My mother was, of course, supportive of my idea to have a reunion. She was, however, concerned at how Kriss and my father would react to the idea. We agreed that it needed to come from her and I needed to pretend it wasn't my idea as it would make Kriss jealous. She knew my heart didn't belong to her, but she also knew she was stuck in her position as Princess- no royal had ever gotten a divorce. This was unfortunate for Maxon, but Kriss wasn't his biggest hurdle. He knew his father would be the hardest to convince, he didn't like most of the girls from the selection, most of all America. If he knew the idea for a reunion came from me I'd surely be in for another beating- another reason why I needed my mother to broach the subject with him.

I had been summoned to my father's office, I hadn't been informed what it was about, but assumed that it had something to do with the reunion I had gotten mother to propose. Father didn't seem too keen on the idea, he even thought that it was because I wanted to see America again, which he was of course correct about but I denied. Mother persisted and he eventually agreed to having the reunion. Mother argued it would look good for us to hold the reunion as it showed that there was no animosity between us and them. In truth, Kriss hadn't seen most of the girls since our wedding, apart from Elise but that was so that we could build stronger relations with New Asia. I was surprised, I thought she might have kept in contact with more of them, but she only seemed to be interested in her friends from before the selection. It was strange, but who was I to judge- I was still hung up on a girl I'd abandoned over two years ago.

I could tell father wasn't very happy at the idea of having the girls from the selection back at the palace, and my inference was only confirmed later when he punished me for it. I returned back to my room afterwards to clean myself up. I still hadn't told Kriss about it, she was too friendly with my father and it felt too awkward to tell her. I was reminded of how America found out about my issues with my father, and I couldn't help the smile that appeared on my face as I cleaned my wounds. Once I was finished I turned the radio on to distract myself, and of course it was one of America's new songs that came on the radio. My smile grew and I turned up the volume on the radio and focused on the song she was singing.

Everybody's waiting on me to see what I can do

Everybody's talking about it

I can hear the whispers in the room

But you say go slow, go slow

Take all the time you need

Don't you know, yeah you know

It's in you that I believe

And so I, I never want to let you down

You live so deep in the heart of me

I just need to tell you now

All I want to do is make you proud

All I want to do is make you proud

I can't avoid the disappointments

They happen to everyone

But it's in your eyes where I

Find the strength to keep me strong

When you say go slow, go slow

Please don't forget to breathe

Yeah, you know in this home

Can never be afraid to dream

Never be afraid to dream

And so I, I never want to let you down

You live so deep in the heart of me

I just need to tell you now

All I want to do is make you proud

And even when I'm all alone

I can hear your voice inside of me

More than anything right now

All I want to do is make you proud

Proud

And so I, I'm never gonna let you down

You know every little part of me

And as the crowd gathers round

All I wanna do is make you proud

I never wanna let you down

You live so deep in the heart of me

I just need to tell you now

All I want do is make you proud

Proud

My heart clenched as I listened to the song. I could hear the emotion in her voice as she sang. I instantly knew the song was about her father. I felt so guilty that I hadn't even thought about the passing of her father in years. She must be hurting so badly. And to think that I made that hurt worse by rejecting her and sending her away. The song really showed me how she was feeling, she was under a lot of pressure to do great things after the selection, or to even do anything as now whatever she did would be under scrutiny. I knew that whatever she did she would just want her dad to be proud, he was always so supportive of her. The few times that I met him he really did seem like a wonderful man, nothing at all like my father. I couldn't help but draw comparisons between America's father and my own, hers being so kind and caring and mine being so heartless and brutal. My heart ached for America and the anguish she must have gone through and was probably still going through. There was nothing more that I wanted to do than comfort her and hold her in my arms. I couldn't wait to see her when the reunion finally came around, I hoped she would come and talk to me. Only time would tell how she would react to seeing me, but my god did I want her to want to see me and react to me positively. I didn't have much hope, but I was fine with imaging the different scenarios of what it would be like to see her again, as an opportunity to was finally palpable. All that was left to do was hope she accepts the invitation and wait for the rest of her album to be released. The next few weeks were certainly going to be interesting.


Song is Proud by Lea Michele, all credits go to her for writing such an amazing song!

Not really sure if I did this one justice but I've had this chapter stuck in my head for weeks now- it's just been a little difficult to write lol. Anyways, the reunion will hopefully be soon so we'll be getting Maxon and America interactions soon!

Anyways, thank you so much for reading and hopefully the next chapter will be up soon! In the meantime you should defo check out my other ongoing story Left in the Darkness about Grey's Anatomy.

Love you all so much,

girlinabar xxx