Even God's Need A Lifelong Partner
Chapter Five
"Do you miss me like I miss you?
Messed around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too
And I'm always tired but never of you" - I Hate U, I Love U - Gnash
Disclaimer: I do own Resident Evil, neither the song. I only write for the fun part. We are turning on bigger heat now, we have to make Chris and Wesker dateam I right?!
1997, Racoon Police Department, S.T.A.R.S, February 13th, Wesker's birthday
Chris was really nerveous about this day. He respected Wesker as his captain and he was an amazing hard working man, but his heart played a twisted game with him. Chris spent all night sitting at his desk writing that letter to Wesker, admitting about his weird crush. It was the 90's, people were not really accepting gay peoples. And Chris knew, he was one of those.
Chris was so scared to go into the office that morning. It was the day before Valentine's day, and Wesker's birthday. He quickly got into Wesker's office, then put the letter down. Then ran out of the building to have a smoke. Where he needed to calm himself down. He tryied to stay calm, but then, he did not want Wesker to know about his damn feeling. But when he tryied to sneak inside, Wesker caught him.
"Left something here, Christopher?" Wesker asked.
The blonde captain just walked into his office, and found it strange to have his bestman already around. Chris was well-known from being always late from work.
"Just, throw that to the trash, not important anymore." Chris muttered.
He walked out of his captain's office, then sat down to one of the chairs. He kept helding his head. How an idiot he thought he was. It was all a mistake...
Chris never knew the answer. He saw his latter in the trash, unopened. He thought Wesker marked his words for the first time, and did not make any question about it. He thought it...
2009, Tricell Station, Africa, March 9
Chris had that little nightmare again. Aboutthat one time where he almost told Wesker everything. Now he would give anything in the world, to be a bestman again. For an hour, for a day... No matter how many time, but just for a little. To not worry about anything.
Wesker, on the other hand... Read that letter. He has Chris's letter in his office, hidden in a security box with a long numbered password to recuary to open it. He knew how Chris was after him, but never showed anything. Not until now. He has everything under control for now on. And will make sure to pay back that long lost twelve year of waiting for an answer.
"You cannot be that serious, Albert." Alex said.
Wesker was on a call with his sister. He needed someone to talk to about it, but it did not matter, he did not found support either. Why people are like this?
"I am, actually, Alex." Wesker sighed.
He was being honest for the first time ever. He could hear her laughing over the line, but he did not bother. He reached over to the security box, and opened it, to take again a look on Chris's letter.
"You were never like this. What made you think so?" Alex asked.
But Wesker did not answer on the way. He was lost all over again in Chris's words. His lips made a smile to cover his face. What a lovely memory...
"I am in love, Alex. For the first time ever, I am!" Wesker shouted.
He was scared after, because Chris could possibly hear those words, but it was the early hours of the new day. Chris should be asleep. As he saw on the cameras, Chris was struggeling with this sleeping called thing.
"I should come and pay a visit to you, dear brother." Alex said.
Wesker did not want Alex to hit her nose into this thing. It was enough already, for Jill to come and try to get Chris away from him. He did not want any family encounter soon.
"Next time, Alex. Jill Valentine is already on her way to come and take Chris away from me." Wesker said, as he finally ended the call.
He did not even think about how to get rid of Jill's appearance, but that was for another day. He took a long breath, then turned to his old letter. He felt as the time would change back to 1997. When he only seemed to be a captain. Where he could be friends with Chris. Not enemies.
Sometimes, even a few tears came out of his develish eyes. To be sad about time's passing. And how he did not take any chance on hitting up on Chris. But now is the time. He knew it. He put the letter back, then checked around the security cameras, to find, Chris was not in his room, again.
It meant another little showtime for Wesker. So he closed the office doors, and went for a long walk to search for Chris. His only god...
Chris was crying. On the inside, on the outside. He never wanted things to be like this. He wanted to make everything fade away, and be a bestman for only a minute. He wanted to be younger. He wanted to be free. He wanted to love Wesker again.
When Wesker reached Chris's location, he hesitated for a little, because he heard him. The pain filled up his heart. How he saw Chris breaking down only a door away. It was like a knife into Wesker's heart. The struggeling about going out to hold him until he stops crying was so big, but he wants to wait, until everything becomes clear for both of them.
"I know you are there." Chris muttered.
So Wesker opened the door, and went inside. Chris tryied to stop the tears from falling down, but he could not really do that.
"It is alright. Let them out." Wesker said.
And it hit Chris more, actually. He did not care about how Wesker saw him. Chris was still under the pressure of his nightmare. And he wanted to get rid of it.
Wesker kept standing like almost pointless, when he felt Chris comming closer to him. He wanted to pull him closer so hard, that he literally could not resist anymore. Wesker's cold hand reached for Chris's warm hand, then pulled him closer. Close for a hug, closing it with his arms around.
Chris did not want to break out. He loved Wesker's closeness, and did not want to let it go, forever. It felt so right. And indeed, stopped his tears from comming anymore. It calmed him. How their heartbeat sincronized. Worked and beated together, was wonderfull.
"Thank you..." Chris muttered.
Wesker looked into Chris's beautiful eyes. He could not resist anymore. It has been only a day, since they have made it clear to start on the fresh page, but these feelings already killing Wesker on the inside.
"I've always loved you too... Chris..." Wesker whispered so quietly.
Answering to Chris's letter from twelve years ago. Chris did not hear much from it, at the first thought, but then... He realized it. Chris looked into Wesker's eyes. To see the desire, the hunger and the lust for him. How their feelings were all the same for eachother.
But still... Not the right moment to drop anything. There are days to count for and more hours to be crazy for eachother, they knew. They smiled at eachother, not saying any other words. Until, Chris finally found peace, and his sleepyness returned, and he was falling asleep, in Wesker's arms.
A/N: Hehe, you thought so? Even I did too. It will be more exciting dont worry. Liked the flashback? I coulddo more and more!
Okay Im back to regular posting! Im finishing up the upcomming chapter. The reason I was inactive because of my terrible work places. I need to work harder than before because I am moving out soon. And it is really hard to realize and to make it. I am heading to college soon too. And it is all crazy to hold up, how life is changing so fast. Enjoy some stuff I have more planned!
