Baking is harder than cooking. That's what Tsuna had thought. Unlike cooking[which can use your guts to find the right taste ] baking need an exact proportion or else, it would be disastrous.

That's why he needs time to make the pudding. He didn't want to disappoint her. When there is someone who wouldn't look at him just like the people in his hometown. ( although he had a feeling that she lied a lot to him. Nonetheless, it's fine. People lied a lot, Even himself.)

Failure

No good

Disappointment

Now that he has friends, life become somehow bearable. Their words were no longer that hurtful. He could smile and laugh. He is no longer lonely.

He is not alone.

"But, are sure?"

"Are you sure that they would stay by your side forever?"

"Sooner or later, they would leave you... Whether willingly or not."

'Shut up...'

"Pfft...you knew in your heart. Your existence just gives them more harm than good."

'Of course...'

Of course, he knew... He didn't blind. That's why he's scared.

.

He really is.


"Good afternoon class!! Let's enjoy our cooking class today!! Today, we would make some basic Japanese diet. Reminder for Gokudera-Kun. Please do not burn this room. Sensei would appreciate it." The octopus waving his tentacles.

The class except for Karma, sweatdrops. They still remembered the pillar of fire that Gokudera had created in the latest home cooking class. No one knew how he made it. They didn't use much oil in their dishes last time! Some even thought that he was summoning a demon or something!

Gokudera tch. It's not like he wants to disgrace himself in front of jyuudaime. He just thought that he could do it last time. He too wants to make some dishes to appreciate all the things that jyuudaime had done for him.

Furthermore, it's his job as his right-hand man to support him. How could he supports him when he couldn't take care of himself?

"Now, before we start... I want you to create a group of 3-4 people while I'm writing the recipe on the board." In a blink of an eye, the entire instructions of the said dish had been written on the blackboard ( with doodles! of the ingredients and himself!)

Without further ado, the three became a team. Sugino joins Nagisa. As others start to create their groups, Tsuna finds out that Karma-Kun didn't try to join anyone. For some reason, Karma-Kun looks lonely. Unwanted... Just like him.

No. It's different. Unlike him, karma-Kun just chooses to not join.

Still, that doesn't mean that Tsuna wants him to distance himself from his classmates. Everyone needs at least one company. Even the crowd hater like Hibari-san has some companies. Such as the discipline committee and... Us.

Yeah. Us. Even though Hibari-san is frightening, he is still a part of his world. They fight against each other and vice versa. When he is in a pinch, Hibari-san was there. Everyone was there. So, Tsuna too wants to do something for everyone. Just like how everyone supports his useless self. Even for a bit.

'So what? Just ignore him. You are just dame Tsuna. You can do nothing.'

However, just like a snake, the words slither into his mind. Darkening his thoughts with its (oh so sweet) voice.

' I knew you want to help him. I really do.'

'But what can a good for nothing like you can do?'

'You should do nothing and let the other do it.'

'It's for everyone's good sake '

As the voice goes on, Tsuna resolve started diminishing. The thought of helping Karma started to crumble. A chain starts to shackle his resolution. From one to two. Then the chains multiple.

'That's right...'

'I shouldn't...'

"Jyuudaime?"

But with one word,( full of care and worries) the dark chains that just shackled him immediately disintegrated.

'Eh? What am l just thinking about?'

'Ah, That's right, karma-Kun!'

"Are you okay, tsuna?" Yamamoto asked him with a hint of concern. Tsuna just shakes his head and walked towards Karma.

Even though karma didn't want to join, at least the thought that he didn't being ignored would please him. Well, at least based on his experience.

The dark thought was immediately been forgotten.

Tsuna didn't realise that just a moment ago, a dark and murky aura was surrounding him. Dimming his eyes.

The two guardians watch their sky as he walks away with a frown on their faces.


Karma already gets some gist that his classmates would not want to be near him.

Who would when he used such a dirty and mean assassination? Such naive children, they are. He used to be like that too, easy to be deceived by some third rate sweet words.

Still, it's in the past. Now? He had opened up his eyes and started to see reality. Thanks to that dead teacher. Actually, does he even deserve to be called as a teacher? Do the people with that title deserve it?

He looked at the octopus. Eyes glimmer with the intent of killing. Is this being deserving such a title?

He can't wait to dethrone him from it. The hopeless face that that being would show. Miserable and all. It's given him a shudder.

"Etto... A...ano..."

A soft voice cut him from his musing.

'This voice...' " chibi-Kun?"

The brunette gasped." Ci...Chibi?!"

"Well, it's not like you introduce yourself last time I check." He grinned.

"Neither are you..." He said in low volume. Grimacing.

'How amusing.' He thought. To think that the boy he had helped is his classmates. Was he too focused on his assassination that he started to ignore his surroundings?

'Welp, that's not good...'

Suddenly, someone hugs him with one hand around his shoulder. "I didn't know you knew him, Tsuna!" The boy laughed.

"Yeah...something happened and he help me..." Chibi ( It's Tsuna!!!) Gave him a shaky smile. Glancing at anything other than the hugger.

The hugger still smiling but karma knew that it's a fake. 'He's good...'

From his experience with some delinquents, he knew that Someone like him is dangerous and gave the most satisfying fights than any other. Although, not many since most of them only have muscle as a brain.

And it looks like the brunette thought so too. Judging by the way the brunette tried to look at his feet.

From the looks, the hugger was dissatisfied with the shrimp. Is it because he didn't tell him the incident?

Should he save him again?

"So, what do you want?"

The brunette was startled by his voice and immediately said. " wou... Would you like to join our group? It's okay if you didn't want to..."

Wow... How considered. He offered him choices. Whether out of kindness or low self-esteem."Well, fine by me. But I would say this first, I don't like cooking."

The hugger, (he forget for a moment about him) laughed. "It's fine! By the way, I'm Yamamoto Takeshi and the one who is glaring at you is Gokudera Hayato. Nice to meet you."

Wait, glaring? Huh... He didn't realise it.

Somehow, he became wary of him.


Not long after that, Koro-sensei started to demonstrate how to cook the dishes to his students. However, a minute later the students started to yell at him.

"How the heck that we were supposed to follow that!!!"

"We couldn't see a thing what you just did!!!"

"Please don't forget that we're just normal students!!! Sensei!!!"

Thus a second demonstration had been made.

Also, Gokudera accidentally creates another pillar out of the fire. This gave him another lecture from the octopus.


"Now that sensei has let us cook... "

Tsuna took a knife. " we should start to prepare it. And this time I will do it or else, we might have to starve." He gave them a sheepish smile.

"Fine by me" Yamamoto inform him.

"I'll follow whatever you wish jyuudaime."

Tsuna sweatdrop. He glanced at Karma. "It's okay if you didn't want to help out. We will still give you your portion."

He shrugged." As long as it is edible, I'm fine with it."


Tap tap tap.

Everyone stared at the brunette's group.

Tap tap tap...

"Yamamoto-Kun, please cut those vegetables into a bite-sized"

"On it!" Yamamoto presently cut the vegetables swiftly and skillfully.

"Gokudera-Kun, please increase the water for a bit or else the rice would be uncooked."

"Understood, jyuudaime! I'll handle this immediately."

Everyone was speechless. The way they do all the work look professional. Just like the chef on the tv! How could the miso soup look that delicious? The aroma, the colour and the texture... It looks perfect!

"What are you staring at?! Don't you have other things to do?!" Gokudera yelled at them.

Somehow the atmosphere felt like they were working with a professional chef instead. It's felt intense! Especially with Gokudera yelling at them to do their work.

Koro-sensei even already eagerly prepared his tableware!!!

He even prepared it for Karasuma-sensei and asked him to join!! How shameless!!

"Who's soup is burning??" Yamamoto asked the class. They immediately focus back on the task.


The stare was killing him. He didn't get used to all the attention he received now. Especially with koro-sensei's demanding stare. Tsuna could even hear his thoughts.

"Give me. Give me. Give me. Give me.!"

Just like a dog who wants to be fed.

Also...

"Umm... Sensei... What are the decorations for? It's just handmade food." Nagisa bravely asked him.

Thanks Nagisa for asking him. Tsuna and the others also want to know the answer.

"What are you talking about?! I just adjust this room based on the food! It's not that a big deal!"

Yeah. Right. Decorated an old room until it changed into a luxury room within 10 minutes. IS NOT a big deal.

Also, Koro-sensei was broke...where did he get the money for this? Karma knew this. He found the octopus's wallet on his desk.

Abruptly, Karma discovers an opportunity to infuriate him. With a wicked smile, he said "Sensei~ aren't you shameful? Asking for our group food portion ~ Furthermore, making Tsuna uncomfortable with all of this. I thought as a teacher, you should care about your student's opinions??"

Koro-sensei sweatdrop. "That... That..."

"Asking food at your students and gave pressure on him... Such an adult you are~~" Karma keeps taunting him with a nasty smile.

"A fun and carefree assassination. Is feeding you also a part of it?"

At this point, Koro-sensei merely standstill.

He couldn't fight back. If he does it, he would make a terrible image in front of them. Karma knew this. He knew this would weaken his mentality. The method is terrible but who cares?

To achieve what you want, even terrible deeds are needed to be done.

"Karma-Kun...enough."

Karma looks at Tsuna. His eyes widened for a bit.

He glanced at the octopus. The octopus also looking at Tsuna.

"I'm sorry sensei... May I go to the restroom?" He gave him a shaky smile.

"Sure..." Koro-sensei replied.

Gokudera and Yamamoto gave the brunette a concerned look. But Tsuna immediately left them while saying. "You guys can enjoy the meals."

The atmosphere became heavy after that.

In the next periods, Tsuna didn't come back.


Nagisa was worried. Tsuna-kun didn't come back after the 4th period. Not just that, karma-kun mood also worsen as time goes on. Each of the attempts that he made was easily broken down by koro-sensei.

It's only a matter of time until he became desperate.

Nagisa glances at Gokudera and Yamamoto. The two keep on watching either their phone or the door. Fidgeting from time to time like they want to leave this place. Maybe the only reason that they didn't leave yet was because of the message that Tsuna gave them?

Little did he know that Gokudera was actually watching the tracking device that they installed in their's and Tsuna's phones. That's the reason that they are still in the classroom. Tsuna didn't leave the building yet.

It's also the reason why koro-sensei didn't go to find him. He already knew that Tsuna is around the corner. The brunette seems to be shaken by something. So, he gave him time for himself to calm and sort of thing that plagued his mind.

Maybe the dark aura that he saw on the brunette was just a trick of his mind? Who knows.

While karma mind keeps on maddening as time goes on.


Karma would definitely kill that being. There's no way he would let that ' teacher ' keep on making fun of him and trampling his pride.

He bites his nail. What should he do? What kind of trick should he use?

There is must be some way...

There's must be something he could do to cut down that damn smile of his!

"Karma-kun... I think it's about time that you start to stop doing this by yourself. "

Karma glances at Nagisa.

Nagisa sweatdrop. In all of the places that he could be, Karma-kun choose to be on a tree near the hill. A dangerous place.

"As you know that Koro-sensei is not just any normal teacher. He would counter back every attempt that you made with something more ridiculous. So, you shouldn't... No. You can't fight by yourself. " He tried to reason him. Fighting alone is futile. With Karma-kun joining the team, they are chances to kill Koro-sensei would increase. That's why it's a waste to keep him doing everything alone.

'Not a normal teacher...' Karma reminded back of that day. The betrayal that he felt... The lies and the truth of the said lies. It's strangled him with anger that he had never felt before.

He wAs BeiNg AbANDoneD

It's maddening to the point that he would kill him even if it's meant to end his life.

That's right.

There IS another way.

Not long after that, the octopus came.

He didn't remember much but before he realised it, he was falling.

With a gun in his hand.


Tsuna didn't know what happened. Suddenly, everything felt suffocating. It's overwhelming him.

He felt bad.

He felt sad.

He felt mad.

In tenfold

It's kinda hard to breathe.

What happened to him? He never felt like this before.

He wants this to end. He didn't want to feel like this!

Abruptly a scene where Mukuro was being held in the vindice prison came to mind. He felt sad.

Then the future.

That's right... He killed a person...

He felt bad.

Then the Shimon and Spade incidents.

He felt mad and betrayed.

After that, the representative...

He didn't know what to feel at that time. His father nearly killed him. He fights against the people that he could trust.

But overall... He felt scared to lose the people that he started and has been cared for.

"The people around you keep in pain. "

"They keep falling into dangerous situations..."

' What with these voices??? It keeps talking in my head!!!!' Tsuna closes his ears with both hands. Hoping to not keep hearing it.

He got a feeling that if he keep on hearing it...

He would break.

"If only you are reliable..."

Tsuna closed his eyes and ears desperately.

"If only you're better..."

He hopes for the voice to be silent.

"If only you are never born..."

'Shut up!!'

"Then maybe..."

"KARMA-KUN!!!"

.

.

.

Tsuna eyes immediately opened up.

Since when he was behind the school?

Did he walk without realising it??

He looked around and saw Nagisa looking at the cliff with fearful eyes. His face was pale. Koro-sensei was also there but immediately disappeared.

Tsuna walked to Nagisa. He stares at the same view that Nagisa was seeing.

Karma-kun was there with koro-sensei. With a gun in his hand. Is it... Another assassination attempt?

Is taking life is fun for you?


After the fall, the words and the actions that Koro-sensei had done make him realise... That he was biased. He was unfair to him without trying to know him.

He just immediately assumed that every teacher was bad.

He should give him a chance before hating him.

Now, he felt silly with his actions.

Koro-sensei help him up. Nagisa was worried and he was quite surprised to see Tsuna. Did he come when he was falling?

But something is not right. Again, just like in the class and before.

There's a dark aura enveloping him. He thought it was just a trick of his eyes but now... He knew that that's not the case...

"Nee... Sensei... Is killing fun?" Tsuna said with hazy eyes. It looks disturbing. He didn't like that kind of look that Tsuna has right now.

A warm and hopeful eyes suit him more.

"If killing is fun... How about being killed? Is it fun...?"

"Tsu... Tsuna...? What are you talking about?" Nagisa asked worriedly.

Koro-sensei just silently observed him.

"What do you mean by fun assassination? Killing is bad, right?"

After all the silence, Koro-sensei finally said something. "It's based on the situation. In my case, to save the earth, you need to kill me. Sometimes to protect, you need to kill."

Tsuna went silent for a bit. Then suddenly, innocently, with empty eyes, he said.

"Then, for other happiness... I should die?"

Karma and Nagisa were horrified. Koro-sensei look shaken with the said question.

"Eh...wa... What am I saying...?" He looked troubled.

These words gave more questions than answers. Why would Tsuna ask that? Just now...he asked about killing and dying...

It's felt like he is not himself.

What's going on?

"I... I'm... Tired..." He mumbled, trembling.

"I...I'm scared..." He looked so lost.

"Re... Reborn... Everyone..." It's felt like he was seeing something.

They were stunned. Didn't know what to do. Should they come closer? But the murky and disturbing air that envelops him felt terrible. And it worsens.

"H...help..."

"Boss!!!"

"Jyuudaime!!!"

"Tsuna!!!"

Then, a calm wave surges around them. Tsuna started to stagger before losing consciousness.

But for sure...

His eyes were no longer dull.


Tsuna didn't know what he was saying to them. But, when he realised all the nonsense he had said, suddenly he became lost.

He didn't know what to do. His mind was hazy and heavy. He felt numb.

He felt sleepy...

If only he wouldn't wake up after this...

Wait.

No.

No.

He didn't want to sleep.

He is scared.

Re... Reborn!!

Everyone!!!

Please help me!!!

And then someone or somebody called him.

Suddenly, he felt calm.


Author note!!!

What happened to Tsuna?!

I hope it's not too fast and forceful.

You all must be weird with this development, right?

I'm too! LOL

Since I'm cutting down the past ch, so this ch is half of it.

Exam sucks!!! Screw it!!

Please comment and like!!! (。•̀ᴗ-)

English is not my language so sorry for the awkward way of using it.

No beta. I don't know where to find it or disturb them.

For hyper intuition. Tsuna usually does it unconsciously in the manga. So I'm going to follow that. Not like other fanfic ways where it is so obvious. And Tsuna when not fighting usually ignore it.

After all, it's only a gut feeling for him. Furthermore, Tsuna's mind is now in chaos. (Thanks to me) So he couldn't sort of his thoughts.

If you didn't accept it, fine by me. When I write this, I want to make character development. If Tsuna is already cool and awesome, then how could I write it. Right?