My A/N: Finally found the time to finish this chapter. This chapter was somewhat inspired by Breakway by Avril Lavigne. I don't know why. The song came on the other night and just made me type the rest of this chapter so I hope you guys enjoy it!
Disclaimer: Don't own Fairy Tail.
Lucy's POV
My head was spinning so fast, like I was permanently trapped on a tilt-a-whirl. I had come home from shopping with Levy only to find a very irate Natsu. Apparently Lisanna told him about my past meetings with her, albeit twisting the truth surrounding them. Then Natsu stormed out only to be apprehended by the cops and taken away. That was the endgame anyway, so why did my heart hurt so much? That was a stupid question; I already knew why. I was falling for that idiot; that stupid, smug yet kind, attractive and charming man.
"Quite a stupid mess you've made for yourself, Lucy," I said to myself, turning to the mirror to my left. The disheveled, broken, weak woman staring back at me honestly frightened me. I didn't recognize myself. I didn't know who I was anymore, nor did I know how to help Natsu. One thing was for certain though; Lisanna was going to pay.
Running to my room, I quickly threw on a pair of black skinny jeans, a black tank top, my favorite leather jacket and some black boots. Shoving some boxes in my closet to the side, I typed the code into the safe that I had hidden away. Opening it, I grabbed the pistol I kept with me for protection and headed for the door. Grabbing my keys, I barreled out the door to my car, trying to contain the rising rage within me.
After a while, I arrived at the old Strauss house. I felt the anger rising again as I walked closer to it. I had parked on the other block just in case someone was keeping a lookout. Stomping up to the back entrance, I quickly kicked the decrepit door in, gripping the pistol at my side.
"Lisanna! Get your ass out here, NOW!" I shouted, my voice cracking purely from the decibel I was shouting at. A few seconds passed before I heard the sound of footsteps coming up the stairs. My brows immediately furrowed, my lip beginning to quiver in anger as the short, white-haired woman approached.
"Ah, Lucy, I can only imagine you're here about Natsu? Let's just say I meant what I said, and I solved the problem you created in the first place," Lisanna chuckled slightly as she spoke. I could feel my fists clenching at my side. Was she serious? She comes in and ruins everything and then acts like I should be thanking her? Not even hesitating, I yanked the pistol from my side, aiming it squarely at Lisanna's forehead.
"You ruined everything! I understand that I came to you first but I came up with a different plan to help Natsu, but you just had to insert yourself as you always do. You were the same when we were kids, only difference now is that you're a scum criminal and a liar," I shouted at her, my voice dripping with venom. Lisanna didn't react to the gun as she simply crossed her arms.
"I solved your problem. Your sole mission was to put Natsu away, right? Well mission accomplished! I could also tell you were falling for him, and as someone who has cared about you before, and as someone who has loved him before, I was protecting you from getting hurt like I did," Lisanna said, looking off to the side as if she was lost in thought.
"Regardless, I told you that our partnership was done, and whatever feelings I have for Natsu are none of your concern. You destroyed everything I had been working to build. I should've never involved you. Have your vendetta with Natsu, but stop dragging me into your decade old, mediocre grudge. This bullshit ends today!" I clocked the pistol, my finger resting on the trigger.
"So little cop Lucy is going to actually take an unarmed persons life?" Lisanna questioned, smiling slightly.
"I'm not a cop anymore, so I don't really care what happens to you now," I replied, my finger resting shakily on the trigger still. I saw Lisanna's smile disappear as she looked at me, a sense of worry now swimming in her eyes.
"You don't have it in you," Lisanna said, her voice calm but her gaze filled with fear. Tears rolled down my cheeks as my hand was visibly shaking now, my finger still resting on the trigger.
"If you kill me, then you're no better than the rest of us 'criminal scum' that you seem to despise so much," Lisanna pointed out. My mind was suddenly brought back to the night I sat out on the dock with Natsu…
"Crime was never a life I wanted, but it was something I was good at. Once you go down that slippery slope, it's damn near impossible to dig yourself out," Natsu had said.
His voice was running through my head, telling me not to do this. Tears were actively streaming down my face as I lowered the pistol, visibly shaking as I holstered it back to my hip. What was I doing? Who had I become? I had come here to… kill someone; I was becoming the very person I had sworn to protect the innocent from.
"I… I shouldn't have come here," Was all I said as I bolted out the door, rubbing the tears from my cheeks. Lisanna didn't bother following me as I ran down the street back to my car. As I ran down the street, raindrops began to fall from the sky, as if the sky was crying with me. Arriving back at my car, I quickly got in and rested my head against the steering wheel, trying to compose myself for a moment.
"Oh Natsu, I wish I could just hear your voice, that you could tell me what to do," I said as I thought about the pink-haired man. My mind couldn't stop replaying that moment when he was taken away in the police cruiser, when I had told him that I loved him. I don't know why I said it, but now that I had, I had pondered on whether it was true. My feelings for Natsu definitely went beyond friendship, but what now? He had been taken into custody, and Lisanna had essentially burnt down the bridge between me and him. I could go visit him, but he would most likely refuse to see me.
"If I can't see him, then maybe I can help him," I said to myself as I was pondering a plan. Grabbing my phone, I dialed Erza's number. After a few minutes, she answered the phone.
"Erza, listen. Natsu was taken into custody, and I need you to ask Jellal to take his case and be his lawyer. Jellal has the best relationship with the city judges and I know he can make it so Natsu serves a lighter sentence," I pleaded to the redhead.
"I'll see what I can do, I'll keep you posted," Erza replied as she hung up the phone. I clutched my hands together, hoping that she could convince Jellal to take his case. After I had composed myself, I decided to drive home. As I got back to the house, I had come to conclusion to write Natsu a letter, in hopes that if Jellal took the case then he could take the letter to Natsu for me.
Sitting at my desk, I began to write; Dear Natsu….
Sometime in the evening, I had finished composing my letter. Checking my phone, my heart skipped a beat as I saw a text from Erza, telling me that Jellal would take the case. I replied back to her, asking if Jellal could come pick up my letter before he went to meet with Natsu. Shutting off my phone. I rested my head on the edge of the couch, staring at the ceiling as images of Natsu raced through my mind.
"I really hope you're okay, Natsu," I whispered to myself.
Natsu's POV
Here I was, sitting alone in a prison cell while I awaited my impending court date that would decide my future. For the past three nights since my arrest, all I had done was stare at the cement wall that stood between me and the world outside. I felt broken, I felt empty. Lucy had betrayed me, just as Lisanna had before her. I know I didn't have much experience in love, but I had hoped Lucy had been different. Yet despite my anger, she was the only person I wanted to see. As I sat here alone, all I wanted to do was hear her voice. For her to tell me that everything was going to be okay. I wanted her arms wrapped around me as she buried her head in my chest, just as she always had.
"My life is such a fucking disaster," I sighed as I flopped back on my bed.
"Dragneel!" I sat up as I saw one of the guards approaching.
"What?" I asked, my voice hollow as I looked at the cell door.
"Come with me, someone is here to see you," The guard said as he opened the cell door. Handcuffing me as a precaution, the guard led me down the hall to an empty room.
"Sit, they will be in shortly," The guard said as he exited the room, standing in the hall to keep watch. Who possibly had come to see me? Few people knew of my existence, let alone what prison I was being held in. After a few moments, a man with blue hair walked in. He was dressed in a suit and carried a file with him.
"Good evening, Mr. Dragneel, my name is Jellal Fernandes, and I have to decided to take your case at the behest of Ms. Heartfilia," Jellal said, taking a seat across from me. My eyes widened a bit at the mention of Lucy.
"Lucy asked you to be my lawyer?" I questioned, my voice cracking slightly.
"That is correct. I have a good relationship with the judge and jury on this case, and I am confident I can get you a lighter sentence, so she enlisted my services," Jellal explained. I said nothing, but some small part of me couldn't help feeling happy that Lucy was looking out for me, despite everything I had said to her.
"In fact, she asked me to deliver this to you. She said she didn't think you would see her, so she wrote this instead," Jellal handed me a letter. I took it in my hand, staring at it in silence.
"I'll give you a moment to read it while I go get some coffee," Jellal said as he stood up and exited the room. Sighing to myself, I decided to open the letter.
Dear Natsu,
I'm not really sure what I want to say, or what I could even say. So much has happened since you walked into my life, and it's honestly been a rollercoaster since then. So I guess I will start from the beginning. When I first took the assignment to infiltrate your drug ring, I had only one goal and that was to take you down at any cost. I had always been told that you were the most dangerous, ruthless criminal that roamed our city, and I was confident that I could stop you. At first, I couldn't stand you. You were arrogant, ruthless and annoyingly cunning, but yet I still couldn't deny the draw between us. Then I had the sex dream about you, which was awkward, but I can't deny that it happened. Even though you still annoyed me, I couldn't deny your physical attractiveness. Then you opened up to me that night we had the warehouse party, and I began to see the man beneath the monster, but I was still determined to stick to my mission. So I began working with Lisanna, before I knew who you truly were, and she was buying the product from me. We had come up with a plan to take you down, and I thought it was a good idea at the time. Then came my father's illness and death, and despite you knowing that I was a cop and that I was lying to you, you accompanied me anyway. My father called you a good man, and he has never called any man that's been a part of my life 'good' before. So I truly started to believe you were a good man. That's when I came to the resolve that instead of taking you down, you simply just needed a friend to guide you in the right direction. When you said you became a criminal out of desperation but that you never truly wanted it, I finally saw the good man that you were, and still are. Then you moved in with me and ceased your criminal undertakings and we truly began to bond. To be honest, I have never been happier until you came to live with me. We had so much fun and I truly enjoyed your company, and I found myself truly falling for you. After pondering it, I meant it when I shouted that I loved you the other night. I know things are messy and complicated but I do love you, Natsu. I am so very sorry for ever working with Lisanna in the first place, and I'm sorry that I never told you about it sooner, I was just scared. Scared that you would hate me or even leave. I asked Jellal to take your case so I hope that he can get you a better sentence. You are a good man, Natsu, and I truly hope you never forget that.
If this letter reaches you, then I truly hope you know that I'm always on your side. I love you, and I hope I can see you soon.
Stay safe,
Lucy.
Tears had welled up in my eyes as I finished reading the letter. Lucy did love me, and I should've seen everything she had done to help me rather than blaming her for everything with Lisanna. Lisanna had probably orchestrated most of it anyway, and let Lucy take the fall so it would ruin things between me and her.
"I trust you've finished reading it by now?" Jellal asked as he entered the room again. I nodded as I folded the letter up and slid it inside my jumpsuit.
"Before we talk about my case, can I ask you a favor?" I asked, looking at the blue haired man.
"And what would that be?" Jellal asked as he took a sip of his coffee.
"Do you have something I could write a little something back to Lucy? And that you made sure she got it?" I begged, giving him the most earnest look I could.
"Technically I'm not supposed to, but since Lucy is a good friend of my wife, I will allow it," Jellal said as he reached inside the file, grabbing a blank piece of paper. He slid it over to me and sat a pen down as well.
"I'll give you 10 minutes," Jellal said, taking out his phone and he began scrolling through it.
"Thank you," I said before I began to write.
Lucy's POV
I had just finished eating dinner and finishing some laundry when I heard a knock on the door. Walking over to it, I glanced through the peephole, feeling relieved when I saw Jellal standing out there.
"Good evening, Jellal," I said as I opened the door.
"Hey, Lucy," He replied, giving me a soft smile.
"Did you see Natsu today?" I asked. He nodded before reaching into his bag and handing me a letter.
"He asked me to give this to you. I hope it brings you some comfort," Jellal said, before turning to walk away.
"Thank you for everything, truly," I said. Jellal said nothing, but he did give me a smile before walking off to the staircase. Closing the door, I clutched the letter close to my chest, a bit nervous about opening it.
"Be brave, Lucy," I said to myself. Taking a deep breath, I sat down at the table and opened the letter.
Lucy,
I got your letter and I just wanted to say thank you for getting Jellal to take my case. I don't have much time to write and I'm not great with words so I will make this quick. I forgive you for working with Lisanna and I am sorry for blowing up like I did. You've done so much for me and in the heat of the moment, I forgot how much of a friend you've been to me. So thank you, thank you so much for everything. I also hope that I get to see you soon too. And… I love you too.
Don't miss me too much ;)
Natsu
My heart nearly stopped at that last sentence. Natsu loved me too, and he genuinely meant it. Holding the letter close to my heart, a few tears rolled down my face, because for the first time since he got arrested, I felt close to Natsu again.
And that's a wrap! Hope you guys enjoyed! See you soon for the next chapter!
