Bo

Lauren had found them a fairly sized hotel suite and Bo quietly excused herself to the bathroom. She turned the sink water on and splashed her face before she dried it off with a towel. She stared into her eyes and took a few deep breaths before she opened the door to walk out. She felt like she was on a job interview. Although, she has a job, this job can payoff bigger than any client she has on her list right now. She walked the short distance to the living area and took a seat. Lauren sat watching Bo settle in.

"I'm sorry about that. I just don't know where to start". Bo sighed.

Lauren stared at the woman. She had thought about it too. There has been so much that has gone down between them in such a short amount of time. It is all a mess. But if anyone is going to clean it up and clear the air, it has to be them.

"What did I do, Lauren?". Bo whispered. She saw the woman thinking and as adorable as it has always been, she needs the doctor to speak her thoughts.

"When?". Lauren asked.

"Ouch. But I meant what did I do for you to break up with me?". Bo leaned forward. The room is comfy. The a/c is blasting but her temperature is rising.

"I told you, Bo. I wasn't happy. I wasn't. As much as you thought I was, I wasn't. I had no life. None. I was still a ward of the Ash. I was still the CME. I was in a relationship. Combining all of that together didn't make or keep me happy." Lauren's voice never changed as she spoke. It wasn't cold but it wasn't soft either.

Bo bowed her head. Those words hurt deep down in her heart. She knows there's got to be more. But she is not sure she's ready to hear more. But this is why she went into the bathroom. She needed to calm down. To get her head and heart ready to hear everything that Lauren is going to tell her. What she wants to hear. What she doesn't want to hear. She needs to hear it all. If she can get the doctor to tell it all, that is. "I know you, Lauren. I know there's more."

"That is most of it Bo. But there's the succubus part of you too. You can't be monogamous. I wouldn't want you to be, if it meant life or death. But you are a sexual creature by nature. Even if it is only foreplay you're engaging in". Lauren leaned forward to grab her glass and took a long drink of water.

"What foreplay?". Bo's eyes burned with anger but not with blue. Tamsin was all Lauren said. All that she needed to say to make Bo bow her head again. But this time, she stood too. "It meant nothing, Lauren! I am sure she made it seem more than it was, knowing her. But it meant nothing to me!". The woman walked back and forth

"Oh, so you do know her". Lauren's voice still never changed in tone. Why should it? She doesn't need to protect Bo or protect her own feelings anymore. The Fae had trained her to do that. To hold things back. To stay silent when her mouth burned to speak. Those days are over.

"Lauren. It was so quick and over, that she can't say it meant more. You know me. If I am that into someone, I go with it. I didn't go with that kiss. She ran up to me, we kissed and that was it." Bo took a seat.

"It was of so little importance that you couldn't tell me. But you expect me to empty my heart to you about the Ash. About Nadia. About anything that you could and would consider betrayal. You want to know why I wasn't happy? I'm not good enough. Every Fae that you know has made sure to tell me that. Even you when Kenzi had been kidnapped. What was the human doctor to do with the Blood King? What could she say to get him to release you? The same human that watched your succubus nearly kill everyone in that sex club. I don't know. Maybe she thought back to the Lich and took over again. But it wasn't a chi suck. She was fighting everyone in her way. Until I stepped in. You said I'm your mate. Maybe I'm hers." Lauren leaned back and watched a stunned Bo do the same.

"We both love you, Lauren. Nobody would and could know that better than me. I know the Dawning happened at the most shit time. But I was always yours. No matter where I went. No matter who talked like they were mine, they never were. I am here with you because I want to be. I got that book and wrote in it because I wanted you to be free. I always wanted that. I always wanted you. Now we have an opportunity. I have an opportunity to fix my mistakes. But you also have opportunities to speak freely with me. I won't run. I won't throw things. I will stay right where you are. We will talk. We will heal. Heal the trust that has been severely crushed between us. When I watched you walk out at Taft's, I thought you were gone. When we went into the operating room and you weren't there. I had hoped that you had run away to hide until it was safe for you to call me later. Dyson and Tamsin went off the road and crashed. I had no idea where Kenzi was and went to the Dal to find Trick. He wasn't there and I was taken. I never knew where you were. Kenzi and I had to go to your apartment and I found your police record on the floor. I didn't know who had you or if it was your choice to leave and never tell me". Bo was leaning forward again. She held the doctor's eyes the whole time she was talking.

"Thank you for freeing me. But I am still not sure that I want to be your mate. What will change for us? Kenzi may have warmed up to me, but we are not friends. Dyson looks at me like he can't wait for me to die. He talks like he's never going to back down. How do I know you won't ever give into his feelings or your own for him again? Trick? No feelings there from me. I'm not that same Lauren, Bo. I won't put up with shit. I won't put up with whispers. I won't put up with disrespect. Even when it's you doing it". The doctor shook her head. Just thinking of all that again is upsetting her. She was taken by the Dark because she had been left out there on her own. When she talked to Dyson, she knew he was back with Bo because he thought Lauren was just a rival and not Bo's ex.

"I haven't been around them, Lauren. I don't know where their heads are at. Kenzi came to me saying they all think that you are dying. I had to come and make sure even though my gut was telling me it wasn't true. I know about your conversation with Dyson. I know it got heated. But he has no say in what I do. Or who I do it with. Kenzi seemed more concerned about you with no backroom conspiracy behind her concerns. Trick seemed impressed that we are mates. If it's true what he said about him and my grandmother's succubus making him her mate, then there is nothing they can say to make you feel inferior again. They won't say those things because I will drain them before they ever speak or touch you. I won't bring them back either". Bo stood and walked over to the Doctor. She held her hand out to the woman and Lauren hesitated before taking it. "Let's get something to eat and some air".

The Dal

"Have you heard from Bo?". Kenzi asked.

"Not since they left here last". Trick replied.

"Is Lauren alright?". Kenzi asked.

"That almost sounded sincere, Kenzi. Yes, she's alright". Trick replied again. He's not about to give away more than he needs to. If Lauren is Bo's mate because of her Succubus, things are going to get intense in the colony. While powerful in his own right, being Isabeau's mate helped Trick too. His blood seemed to do more. It seemed to be more. While he's never seen a Fae mate with a human, Lou Ann falling for a human didn't change that human like he's almost certain Bo has changed Lauren. There was no darkness with him and Isabeau. Not even when Aife was born. He will keep his mouth shut until he can talk to the blonde himself. He knows she's going to have a lot of questions and for once, he's going to need to answer them. He's never had private moments with Bo's Succubus. Lauren had seen her in full bloom before that day she brought Dyson back to life. That one is dangerous for everyone that doesn't like Lauren or tries to do her harm.

"Has Dyson come back yet?". Kenzi asked.

"He hasn't. I'm assuming he's gone to have someone look at his arm. He can't shift with a bad arm. He would be a sitting duck for his enemies." Trick poured Kenzi another drink.

"We have a shit fest coming, Trick. He's still aiming for Bo. He was dumb enough to confront Lauren with his plans and got his ass kicked. I don't know what exactly is going on with Lauren, but it sounds like she's more than Bo's mate". Kenzi smiled as her food arrived.

"I know what's coming. I just don't know how to try and stop any of it. Dyson can't help his nature. He'll always want Bo. But we have an even bigger issue with that. You may as well know as Bo's human. Aife is alive and well". Trick confessed. Even though he knows it could come back and bite him in the ass.

"Shit". Kenzi bit into her food.

"It's different this time. Bo knows about it and she's been at the Dark Fae compound all night". Trins handed Kenzi some napkins.

"So, we got Bo, Lauren, Dyson and Aife out there? Shit, I should have stayed home.". Kenzi shook her head. She wishes she was at the club house, dead asleep from a night of drinking with Bo. But Bo had left home to try and get Lauren back. She's not sure the woman will ever live with her again. Trick seems to be on the up and up but he's always seemed that way. Dyson will show when he shows. Lauren kicking his ass has to have humiliated him. Especially if and when Bo sees him.

Dark Compound.

"I don't want you here". The Morrigan seethed.

"I'm Dark Fae, aren't I? Who belongs here more than I do?". Aife laughed.

"I tore up your contract years ago. Stop telling people that lie". The Morrigan rolled her eyes. She had been on babysitting a Succubus duties for hours. She didn't ask to be either but the succubus walked into her office and had never left. Not even after she wiped out her liquor bar. Then had the audacity to send someone to buy more. "There's a whole ass Dal Riata that you could be depleting of liquor".

"I don't want to see daddy right now. I need to plot and plan my next move. Now go and get me another bottle". Aife threw an empty one at the Morrigan and she caught it in her hand and watched as it melted.

Kenzi

Kenzi had gone to the ladies room when her phone beeped. "Take our cases. Don't slouch, Kenzi. I need the money. I will contact you again, when I'm ready to".

"Well, Bo isn't coming home anytime soon." Kenzi ate her food and turned to people watch. Maybe she will find a new client. It will probably be better than anything she could find on tv.

Hale and Dyson

"I warned you man. You keep poking the bear and it will finally bite". Hale watched Dyson trying to heal his arm. He was rubbing potion after potion on it. None of them worked.

"All I did was go to Lauren and tell her to be true to her own word. That she and Bo are over. Had she just listened to me, none of this would be happening". The wolf growled.

"Bo is Lauren's choice, Dyson. They just broke up. Can you honestly tell me that your ex's never stand another chance with you? The ones that are still alive, that is. Mate or not, you have a thicker black book than any Succubus could own". Hale replied.

"Lauren broke up with Bo. Even when she found her at Taft's and Evony's, she rejected her. She doesn't deserve Bo. I went on trains, and everywhere else looking for that succubus. She should be mine, not hers". Dyson finally took a seat and drank some beer.

"You have thirty minutes to try the rest of the potions to see if they work. After that, get out of my house. I won't have you turning this place into a playboy pad while you try to heal". Hale walked out of the room.

Bo and Lauren

The women sat eating. Bo wanted to talk but it was more important to watch Lauren actually eat something. Besides, it gives her a chance to collect her thoughts. To think of what she can say or do to get Lauren to give her a chance to date again. They are mates because of the book but she wants them to be mates because it is what Lauren wants or will want too.

They ordered some room service and were sitting at a table on the balcony. Bo took a few bites and looked out over the city. It is gorgeous and nice out. She grabbed her wine glass and took a few sips to wash her food down and dug in again.

Lauren ate with the same pace as Bo. She dug into bite after bite. She tried to focus on eating but her mind was racing as much as Bo's is. The woman looks terribly shy and uncomfortable. But they are doing something new. Sitting and thinking of what to say and do. It is certainly new for Bo. She looks uncomfortable but she doesn't look like she's ready to run off. She did text someone and then set her phone on a table far behind them.

"More wine?". Bo asked.

"Yes, please". Lauren held her almost empty glass up.

Bo nodded and filled it up. She shook the bottle to show the doctor that was the last of it.

They finished their meals. Bo rolled the cart and dirty dishes to the hallway and returned to the balcony.

"I think we should get going. We can't stay here. It would look pushy and I don't want that". Bo spoke softly.

"There are two rooms here. It is late and I booked it for overnight at least." Lauren stood and walked inside. Taking in the entire area, she walked over and picked up her bag. "I'll take this room".

"I don't think I can do this, Lauren. I want you too bad to be able to sleep in a hotel with you just across the hall." Bo backed her back up to the nearest wall.

"You can leave. I'll stay here. I am not going to waste money and a big bed for nothing". Lauren half smiled and walked to get a glass of water.

Bo slammed her eyes shut. It was like watching a porn video in her earlier days. She was completely aroused and alone. But here she is completely aroused and not alone. The blonde is right. If they are going to move forward, Bo has to learn how to control herself. She can do it. It is no different than that night that Lauren slept in her arms. Warm with a tasty scent.

Lauren walked by and Bo lost it. She fell to the floor and watched her walk into her room and closed the door. She bowed her head when she heard the door click. She locked herself in.

"You don't trust me". Bo's eyes turned blue and tears fell.

Lauren stood in the mirror and her eyes changed colors. She knows what it means. Bo is hurting. But the doctor is hurting too. She meant what she said about not being that same Lauren anymore.

For months she had been on the run. Giving fake names to every stranger she had to encounter. In restrooms. In back alleys. She had to pretend she was someone else, yet again. While she will never go under Karen Beattie again, she will never be that Laure again either. It's not so much anger as it is smarts. She was dumb to think her relationship with Bo would bring respect from the Fae. Hell the Morrigan doesn't even respect her. She just knows she can use her to get to Bo. Nobody will use her to get to Bo. Not even Bo.

She meant what she said about not being sure she wants to be Bo's mate. While there is nothing she can do about it without damaging more lives, she can work on what she can do with it.

She will shower and sleep on it. Morning may not come with answers but there isn't one answer that will solve all of their problems. Bo's life comes with people the doctor doesn't care to have to encounter again. Something Bo didn't exactly point out either. They still have eyes. They will probably roll seeing her with Bo again. Should they be Bo and Lauren or Lauren and Bo, again.

TBC