I take a deep breath as the truck slowly comes to a stop in front of Alexandria. It looks no different than before just a few more dead walkers than last time which is understandable since there was a HUGE war.
I watch as the gate opens by my older brother Rick Grimes and allowed the truck to pass through. I didn't understand, why they are allowing us in, they now this is a Saviors trucks, let's hope I can find out.
The truck slowly comes to a stop, just before the gate. I breathe out, feeling nervous all of a suddenly. I look around to see my family standing, waiting for us to exit the truck. I look over to Dwight, who nods his head to me, telling me to exit the truck.
I open the door to the truck, climbing out. I hear someone gasp in shock, obviously very shocked to see me here. I turn around to see Rick staring at me, I smile at him. Even though I sort of hate him for wanting to kill Eugene but he's still my brother.
I slowly walk towards him as he holds his hands out, pulling me into a hug once I reached him. I smile into the hug, I've never been so happy to see Rick again. "I'm glad to see you are all alright," I tell everyone, most of them smiled at me, glad to see me, apart from one.
"Why didn't you fight?!"
I turn to face the person to see Rosita staring daggers at me. I smirk and walk towards her, who stood her ground. Keeping her back straight with her arms crossed, I look over to her cheek to see the scar that had been done by one of Negan's people, Arat.
"What was that?" I question, even know I knew what she asked, just wanting her to be more... clear on what she asked. "Why didn't you fight? By the looks of it, you've taken the Saviors side instead of your families," Rosita snarls, making me chuckle.
"I was going to fight... until you decided you were going to blow us up even though you knew Eugene was there!" I snap at her, glaring down at her as anger fills my body fast. "Why should I fight for people, who were going to kill one, well basically two people who lived here and you were the one that was going to do,"
Rosita glares at me before walking away, heading back to her house. Whilst I turn to face everyone. "You're properly very pissed off with me for not helping you guys to fight and I'm pissed at you lot. Whiling to murder Eugene like that, but you guys are still my family," I tell them with a huge smile which is true. I am very pissed off with them but I still love them the same.
"How did you even get out?" Carl asks as he walks towards me and Rick, standing in front of me. "Dwight got me out, but I have to go back which will be soon since Negan properly realised that Dwight and I aren't there, and we need to collect some things to make our excuse more believable," I announce to everyone and Dwight nods agreeing with me.
"I'm glad you are here for now," Rick says and pulls me into another hug and so did Carl straight after. I smile at the others, I'm glad I can see my family. Suddenly I almost forgot two but it didn't take long for me to see one.
I turn to see Michone walking out with Judith in her arms. I smile and walks towards Michone and my niece. I smile down at her, I couldn't believe how much she has grown since I last saw her, I gently grab Judith and carefully hug her, she whines and moves away making me chuckle. I kiss her forehead.
"I've missed you, Judith... I can't believe how big you've gotten," I say in a soft tone as I watch Judith hold her elephant teddy. I turn to Rick before handing her to him. I nod to the way to where the graves are, basically asking for permission to go, even though I know I don't need it but I thought it would be better to ask.
He nods and smiles basically telling me there is no need to ask, I look down at Carl, well not really looking down since he is almost the same height as me. I wrap an arm around his shoulders bringing him closer to me, Carl has definitely matured a lot since the farm, he is no longer the once scared boy but is now a brave one, incredibly brave. He'd do anything for his family, just like any of us would, like Sasha had committed suicide to protect all us.
I smile down at Carl before walking to where all the graves are, I gasp a bit at the sight of the graves, there are more, a lot more. I tear slowly slides down my cheek once I see my daughter's grave, I carefully walk past all the other graves, trying my hardest not to stand on any of them.
I kneel down next to (D/N) grave, I look down to see flowers on the grave, Alexandria's people still come to see her. It should be me to see her but no I'm now living with the 'enemy'. I reach into my pocket to where a single flower is.
It's (D/N) favourite flower, a daisy. On our way here I got Dwight to stop since I noticed a patch of daisies and I knew it was her favourite so I picked one and brought it here, I look down at the Daisy, remembering what she was like before all this happened.
Her running around, mine and deceased husbands back garden where we used to grow flowers, we had a small patch of Daisy and when (D/N) was around two, when she was still crawling, she'd always crawled over to the Daisies and started picking them whilst our old dog jumped around in them.
I smile at the memory, it's definitely one of my favourite memories of her. My smile slowly turns into a frown, think she shouldn't be underground, rotting away. She should be alive running around, playing with other children her age but no this apocalypse happened and she wouldn't ever have a normal childhood.
"It's lovely to see you here, (Y/N),"
I jump up and turn, taking a deep breath once I realised it was only Gabriel, "You scared me," I tell him which made him smile and apologise for scaring me. "I can tell you feel guilt," I here Gabriel say to me, I raise an eyebrow at him in confusion.
"You feel guilty for leaving and not fighting with us and for your daughter's death," Gabriel announces, which he was completely right about, I do feel guilty but I know there is nothing I can do know than survive and that's what I'm going to do, I know that's what (H/N) and (D/N) would want me to do and I'll do it for them and my rest of my family.
"I do... It is my fault, if I kept an eye on her... she wouldn't be dead and I should have fought for you and the others but I walked off and abandoned you, I understand if your angry with me but they were going blow up Eugene, what could have I done, he's also a part of the family. I just couldn't abandon him," I tell Gabriel, who nods his head agreeing with me, he opens his mouth about to say something, only for Dwight to cut him off shouting to me we needed to go.
I nod to myself before turning back to my daughter's grave, putting the Daisy in the middle of the small lump which is slowly going flat. Leaning down whispering an I love you before walking over to Gabriel, giving him a small hug, "I'm glad your alright, it was also great to see you again," I tell him before waving goodbye to him, leaving him standing next to my daughter's grave.
I stand next to the truck, after giving all my family a hug, including Rosita, we both understood each other's anger but it is better to be okay with each other than wanting to kill each other, she's still my family even though my dislike for her has gotten lower, she is still a part of it.
I take a deep breath and looked around to take one final look of Alexandria, it's properly going to be some time until I see it again and see everyone else, why did all this have to happen.
