The day went by pretty slow after that, another mistake with Negan. For the whole day, I've been trying to avoid him, if I keep doing this, always kissing Negan back it's going to lead into something more.

After I backed away from the kiss, I knew Negan wanted to go further but he respected that I didn't want to go further since he is disgusted by any sexual violence, I better not tell him about my first kill which was caused from almost getting raped.

I watch out of the window as the sun goes down, I take a deep breath before walking out of my room, making sure to pick up my hidden weapons, my throwing knives and a hunting knife. Like an hour after leaving Negan's room, I had gone back to Sherry's room asking her to get a gun.

So I'm hoping she has one, it's not for me, it's for her. She needs some kind of protection since I'm not going to be there, no one is, she's on her own. I would love to go with her and leave this place for good but I can't leave Eugene here on his own and I can't let anyone else to be killed for me being stupid and leaving Sanctuary.

I'm hoping Negan, doesn't figure out I'm gone, I could only imagine the punishment if he finds out, god I could only imagine. I close my bedroom door behind me and I turn to see Sherry already leaving, she must be going a different way.

She knows more about this place than me and the only place I know to get out is on the side of the factory and that's by climbing over the fence, thankfully there was a large box there so it could make it easier for me to get over but it's getting back into the Sanctuary is the problem.

I know I can get over, I'm a pretty good climber but I know people have schedules and people guard to the place and I could be caught by them, thankfully Sherry knew where the would start and what time so that's a good thing.

I carefully, quietly walk out of the building, trying my hardest not to get caught, getting out of the building was the easiest, it's getting over that fence was going to be the hard part. I hide by one of the walls and watch and two of the Saviors who are meant to be guarding that part talk and walk away.

It's easier than I expected so this was my only chance, I take a deep breath before I take off sprinting towards the fence, jumping onto of the box, jumping up pulling myself over, making some noise since the fence started moving before I take off running into the forest near the Sanctuary.

I hide behind one of the trees as I watch as the two people walk towards the fence obviously hearing the fence move, thank the lord that they didn't do anything as I didn't see any of them take off to get Negan, well it didn't seem like it, anyway.

I gasp as I feel something on my shoulder, I grab my knife from my trousers and had it ready as I turn around, I sign once I realise who it was, "You scared me, don't do that!" I whisper yelled at the person I'm helping escape.

Sherry apologises, I nod my head before gesturing her to follow me, we walk past trees, my knife at the ready for a walker, I'm taking her to a small house which is quite some time away properly about an hour, not sure.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" I ask as I stop to turn to look at her, Sherry looks to the dirt covering the floor, she nods telling me yes, "Do you mind me asking, why you want to go?" I ask as I lead her the way to her house.

"Well... I'm the reason my real husband is how he is now," I look at her over my shoulder to see her looking at something in her hand, she looks back up and showed me the objects, rings, wedding rings in fact. "My husband, Dwight. I'm the reason he became everything he didn't want to become, I helped Daryl go, he reminded me of what Dwight used to be before he killed,"

It hurt to hear her blame herself for Dwight changing, it's not her fault. It's no ones fault well that's my opinion, I think this apocalypse starting is the reason, everyone changes for good or bad. I bet Negan wasn't like this when the apocalypse happened, I bet he was nicer.

Daryl changed, I remember when I first met him, quite an asshole if I do say so myself, we didn't like each other but over some time we bonded and became close, he will do everything to protect us, properly at the start he wouldn't have and Carol, she become a lot stronger, she's not the afraid woman I once knew, everyone changes for a reason.

"Sherry... it isn't your fault, it's no one's fault, it things around us that caused him to change. Everyone changes even though it's not good and I bet he does all this... for you. And by the sound of it, he loves you a lot and you do too,"

I smile at her, I understand how hard it is to see someone you love change for the worst, my husband properly would have changed, maybe into a right asshole but I know it would be to protect me and our daughter.

"Here we are," I say and Sherry gasps, I turn to look at her to see she's slowly walking past me and into the house. I'm about to go after her but a growl interrupts me, I turn to see a walker coming over to me, growling at me.

I grab one of my throwing knives, holding it up and throwing it, hitting the walker in the head. I quickly run over to collect it only hear more, I quickly run towards Sherry to see she's looking at a picture of her and Dwight.

"Sherry, we have to go," I say as the growls got louder, "We'll split up, you go up that way," I tell her pointing to up the road, "I'll guide them away and head back to the Sanctuary. She nods just as I hear banging at the door. Thank God I closed the door.

"Is there a back door?" I ask, as she quickly shows me to the door, she suddenly jumps, taking out the pistol I asked her to collect, "No, I asked you to get that for you, here take this," I say handing her one of my throwing knives before opening the back door, I'm about to go just as Sherry tells me to wait in a whisper.

"Thank you," She says before running past me and up the street, "No problem," I say, more to myself as I watch her run up the road, I quickly run around the house and shouted "Hey!" Catching the small group of walkers, I couldn't kill them as I'll get overrun easily.

They all turn to me and started coming towards me pretty fast, I quickly turn running off but making sure once they are still behind me, calling them to get them to follow me again every once and a while.

"Oh, no," I say as more walkers come out of nowhere, I turn to see the other's are pretty close behind me, I gasp as one got close, almost biting me but thankfully my knife was already out and in my hand, I grasp the male walkers neck before plunging the knife into his temple.

I quickly remove the knife before once again taking off but in the another direction, not the direction of the Sanctuary. After running for some time, stop to take a few deep breaths, I could still hear the growls but this time a little quieter. I couldn't keep running or I'll be too tired to even escape this now horde.

So the best next thing to do, it's great that I can climb. It's to climb this tree before this horde turns up, I look up the large tree, I can climb this and the thick branches will hold my weight until the horde goes.

I quickly and carefully start climbing the tree, using the smaller branches around the tree to help me up to one of the larger branches, I groan as I pull myself up the final branch. I take a few deep breaths once again before I look down to see the horde walking past, growls could be heard below me telling me that some are still there so I won't be getting down anytime soon. I'm just hoping they go before the sun rises and Negan noticed that Sherry and I are gone.