Summary: Lizyel (Lizzy) is a fantastic streamer that hides her face, but her voice charms everyone who hears her. Pemdarcy (Darcy) is the best author that publishes a lot of stories but he is really private and nobody knows really who he is. Both love what the other is doing, but what happens when they really meet and secrets of more than one generation came between them? UA. Modern. Darcy/Lizzy. (There is magic and secrets in this universe)

Characters: Darcy/Lizzy, Jane/Bingley, Mr/Mrs. Bennet, Uncle/Aunt Gardiner, Miss Bingley

Backstory 1 Characters: Uncle Gardiner, Mr. Bennet, Mrs. Bennet, Grandfather Gardiner, Aunt Gardiner, Collins Senior, OCs

Backstory 2 Characters: Mr. Wickham, Georgiana Darcy, Darcy, Colonel Fitzwilliam, Darcy Senior

Genre: Romance, Fantasy, Friendship

Rating: K

Chronology: (C is for Chapter)

- 5 years ago: Ed and Mina met. Ed loses all his previous identity and memories.
- 3 years ago: Jane quits her family to study art abroad. Never went back since (switch studies for Management and Economy since never explained why)
- Between 3 years and now: Jane meets Mina / Mina take Jane as a protege.
- ? months ago: Something happens with "Collins" and Lizzy flees and comes to live with Jane.
- 2 months ago: Georgiana is kidnapped by Wickham
- C1: Tuesday: Lizzy streams.
- C2: Thursday: Darcy publishes chapter 51
- C3: Saturday: Lizzy streams. Speaks quickly about a "double death". Lizzy meets Mina and Ed.
- C4: Sunday: Darcy publishes chapter 52. Darcy moves to Lucacity to follow Wickham/Georgiana's trail. Miss an assassination attempt.
- C5: Sunday: Lizzy streams. Darcy "meets" and insults Lizzy and Jane.
- C6: Monday: Kate is writing letters for her therapy.
- C7: Tuesday: Darcy discovers the identity of Lizyel

Author note: English is still not my first language.

I'm so sorry for not being able to post anything while at my parents'. I was sick for half of it (I'm totally recovered now) and super busy to see a bit of my family for the last half of it (and harvesting/cooking/eating chestnut, because chestnuts are the best thing in autumn). Now, I'm back at my house, and hopefully I will be able to get back to my schedule.

Happy reading!


Chapter 8: A plan for Lizzy

Maybe I should never again try to help people. That's always ending in disaster. My last resolution was coming to bite me a lot quicker than I expected. Even if that seems easy enough: getting Lizzy back to be a social creature. She has always been more social than me, I'm an introvert and she's an extrovert. But I don't know what happened to the parents before she thought it would be a good idea to come to live here. I can just make guess. Something that terrifies her. She still cries in her bed, when she believes I'm sound asleep. Each night. It's giving me nightmares. I feel useless, I can't help my little baby sister.

I had to do something. But with all the walls she built herself around her, she was seeing nobody at all. I tried to break it. Now, I fear I broke my sister. She's furious, but so hurt on the inside it's killing me. I'm seeing her self-esteem bleeding, and I'm wondering if that's even fixable. Kate's friend didn't help. I don't want to think bad of people, but it's hard.

I want so much to help her, but how can I? Without breaking anything more? I'm resolved to not speak of it, but try to build upon our shared knowledge that our beloved uncle is miraculously alive. I remember how it threw me out of the loop. I couldn't believe it, and it lead me where I am. Understanding that there is Evil in our society, and I was not at all prepared to protect myself against it. Mina helped, of course. She becomes my mentor in more ways than one, but she can't do the same for Lizzy. I know that Lizzy won't accept it. It was easy for me, I never loved our parents, and have no trouble believing that they are responsible for the "death" of uncle Edward. I'm happy to get to know Edwin, even if he has no memory of us, and that's a bit breaking my heart.

Lizzy needs… She doesn't take well to be coddled, she is too active for that.

A sudden thought makes me halt my movement as I go through the mechanical elements of putting together my meal. There was another time when Lizzy was beside herself. And she put up a brave face, but she was crying every night. However, you couldn't tell in the daylight that she was distressed. She was always so engaging, and particularly taking care of Kitty at the time… Oh, why didn't I understand directly at that time? That was exactly at the same time as the big row between Kitty and Lydia. Everyone was sure that Kitty was exaggerating what she said our sister was doing, but one year after, it was admitted that she didn't lie, in fact. That was just after Uncle Edward's disappearance, and Father was withdrawing even more. I believe that the whole house didn't collapse just because Lizzy was taking care of stuff. I must admit that I didn't help that much. I had a lot of exams I wanted to make sure I wasn't failing because that was my key to leaving that madhouse.

If I could find a gentle soul that needs some help and love and guidance… That would be the perfect fit for pulling back Lizzy together and getting her out of her soul-seeking depression.

I have work on my plate, so I opened the chat with Kate, "Hey Kate, sorry, I can't go with you to the library today, I have to stay with my sister." I don't wait too long before the answer arrives: "No worries, Jane, thanks for letting me know. My brother will be disappointed ;)" I fight as much as I can the blush at the mention of her handsome brother. Lizzy first, I keep repeating myself. I will still have time to get to know Charles later.

I am a poor soul that nobody believes but truthful, where do I go? Where can I meet that person? My first reflex is to ask Mina, as everything is a bit complicated I had to do the last three years. I frown at myself. When did I begin this complacent? Again, for what feels like the hundredth time, I'm relieved that Lizzy came to live with me. I feel like I need to be weaned of relying all the time on Mina. Instead, I push my phone further away and close my eyes. Mina taught me, and I can do it on my own. It's not that important if I fail: what can happen in the worst case? Lizzy doesn't get well with that stranger and everything is stopped and no other problem? I'm all for it! I'm remembering what she told me about being very specific and imagining how I will feel when I have found what I seek. That was one of the beginner mistakes. To want to search for something and not seek to find it. So what happens when I have found that person? I can meet her (the newest experiences make me prefer to let my sister meets new feminine acquaintance.) first and look if she seems trustworthy. If yes, she can meet my sister. When both had met, they should get on really easily, but Lizzy is, under all her fear and anger, a really social creature and I can't wait for her true self to get out again.

I'm getting distracted again. That's more difficult to do it all alone than I previously anticipated. I meet someone that can help my sister out of her misery. A young pure soul that needs my sister's old self, that will bring it back. Once I'm certain I get it right, I turn on myself, consciously seeking from everywhere. And I hear the crying, as well as a feeling of dread that fills me up. Realizing that it means I succeeded, my elation overthrow me, and I let my attention slip and lose the connection.

I have it. I will be able to do it again, I have no trouble believing it. Now, onto the next part of the plan.

Lizzy is still in her bedroom. Does she believe I don't want her to use the other rooms of the flat? I hope no. At the same time, I was never totally upfront about why I used this flat, and what it means. She is as much entitled as me to use it. Even more so, considering that our father always preferred her. I should tell her, but first I want to meet that young woman that was crying.

Following the direction to find her is way more complicated than I anticipated. I knew she was in the north direction from where I was, but going straight was just a recipe for disaster. I ought to ask Lizzy, she may have an idea or two how to resolve it very quickly, but I took a long way out.

Finally, after a long day of walking, transiting, and just trying to stay clear of buildings and highways, I find the building she must be in. It… It's locked. I stay in the neighbouring for several hours, before going back home, without any idea how to enter, and without having seen any young woman getting out of it.

This evening, in my bed, I'm relieved that I have a plan to help my sister. Even if I never met this girl, I'm sure we will benefit from it. And… if this one is not working well, we always can use the next one...


Thanks for reading! I hope you liked it. Do you have an inkling of who is the young woman Jane will find in her quest?

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