Sitting down, I held my face in my hands as my soulmate rubbed her hands across my back in comfort as the dust began to settle after my past life revelation.
"You said that Rosalie and Geneviève's bond-breaking down had two different effects," Carlisle questioned. He seemed like a man who thinks deeply about things making me wonder who he was in his past life "what was so different?".
"All I could think about was feeding. I was always hungry. Even now, being with Rose, I can still feel it but not as bad as it was" I tried explaining, but it was hard in a room with primarily animal eaters.
"No matter how many people I fed on, I couldn't quench my thirst, but the more I fed, the worse my bloodlust became," I noticed Jasper giving me a comforting nod before some of my guilt seemed to drain away.
"Wow," Carlisle hummed to himself. This was probably the only time he has been around people who have a rejected bond "So where you couldn't fill your hunger, Rosalie couldn't find an appetite. Interesting".
Glancing towards the blonde, my eyes instinctively roamed over her to make sure she was okay, and to my relief, the time spent by her side seemed to heal her back to normal.
Everyone was silent again for a few moments. "Uh, I hate to bring attention to the elephant in the room, but what now?" Eva questioned as all eyes turned to her. "Like, is Evie coming back with us or?".
Rosalie tried to cover a low growl that came from her throat, turning to watch me with wild eyes. I hate to admit that it never occurred to me that I would have to choose where I would stay.
I knew that in courting Rosalie, I would be with her, but it didn't cross my mind that I would have to pick between the two covens, both of which would support our decisions instantly.
Even though I pushed all of them away since I joined them, they were still my vampire family, even Eva, I begrudgingly accepted. The animosity between us was nothing more than sibling rivalry, something I knew nothing about, having not grown up with my siblings.
Then I saw the look on the face of my love and knew that she was thinking the same thing I was. She didn't want to leave the Cullen's and wasn't prepared to make that decision.
"Geneviève? We should talk" Juliette's voice rang out with a tinkering sound as the world came back into focus, she and Henry were able to talk between nothing but facial expressions and glances, and they were talking a lot. "Esme, Carlisle, if you could?".
Kissing both of Rosalie's hands as I stood from my seat, I made sure to gaze into her eyes as I promised my return. This wasn't like any of those times where I ran to be away from her.
Both sets of 'parents' and myself moved away from the house into a small clearing still on their land but away enough to have some sense of privacy.
"I would first like to say that we would love to have you join our family" Esme smiled gently at me as Henry watched closely. "I know the thought of leaving your family can be hard, but just know the offer is there."
A hand was placed on my shoulder, turning me to face them. "This could be good for you, Mon Ange. I think you should do it" their matching supportive expressions only served to confuse me more.
"You don't want me anymore?" I whispered as Juliette's face dropped alarm before she sprung into action. Wrapping her hands around my arms, she held me tight.
"We will always want you, and you are forever a part of this family," She expressed with a dominant look in her eye. Although she looked the part of a dainty housewife, she was anything but that.
It was truly shocking how much I was beginning to regret the past 70 years of my life. You genuinely don't know what you have until you're about to lose it.
I could very well stay with them, but I knew the impact that making Rosalie leave the Cullen's would have on her. Underneath the strong confidant vampire was a sensitive woman who needed her family more than even they knew.
"But-" my eye twitched as if knowing this was going to be something I wouldn't like, "-we do have rules in this family" the subtle look that passed between the Cullen couple was enough to almost make me feel nervous.
"We would like you to change your diet," Carlisle sighed as I glanced between the two of them, noticing the minor attributes they had or did that would make them seem human to the actual humans.
That's something I would have to work on if I wanted to be with Rosalie. I was beginning to realize the number of things I was willing to change or do to be with my love.
But I knew she would be willing to do the same for me if the roles were reversed.
Biting my lip in anxiety, I knew it was something I would always struggle with, having fed solely on humans my entire vampire life. My coven and I once passed another family of vegetarian vampires whose leader tried to persuade us into the dietary lifestyle.
The Denali coven, I think they were called.
Their leader Tanya was flirty as much as she was welcoming. The blonde vampire was admittedly gorgeous but thinking back now, she's got nothing on my Rosalie.
"Our son Jasper has trouble with his control too, I'm sure he'll be more than willing to help you with the change, but the decision is still up to you," Esme beamed at me with her caring grin. "Why don't you go talk it through with Rosalie."
Glancing towards my 'parents,' I quickly rushed off, following the jasmine scent that seemed to calm me instantaneously. My siblings were still sitting with the Cullen's but soon turned to face me when I made my entrance.
"She's upstairs," Amber says as she gives me a gentle smile from her seat next to Emmett. They all had expressions of anticipation, but they weren't the ones I was looking for at this moment.
My mind was a scramble of thoughts. It was so bad I was sure even Edward wouldn't make sense of them.
Following my soulmate's scent, I came to a white door that I realized would be the place I would reside if I chose to move in with the Cullen's.
Loitering at the door with my hand raised, I was instantly taken back to the times when I was too nervous about meeting my soulmate, the want and will to knock on the door but unable to move.
Fortunately for me, the door opened as an amused Rosalie stood in front of me "are you going to stand there all day, or would you like to come in" she smiled cheekily as I nodded, passing through the doorway.
Taking the time to glance around the room, I was astonished at its size and beautiful décor. "I claimed the second biggest room in the house. Esme and Carlisle got the master," Rosalie mentioned offhandedly, motioning to the room.
Trailing my fingers over the pure white furniture, I stopped short, seeing the trinket box I had given her for a New Years' gift. I gently ran my finger over it, smiling to myself as I realized she had made it the centrepiece of her vanity.
"Carlisle offered me a place in your coven," I said, still not facing her, trying to make my voice sound more neutral than the feelings I had running through me, and now I felt bad for both Edward and Jasper for having to be around me right now "But he said I'd have to change my diet too."
I heard the small gasp come from behind me but also the tiny clearing of her throat to cover it, both unnecessary for a vampire, but my stomach fluttered knowing she had done it for me. "And what did you say?".
Turning around, I sat on the end of her perfectly made bed as I watched for the expressions on her face. Hope, longing, and fear were all very much present as she waited for me to answer.
"I didn't give him an answer," I admitted as the blonde sat next to me and grabbed one of my hands in hers as we sat in silence. I could hear our siblings talking amongst themselves, but our parentsmust still be in the clearing.
Falling back onto the pillows with a hefty sigh, I pulled my soulmate down with me. Nuzzling my head in between the space between her neck and shoulder as she gave a small giggle as she lay hers on top of mine, "Will you help me?" I whispered brokenly as she hummed in question.
"If I join you, I can't promise I'll always be good. My issues run so deep that I might accidentally hurt you or someone else again" Rosalie put her arms around me as I talked, "but I am willing to try my best."
My soulmate stroked my hair softly away from my face as her other hand held me against her as our feet entwined. "I'll be with you every step of the way, through the good or the bad. It's you and me, my love".
Venom tears dripped down my cheeks as I snuggled closer to my soul as we lay together in silence, almost feeling like one. Just Rosalie and I wound together tightly, readying ourselves for the next chapter in our lives together.