Forfeited Spirit

Disclaimer:

Don't own anything! All rights on this manga/anime/games and all it's characters belong to Tachibana Koushi.

One thing up front. I consider this to be the darkest Origami chapter. In a psychological sense. Not a sexual one. Excluding the Halloween special in Everdark. If you can't handle it I advise you not to read this. Also this loses a bit of an impact since what I wrote before this chapter chronologically comes after this one. So it kind of spoiled the meaning of this ending. But you will see why I wanted to upload a "nice" chapter first. Feel free to hate or love me for this chapter. Or be confused. I enjoyed it. More to that in the A/N at the end if you are interested why this is how it is. But it is a long read.

By the way as previously always you need to have watched all first 3 seasons. I know there is a fourth season but I will not use it here. At this point I haven't even analysed everything there yet. But this story will end with the end of season 3. As did the previous chapter already!

What is this?

How could this happen?

This can't be

I... I am...

I am the One...

But that is impossible...

I am Justice

I am the Light

Was I the one who did it?

The one that killed my parents?

But why?

For something as stupid as revenge

I wanted to save Humanity

The greatest Sin of mankind

I gave up my Soul

God gave me Wings

I used what I despised the most

I betrayed Shidou

I even made a pact with the Devil

I forced her to show me the way

But she gave me the choice

She knew

The choice to live in peace or to continue on the path

The path she would open for me

She even told me I can't change what happened

She warned me

I didn't listen

I didn't want to listen

Although I should have

Now I payed the price

The bloody price

And I don't deserve salvation

I am now drowning in Darkness

Someone please save me

I have lost myself

I don't know there to go anymore

An endless void

Shidou please help me

Where are you?

I am so scared

Scared of myself

Of what I did

I never knew

That this is what I would become

I should have stayed blind

I need you now more than ever

Tell me that this isn't true

You are the only Light that is left in me

The only thing worth living for

And dying for

If not even you can help me

My Light won't shine again

And although I have no right to ask you of this

I want to be saved

I am the Devil

I am the Angel

God chose this for me

Salvation

Is it a mere fantasy at this point?

But even if you were to save me...

Would you ever be able to love me?

Imperfect as I am?

A Sould lost in Twilight

With one last Decision left

Will I see the Light again

Or live on in Darkness for all Eternity?

I Forfeit my Soul to Destiny

For my Spirit is not able anymore

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A/N:

I love Origami. Let that be known. Which is why I wanted to write this the way that I did. If you like it or not. In my opinion this is my best Silverlights-chapter. No question. Emotionally this is scarring everytime I think of it. I think I have captured this Light and Darkness in her Heart as best as I could. Writing this made me think once again about how crushing it must feel to find out that you are the one that destroyed everything that you love. And never knew it. An infinite amount of pain I could never imagine. In this version of my story Origami gets together with Shidou as seen in the previous chapter. And I am very happy for her. For all that are taking the time to read what I am writing here. Thank you for taking your time to do it. It was really sad to do it. Every time I read this and write in it and polish it makes me sad. But also very nice to know how it ends. At least in this fictitious scenario.