remorseful for this whole fucking thing. Where the fuck was inner? Did she cut off the link or is she gone somewhere else? Where could Dei be going?
You know what? Screw this, I'm going to make it right again. I cut inner off from our mental link from my side so she stays out of my shit for the time being. What to do… what to do… okay. I need to clean this apartment up and probably document the weird shit that's been going on with inner. I need this to be private from even her right now until I can this this all straight and figured out. God, it's one thing for me to be a mental wreck, but I can't have her subject others to this, too.
I think about when this could have happened as I'm on my hands and knees picking up popcorn from every inch of this fucking living room. What a goddamned mess. I was so looking forward to Dei seeing this movie too… I'll have to try again another time, but now is not the time to be thinking of another movie night until I get tonight wrapped up a little nicer. Wait a goshdarned flippin' minute, the kiss. The accidental one. That's when she took off. I thought she had gotten really quiet right after that. She must have jumped then, I thought that he said something kinda weird then.
Oh god, what did she say to him? I wonder if he was even fully responsible and willing when he really kissed me… He had to have been then because she wouldn't shut up about him finally having the balls to put the moves on us. So that was real. I pick up the pillows and blankets and make the bed again before looking to see what else I could do around here to make it better. At a loss, I just turn off the PS3 and vacuum until those stupid kernels disappear from the carpet.
I get into a frenzied cleaning mode and go through every room in this bitch like a DirtDevil on crack. Mr. Clean, who, bitch? Mizz Immaculate is in the building now. Stupid.
This silence is deafening, and I need something to do so I don't actually go solo loco here. I grab a notebook and write everything I can think of as to when, where, who, and how my alter is able to transfer like that. It could get dangerous again if I let her take over again like that.
I hide it in a drawer under the side table on my side of the bed. Generous considering it's a twin mattress. When the fuck is my bed supposed to arrive anyways? C'mon people can we collectively get our shit together or what?!
At this point, he's been gone for a solid two hours, and I'm starting to get worried. I texted him like a half hour ago to see if he was going to be okay but haven't heard anything. I still haven't heard a single thing from Inner, even after unblocking her from my end, and I'm hoping she's just hiding in the recesses of my mind out of guilt.
Not knowing what else I could do to try and be productive, I just grab a smaller blanket and curl up on the couch. I didn't want to finish the movie, so I just turned on the local news. I wasn't really interested in what is going on out there, so I end up passing out in the living room, probably where I should have been sleeping all along anyway.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~TiMe~SkIp~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I awoke to the sound of keys jangling in the deadbolt of the apartment, and I was so relieved to see Deidara walking in unscathed. I glance over on the clock on the stove and its been three and a half hours since he left. I jump off the couch and run over to him, giving him the world's biggest hug, and don't care about anything other than the fact that he's alright.
"Dei, oh my god, I'm so sorry," My voice is cracking like an egg and I can feel the waterworks coming on from the warmth in my eyes. I don't cry very much, but with how the night went and the added worry of if he was safe and/or coming back was too much at once.
"Its all right, uhn… I just went on a long walk is all, and my phone died." I felt his arms wrap around me comfortingly.
I didn't think now was the time for me to call him out on how I didn't buy that. I let it slide, and just bury my face in his neck and hug him tighter. After a moment, I let him go, and let him get changed. I find myself a washcloth and douse it with cool water so I can blot my face with it to get the redness down from crying. Can I stop being a nightmarish emotional wreck or what? God.
I look into a mirror hanging on the wall near the kitchen, and am satisfied with how much red and wishy washy I looked. I grab my pillow from the bed and vie to just take it over to the couch. I wanted to give him some space for the night and leave him alone.
However, he came out of the bathroom as I was walking out of the bedroom.
"Where are you going, uhn?" He says it so gently that I felt my composure from crying earlier crumble just a little.
"I thought that you had enough of me being a psycho for the night and earned a night to just have some time alone, you know? I don't mind sleeping on the couch tonight." I offered quietly and held my pillow a little closer.
"That wasn't really you back there, and I know that, yeah." He looked at me concerned, and I just held his gaze before relenting to voicing my guilty thoughts.
"But she came from me, Dei, and she invaded your privacy, hurt you, and upset you. I'm not okay with that, and I don't want her to have a chance to do anything else to you if she comes through." I look down at the floor again, and try to process how real that actually was going to feel from then on.
"Are you in control now, Sak?" He inquires with a small, crooked smile.
"Well, yeah, I suppose so…" I trail off.
"Then c'mere. I can handle myself pretty well, Sakura." I find a lot of comfort in his words and shuffle over to him.
This time, he gives me the big bear hug, and I just melt into it. I'm tired and he's warm, and all I want to do is go to bed right now, so I just let him hold me and walk us over to the bed. I climb in, and he's just radiating warmth. Maybe next time, I should take that walk instead. It seems to have done him wonders. Feeling too much, too late in the night was draining my will to live, or at least my will to keep my eyelids open. I start to drift off again, but not before remembering to tell Deidara goodnight.
"Goodnight, Sak." I felt a kiss on the back of my head, and finally felt like it was all going to sort itself out and will be okay.
AN: Sorry, that it took me 11 and a half years for me to write this short ass chapter! I need to brush up on exactly what in the hell I'm going to do with this story, but I'm getting things back in bits and pieces! God, will anyone even read this? Lol, if you do, then genuinely bless you dudes. I love the hell out of you guys still!