I've been avoiding Negan for the last few days. It's just been way too awkward. Why did I do it? I've always told myself not to sleep with Negan but no I just had to do it and now... I feel like a complete idiot, why did he have to come after me? I'm just stupid.
I've hardly been out of my room since sleeping with Negan, I just don't have the guts to go up to him. I jump once I hear a knock on my door, I gulp and slowly got up and walked towards it, in my head praying it's not Negan.
I slowly open the door, revealing a familiar man who had a worried and scared look on his face, I breath out in relief, it's Eugene. "Hey, Eugene... what's wrong?"
"Please, come with me," He says quietly and walks away, I stare at the back of his head in confusion. At least he's not taking me to Negan's room, I huff and closed my door and chased after him, I walk right behind him and he takes me to the cells. To a certain cell, it's Sasha's cell which was once mine.
I turn to look at Eugene who is pulling out something out of his pocket, I look at him in confusion. Eugene looks at me with a sad look before handing me whatever he took out of his pocket. I grab the small bag out of his hand and looked into it.
It's a pill, a white and yellow pill. I gasp and looked at him in confusion, "Please... tell me your-" Eugene quickly denies and looks towards the door, the door which is locking Sasha in. No, it can't be for Sasha.
Eugene takes the bag off of me and knocks the door, "Sasha?" He asks and Sasha quickly responds announcing she's there. "I decided to grant your request... this will do it," Eugene pushes the bag underneath the door, giving it to Sasha, tears roll down my cheeks once I realised what is happening.
"Sasha? Why are you doing this?" I ask now standing right in front, I sniff as tears carry on filling my eyes, haven't we lost enough of people, we've lost Glenn, Abraham, Olivia, Spencer and now Sasha wants to commit suicide, isn't losing four people enough. Especially losing one that has been alongside five of us since the start and the other one who I knew would protect the group from anything, losing those two hurt the most and the feeling still hurts and it's going to be worst when Sasha passes and turns.
"(Y/N), I have to do this," I hear Sasha quietly say from the other side of the door, I shake my head, refusing to allow her to die like this, we can't lose another person but it is her choice but I at least have to try.
"Sasha... I don't understand, why are you doing this?" I question again, I hear her signing and sniffling, I knew she was either crying or close to crying. "They are going to us me again Alexandria and I can't allow that to happen,"
"Please... don't do this, we've lost enough of people. Don't you think losing Glenn and Abraham is enough? What Maggie going to say, you've been with her throughout this, helping each other. And now you're going to go, I know I'm not going to be able to stop you... I know you're going to do this but... I just want to say," I take a deep breath and wiped away the tears.
"Even though I haven't known you as long as Glenn or the others but your one of my closest friends, you were there for me when my daughter died and I thank you for that," I smile as I lean head against the metal door and smiled.
"(Y/N)? Alexandria are going to fight against the Saviors and... if your taken there, I know they'd want you to fight with them," Sasha tells me, I nod to myself before saying goodbye to the two and headed back to my room.
Sitting down on the bed, tears slowly drying up. Head in my hands. Alexandria is going to fight against the Saviors. I'm definitely happy they are going to fight but Alexandria on their own isn't going to be able to take out the Saviors, they need more, I just hope they've been able to get more people to help whilst I've been gone.
I look up once I hear a knock on my door, I decided to ignore it since finding out Sasha's going to commit suicide I don't particularly want to talk to anyone but the person on the other side of the door wasn't taking my ignorance as a no.
I huff once I hear the door open, I turn to look to the door only to see the one person I really didn't want to see. "You've been crying," I hear him say as I look at him, surprisingly he didn't have Lucille. I shake my head denying it.
"You know, I don't like it when people lie... so why are you crying?" He asks again sitting next to me. "I-I just miss my family, t-that's all," I tell him as I look down to the floor, it wasn't a lie, I do miss my family but of course it's not the reason I'm crying. Why do things have to be so difficult?
