A/N: And here it is, a brand new chapter of FWWR for all of my patient readers as a special holiday gift!
I've been working on this for a while now but was struggling to find the right… ambiance, I suppose, but all of a sudden, Sasuke and Naruto decided to take matters into their own hands, and this is how it turned out – rather unexpectedly, I suppose. But well, I guess this is something we've all been waiting for, and I sincerely hope you guys like it!
Not betaed, so forgive me for the typos.
THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS EXPLICT MATURE M/M CONTENT, READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!
From Which We'll Rise
Part XXIV: Falling Again
It was easy for Sasuke to enter the village of Konoha without being noticed - nothing a quick genjutsu thrown at the gate keepers couldn't handle - and from then on it was all about being fast and agile through the streets to get where he wanted to. Sasuke never had to actively test this out, but he was sure it was a flawless plan, which said a lot about Konoha's security and the people guarding its entrance.
Of course, Sasuke was one of the most powerful shinobi alive now, so he couldn't really fault them.
However, there was Katsuo to think about, and while Sasuke was sure he could carry the boy safely inside with his cunning, it was too much of a high risk to take.
Thankfully, Naruto seemed to have constructed the 'ideal' plan by turning himself into an old merchant lady from a small village close by and carry Katsuo inside a large satchel he'd carry on his back while Sasuke got inside by his own means. It was surprisingly simple since the old lady was a weekly visitor (sometimes more than once a week), so Naruto had thought things through properly. Sasuke could barely believe how smoothly they reached their destination.
The apartment Naruto had gotten them was surprisingly comfortable, and way better than Sasuke had expected. The fact that it was located on a secluded old street far from the center of the village was also a bonus.
Despite having a single bedroom, one bathroom and one bathing room, the place was considerably small, with a kitchen that was connected to the living area where a single low dark wooden table could be seen. There was barely any furniture apart from this and the double bed in one of the rooms, but there were wardrobes embed into the walls with useful futons there, so Sasuke didn't complain. After all, they'd only be there for a few days if everything went according to plan.
Sasuke was even surprised that Naruto had been thoughtful enough to clean things up for them, being mindful enough to fill the small old fridge with fresh food. When Sasuke asked him how much he wanted for the trouble, Naruto had merely brushed him off as if this had somehow offended him.
Naruto sure had worked hard because of them, and knowing it filled Sasuke's heart with an arrogant sense of joy.
If, on one hand, he had been hesitant in asking Naruto for help regarding Katsuo, on the other hand, it made Sasuke feel shamelessly cocky. It was because Sasuke knew Naruto would turn the world upside down to fulfill his wish that he knew he could count on him no matter what, and no matter how disappointing Naruto was in some things, this time he didn't disappoint at all. Sasuke was glad, even if this feeling was also very egotistical because he knew that, for Naruto to have given so much of himself, he had also wasted precious time of his life that he could've spent with family and friends.
If there was one thing Sasuke hated about himself was constantly feeling sorry for the things that went wrong with Naruto's 'other' life, and yet, he couldn't help it. Even if he hated that Naruto lived, in Konoha, a life that couldn't meet his, truth was, Sasuke understood that his friend had duties and responsibilities to live up to, and that in that place, there were people who loved and needed him. Regardless of how much he wished things were different, in the end, there was more than just 'them', and this was something that they both tended to forget often.
Naruto was now a husband, a father and a public figure that people looked up to, and despite all the frustrating feelings this caused in Sasuke, there was no denying that he felt a sense of pride as well. Of course, this all came from a source of hypocrisy he couldn't stand if he tried, but it was what it was.
Nevertheless, there Naruto was, going out of his way and prioritizing Sasuke over everyone else - even his own family - and no matter how hard Sasuke tried to make sense of it, he just couldn't. Of course, he understood that Naruto thought highly of him, and their bond would always force them to look out for each other first and foremost, but…
Naruto was always so adamant in his resolution of staying in Konoha and becoming Hokage that it seemed impossible that he would so easily drop everything close to him to help Sasuke out.
How ironic, though, that choosing Sasuke over Konoha was a great torment to him and something he simply couldn't do at this point.
That Naruto could be so passionate and kind, and simultaneously so mindless and cruel was something that baffled Sasuke to no end, but this was a side of the man that people were clueless about.
Regardless, Sasuke would always be grateful for the things Naruto did for him, especially if they benefited Katsuo.
And now, the three of them were sitting on the floor at the low table and Sasuke was watching silently as Naruto explained Katsuo how to use sign language.
It was interesting because Katsuo didn't know how to read yet, but Naruto made sure he could make things easier for the boy by working on simple things first, like greetings, casual questions and expression of most common requests of basic needs, like water, certain foods, sleep and physiological necessities. He'd even brought a few books that he'd opened in front of Katsuo and glued pictures in front of the hand gestures' descriptions so Katsuo could look at them and practice instead of having to ask Sasuke to read for him.
He was impressed, Sasuke had to admit it, but then again, Naruto had worked as a part-time teacher so he shouldn't be surprised.
Sasuke, too, was being careful to take everything in - after all, this was the tool that would allow Katsuo to communicate with him, even if he, himself, wouldn't need to use sign language.
This was a new step in his and Katsuo's relationship that was both exciting and a little intimidating. Sasuke knew how quickly the child adapted to new things, and in no time, he'd be eagerly expressing himself, letting him know everything that was on his mind. Calm and obedient as he was, Katsuo did have an honest personality that was starting to shine, and it made Sasuke eager to see more.
When night fell, Sasuke made dinner as Naruto practiced things with Katsuo repeatedly, asking the boy questions and randomly asking him to do the hand signs of certain words. As expected, Katsuo had picked up on everything easily and was quickly responding to Naruto with unhesitant gestures of his small hands. At dinner time, he even waved his hand to get Sasuke's attention and voluntarily made the signs to express that he was enjoying the food. Sasuke could only smile and thank him. Then, Katsuo made new, excited gestures to ask something in the likes of 'are you pleased with me?' and Sasuke almost melted.
"Never doubt it," he said, ruffling the top of his silvery head. Katsuo managed a small, crooked smile, but his eyes (still as blue as Naruto's) shone with absolute glee as he looked from Sasuke to Naruto in search of approval.
Sasuke's very soul was throbbing with joy. When he and Naruto exchanged glances, he couldn't really help the pleasant fluttering of his heart at the idiot's grin. In moments like these, it was almost easy to forget all the obstacles that stood between them to focus only on the gratitude he felt and the love that flooded him.
Because he knew that, out of love for him, Naruto had made this possible. Out of love, Naruto would do anything, and in times like these, it was so simple to fantasize about this kind of reality for them, where everything was simple, and they could be a real family.
The three of them cleaned everything up together before Sasuke went to help Katsuo getting ready for bed. The boy was clearly very happy for having learned a new form of communication and kept poking him so he could see the hand gestures he was making. It was endearing and amusing at the same time.
This was the sort of prideful happiness that was hard to beat, and Sasuke felt content like he hadn't in a long, long time.
000
After putting Katsuo to sleep and closing the door of the room they'd be sharing, Sasuke sat down at the low table again, across from a smiling Naruto.
It was late already, so Sasuke had already turned off the lights and lit a lamp that rested on the kitchen counter. The scarce illumination reminded him of 'his' village and Misato's house, which in turn helped this small apartment to feel more familiar and comfortable.
Naruto couldn't complain since he enjoyed the peacefulness that the dim lighting seemed to provide.
"Figures he'd be a fast learner like his dad," Naruto commented teasingly. "Did you see all the stuff he already knows?"
"Well, you were teaching him for hours," Sasuke pointed out, with a small smirk. "But you're doing a good job, Naruto."
"It was fun learning sign language, and even more fun teaching it to him," Naruto dismissed, feeling his cheeks reddening at the praise. "I want him to learn everything he can while you guys are here. And it figures you'd pick up on stuff instantly as well, bastard."
Sasuke's smirk turned a bit cocky. "Being naturally intelligent has its perks."
"Oh, shove it, why don't you?" Naruto said, rolling his eyes. Then, he conspicuously lowered his voice and leaned forward slightly on the table. "Is Katsu-chan sleeping already?"
"He seemed pretty tired, so even if he isn't, he will be soon," Sasuke replied, raising an inquisitive eyebrow.
"Nice; then I can get the stuff I have here for us!" Naruto said, throwing Sasuke a mischievous look before getting up and making his way to the kitchen area.
As Naruto rummaged through the cabinet above the sink, he could feel Sasuke watching him, which made him slightly self-aware for some reason, even if he couldn't detect any sort of negative emotions coming from him - quite the contrary. Naruto could tell that Sasuke was calm, content even, but his chakra still carried that edge of tenseness to it that never seemed to go away.
That 'tenseness' was something Naruto had come to know well. With time, he had taught himself how to not get carried away by what it caused in him and how to pretend that it didn't exist, even if it was highly intoxicating and difficult to ignore.
That 'tenseness' was caused by Sasuke's love, his lust, his anger, and his frustration towards all these feelings at once. It was as alluring as it was frightening, and it turned Sasuke into both those things as well, in Naruto's eyes.
Because Sasuke was so unpredictable, Naruto found it easier - and safer - to work with Sasuke's body language rather than his emotional one.
"This was a gift from Kakashi-sensei on my last birthday," Naruto informed, grabbing for the bottle of liquor he had hidden in the cabinets as well as two worn out transparent glasses. He closed the cabinet door and turned to Sasuke with a grin. "I know it's expensive stuff, so I wanted to save it for a special occasion."
"What's so special about today?" Sasuke asked casually while Naruto sat back on the floor, now next to him, and placed both glasses in front of them on the table. He was on Sasuke's left side, both facing the door of Katsuo's room.
"Well, we're together, duh," Naruto replied, unscrewing the cork and rolling his eyes. "I think that's special enough."
"Or maybe you just want an excuse to drink," Sasuke said, smoothly, resting his cheek on his closed first.
"With you, yeah," Naruto countered, pouring the liquor over Sasuke's glass first and then over his.
"You always want to drink with me," Sasuke retorted, with sarcasm in his voice. "I'm starting to wonder if you want it to become a ritual or if you have a drinking problem."
"I do not have a drinking problem; get off my back," Naruto muttered, setting the bottle down with a small frown. "There's nothing wrong with having a relaxing drink from time to time, and even better if it's shared with a special friend."
"I'm a special friend now, huh?" Sasuke said monotonously, faking an unimpressed look.
Naruto made a face at him. "Fuck you."
Ignoring the insult, Sasuke slowly picked up his glass almost uninterestedly and took a delicate whiff of the beverage. "Smells nice."
Naruto copied him, shoving his nose inside the glass and immediately catching the strong scent of alcohol that burned his nostrils and brought tears to his eyes. He coughed. "Strong, too."
Sasuke smirked and raised his glass in Naruto's direction. "Traditional toast, then?"
"Hell, yeah," Naruto said with a small grin, wiping at his teary eyes with the back of one hand and using the other to clink his glass against Sasuke's.
Naruto took an experimental sip, cringing while confirming that it was strong, but as he looked to the side, he noticed that Sasuke was downing the thing in one go. His chin fell as Sasuke lowered his own glass and smacked his lips together casually. "Not bad," he said, extending the glass towards Naruto in a silent request for more.
Naruto obliged with a nod, putting his glass down to pour Sasuke some more of the liquor. Vaguely he considered that this could almost be called submissive on his part.
Traditionally, the person pouring the drink would always be the one demonstrating respect/reverence towards the other person, like a wife towards a husband, an underling towards their superior, or a host towards their guest. Of course, Naruto knew he and Sasuke were equals, but a part of him felt that he still somehow fit the role of the devoted party. In this type of friendly environment where he and Sasuke were content together, he didn't mind serving him if he had to.
Intently, he watched as Sasuke brought the glass to his lips, now being careful and taking only a small, appreciative sip. Naruto grabbed for his own glass and drank a bit, too, his eyes roaming over Sasuke's impeccable features.
Now that he thought about it, he had fantasized about this sort of scenario many times, and truth be told, this was one of his favorite situations to be in with his best friend - this domestic, companionable setting where they interacted easily, completely distancing themselves from the outside world as if everything was perfectly fine. This kind of 'normal' was something Naruto craved for with Sasuke but knew to be far from his reach.
Not for the first time, Naruto wondered how many things he'd have to destroy, to give up on to be able to reach that, and how much devotion would that require from him, towards Sasuke, for him to want to go that far.
He felt like he wasn't ready yet. There was too much in his life right now that he didn't want to let go, and too many dreams that he wanted to pursue with every fiber of his being.
But even these dreams that kept him away from Sasuke were burdening and they hurt him every single day. Denying himself and Sasuke the fulfilment of their connection had to be the hardest thing he had ever done, a painful daily struggle.
His longing suffocated him. He wanted that life with Sasuke with such passion it burned him, but there was also his family and friends, and other things he'd promised himself he'd do, so he had to reach out for them first.
He was always ready for Sasuke, yet he wasn't ready for the whole package of what being with Sasuke brought, not right now.
But he knew he would be ready, someday. He felt like, sooner or later, his longing, his devotion to Sasuke would crush him completely and he'd give up everything for him, even if it meant that he'd be left with nothing. Knowing this, at this point, kind of filled Naruto with dread and a resentment he couldn't place. Maybe he'd always resent Sasuke for forcing him to want him more than anything else in the world. He knew Sasuke resented him for this, too and maybe, this was what made it all easier to bear.
Their bond was almost sacramental, like a religion where both were gods, yet both fanatics as well. Because they knew each other better than they knew themselves, and because no-one accepted them as freely as they accepted each other, there was a feeling of worship they couldn't avoid, even if they wanted to, only they went about it differently.
Right now, Naruto was too selfish, and so was Sasuke. Both wanted to follow their own dreams and didn't want to let go of a single thing they had, and because of that, they were not living in the same world anymore.
Would Sasuke someday be left bare, stripped of his morals, dreams and achievements, just to be with Naruto, too?
"You've gone quiet," Sasuke noticed, seriously.
Naruto shook his head from side to side with a lopsided smile. "I was just thinking about how crushing my feelings for you are," he admitted, with a shrug. "So crushing that I know it will probably destroy me at some point. It almost did, once. But… even so, I live for simple moments like these with you, and it's kind of ironic, too."
Sasuke's expression didn't change, but his aura felt suddenly heavier. "I don't think you should be here with me right now," he said, slowly. "You're already helping more than you should. You should be home with your wife and kid."
"So should you, Sasuke," Naruto countered, snorting. "Don't lecture me on what I should and shouldn't do. At least I live with my family, I'm there for them every day."
Sasuke eyed him without blinking, taking a deep, sharp breath through his nose that alerted Naruto that he had hit too close to home. He felt only slightly guilty of this, but honestly, it was frustrating to keep hearing the same nagging things repeatedly.
"You know how I feel about my life here," Sasuke said. "We're not talking about this."
"You pushed it," Naruto retorted, before huffing. "Please, Sasuke. Stop bringing my family into this. I know what I'm doing. And I already told you Hinata knows, too."
For a moment, Sasuke looked down at his glass, perfect teeth biting on his lower lip - a sight Naruto had difficulty not to find very attractive. "I'm sorry, Naruto, I didn't mean to upset you," Sasuke apologized, softly. "I'm one thing, but when it comes to you, I can't seem to detach myself from your responsibilities, even if I'm to blame for your neglecting them."
Naruto all but heaved a sigh. "How many times do you have to hear me say that I do it because I love you and want to be with you?" He gently pat Sasuke's thigh, before leaving his hand there, wondering why it was so hard to ignore the hard muscles he could feel. "Stop thinking about it so much."
"It's easier said than done," Sasuke admitted, making a perturbed face as if even he didn't enjoy his own thoughts. "Thank you, though. For going through the trouble of learning sign language just so you could teach Katsu."
"You don't ever have to thank me for anything," Naruto dismissed, knowing that his hand was lingering too long on Sasuke's thigh but pretending like he didn't notice, at least until Sasuke complained. "I was happy that you wanted to rely on me for something."
"I don't want to burden you."
"I know." Naruto smiled. "But I'm always here. I'm always with you. And Katsu-chan. Don't ever dare to think twice about coming to me for help."
Sasuke seemed to pause. His eyes lowered to the hand that was resting on his thigh, and Naruto had second thoughts about removing it at once, but became curious to see what Sasuke would do. Eventually, Sasuke's eyes rolled upwards to meet Naruto's again and he said, "Same here."
Even if Sasuke seemed completely calm and mainly motionless, Naruto detected a shift in his aura - a new vibration that was perceptible to him alone. His heart beat faster at noticing it, helplessly, and he didn't hesitate in squeezing Sasuke's thigh with more meaning now, causing dark eyes to narrow at him. "I'm spending the night here with you guys just so you know."
Sasuke took a while to answer as they stared at each other. "Fine," he agreed, after a while, his tone smooth but deceptive - a tone Naruto knew to be weary of.
He swallowed hard.
When Sasuke was like this, Naruto didn't know what to make of it. It felt like he was being evaluated, tested, and depending how well, or poorly, he did, Sasuke would react whichever way he saw fit.
Sasuke's energy was vibrant, alluring but dark right now. It tugged at Naruto's heartstrings, calling out to him, but Sasuke could move away from his own desire based on his motivations alone, so who knew what was on his mind?
But there was something in the way Sasuke was looking at him, intensely, almost unblinkingly and it made Naruto want to be daring.
It had been months since they'd seen each other, and even longer since they'd touched. Now that they were finally alone, all Naruto wanted was to close the distance.
Slowly, he dragged himself closer to Sasuke and brought his other hand to Sasuke's cheek, cupping it gently. Sasuke's eyes were sharp on him but he didn't move away. Leaning in slightly until their noses were touching, Naruto whispered a polite "Can I?"
"Mm," Sasuke acquiesced.
Naruto was very aware of Sasuke's lips parting then, willing and inviting. He swallowed hard again, excitement and relief filling him. When his mouth met Sasuke's he felt as if he was falling, adrenaline immediately coursing through him from head to toe. The kiss was deep from the very start, lips glued together almost painfully as if through them they could somehow breathe each other in, yet Sasuke made sure to keep it slow, his intent clear. Mouths moved easily, familiarly against each other, tongues meeting in languid but harsh strokes. Like this, it was possible to taste and feel everything they did. Sasuke was doing it on purpose, but for some reason Naruto still couldn't understand, he enjoyed this kind of slow torture.
Sasuke's hand came to rest at the nape of his neck and Naruto felt every hair in his body stand.
The wet, slippery sounds they made as they kissed were deliciously audible.
Gods, Naruto felt hot. He had missed this. How he had missed the simple bliss of this.
With a small nibble on Naruto's lower lip, Sasuke pulled away only enough so they could look at each other.
Naruto opened his eyes, slightly dazed, to see his friend eying him with an odd sort of seriousness. "Sasuke?"
"Do you really think that it'll destroy you?" Sasuke asked carefully, hand moving to rest on Naruto's shoulder. "The way you feel about me?"
Naruto blinked several times, just then noticing that Sasuke's energy had become contrived, both excitable and upset. "I'm certain of it," Naruto whispered.
"And you're not scared?"
"I am scared," Naruto admitted, adjusting his body so he could face Sasuke properly, caressing Sasuke's cheek tenderly. "But at the same time, I guess… this is probably what addiction does to you. You know you're falling, you know where it will lead you, yet you keep doing it because it makes sense to you."
Sasuke seemed suddenly very alert. "So, you think that, if we end up together, we'll just destroy each other?"
"When we do, we'll end up how we're supposed to," Naruto said, with an easy smile. "Maybe we're destroyed only to emerge as something new, different. Maybe we'll just end up killing each other. Maybe none of that happens and we live happily ever after."
Again, Sasuke's eyes softened. "And you're willing to go take that risk."
"Yeah." Naruto shrugged. Shouldn't these things be obvious to Sasuke? The answers came easily enough to Naruto. "I depend on you that much. There is no other way. I've made my peace with that when I chose to die with you. There is no way you'll ever go without me. "
Sasuke licked at his lips, never looking away from Naruto. "You're the only person I will ever allow to crush me in the end," he said, unexpectedly. "But even if you ever do, I won't go down without a fight. I also won't allow you to be taken down by anyone but me."
"Let's just believe that we'll be able to have our happy ending, Sasuke."
Without warning, Sasuke's lips crashed over Naruto's, now a forceful, demanding and fervent kiss.
If the energy had been agitated between himself and Sasuke just seconds before, now it seemed to explode as Naruto's heartbeat skyrocketed in surprise. Sasuke was all over the place, his desire overflowing like boiling hot lava from a volcano, washing over Naruto with its brutal, fervent force. Before he could understand exactly what was happening, Sasuke had moved to straddle his legs.
Suddenly, Naruto couldn't breathe, but he found that this sort of asphyxiation was welcomed.
At once, he hugged Sasuke's torso as his mouth instantly responded to the kiss while tongues clumsily slid over each other. Sasuke's arm was around his neck now, holding him tight as if scared he might vanish, and Naruto immediately recognized the urgency that came with the rhythmic thrust of his friend's hips over his quickly forming erection.
It had been a long time since Naruto had felt this intoxicating energy released with such open abandonment, but the message was still familiar, hitting him as clearly as if it had been shouted, and he couldn't help but let out a small pitiful whine as the intensity crushed him.
Sasuke had finally cracked and it was as fucking suffocating and wonderful as Naruto recalled. If Naruto wasn't so blinded by desire, he would've cried. He'd be damned if he'd let anything ruin it this time.
Even after so long, Naruto didn't hesitate in shoving his hands under Sasuke's t-shirt, palms possessively running over the scarred, hard skin of his back that he had so longed to possess in the last few years, earning him a soft gasp from his beloved friend. Their kiss was fast paced, wet and noisy and ungraceful but coordinated and the most delicious thing Naruto could recall tasting. Not even ramen beat this.
He was so glad he hadn't bandaged his arm.
Shamelessly, Naruto ran a path down Sasuke's back with both hands and easily slid them inside Sasuke's pants and underwear, cupping the ass cheeks there and giving them a firm squeeze. Fuck he'd missed that ass.
He pressed his mouth more to Sasuke's as he used his hands to urge Sasuke's ass to move more on top of him. Sasuke groaned a bit but adjusted himself closer, allowing Naruto's hands to guide him as he thrust his hips more forcefully. Naruto was fully hard now, feeling himself throb with lust with Sasuke's every move, those ass cheeks so perfectly cradling his cock or seemed unreal. The fact that he could feel Sasuke's obvious arousal against his navel in return due to their proximity didn't help at all.
The temperature was increasing by the second, and he could feel himself grow more anxious with every heartbeat that passed with them so intimately glued like this. This was too much, and not nearly enough. He wasn't used to this explosion of desire cascading from Sasuke anymore, and he didn't know what he was supposed to do with it because Sasuke had desired him many times before without giving in to him in the end.
"Sasuke…" he whispered anxiously against Sasuke's relentless mouth. "What are you… what is this supposed to…"
"What the fuck do you think this is," Sasuke breathed against him before pulling away slightly to look at Naruto through heavy lidded eyes. "Don't waste time second guessing, idiot."
Naruto found his voice stuck in his throat as Sasuke's lips assaulted the side of his neck in several open-mouthed kisses. He couldn't help but close his eyes and bite on his lower lip. He easily caught a whiff of the scent behind Sasuke's ear and his soft hair and almost moaned at the wave of memories, at how familiar it felt, how perfect. Was this even real? How long had it been since they'd last made love?
Another powerful thrust from Sasuke made his teeth sink harder on his lower lip. Naruto could barely breathe he was so full of sensations and emotions, so if Sasuke kept doing that he'd come in no time.
But before he could whine again, Sasuke broke the kiss. "Clothes off," he said in a whisper. "Now. We need to be quick in case Katsuo wakes up."
Damn it, why was Sasuke's bossy attitude so damn hot. Naruto had almost forgotten how annoying that was, and how absurdly horny it made him. He was sorry that he had to let go of Sasuke's ass, but he was excited enough at the prospect of some real skin to skin contact. There was no doubt in his mind that he was going to consume Sasuke whole, that much he was sure. He had no idea how things were going to unravel, but it wasn't as if he cared either way - he'd been waiting for this for years.
Removing his hands from the inside of Sasuke's clothes, instead of stripping himself, Naruto helped him take his t-shirt off first, throwing it carelessly to the side. A little frustratingly, he and Sasuke struggled together in removing Naruto's dark sweater as well. As soon as they were both topless, Naruto's hands eagerly travelled over Sasuke's body, bringing his mouth to Sasuke's chest, showering wet open-mouthed kisses all over his pecs and up towards his collarbone. He could feel small, hard nipples under his palms. Sasuke hugged him again, tilting his head to the side to willingly expose the elegant column of his neck. Naruto leaned away slightly for a moment, just so he could fully take in the man.
Sasuke's body was different now, slightly hairier, more angular here and there, harder, too, but his scent was the same, his voice, and so was the way he moved and how his skin felt. It had been far too long, Naruto thought, and yet, it felt as easy and familiar as if they'd never stopped doing this.
Yes, he and Sasuke had shared a few intimate moments at some point during the years after everything went to shit, but never like this - never with the intent to devour, to finally search for completion together. It had all been so passionate, yet so innocent in Sasuke's adamant attitude of keeping Naruto away that this - all of this - felt like a dream.
They had to be quick, but it was impossible not to want to absorb everything and take advantage of as much as he could.
Sitting on his heels, his fingertips of both hands supporting his shaky weight on the ground, Naruto watched as Sasuke nimbly moved to sit on the low table. Naruto's erection was constricted inside his clothes, so he shakily lowered the hem of his own pants and boxers to relieve the turgid member. The air hitting its wet swollen head didn't help ease the tension at all.
His lips were parted as he panted, blue eyes watching eagerly as Sasuke managed to single handedly lower his own pants and underwear and completely remove them. He kicked them aside, which left him completely naked sitting on that table. Naruto closed his mouth and gulped, feeling the dizziness of arousal clouding his head.
He knew his cock, standing proudly between his thighs and currently dripping shamelessly all over the floor, was an obvious reminder of how close he was from snapping. Sasuke knew, too, and yet, Naruto remained very still, watching the other man's every move, too scared to lose himself to make a single gesture.
His eyes roamed over Sasuke's body, again taking a few seconds to take in the naked glory of what was presented. Indeed, that body had changed and matured. Sasuke's left arm was still missing, the skin where an almost fatal wound had once been having now completely healed, unblemished. There was a darker, thicker trail of dark hair on Sasuke's navel, and even the hair in his chest was slightly more prominent now, even if he couldn't exactly be considered a hairy man. Like Naruto, Sasuke was fully hard, a pearly drop of arousal emerging from the tip of his cock.
Naruto's mouth watered.
Sasuke noticed he was being watched, so it was with obvious intent that he leaned back on the table, supporting his weight with his hand before parting his legs in a slow, almost obscene way that never in a million years Naruto would've imagined him capable of. He wondered where Sasuke could've learned that type of behavior, but before he could even feel his jealousy growing, his gaze landed on Sasuke's proud, glistering cock again and he immediately forgot all about it.
There was nothing pretty or feminine about Sasuke just then, but there was no doubt that he was fucking gorgeous.
Then, Naruto looked into Sasuke's eyes. Sasuke was breathing a little loudly, but his voice was steady when he spoke, even if whispered.
"I trust you brought what we need?" he asked, with a seductive, lopsided smirk.
Naruto could only swallow hard and nod. Not that he had been planning on anything of the sort, but he wanted to be prepared whenever he was with Sasuke, just in case. Lucky for him, this time it was going to pay off.
"Get the stuff and come here," Sasuke said, almost sweetly.
Looking around, Naruto quickly found his pants. His legs and hands were shaking as he rummaged through his pockets in search for the small packages he needed, but as soon as he found them, he closed the remaining distance between himself and Sasuke, getting on his knees in front of the table and between Sasuke's legs. It didn't take a genius to know where this was going, and Naruto was more than happy to oblige.
He couldn't quite believe that this was how Sasuke - his high and mighty Sasuke - wanted it to go.
Sasuke's eyes were intense and heavy on him. Patiently, he watched as Naruto excitedly opened the first package and expertly rolled the condom over his slippery cock. Lucky for him, despite how eager he was, these were things he'd perfected over the years, even if it was unfortunate that he hadn't been practicing with Sasuke.
Then, Naruto opened the other package, taking a deep breath to get his shit together and be more careful this time because he didn't want to get lube on the floor when it was dirty enough already. At some point, he managed to tear the package just enough to be safe and poured a bit of the substance over his hand before thoroughly coating his cock with it with easy strokes of his hand. Afterwards, he put some more only over his fingers and threw the package to the side.
Sasuke seemed amused.
"If you don't feel up to the task, I can fuck you instead," he whispered teasingly.
"I'm just about to lose my shit, but I'm perfectly able to fuck your brains out all the same," Naruto defended proudly, even if his voice quivered a bit. It wasn't as if he was nervous, but he couldn't help the overwhelming feelings he was experiencing.
The two locked eyes again silently. Sasuke leaned further back, exposing more of himself to Naruto while his legs closed around Naruto's thighs to pull him close, and all Naruto could think of was that Sasuke was fucking gorgeous and for sure the sexiest thing he knew, hands down. There was such an openness about him that was breathtaking, but also a delicateness that, oddly enough, demanded respect, devotion. He was tough, but immensely gentle as well.
Without breaking eye contact, Naruto's hands came between them, his fingers slowly descending until they found the pucker he was looking for. It had been a while, but he was confident that he still knew how to push Sasuke's buttons, and he would.
Sasuke wasn't the only one more experienced now - he too, had a new knowledge, and Naruto would make sure that Sasuke would never forget how special sex between them was. He would make sure Sasuke remembered this every single time they touched from now on.
Sasuke didn't blink, but from the way he bit on his lower lip, he could sense what Naruto was thinking. It was Naruto's turn to smirk. As he slowly and easily slid his middle finger inside Sasuke's body, he watched the display of emotions finally cross his lover's features. Sasuke wet his lips as Naruto boldly thrust the finger in and out of him, finding no resistance. Feeling it to be safe, he removed the finger and added a second one, pushing them both deeply inside the man, earning him a sharp intake of breath from Sasuke. He felt Sasuke's legs opening more, his body twitching to better accommodate the ministrations, and this was when Naruto knew Sasuke was giving him free access from here on.
Sasuke wanted him, was obviously more than ready for him, and Naruto would give him everything.
Their mouths clashed again hungrily, and Naruto decided that he would no longer hold back.
They made out for a few seconds, sloppily, before Naruto broke the kiss. Sasuke seemed slightly dazed, but Naruto said nothing, simply leaning down and quickly taking Sasuke's cock in his mouth, forcing a gasp out of his lover. Sasuke had clearly not been expecting that, but Naruto wasn't going to go easy on him. He knew they had to be quiet, but he'd make Sasuke struggle - he wanted him to come completely undone by his hands.
Of course, this was all easier said than done because as soon as Naruto felt the taste of Sasuke's lust in his tongue, his brain seemed to short circuit. This was when he realized that Sasuke still tasted the same, that his beloved still felt the same and that, fuck, he had needed all of it so damn much he could barely believe he had been so long without it.
A little out of sorts, Naruto fucked Sasuke with his fingers eagerly as he sucked the man's cock, vaguely trying to remember what he himself enjoyed and attempting to replicate it with swirls of his tongue around the engorged length. His other hand massaged with Sasuke's sac. A muffled moan could be heard, and he knew the other man was trying hard not to make a sound. Naruto wished that he could look up and see the type of face Sasuke was making - from the way his legs shook occasionally, he had to be close.
Just thinking about it made Naruto's arousal escalate. He wanted Sasuke to fall apart, to give himself completely, and he'd be damned if he was denied this.
Sasuke's ass was opening to him beautifully, receiving his fingers easily and eagerly clenching around him with every plunge. Naruto made sure his fingers fucked his ass a deeper. He hummed around Sasuke's cock as he bobbed his head up and down faster, bent on not allowing himself to be stopped no matter what, and this determination must've been felt by Sasuke, because a long hiss was followed by a strong tremor as his cock pulsed once, twice, and Naruto could only be filled with mirth at the feeling of a warm substance hitting the back of his throat. Without hesitation, he swallowed it all to the very last drop, his mind blanking out as all he could think about was Sasuke's taste, Sasuke's small, sexy shivers and the delicious clench of his pucker around his fingers - nothing else mattered. All thoughts of shame, disgust or embarrassment were thrown out the window - there was no place for mundane feelings, only the overwhelming love he felt that exposed him so shamelessly and left him devoid of any concerns for his own dignity.
In fact, Naruto himself was so destroyed right now that he couldn't help but wonder how he had managed to hold back his own orgasm.
There was nothing standing between himself and Sasuke at this point, and there was nothing they could possibly do or say to each other that would make them feel ashamed anymore. They had long since accepted each other completely, and right now, the passion they were immersed in was drowning them both.
He removed his fingers from inside of Sasuke somewhat carefully. Letting Sasuke's cock slip from his mouth, Naruto gasped and brought a wrist to his mouth so he could wipe at the excess fluids that were dripping from its corners. He felt drunk, clumsy, slightly confused in his euphoria, and yet, he barely had time to register what was happening when he noticed that Sasuke was moving again straightening up and pressing a hand to Naruto's chest to push him backwards.
Eyes wide, Naruto watched Sasuke's dark ones as he allowed himself to be motioned to lie on his back on the floor as he was straddled again. There was no elegance to Sasuke now, just urgency and a raw need that was plastered on his handsome face to make him look feral.
Mismatched eyes were focused on blue ones as Sasuke reached behind him to grab for Naruto's cock and place the tip over his entrance. Naruto's hands reached out to touch Sasuke's naked thighs and caress them as he watched Sasuke lower himself confidently until he was completely impaled - the heat surrounding him felt so good Naruto had to press his lips tight together not to let out the moan that was threatening its way out of his throat. Sasuke still felt as expectedly surreal as he had so long ago, and the sight of him was the most breathtaking thing Naruto had seen in a long time.
Forgetting such a sight was impossible, and yet, Naruto couldn't remember it being quite like this.
Lips parted and hand coming to support himself on Naruto's chest, Sasuke started to move, quickly rocking his hips back and forth with a surprising expertise that not even his impatience could disturb. His welcoming tightness was intense, causing Naruto to inhale sharply through his nose, momentarily closing his eyes at the overwhelming sensations that made his whole body shiver in pleasure. He knew he wouldn't last - and Sasuke was making sure of it, too.
A small, whispered sound left Sasuke's mouth, lustful and sensual. Naruto's hands moved to firmly grab at those perfect ass cheeks again, squeezing them possessively and feeling the precise movements as Sasuke fucked himself on Naruto's cock, his obvious hunger dripping from him like a sweet, enrapturing scent.
How could Sasuke move like that? There was no hint of anger in him, no frustration, no conflicting thoughts right now - just Sasuke, openly and carelessly giving himself into their joined pleasure without restriction or boundaries.
It seemed impossible to believe that, for years, he'd been denying them this.
In a passing thought Naruto tried to remember how many times, exactly, Sasuke had ridden him and if he'd been this good at it. Sex had always been the best between them - not to mention they had no term of comparison at the time - so it was hard to tell, but this was more mature, darker, dirtier than he remembered, and he couldn't help but wonder where his lover had learned this.
A wave of jealousy filled his heart without warning, but he tried to shut it down. Sasuke was his, he knew that. Regardless of who he fucked, he would always be his and feel with him in ways he would never feel with others, no matter how good of a lay they were.
It didn't matter. But it stung.
Feeling an almost animalistic sort of ownership, Naruto's hands travelled upwards, caressing the man's back all the way up to his shoulder blades and then forcefully pulling Sasuke down against him before swiftly rolling them over so it was him who was on his back on the floor and Naruto was the one on top.
They exchanged a silent, famished look, but Sasuke didn't say anything, instead reaching out to close his fingers around the hairs at the back of Naruto's head, his strong legs immediately wrapping around Naruto's waist in a mute demand.
With one elbow on the floor next to Sasuke's head for leverage, Naruto leaned down to capture Sasuke's lips in his in an uncoordinated kiss, automatically changing a few thrusts of his hips at the same time so he could keep fucking Sasuke.
Gods, the heat, and the way their bodies fit together was enough to make his mind fall apart and his heart break and instantly glue itself together. Sasuke's ferocious heartbeat against his. Naruto wanted this to last, but knew he was too consumed already, too filled with adrenaline, but he did his best to move slowly at first, his thrusts languid but deep.
Sasuke kissed him back with abandon, pulling him close and pulling on his hair hard. Sasuke's persistent erection cock had yet to deflate, still rock hard against Naruto's navel, giving away the fact that he was far from being done, and all of it was erotic beyond anything Naruto knew.
The perfect way he fit inside Sasuke was unforgiving. Sasuke's insides were accommodating, hugging him, easy to slide on and out of, almost as if they desperately wanted to pull him in.
If only they could fuse together once and for all maybe this didn't cause them so much despair, so much frustration because it never seemed to be enough.
Air seemed to fail to gather in their lungs. Naruto could feel the impending heat of his climax pooling in his groin, and he almost whimpered. The energy emanating from his lover was powerful, pulsating, and he was unexpectedly hit with an all-consuming desire for more, only he couldn't tell if it was his or Sasuke's, but it was rather irrelevant anyway.
There was no telling where his feelings began and where Sasuke's ended, everything a mix of confusion, love and desperation.
Breaking their kiss, Naruto pulled away only slightly so he could support his weight with one hand on the floor and create a small bit of space between their bodies. Sasuke eyed him inquisitively through heavy lids. His hair was a perfect mess, his mouth wet and swollen from their kissing. For a moment, Naruto wondered if he would finally break and lose himself until his mind blacked out.
Enthralled by him and feeling oddly sadistic, Naruto wrapped a hand around Sasuke's wet cock, avidly watching the display of emotions on the man's face as he pumped it in tempo with his increasingly faster thrusts.
"Fuck…" Sasuke hissed, voice trembling as he closed his eyes. "Ah…"
Fuck, those sounds would kill him, Naruto thought, desperately.
Sasuke's legs tightened possessively around him. It didn't take long before Naruto felt the delicious throb of Sasuke's second orgasm in his palm. He picked up a pace, the slapping sounds of their fucking echoing dangerously in the room while Sasuke's seed coated his hand at the same time that he felt his own desire spinning out of control, momentarily making him lose his balance as pleasure flooded him in unbelievable waves, making him forget everything that wasn't related to these seemingly never ending seconds.
There was nothing then, as time seemed to stand still, their bodies frozen in awed bliss, their low panting a ragged duet.
Naruto's gaze, however, had not left Sasuke's features for a single moment, and now, Sasuke's beautiful eyes looked back at him, soft and satiated but tired, yet unfaltering. He looked so decadent that Naruto could only think of him as devilishly beautiful.
How could he possibly consume Sasuke in a way that would satisfy him completely? Why was it never enough?
Forever seemed to have gone by as they slowly caught their breaths and came down from the uncontrollable dizziness that the intensity had hit them with.
Once he felt a little more in control once more, Naruto slowly relaxed his hold on Sasuke's deflating length. However, he was still feeling on edge and defiant, so he victoriously gazed at his lover and brought his dirty palm to his mouth to promptly lick at the slimy fluid there, slowly, until there was nothing left. Sasuke's eyes seemed to have gained a different hue altogether at seeing. It pleased Naruto as much as it turned him on.
If only they could always be as tuned as they were now.
Then, teasingly, Naruto allowed his cock to slid out of Sasuke to the, teasingly move his full body lower until his face was leveled with Sasuke's navel, where he proceeded to lap at the bit of semen that had fallen there. He realized that, once he'd tried the substance the first time it became very easy to keep tasting it at his own pace - it was rather addictive, maybe because it belonged to Sasuke alone. Their bond told him that Sasuke, being the sick prick, was enjoying it.
Granted, the open way Sasuke's body reacted to Naruto's dirty ministrations only made him want to go further.
"What's with the sudden fascination with sperm?" Sasuke asked huskily, his hand now petting the top of Naruto's head lovingly.
"No fascination," Naruto muttered, planting open mouthed kisses along Sasuke's belly. "I just love you so fucking much I realized I can devour every bit of you that comes."
The way Sasuke swallowed made Naruto's heart explode. He felt calmer now, less desperate, and yet, he couldn't seem to control the need that filled him. With a sigh, he buried his nose in the small bush of the dark pubes of Sasuke's sac and took a small whiff. To think he'd almost forgotten this scent.
"Desperate much?" Sasuke teased, but there was no joking tone to his voice.
"Always," Naruto said, seriously.
The way Sasuke's back arched slightly as Naruto took his cock in his mouth again was divine. If Sasuke accepted him, he would take full advantage of him and drown in their chaos for as long as he could. He'd already made Sasuke come twice; he wanted to see how much further they could go, how many more times they could go at it before the hunger was somewhat quelled.
They used to do that often when they'd been travelling together, but it seemed so much simpler back then.
Regardless of how long it took before they did this again once they parted, Naruto was adamant in making sure Sasuke would never forget it.
He would engrave their love making in Sasuke's body so he would always think about them if he ever slept with anyone else.
Of course, this was a two edged sword because Naruto himself knew how frustrated he would become when these memories assaulted him, but it would be worth it.
Lucky for him, at least this time, Sasuke was being… he couldn't call him 'submissive', but 'willing', yes. Sasuke seemed to give in, to allow his own pleasure to overcome him, finally, and he was more than eager to let Naruto drain him, because this was how it had to be. Their dynamics were still fucked up, still unpredictable, but as before, they both knew how to adapt to each other as if they were one.
Naruto wanted to offer himself, to consume and Sasuke wanted to receive, to be loved and owned. No matter how long it had passed, Naruto still knew himself to be the only person capable of giving Sasuke exactly what he needed but didn't speak out loud.
Sasuke was blissfully sensitive to Naruto now, and that was a chance to be grabbed - Naruto himself didn't think he'd take long before he'd be ready for more.
"Naruto…" Sasuke hissed as Naruto sucked him, tugging slightly at his blond hair warningly but not exactly with the intent of shoving him away. "Katsuo… we already went too far, we can't just fuck here in the open like this."
Letting Sasuke's slowly firming cock slip from his mouth, Naruto pulled away and sat on his ankles. With both hands, he performed a seal, and at once, two clones of himself - fully clothed, of course - made an appearance. With eyebrows quirked upwards, Sasuke propelled himself up on his elbow as Naruto grinned. At Naruto's head nod, both clones made their way towards the entrance of Katsuo's room. Carefully, one of them turned the knob and silently slid inside, closing the door again behind him while the other sat down on the floor, legs crossed Indian style, facing the two men in the room.
Sasuke looked back at Naruto, disbelievingly. "Are you serious?"
"Just say you don't want it and I'll dispel them," Naruto said, with a shrug of his shoulders. "We'll wash up and go to bed. Or you can just say you love me for my great ideas, and we can finally make up for all the time you left me hanging."
With a small sigh, Sasuke smirked, shaking his head from side to side. He moved into a sitting position, pressing an almost chaste kiss to Naruto's lips and yet, when he spoke, his voice was filled with want. "Never. You could've thought about this before, though, you idiot," he muttered, in an unusual affectionate tone. "But well, it's never too late. Too bad we have to be quiet because I could think of a few things to make you scream."
Naruto could only wrap his arms around him and eagerly pull him close.
TBC…
No, my beloveds it doesn't end here, but nearly twenty pages was a lot for a chapter already, right ;)
Sasuke surprised me in this chapter, but I guess we'll see his side of the situation in the next one.
I haven't written smut in a long time, and this was very difficult to put together. I kept having flashes of the scene in my head, but then those two dorks shifted the dynamics I had envisioned as I wrote and OMFG it was hard. It has been forever since I've written a sex scene between them in the fic, and everything is different now – THEY are different now – so adjusting their new, more mature selves along with their feelings was definitely an interesting challenge.
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