A/N: Finally, a new chapter, right? Sorry for taking so long, but I get so easily side tracked these days *sigh*
This chapter is very different from what I had initially planned. Like… worlds apart. Sasuke and Naruto decided to take matters into their own hands, and… well. I had to do a lot of cutting scenes and cutting dialogues and editing because it was always turning out differently from what I wanted and well, I just gave up on trying to fight it. It's just another one of those chapters where you'll get 16 pages of basically the same.
These two kill me ;_;
Anyway, I hope you guys enjoy?
Not betaed.
WARNINGS: 18+ Content. Male/Male intercourse. If you don't like it, don't read it!
From Which We'll Rise
Part X: Two Halves II
Naruto woke up slowly but didn't immediately open his eyes. His head was a bit fuzzy, and he felt oddly confused. He was laying down on his back on something hard, but under his head he could feel something warm and firm, and there was some sort of heavy fabric covering him. He felt comfortable all the same, so he sighed and turned to his side, his face colliding with something warm, a familiar scent filling his senses.
He could hear the sound of heavy rain outside, and this made him snuggle more against the warmth.
His hair was being touched – no, caressed – and it felt soothing. He felt so good, and yet there was a distinct feeling in his chest that was constricting and painful. Ah, yes. His conversation with Sasuke; he remembered now.
Naruto just wanted to curl up and fall asleep again, but at the same time, wouldn't that just be him wasting his precious time with Sasuke away?
He opened his eyes slightly and nuzzled his nose against Sasuke's stomach. The hand on his head stilled.
"Are you alright?" Sasuke's voice inquired in a low tone.
"What happened?" Naruto mumbled.
"You cried yourself to sleep, I think," Sasuke said calmly. "Or rather, I think you just unintentionally shut yourself down."
Naruto felt his cheeks catch fire in shame. He didn't remember the moment when he had passed out at all.
Why had he passed out? Because he wanted to switch off his feelings, his sadness, thus taking shelter inside of himself? But he hadn't escaped anything at all.
He didn't want to run away, that wasn't it. On the contrary, more than ever he wanted to reach out to his friend. But he was exhausted, and in pain, and he didn't know how to deal with it because it was a pain unlike anything he had ever felt in his life. It wasn't even a feeling of loss of a loved one because Sasuke was still alive. He didn't feel lonely because Sasuke was right there, and he didn't feel rejected because he knew Sasuke felt just as deeply for him.
It was just… emptiness mixed with helplessness and longing.
Slowly, Naruto moved so he was sitting down. He rubbed at his eyes before taking a look around. Sasuke had stretched out what looked like a table cloth on the ground underneath them, and was now sitting over it with his back against the same pillar where Naruto had been as they had talked before. Naruto noticed that he had been laying with his head over Sasuke's lap while covered by a cloak (also Sasuke's), that he carefully pushed off him, to the side. Considering they had been sitting on the altar steps before, Naruto wondered how Sasuke had managed to get everything done and carry him all the way down there with only a single arm.
"Your body was cooperative even though your consciousness wasn't here," Sasuke explained, as if reading his thoughts. Naruto looked over his shoulder at him apologetically, but his friend simply looked calm and not judgemental. "Here, drink this. You need it."
A canteen was extended to him and Naruto adjusted his body more so he was facing the other man instead of having his back to him before he accepted it resignedly. Under Sasuke's firm, demanding gaze, Naruto unscrewed the cap and took a few sips of the water inside. He hadn't noticed how thirsty he was until the refreshing liquid slipped past his lips and down his dry throat.
Sasuke was rummaging Naruto's satchel that was next to him, looking for something.
"How long was I out for?" Naruto asked, lowering the canteen and wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.
"I'm not exactly carrying a watch," Sasuke said monotonously. "But I'd say about an hour, give or take."
An hour? It had felt like only five minutes.
Something else was extended to him, and Naruto noticed that it was one of the sandwiches they had brought, neatly wrapped up in napkins by Karin. Naruto looked at it with a disgusted face and shook his head from side to side.
"You need to eat, you look like shit," Sasuke insisted, pressing the sandwich to Naruto's chest.
"I don't want to," Naruto refused with a frown. "I feel sick."
"You feel sick because you haven't eaten in a while and you're under a lot of emotional pressure," Sasuke pressed on, frowning back. "Eat."
Naruto felt suddenly annoyed at Sasuke's authoritative tone. He was pretty much upset, his stomach was a mess and his emotions were running wild. The last thing he wanted was to be bossed around. "I don't want to," he repeated stubbornly, screwing the cap of the canteen closed and putting it aside while still ignoring the sandwich under his nose.
Sasuke's eyes narrowed warningly. "Naruto…"
"Gods damn it, Sasuke, just give me a fucking break will ya!" Naruto snapped, probably more viciously than he had intended to. "I don't want to eat; I just need a bit of fucking space for a few minutes; is that too much to ask!"
The way Sasuke's features scrunched up in a flash of anger made Naruto regret both his words and his tone immediately.
"Fine," Sasuke hissed, shoving the sandwich more forcefully against Naruto's chest and letting go of it, making the other grab hold of it anyway. A little panicked, Naruto watched Sasuke move as if to stand up so he automatically reached out for his wrist to stop him, throwing him an apologetic look as the other glared.
"Don't. I'm sorry," Naruto said in a whisper. "I don't… want you out my sight at all, I just… I'll eat in a bit, okay? I promise."
Sasuke watched him for a few seconds before heaving a sigh that sounded far too tired before leaning back against the pilar. His features turned from angry to something else entirely – something heavy that made him look a lot older than he was, something burdened and sad – and again, Naruto felt guilty.
He hadn't stopped to think about how Sasuke must've been feeling right then. After all, Sasuke had wanted Naruto with him on this new journey of his life, had been willing to live just for them, for their goals, and yet, they were to part ways again, both their dreams forced to be mutated once more because they couldn't meet, because they wouldn't be together.
There was no doubt in Naruto's mind that Sasuke felt just as devastated, only he was able to hide it better.
Adjusting his body so he was sitting cross-legged (he was facing Sasuke's side), Naruto let his forehead drop to his friend's shoulder, his hand still squeezing his wrist, afraid to let go. Sasuke merely let his head fall to the side, so his temple was connecting to the top of Naruto's own head. The silent action felt so casual and intimate, so theirs at that moment that it was relieving. They shared the same feelings, and they both acknowledged it.
Naruto wanted to say so many things, to express himself more, but he found that he was too tired. What else was left to say when he had already said so much? What use would it be to utter vain words once more? To speak his feelings out loud, his regret, his suffering?
Words are just words in the end.
Shifting a bit, Naruto lifted his head up carefully to look at Sasuke, finding beautiful dark eyes ready to meet his with such intensity that it took his breath away.
He bit on his lower lip before leaning in and gently pressing his mouth to the one in front of him.
The position was a little awkward for them, so he tried to move a bit closer without breaking contact, letting go of Sasuke's wrist to touch Sasuke's shoulder, his other hand moving to cup his cheek and stroke it lovingly.
The kiss was gentle at first – a simple, soothing and coordinated brush of lips against lips from the amount of times they had already kissed like that before. It was reassuring and filled with words neither dared to say.
But then, Sasuke's hand came up to touch Naruto's arm, his hold tight. As if in response, Naruto's hand on his shoulder moved as well, to that elegant neck curve, and as his fingers met with smooth skin, they automatically slipped inside the loose collar of Sasuke's linen sweater to feel more.
Sasuke's lips parted as his tongue slipped out to seek for Naruto's. A moan escaped Naruto, and the whole world seemed to shift and shake in the few seconds it took for the kiss to intensify without either man noticing.
Naruto wasn't exactly sure of who's mouth had become more persistent first, when, exactly, Sasuke's body had twisted to awkwardly face his, or when their kiss had become so fierce their hearts had started beating so fast they could barely breathe.
Naruto was only vaguely aware of both of them struggling to get to their knees without breaking contact, because all of a sudden, all he could think about – all his body knew how to do, really – was to get as physically close to Sasuke as he possibly could. There was Sasuke's arm around his neck, their chests in full contact now. Someone gasped. The slurping sounds of their now too loud kissing seemed to drown out the sound of heavy raining outside.
The air had become dense and abnormally hot. It was so hot, Naruto thought desperately as his hands blindly pulled at the hem of Sasuke's sweater up so they could feel the firm skin of his body. Against him, Sasuke released an almost violent growl.
Sasuke's body seemed to be on fire, but then again, Naruto himself felt like this burning heat would engulf him and yet, instead of making him feel discouraged, it lured him in, made him thirsty for more.
Maybe it was their current tumultuous feelings combined, reaching out to each other through that invisible string that connected them, but somehow, this felt different from everything they had shared so far, and it was as painful as it was amazing, and Naruto knew that he wouldn't, couldn't run away from it even if he wanted to.
The need that awakened inside of him was frustrating and unbearable.
Their kiss broke with a lewd suction noise. Naruto wasted no time in attacking Sasuke's neck with his mouth, pulling him as close as he could by the waist. He was excited and anxious and barely able to focus on anything other than the man in his arms. The very obvious reciprocation of Sasuke's body against him only served to fuel his desire. It was maddening how quickly things had progressed in only a few minutes.
"Naruto…" Sasuke's urgent utter of his name made him shiver openly as he bit down on the curve of Sasuke's neck sensuously, hungrily. "Hey… are you listening?"
Sasuke wasn't exactly pushing him away (he was actually holding him close and even tilting his head to the side so the blond could have more access to his neck) so it was rather hard for Naruto to respond to the call for attention. Still, he managed to make a strangled noise with his throat, his fingers clawing at Sasuke's back possessively. The heavens help him; he was ready to eat the other man alive.
"If we do this…" Sasuke breathed, still sounding surprisingly coherent. "If we do this… we'll have to live with it forever. Do you understand? Naruto…"
Did he understand? It was crystal clear to him what this would do to them, and how it would affect them both, especially after their catastrophic conversation. Things weren't hope filled like before. It wasn't just about their feelings and their longing for each other anymore. That meant nothing. Right now, their feelings were nothing but a weight they'd be better off without so it could save them both all this unnecessary torment.
"You mean that this will become a burden," Naruto whispered in Sasuke's ear, his voice a little hoarse, but no less steady. "I understand that. I understand that something we both want so much will only serve to bring us more pain in the future. I know that very well."
Was it even possible to go through such a thing with someone you love and not have it being part of you forever?
He took a deep breath, inhaling Sasuke's familiar scent before pressing his cheek against Sasuke's as he hugged him tighter. There were so many feelings inside his chest he thought he might burst, but there was nothing else he could do but hold the other man. "We've come this far, Sasuke. There isn't anything about us that will ever be anything less than it already is. Even if it is a burden, it's too late to get rid of it… but I would never choose to not carry it, anyway."
Naruto pulled away to look at his friend once more, finding in his features the same stream of emotions he himself was feelings. It was funny, Naruto considered. They had been so sure and happy about taking a step further, and now, all of a sudden, it felt like a dangerous, far too ambitious thing to go through with. "Because there was never anything about you that was a burden to me. And this is no different. I'll gladly walk this path if it's with you."
Sasuke's mouth was slightly opened as he breathed hard, his eyes quickly scanning Naruto's features earnestly.
After closing his mouth and pressing it to a thin line, Sasuke inhaled sharply before nodding his head once. His eyes were penetrating and focused, but also very resolute. There was something in them that was very calm as well, and it managed to fill Naruto's chest with confidence.
Fingers ran through the hairs at the back of his neck, before tightening around them. "You have what we need, right?" Sasuke asked in a whisper.
"Yeah, it's in my bag."
Their lips met again in a brutal clash, their kiss now sloppy since it seemed pointless to hold back anymore.
Naruto tugged at Sasuke's sweater again. Breaking the contact, Sasuke lifted his arms up so Naruto could remove it over his head in one swift move and carelessly let it drop somewhere nearby. How glad Naruto was that neither had bothered with bandages that day.
"How are we going to do this?" Sasuke breathed, as Naruto hastily removed his own sweater and threw it to the side.
"You top," Naruto said without hesitation, hurriedly untying the strings of his pants. Just saying those words alone made his hands shake and become unnecessarily clumsy. "I want you to."
"Alright," Sasuke said, sounding slightly surprised by the firm decision as he watched Naruto basically fall back and roll around on the floor in the least sexy way possible to remove his sandals, pants and underwear impatiently. Naruto knew he looked ridiculous, and it shouldn't be this hard to take off your fucking clothes, but he was too excited already to care. "But you're going to have to help me… to… Naruto, what the fuck are you doing?"
Once he managed to be stark naked and kick everything to the side, Naruto hurried back into a kneeling position and immediately brought his hands to Sasuke's own pants, offering him a rather silly grin that was also a bit embarrassed.
"Sorry, I guess I'm just too enthusiastic for my own good," he apologized, looking down and almost groaning in annoyance at how complicated the knot in Sasuke's pants was. "How did you even manage to tie it this way single handily?!"
"Aren't we a little too eager?" Sasuke said, mockingly as he also looked down to watch Naruto desperately trying to untie those fucking knots. "It's not that complicated, idiot."
He slapped Naruto's hands away with his and calmly picked at the end of one of the strings. As if by some sort of miracle, the complicated knot loosened at once and Naruto could only roll his eyes. "Seriously?"
"Seriously," Sasuke said, with a small smirk.
Rolling his eyes again, Naruto brought his hands to Sasuke's pants and pulled them slightly down along with his underwear, carefully freeing the very obvious erection from its confines. He stared at it for a while and swallowed hard, feeling both excited and a little intimidated, because Sasuke was… well, he wasn't exactly small. Not huge either, definitely a little narrower than Naruto himself, but also bigger. Since they had only basically just rubbed up against each other and jerked each other off so far, he hadn't exactly considered sizes, but now he had to. That wouldn't feel the same as a finger, that was for sure.
But he was more than a little eager to find out what it would feel like.
Are we really going to do this?
"Feeling scared now, after you so confidently claimed you wanted me to top?" Sasuke teased in a whisper, pressing his lips to Naruto's forehead. Naruto could only snort.
"As if," he said, licking at his own lips with the tip of his tongue. He tilted his head up to brush his lips against Sasuke's and speak lowly against them. "I just fingered myself this morning thinking about how I wanted you to fuck me against the bathroom wall. Does that sound like me being scared to you?"
The way Sasuke's breath caught made Naruto very pleased indeed.
"You were taking too long in there," Sasuke replied, before swallowing hard. "Have you been thinking about that for too long?"
"Who knows," Naruto muttered, feeling his throat constricted, his knuckled boldly brushing over Sasuke's abs as his hand travelled lower to grab hold of his lover's firm cock. "I thought about a lot of things, Sasuke…"
He gave the turgid member a few languid strokes, causing Sasuke to sigh appreciatively. Then, Naruto kissed him shortly before adjusting his body and leaning down as he could so his face was levelled with Sasuke's cock. He watched it attentively for a while, actually looking at it as he worked on it with aroused curiosity. Many times before he had seen it, and yet, he had never really taken the time to look or even appreciate the feel of it properly. It was odd, because he really liked it. He liked it when it was hard like this, for him, liked to feel the smooth, delicate skin, enjoyed the scent and the small, occasional twitches…
Right now, he really wanted to…
There was a sudden tension in Sasuke's body. "What are you doing?" he asked in an unidentifiable tone as he ran his fingers through Naruto's messy hair, massaging his scalp.
"What does it look like I'm doing?" Naruto mumbled grumpily at the awkward question, not daring to look up. "Just let me do my thing."
There was no hesitation in his mind as leaned in to put his lips around the swollen pink head of Sasuke's cock and gave it a small, experimental suck before running his tongue over it.
"Ngh…"
Swallowing hard, Naruto couldn't tell if it was the muffled sound that Sasuke had released, the fact that he was actually sucking on Sasuke's dick or the sudden sensorial explosion that made his heart beat harder and his head become fuzzy.
With new found resolution, he ventured to take the length in further inside his mouth, even though he had absolutely no idea what the hell he was doing or what might please Sasuke – he only knew he wanted to do it.
They had never done this to each other before. Their encounters were always either far too heated moments of desperate search for release, or long drawn out explorations that usually consisted more in touching each other than anything else in a need that was far more emotional than physical.
But Naruto had desires, curiosities that he wanted to fulfil with Sasuke, and he might as well start now. Sucking Sasuke's cock hadn't exactly been a primordial fantasy, all things considered, but he had considered it before. He sincerely hoped Sasuke would repay the favour someday.
Naruto knew how that felt – Hinata had done that do him quite a few times – and he enjoyed it very much indeed, so now he wanted to see how Sasuke would react to it. He knew he could not overdo it if he wanted them to actually go through with it to the very end, though.
There was a strong grip on his hair now as Sasuke's essence overflowed unexpectedly, dripping over Naruto's tongue, and it was a bit a slimy and salty, but Naruto found that he didn't mind the taste at all, so he let Sasuke's cock slip form his mouth as he clumsily but eagerly lapped at the precum oozing out from the rosy tip, something inside of him rejoicing every time more droplets emerged. He liked the feeling of that hard member on his mouth, the textures under his tongue and the strong musky scent that invaded his nose. All of it felt and tasted as amazing and distinct as everything else of Sasuke's.
It was as though everything concerning his best friend had suddenly become an aphrodisiac.
Sasuke was moaning softly under his breath, obviously enjoying himself with those more than a little encouraging sounds as he tensed and refrained from moving too much so as to not break Naruto's concentration.
Naruto felt his own cock give a few pitiful twitches at his lover's restlessness, which caused a pleasurable shiver to run through him just as he was rolling his tongue around the head of Sasuke's cock. For a second, he thought that he was going to cum, and the feeling was confusing because he had been wisely neglecting his own erection, and yet, everything felt so intense and he knew he was hard enough to cum at the slightest caress at this point. He definitely couldn't overdo it, even if he felt like he wanted to tease Sasuke to oblivion and suck him dry. Fuck, he was ready to drink him whole if he could. But he wanted Sasuke to finally do him, so delaying it was not an option, which would happen if they came too soon.
Leaning back, Naruto stopped what he was doing to wipe at his mouth with his arm, making Sasuke look down at him, a little annoyed, with eyes glazed and heavy with lust.
"What?" he snapped breathlessly, with obvious disappointment. "Why did you stop?"
Naruto licked at his lips and shrugged, apologetically stroking him while he ran a thumb over the sensitized head. "I'm pretty close already…"
"You're giving me a blowjob, and you're the one who's close?" If Sasuke's voice wasn't so lust filled, he would've sounded appalled and even a little angry. "You have no self-restraint!"
"Shut up," Naruto hissed, sticking his tongue out at him. Sasuke was one to talk, he was always just as sensitive as him most of the times. "You have no idea how fucking horny you make me!"
There was a weird expression on Sasuke's face just then. He tugged at Naruto's hair forcefully to make him straighten up so they were face to face.
"Don't say such things…" Sasuke gritted out through clenched teeth, in a way that sounded both immensely turned on and warning, his hand running up and down from the back of Naruto's head to the back of his neck in a very possessive and sensuous way.
"It's true," Naruto admitted, heatedly. "When we do this sort of thing I can't help myself. I've never been this desperate for another person in my life, Sasuke. You have no idea."
Naruto couldn't help a small smile as Sasukes eyes travelled avidly over his features as if to confirm in them the words he was speaking. Letting go of the length in his hand, Naruto gently touched the other man's shoulders, caressing them before letting his hands slide down the arms. Of course, the path of his right hand on Sasuke's left arm was interrupted, and he looked down at it, to the remains of what had once been a fully functional limb. His heart ached at the sight, as it always did, but he had long since stopped feeling bitter or sad about it. Sasuke was Sasuke, the person he cared for and needed above everyone else, and no matter what, he would always be stronger, more resilient, more powerful and more beautiful than anyone else. That would never change.
"Let's just do it," Naruto pleaded, feeling his breathing become erratic once more.
Taking a deep, steadying breath, Sasuke said "Go get the lube and the condoms."
It wasn't like Naruto wanted to break the proximity between them, but he knew that he had to, so it was with a slightly resentful nod that he pulled away and quickly dragged himself towards his bag – which was laying not too far from them – and rummaged inside it for the much[D1] needed items. It wasn't as though he had expected things to happen between them today, but Naruto always carried the items with him just in case, not to mention that it wasn't exactly safe to just leave them back at Taka's place where anyone could just see them and tease them even more. Not that Suigetsu didn't already.
Once he managed to grab for the small bottle and find one of the three condoms he owned, he moved back to where his lover was, feeling slightly nervous all of a sudden. Sasuke was watching him with that inscrutable expression of his, but his eyes were undoubtedly soft and focused.
"I, um… Do you want me to put it on you now?" Naruto mumbled, clenching both items in his sweaty hands.
"Sure."
Naruto couldn't understand what was this need to just do things for Sasuke and make him feel good and confident. He knew that, without an arm, Sasuke wouldn't be as proficient as he could've been otherwise, but Naruto didn't feel discouraged by that at all, and neither did he belittle Sasuke's abilities. It was just that he wanted to do something and make sure Sasuke knew he wanted every little thing happening between them, but he didn't know how to express himself properly or how to act accordingly. He wanted everything to be perfect for their first time together, even though he knew it was probably only wishful thinking since Naruto was a virgin and Sasuke was… well, Naruto didn't know much, but he was sure Sasuke had never fucked another man before, at least. He felt silly in his own hormonal daze.
Gulping, he put the bottle of lube down so he could use both hands to rip the package open with slightly trembling hands and take out the rubbery item, throwing the empty package to the side. Even though he had never put a condom on himself (least of all on others), he knew the theoretical part of it enough to know that he had to pinch the tip first, which he did, before pressing the condom to the head of Sasuke's still rather impressively firm cock. Biting on his lower lip, he carefully rolled the condom on the length. Once he was over, Sasuke used his own hand to adjust it better around the base and Naruto heaved a sigh of relief.
"I hope you don't deflate in the meanwhile," he said playfully, grabbing for the bottle of lube again and uncapping it.
Sasuke's eyes merely narrowed as he threw him a rather seductive, almost dangerous smirk. "I don't think that will be a problem."
In spite of himself, a highly flattered blush crept up Naruto's cheeks as a mild feeling of anguish and love filled his heart.
Yes, that was the issue, wasn't it? Sasuke sometimes reacted to things so differently from him, but their feelings were the same. Exactly the same. The same longing, the same desire, the same love, the same pain, the same hatred…
It was a vicious cycle that connected them, endless and resilient, theirs. No matter what, they felt the same way about each other, so Naruto just had to always remember that, regardless of Sasuke's actions or words. It would follow them closely to their last dying breath.
Naruto didn't even understand why he kept trying so hard to let Sasuke know his feelings and his thoughts. No matter how hard he tried, how much he did or many words he wasted, it never seemed to be enough.
But then again… was ever anything about them enough?
Never.
Pouring a considerable amount of lube on his hand, Naruto carefully palmed the erection in front of him with it, making sure he did so evenly and that there was enough. He had a vague idea of how tight his anus was and that it didn't exactly self lubricate, so things might be rough if they weren't properly prepared.
Sasuke hissed at the touch and Naruto took a sharp intake of breath as his mind decided that it was a great time to fantasise about what was to come. Just touching Sasuke's cock like this made every nerve in his body boil with want. His own erection ached, swollen and angrily demanding for attention, but he tried to ignore it, no matter how desperate he was. They'd have time for mindless, quick releasing sex at some point, but now it was their first time and he didn't want to ruin it when Sasuke himself was behaving so flawlessly. Well, if Naruto himself had managed to be this paitient so far, he owed it to Sasuke's self-control.
"You think that's enough?" Naruto asked hoarsely, before clearing his throat.
"We'll see," Sasuke replied a little breathlessly. Leaning in, he placed a small kiss on Naruto's cheek, clearly noticing his condition. "Put some lube on my fingers. I need to prep you, too."
If Naruto had been standing, he would've swayed on his feet because the effect those words had on his brain made something short circuit there.
Sasuke was going to finger him. He really was…
A little too eagerly, as soon as Sasuke extended his hand to him with palm turned upwards, Naruto poured a generous amount of lube over the fingers presneted – maybe a bit too much – but Sasuke didn't seem to mind as he moved his own fingers and rubbed them against each other to spread the lube better over them.
"Brace yourself on the pillar. I'm going to need you to spread yourself for me." Sasuke then instructed. His voice was low and alluring but a bit rough around the edges, as though he was truly trying his best to be composed but was on the verge of cracking.
Naruto swallowed hard, just those words alone causing a violent shiver to run through him. He felt his cheeks catch fire, but it wasn't from embarrassment, but from excitement. He was so turned on, he felt so strong, yet so vulnerable, so enchanted by Sasuke's presence and the intensity in his lust filled eyes…. He wanted nothing more than for Sasuke to feel the same way – to want him just as much as he wanted Sasuke.
Those words, combined with that dark, smooth voice almost had Naruto cumming on the spot, but instead, he just bit on his lower lip, taking one last look at Sasuke's figure. Fuck, he looked terribly sexy, with his hair dishevelled, his eyes filled with that hypnotizing intensity and his cock standing proudly from the confines of his opened pants that hung loosely around his hips. He looked absolutely gorgeous.
Even without that fucking arm, he had Naruto surrendered with his imposing figure and otherworldly beauty.
For the umpteenth time, Naruto forced himself to swallow hard.
I'm not going to last, he thought desperately. He was sure he'd come hard the moment Sasuke so much as touched him more meaningfully.
Keep your shit together, Naruto!
Still, he had no choice but to put the bottle of lube aside and wipe his hand on the table towel beneath them. The floor was hard and it was starting to hurt his knees, but there was no other choice for the time being since they had to use the easiest position to accommodate Sasuke's condition and their lack of experience.
Sasuke moved aside so Naruto could drag himself towards the pillar, facing it. He had to take a deep breath first, before bracing himself on the cold marble surface with one hand, reaching out behind him with the other to grab for one ass-cheek and push it to the side so Sasuke could have better acess to it. One would say that this was an embarrassing pose, and it was, but strangely enough, more than feeling ashamed, Naruto felt terribly turned on and restless. He really couldn't wait for what was coming.
He could feel Sasuke's cock against the back of his thigh. The tip of Sasuke's finger touched his entrance and Naruto jerked slightly at the unfamiliar sensation to such a place, but immediately felt more comfortable as he felt it being gently circled. Sasuke did it only for a few seconds to get him accustomed to the feeling before carefully starting by pressing only the tip of said finger inside, causing Naruto's muscles to clench in anticipation, his heart beating furiously inside his chest, thumping loudly in his ears. Just that little intrusion felt sinfully good, but Sasuke seemed to be hesitating, which was normal considering he had no idea how it felt for Naruto, which was why the blond decided to voice his go ahead with a small encouraging moan.
The heavily lubricated finger easily slipped further inside him until it was knuckle deep in. The foreign invasion made his body react as if it wanted to expel it, but the sensation was unlike anything Naruto had ever felt, similar, but different from when he had done it to himself, definitely better.
Slowly, Sasuke removed the finger halfway before pressing it in once more. He did this few more times, more confidently now, effectively managing to loosen the passage slightly. Naruto tried to stay still at first, but the more Sasuke did it, the more on edge he felt, and the more fidgety he became. He didn't understand how something so simple could feel so absurdly good, not to mention that his body seemed to feel increasingly hungrier for more.
"Fuck…" he mumbled meekly, pressing his forehead against the pillar. "That's so good."
Behind him, Sasuke took another deep, but shaky breath. Naruto felt lips on his spine, between his shoulder blades, brushing hotly over his skin before a nasty tongue licked all the way up to the back of his neck. He shivered openly and heaved a long sigh. Sasuke's finger withdrew, only to be replaced by two. Naruto barely had time to breathe in and the two fingers were nudging their way inside. This time, the sensation was different – slightly uncomfortable; it stung and it felt like being unnecessary stretched – but not less pleasurable, because that light pain brought another spark to his lust. It was obvious to him that Sasuke had never done that before, and yet he was careful and had just the right amount of gentleness and firmness required, so it truly felt amazing in every sense of the word, because Naruto could feel his body becoming more and more sensitized by the minute.
Naruto didn't need to look to know that he was leaking heavily, his own cock weeping for attention, begging for release.
A kiss was planted to one of his shoulder blades at the same time that the two fingers moved, pulling out and thrusting in several times, deep and with a precision that was nothing beneath maddening. He couldn't help the long moan that escaped his throat if he tried.
"Ah…"
He couldn't believe that Sasuke was literally fucking him with his fingers. More, he couldn't believe he even had something of Sasuke inside of him and that they were so connected like this, finally, skin on skin, sharing this heat, so shamelessly delivering each other like this. His brain couldn't handle it; it was so good he felt like he might pass out.
When Sasuke's fingers hit something miraculous inside of him, a strong wave of pleasure washed over him and he moaned even louder this time. His cock gave a violent twitch and pulsed as if he was cumming, and yet, it felt a bit different, less intense but no less pleasurable. There was no way he had ever felt anything similar to this, so he felt dazed and confused as he looked down at his erection and found that a pearly string of cum was leaking out. But he knew he hadn't exactly had an orgasm because he didn't feel saciated at all, so what the hell…
"Did you just cum?" Sasuke asked hotly in his ear, not stopping the ministrations of his fingers.
In spite of his own confusion and of his increasing desire, Naruto had managed to stutter out a weak "I-I'm not sure…"
He could swear Sasuke was smirking. "Was it because I touched you here?"
Somehow, the bastard had teasingly pushed his fingers inside deep once more and consequentially pressed that fucking amazing spot again. It made Naruto see stars and his cock throb again.
"Fuck, Sasuke…" Naruto panted, closing his eyes tightly. That was just pure torture. Pure, blissful, hellish torture that he both wanted to end and to last forever. "Just don't stop… please…"
"If you want to cum, then just cum…" Sasuke said, kissing him behind the ear in an almost mocking but really enticing tone. "You should take full advantage of the fact that I'm the one who needs to hold it in to the end."
"I just want you to fuck me already…" Naruto grunted through gritted teeth.
Sasuke released a slow breath in his ear. "Spread yourself wider, Naruto; you're slacking off."
The other was going to offer a nasty reply but could only gasp helplessly as Sasuke twisted his own palm upwards and decided to add yet a third finger to the party, effectively turning all of Naruto's muscles into something resembling jelly with the added burn. He didn't think it was possible to feel this full, this completely enamoured by feelings and sensation, and he had never really understood the concept of pain and pleasure quite as well as he had whenever Sasuke was involved. His fingers scratched the pillar in front of him as he awkwardly tried to adjust his other sweaty hand to push the ass cheek more to the side, but he was nothing but a mass of need and he was sure that, sooner or later, he'd fall apart.
Sasuke fingered him patiently, wanting him to be as relaxed and ready as possible, but it became clear to Naruto from the way he was breathing hard against him that he was also probably reaching his limit. They both were, and the anticipation was becoming excruciating.
"Is this like your fantasy?" Sasuke inquired hotly burying his face in the curve of Naruto's neck. "Was this what you were thinking about while you fucked yourself?"
In spite of his dazed state, Naruto snorted and even managed to smile a bit to himself.
"I know you're going to get cocky but… this… is a thousand times better than my fantasy," he panted meaningfully. Then, he ventured an impatient roll of his hips so he could press himself back against Sasuke's body, feeling his lover's raging erection press more against his leg, leaving trails of the lube it was coated with everywhere. "Just fuck me already, Sasuke. I want you to cum, too. I want you inside me, now."
He could swear that Sasuke had shivered.
"You have a surprisingly dirty mouth on you," his friend hissed, voice dripping with obvious desire, but also with a hint of astonishment. "Are you trying to finish me off already?"
"It's your fault. You make me act this way," Naruto replied impatiently. "Sasuke… it's fine already, so just…"
"Be quiet."
Sasuke's authoritative tone effectively shut Naruto up. The fingers left him completely, causing him to feel suddenly empty, his anus throbbing both from the ministrations and from eagerness for more. But as Sasuke leaned away slightly, Naruto felt his breath catch. It didn't take long for him to feel something poking against his entrance once more, and it was definitely harder and thicker that the three fingers previously used. Naruto's mind was immediately blown away as Sasuke's cock slowly made its way inside.
No, definitely not the same. It didn't hurt as much as he had thought thanks to Sasuke's thorough prepping, but more than ever, Naruto felt like his insides were being terribly stretched and that he was being filled to the maximum of his capabilities. It was a terrifying, but also incredible feeling that made goosebumps rise on his skin. Still, he wanted it all, and was relieved that his body wasn't offering Sasuke any resistance. He knew he'd accommodate the foreign width inside of him soon, so he wasn't worried in the least, quite the contrary – he just wanted things to move along and fast.
"Ho-holy shit…" he stuttered, impulsively pressing backwards harshly until Sasuke was in all the way. A pained but ecstatic gasp left his mouth "Oh…"
Behind him, Sasuke seemed to be having a bit of difficulty in reacting once he was engulfed in Naruto's heat, because he became very still, his breathing loud and shaky as he hissed softly. Naruto could relate, which was why he said nothing. He wanted to speed things along, desperately so, but also felt grateful for the break, otherwise he was sure he'd cum before even having the time to enjoy what he was supposed to, so he willed his lust filled mind to clear a bit and for his body to just stop being so on edge. He genuinely had no fucking idea how he had managed to last this long.
They took a few seconds to adjust to this new feeling and find some semblance of control. It was easier said than done for Naruto, who had Sasuke's cock buried deep inside his ass and felt more than a little compelled to do something about it and feel more, but he stopped himself. He was aware that this wasn't exactly something to be taken light-heartedly and that they couldn't just fuck like beasts in heat during their first time, and least of all before Naruto was properly loose. But damn it, it was fucking frustrating.
"Does it hurt?" Sasuke asked softly after a while, his voice considerably steadier.
"It feels good," Naruto admitted, truthfully. "Please, just move… I'm trying to hold back, but it's driving me fucking crazy…"
Without needed further words of encouragement, Sasuke pulled out slightly and then pushed slowly back in always being infuriatingly considerate and careful. The feeling of that lazy slide of turgid flesh rubbing against Naruto's insides stung but also felt unbelievably relieving, and yet, it seemed to set Naruto's every nerve on fire with sensation.
He'd be damned if that wasn't one of the best feelings he had ever experienced, and he didn't hesitate in spreading his increasingly sore knees wider apart, finally releasing is ass cheek since Sasuke no longer needed the aid so he could brace himself with both hands properly on the pillar. Sasuke placed his still slippery hand over his hip to aid his movements.
The Uchiha, who had been mostly quiet so far, allowed himself to let out a low moan of pleasure before finding a careful but steady pace that apparently suited him for now. Naruto was fine with the slow thrusting since it allowed him to enjoy it fully even though it made him feel terribly impatient, but somehow he loved the vexing torment.
Having Sasuke inside him was like… something out of this world that he couldn't identify if he tried. It felt perfect and pleasurable beyond words. The way their bodies fit felt so good it made him woozy, adreanaline flowing through his veins at a worrying speed. It was something akin to divine, this level of intimacy that he hadn't wanted to share with anyone but his precious friend. It was a sea of emotions that he couldn't explain, all mixed up and heightened from the heavy weight of their willing joining.
It was as if Sasuke had been built specifically to fit with Naruto exactly like this – to make love to him just like this and give him nothing but unparalleled pleasure.
Naruto understood now that this was why nothing had made sense before. This was why his body had waited for so long – because it just had to be Sasuke and no-one else. His body had known it wanted to loose itself to Sasuke's hands even before Naruto himself did.
There had been no other way. It had to be Sasuke.
A small sob made it's out of Naruto's mouth, but he wasn't crying, he was just deeply moved and more than a little overwhelmed. He grunted indecorously, feeling desperate as Sasuke started to move faster, more confidently now, plunging in deeper and managing to often rub against that mysterious spot inside of him that made explosions of desire wash over him.
It was real, but Naruto didn't believe that it was humanly possible for two people to feel this much with each other.
Whatever little control they had managed to keep before shattered to pieces in the first couple of minutes of Sasuke's penetration.
Naruto had felt a growing desire with Hinata, the kind that gradually emerges between couples, careful and slow building. They had progressively become intimate, and Naruto had gotten hard for her many times because his body had needs and had reacted naturally to provocations coming from her. She was beautiful. He had desired her naturally as a man, and yet, so many things had stopped him from being inside her like Sasuke was inside of him right now.
And… with her, that desire hadn't been overwhelming like this. It hadn't been this desperate, instantaneous, strong and all-consuming. It hadn't made him want to possess her, to eat her alive, to merge with her so they could never be apart again.
Behind him, Sasuke said something but Naruto's brain had stopped connecting with reality and all he could feel was the way Sasuke's chest collided with his back and all he could hear was his lover's heavy breathing, his small pants of ecstasy, and the deafening sound of skin slapping against skin powerfully where they joined.
Unable to stop himself, Naruto moved his hips urgently to meet Sasuke's thrusts in a clumsy tempo that was slightly awkward but that didn't really take them off balance.
With Sasuke, everything had exploded from the very beginning. Everything was too much, and not enough at the same time. They triggered each other and their bodies burst to flames and there was nothing they could do but give in. The way they pulled each other in, the way their skins felt against each other, the wild beating of their hearts, those suffocating and agonizing feelings that never seemed to be able to truly give them release, or comfort, or an exit.
Sasuke's possessive hand was now clawing at his stomach, the ruthless slide of his cock inside of him painfully erotic, his thirsty lips on his shoulder. The heavenly feel of their hot, perspiring bodies moving together, their sweat mingling as their blood once did on that fateful day. Naruto couldn't breathe.
I love him.
No matter what they both did, these wild feelings and urges couldn't be tamed.
There was no matching this level of desire, of want. It was bigger than them, he knew. And yet…
Naruto's arm came behind him to grab at the back of Sasuke's head just as Sasuke pushed inside with one languid but strong thrust that hit all the right nerves inside of him again. He did it over and over and over again, so Naruto bit on his lower lip hard, a pained growl rumbling inside his throat. Sasuke groaned and latched his mouth wetly on the side of Naruto's neck.
That passion they shared had a will of its own and would not let itself be erased. Naruto understood that now.
He understood the meaning of Sasuke's worries now. This level of physical connection, this emotional deliverance and this painful perfection that had to have been bestowed upon them by some divine entity…
All of it would haunt them forever.
I am doomed.
If he died now, he would have no regrets. He knew he wouldn't die, but in the heat of their vile fucking, he wondered if, eventually, the pain this love brought would end up killing him.
Sasuke's thrusts had picked up a steady but fast pace now that was both ruthless and anxious, letting Naruto know that he was close. He was overcome with deep feelings just then. He didn't want it to be over so soon, but he knew they were both desperate for release together already and that there was little they could do to prolong this any longer.
Sasuke's teeth sank on the curve of his neck harshly before licking hungrily at the spot, and Naruto released a small, pleasurable hiss. With his free hand, he grabbed for Sasuke's and quickly guided it towards his cock. Even close to the edge, Sasuke was able to understand the message as his hand – still covered by Naruto's – enveloped him in blissful heat. Together, they worked up a proficient but urgent pace on Naruto's cock as Sasuke's thrusts became more erratic.
I love him.
Naruto felt his orgasm hitting him hard a few seconds later, shaking him to the core. He came with a low grunt all over the pillar and their hands in seemingly endless spurts of white, the way his anus clenched around Sasuke's cock excruciating but also heightening the strength of his final bliss.
He was only vaguely aware of Sasuke letting out a muffled groan against his shoulder before he, too, was riding his own orgasm in a few rather unforgiving and uncoordinated thrusts. Naruto was only able to feel a little bit of his pulsing member inside of him, but it only fuelled them further as they held on to each other as tight as they could in that position until it was all over.
That had been, by far, the best thing he had ever done in his life, and he had shared it with his most precious person. It couldn't have been any other way. Unexperienced as it had been, it had been unmistakably powerful.
It seemed as though the world had shook and crumbled beneath them only to be put back together. It seemed as though so much had changed, and yet, around them everything was the same. The rain still poured down heavily outside, and the wind still brought in a cold chill to it that neither had noticed in their heated intercourse.
Outside, the reality of their world was still the same, and so was the reality they were sharing just then.
Nothing had changed. They were still as strong and equally as helpless as before.
If anything, things had gotten better and substantially worse for them. Naruto was aware of this, but there was no way he could possibly regret ever sharing such otherworldly things with Sasuke.
Naruto's knees hurt like a bitch from supporting his weight on the hard ground for so long, but he didn't want to move. Sasuke was still in him and he wished that it could be like this forever. Maybe if they didn't move, time wouldn't pass at all.
He swallowed hard, a sudden surge of hysterical and painful emotions assaulting him. His eyes stung unexpectedly. Once more, he felt moved to very depths of his soul.
They were both left panting for a long time. Sasuke had his forehead resting against his spine and only now did Naruto just notice how badly he was trembling. More than ever, Naruto could feel Sasuke's chaotic feelings as if they were his own. Sasuke sniffed quietly but didn't speak.
Their reality was his, Naruto realized, biting on his lower lip and fixating his watery eyes on the world outside of that broken window before him. He gently tugged Sasuke's hand away from his deflating cock and laced their fingers together – they were dirty with cum and lube, slippery, but Sasuke didn't protest, merely squeezing his back slightly. Another sniff seemed to resound way too loudly in the room and Naruto could only tighten his hold on the hairs of Sasuke's head behind him. He wanted to turn around and hold him, kiss him, but didn't dare to move, feeling the weight of Sasuke's feelings too heavily in his own heart. He sobbed slightly and closed his eyes, two twin tears rolling down his cheeks. He didn't understand how it was possible for someone to feel so happy, and so miserable at the same time.
"I love you..." he whispered, his lips trembling as he spoke, his own words causing a strong impact on him. "I know it doesn't mean anything at this point, but I do. I really do, Sasuke..."
Sasuke didn't answer, but Naruto didn't expect him to anyway.
He could feel something warm and wet moistening his back and trailing down his spine.
He lost the strength to do anything else.
Maybe it had been better if the world had crumbled down after all, and hopefully swallow them both whole, as well…
TBC…
I did not expect this ending, to be honest. But alas, my poor Sauce broke down. I guess there was so much emotional baggage already that it took its toll. I feel for them.
I wanted this scene to be a lot shorter and for the actual sex to be a bit more intense and wild, but as it progressed, it didn't happen. We'll have time for that later down the road, I believe.
I think that it was definitely a lot less sexy than what I had first intended, but I can't say I'm displeased.
I am hoping that the plot moves along in the next chapter. A few parts for it are already written :)
Thank you for reading and for the constant support!
I know I haven't been replying to reviews lately, but I promisse I'll keep up with them from now on!
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