Well, well, well now writing became much more difficult. I have to compare my story with the game and that slows down the writing process drastically. I'm trying to use the original dialogues from the game and that's not easy hahaha. But don't worry, even if the updates won't show up so often, I'm not going to cancel this story (and if some of you wanted me to stop this story than I'm sorry to disappoint you hahaha). But right now let's just go to another chapter.

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Chapter 10

Revan wiped his face and blinked few times. He was completely exhausted. He spent all night on remaking the lightsabers. And in the middle of his work, he was forced to help Carth to fall asleep again. The former Dark Lord could handle him easily, but somehow he couldn't do it. Something inside of him was stopping Revan from committing a murder on that man. That made him wonder. Has he already lost so much of his former self? During his reign as the Dark Lord, he could kill anyone in a blink of an eye. Maybe not Bastila. But a soldier? Revan even cut out his former best friend's jaw for disobeying his orders.

He shook his head. He was growing weak. Two months spent in the presence of the Republic made him less aggressive. Sometimes it could be useful, but he wasn't so sure if it was good in that moment. Revan put down his handwork and allowed his thoughts to travel at their own pace.

He came back to something that intrigued him on the Endar Spire. This warning in the Force that clearly spoke of a betrayal. And the fact that they were pulled out from the hyperspace. Someone had to deliver the information about them to the Sith.

And here his thoughts drifted to Trask. He was annoying because of his talkative attitude. But that wasn't the thing that intrigued Revan in that moment. He was mostly focused on this scream in the Force that surrounded his former bunkmate. And the fact that he was so eager to stand against the Dark Jedi alone. Even if he and his companions were able to help him. They could simply kill this Dark Jedi, no matter who he was. And yet, he decided to face him alone. And when he disappeared, the warning in the Force lessened drastically.

Revan was almost sure of Trask's betrayal. But he couldn't judge him right now. He didn't know his thoughts and in this moment, the man was dead or with the Sith. These were the only possibilities. And he knew that with the time, he will find out the truth.

His second thought was Bastila. Right now he couldn't use their Bond, that for sure. It would make her feel, that he regained his access to the Force and what was coming with that, his memories. Revan didn't want Bastila to know about this. He would tell her the truth of course. But not right now. First, he had to make sure, that she is on his side.

Revan began to wonder if she is all right. He thought of her possible current state.

The first option is that she was captured by the Sith. But then, what point would they have to send so many patrols to the planet's surface?

The second possibility was her being captured by any of the local gangs. Revan has heard a lot about Taris' criminal underworld. That was the main reason for Sith soldiers not to go down to the Under City.

Revan sighed heavily. He had managed to finish the repairs and now the lightsabers looked much better.

First of all, they were properly balanced. They were fitting nicely in his hands and resembled more his former weapons. He even managed to give them the proper look.

They were now a little longer and had more complicated details. That was a masterpiece. He even managed to place on the handles the ancient runes he found on Korriban. That was supposed to increase both his fighting abilities and possibilities of his weapons. At least that's what Naga Sadow had told in his Holocron.

Revan eyed the lightsabers and, after a moment, he turned them on.

One of them was bright blue and the second, fiercely red. He smirked under his nose. It would represent better his thinking about the Force and Its Sides. He smirked again. Both Jedi and the Sith were so narrow-minded. For them existed only Dark and Light Side of the Force. For the Order, it was a way to find peace. And for those who Council called 'the fallen Jedi', it was a way to find power. But for Revan, it was something more.

Through his time as a Jedi and later as a Dark Lord, it was a way to find power in peace. He tasted both Sides of the Force. And he rejected and accepted both. He understood, that using just one Side would cloud his mind and judgment. It would also lessen his potential. After all, what have the Jedi taught? To find balance. And balance could have only been achieved by remaining somewhere between the Light and the Dark Side. And that's something that the Jedi Council will never understand.

Revan stood up from his place at the workbench. He had around an hour till the sunrise. Sleep wouldn't help him now. But a meditation would be perfect. He came up to his bed and sat on it, crossing his legs. He closed his eyes and felt peace filling his body.

It was the sort of relief he didn't feel for a long time. He rarely had the possibility to meditate while he was holding the mantle of the Dark Lord of the Sith. And during the Mandalorian Wars, he was all the time on the front lines. Or in a Kolto tank. He realized that the last time he could become, at least partially, one with the Force, was a few years ago on Dantooine when he was still a Padawan.

He took a deep breath and allowed the Force to take him. He has forgotten how such thing made thinking easier. He started to meditate over his possibilities. What would he do, after he escaped Taris? If he escaped Taris, of course. Where would he go?

Korriban wasn't an option. It was under the control of Malak's Empire. Same as the Rakata Prime.

Then came the idea of Kashyyk. It was a forest world that was under the control of Czerka and the Exchange. The Republic and the Sith Empire had no influence there. It was a good option.

He didn't consider Tatooine. He hated that forgotten by Force planet. Every minute he spent there, he was cursing the Force for creating such an inhabitable world.

Manaan wasn't a good option either. There, both the Republic and the Sith had influences. He couldn't risk that much.

Nar Shadda was some sort of possibility. The smugglers' moon was a good place to reinforce himself. He could easily gain access to his bank accounts from there. And with Credits, came influence. And with influence, came information. And with information, came power. The power he needed to fulfill his plan.

Coruscant wasn't an option to be considered as well. He wanted to avoid the Jedi Council as much as he could. But on the other hand, he wished to speak to few Masters. After all, not all of the Council members were arrogant and ignorant fools.

Master Nomi Sunrider and Master Vandar Tokare were the only ones, who Revan respected. Maybe also Zhar Lestin, but he wasn't a part of the Jedi High Council. They had a great wisdom and were able to actually listen to others, while the rest of the Masters was short-sighted. Every question, if it wasn't connected with the subject of Jedi teachings, they treated as arrogance and pride.

While Master Tokare and Master Sunrider were always ready to answer the questions. Even those difficult ones about the Dark Side. These two were the source of Revan's great knowledge as the Padawan. And now he needed their help.

The True Sith have returned and reinforced themselves. They were waiting in the Unknown Regions. That's something Revan has found out during the Mandalorian wars. It was the threat, the Jedi Council warned about. And when he contacted them, they have declared him a traitor and a Sith Lord.

But Master Vandar and Nomi didn't approve the Council's decision. And now he would really appreciate their advice.

He had to act. The Jedi Order wasn't able to stand against the True Sith. The Republic as well was unprepared. It was Revan's duty to fight back this threat. And he knew it.

But he couldn't do it alone. And that was the reason for him to find a Star Forge. He still needed allies though.

He knew that Rex, Fox, and Wolfie will follow him anywhere. But still, he needed some of the Jedi help. Not physical one but the one of guidance, a good word for him to know what to do. And that's why he needed to contact Vandar Tokare and Nomi Sunrider.

And that caused him to pick the Dantooine as his first target after Taris. Vandar should be there. The Enclave was the only place, where the Master would be, beside Coruscant of course. But Vrook would be there as well.

Revan smirked mentally. Now he was Alen. It gave him a possibility to approach Vrook and annoy him. Just as he always did during his time as the Padawan. Revenge wasn't something, he was looking for. He was better than that. And he needed Vandar's knowledge.

Kreia, his first master, would give him answers, as well. She always did, after all. But she was far from here, on Malachor V in Trayus Academy.

He has decided. He would find a way to contact the two Jedi Masters, no matter what.

He breathed slowly, abandoning the thoughts about his possible future. This time he turned them to something more pleasurable.

He lowered a little his mental barriers and tried to find Bastila through their Force Bond. It was risky, he knew that. But he was surprised when he felt a wall on the other side. Something was interrupting the connection. He quickly realized what it was. It was the same thing that used to cause him to lose the possibility to focus. She was wearing the neural disruptor.

But nevertheless, he sensed her. She wasn't that far away. And he didn't feel a presence of the Dark Side around her. That meant that she wasn't caught by the Sith. Revan felt a sort of relief. It was much easier to take Bastila back from the hands of criminalists, than from the Empire.

He began to feel uneasy. How would Bastila react, when she saw him? Would she even recognize him? Or have the Council reprogrammed her mind as well, so she doesn't remember her past connected with him? And if she remembered? What would she do? Would she be happy to see him again?

He used his all mental strengths to put these thoughts aside. Revan now tried to focus on the Force itself. In the state of meditation, he was able to understand It's ways better. His thoughts took him to his connection to the Force.

During the Mandalorian Wars, he discovered that the Force wasn't divided into the Dark and the Light Side. There was something more. Both Sides have been connected to one another. And only after realizing it, the one could truly master the Force and Its ways. And the truth wasn't just black and white, as the Jedi thought.

The true balance was able to be achieved only by accepting the both Sides that wielded war inside of everyone. If anyone allies himself with only one Side, he would lose this combat. And would never be able to achieve peace, as well as the power that came with it. And that's why the Jedi Council was blind. Blind to the threat in the Unknown Regions. Even if they have foreseen it, they still ignored that. They refused to understand that the balance in the Force was not achieved by destroying the Sith, but by accepting the Sith inside of you. And connecting the both Sides that remained in everyone into one.

And here came the biggest problem and mistake of both the Jedi Order and the Sith. Both these fractions leaned into just one Side and saw another one as a weakness. And they didn't understand that light cannot exist without the dark to oppose it. And the dark, cannot exist without the light to chase it away. Revan, through his time as the Jedi Padawan and the Dark Lord, found out this truth. In the beginning, it was difficult for him to accept it, but when he did, for the first time in his life, he found the peace. And with the peace, he gained the power. The power that allowed him to control the Star Forge without losing himself to the Dark Side, while still remaining connected to it.

He breathed deeply again. He almost could touch the Sides of the Force in him. He also felt the war waging in him. Each Side wanted to get the advantage over the other one. And it was his order to not allow that to happen. For many it was difficult. But not for him.

He was able to keep his Jedi and Sith identity in place. He was using both Sides and that allowed him to maintain control over them.

There were times when he hated the Force. He hated it to the point, where he was even thinking of destroying it. Revan started to collect the information about what to do to perform such an act. He gathered it in his Holocron, that remained hidden in the secret place on Malachor V in the Trayus Academy. He made sure to leave it under Darth Traya's attention. Even if he wanted to do it, he knew that it wasn't his destiny. His destiny was to stop the True Sith in the Unknown Regions. And to make Jedi see the truth. But destroying the Force? It was something he wasn't capable of. He had to leave it for others.

There weren't many reasons why he hated the Force so much. But they were good enough to convince him.

First of all, was the never-ending conflict between the Dark and the Light Side. The conflict that cost thousands of lives. In the name of what? Balance? Power? Peace? These were the values that remained beyond the Jedi and the Sith reach.

And second was the Force's influence on everything. The Jedi claimed that feelings were something leading to the Dark Side. While feelings were this what defined the difference between the animals and the 'intelligent species', besides the ability to think, of course. And the Jedi Code forced them to abandon these feelings as if they didn't exist. It almost made them droids.

And Sith acted on emotions and feelings, often without thinking. Their lust for power, made them act almost on instincts, bringing them closer to animals. They were slowly losing this, what defined them as the 'intelligent species'. And all of this in the name of what?

There was one more reason but it was something personal for Revan. Thanks to the Jedi Code, he couldn't be with the woman he loved. He even was forbidden to know what is love. He often was wondering, how his life would look like without the Force. If the Jedi Order and the Sith never existed. Would he be able to find happiness with the one he loved? Would he even know Bastila?

This question always led him to one conclusion. If there was no Force and the Jedi Order, he would be able to make a family, to have a wife. But it wasn't sure if he would know Bastila. And that was the reason why he didn't know fully if his life would be better without the Force.

Revan also found himself thinking about the Jedi Code. Before the Exar Kun, the Jedi were allowed to have a wife or husband. Then it was nothing wrong. The Code itself even sounded differently. Emotions, yet peace. The first version of the Code wasn't commonly known amongst the Padawans. It was something, that his first master, Kreia, has taught him. And he found the original Code more reasonable. But the Council did not. At least most of the Master didn't.

Again, he was thinking about what he had to do next. And the answer was pretty simple. He had to find Bastila.


Revan has left his state of meditation. The sun was beginning to rise and his companions were still fast asleep.

"Come on, come on, wake up!" Revan was shouting, pacing across the room. Every one of the four men looked at him with tired and annoyed expression.

"Any reason to wake us up so early?" Fox asked with a yawn and wiped his face.

"Actually yes. We have a lot to do and the time isn't working in our favor. The faster we begin to make our way from here, the better. If the Sith find Bastila before we do, they will most probably blow Taris into space. She is the only reason we are still alive. Then I suggest you wake up. We have to make sure to find her before the Sith patrols do" Revan explained. His companions slowly began to lift themselves up. They didn't like the idea of waking up so early, but they knew the importance of this mission. Finding Bastila was their biggest priority.

It wasn't long before they were ready to go. They've managed to wake up before the sun fully rose. They have left the apartment and began to make their way through the main hall of the skyscraper.

I'm coming for you, Bastila, Revan sent through their Bond, knowing she couldn't hear it. But he wanted to comfort her as much as he could. Even if that would mean killing everyone in his sight.


I hope you enjoyed this chapter even though it was a little boring due to the lack of action. I didn't plan to make Revan's meditation so long, but it just happened. And if you liked it then leave a comment, add the story to your 'favorites' and follow it to be informed about the updates. Remember! Information is power! Also in the next chapter, we will get into KotOR's plot much more! So… see you soon guys!